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Date: Night of the Palace Attack
Location: Deep in the Swamps of the Earth Kingdom
The windchimes tinkled lightly, and then a gust of wind swept them around with a gale-wind force. The trees around the windchimes, however, were still.
Below the deck of the shanty house, a Fire Nation girl sat with a basket held against her hip, one hand facing out toward the windchimes. She was grinning widely and flexed her fingers again, sending a second breeze through the windchimes.
She'd never tire of their sounds.
"Dhakiya, have you fed Appa yet?" Her father called from inside the house. "I can hear him complaining all the way from in here."
"Not yet, dad," Dhakiya sighed, pushing her fingers through her hair, wishing that the swamps didn't have to be quite so humid. She was used to heat, coming from the Fire Nation. The heat combined with the wetness here? It was a little overwhelming, but she'd gotten used to it. She pressed a sticky strand of hair behind her ear, fanning herself.
It was stupid to be using her airbending skills for something so trivial, but it was in moments like this she was glad for her abilities.
She tilted her head and, over the ringing of the fire bugs and the swamp creatures, she did indeed hear Appa moaning for his dinner.
She hastened through the vines to his stable, where he was dramatically laying on his back with his many legs splayed out, his tongue lolling as he made low keening sounds. When he saw Dhakiya approaching, he stopped for a second before resuming his moaning in a more dramatic way.
"Appa, you big lout," Dhakiya said, rubbing his nose. "You're acting like you're withering away! It's only half an hour past when we usually feed you. And, if you really wanted to eat, there are vines right there."
Appa rolled over, glaring at Dhakiya for even suggesting such a meal.
"I know, too slimy," she said, flopping the basket of straw and fruit in front of him. "I'm just saying."
Appa nudged her with his head affectionately, but since he was so large, Dhaikya lost her balance and stumbled into the marshes behind his hut. She spat out river water, picking a leech from her skin.
She got up, drying herself off with a gust of wind. She saw Appa looking at her with a sense of longing. Until she met him, she'd never met an animal that could emote eloquently.
"I know, bud, I know," Dhakiya said, feeling a little bad for airbending in front of him. "You miss Kuzon, er, Aang."
She'd never officially met Aang, only seen him at dinners or in the palace halls. Zuko had never attempted to introduce her, and she wondered now if that was intentional? However, she'd never given him much thought, in fact, nearly none at all...until the night she'd left. Zuko had explained everything on their last date, in hushed and frantic whispers and he told her how she was going to stay alive. Finding out that the kid who had hung around Prince Zuko was not his cousin-third-removed or whatever lie they had spun, but was instead the Avatar had been a shock of a lifetime, only second to the shock of her own powers manifesting. She hadn't been used to calling him by his real name and still slipped up in front of Appa.
Appa had taken to Dhakiya instantly when she arrived at the swamp; she figured he could sense her airbending genetics. But that didn't mean that he didn't terribly miss his original owner. At this point, it had been years since they'd seen each other. Appa was miserable without Aang, but what could they do?
"I'll be back tomorrow with a huge plate of fruit for breakfast, how's that? And, maybe we can take a ride?" she offered.
Appa's eyes glimmered at her suggestion, and he responded by licking her face. Dhakiya shrieked, but she was laughing.
She had found herself quite taken with Appa soon after her arrival, months ago. She was well aware that he wasn't her Air Bison, but Air Bison weren't around anymore, so despite them being a hallmark of an airbender, she would likely never get her own. She was aware that one day, she'd have to give Appa back to Aang.
Dhakiya knew this. Didn't mean it didn't hurt, just a little.
She hugged Appa's snout one last time before bidding him goodnight and leaving his stable.
Outside, she worked to shuck the Air Bison saliva from her skin before returning inside.
Her father stood over their tiny kitchen - a dinky and worn set that would be more likely to set their hut on fire than cook anything good – as he prepared dinner. The catagator they'd caught was roasting in a pan, spitting oil everywhere.
"Hey, hon," he greeted, going over and kissing her forehead. "I just got news. I have to leave again tomorrow."
Dhakiya tried not to let her utter disappointment show and forced a large smile on her face.
"That's okay, dad. I'm perfectly capable out here," she assured. "I'm sure mom misses you."
Ever since Prince Zuko had smuggled her out of the Palace and officially released her from the competition, she'd been living out here in the Foggy Swamp. Her father came whenever he could, with food and supplies and letters from her twin sister, Alcina, but he had to go home to keep up appearances every so often. Dhakiya hadn't been out of the Swamp in months, but she'd grown used to it.
It was worth it to keep herself safe; so far, besides Aang, she was one of the only airbenders around. She knew that if Ozai found her...she shuddered at the very thought. Suffice to say, it wouldn't go well.
Dhakiya opened the cupboard that held her food. "When you come back, bring Fire Flakes. We're nearly out," she said, shaking the can. Most of the food she ate was taken right from the Swamp, and thus a wide variety of spices were necessary to make it palatable. Only the fruit was sweet and flavorful, but that could be found few and far between. She knew that it was the Airbender way to only eat veggies, but she just couldn't support that lifestyle out here, not now.
And even when things were good, could she really go there? Yes, she was an airbender...now. However, she'd grown up as a Fire Nationer, as – she had thought - a late blooming firebender. She was more firebender than airbender in her temperament, so which way to go?
Luckily, these were questions that she didn't have to consider for a very long time.
Her father flicked his fingers, producing a flame to purify the water for their meal. Dhakiya continued going through the pantry, taking some parchment from his bag and making a list - encoded - of what to bring back for her.
Realizing she was an airbender and fleeing the Royal Family, sans Zuko, of course, who was helping her father hide her, had been a tumultuous chain of events. The Dhaikya who resided in the swamp, keeping Appa safe, was wholly a different person than she even was three months ago. The Dhakiya who had entered the Prince's Choice was the quieter of the twins, the softer one. She had only ever worn nice clothes and couldn't remember the last time she was barefoot. She had only eaten things that other people prepared for her, and the thought of any confrontation had her quaking before it happened.
