Just to see if you'd mourn me
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Just to see if you'd mourn me by allfloodedwiththedawn
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Jan 2026
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When Rozanov gets to his apartment an hour later, Shane doesn’t say anything at all, just throws himself at Rozanov desperately, stumbling forwards over Rozanov’s legs and tangling his hands in golden curls. Rozanov chuckles a little into the kiss, murmurs something low in Russian, and then responds enthusiastically, lifting Shane off his feet. For a few blissful minutes, Shane forgets everything except Rozanov and the heat between them. Then the sex is over, and Rozanov rolls off of him.
Shane is lying on his back, staring at the ceiling, feeling the sweat dry on his face. He keeps telling himself not to panic. Like that’s going to help.
“Fuck, Hollander,” says Rozanov, and Shane hears him, distantly. “Was good. You want to destroy me twice in one night, huh?”
It must have been good for Rozanov, too, then. He doesn’t usually joke about losing games. Shane feels a stab of resentment that he’s enjoying himself, when Shane is so afraid.
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In which Shane gets bad news from his doctor, and tries to distract himself with Rozanov, and it doesn't really work.Now with sequel from Ilya's pov!
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- Part 1 of Just to see if you'd mourn me
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Feel your heartbeat 'til it fades by allfloodedwiththedawn
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Jan 2026
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“You are in funny mood tonight, Hollander,” says Ilya.
“Sorry,” says Hollander immediately, which is kind of funny, just because it’s so predictable.
“Is no problem,” says Ilya. Hollander doesn’t say anything else. Maybe Ilya should just shut up, but when they’re cuddling like this, he kind of wants them both to be enjoying it. So he pushes a little more. “Things are good for you, yeah? You won game. You will go to playoffs. Is good.”
Hollander kind of freezes for a minute, and then he jerks away roughly. When he does, Ilya’s head smacks back against the headboard, and the pain distracts him. What the fuck? Why is Hollander mad at him? He turns back to Hollander, ready for a fight, but Hollander isn’t saying anything. He’s hiding his face like a little kid, crying, and then he’s resting his head on his bare knees. Ilya can tell his breathing is fast and panicked.
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Or, Ilya's pov of the events of "Just to see if you'd mourn me"Series
- Part 2 of Just to see if you'd mourn me