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   Half a forever (I buried my heart with you) by Amaretta

   Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Explicit
   • Major Character Death
   • Gen, M/M, F/M
   • Work in Progress

   09 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Hayden Pike
   • Shane Hollander & Yuna Hollander
   • J. J. Boiziau & Shane Hollander
   • Yuna Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov & Original Male Character(s)
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Original Male Character(s)
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • J. J. Boiziau
   • Hayden Pike
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Heavy Angst
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Ilya dies
   • The Author Regrets Everything
   • The Author Cried Writing This
   • That love story dies young
   • Shane Hollander grieving
   • Everything Hurts
   • Pretty graphic description of Ilya's body
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • Very Heavy Angst
   • Shane says goodbye to his lover
   • Will Shane kill himself first or will I
   • stay tuned
   • Depression
   • Grief/Mourning
   • grief of a lover
   • Angst
   • Established Relationship
   • Wedding Fluff
   • But heavy angst/death/grieving first
   • Animal Death
   • Not Beta Read
   • Character Death
   • Character Study
   • I'll try my best but i don't promise anything
   • unsent messages
   • Anger
   • lots of pain
   • and anger
   • lots of anger
   • Angry Shane
   • Grieving Shane
   • You've been warned
   • Shane will be a very human human
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Slurs
   • Trigger warning: Slurs used by Shane himself
   • I might have delved too much into Hayden's grief
   • Oops
   • There is no happy ending in sight children
   • I'm an asshole
   • At least Shane gets a kid out of this
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Trigger warning: Now I know whether Shane is dying or not
   • I know something you don't
   • Mwahahahahah
   • Sad Shane Hollander
   • Hurt Shane Hollander
   • At least he's alive
   • I know I'm hilarious
   • Father-Son Relationship
   • sort of crack
   • Damn I can be funny
   • who knew that
   • not me
   • Still Angst tho
   • you're doomed
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort

   Summary

   After their fight on Boxing Day, Ilya was too hurt to call Shane. Too tired to text. Shane was too anxious and scared to do it first. Both of them will be haunted by their choice when Ilya's plane crashes on his flight to Tampa Bay. After having never come out to the world that they were together, Ilya in his last moments, hurtling towards his certain death at 29, finds himself unable to stop thinking about two people and his future wedding with Shane. A story that will never come to life. Shane finds out during his own game that the love of his life is now gone, gone where he can't follow him.
   A story of death, grief and mourning. Shane losing everything even though his best friends and parents surround him with their love. A few last words from the last person he thought he would ever see change his life.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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