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while I'm drowning in denial by orphan_account
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
07 Oct 2017
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Summary
Natasha’s seen things, more than she cares to count. She didn’t even blink when her agents were going through a hell of a torture right in front of her nose. Hell, she didn’t even falter when walking into a scene of carnage, the lifeless bodies of her previous co-workers lying around at her feet.
She doesn’t even remember the last time she genuinely cried, not as an act for undercover. She loses tracks of these things because she knows it’s a futile attempt. But now, she’s losing her shit because she can’t take it anymore, any more of Tony's stupid tendency to sacrifice and self-destruct. There's only so much red she can take on her ledger.
She has to squish the disgusting urge to look away. She is devastated, and it feels wrong and awkward and so- so vulnerable and she hates it. She was only human, of course, she has to remind herself once in a while that she’s capable of these emotions.
Apparently seeing Tony Stark crumbling apart does the trick, because she has never felt so human in her life.