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Wylan felt out of place. He wasn't sure what had possessed him to take Inej up on her invite to the party. He hated parties. He didn't know anyone and wasn't sure what exactly he was supposed to be doing. Inej had abandoned him as soon as they arrived, not that he could blame her for wanting to spend time with Kaz over him. Without anything else to do, he took a couple shots and wandered.
After his third or so rotation of the floor, Wylan finally saw someone he knew that wasn't otherwise occupied. Jesper stuck out like a sore thumb. He had a slight frown on his handsome face and was typing furiously on his phone. Wylan cut through the crowd toward him, swaying slightly (those shots were starting to take effect).
"Jesper," he slurred. Maybe that last shot had been a mistake. "You look nice tonight. Well, you always look nice, but especially tonight!" By some miracle, Wylan wasn't blushing. Rambling? Yes, but no flush crept up his neck.
"Wylan," Jesper looked startled and faintly annoyed as if he wished he was talking to anyone but Wylan. "Um, hey."
Wylan wasn't quite sure how to respond to that. He was confused about why Jes was acting like this. He had been so nice up until now. Though, he had been a bit weird at tutoring the day before.
Wylan was drunk, he was a mess, he was feeling impulsive. And so, he made what may have been the worst decision of his short life. Wylan pushed up onto his tiptoes and pressed his lips to Jesper's.
"Holy shit!" Wylan stumbled back. Now he blushed. He could feel his face and neck turning cherry red. "I'm so fucking sorry! I'm drunk and acting stupid, and I shouldn't have done that. I'm so sorry!"
Wylan's flush grew progressively deeper as he stuttered out his apology. Jesper was frozen. Not knowing what else to do, Wylan turned and began to walk away.
"Wait," Wylan felt a hand grab his arm. He spun around, and Jesper kissed him.
The kiss was fireworks. It felt like all was right in the world like nothing could go wrong. It felt right in a way that few things in Wylan's life had.
Jesper pulled away too soon. It left Wylan feeling empty like he had lost a piece of his soul that he had only just discovered. All he wanted was to kiss Jesper again.
"Wylan," Jesper said softly. It shocked Wylan into reality. A reality in which that kiss was a mistake. What Wylan had told Jesper about his dad had been accurate, but it wasn't the only reason. Wylan knew that Jesper was way too good for him; he didn't want to bring Jesper down. The boy was a firecracker; he was an explosion of light and life that Wylan could only ruin.
"I'm sorry, this was a mistake. Please forgive me." Wylan spun around and practically ran out of the Lantsov manor.
Wylan was blocks away from the party before he slowed enough to think. He came to the realization that he had no idea how to get home. Resigned, he pulled out his phone to text Kuwei.
Chemistry idiots
wylan: can you pick me up
wylan: i was at a party
wylan: now im lost
wylan: and i can't read street signs so i don't know where i am
wylan: [IMAGE ATTATCHMENT]
wylan: that is the street sign
kuwei: omw
kuwei: hold on wy ill be there in a sec
kuwei: did you get in ok?
kuwei: youre sure you don't want to stay with me
wylan: yah i'm fine
wylan: and i'm sure
kuwei: ily bestie
wylan: ily too
jes, wy
jes: wy?
jes: ru ok?
jes: did i do something wrong
jes: wy?
jes: im sorry
jes: just please talk to me
inej, wylan
inej: wylan?
inej: jesper is worried
inej: he wont tell me what happened
inej: but he's really worried
inej: he really likes you
inej: he just isn't great at feelings
inej: i'm sorry about whatever he did, and i'm sure he is too
inej: just know we are here for you
inej: all of the crows are
rich bois
lantsov: wylan
van eck: what niko
lantsov: im surprised you responded
lantsov: your friends said that you werent responding to them
van eck: i don't want to talk to them
lantsov: fair
lantsov: theyre annoying af
van eck: its not like that
lantsov: what then?
van eck: its jesper
lantsov: what did he do
van eck: he didn't do anything
lantsov: then what?
van eck: we kissed
van eck: i really like him
van eck: but im not enough
van eck: he couldn't be happy with me
van eck: if being with me is even what he wants
van eck: i could just be another conquest
van eck: i wouldn't blame him, im not worth it
lantsov: thats a lot to unpack
lantsov: but wylan
lantsov: you are enough
lantsov: if anything, hes not good enough for you
van eck: thanks niko
van eck: i feel a little better
lantsov: go get him <3
jes, wy
wy: hi
wy: im sorry
wy: i shouldn't have done that
wy: and i shouldn't have run out after
jes: its ok
jes: i liked it
jes: well not the running away part
jes: why did you leave
jes: did i do something
wy: no
wy: its not you
wy: its my dad
wy: he will freak
wy: and maybe disown me
wy: or kick me out
jes: is he really that bad?
wy: he isn't great
wy: but he is my dad
jes: some dad
jes: your mom?
wy: she's dead
wy: my stepmom is nice but she's basically my age
jes: well figure it out, ok
jes: im texting kaz now