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Keith Kogane has always had a potential devalued by his bad behavior.
I knew he had potential and that he just needed someone to be with him. Advising you.
Something pulled me close to Keith. And we became friends. Brothers.
And when I needed him. He crossed the Universe to find me and to be by my side. Saved me. He saved me just for helping him.
It was incredible all the things Keith did for me. And sometimes I don't think I deserve a brother like him. Sometimes I blame myself for pulling him into it.
After all, if I hadn't done that ... I wouldn't be here now.
If I had just ignored it like everyone else ... Keith wouldn't be dead now.
He would not have died.
It's not your fault.
I can't help but smile bitterly at the voice that whispers in my head. A memory of him.
He was my little sister. I should have protected him. Not dragged you into a war like mine is. I wish I had talked to you more. You know.
It hurts so much. Emotional pains are easily worse than physical pains. After all, time in the arena taught me that. The injuries and physical pain disappear with time. But memories and fractures in the soul do not. They are still there.
And none of them hurt as much as the pain of losing a brother.
Keith was one of the people I loved the most in life. He saved me even when I gave up.
And I did not do the same. I didn't even notice when he went away.
- I'M SO SORRY! - I screamed. My chest burned and I felt shortness of breath dominate my body. But I was still there crying and snarling at Keith's dead body. - THIS IS ALL BLAME MY ...
- Shiro ... - Allura calls me. - We have to take the body from here ...
- You have to revive him ... - I snarled and got up going to her. - YOU HAVE TO GIVE IT A WAY !! I pointed an arm at Keith while crying. - Please...
- Shiro ... The damage was great ... I don't know if we can remake the body ... And it's been a long time ... I can't ... I can't ... - She explains taking a step before swallowing dry. - He was also important to me ...
I looked at her for a few seconds in silence. I still felt tears blur my vision.
I was surprised when a laugh tore at my throat.
Allura looked at me startled.
- Shiro ... I ... I'm sorry. - she gives another pass back.
- I was sorry? Was it also important to you? Who are you trying to kid? Everyone here knows that you are not the same with Keith since he found himself part of the crowd. You never really cared about him since that time. You just let him get away ... You didn't object to letting him out of the team. After all, you didn't want a Galra in the team, did you? - I said after finishing laughing bitterly. - You don't really care about any of us.
- Leave her alone Shiro. - Hunk says, I hadn't even seen him there. - She's not to blame for anything. It was an accident. And maybe it was better that way ... - Hunk whispers. - I have to tell you a few things ... But I think you better rest and take a shower ...
- I'm not leaving Keith's side. - I scolded and went back to throw myself on the floor.
- He's not here anymore Shiro ... - I hear Hunk sobbing. - But do it for him ... Be strong ... Just this once more ... He still needs you ... We need you. We are together. We will try to overcome this however difficult it may be.
I'm tired of being lucky.
I'm tired of having so many responsibilities.
I'm getting married to fight.
- If not for us ... Do it for Keith. He would do it for you.
Keith would do for me ... Of course he would.
I looked at your body once more. And I took the cold, bruised hand.
- I'll get things right, little brother ... - I promised and got up. I looked at Hunk who was crying as usual ... But for the first time it didn't make any noise.
- Coran and the others will take care of him ... Get some rest ... I'll supervise everything for you now ... Go ahead. - To where? I just want to go where Keith is alive.
I went to my room and nobody stopped me or asked anything. Allura said nothing. And he didn't even try.
When I got there I went to my room. I broke everything I found while screaming and crying until my vocal cords stopped.
I went into the bathroom and cried while taking a shower.
My whole body ached. From the tip of the foot to my head. Inside and outside. Everything hurt and reminded me of Keith.
I fall on the bed still crying.
I'm sorry Keith.
I should have caught you.