The Dhakiya now nearly never wore shoes and had developed a nice hardened layer protecting her feet. She had scratches and scars all over her body, from learning how to survive the hard way. The Dhakiya now had killed that catagator herself and was wholly self-sufficient when her father left. The longest she had gone without seeing another person was two weeks. The Swamp Benders came by when they could; they'd shown her the ropes of living in this difficult environment. She knew how to make a trap, how to sharpen sticks into weapons, how to lose any enemy - animal or human - in the deep vines, and which plants would kill her in seconds.
The Dhakiya who existed now was someone who had only existed in stories before. She was a person she was proud to be now, a person who she was sure could take whatever life threw her way. She wouldn't go back to the old Dhakiya for anything, even if it meant being unable to marry the prince or having to sleep under a net to keep the mosquitoes out.
One day, when this was all over, she might thank Prince Zuko, she often mused.
She ate dinner with her father quickly, as he would need to get to bed early for the journey out of the Swamp and back to the Fire Nation tomorrow. As her father began to clear the plates, Dhakiya jumped up.
"No, dad, you get to bed. I'll finish these."
"Sweetie, it's fine. I can," her father insisted. "I'm the one leaving, I should do it."
"Nope!" Dhakiya argued back with a soft smile. "Do you want to know what's on my schedule tomorrow? Make another basket of vines, maybe try to catch a possum-chicken to-"
A blinding pain rocketed through her whole body, causing her to drop the plates. They clattered onto the wooden ground as Dhakiya clutched her head, falling to her knees. Outside, Appa began to emit a low moan, and all the screeching birds in the trees flew up at once, as though there'd been a grand disturbance all across the swamp.
Faintly, she heard her father calling her name, grabbing her arms. Dhakiya shook, gasping for breath as she slumped against the wall, unable to talk.
She'd felt this one time before - this pain, this searing, this change within her body.
She'd been 13 years old. It had been a day like any other day. Alcina and Dhakiya were at their bending practice and Alcina, of course, was so much ahead in her training. Dhakiya had never even gotten a rotten puff of steam and was losing hope fast that she'd ever firebend. She was, in all, feeling pretty crappy about her self-worth. Alcina, seeing her doubt, had tried to pass off he own firebending as weaker than it was, but had been yelled at by their master.
She remembered that Alcina had taken her to a lake outside their village, and the pair floated in the cool water, watching the clouds pass by.
"You'll get there. Dad didn't firebend 'till he was 12," Alcina had tried to comfort her.
"Yeah, but I'm nearly 14," Dhakiya said sourly. "I don't think it's ever gunna happen."
"The fortune teller has never been wrong!" Alcina screwed her face up. "And there hasn't been a non-bender in our family in generations!"
"Is that meant to make me feel better?" Dhakiya turned on her stomach to swim away from her sister.
"No – arg – I didn't mean it like that! Look-"
Whatever her sister was going to say was cut off, as Dhakiya was suddenly gripped by a pain so intense she thought she might pass out. Her limbs felt heavy and her head pounded. Before she knew it, she was sinking deep into the water, her sister frantically screaming her name.
When Dhakiya woke up, she was at home. Alcina was sitting next to her, sobbing. She'd nearly died, Alcina had said.
According to the physician, there was nothing wrong with her that could have caused such pain. There was no reason to why she lost her breath, why she couldn't move her legs, or where the headache had come from.
Dhakiya didn't believe that, though, because she felt different. She couldn't put it into words, but something about her had changed.
It wasn't until two days later, when her mother deemed her well enough to get out of bed, that she figured it out, when she got into a fight with Alcina, threw her arms toward the door, and closed it with a gust of wind.
She was an airbender now.
At the time, she'd thought that her near-death experience had triggered it. In fact, up until this very moment, that's what she'd assumed. Her parents had leapt into action, realizing how dangerous it was to have an airbender in their family, a race thought to be extinct. They were under no illusion that the Fire Nation had likely had a hand in the extinction of the Air Nomads, even if they had simply not offered help when the illness swept through. Dhakiya, feeling a little wiser, had a feeling it was much more than that.
Whatever the case, she was told to keep up the firebending classes, so no one would have a reason to point her out. As they grew up, Alcina became even bolder, and Dhakiya was always her shadow. Her whole family transformed to make sure that no one would ever find out Dhakiya's secret. Until she told Prince Zuko, when she deemed him to be a man of good morals, and if she were to continue couldn't imagine keeping this from him. And, not long after, Zuko had explained to her that if she vauled her life, she needed to leave. She had been so excited to get her picture drawn with him, so excited when he asked her to stay after, and that was all shattered. In that moment, she recalled that she had wanted to just lay down and sob. It had all felt so unfair. She had wanted to marry Zuko, had wanted to be normal.
But that was in the past. She had thought that the pain had been something strange: a food past its date, a sudden cramp, a bug that had bitten her wrong.
In this moment, she knew that all to be false.
As her vision wavered back into view, she looked up at her dad. She was panting hard, the ripples of this event still echoing in her limbs, in her heart that thumped as fast as a jackrabbit.
Before saying anything, she raised her fingers, creating a gust of wind. She let out a sigh of utter relief; if something like that pain could once gave her powers, she had worried that it could take her bending away, too.
Huu burst into their hut. "Y'all okay?" he asked, his spear raised carefully.
"What in the world is going on? Are we under attack?" her father sputtered, looking out of the window as he helped Dhakiya to her cot.
"No, it was a spiritual change. It was a tremor that the entire tree system felt." Huu looked halfway between scared and ecstatic about this. "I only felt this once before...years ago."
"Nearly five years ago, right?" Dhakiya asked, finding her voice. Huu lowered his spear. He scratched his head.
"How'd ya figure that out?" he asked.
"Because I felt it too five years ago," she said, swinging her feet over the side of her bed, hunching her shoulders and groaning.
"Well." Her father paused his fussing with his daughter, considering what Huu said. "If it was spiritual...then...where did it come from?"
"Somewhere deep in the spirit world. It was angry, ya'll," Huu confirmed, rubbing his chin. "I pity wherever it came from."
"Do you think it's the Avatar?" her father asked in a hushed tone. Dhakiya grabbed the pot of sanitized water, drinking it straight from the tin as she rubbed the back of her neck. She could hear Huu and her father theorizing in front of her.
