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    The All-Stars weekend in Tampa Bay ends in a tragedy for Shane when the plane taking his parents back to Canada from their trip to Mexico explodes.
    The relationship between Shane and Ilya takes an unexpected turn. Fear has been their biggest enemy for years. The tragedy in Shane’s life makes him realize that life is too short not to live proudly and be brave about his feelings for Ilya.
    As the secret slowly comes to light, there’s a thing no one can touch: their commitment to each other.

    Inspired by the t.a.t.u song with the same title.
    If they hurt you // They hurt me too // So we'll rise up // Won't stop // And it's all about us
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    I never wished that pain upon my worst enemy. It’s killing me that you will now know exactly how much it hurts. You loved both your parents. And they loved you. I’ve seen how close you were. I am so sorry. I wish things were different.
    All I can promise is that I will be always by your side. I will always protect you. I love you more than life, Shane.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    Dead parents. Waiting on ch 7

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    03 Mar 2026

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    Shane’s soul!! Waiting on ch 21

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    At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Gay mafia ringleader Waiting on chapter 21

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    Waiting on ch 25

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    Waiting on chapter 22