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Ragatha stared at the ceiling then looked to her side and saw a sleeping jester facing away from her, snoring away. Her mouth shifts into a warm smile.. then it hits her. “I had sex with Pomni.. I had…sex.. WITH POMNI?!’
She covered her face with her hands, tugging on her bonnet, pulling it down. Not only that, she basically declared her love to her. What was in her mind during that moment. Lust? Yearning? Sexual Desire? All of the above? Ragatha did not want to think about it any longer but she knew she would have to confront this eventually. ‘I need Caine to erase both of our memories..’ she thought. No. She definitely didn’t want that. She felt wrong for even thinking that.
‘I know for fact that our future will contain both of us in it. No matter where we are in the world.. we will always find each other..’
‘No matter where we are in the world..’
‘We will always find each other’
‘Find each other..’
She turned over to where Pomni was facing. Pomni was snoring away. She couldn’t help but to let out a small chuckle. She wanted to kiss her on the forehead but she didn't know how she would feel about that. They did sleep together and kissed each other a lot but they don’t know where they stand. They.. well she said she loved her but she never said it back.. ‘Maybe she didn’t hear me.. Or maybe she was scared to say it back. No.. it’s Pomni I'm thinking about, she wouldn’t be too scared to do that… would she..?’
She couldn’t help but to stare at her. Despite her loud snores and slight drools she still looks pretty cute asleep. This felt like a very odd dream. It felt like her mind was playing mind games on her.. What if what happened back there was fake. What if Pomni's feelings about her are fake. She sat up. She needed to clear her head.
She needed to clear her head so she slowly got up and grabbed her robe. She slipped it on and started heading towards the door.
“Where are you going?” a painfully tired recognizing voice asked.
Ragatha jumped and quickly turned around, “H-Hey Pomni..! I was just uhh..” She couldn’t think of an excuse fast enough.
Pomni let out a tired sigh, “Come back to bed.”
“I need to uhh..”
“Come back to bed. You need to rest.. Even though your leg is mostly healed, you still need to lay off of it..” Pomni tiredly lectured.
Ragatha looked at her, ‘How is she being so normal about this..? We just slept together and now she is back at lecturing me about my leg..’
She took a deep breath..
“What are we..?”
Pomni sat up, “What..?”
She took a deep breath again..
“What are we?”
Their eyes met each other, completely changing the atmosphere. For the first time in who knows how long they were unable to read each other.
Ragatha stammered up a couple of more sentences, “I..I.. mean we just had s%$x with each other in the bathtub and I said ‘I love you’ to you..! A-And you said our future will contain both of us in it. So what are we?!”
She waited for Pomni’s answer, though no sign or words that formed an answer.
Ragatha continued to speak, “Are we just some friends who fight each other's battles? Are we friends who have s%$#x with each other? Are we friends who act like couples?”
Pomni's expression slightly shifted, she looked more down than before.
“Are we even friends..?” Ragatha didn’t mean to say that. Of course they were friends…right?
“Friends? Are we even-? Are you for real?!” Pomni exclaimed.
Ragatha immediately wanted to take it back. “I..I didn’t mean to say that.. It's just..”
“I have been taking care of you for almost two weeks! I h-have been keeping you company, making sure you have kept weight off that leg, and even slept beside you! ‘A-Are we even friends..?’ Did you think I did all of this for you out of pity?!”
Ragatha feared for this She had feared that she would mess everything up. Words were getting caught up in her throat. She felt her world crumbling underneath her. She couldn’t breath nor could she see a light in this situation.
“I..”
“Ragatha.”
“I’m sorry..I..”
“Ragatha!”
She looked up. Pomni was still on the bed but instead she looked less angry and more concerned. Her cheek felt a bit wet. Was she crying? She touched her cheek and wiped the tears off of them.
“Come here..” Pomni said, her voice softening up.
Ragatha listened and went to the bed. She sat on the bed not looking up at her. She felt like she could drown, she wanted to drown. The room was silent, the tension thickening. No words were exchanged, just occasional sorry looks.
“I’m sorry..” Ragatha said, finally breaking the silence. “I just.. Sometimes I feel like nobody can really like me... And I know that’s a lie and just the negative part in me speaking but..” she sighed, “I don’t know. I know you like me.. I know you love me.. I just can’t grasp onto that fully yet.”
Pomni looked at her and moved her hand closer to the hers, “I do love you and I will always love you..” she paused.
Ragatha didn’t lift her head but she side eyed her hands and noticed that Pomni’s was moving closer to hers. Pomni continued, “I feel scared. I always feel scared. But when I’m with you, I feel even more scared.”
“Scared..?”
“Yes, I'm scared. I’m scared that one day my aggressive side will be too much for you to handle and you will leave.. or worse, abstract.”
Ragatha pulled Pomni into a hug and whispered, “You don’t need to worry about that..”
Pomni shakily wrapped her arms around the ragdoll. She felt tears stream down her face. “I love you Ragatha.”
Ragatha stopped hugging her when she heard those words, “I may be acting dramatic but.. Please say it again.”
Pomni let out a small chuckle, “I love you.”
Ragatha let out a small gasp, “I love you too.”
Pomni pulled Ragatha down, causing yelps and giggling to escape Ragatha’s mouth. Pomni couldn’t help but to give the ragdoll multiple kisses all over her face.
After a couple of minutes of warm embraces and kisses, Pomni knew she had to ask the ultimate question, so did Ragatha.
“Would you be my girlfriend?”
“Would you be my girlfriend?”
They both started to laugh. After many moments of failed attempts to stop laughing they finally stopped.
“I would be happy to be your girlfriend, Pomni.” Ragatha said, wiping a tear from her eye.
Pomni’s mouth formed into a warm smile, “And I would be happy to be yours.”
They shared a kiss again. This time the kiss was the celebration of them being loved by each other.