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• I cannot have you, so I'll take what I can get. by breme

  Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)  

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  01 May 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Todd Anderson/Neil Perry
  • Todd Anderson & Neil Perry
  • Todd Anderson
  • Neil Perry (Dead Poets Society)
  • Charlie Dalton
  • John Keating
  • Knox Overstreet
  • Gerard Pitts
  • Steven Meeks
  • Todd Anderson Needs A Hug
  • Internalized Homophobia
  • Fluff and Angst
  • How Do I Tag
  • Look I Tried My Best
  • idk what im doing
  • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
  • i cooked this shit up during finals
  • Suicide
  • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
  • Fluff
  • sometimes
  • author is a procrastinator

  Summary

  Todd knows he can’t hold on forever.
  It’s going to ruin the world if he does, but he can’t bring himself to do it.

  He has to move on from the death of Neil Perry.
  He can’t just keep pretending like everything’s alright.

  But he loves Neil so much, even if it’s just a substitute.

  OR

  A dps x tshd fic about holding on things we know we can’t have,
  no matter how hard we try it’s just a matter of time before they’re gone.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

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  Chapters:

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