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for the hearts of our enemies by fearandloathe for A_breath_of_snow_and_ashes
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
23 Jan 2023
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death by diamonds and pearls by fearandloathe for Rex_Writes
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
28 Dec 2022
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The morning before Buck and Eddie get home from Nashville.
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God, Buck still can’t believe Eddie hotwired a car to find him. Can’t believe he rode a horse. Can’t believe he snuck out of a hospital room through a window after stealing another man’s clothes.
Can’t believe Eddie hasn’t once denied it or suggested a correction when someone mistakes him for Buck’s husband. Boyfriend. Partner. Whatever name they come up with in their head, whatever label they choose, they say it and Eddie doesn’t deny it. Doesn’t even seem to mind it. Might even look like he enjoys having someone look at the two of them, come to a conclusion, and breathe that relationship into existence.
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15 Mar 2026
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A restrictive medical clearance threatens to strip Buck of his career, forcing him to sue the department to survive after he and Eddie cross a line that will change their relationship forever.
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- Part 3 of The Courtship of Christopher's Father
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15 Mar 2026
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The boyfriend looks at Eddie's arm, looks at Eddie's face, does whatever math drunk people do when they're deciding whether a fight is worth it, and somehow arrives at the correct answer. He grabs maybe-horse-Ashley by the elbow and pulls her away, muttering something about firefighters that Buck doesn't catch because he's too busy trying not to pass out.
Eddie turns around. His hand is still on Buck's chest.
"Seriously?" One eyebrow up. Not angry yet, but getting there. "We've been here an hour."
"He came at me!" Buck throws his hands up. Outraged. Innocent. An absolute victim of circumstance and nothing more. "I was just talking to her."
"You were practically on top of her."
"That's just how I talk to people, Eddie. I'm a leaner. It's my thing."
Eddie stares at him for a second. His hand drops from Buck's chest and he shakes his head, turning back to the bar.
"Get yourself a drink," Eddie says over his shoulder. "And stay out of trouble for five minutes."
He makes it roughly eleven minutes before he does something stupid again.
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Buck is completely normal about Eddie shoving Blue to defend his honor. Really. He is.Series
- Part 1 of no grave can hold my body down
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10 Mar 2026
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There was a space, in the silence, where he could have said something; where Buck could have. Neither of them spoke.
Eddie moved again. He told himself he was just settling in, and maybe there was some truth to that, the indent of Buck's body in the mattress creating a sort of inevitable gravity, drawing Eddie in.
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Or: Eddie, and Buck, and a motel room in the middle of nowhere with only one bed.
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04 Mar 2026
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“If Buck gets his way, you’re the one getting laid tonight,” Ravi points out. And then he tries not to think about what that would be like, Eddie under some beautiful and anonymous woman—or worse, Buck—while Ravi goes home alone to his right hand and a box of tissues.
Eddie takes another sip. “Buck gets his way as much as he needs to.”
And isn’t that just enigmatic enough to get Ravi invested? He takes his own sip, trying to seem cool and disinterested. The problem with looking cool is that it’s much easier to achieve from afar. Eddie has seen him puke in a bush after a gruesome call, and once Ravi got broken up with by text when he was on-shift and ate an entire pint of ice cream, and Eddie knows he plays frolf, of all things, and it is very hard to be cool under those circumstances.
Or: Ravi doesn't have a crush on Eddie, because he has self-preservation instincts. Okay, maybe he doesn't. Because if he did, the evening wouldn't end with him trailing Eddie to his truck, filled with foolish hope.
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27 Feb 2026