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    “Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”

    Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.

    “It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”

    He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.

    “Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.

    “Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”

    It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.

    But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.

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    16 Nov 2025

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    “Remember that… I’m a Beta?” Yoshiki finally began.

    “Yeah?” Hikaru scoffed, confused. “What’s that got to do with anything?”

    “Well…” Yoshiki exhaled slowly before dropping the bomb. “I’m not. I’m not really a Beta.”
    Hikaru blinked, his brows knitting.

    “…you’re an Omega?” he asked, voice barely above a whisper.

    In which, as last resort, Omega!Yoshiki seeks Alpha!Hikaru to help him with his heat. You know, just two bros helping each other out. And there's not a thing Hikaru wouldn't do for his bro.

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    13 Nov 2025

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    Two years have passed since Yoshiki and Hikaru have moved to Tokyo. They have managed to create a life together in the city, and everything feels like a dream. But like all dreams, they must come to an end.
    Otherwise known as the monster's journey to love.

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    13 Nov 2025

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    They were children once too. The memories and experiences of that time irrevocably molded them.

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    11 Nov 2025

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    Yoshiki is a ghost haunting the empty spaces left by Hikaru. His world is muted, until he finds solace in the quiet constancy of Daichi, a barista with hands as steady as his gaze. But just as new colors begin to bleed into his life, Hikaru returns.

    After years of on and off "friendship" is there anything to comeback to?

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    10 Nov 2025