courage in the music
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Being in a relationship with San, then, is hard for Hongjoong.
He enjoys loving San and being loved by him, but he's very particular about the way he loves and lets himself being loved. He likes physical contact but only on certain situations. He likes kisses but only when they're in private. He likes passing time with San but he also needs extensive periods of time being alone. And San is so touchy, he likes kissing Hongjoong so much, he likes spending time with him even more… so Hongjoong feels like he's not enough for his new boyfriend. The only boyfriend he's had ever since he started college.
Grabbing the radio, he puts one of his physical CD's and presses play, not really minding what songs are there. He just needs some background music to distract himself from all of those insecurities and enjoy this first time with San. And when he turns around towards the bed, he looks at his boyfriend carefully.
As if simply looking at him could be dangerous for him.
or in which Hongjoong has to open his heart in order to love his boyfriend, San.
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- Part 1 of courage in the music
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Suddenly, his head feels like being filled with something airy and subdued, like cotton candy.
“Was it the movie?” Hongjoong asks slowly, and the way he's looking up at San makes him weirdly affected. “Do you want to go back to the dorms and rest?”
“No, it…” San tries his best to answer, then bites his lower lip at Hongjoong's sweet scent and the princely pout he can't stop carrying. With shaking hands, he holds his boyfriend's waist and back to close the gap between them, trying to soothe the need for him to be near, to intoxicate San on his sweet venom, to drown him as he dives and surges on the bloodstream of their shared heartbeats. “I suddenly felt horny, and for a second I thought… that I had to behave a certain way for my horniness to be accepted by you.”
or in which is Sanʼs turn to open his heart in order to properly love his boyfriend, Hongjoong.
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- Part 2 of courage in the music