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Jungkook hated parties.
Everything about it.
From the grinding people to the overflowing cups filled with alcohol.
Everything.
Jungkook seriously had no idea what he was doing there. For the past week he didn't look forward to the weekend because he didn't want to go. Sadly the days didn't last long enough and where filled with work, studying or playing Overwatch with Taehyung. And without even realizing it, it was already Friday.
Still there he was, standing in the corner of a living room, with a beer in his hand. Jimin was talking to some friends and Yoongi was "dancing" with Hoseok. Dancing as in swinging his arms in the air while shoving his hips from right to left in a comical way while Hoseok was laughing at him.
He thought Jimin wanted him to come so he wouldn't be alone but when they arrived, their friends were already there.
"I didn't know Yoongi-hyung and Hoseok-hyung would be here too." Jungkook said as they walked upstairs and Jimin shrugged.
"Me neither." He had said and Jungkook just nodded.
At least some familiar faces in that wild crowd.
Too wild for Jungkook.
There were way too many underage teens walking around, most of the girls were giggling in the corner every time a good looking guy walked past them or already making out with someone. On the other side the guys were either drunk or testing who the biggest macho was.
Some people stayed in their own little groups just like he did.
Well, just like he wanted.
He looked around once again and saw Jimin laughing at something someone said. Taking another sip from his beer, he sighed and leaned his back against the wall. Jimin joined another conversation and Jungkook wondered how many people he knew and why everyone wanted to talk to him.
Jungkook was like a little puppy, he needed attention. But he didn't get it so he pouted in the corner like a real adult would do.
Ten minutes later Jimin noticed his face and walked over to him with a grin. "Sorry, Kook. There were some people I had to talk to."
"Hm, I noticed. Hyung, why did you want me to come with you?" Jungkook asked and Jimin raised an eyebrow.
"Because I wanted to spent time with you?"
"But I don't like it...here."
"I know and I'm sorry but the guy who planned the party is an old friend of mine so I kinda had to go. I just didn't want to come alone and I really didn't know they would be here." Jimin said and pointed at Yoongi and Hoseok who were filling up their drinks. Beer for Yoongi and sprite for the lightweight.
"Do I know him?" Jungkook asked and looked around once again but didn't see a familiar face.
"Eh, no. He was in my first dance class when I was still in high school. He studies at the same college as Hoseok-hyung."
"I see." Was all Jungkook could say because he didn't really like the fact that Jimin had friends he didn't know. Call him selfish or overprotective but Jungkook thought he knew everything about his best friend but in the past few days he realized that it wasn't true. But he just locked the thought away.
Jimin stayed by his side for the rest of the night, occasionally talking to some random people or forcing him to dance with him but he didn't mind it. He did however mind the stares people gave Jimin while he danced. Jungkook was stupid but he wasn't blind. He knew that his best friend was good looking and had a bubbly personality combined with a heart of an angel. But the people that were looking at him didn't look because of his personality. They were staring at him with lustful eyes, like he was a prey and Jungkook hated it even more than being there.
Maybe it was the alcohol or the way Jimin giggled as he hugged him but Jungkook wanted to punch them all for staring at HIS best friend like that. So he danced with him like crazy and followed him around the whole time, too afraid that some asshole or some drunk bitch would grab him and lock him away. Maybe he was a bit drunk because he didn't give a single fuck when he glared at every face that came to close to them.
Jimin didn't notice, only smiled at him and talked to him and stayed with him.
Jungkook was the winner and those losers could back off.
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As the morning came, Jungkook woke up feeling not as bad as he thought he would. He had a light headache and his neck hurt a bit but considering that he didn't drink as much as he did in a long time, he felt great.
Jimin was lying next to him, still asleep and hugging the blanket. Jungkook smiled at him as he got out of his bed and walked to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror he noticed that he looked worse than he felt. His hair was disheveled and there was a stain on his shirt that looked like cola or whiskey.
There was also a bruise on his chin and he remembered tripping on the way to his apartment. Jimin was worried but Jungkook just laughed it off. He shook his head and sighed. This is why he didn't like alcohol. He took a shower and disinfected the little wound in his face. Walking back to his bedroom, in a towel because the shower wasn't planned, he hoped that Jimin was still sleeping.
It was stupid, really. Jimin saw him in his underwear before when they were younger and they only stopped undressing in front of each other when they got older (or when Jungkook realized that he was gay and didn't want to make other people feel uncomfortable) but Jungkook was shy and didn't want to scare his best friend at ass o'clock in the morning.
Sadly, Jimin was not sleeping anymore. For a minute Jungkook thought his brain stopped working but when Jimin waved his hand in front of his face he blinked again. "Huh?"
"I said good morning, Kook."
"Uh, morning."
Jimin chuckled and shook his head. "Wow...you worked out without me, huh?" He said as he looked at Jungkook, who blushed like a teenager because could he not?
"Yeah, I did. Sorry?"