"It for sure is," Dhakiya broke in, "I just know. And I know something else, too."
Her father and Huu turned to her, looking at her expectantly.
"Dad, get ready to send more people here. The Spirit World was accessed, opened, just for a second. And you know what it did the last time? Made me an airbender," she said firmly, meeting her dad's soft light brown eyes. "So take a wild guess what it's going to do this time?"
Understanding dawned on her father. "Make more airbenders," he said. Dhakiya, despite feeling a little woozy still, got up and started examining the space critically, knowing that her day - and the days to follow - were about to get a lot busier.
"Exactly. A whole lot of people are about to be in a lot of danger."
Notes:
DUN DUN DUN!
Yes, I know, it's pretty vague...but it was more to give you a taste about what is to come ;)As I stated at the end of bk1, I won't update for at least two months so I can pre-write a large majority of the story, but I figured you guys should have SOMETHING.
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I'll see you on the other side,
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Chapter 2
Notes:
We are BACK y'all! I hope you all had a great 2 months :) I'm so excited to return to posting this, though. Awesome things are coming your way..
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Chapter Text
Out of all of the issues flitting around in Prince Zuko's mind - and, there were several, some very pressing and of great concern - there was one that managed to wriggle its way to the forefront just about every second he let his mind wander.
An itch he could not scratch.
A ringing in his subconscious that never faltered.
A metaphorical fly that could not be swatted away.
Katara.
What to do with a girl like Katara?
Marry her, but she said no, his inner voice would remind him.
She said no...for now, he would reply to his own devil's advocate. But a part of Zuko always knew she'd say no. She wouldn't have been Katara if she hadn't. He had faith that one day, she'd say yes, but it had sprung up out of nearly nowhere to ask her this time. In his wildest dreams, the competition would be over by now and he'd be preparing for his wedding, something he had previously been less than enthusiastic about. Katara made him want it all; a large ceremony, a quiet life, children...
He would have been thrilled, obviously, if she had said yes, but he may have been concerned for her safety.
Zuko knew the dangers of the palace, and he knew them well; that much was not something he felt right to argue with her about. He would, however, rebuff her crazy idea that the safest place wasn't at his side as the Fire Lady, a woman who held the near entirety of the world in her palm. He was sure that if he ascended to the throne with Katara at his side, he already would have won half the battle. He could sway the council, expose his father...make sure he could never hurt her.
But, Katara persisted.
Marry someone else. He recalled what she'd urged him with a mildly uncomfortable rock forming in the bottom of his stomach. His chest had dropped when he'd heard that.
Maybe it would have been smart.
Maybe...but lately, Zuko found his common sense being chipped away at an alarming rate.
He filed through the remaining girls in his mind as though he was looking through a folio, considering and weighing each girl very carefully, as he'd been doing for the last few days. Examining them. Scrutinizing them. Trying to imaging marrying one within a week, if things went really south.
Not long ago, Toph strangely would have been his first choice, if he were so pushed against a wall. Not because he held any romantic affections for the girl, but because he did not. He was absolutely sure that they could work out an agreement to benefit everyone. Toph would not have to return to her shitty family, and she would not have cared if Zuko continued to see Katara. He could convince Katara to stay on as a representative in some capacity, and as the years grew on, at least he knew he'd always have a friend in his wife. Sure, the idea of producing an heir with her wasn't the most appealing, but he'd do it to hold onto Katara. This idea, of course, hinged on Katara also being okay with this. As it was, that idea was no longer viable, because he doubted he could get Toph on board anymore. So.
Mai was the girl that many Fire Nation officials were rooting for. She had the poise and grace that they thought a Fire Lady should possess. Zuko wasn't thrilled with the idea of marrying her, at least, not as their relationship was now. A small part wondered if he managed to get Mai alone again, if she'd become more like the friend in his childhood years. She'd never been overly chatty, looking back, but she had been a companion.
Yue was soft-spoken and just as poised as Mai, but much nicer. If he considered his future children in the mix (which he had to), Yue was a more appealing choice. They sometimes had awkward moments of silence, but he figured that could be fixed with time.
Suki was also on his list of people he could see himself marrying, at least, in another life in which Katara had never come to participate in the Choice. A lot of what he liked about Suki was what he liked about Katara - her strong will, her sparring abilities, her political interest - so he worried if he married her, it would always be a competition between her and a girl that he couldn't have chosen if he wanted to-Katara. All things came back to her.
It was all rubbish anyway, every girl he considered just felt so lifeless next to Katara. Katara and her waterbending. Katara and her inquisitive eyes, which held the ocean. Katara and her warm, earth-toned skin. Katara and-
"Zuko." His father's velvet voice purred over the table. "Would you kindly come back to join us?"
Zuko lifted his chin from where it rested on his fingers. Had his Uncle called him out, he would have apologized for his absent mindedness. However, since it was his father, Zuko would not give him such satisfaction.
"I haven't left, father," Zuko said shortly. "We were discussing the reparations to the Hall of Histories, were we not?" he countered. He'd learned since he was a very young boy that not listening could sink him deep into trouble, so as much as one part of Zuko's mind whirled around the Southern Water Tribe girl he was besotted with, the other part listened and digested whenever his father opened his lips.
"Just checking." Ozai raised an eyebrow.
"A future Fire Lord shouldn't need to be 'checked'," Azula threw in. "What could be more important than these meetings, Zuko?"
If they were children, say even the ages of fourteen and twelve, Zuko would have heard a teasing tone in her voice, and he would have replied back that Azula had no to right to tease him, when she was burning her notes at the edges or ripping tiny holes in her stockings in boredom, too.
But they were not children, and there was only malice in her tone.
"Now is hardly the time to be attempting to undermine your brother, little cousin," Lu Ten said, a warning in his tone. "Isn't there enough upheaval without so you so gaudily attempting to steal what your brother has? You are like a child, taking Zuko's toys just because it so displeases you to not have something also."
"The Throne is not a toy! We've all accepted that things are changing after the attack, so why not a change in the lineup for the ruler, as well? It's been done once before," Azula added, staring down Lu Ten with a wicked smile.
