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    Shane remembered how he'd heard the front door close, then open a few minutes later. He'd thought Ilya had forgotten something. He hadn't thought much about it until he heard heavy footsteps climbing the stairs to their bedroom. It didn't sound like Ilya, who always took two steps at a time, even though Shane always told him not to. It didn't even sound like one person.

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    Shane gets attacked in his and Ilyas house. Ilya finds him.
    Healing will be a long journey. (the horrors persists, but so does Shane Hollander)

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    15 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 98

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    It was day three of Shane’s stupid epic mega migraine and he was losing his mind. Maybe once a year, he suffered from what is known as status migrainosus. A three day, sometimes longer, megalithic migraine attack that would only cease with a trip to the ER. After 8 years of marriage, Ilya immediately knew the difference.

    Shane has a status migrainosus and Ilya's gotta roll with the punches.

    IM WORKING ON IT I PROMISE not on hold its on my life ugh the ao3 curse is real

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    15 Mar 2026

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    It's Ilya Rozanov's first winter in retirement. He has some time and a heart to fill, the world's best in-laws, and a husband who will let nothing go wrong. Somewhere, there's a little kid that needs them.

    Or, Shane and Ilya become foster parents, meet a little girl with spina bifida, and have some adventures in the unfamiliar world of sled/adaptive hockey.

    (Title from 'Beautiful Boy' by John Lennon)

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    15 Mar 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 30

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    “Hollander.” Ilya said, with some panic creeping in to his voice, as he watched Shane’s eyes flick everywhere all at once. Ilya lifted an arm, and let it go just over Shane’s own thigh. It came down, with no resistance to the drop.

    Still pinning him up with one hand, he squatted on the locker room floor just in front of Shane. “Have you seen this before, Coach?” Ilya asked. He surely hadn’t.

    “It’s new to me, Rosanov. I think I have to get medical involved. Can you watch him until I get back?”

    “Please hurry.” Ilya sat back next to Shane on the bench, one of his one legs over Shane’s, and one hand lightly on his neck to keep his head steady. His other hand ran the largest circles he could on Shane’s back. He wouldn’t say it out loud, but maybe this was a panic attack.

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    Shane has an unusual health emergency, and Ilya does his best to make Shane comfortable through it all.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    When he was a boy, Ilya used to play with his mother’s Matryoshka doll. He’d unstack the wooden layers. The biggest, then the next, then the next. Always finding something new, until he got to the smallest, most delicate one at the center.

    Ilya has always known Shane isn’t like anyone else. After their summer at the cottage together, Ilya learns that being with Shane is like unstacking nesting dolls. Every layer is a new treasure to discover, and the man at the center has re-shaped his entire world.

    Or, 5 times Shane unmasks around Ilya and the new ways Ilya finds to love him.

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    08 Mar 2026