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  1. Public Bookmark 5

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    “just - i want to get closer. every time we’re close, i want to be closer. i don’t know what’s wrong with me. sometimes i dream about - eating you. but not…not him. me.” yuuji pauses, breath shuddering as he inhales. “i don’t want to hurt you. i know that like i know my own name. but i want…i don’t know. i want you inside of me. and i want to be inside of you.” when he chuckles, the sound is wet around the edges. “not exactly possible, huh?”

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    sometimes, megumi dreams about consuming yuuji whole.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    By December, Megumi's figured out that he's dying.

     
    (Or: in the summer of 2069, Fushiguro Megumi's shikigami begin to disappear.)

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    03 Feb 2026

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    “Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”

    Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.

    “It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”

    He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.

    “Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.

    “Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”

    It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.

    But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.

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    16 Nov 2025

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    The worker, whose name tag reads Megumi Fushiguro, blinks at the scene in front of him with bleary eyes, like he expects the whole thing to be an exhaustion-induced hallucination. When Yuuji, his rose, and the loud music from the JBL fail to disappear, Fushiguro leans out the window to check both sides of the road. Then he pulls back to stare at Yuuji again. “What the fuck,” he repeats.

    “Uh…” This was not the plan. The plan was for Yuuji to give the flower to whoever was at the window and pull off. He was not banking on the fact that KFC apparently hired supermodels. Or fallen angels. Fushiguro might be both.


    In which Yuuji loses a bet and ends up meeting the hottest guy he's ever seen in a KFC drive through

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    21 Sep 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 11

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    This study explores the lived experience of an active substance users navigating addiction and ambivalence toward recovery, aiming to illuminate the psychological mechanisms such as shame, self-medication, and trauma avoidance, that sustain substance use despite awareness of harm. Through qualitative interviews and narrative analysis, the study seeks to inform more compassionate, individualized therapeutic approaches that bridge the gap between clinical treatment models and the internal realities of those still actively using.

    or PhD student Megumi Fushiguro is just trying to survive grad school and the guilt of his sister’s drug-induced coma when he meets Yuuji Itadori, a recovering addict attending treatment at the same hospital.

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    06 Aug 2025