"So it is not just to do it again." Uncle Iroh frowned. "Azula, your comments have been noted but have grown tiresome on all of our ears."
"Let them," Azula barked out. "He is hardly acting as a prince, did you see the way he was kissing Lady Katara-"
"Princess Katara. As is his right," Ozai broke in, but Zuko wouldn't say his father was on his side. He wasn't sure that he was on Azula's side though, or else she would have been given the throne months ago. Ozai was on no one's side but his own. "It is his prerogative, may I remind you – daughter - that Zuko may kiss whomever he pleases, if they are in the Prince's Choice."
Azula was not dumb. Whenever Ozai stepped in, she would shut up. Also, as there were only immediate family members sitting at the table, there were not many minds to enchant with her poisonous words. Her family had heard them all, and most of them could spin words as skillfully as she, so they knew her silver tricks. Zuko had never had that skill, but he trumped her in just about everything else, he liked to think. Maybe not firebending, either, but that was a work in progress.
Zuko shot an appreciative glance toward his cousin and uncle. He was especially glad that there were no hard feelings about the fact that their lineage's birthright had been removed. As it was, Zuko did not care much for the throne. It may have sounded awful to say, but he thought that Lu Ten would have made a fair and just Fire Lord. He was absolutely sure, with every fiber of his being, that Uncle Iroh would have been a better Fire Lord than his father. Had the hands of fate swung the other way, Zuko could not have been upset.
But that was not so. Zuko was the heir apparent and this left him, more times than not, very much alone in the world.
He was thrown back to an event, years ago, but a moment that has never left him.
He recalled being young, hardly thirteen, and Azulon was beckoning him to his bedside with a spindly and wrinkled finger. He'd swallowed down his terror at being called to face his very imposing grandfather alone, and bravely approached the bed, his shoulders squared.
At the time, his grandfather had been gravely ill. The Fire Sages had warned the family that he could go any day, so Zuko was told very firmly not to do anything to upset his grandfather. He'd gotten a murderous look from his father when Zuko has responded, "Do anything to upset him? He's likely going to upset me!' Azulon did end up biting the bullet, a whole year later, but remained in a state of perpetual sickness up until the end of his days. Zuko thought this was only fair.
He recalled the smell of something smoldering, something burning. Azulon always smelled like that, and not a pleasant fire smell, but a noxious one. When Azulon had grasped Zuko's wrist with a startling strength, Zuko had nearly cried out.
Azulon pulled Zuko down to his lips, his breath coming out in rasps and his whole body quaking with sickness.
"All living things die alone," he'd said, forcing the words from his lips, "And so shall you."
Then, he released Zuko just as suddenly as he'd grabbed him and turned over. Zuko had stumbled out of the bedroom and into the gardens, where he'd heaved his stomach, but only brought up bile.
Something about his words had been so prophetic, so startling. The words of a very ill elder shouldn't have shaken him so much, but truth be told...it did. It was the certainty with which Azulon had said it, the near smugness in his voice. The way he'd said it would never leave Zuko.
Even at that age, there had been discussion of Zuko ascending to the throne instead of Lu Ten. Zuko, at that point, had thought his father's plight near impossible. It was in the moment that Azulon told Zuko this, and no one else, that Zuko knew deep down one day he would rule. It felt like his grandfather's words went without saying, but that promise weighed heavier on Fire Lords than anyone else.
And so shall you.
And so shall you.
And so shall you.
A part of Zuko had prepared himself for this, for this loneliness, for this gripping coldness. Azulon had died in his sleep with not another soul around. And, even if someone had been in the room, he was so estranged from any other person that he would have died alone anyway, dying alone in the spirit of the sense. Azulon -better than anyone - would know this truth.
Then, he'd met Katara. For a wild, fledgling second, he'd thought that the few and final words his grandfather had ever spoken to him would never come to pass.
Still, now, he wasn't so sure.
He knew that as an adult - as the future Fire Lord - he should not let such things bother him in the present. He had the ability to forge his own destiny, and further than that, he had the ability to ask anything of his people. It would be for naught if he forced their love, and he wanted to be a better Fire Lord than his three predecessors - though he was sure his father would tell him his plans would make him worse, would make him weak.
Frankly, Zuko did not want to be the Fire Lord if it meant ruling through tyranny and fearmongering. And, since he was about to inherit the throne all too soon, he was in a position to be deciding such things.
Zuko turned his focus back to the meeting. Uncle Iroh was going on about the crown molding in the Hall of Histories and arguing that maybe some mirrors would be a nice addition, and Ozai was waving his hand in a firm dismission. It was nothing exciting (this whole meeting hadn't been 'exciting') but Zuko was semi-glad he didn't need to focus on it, anyway.
The door opened and Aang appeared, itching the fingerless gloves that covered his arrows. While the rumors had been spread to the public, through no effort of the Royal Palace, that Aang was covered in horrid burns, Zuko's family believed otherwise. He'd managed to convince his father that the sect that Aang, er, Kuzon had grown up with had been very religious and very covered, and it would offend the old gods to show an abundance of skin. He'd been able to find an old Fire God somewhere that had believed the sweat built up from uncomfortably heavy clothes was spiritual and it was apparently enough.
It, so far, seemed to work. Kuzon didn't go out of his way to have times in which Ozai would see him other than required attendance.
"Great Uncle." Aang bowed respectfully in Ozai's direction. Zuko could see the way that Aang's jaw clenched, how he forced the words out with some difficulty. Aang had been unsettled since the discovery in the caverns, to say the least.
"Kuzon, I take it that classes have concluded for the day?"
"Yes, sir." Aang sat next to Lu Ten, where he was instructed to sit during family meetings. His presence had grown over time. At first, Ozai hardly took note of him. But, slowly, as his stay in the palace had extended, his participation began to be more of a regular occurrence, because let it never be said that the Royal family did not honor the covenant of blood.
"How is your training going?"
"Fine," Aang answered stiffly. After the attack on the palace, Ozai had insisted that Aang start taking part in military training. Zuko found it hard to disagree, especially since Aang could only whip out his firebending in a pinch. Having other skills would be most valuable.
