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So. I have the absolute shittiest luck in the gobtdamb WORLD.
My dumb ass has been saving all of this story on one word document, with a couple others for notes and stuff. I figured, hey, it's just easier to do it that way.
(Can you already see where this is going?)
I was working on doing some revisions and writing the new chapter about... oh, yesterday, but I've been writing off and on all week. (got hit with bad writer's block, I'm SO sorry) And everything was doing fine, absolutely dandy, maybe just a bit of lag between spaces bc it's 2000+ words and I can't fault word for chunking a little. I'd had a beautiful scene written out, some quality dialogue that I was so excited to share, overall what I thought to be a great chapter for someone whos been stressed out, uninspired, and unmotivated all week.
When I opened the doc up today, that entire scene was gone. Wiped off the document. I've gone through past saves, recoveries, everything I can think of, and haven't been able to get it back. Hell, even my revisions (about chapters 3-7 I wanna say) had all been deleted too, so I'm left with the stuff that makes me sigh deeply and mentally punch last year's me.
"But Match," you say, with good reason, "It's just one scene and some edits on older chapters! You can always go back and re-do it. It's not like the whole document got wiped."
And, yeah, I agree with that. I very well can go back and add those revisions in again, and it wouldn't be too much effort to go back and finish the current chapter.
A great theory. But in practice? Let's see, I have a week-long camp on Monday, various events in the week after, and I can't write for shit in the daytime bc I'm normally too busy or too distracted. Even with school out now, I can't catch a break!
I'm sorry, that sounded whiny of me.
Overall, I'm just... tired. I love this story with my whole heart and DEFINITELY will not be abandoning it, but seeing my work get wiped away like that when I've been worrying so hard over getting this chapter out and then trying to get back on a one-week schedule like before is a bit disheartening.
I'll do my best to try and get things done when I can, maybe even start a new document so it doesn't do this again, but if updates are sporadic for a while...... you'll know why.
Again, I'm really and truly sorry for doing this to anyone who reads this. I had such a strong start, and now that I'm reaching the build of the climax, it feels like everything's just slipping away. Hopefully I can be back soon with new chapters and improved old ones. I don't want to leave this story unfinished.
Thank you so so SO much for understanding and putting up with my BS,
- MatchstiQs.