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With this… I can finally have a new life without Levi.
Thump
There’s a slight feeling in my chest for a moment when this thought running through my mind.
A heart aches…? For leaving Levi?
No, I must be feeling sad because I leave my friends behind.
I shake my head from these weird feelings and thoughts. I try to drawn myself away in music in this long journey.
It’s been two years since then and I definitely sure there’s something wrong with me. I keep having a feeling there’s something missing but I can’t really guess what that thing is…
Is it my friends? Sure I miss them, but I don’t think that’s what I’m missing right now… it’s something much more important and precious to me.
I gradually forget about those weird feelings on the third year, when I start dating Annie Leonhardt. She got something in her that somehow I longed for… even though she had a cold blue eyes, she’s actually a warm person once you got to know her better. She may acting stern, stiff, and ignorant but she’s a nice and kind person inside.
I always thought that I finally found someone that I’ve been looking for. The feeling a little different but it’s still a nice feeling. That is until she mention something six months later…
“Eren, we need to talk.” She whisper before pulling back and gesture me to come with her.
“Alright, what is it An?” I asked.
She stared at me uncertainly for a moment without saying anything and I wait patiently for her to answer.
“We should break up.” She said suddenly.
I choke in my breathe the moment she said that.
“Wait, what? Why? Did I do something wrong?” I asked in panic.
“No, Eren, you haven’t done anything.” She shook her head.
“Then why-”
She abruptly raised her hand to cut me.
“I’ll explain” she looked at me seriously then I nod my head in defeat, signaling I won’t talk anymore.
She lowered her hand and then her head. It’s another moment of silence until she sighed and look back up to me.
“You’ve been really nice to me Eren, kind and loving toward me… but I don’t think your feelings are for me Eren. You said my name and look me in the eyes but you don’t really see me.”
She stopped talking and looked down once again. I walked closer and pulled her for a hug. She let me hold her and we stay like that for a moment until she pushed me away, her hands still clinging on my shirt.
“I like you Eren, but I’m not the one you’re having feeling on…” her blue eyes full of sadness the way they stare into mine. “I’m not that person you’re looking for.”
She reached up and gave me a chaste kiss before turn away.
“You see that person in me but I still am not that person.” She said shortly and started to walk and leave me behind.
I feel terrible for not feeling anything after all of these things that just happen… I don’t even feel sad!
It’s not her that I love but it’s someone else? I don’t even know who is this someone else!
Thump
There it goes… another slight of ache feeling in my chest that I haven’t feel in a long time. Maybe I do feel sad about losing Annie. It can’t be because of anything else… right?
Time pass and before I know it, it’s already the day of my graduation. Both my parent come and already went back already to my apartment while I still hang around with my friends.
“Hey, Eren! There’s someone looking for you in the back of old hall building!” shout a male with reddish brown head.
“Sure, thanks!” I replied and excuse myself from others to meet this person who’s looking for me.
I arrive at the hall building to see no one there. Well, he did say “in the back of old hall building”… I sigh and move around to the back of the building. Still no one…
“Strange… did he just tricking me?” I say to myself.
I turn around to see… a familiar raven hair and a piercing steel grey eyes looking at me.
“Congratulation on graduating, Eren.” He smiles briefly.
I freeze in my place, looking at the person before me with wide eyes.
It can’t be… it’s not the fear that I always thought I would feel if I ever see him. I actually have a nostalgic feeling inside me when I see him again.
“I feel a little sad though, you didn’t invite me.” He begins to walk toward me. “I miss you a lot Eren, don’t you know I’ve been searching for you all this time?”
He stops a few inches before me and slam his fist the wall behind me, close to my head, making me flinch.
“4 years Eren… I’ve been looking for you for 4 years!!” he screams and glares darkly at me.
“Do you enjoy hurting me Eren? Don’t you love me? I know you love me, so why did you leave me!?”
His hand slowly creeps to my neck.
“Eren… Eren… Eren…”
He chants my name and giving a squeeze to his grip in my throat. My hands instantly gripping and pulling at his hand away, but it’s useless… he’s stronger than me.
“Eren… did you forget?” he tilts his head to the side “that I’d kill you if I can’t have you? There’s no point to live if you’re not by my side.” He frowns at me.
I shake my head as much as his grips allow me to. Tears dripping down my face before I know it…
He found me… he actually found me… will he kill me for running away from him just like he said he would?
“Why are you crying Eren?” his expression getting softer, he release his hand around my neck and move to cup my face and he wipes my tears with his thumb.
“Do you feel happy to see me so you cry?” he smiles “I’m happy to see you too Eren and I won’t lose sight of you again. I won’t let you go Eren.”
I feel my lips stretch to form a smile. My hands reached out to him before I even realize it, circling around him and pulling him for a hug. I buried my face in his shoulder.
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…” I whisper again and again.
Levi quickly returned my action and wrapped his arms around my hips. He peppered my face with kisses then nestled his head in the crook of my neck.
“That’s right Eren, you should only love me… you should only have feelings for me.”
He mumbled to my neck then he raised his head to whisper next to my ear.
“I’ll forgive you this time Eren, but if you ever try to run again…”
He nibbled my ear playfully before biting down harshly. His teeth pierce through the skin, making me flinch in pain. There’s a warm liquid trailing down my neck and Levi licked apologetically on the wound he just created.
“I might kill you myself for real when I found you.” He whispered.
“I won’t… run again.” I said above whisper.
“Good” he pulled back away to show me his wide grin before he leaned down to kiss me hungrily which I responded equally greed as he is.
We both pulled back for the lack of air having both of us panting while staring at each other. Levi pressed his forehead into mine without breaking the eye contact.
“You’re mine Eren, you know that?” he said.
I keep staring at his steel grey eyes before I close my eyes.
“Yes… I’m yours Levi.”