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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    Shane and Ilya leave the cottage as boyfriends in love, but never discuss what that means for them. Are they exclusive? Shane wonders. A lot of gay couples aren't, even without the added complication of Ilya also liking women. Shane believes Ilya would never be satisfied with just one person, especially not when they are hundreds of miles apart for most of the time. Ilya loves him, that had to be enough.
    Then Ilya asks of him the most intimate thing, Shane had to say yes, to be a first for Ilya when Ilya was so many of his firsts. But that also leaves Shane terrified, because he firmly believed Ilya still slept with other people, and Shane just let go of the last layer of protection literally and figuratively.

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    Shane tells himself, on the nights when one or both of them is traveling, on the nights when they can’t be together, that he is okay with Ilya doing what he needs to do. To keep his body active, his mind calm. To be able to love Shane without resentment.

    He’s almost able to convince himself he believes it.

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    Shane thinks they have an unspoken agreement for a one-sided open relationship (on Ilya's side). When Ilya suggests that Shane might want to sleep with other men, Shane panics. Sad boy antics ensue.

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    Based on a tumblr post from @notahungrywish, ending with:

    Just Shane casually assuming he'll always have to share and never be enough for Ilya and Ilya horrified to realize just how resigned Shane is to assuming Ilya will never be satisfied with him the way Shane is with Ilya.

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    "You and Svetlana. When you - I mean, you don't have to tell me any details, obviously. But do you use condoms, with her?"

    This must be a translation issue, Ilya thought wildly. He'd missed something crucial.

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