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    “How long were you kneeling?”

    “Mm?” Shane tilts his head a little, not understanding why Ilya would ask this question. Ilya should know better. “S-since you told me to.”

    “It’s been over an hour, Hollander!” Ilya barks out and he sounds frustrated and angry and Shane furrows his brows together. 

    Shane subdrops after their Vegas session and it takes a while for Ilya to realise.

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    10 May 2026

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    Deep down inside his soul, Shane is a bottomless pit of want. He wants more. More time, more Rozanov. He wants Rozanov to want him back just as badly. It’s too bad that Rozanov doesn’t seem to want anything from him at all.

    It doesn’t matter. He’ll deal with it, just like he always does, because he has to. Even if he isn’t so sure he can anymore.

    OR: After the MLH Awards in Vegas, Shane and Ilya hook up. What if it went a little bit differently?

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Ilya suggests Shane sleep with other people. Shane, being the autistic overthinking boy he is, thinks Ilya is no longer satisfied in their relationship. So he decides to ask for any critical feedback so he can research and practice to improve his performance.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Shane and Ilya engage in what was supposed to be a friendly game night with the Centaurs. Turns out Shane and Ilya are quite competitive and eerily synced in with each other. Chaos ensues

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    22 Feb 2026

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    “Did I do something wrong?”

    “No. No, Hollander,” Ilya coughed, eyes flitting around the room. “Is just– Is too much.”

    “This is… too much?” Shane repeated slowly, incredulously. “We see each other maybe once a month. Less, even.”

    “No. Is not that– You are just,” Ilya swore under his breath in Russian. His accent was getting thicker, the words clunkier, in the way it always got stronger when he was frustrated or tired. Shane hated himself for recognizing it. “...too much.”

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    In the Heated Rivalry book, Ilya intends to break things off with Shane the night of the All-Star Game, but then Shane gets hurt. What if Shane never gets injured by Marlow, and Ilya really does break things off?

    (Basically, a shit ton of angst and Shane Hollander learning to love himself. There will be a happy ending!)

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    21 Jan 2026