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    "F-fuck." He groans out as the thumping drowns out any other noise that might have seeped through the walls. The pain is horrible, but it will pass. It always does. The tears begin to fall silently as he rocks back and forth in the bed, trying to dull it—help it.

    Seungmin wasn't always like this. These constant drops didn't happen. He knows what could fix it. He knows that this pain is a choice that he willingly put himself into. It keeps him safe. It is his protection.

    He was classified as a sub at the age of 20. Subs have a need to be put into a headspace, usually referred to as subspace, somewhat regularly to keep these drops from happening. To keep them healthy. Seungmin now chooses not to be put into subspace. Not anymore.

    If he were allowing a dom to put him in subspace, he wouldn't have to deal with this pain, but this is pain he has control over. He is inflicting this on himself. He knows what to expect. He knows what it does to him. He would rather this control than that fear.

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    21 Sep 2025

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    “We can't." Jisung squeezes his eyes shut and puts his hands to Minho's shoulders to stop him. He tries really really hard to not think about the warmth and the muscle firm under his palm.

    "What?" Minho says, voice quiet and confused. It makes something in Jisung ache.

    Jisung opens his eyes and sees Minho blinking at him. His mouth's parted too. Jisung looks away, trying to stay strong.

    “We can't—" He scrambles to find the right words. "You know."

    or

    jisung shouldn’t, but he really really wants to.

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    21 Sep 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 43

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    minho just stood there, his dark eyes unreadable, his lips pressed into a thin line.

    jisung exhaled sharply, his voice dropping into something quieter, something raw. "do you even want me?"

    something flickered across minho's face - something almost pained, almost hesitant.

    and then-

    minho moved.

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    15 Sep 2025

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    His handwriting trails off in the middle of a verse. He remembers why—Jisung had texted him a meme mid-writing, and he’d laughed so hard he dropped his pen. He never picked it back up.

    Now, staring at the ink-stained page, Minho feels something tighten in his chest.

    He reads the line again:

    You make it feel like normal—
    like the air still stays in my lungs when I breathe...

    He presses the heel of his hand to his eyes.

    Then he sets the page down, picks up his pencil, and writes the next line.

    Slow. Careful.

    He doesn’t know it yet, but this is the song that will haunt him.

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    05 Sep 2025

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    In which Jisung gets locked on a rooftop in winter and accidentally becomes a missing person for 5+ hours.

    (Now with *BONUS* Chapter <3)

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    05 Sep 2025