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    Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording. 

    “Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.” 

    Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating. 

    His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next. 

    I have to see him. 

    Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now. 

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    OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...

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    10 Mar 2026

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    They have spent ten years keeping their relationship a secret.

    They’re careful about it.
    They follow the rules.
    They never let it slip.

    Or so they think.

    And then the Centaurs' plane crashes and suddenly the secrets don't really matter.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on the Ice when an overhead announcement causes him to spiral. The Centaur's Plane has crashed. Shane needs to hear from Ilya now. There is only one person in the world who can pull him back from the brink and Shane doesn't even know if he's alive.

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    Shane snapped around “If what? What the fuck did you say?” His voice was wild now, no attempt to conceal his fear or his breaking heart.

    The bewildered other player just said “I just saw the news report, coach had it up on his phone, said someone died in the crash…” he said more but Shane's brain had stopped processing anymore information beyond the fact someone had died.

    In fact it wasn't just his brain that had stopped, his limbs went numb, he sucked in a sharp breath and his heart was trying to claw it’s way out of his chest. Ilya might actually be dead; this wasn’t just Shane being Shane this was real. Way to fucking real. He was vaguely aware of the feeling of the cold ice against the side of his head. Shane had dropped down onto the ice. He hadn't passed out, he hadn't tripped, he's body simply gave out from the shock.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are soulmates. They just don’t know it yet.

    For ten years they have been the NHL’s most legendary rivals. They have spent a decade convinced that they are opposites, destined to collide but never to connect. But what if the universe, tired of waiting for them to take the leap, decided to intervene?

    It starts with a shared dream. A blue-lit, empty arena where the noise of the fans and the weight of their reputations finally fall away. In this silent sanctuary, Shane and Ilya are stripped of their armor, and in the soft glow of a world that doesn't exist, they do the impossible: they fall in love.

    But the dream world cannot protect them from the waking one. When a devastating accident on the ice leaves Shane’s career, and his life, hanging by a thread, their romance is thrust into the brutal light of reality. No longer shielded by dreams, they must navigate a world of traumatic recovery and public scandal.

    Shane and Ilya must discover if the bond they forged in the stars can survive the gravity of the real world.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    05 Mar 2026