Gifts for Patrick
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Hamilton kept getting nightmares. He doesn't know why. They're very peculiar, the dreams, they're all seemingly connected. The same names, same faces. He doesn't know what to think about them-But he does. Mama said that they're not real and can never be real.
Even if his past nightmares came true and it felt so much worse when you're living it-
Even if he half expects Eliza to be beside him in bed like always-never. Never.
He doesn't know any 'Eliza'.
Never.
(I'm so sorry, please, please, I love you, Eliza-)
Even if he keeps choking on sobs as Philip dies in his arms again-No.
Stop it.
Even if he can feel the bullet shattering his ribcage right after 10-No. He cannot. It's a dream.
Nightmare. You're fine.
He doesn't know what to think about them because he doesn't want to think about them.
"WAIT!-"
Or, Hamilton can see the future and is very deep in denial about it. It's mostly his mother's fault-and him for making so many terrible choices.