They'd tried to keep Aang out of the military as long as possible. Having him in a situation in which he would have to train shirtless was obviously a problem, not to mention that Aang was a pacifist by upbringing.
Zuko could not budge his father on this decision, however. Aang was funneled into the sessions. Iroh had noticed Aang's unease and convinced the Junior Captain to allow Aang to remain covered, as long as it did not hinder Aang's learning. So far, so good. However, that didn't mean it wasn't difficult for Aang to acclimate to this lifestyle. The military was structured and taught with an iron fist. It had adopted an 'eat or be eaten' mentality that related not only to training, but how they should approach undesirables in the field. Ozai was the one to thank for that, Zuko thought with frustration.
It was what Ozai did when backed into a wall: respond with war and violence. It was all he'd ever known. He was hailed as the one who revamped the entire military structure as Zuko was doing with the trade routes. He knew the military better than any living man.
It had made the Fire Nation an impenetrable nation, until the Equalists. In response, Ozai was just throwing more violence at the problem. While Zuko highly doubted that if they threw daisies and banjos at the Equalists they'd surrender, his father was taking things to maniacal levels by demanding every son over the age of 12 should go into the military training.
"Oh, Kuzon is too humble," Iroh said at Ozai's less-than-pleased face. "He is a rare find. He already shows restraint when needed, but is able to hold his own swimmingly."
Aang blushed at the praise, however he still looked upset. Zuko knew that Aang would hate to be known by a military status one day, if the whole affair with his true identity lasted longer than anyone expected.
"I'm glad to hear that. I cannot afford in another attack for you to be undefended, Kuzon. While Guardsman Shoji has shown great initiative, we must always expect the worse," Ozai said. "I am pleased you are here for the last bit of the meeting, nephew."
"Oh?" Aang asked, shooting a nervous look to Zuko, but Zuko had no idea why Ozai would want Aang around.
"We have a matter of grave importance to discuss, for the moment family and need-to-know only, and I wish not to repeat my suspicions…" He paused for a second. "I believe the Avatar has returned."
Zuko choked on his own breath, managing a strangled, "But it's been 104 years, Father." He covered his horror with faux disbelief.
"I know, quite a time for the spirits to be quiet." Ozai was stroking his beard. "And I hadn't thought it possible until very recently."
"It is not possible," Uncle Iroh insisted firmly. "Whatever you have heard-"
"It's not what I've heard, through the whispers through the palace are suffocating," Ozai cut him off. "It's what I've seen. The day of the attack, the idols of the past Avatars lit up with a brilliance that cannot be explained away. We all must assume that the Avatar is the number one enemy of the Fire Nation and is working with the Equalists to disassemble us as we know."
There was a stunned silence. Zuko scrutinized his father carefully, trying not to let his internal thoughts show on his face. He'd assumed his father was puppeting the Equalists. Was he still, and this was his way of creating an excuse to kill the Avatar if he found him? Or, were his father's thoughts genuine, and he had nothing to do with the Equalists?
The sureness in his father's voice made him actually think the latter, which would do him no good to have his suspicions back to square one. He decided his father was a master manipulator and he should equally be prepared to believe either one of the two options.
Belatedly, he thought of Aang. He resisted the urge to swing his head to his friend too sharply, but instead looked at Lu Ten and Aang as if to ask 'do we believe this?'Aang's face was as white as a sheet, and Zuko wasn't sure he was breathing. He seemed frozen in the spot, until Zuko caught his eye.
Aang slowly morphed his face into one of half-concern, half-interest. Zuko had spent years with Aang practicing his poker face and today - more than ever - it was a necessary mask.
"Okay, so…" Lu Ten licked his lips nervously, frowning. "104 years? That's what, three generations? So, it's back to a Firebender now?"
Sweat beaded on Aang's head. It seemed if Ozai believed this, and it was a fair assessment, then Aang was still in the danger zone, since his cover was as a firebender.
"Actually, I have reason to believe it's still the same airbender." Ozai leaned back on his grand chair, pressing all his finger together at the tips, a rather pensive look gathering on his face. "And if that's true, then this Avatar is a master already and our most important mission."
"There are no more airbenders, Father," Zuko attempted to scoff out. "They all died a long time ago."
"So I thought too, but I have gotten rather disturbing reports that their kind are popping up, one here, one there." Ozai waved his hands to indicate 'here and there'. "And we can only assume that any airbender is going to side with their leader, or have information about where we can find him or her."
"You can't be serious!" Lu Ten argued. "Implicating an entire race to the same crimes, the crimes you claim?"
"Son," Iroh whispered sternly, "Be cautious of what you say next."
"I knew you'd see the logic, my brother," Ozai said, nodding.
"Logic? You misspeak, brother." Iroh's face was furious. "You are speaking of blind hate and fear."
"Father fears nothing!" Azula snarled. "How dare you insinuate-"
"Azula, please," Ozai said softly, and she sat back, frowning and glaring down her Uncle. "I do fear for the safety of my family. These airbenders are dangerous, make no mistake."
"What?" Aang finally spoke up. "They're peaceful people! Pacifists, if I recall my history correctly," Aang added on as casually as Zuko would have.
"The old Air Nomads, perhaps. These are Air Nomads born of years of feeling repressed, feeling anger for a sickness that nature deigned them to have. They are not like what we remember."
Zuko had to grip the handles of his chair so he didn't spring up at the way his father pretended that nature had anything to do with the massacre of the airbenders.
Or, perhaps he truly did not know.
There was a lot he was questioning of his father lately.
Either way, Zuko was disgusted at what his father was suggesting. It sounded too good, it almost sounded reasonable. Ozai was able to twist his words all too easily, and Zuko could see how the average lay person would just feed right into the picture of terror and suspicion his father painted.
"So what do you say we do with these airbenders?" Azula asked, a malicious glint sparkling in her eyes.
"We treat any airbender found as a traitor, first off." Ozai had had time to think of this. He answered without hesitation. "We question them and if they refuse to comply, we dispose of them. They'll be useless to us anyway, and we cannot risk them escaping a prison."
"We could send them to the Boiling Rock," Zuko pressed his father. "That place is secure!"
