The word you're thinking of is anathema...or maybe panacea--but it's all semantics from here.
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Intrinsic by Lsusanna
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, Captain America (Movies), Avengers: Earth's Mightiest Heroes
18 Dec 2014
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“The lake, it is said, never gives up her dead,
When the skies of November turn gloomy...The captain wired in he had water comin' in
And the good ship and crew was in peril.
And later that night when his lights went outta sight
Came the wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald…"-Taken from the lyrics of 'The wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald', by Gordon Lightfoot
Natasha Romanov isn't a good person, and she never pretended to be. Steve Rogers seems to think she is--or at least, he believes in second chances. When she's put to the test, she doesn't know if she's failing or not.
Natasha isn't a good person, but here's the catch--she forgot to actively remember she's a bad one.
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Pusillanimous by Lsusanna
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, Avengers: Earth's Mightiest Heroes
29 Dec 2014
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"Does any one know where the love of God goes
When the waves turn the minutes to hours...The church bell chimed till it rang twenty-nine times
For each man on the Edmund Fitzgerald.”-taken from the lyrics of ‘The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald’, by Gordon Lightfoot
Natasha Romanov isn’t meant for the nice things Steve Rogers should have had. She wishes the Skrull invasion had never happened. She thinks it would have been easier if they had never started what they had. She thinks, now, that it would have been better if Steve had been able to stay in his era, and she in hers. Hell, she’s desperate enough to entertain thoughts of it being better if he had died in that plane, and she had never accepted Clint’s offer.
But the farther back you go, the more confusing having regrets becomes. And no one’s ever cared what Natasha Romanov thinks.
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