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    I could do so much more with you, he’d sworn, studying Sheep-stained bracelets — longing for a claustrophobic place in his skeptical ribcage. To wound from the inside. 

    See?, he would have said, from that carcass. You bleed too. 

    Or: Soukoku, in three acts.

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    10 Dec 2025

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    Chuuya isn’t allowed to step outside unless it’s for work, and much less to spend time with anyone who isn’t his boyfriend. It’s a monotonous routine, but he doesn’t mind it.

    Until he meets Dazai, and suddenly his cage isn’t as comfortable anymore.

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    22 Sep 2025

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    Dazai Osamu is a creature of habit. He thrives off of the predictable, the consistent, and he loathes the concept of change. To change means that something is lost. Something that, more often than not, was something he was fond of. If not fond, then it was something familiar.

    He likes familiarity.

    He does not like to lose things.

     

    or,

    Chuuya drunk calls Dazai a few times.

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    16 Sep 2025

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    Waiters are the witnesses of life. This is just how the story goes. Right now, Chuuya is witnessing Dazai steal his job.

    (waiter!au about the attraction of the incompatible, Michelin stars, fake relationships, and blind dedication)

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    12 Sep 2025

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    Best friends is too simple a term to squash the entire dynamic of Dazai Osamu and Nakahara Chuuya within.

    Sure, they’ve known each other since they were children, and they’re each other’s #1 on their best friend lists on Snapchat, and Chuuya’s been seen one too many times in his hoodies. People have also noticed how Dazai’s main muse for his volunteer hobby of polaroid photographer is the redhead himself.

    But the pranks they pull on each other isn’t much of a ‘best friend’ thing to do.

    Especially when one of the pranks get pulled so far,

    That Chuuya is forbidden from seeing Dazai ever again.

    And though he sees no good coming from such a forced separation, the one thing that can enhance their futures together is propelled forward at a faster speed than either of them could have ever imagined:

    Coming to terms with their unusual feelings for each other.


     
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    11 Sep 2025