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    Everyone can see it. In the way Ilya Rozanov’s voice gentles, in the way his focus narrows, in the way every argument ends the same way. Set post–The Long Game, this is a study of marriage, conflict, and the slow, irrevocable shift of a man who loves too openly to hide it.

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    Shane works in IT.

    Ilya’s computer always seems to be fucked up.

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    Surprisingly, Rozanov seemed to understand completely. “Long distance is hard, yes?”

    Wyatt saw Bood’s eyebrows raise. “You talking about your girl, Rozy?”

    Rozanov shrugged. “We know what it is like. I have had years of practice. Was complicated. Long distance is shit. It is better now I am here, in Ottawa.”

    “What?”

    “Yes, uh- she is from Ottawa.”

    Bood’s mouth dropped open. “That’s why you moved teams? For her?”

    (snapshots from the centuars pov of ilya rozanov moving too ottawa)

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    Hayden looks up and catches sight of Shane, thumbs hooked in his belt loops to leave the logo on his chest clear. “No. Shane. No. Get out.”
    “You like it?”
    “Please, please tell me that’s not—”
    Shane spins to show off the back. “Authentic.”
    “No,” Hayden says, drawing out the word plaintively. “In my house?

    Shane wears Ilya's jersey to watch the game at Hayden's.

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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