i wanna be loved, i wanna be whole again

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Series Begun:
2023-06-04
Series Updated:
2026-04-02
Description:

Somewhere Icarus crawls out of the sea, unburned and alive. Somewhere we are polishing the word absence with our tongues and learning not to be terrified of all we lack.
"Wisdom Teeth" - Keaton St. James


The end of the end of the end: the epilogue of Alexander Stowe. Some reunions, some arguments, some joy, and some sadness post-Quests with the former head mage of Artimé.

Notes:

Title from "The Heart is a Muscle" by Gang of Youths.

Alex lives, and continues on. While time spent with Adhira severed him from his role as head mage and set him on a path to finally healing, she alone cannot entirely fix our beloved, exhausted-to-the-core, heavily-traumatized favorite guy. The road to recovery is a rough one, so why not follow him along it?

I know there are a lot of mixed feelings on Alex's death in the fandom. Personally, I think there was a lot more potential in having him live and actually sort out his issues—we saw the beginnings of it in Dragon Bones, but none of it was a real, full conclusion to his character, in my opinion; though even having him live through Quests wouldn't have solved his issues outright. But that's what fanfiction is for, is it not?

Everything here is in chronological order. There will be pieces from other series mixed in here, but I will only include ones heavily focused on Alex. Due to their standalone nature you can read them without context, but they may have accompanying fics to go along with them that aren't in here as well! :)

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