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    five times shane and ilya's friends have questions about gay sex -- and one time they wish they knew less.

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    the Centaurs are a wonderful team. accepting. kind. curious. it's that last one that has Shane wondering if he’d rather be back in montreal, hiding in the closet, than here, making up for the failures of the Canadian sexual education system.

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    27 Dec 2025

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    "It’s Dr. Wells.

    The Dr. Wells Bobby had sent Buck to, over a year and a half ago.

    The same one he couldn’t quite admit had taken advantage of him, had made him feel numb whenever he tried sharing his feelings, who made it impossible to open up to any other therapist—

    She was there and she had a baby. A baby who couldn’t be more than ten months old. A baby with his blonde hair and bright blue eyes, not her dark hair and dark eyes."

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    Dr. Wells had a baby & never told Buck.

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    title from the song by billie eilish

    pls heed the tags, & i'll be putting warnings at the beginning of each chapter, this is going to be a relatively heavy fic (tho it will be focused on recovery) so pls prioritize your own mental health.

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    22 Oct 2025

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    chapter 12

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    A collection of moments from the beginning, the middle, and the end of Buck and Ravi's secret relationship. How long could they possibly sneak around before someone figures it out?

    Takes place after the cruise ship disaster, during the time Gerrard is captain and Bobby's 'retired'.

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    You’d think Buck feels feverish because of the fact they're surrounded by literal fire and the building's coming down around them. Not at all. That barely even registers to him. It actually has everything to do with the way Ravi is looking at him. His expression is so soft and open, eyes carefully watching Buck's face for his reaction to how close they still are. Buck's sure he's making the same face, if not even more love-struck. His hand on Ravi's face-no, his mask!- feels so...intimate, despite the multiple layers of clothes and equipment separating their skin.

    He's thinking about whether the flames make this moment more or less romantic, when more debris falls nearby. Without any more delay, they're scrambling cartoonishly to the window for extraction hand in hand (or glove in glove).

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    11 Sep 2025

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    chapter 4

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    Later—after he has drifted in and out of consciousness over and over, like rising out of a churning sea, first to the park ranger, who cannot stop crying, then in the back of the ambulance, and finally at the hospital, where the nurses speak to him in gentle voices that make him want to rip his own hair out at the roots and he finally stays awake, the pain too intense to allow him to drift back to the bottom of that warm dark water—Buck’s first clear thought will be, But it was all going so well.

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    Buck is attacked on his day off. In the aftermath of everything that's happened - from Maddie's leaving to Eddie's breakdown - he decides the best way to deal with it is to hide it.

    It goes about as well as one would expect.

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    28 Aug 2025

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    chapter 10

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    06 Jul 2025