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He realizes it right before everything goes to shit. He’s just standing there in the loft and Eddie’s handing him Christopher’s backpack and talking about “he’s not that fast” and “order pizza” and Buck sort of stares at him—partly in shock, partly in reverence—and he thinks "I love you." He shoves it down immediately, of course, as far down as it’ll go, but the fact of the matter is, it’s there somewhere, floating around inside of him. He can’t get rid of it now.
Not that it matters all that much, though, because there’s the whole quitting thing and the lawsuit thing and the argument in the grocery store and by the time he’s given his (re)start date he know; he well and truly fucked up.
or: another classic post-lawsuit fic. Angst, hurt, some comfort, more angst, more comfort.- Language:
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08 Mar 2026
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“Buck?” Eddie croaks.
“It’s probably good I took so long to realize I’m bisexual, huh?” he tries to joke, masking a thin smile. It falls flat with how the upper half of Buck’s face still won’t stop looking so miserable. “Or– or we’d both be t-teen dads.”
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Eddies helps take care of Buck after his last relationship leaves a tag-along.
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21 Feb 2026
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Running to the frontlines from a childhood he never had. Taking a bat to the wall with his son in the next room. Having an affair with the spitting image of his dead wife.
Eddie knows he’s never been good at grieving, knows he’s never been good at losing what little he allows for himself in the first place. This is why he also knows his coping mechanisms can’t possibly get any worse.
Buck, as he so often does, makes him reevaluate his assumptions.
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Evan Buckley dies behind a wall of glass. It’s a shame that when he’s revived not three minutes later, no one is informed.- Language:
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21 Feb 2026
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Love Is Like Lightning, It Strikes Only One Time (Ain't It Enough?) by FormerKnight
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
23 Mar 2025
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“Please, I’m begging you. I’ll do anything. Anything. Just don’t hurt him.”
The blade lets up on Eddie's throat.
“Anything?”
Eddie opens his eyes. Uneasiness creeps up his spine. Sharp, like a jolt of electricity. Petey is staring at Buck now, his hold on Eddie has loosened. And suddenly, Eddie wants nothing more in the world than for Petey to turn his attention back on him.
But Buck's gaze is fixed on Petey. He’s deliberately avoiding looking in Eddie’s direction. Because he knows if he does, he’ll have to betray him.
“Anything,” Buck says. “Please.”
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Buck and Eddie are on their way to Greece for their honeymoon when their plane gets hijacked.
And one of the hijackers has a particular fascination with Buck.
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07 Feb 2026
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He feels like shit when he's hungry, and he plays better when he's empty. The cold air doesn't touch him as much. The floodlights turn silvery-soft.
And he likes eating. Keeps his hands busy, mouth busy, mind busy. Something to chew through, putty in the ears.
Go until he can't anymore. Cycle it back out. Be ready.--
OR: Buck's had on-again, off-again bulimia since he was 14.
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Title from Psychic Friend's "We Do Not Belong".
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14 Jan 2026