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Hwei works as a maid for Heartsteel, living proof of the power their wealth and fame give the boys - at least for those willing to see.
In which Hwei tries to do his job, the band makes it difficult for him, leading to a conversation in which Kayn reflects on how far he has come and how far he is from the man he once was.
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- Part 1 of if only
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Kayn can’t hide the blush on his cheeks. It’s a blatant lie, but god, it’s easier to blame Yone than his own need to desecrate a 1000 $ wine by drinking from the bottle and smoking and… being a person, the only way he sometimes feels like he can.
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Stuck between wealths and fame, Kayn misses all the things that made his life worth living. So when Heartsteels maid Hwei offers to take him to a normal party for normal people... of course he is accepting.Series
- Part 2 of if only
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No matter what Kayn wishes or does, one day, thirty years in the future, when his body is rotting underground, someone might find pictures of Hwei and put them into a biography of him. Maybe they’d confidently speculate what songs were inspired by his mysterious muse.
Nothing Kayn possesses will truly belong to him, discarded lyrics, unfinished demos, they will not rest in peace. Perhaps after his death, his label decides to milk him for one last drop and releases an album with all the trash he threw out over the years, paired with a photo he took only for himself, of a person he felt drawn to.
He will never be a person again, and Kayn realises with a tight throat that he will do his best to protect Hwei from the same fate.
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- Part 3 of if only