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“I have baggage.”
“All my foxes have baggage. You won’t be the first.” Wymack said.
Neil doubted any fox in all Wymack’s years has carried the same weight as Neil when it came to baggage.
“That's not what I mean.”
“Go on. Let’s hear it then.”
The coach waited patiently for him to continue. It should have been comforting but Neil was far more scared than ever.
“I have a son. His name’s Milo.”
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OR what if Neil had a kid when he was on the run?Self-indulgent fic I didn't expect anyone to care about but my sister pushed me to write it
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- Part 1 of Miloverse
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- English
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Bookmarked by Amenex
13 Nov 2025
Bookmarker's Notes
OKay so I love this story, it's very realistic and I love that aspect of it, it really shows the characters struggles flaw and relationships really good and I really love how everything is written/portrayed.
1. I personally really liked how Neil was written being trans, it made me learn a lot about it since previously i really struggled with not understanding much of it despite accepting it so I couldn't formulate a genuine opinion on it and always got confused about it, this fanfic helped me clear a few things and made me realise a lot more about what it means to be trans and atleast some of the struggles that come with it.
2. I also loved how Neil's struggles were shown in this fanfiction, it really covered what it might have been like with Mary and on the run, it showed his mental health and really depicted everything so realisticly, it also showed his flaws that stemmed from this and also i loved how his reltionship with Milo was depicted, it was very well written and felt so real to me. It especially stuck with me because i could relate to it, I imagine that i would be a similar parent to Neil and be unhealthy in the same ways he was, well not exactly the same but similar. I thought that I would also be emotionally absent and withdrawn from my child, emotionally attatched in an unhealthy way and making sure to keep them safe, healthy and have a good well-being, but while doing that forgetting to take care of my childs happiness as well.
3. What I'm really conflicted about and what made me change how I felt while reading this story was how Neil was shamed and treated for how he parented Milo. Neil isn't a good dad, I am well aware of that and I can very much see how toxic and unhealthy of a parent he was to Milo, but I can also see how he was truly trying his best for Milo even if it wasn't 'good'. He was abused verbally, physically and neglected by both parents, was body-shamed, brutally harmed, neglected, and just everything bad that a parent could do to their child one or both of the parents managed to do to Neil. And despite how bad parental figures Neil had, he wanted to be a better parent to Milo and made sure to not do what his parents did (more specifically his mother since his father never raised him). Neil bond with Milo and his intentions as his dad very healthy and it was clearly shown and there were moments where i did dislike how he treated Milo, but I wanted and hoped for them both to get into therapy or get help from the other characters so he could improve his parenting and be happy with Milo overtime and with struggles. But instead of that Neil constantly got shamed and hated for how he parented Milo: being called a bad parent, being called out on his unhealthy things, being assumed to be abusing or harming Milo, constantly scolded and more. While I could undertsand that, it really hurt to see how nobody tried to understand Neil or try to even consider that maybe he's struggling and might not even know how to be a good parent. I wanted so badly for others to atleast understand what Neil has sacrfisied and done for Milo even if he hasn't been a good dad, I truly believe he did all that he could in the situation he was, and not to mention the fact that he's still only 18 for fucks sake? I hate how everyone expects so much out of him and doesn't even try to understand, though they did offer help which Neil refused so atleast I can aprieciate that. But then out of nowhere Andrew and Milo happened. I was so happy when I saw their bond but i grew to slowly dislike it as well, holding some resentment over the joy of their bond. Andrew got attatched to Milo and Milo really loved Andrew and while all that is great, I hated how that pushed Neil out of the picture. I wanted the three of them to be happy together not only 2 practically leaving Neil and being happy together with Neil being left in the dust to be miserable. It really hurt to see how Milo felt happier and safer with Andrew and the monsters over Neil, clearly liking them better, mostly spending time with them instead of Neil and it kind of felt like Milo abandoned Neil (I know he didnt but it felt like he did), this was even worse when Andrew made that deal with Neil about Milo which genuinely was basically Andrew taking Milo away from neil for his safety. Neil had no belonging anymore, he didnt belong with the foxers nor his son anymore and I hated it. Andrew also dismissed Neils struggles when calling him a bad parent and just hated him which I also didnt like, I wanted Neil to be happy, together with Milo. And while I am happy for Milo I hate that Milo was only happy when Neil wasn't in the picture anymore and that he couldnt be happy with him and that they all pushed Neil away and hurt him, I feel like Neil deserves better than that.