the summer hikaru died
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Heliotrope by Waiting_for_a_sunny_day
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
28 Nov 2025
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“Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”
Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.
“It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”
He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.
“Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.
“Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”
It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.
But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.
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- Part 1 of Heliotrope AU
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nothing hurts like memory by urchn
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
16 Mar 2026
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after the summer festival, yoshiki starts writing down every difference between the dead boy he loved and the thing still wearing his face.
it’s supposed to help him remember. it’s supposed to keep grief from turning him stupid. instead, it turns into something uglier: a record of every gesture, every almost-touch, every moment hikaru becomes too much like himself or too much like the one yoshiki lost.
then hikaru finds it.
and if memory is one kind of violence, being seen back might be another.
or: yoshiki tries to keep grief and desire in separate boxes and discovers neither of them listens.
Bookmarked by maybe_eeko
22 Apr 2026
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heat shimmer by m_andem
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
08 Mar 2026
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"For just a moment, ‘Hikaru’ wondered what it would feel like to let his insides out, to sink into the soft flesh and individually caress the multitude of cells teeming with warmth and vitality. It was tempting—terribly so—but ‘Hikaru’ figured he should ask Yoshiki before doing something like that. Yoshiki still got a little jittery whenever ‘Hikaru’s’ insides came out.
As much as ‘Hikaru’ liked being inside Yoshiki, there was something just as nice about being able to hug Yoshiki from the outside."
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'hikaru' doesn't really understand humans or what love is supposed to look like.
however, he knows he loves yoshiki, and he wonders if that's enough.
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"You don't deserve to feel of devotion of guilt," (Not while it's my fault) by ku1naluhvs
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
12 Oct 2025
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"Even though there's always a part of me with you, I can't help but want you all to myself, Yoshiki. Ain't it selfish?"
Hikaru croaked slightly, eyes flicking up to meet mine through my curtain of dark bangs. I could only clench the small, hard mishappen object through my shirt pocket. It felt strange, knowing that was a part of him. I was the reason he was so weak right now, and was losing control of himself.
If only I had trusted him from the beginning.
My hand comes up, hesitant before threading through the fluffy white locks of hair, which 'Hikaru' gladly leans into.
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Only look at me by D3ru
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
08 Dec 2024
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Looking at Yoshiki the way he is right now, ‘Hikaru’ is certain he would never allow anyone else to see or do anything like this to him.
“Y'know, Yoshiki…you're mine, right? Ya wouldn't do this with anyone else?”
Something dark is laced in ‘Hikaru's’ voice, something uncanny.
“Never…don't worry. I don't think I could have what we have with…anyone.”
He swallows, knowing that there's no going back on his word.
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'Hikaru' fears he will never understand the different ways humans love, but he wants to learn. Naturally, the best way to figure out his feelings is to take Yoshiki out on a date.
Yoshiki, still coming to terms with his own desires, underestimates what he's in for.