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• Light Me a Bougie Candle When I’m Gone by hansrilow

  Fandoms: Spring Awakening - Sheik/Sater, Frühlings Erwachen | Spring Awakening - Frank Wedekind  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M, Other
  • Work in Progress

  18 Aug 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Hanschen Rilow/Ernst Robel
  • Melchior Gabor/Stanley Anderson
  • mentioned
  • Melchior Gabor/Moritz Stiefel
  • Wendla Bergmann/Ilse Neumann
  • Hanschen Rilow
  • Ernst Robel
  • Melchior Gabor
  • Moritz Stiefel
  • Bobby Maler
  • Wendla Bergmann
  • Stanley Anderson
  • OCs (needed extra side characters)
  • conversion therapy
  • Friends to Lovers
  • Homophobia
  • lots of homophobia
  • Fluff
  • First Kiss
  • Internalized Homophobia
  • Repression
  • Flirting
  • Angst
  • Mentions of Suicide
  • Alternate Universe - 1990s
  • lots of emotions
  • Artist Ernst Robel

  Summary

  After getting outed to his parents, Ernst Robel is sent to Straight Path— religious conversion therapy. He meets Hanschen Rilow there, someone who helps him through it all and makes him feel good. But just how long can they stay there in that prison?

   

  (Title from ‘Tell Me I Should Stay’ by Franz Ferdinand)

  Series

  • Part 1 of Light Me a Bougie Candle When I’m Gone

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  13,856

  Chapters:

  10/?

  Comments:

  38

  Kudos:

  25

  Bookmarks:

  4

  Hits:

  330

• Journal No. 1 by hansrilow

  Fandoms: Spring Awakening - Sheik/Sater, Frühlings Erwachen | Spring Awakening - Frank Wedekind  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Major Character Death, Rape/Non-Con, Underage Sex
  • F/M, M/M
  • Work in Progress

  25 May 2025

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Rape/Non-Con
  • Underage Sex
  • Hanschen Rilow/Ernst Robel
  • Wendla Bergmann/Melchior Gabor (mentioned)
  • Hanschen Rilow
  • Moritz Stiefel
  • Ernst Robel
  • Melchior Gabor
  • Otto Lammermeier
  • Georg Zirschnitz
  • Anna (Spring Awakening)
  • Marianna Wheelan
  • Thea (Spring Awakening)
  • Melitta (Spring Awakening)
  • Wendla Bergmann
  • Diary/Journal
  • Journaling
  • hanschens angsty thoughts
  • DWSA - Freeform
  • Deaf West Spring Awakening - Freeform
  • Spring Awakening Dialogue
  • Deaf Wendla Bergmann
  • Deaf Moritz Stiefel
  • Deaf Otto Lammermeier
  • deaf thea
  • hard of hearing ernst
  • Slightly Altered Timeline
  • Canon Compliant
  • Canonical Character Death

  Summary

  hello!! i’m creating a series of journals/journal entries written by Hanschen that tell the story of Spring Awakening and what he’s thinking during it, and then once that story is told it’ll be his story after all canon events (journal no. 2)!! this is the first journal, so this will mainly contain the canon story (and some alterations— the German Deaf Foundation, for example) :D

  There will also be personal entries that don’t talk about the canon events because like… it’s his journal. Just a heads up!!

  (lots of hernst. this is your tw.)

  Series

  • Part 1 of Hanschen’s Journals

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  3,889

  Chapters:

  12/?

  Comments:

  33

  Kudos:

  13

  Bookmarks:

  3

  Hits:

  319

• ‘Till Death Do Us Part by hansrilow

  Fandoms: Spring Awakening - Sheik/Sater, Frühlings Erwachen | Spring Awakening - Frank Wedekind  

  • Not Rated
  • Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  04 Feb 2025

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Hanschen Rilow/Max von Trenk
  • Hanschen Rilow/Ernst Robel
  • Hanschen Rilow
  • Max von Trenk
  • Ernst Robel
  • Fluff and Angst
  • Angst
  • Fluff
  • First Kiss
  • Time Skips
  • hanschen’s POV
  • only a little bit of hernst sorry guys
  • ernst is an artist
  • hanschen is a law student
  • max is full of joyous whimsey
  • We love him
  • Kissing

  Summary

  Warm summer days like this were Hanschen’s absolute favourite. It wasn’t too hot nor too cold, therefore he could go outside and not want to rip his skin off. And what made it even better was the fact that he was spending it with his love, Max. His only love.

  They sat beneath a tree in each other’s arms, lips wet and raw, hair wild and damp from sweat.

  —

  Basically just Hanschen and Max’s story together since i havent seen a fic about them yet!!!

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  2,589

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  2

  Kudos:

  7

  Hits:

  35