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    The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.

    So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?

    Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.

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    Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.

    And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.

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    Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.

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    14 Oct 2026

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    “Birds living outside moved away. Went south, because you annoy them with your moaning every morning. They got sick of it.” Ilya’s words are breathy with laughter. Shane, still looking up at him, can see the exact moment the idea pops into his head.

    Ilya pulls his hand away from Shane’s face and takes a small step back. It finally feels like Shane has a bit of space to breathe and try to collect himself-

    Ilya drops onto his knees, lips parted with panting breath and eyes wide and shiny with admiration. Shane swears that he feels his heart stop in his chest. 

    He’s seen Ilya on his knees plenty of times, but this time it feels different. There’s an unspoken energy that has shifted between the two men, it’s just that Shane has absolutely no brainpower left to figure it out. It feels like a hand has just clamped down on his throat and his dick is aching at the sight of Ilya like this.

    “In my mouth first, please.” 

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    aka the fic where ilya teases shane so much during his trip to the cottage that shane realizes that he wants to top. at the same time, the world starts to pick up that something is not quite normal between ilya and shane.

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    26 Sep 2026

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    “I’m sorry to hear that it has been getting worse, Ilya,” Galina said, a line between her brows. “Do you think something has…triggered your depressive feelings to get worse?”

    Ilya had wondered the same, had tried to track down the exact moment his brain had decided to slowly suffocate him to death, but he had no answer. It was like the question of which came first: the chicken or the egg. He didn’t know which came first; his depression or simply his awareness of it.

    He felt as if he had always had it—he just didn’t recognize it for what it was until he became aware of its name through the Irina Foundation’s work.

    “Isn’t it just genetic?” Ilya asked. “The trigger was my birth, I think.”

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    20 Sep 2026

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    Yuna has let go of a lot in her life, including her own dream to play professional hockey. But that's alright; she has Shane and David and they have built a storybook legacy together. Then Ilya Rozanov gets hurt and suddenly Shane's calling her asking if they'll go pick up his archrival from the hospital.

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    17 Sep 2026

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    “It is the worst day of my life,” Ilya declares, throwing himself dramatically onto one of the kitchen stools. “I went to go get lunch at Russian place I like, the one with lamb pelmeni? They had sign on the door. They are closing. Forever.”

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    Or: Ilya’s favorite Russian restaurant in Ottawa is going out of business. There is only one thing Shane “Mr. Real Estate” Hollander can do.

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    14 Sep 2026