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The crowd cheers as I skate to the middle if the rink. I posed my body to look upwards at the ceiling as if it were an open night sky with endless stars. The cheers slowly died down when the music begins to play. The melody starts off with a slow rhythm. My body glides actoss the ice as if I were that melody. I lift up my arms as if they were extended wings ready to fly. Wity my arms still stretched out I leap into the air. My eyes were still fixated on the ceiling not wanting to look anyone in the eyes. This dance was not for them. It will never be for them.
The melody picks up the pace and so do I.
Many have been telling me it's time to move on. That he'll never be found. That he probably ran away like the coward he was. But I knew my mate and our bond is still strong for I could still feel his emotions. Every night I feel small tingling emotions mixed in fear and dread. I can still feel the longing that aches in my chest possibly deep within my soul.
Despite the sayings of those of doubt I held strong hope of finding my mate as soon as possible. I donct think I can spare another year without him in my arms or his sweet scent.
My skate tonight is messege to him, a messege that either his capture returns him to me or I'll come get him myself,and I won't promise that my inner alpha won't hesitate to rip them shreds.
The song ends, I pose hugging myself as if I were embracing my beloved to my chest. I could feel sense the emotions in the stands. Everyone was moved with deep emotions knowing what this free skate was about. Tears fell from eyes, whimpers of mates clung onto one another, and supporting scents from omegas and alphas alike fills the air.
I go to the kiss and cry were my coach waited. He and his wife Lilia have been very supportive these last five agonizing years. They let me stay in their estate since I refused to enter my house that reminded me too much of my mate. For that I am forever grateful.
"You've done well Vitya, and we will find him no matter what it takes."Yakov says encouragingly.
"Thank you Yakov."I replied in almost a small whisper.
I didn't look up to see the score. I already knew that I've surpassed my high score. Scores no longer held any meaning to me. As long as I got my messege across that is good enough for me.
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After the completion ended with Yurio, Otabek and I on the podium, reporters rushed at me with the same questions as before. Over the years I've learned to ignore them instead of answering like I used to in the past. Just taking about the sudden disappearance of my mate struck me hard deeply wounding me mentally and physically.
"Mr.Nikiforov,"A young reporter, possible a rookie matches my steps to catch up with me." is it true that you'll be continuing the search even after the authorities recently pronounced Katsuki Yuuri dea-"Before the reporter could continue his question, he is found himself on the floor with an angry blond glaring down at him. He bared his fangs as thick angry alpha pheromones filled the air.
"I dare you to finish that sentence!"The beta beneath his feet whimpers at the harshness of his voice.
Besides me and the Katsuki family feeling the pain of losing Yuuri,Yurio actually wailed like a newborn pup when he heard the neww of his "mother's" disappearance. Although he never showed it in public, Yurio adored-loved Yuuri like he were isown mother. Yuuri, being an omega, took it upon himself to care for Yurio when he found out that his parent's weren't in the picture. In the beginning the younng alpha didn't approve the motherly attention but over time he leaned towards Yuuri for the motherly support he never received from his biological one.
So to speak like Yuuri was dead puts Yurio in a fit of rage.
"Apologize. Now!"
"I'm sorry I'm sorry I mean no disrespect!" Yurio steps off of him allowing the man to stand. But as soon as he's on his feet he continues with the question."But if he isn't- "Crack! A sicking crackling of broken bone echoes in the silent halls.
Yurio's eyes are filled with bloodlust, his alpha ready to attack and kill. Luckly Otabek wraps himself around his mate letting out calming pheromones to ease his anger despite being angry himself. It took a lot of willpower myself to not attack the stupid reporter. In situations like these no one should ever spoke of anothers mate like he had. That is how many end up hospitalizedor worse, dead.
"Come Yurio,Otabek lets go home."I said.
The two follow me out of the stadium and out into the blistering cold of Russia. Waiting for us is Yakov in the car. He had a questioning look on his face but with one glance at the still fuming Yurio he got the hint.
The ride home was quiet, no one spoke but it wasn't too uncomfortable. The calming music of a violin filled our ears and the warmth of the heater warmed our freezing skins. I stared out the window watching the world rush by in a blur as I recalled whay happened earlier today.
The detective Zima(зима) had called me to the station to speak in private. I was anxious about what he would say. I hoped he had a lead on the case but the odds were not in my favor. The detective has been on the case for five years non-stop. He and his coworkers have been up and down, searching every nook and cranny for my mate but came up empty handed.
"Mr.Nikiforov, please have seat."By look on his face I knew it was anything but good news. I sat across from him as he holds out a very thin folder about my mate. "I'm sorry to say this sir but" He lets out an exhausting breath."We're closing the case."
Fir the second time in my life the world went still."What?"
"Mr.Nikiforov, this case has everyone baffled because Mr.Katsuki just disappeared out thin air. There are no leads. No one had seen him last besides the doctor he went to on the day of his disappearance. I'm sorry sir but we have to think of the possibility that Mr.Katsuki is deceased."
At that I snapped. Yes I was grateful for them putting in so much effort to find my mate, but to presume that he's dead? Of course I was outraged. I stormed out the station before I did something I would regret. It took several hours before the competition for Yakov to calm me down.
"Yakov, I'm not going to compete after this."I told him after having a few moments to think. "If the police can't help me then I'm bettet off searching him myself."
Yakov places a comforting hand on my shoulder. "You won't have too. I see you and Yuuri as my sons and I'd do anything to help my family." Those words touched my heart to the point I hugged Yakov so hard that I may have accidentally cracked his aging back.
Once we got into the Feltsman estate, I went straight to my room to plan my search for my mate.
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"So this is where Katsudon was last seen?"Yura says looking up at the building ahead of us.
Yura and Otabek agreed to accompany me to the hospital. I always thought it was odd that Yuuri went to the hospital without telling me why. We enter the building to the reception desk where a beta women sat behind it. She was filing her nails with a bored look on her caked face.
"May I help you?"She asked in a monotoned voice.
"Yes we would like to know whose Katsuki Yuuri's doctor."I said.
The woman rolled her eyes before typing down Yuuri's name into the computer. The name of the doctor was Dr. Pajari. With permission, and a little threat from our little tiger,we were able to go to his office. He was seated behind his desk looking over some files.
I knocked on his door."Excuse me Mr Pajari."
The man looks up with tired eyes. He seemed to be in his late forties with several wrinkles on his face and several grey hairs on his head.
"Oh Mr Nikiforov!"He jumps up causing several papers to fall from his desk.
I help him clean up hus mess while asking him why my mate came to visit him.Mr Pajari's brows furrow in confusion before shooting up and rushing out the room. Minutes later he came back with a file with my mate's name on the front.
"I thought the police would've told you."He said frantically opening the file."Mr Katsuki was feeling ill for the past week, nausea, no interest for his favorite foods and lack of energy. He thought it was a small bug and he didn't want it to mess up his performance for the competition that was coming up at the time."
"So what was wrong then?"Yurio snapped a bit impatiently.
"Um well,"He took in a breath before slowly exhaling."Mr Katsuki was two weeks pregnant."
At this my whole world suddenly went dark.
I woke up feeling ice cold water splashed on my face. I shot up a bit confused until I saw Yurio and Otabek staring down at me, Yurio had a now empty cup of water in his hand. I found myself in a small hospital room laying in a hospital bed. Remembering what had happened moments ago dawned on me.
My Yuuri was pregnant with my pups. He was taken while carrying my pups. Why the Hell did that damn detective not tell me? Now I really need to find Yuuri and hope that he and my children are okay. They have to be.
"Oh Yuuri, moya lyubov(моя любовь), where are you?"