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i can't see straight at all (and you look like an angel) by KISSYER0DA
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 Feb 2026
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It all began with a strange feeling.
It wasn’t something intense, but enough for Shane to notice something was off. His eyes were moving faster than his brain, and Pike’s face looked…weird. Like, he could see it, but it was a little too soft around the edges.
“You good, dude?”
Shane snapped out of his thoughts. They were in the locker room, and while it had previously been filled with loud chatter and booming pregame music, he suddenly found that it was silent, besides a weird, distant buzzing in his ears. Hayden Pike was locking eyes with him, awaiting a response. Shane swallowed. Guess he had to say something now.
“You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”
“Huh? Oh, uh, hm.” Shane just hums. “I’m good. Zoned out for a sec.” He says plainly, because it wasn’t untrue.
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Shane Hollander gets a migraine for the first time on the ice. Ilya Rozanov is worried.
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20 Feb 2026
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Shane Hollander had just royally fucked up. He couldn't feel his feet. He couldn't feel the weight of his stick. He stood frozen while he watched Boston celebrate their win. A win that could have been easily avoided if he had not tripped on the ice during probably the most crucial moment of the third period.
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Or: Shane has a shit game against Boston, falls into a self-destructive spiral, and cancels on Ilya, who doesn't like being bailed on. He proceeds to catch Shane in the midst of an episode.
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20 Feb 2026
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hunger hurts, but starving works (when it costs too much to love) by eggywriter
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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TW: Eating disorder, descriptions of disordered eating and complications due to disordered eating, descriptions of trouble accepting disordered eating, emotional fallout of being in love with someone who is mentally unwell.
Everyone in Shane Hollander's life suspects he might have a bit of a problem. Except for Shane Hollander, that is. Not really. After an incident on the ice signals to Ilya that things are worse than they seem, Ilya tries to help Shane start the recovery process for his disordered eating.
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18 Feb 2026
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After Ilya feeds him a delicious tuna melt and breathes his first name when he comes, Shane realises that this has gotten too personal. He flees… At least he tries to.
Or, Shane doesn’t leave Ilya’s home in episode 4. Instead he experiences his first subdrop.
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18 Feb 2026
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The diet helps. Shane has always been particular about food—apparently there was a lengthy phase in his childhood where all he ever wanted for breakfast was plain Cheerios with a glass of 1% milk, and would cry ceaselessly when it was something different—but now it feels justified. Necessary, even. His parents are on board with it, too, which is nice. (Well, his mom moreso than his dad, because he doesn't get it and keeps telling Shane shit like just give yourself a treat, which is stupid because the treat is when he wins a game because of how hard he's working. But his mom understands, knows what to order for Shane at restaurants, what to keep stocked when he visits home so there are no temptations.)
A lot of the stuff he's eating now is really gross, actually, but that makes it even better, somehow. If he enjoyed it then it would be too easy. This way he knows he's actually sacrificing something for the success he wants so badly.
He likes the control, over what he eats and how he works out. Likes to know that the tool of his body is being properly handled, so that if something goes wrong, on the ice, he has nobody to blame but himself.
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18 Feb 2026