Jimin just quirked an eyebrow at him but didn't say anything as he walked to the bathroom. Jungkook sighed in relief and put on some clothes. Why was he so awkward?
Shaking his head he walked to the kitchen and looked into the fridge. He was hungry.
He prepared some breakfast and waited for Jimin to come out. He did a few minutes later and sat down. "Thank you, I'm really hungry."
"No problem, hyung. How do you feel?"
"Good. I didn't drink that much. How is your chin?" Jimin asked and stuffed some rice in his mouth.
"Ah..it stings a bit but nothing to worry about."
Jimin nodded and they ate in silence afterwards. Later they played some games until Jimin had to go home to study a bit.
Jungkook plopped down on his couch and sighed. He felt weird again. Not sick, not hurt just weird. It felt like something was in front of him but he didn't see it and it confused him.
He opened the blog again and smiled as he saw that a new lesson was updated but he couldn't read it just yet. He was only at lesson 13.
Because he was too busy in the past few days, his laptop was only used when he had to do some research for his classes, but now that it was Saturday he could spend some time doing nothing and reading a bit.
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Lesson 13: Why the hell am I single?
a.k.a Everyone is dating
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Young adults.
That's what we call ourselves because we aren't high school students anymore.
Still kids at heart but now that we have responsibilities no one cares anymore.
Most of us left their hormones at home after winning the battle of constant pinning and crushing on random people.
Now the time has come for real love ﾟ･:*｡(ꈍᴗꈍ)ε｀*)~｡*:･ﾟ
Wait
That's bullshit.
Dating ? Yes
One nigh stands? Maybe
Love? Hell no
While teenagers want first dates, first kisses and talk about their crushes non-stop, college students/young adults want attention, sex and attention.
To be honest most of them don't even want a real relationship or fall in love.
Heck, they are way too afraid of it
But how come all of our friends are in relationships suddenly?
Some of them have a new one every month while some last longer...
And you?
You are still looking at your best friend like always.
Now we have a few options:
1. Run after them like you're used to do
2. Do relationships and maybe find someone else?
3. Go to church and stay abstinent
While option 2 sounds wrong, it will be the most logical to you even though it is really wrong.
Yeah, maybe The One will be behind a closed door that you will open after you dumped your best friend in a dumpster but what are the odds?
Option 1 sounds terrifying BUT if your honest to yourself it will be the best choice.
Because lying to yourself is never good!
Option 3 is...
Anyway.
While all your friends are dating and you ask yourself "What is wrong with me" Or "Am I that ugly", your best friend is either 1. dating someone too or 2. not dating at all.
Both options don't really help you because they ain't dating you so who cares? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
You do, like always.
Your friends are enjoying their lives with their boyfriends/girlfriends, one night stands or whatever suits them better.
If you don't mind staying single, the best thing you can do is study, have some fun and depending on your income you even have to work.
Or find yourself a sugar daddy...
You do you, I guess
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IAmAFailure over and out.
Bye~
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Attention, sex and attention.
Somehow those words lingered in Jungkooks mind more than they should.
He thought about his friends and then about the people he met in his classes or at work. Some of them were in a relationship or just started a new one while some others were happy enough if they had some fun at a party. But it was true.
Most of them didn't talk about love or commitment, no, they all just wanted to be loved without actually feeling it. Seokjin and Namjoon were the only couple he knew, that stayed together for longer than three months and they really were in love with each other.
Jungkook thought it was sad how the people around him jumped into relationships without thinking about the consequences.
Taehyung for example dated people he found interesting but only agreed on a relationship when he was 100 percent sure about it. However it only happened once and turned into a disaster when the guy cheated on him.
But his co-workers and classmates? They talked about different interests all the time. Some of them even dated more than one person at the same time but it was "okay" because it wasn't serious.
If Jungkook had a relationship he wanted it to be real, romantic and without being afraid that the person would leave him for a better option.
But Jungkook didn't have one so he wouldn't know.
He wasn't sad about it tho. Between work, studying and hanging out with his friends there wasn't much time left for dating and meeting new people and if he had to be honest he wasn't really interested either.
And even if he was, who would date him?
Jungkook wasn't ugly, he knew that but he didn't consider himself as "boyfriend material". He didn't know how to be romantic and was to blind to see if one of his friends had a crush on someone.
He was dense, awkward and gay with zero dating experience.
Some girl in his art class once asked him out but he declined, saying that he wants to focus on his studies and she wasn't mad about it. However she suddenly talked about Jimin, that she was afraid to ask him out because she thought they were dating and Jungkook was very much confused.
Jimin was his best friend, nothing more nothing less.
Even though Jungkook was sad about the fact that Jimin didn't talk to him about everything, he trusted him with his whole body and mind. Dating him would be weird, or at least that's what Jungkook thought. Plus in Jimin's eyes, Jungkook was like a little brother, his puppy.
Jungkook was sure that Jimin would never be interested in him, or someone like him.