"Zuko, you don't to be painted as an airbender sympathizer, do you? As an Equalizer sympathizer?" Ozai asked, eyes wide in faux horror.
"Asking for mercy is not the same thing." Iroh was staring at Ozai like he never really saw his brother before now. Maybe he had always clung to some desperate hope he would mend his ways or be a better person than they expected.
"And risk them poisoning the minds of other inmates? Of escaping? Of letting their cancerous ways grow like fungus? I think most would agree with me there is only one way to deal with their kind," Ozai said, throwing the blame off of himself, as he always did. Zuko knew he could bend the council to his will to make this whole thing seem like the people's wish and not his own.
"I have decided this matter must be handled with utmost care. I have called in an old friend and a formidable ally to spearhead this movement." Ozai looked to the side, waving a hand to a guard. The pair opened the grand doors to the war council room, and a man waltzed in, his military boots making sharp clacks on the floor and his medals of honor and accomplishment tinkling against the polished metal of his uniform.
"Captain Zhao. I would say I was surprised, but there are few as...determined as you," Uncle Iroh said, eyes narrowing with clear displeasure. Zuko locked his jaw. On the few occasions he'd met Zhao, he'd disliked him instantly. His uncle's attitude toward the man did not encourage him to budge such sentiments.
"General Iroh, haven't you heard? It's Commander Zhao now." Zhao set his helmet on the table, bowing deeply to Ozai.
"I had not, considering all military rank changes go through me, do they not, brother?" Iroh raised an eyebrow to Ozai.
"Yes, but desperate times call for desperate measures. I officiated it. I thought I'd save you some paperwork," Ozai dismissed it simply.
"Thank you," Iroh replied, but Zuko had a feeling his uncle was feeling anything but thankful. He watched the sizzling tension between his father and his uncle for a hard moment before Iroh blinked, breaking it. Zuko wondered, if the paperwork had come across Iroh's desk, if maybe he would have denied it.
"I'd hardly say these are desperate times," Lu Ten said, speaking when his father would not.
"I disagree, young Prince," Zhao crooned, turning to Lu Ten, his tone belittling despite the fact that he was only a handful of years older than Lu Ten; ten, if Zuko recalled correctly. "Wouldn't you say that any assault on the Fire Nation and its Lord calls for a state of emergency?"
Lu Ten licked his lips, but stayed quiet. However, his eyes remained narrowed with heavy suspicion.
"Commander Zhao, what are your plans to deal with these rebels?" Azula asked, leaning forward with a glee that sickened Zuko.
"Well, we take any whisper of an appearance much more seriously. Now that I am a Commander, there will be a task force of guards who will follow me to wherever we hear of an airbender showing up. No corner of the globe is too far to eradicate the vermin they are." Zhao took a seat at the table, which usually would be considered an affront on the most dire levels, but Ozai didn't seem to mind. "We take the ones that seem to know anything. We stop at nothing to learn what knowledge they possess, and then we finish what the plagues failed to do 100 years ago."
"You're still talking about the eradication of a whole group of people," Lu Ten whispered quietly, shaking his head.
"A war always has casualties. However, think of it as...a generosity I'm giving them." Zhao titled his head. "If we allowed them to live, no doubt there would be assassination attempts on their lives for endangering the throne. We will do it humanly."
Zuko bit back the question of how killing anyone could be considered doing something 'humanly'? And, further, did they think the plague was a softer way to go? Did they know the horrors of what the 'plague' had done to the airbenders years ago?
Suddenly, Zuko felt an even stronger urge to dispose of the journal in his trunk. He itched to go find it now and make sure that it never fell into the hands of Zhao or the likes of him.
"In all, the plan is simple, truly." Zhao was still talking. "But no doubt will it still be difficult on many levels. Lord Ozai has already agreed to allow me to take some of the training guards for my platoon, to teach them in the field, which is much more to truth than training against dummies or stick figures. Master Kuzon, I hear you've recently joined the training ranks, no?"
Zuko breathed in hard, trying not to let his heart hammer.
"Yes." Aang's answer was sharp, resounding.
"Well, how about you come with me? It would surely raise your status."
"A marvelous idea. Having a member of the Royal Family on this expedition will show the people that we stand behind it, as well as broaden Kuzon's abilities," Ozai said before Aang could decline or come up with an excuse.
Zuko, with everyone else, turned to Aang. He could see Aang very desperately trying not to break face, trying to even look excited. There was a pregnant pause in which Aang said nothing at all, and Zhao frowned.
Under the table, Zuko kicked Aang's shins. If Aang didn't speak up now...well, Zuko disliked this too, but Aang had to agree. Ozai had played his hand.
"I would be honored," Aang finally managed, grinning at Zhao. "If possible, perhaps we could push it back? I just began, and to be honest, I still need to master a few basics."
"Well, the airbender factions have been quiet," Zhao said. "So, we won't be shipping out tonight." He seemed genuinely upset about this. The relief from not just Aang, but from his Uncle and cousin as well, was palpable.
In his head, Zuko was already running through scenarios to get Aang out of his, rapidly shoving away the ones that would not work, not even considering those that would lead to Aang being discovered, and entertaining a handful. He wondered if his uncle was doing the same logistical equations too, though he figured it was because his uncle could not approve of this mission.
"Yes, a shame. A show of force would be quite what we need right now," Ozai sighed, stroking his beard.
"Ah, the unsettled few," Zhao said, and for once, Zuko felt very out of the conversation.
"They're just idiots, hardly a concern," Azula laughed. "You can't seriously think they're a danger?"
"Excuse me, what are you all discussing?" Zuko asked, deciding that asking now rather than waiting until it was far past the time to admit ignorance was better.
"I suppose you've been busy with the Ladies, haven't you?" Ozai just blinked at Zuko. "But I find it hard to believe you haven't heard about the few Earth Kingdom leaders that are considering an attack on us, since we've been 'weakened'."
"Oh," Zuko frowned. "Those."
He would have to be deaf not to hear about it. First, the Earth Kingdom leaders who discussed this were not as quiet as they thought they were. Second, when you had loyal serpents at your beck and call, few conversations were truly ever in confidence. Third, it just made political sense that there would be some people begging for thread after such an upset.
