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  1. Rec 6

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    Megumi’s first day as a teacher should be something worth celebrating, but every part of it reminds him of the person who should have been there to see it.
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    Megumi keeps living even when grief follows him into every new part of his life.

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    06 Oct 2026

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    "What?" Satoru laughs "Picture so it lasts longer?"

    Suguru shrugs, putting his phone back into his pocket. "We'll eventually forget what the place looks like bare."

    Satoru smirks a little, almost fondly, like Suguru's being sentimental, so Suguru supposes it's good he didn't add, maybe I'll eventually forget what you look like, nineteen and with your head caught flame in a sunbeam. So I’m just making sure.

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    Or: Their new place tastes like freedom and youth, and yet all Suguru does is want, and want, and want.

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    26 Sep 2026

  3. Rec 28

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    “Satoru.” Suguru says.

    Satoru’s throat closes, his breathing goes shallow. He should kill him, that’s what his brain is chanting. Off guard, alone, vulnerable. Satoru can win now, could win, even if Suguru is expecting it, even if there’s something he’s missing.

    Suguru’s face looks pale, like it did in the months leading up to everything, when he looked exhausted and worn and Satoru couldn’t fucking reach him because he was being held at arms length. Excluded from Suguru’s mind, his feelings, his plan, separated from him in every way that mattered.

    “Fuck you.” Satoru seethes, breathless, and he means it. Because this is all Suguru’s fault really, acting like a martyr, acting all holy, when they could’ve fixed everything together. They could’ve killed anyone they wanted, they could’ve changed anything they decided.

    Suguru as the compass, Satoru as the sword.

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    25 Sep 2026

  4. Rec 29

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    Geto finds his student’s essay on moral determinism mysteriously annotated with harmonic equations, waveforms, and something about stochastic drift that, as far as Geto remembers from his time as a teaching assistant and master's student, isn't part of the university's philosophy curriculum.

    From there, things only get increasingly unprofessional.

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    15 Sep 2026

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    Six months after Amanai's death, Satoru gets drunk.

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    13 Sep 2026