Because Jimin deserved someone so much better.
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Taehyung was many things, but he was not stupid.
Even though people tended to believe that he was not the smartest person, he was indeed a genius in his own way.
School wasn't easy for him and his grades were never good enough to shine, only good enough to pass. He was bored, liked to daydream and wasn't good in concentrating when he didn't like the subject.
However, even when his teachers told him that he wasn't good enough in school, his social skills where on another level.
Jimin and Jungkook weren't his only friends in school. He knew everyone and (almost) everyone liked him. He was a master in small talk and always knew what he wanted to say.
Taehyung was able to read people's expressions, felt their worries and saw how their eyes changed when someone else walked into the room.
He knew if people were friends, lovers or if they hated each other, without asking them.
He knew everything.
When Taehyung met Namjoon and Seokjin, they were already dating each other for ten months. At first he didn't want to believe it because the way they acted and talked to each other screamed "we just had our first date".
A few weeks later he knew them well enough, to see that they were way too cautious with each other. Holding hands, little pecks and hugs, nothing more. Taehyung saw that both of them were frustrated with their situation but no one dared to make the first step.
So he talked to them, gave them a little push and told them that it is okay to take the next step after ten months. One week later they went out with their minds set on something new and since then it was hard to visit them without seeing something you defiantly didn't want to see.
Next case.
Hoseok and Yoongi.
Taehyung knew Yoongi nearly as long as Jimin. He met him when he was still in kindergarten and they became friends in elementary school. Yoongi would never admit it but he had a big soft spot for Taehyung and they grew up like brothers. (Especially because both of their families came from Daegu.)
He met Hoseok years later, when Yoongi had to repeat a class in middle school and they became friends. At first he only saw Hoseok when he came over to visit Yoongi, who had to watch over eleven years old Jimin and Taehyung.
They became friends as they grew older and Hoseok was always a part of their group.
After Yoongi's weird relationship and their fight, Taehyung saw that something had changed between them, but he was too young to understand it.
Shortly after Hoseok graduated high school, he had another crisis with Yoongi. One day Taehyung was with him, to cheer him up. Hoseok didn't tell him much but he already guessed why Hoseok acted like that and confronted him. He found out that Hoseok had feelings for Yoongi and it wasn't easy for him.
Taehyungs only problem was, that Yoongi was hard to read.
He didn't show his feelings like Hoseok did and treated him like he treated Jimin. It was hard to tell how he felt.
Even after two years, Taehyung had no idea how to solve it.
Worst case.
Jimin and Jungkook.
Taehyung and Jimin were friends since he was able to talk and he honestly thought that he knew everything about his best friend.
When Jungkook joined their circle of friends, Jimin showered him with affection and praise. When they got older, Jimin didn't stop doing it but he started to get more quiet and reserved. His love for Jungkook was cute but Taehyung wasn't sure if it was platonic or romantic.
Well, after all those years he already knew the answer. Jimin never really talked about it, but Taehyung wasn't stupid and knew his best friend almost as good as he knew himself. He often saw him crying when they were younger and even without asking him, he knew the reason. He wanted to help him but he wasn't in the position to do so and he couldn't blame Jungkook either.
Jungkook was his best friend since middle school and he loved him like you would love a little brother. They had similar interests and hobbies and were like twins with an age gap of two years. But as much as he loved him, he also wanted to hit him. Hard.
Taehyung saw Jungkook's feelings develop when the younger one was about sixteen years old. He suddenly acted weird around Jimin, didn't want to hug him anymore and sometimes even tried to ignore him. Taehyung was 99 percent sure that Jungkook had a crush on him but never said anything. A few weeks later, Jungkook told him that he was gay and
Taehyungs predictions were very much confirmed.
But a few months later, Jungkook acted "normal" again and Taehyung was confused.
He was still sure about his thoughts, that Jungkook had feelings for Jimin, but Jungkook didn't act like it anymore. He cuddled with Jimin, spend time with him and never backed out, even when Jimin hugged him for hours.
So he made a plan, a plan to see if Jungkook did have feelings or not. Taehyung knew about the blog because a friend of him talked about it. He didn't believe that Jungkook would take it serious but he thought that it could help him, even if only a little bit.
Two weeks after Jungkook started, Taehyung saw a change in him. Not a big one, sadly, but it was enough. He started to question his thoughts and feelings, which was good. What surprised Taehyung a lot, was that Jungkook asked him if he had a crush before. Taehyung was still sure about the fact that Jungkook had a crush on Jimin, so why would he ask him? So he came to the conclusion that Jungkook repressed his feelings for Jimin when he was younger.
It wasn't only a prediction, in Taehyungs eyes it was the solution.
But he didn't want to go to him and tell him the truth, to afraid that he would confuse his best friend even more.
No, he had to wait.
Because Taehyung was 100 percent sure that Jungkook was in love with Jimin and no one could change his mind.