"You don't seem worried."
Zuko rolled his answer around his tongue before he spoke. "For once, I agree with Azula. I don't think it's a concern. None of the Earth Kings have the power to overthrow us, even if they tried. Plus, I hope we wouldn't need to remind them what would happen if they made an attempt."
Not that Zuko wanted that to happen, or thought fear was the right way to go. Nevertheless, his father did manage to keep a firm grip on his colonies.
"Shame," Zhao chuckled. "A public treason beheading can be quite the event."
Zuko felt ill just looking at Zhao. If he considered an execution a fun family event, Zuko loathed to think what he'd do to any airbenders to get the information he thought they knew.
"Brother, look at the time," Uncle Iroh said after a tense moment. Ozai gazed out the window.
"I see what you mean. Dinner will be ready shortly and we've been in here much too long. I think we've made a good dent in the list," Ozai said, leaning forward to examine a list of topics he'd written out, mostly on certain restorations of the palace. It was dry as hell, but it wasn't murderous rhetoric, so Zuko much preferred it.
Aang was out of the hall first, just a smidge too fast for normality. Luckily, anyone who would have reason to worry about why seemed preoccupied. Ozai had broken off to speak to Zhao and Azula hung around, like a puppy, eagerly waiting to hear anything of the plans.
Zuko felt torn. On one hand, he felt a certain responsibility for any airbenders out there (adopt one, adopt them all), and lingering may shed some more light on Zhao's plans, but after today, Aang was no doubt in a bad place.
Zuko picked his option without a second thought. Katara had told him once he was a bad politician, but a good person. Of course he'd go see if Aang was okay.
xXxX
Aang stumbled through the doors of his personal quarters, beelining for the bathroom. He felt his knees buckle and before he knew it, his forehead was pressed flush against the toilet, his whole body shaking. Deep ripples passed over his shoulders like an earthquake and he felt his lunch come up violently. He coughed until it was just bile, and then coughed some more.
He was being told to go and murder his own people. The thought made him feel ill again, but his throbbing headache took precedence now that his stomach had been emptied.
He fell back on his haunches, wiping his hand across his mouth. The headache had been unending, honestly. Ever since the night of the attack, there had been a blinding pain in his temples that hadn't subsided.
"Shut up, shut up," Aang commanded in a hushed, but furious, whisper. Alas, it did little to help.
He'd heard the whispers. Not the whispers everyone else was talking about, the whispers of more airbenders, miraculously, or the whispers of some foolhardy Earth Lords planning a coup (or, theorizing and dreaming about staging one). No, Aang was hearing whispers that only existed inside of his head.
Now that the Spirit Link had been established a second time, the Avatars of the past were crawling out of the woodwork of his mind, assuaging him at every second with past memories as well as ongoing commentary.
It was enough to drive anyone freaking batty.
They had a lot to say about Commander Zhao's announcement.
Sometimes, an Avatar must be a warrior, before anything else. You are less Air Nomad than you are the Avatar-
That was Kyoshi, who had one of the more militant perspectives.
Ozai will make a mistake, have no fear. It will not be long until my kin take the throne, Agni willing. In the meantime, I'd suggest-
Ah, don't listen to Roku! What does he know of modern day Fire Lords, since he thought he knew Sozin so well. If you ask me-
"I haven't asked you," Aang snapped to empty air. "So please, just please, go away."
Nothing, but, it was worth a try.
He wondered if he'd accepted the spirit link earlier if this would have been more gradual. Or, was it always like this, a room of too many people?
The Avatars have always held a place inside the current Avatar's mind, however, this is a special circumstance you have in all areas.
Agh, even his thoughts were not his own anymore.
Technically Aang, these are our thoughts too, since we are all the same person. We are like your conscious, but a bit more formally present.
"A lot more present!" Aang shoved himself up, leering his elbows fall on his vanity as he splashed water onto his face. Luckily, Roku was the main 'speaker' if you will, who he preferred to the others. It was the 'him' before him, after all, which probably was why. He didn't think he'd ever get used to his mind feeling so...full.
"Kuzon?" There was a gentle rap on the door, accompanied by the nervous shuffling of Zuko.
"Yeah, come in," Aang sighed, wiping his face off with a rag.
When Zuko entered, there was a moment of silence. Then, gingerly, Zuko reached inside of his armor and pulled out the journal that made Aang's head swim and his vision blur.
"I was keeping it in my chest of drawers, but now I think I shouldn't let it go." Zuko was the first to speak, switching to the Nomadic Tongue. After Sozin's conquest, he switched all of the nations he ruled to a common language, something that was an amalgamation of mainly Fire Nation words, with some Earth Kingdom roots. Nearly everyone spoke this tongue now, and only smaller communities held onto their native language. The surprise that the Southern Water Tribe had learned it too was staggering, but Sokka had explained it to Zuko, pointing out that it would have been foolish not to learn the enemy's language. At this point, it was just convenient. Aang knew every language, even the obscure ones, if a past Avatar had known it. Early on, in their travels, Aang had taught Zuko how to speak Nomadic, and it was coming in handy now more than ever. It wouldn't be odd for Zuko to know a dead language, since the study of dead languages was a Royal habit, though his sister learned languages like Old Fire Tongue and The Language Before Bending. "And we should get rid of it as soon as possible, with what Zhao is suggesting…"
Aang didn't answer, not at first.
"I just, I don't know how much longer I can do this, Zuko." He crossed his arms, sighing. Zuko pulled out a chair for him, and Aang sat down next to someone he considered to be his brother.
"I know."
It didn't need to be said that Aang was referring to literally everything. The military training, during which he was just waiting for a slip up, causing everyone to know everything. Masquerading as Kuzon, as while he'd grown used to living in the Palace, it didn't mean he'd grown comfortable. Even being the Avatar, specifically an Avatar in hiding, felt like a bit too much to handle sometimes.
"We all know," Aang grumbled. "I'm failing, Zuko. And these voices…"
"Voices?" Zuko jerked his head up.
