Archive of Our Own

currently this is planned to be 12 one shots, which will get renumbered as i post to be listed in chronological order. it is not necessary to read them in any specific order, as while i have them all outlined i will be writing them in whatever order the muses tell me to.

these are the final numbers for what is already posted, and i will update this list as i post until the series is complete:

5. calculating new route

this whole series is very near & dear to my heart. one of the tags i used, a character study of shane hollander as told through the heart eyes of ilya rozanov is half the thesis of this whole thing.

the other half is exploring how after shane & ilya are married & truly living together full time, shane gradually starts unmasking when he's around ilya, not because either of them makes a conscious decision for that to happen, but because i believe safety & familiarity have a way of changing people over time.

i'm drawing heavily on my own personal experiences here, which is what made planning this series and writing this story so fun, but also terrifying to actually post & share with the world.

because a majority of this series will be told through ilya's pov, they'll often focus on the ways he notices things, adapts, and takes care of shane. it is not my intent to imply an imbalance in their relationship, as i am a firm believer that they both take care of each other in different ways at different times.

at its core, this series is an exploration of shane's (undiagnosed) autism, but even more than that, it's about ilya learning new things about the person he loves and falling more in love with him because of it.