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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    4 times Shane was strict with Ilya and the 1 time he wasn't ft Ilya having an emotional crisis over it.

     

    inspired by the tweet: ilya actually love having a strict boyfriend. like no his bitch do not let him have friends NO he not allowed to be out past 11 and NO U CANNOT SIT HERE!!!

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Shane’s hands suddenly leave his shoulders, and the dull sound of knees hitting the floor echoes through the scarcely decorated room.

    Shane rests his forehead on the sweat damp skin of Ilya’s thigh, his face pulled into something wrecked and agonizing. His shaking hands wrap around the bare skin of Ilya’s thighs, and he can feel how cold and clammy they were. The sight of Shane on his knees knocks all the air from his lungs. Ilya had not calibrated this yet, he had not prepared himself for a genuinely upset, distraught Shane Hollander to be gripping his pants and staring up at him like he would an altar.

    “Don’t wanna feel like– like this anymore. ‘Wanna feel good.” Shane whispers against his thigh, looking up at Ilya like he was the answer to every single fucking problem in the world. It was heady and addictive and wrong, here.

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    or: after shane is outed to his dad, he asks (begs) rozanov to be put into subspace. (episode 6 rewrite, somewhat)

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    07 Feb 2026

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    “There’s information coming out that the Centaur’s plane crashed on its way to Tampa.”

    The entire world tilts on its axis.

    For a moment Shane feels like he’s being burned alive, and then in an instant it’s just bitter cold; there’s ice in his veins, his lungs, his heart. God, his heart. Is it still beating? He can’t tell. Surely not. Surely, if Ilya were - if he were gone, then Shane’s heart would have fallen still. There would be nothing left for it to beat for.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    “Yes,” Ilya responded. “I love waking up with you. I love holding you in my arms before we have to face the world, I love feeling you warm and sleepy and soft. I love not understanding English but hearing you talk all hoarse and growly. I love it when you have morning breath and I love to convince you it does not matter so you give me kiss me anyways. I love it so much I want to wake up one hour before just to get more time.”

    Or, Ilya is tired of waking up alone while Shane goes on his runs in-season. He decides to do something about it.

    Alternate Title: Ilya's Cuddle Alarm

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    02 Feb 2026