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    Fyodor is eight, when he meets Dazai. He’s at a chess tournament and Dazai is the only one who has made it worth it. Made it interesting. He’s the only one who is playing at the same level as Fyodor. Fyodor loves chess but he hasn’t felt challenged in what seems like a long time. Not until Dazai, that is.

    They’re in the final game. Dazai and Fyodor are two children lost in a world that has nothing to do with anyone but them. Dazai has one of his eyes covered with a bandage. His hair is almost but exactly not the same color as Fyodor’s. He plays aggressively and recklessly and so carefully measured Fyodor feels it all the way to his toes, swinging in their too tight shoes, unable to touch the ground.

    They draw.

    “I’m Dazai.” Dazai says afterward. Like Fyodor, English is slightly stilted on Dazai’s tongue, rounded awkwardly around different syllables than it should be.

    “I’m Fyodor.” Fyodor responds. Dazai mouths Fyodor’s name to himself. “It’s Russian.” Fyodor explains quietly, used to other children not being able to say his name, teasing him.

    “Fyodor.” Dazai repeats. “You’re good at chess.” He adds bluntly.

    Fyodor feels something stronger than happiness, quiet and content, low in his soul.

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    12 Aug 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 20

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    Dazai tilts his head, his gaze unnervingly intent. “And why do you care? Do you hate my music— or do you hate that I play it better than you?”

    “What I hate,” Fyodor hisses, “is that you have disguised your arrogance as brilliance. You waste a gift that was made to be worshipped.”

    Dazai’s expression shifts, his eyes gleaming with something that sends a shiver down Fyodor’s spine.

    “And if I followed your words— played to please you, earn your favor,” he murmurs, stepping close enough to feel the warmth of his breath, “would you worship me, Fyodor?”

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    Amadeus Fyozai AU, oh my! Fyodor and Dazai are rival composers in Vienna, and it gets way more intense than it has any right to.

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    They called this a recovery ward. Fyodor called it purgatory. It was all very... orderly.

    He didn’t mind the order. What unnerved him was the silence. And worse than silence, the absence of interesting company.

    Until the morning the new patient arrived.

    He’d seen his fair share of broken things in this place. But none of them had a name that made the staff lower their voices. Dazai Osamu.

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    24 Jul 2025

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    Back when Dazai and Fyodor first met, before everything.

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    24 Jul 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 21

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    Inside, the shelter buzzed softly with the sound of purring and rustling litter. Dazai caught movement out of the corner of his eye—a tall figure crouched beside a sleek black cat.

    The man’s shoulder-length black hair obscured most of his face, but Dazai didn’t need to see. He already knew who it was.

    Fyodor.

    Their eyes met across the room, and Dazai froze. Shit.

    Or, Dazai and Chuuya get assigned a joint mission to investigate suspicious activity at a cat shelter… only to find Fyodor there.

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    23 Jul 2025