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It plays behind his eyes like a film fraught with cliché.
Pierre will say: Esteban, whatever is between us, we have to put it aside for the sake of the team. Esteban will say: And what is between us, pray tell? Pierre will get angry. Esteban will grow distant. Otmar will say: This is not Mercedes. Rinse and repeat, forever.
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26 Jan 2025
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Their helmets knock together as Esteban whispers close to his ear, voice sounding thick. “We did it, Pear, finally.”
Pierre nods, all his thoughts swirling into a messy amalgamation that is strangled in his throat. He swallows, blinking rapidly, and rests his head against Esteban’s shoulder.
It feels like coming home.
If anyone notices the wetness on his cheeks, he will blame it on the rain.
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23 Jan 2025
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Twenty days are reasonable for recovering after such a grueling triple-header. Pierre thinks Esteban won’t text again, so he simply doesn’t hold out much hope – he can be okay with the notion that they’re strangers again, really. It doesn’t really burn, it just…itches, but in a way that cannot be scratched properly. He pushes the thought away, occupies his time with training, golf and whatever shit he feels like doing, because he stepped on a podium during the worst season of his career and he deserves to treat himself, and a week later he’s forced to rethink the situation completely, damn Esteban and his unpredictability.
He’s getting ready after some workout, still sauntering around in his microfiber bathrobe, trying his best not to butcher the lyrics of the song that’s blasting from his bluetooth speakers, when the screen of his phone goes off and there he is, the massive fucker, texting him to know what he’s up to during the mini break.
Unbelievable.Despite the Cold War they waged on each other for years, Esteban and Pierre reconnect after their joint podium on the Interlagos track, and they fix their relationship one remaining race at a time.
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23 Jan 2025
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Esteban thinks he’s figured his own past out, unwound and stared at and digested it, but that’s still something about his childhood he doesn’t like to look into, not deeply, not cruelly, not with scrutiny. He leaves it there. It almost remains innocent, like that, something clueless and soft and indiscernible that made no more sense when he was twelve years old and crossing the last few lines he’d ever draw in the sand before he lost something forever.
Maybe it’s cruel, to someone, Pierre or otherwise, to refuse to admit he ever really loved him.
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23 Jan 2025
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Este never really knew it could feel this way, how instinctive it could be.
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24 Dec 2024