Hi sooooo I don't know if it's really ok to do this considering I'm on ao3 rn but if it's fine with u I'd like to share my experience in this type of similar situation that I may or may not still be in.
To start things if you reply you can call me Aubrey now in my middle school year (yeah it's always middle school) I thought that all of my friend were amazing and there would be no trouble because we were all mature and older now. Well it started when I was actually explaining the basis of Digimon Frontier (ironic right) when I heard my best friend -who was the 2nd person to go up to me when I transfered there- say the words "yeah Aubrey's not good at anything" which ofc kinda hurt they then continued to go on the rant. Which did not end until I finally snapped in P. E because a person who was my everything was agreeing with them and even told then about how I got yelled at by my family because I couldn't make instant mashed potatos without messing up in some way. So now I'm still friends with those people but it's gotton worse. I take counseling now though whenever the topic is brought it's more over the fact that it's 'funny' how much our trama has effected us rather than we need help because we we're not at a good place once upon a time and it's effected us this severely. I don't know what to do because the one friend I have that isn't constantly making fun of me is in a different grade level than me.
I totally understand. Honestly, I’m proud of you. Even if it hurt to do that, you stood up to them and didn’t just sit there and take it. I’m a little scared to try and respond through here since text doesn’t always convey emotions correctly, but I’m going to anyway. I also think it’s a brave thing you’re doing now by talking about it here.
And yeah, it is funny how people often say these things make us stronger, but the only thing it has done for me and most likely you is give us trust issues. The situation regarding the friend in the grade above you, I suggest just trying to keep in contact. When I was in high school, I had no friends that were my age. As a freshmen all my friends were seniors sophomores and juniors. So we exchanged contact information and just keep in contact. I’m now 22 and still talking to a few of them, mostly due to the fact that I recently have made my social circle much smaller after that incident with my ex-best friend and have chosen few people to actually talk to in fear of a repeat situation.
Tell me your thoughts on what I’ve said. Hope some of it helped a bit!
Sorry it has taken me ridiculously long to reply but with STAAR (really serious Texas test) coming up in my school it's hard to keep track of things. Your advice really helped and I felt so every word you said uplift me into a divine intervention we call 'comfort'. Believe it or not I still talk to a few of the people that were so rude to me and gradually we all realized that no one was doing great that year and we made mistakes that we didn't mean. At least I hope that's not a lie and everything their doing right now is a grand scheme to spill all my secrets on the internet. But those are just doubts for now, I did want to know what got you to think about making a Digimon fanfic as a way to express some of what happened to you personally or did they just happen to coincide?
I’m glad I managed to help you in some way, be it with the comment or my story. To be honest, I’ve always had an overactive imagination and when I get hurt be it emotionally or just mentally exhausted, my mind thinks about my favorite characters and I tend to project onto parts of them that speak to me the most.
Writing is my form of dealing with trauma and hurt, I express myself best through grand tales and even give myself happy endings by living vicariously through anime and television.
To some this could either be really healthy or really unhealthy, I like to consider it a healthy alternative to what I used to do when I had uncontrollable BPD episodes.
Considering I feel more than my emotionally stunted and distant family members, I always take words and cruel teasing (be it intentional or otherwise) to heart, no matter how I tried otherwise.
I also have a habit of hyperfixating on anime’s and when I started this little project, I will not lie, I was going through a terrible 4 day of no sleep mania from the BPD so everything was crashing around me as I watched digimon again. Thus, this and the Princess of Hazard story was born.
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