Everything hurts except for you (except for you)
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'Cause baby I've never seen brown eyes look so blue by UrLocalChaoticLesbian
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 May 2026
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Ilya Rozanov was not scared of death.
He didn’t understand how anyone could be. Death was not scary to him. That doesn’t mean he was being careless or actively seeking out ways to die.
I mean sure, he could admit he didn’t look both ways before crossing the road, or stop drinking when on medication or even drink responsibly at that. He didn’t panic when he held his breath underwater for just that bit too long it started to burn his lungs and yeah, he could get a bit clumsy when using kitchen knives, sometimes wondering what would happen if he just moved his blade that bit closer to his wrist, thinking about how it would cut deep and bleed and then he-
Ilya Rozanov wasn’t scared of death and he wasn’t actively seeking it out. Not that he would tell anyone if he wasOR
Ilya rozanov is depressed, traumatised and slavic so he refuses to accept help from the people who care about him and tries to just man up and take it (but shocker he can't)Series