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   I see you (And I'm still gonna stay) by Sincerely_Connor_Murphy

   Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson  

   • Teen And Up Audiences
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M, Multi
   • Work in Progress

   19 Nov 2025

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Evan Hansen/Connor Murphy
   • Eventual Alana Beck/Zoe Murphy - Relationship
   • Connor Murphy & Zoe Murphy
   • Alana Beck & Evan Hansen & Jared Kleinman & Connor Murphy & Zoe Murphy
   • Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen)
   • Evan Hansen
   • Larry Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen)
   • Alana Beck
   • Zoe Murphy
   • Cynthia Murphy
   • Miguel (Dear Evan Hansen)
   • Jared Kleinman
   • Connor Murphy Has BPD | Borderline Personality Disorder (Dear Evan Hansen)
   • Connor-centric
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Connor Murphy Lives (Dear Evan Hansen)
   • Evan Hansen is okay
   • Sort Of
   • Autistic Alana Beck
   • Zoe Murphy Tries
   • Heidi Hansen Is a Good Mother
   • Larry Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen) Is a Bad Parent
   • Jared Kleinman Is Bad at Feelings
   • but he tries
   • tagging is hard
   • Jared Kleinman Has ADHD
   • Slow Burn
   • Like really slow
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Self-Indulgent
   • Connor Murphy Is Not Okay
   • Therapy
   • eventually
   • Panic Attacks
   • Bisexual Evan Hansen
   • Everyone Has Issues
   • Depression
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Dissociation
   • Author is trying to resurrect the dead fandom
   • I have no plan

   Summary

   The room is dim, tinted with early morning gray-blue. His brain is foggy, but his body’s too wired to sink back under. Typical.
   For a few seconds, he just lies there. Blinking slowly. Staring at the ceiling like it personally offended him. Over the leaf blower, Connor can hear noise coming from downstairs. Muted voices. The coffee grinder. The sound of a pan being tossed into the sink. It’s all too familiar. Things he thought he wouldn’t have to hear again.

   But no, Trust him to screw up something as simple as dying. Couldn’t even do that right.

   Or: What if Connor survived? What if Evan decided to reach out to the only person who might understand him?
   What if what they found in each other, was much more than either of them could've imagined.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   68,124

   Chapters:

   21/40

   Comments:

   178

   Kudos:

   121

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   Bookmarked by JellyfishPuppet

   06 Oct 2025