Aang bit his lip. He'd forgotten he hadn't gotten around to telling Zuko about that yet. "Yeah. Voices. Past Avatars, giving unsolicited advice...all the time."
I'd hardly say my advice is unsolicited! If you think a question, how can you expect no answer!
"Shut up, Kuruk."
Zuko was staring wide-eyed at Aang. "You mean, you hear all of them, all the time?"
"Yeah. It's giving me a headache the size of an air bison. I think I need a spiritual teacher too, someone to guide me through this. The past Avatars couldn't have survived like this, they'd never get anything done!"
Zuko was biting his nails. "We have a lot of problems."
Aang's shoulders deflated. "Yeah. I don't know how I can go and do that to my kin."
"Well…" Zuko began with a slowness Aang did not enjoy. "Maybe it's not the worst thing?"
"You're joking."
"No, I mean, you'd be right at the center of information. I mean, if you get in good with Zhao, get him to trust you, you can learn where these airbenders are. And maybe, they all just vanish or go underground before you get to them, or you find ways to 'kill them' without doing so. They wouldn't pop up again, that's for sure, because I'd send them to Dhakiya and-"
Aang broke through the voices that were telling him how sound Zuko's plan was to squint.
"What does Dhakiya have to do with anything?"
Aang vaguely recalled the dark-haired, quieter twin that had been sent home a long time ago, under very abrupt circumstances. However, he failed to see how she connected to any of this. Frankly, Aang had hardly given her a second thought when she was in the palace, much less since she'd left.
Zuko clasped his hands in front of his face, inhaling. "Aang. I'm going to tell you something and you have to promise not to get upset."
"Oh, that's always a merry old way to start something," Aang scoffed, looking at Zuko with an irritated glare. "But now you've caught my attention."
"Dhakiya...she was an airbender. She is, I mean. I sent her away for her safety. She's with Appa."
At the mention of his beloved familiar, Aang's heart constricted. He shoved away questions he had about his pet to focus on what Zuko had just told him.
"And when, Zuko, were you going to tell me?" he asked, voice dangerously low. He rarely used such a tone, but he figured right now was a good time.
"I'm not sure." Zuko's face was red, and Aang knew that he knew how shitty it was to keep this information from him. "It wasn't...I didn't want to upset you."
"And you figured I wouldn't be upset now? Agni, Zuko...that's the first airbender other than myself I would have actually met! I know there have been whispers, but we haven't found any of them."
"I know. That's because the Equalists are disposing of them. I think they're looking for the Avatar too." Zuko's shoulders slumped low. "I think they might be working with my father. Admittedly, recently, I'm unsure. It wouldn't make complete sense, but it would clear up a few things."
"This day just gets better and better," Aang groaned. "You'd better have a damn good reason for not telling me." he glowered, with a venom in his hissed words.
"I thought you'd go into the Avatar state," Zuko said simply, which wasn't unreasonable to assume.
"And what, now that I have-"
"Yeah, now that you have, cat's sort of out of the bag anyway. Small miracles that it happened in a metal, underground bunker," Zuko said, missing the acerbic way Aang had begun his previous comment. Or, he'd heard it and ignored it.
"I'm pissed at you," Aang said, almost as angry at Zuko right now as he was at Ozai. He couldn't believe he'd been left out of his own people's strife. He shoved Zuko. "Get out."
Zuko got up, sighing hard. "I knew you would be angry. So, take a day. After that, we can't afford to hold grudges when there's so much at stake." He left Aang in his room. Aang slammed the door and threw his scarf off in frustration, looking at the blue arrow peeking past his hair, feeling betrayed and stupid. He hated that Zuko had been handling him like a child. He hated he was just finding out now. He hated that he could have done something.
"Not hold a grudge, the gall," Aang muttered, trying to work through these emotions.
He's right, you know.
"Go walk off a cliff, Yangchen."
Notes:
NOTES! (and there's a lot, ya dont have to read them all, but you might find it interesting and worth your while!)
1- This is all the girls that remain: Katara Smellerbe Jin Mai OnJi Suki toph TyLee Yue Alcina Avizeh Kilee Maiha Nadhari Ratana Saoirse
2- So, as this chapter shows, we are getting two shiny new POVs that will continue on! I know Katara wasn't in this one, but this was to kinda shove you all back into the story :) Katara's POV will still be most frequent, followed by Zuko's, and then Aang's.
3- Just a note, as I think I've said before, if I had to pick a ship other than Zutara for Zuko, it would Zuko/Suki! Since, as I wrote, she's his 'number 2' in a sense here
4- I've been making aesthetic boards/mood boards for the OCs! You can find them on my tumblr (youngblodlex22) or 'Art of A Delicate Subterfuge' on archive of our own! So far I have Alcina, Aiga, and Dhakiya's boards done, but if there's someone else ya want to see next, lemme know. Everyone's fav OC seemed to be Aiga (tru) or Shoji (who actually isn't an OC, but is a canon-albeit not very fleshed- character). On that same vein, follow my tumblr because I'll be starting up Daily Fic Recs again, some for Zutara/Atla and lots of other fandoms because I read A LOT of fanfiction!
5- I will be planning on update weekly, every Sunday if I can help it :)
6- Can anyone spot the Lost reference in there? Kudos if ya do!
7- So, as I was writing, I totally forgot that like there was an actual different military vs guard in the Fire Nation. SO how I chose to do it from here on out is that EVERYONE starts out as a general guardsman/is taught the same type of skills/has to guard the Fire Nation palace for at least a year. After that, if they show aptitude for other skills such as Naval intellegence, they can get specially picked for other groups, but at any time the groups can interchange each other; ie Zhao can come and take recruits from the general pool, or he could go to the Air Force if he really wanted and take from there.
8- On that note, everyone was asking for Zhao and his evilness. Who is scared/excited to see him?
9- As you might be able to tell, the Aang in this story is very different in a lot of ways from the Aang in the original serious. First off, he's sixteen, so he has sixteen year old thoughts and problems. I chose to have his Avatar pasts very present in his mind, like constantly there (the show isn't like that) to make things more interesting. More than that, he's been living as member of the Royal Family for four years now, nearly five, so that's really gotta take a toll on someone mentally. He's a little less naieve, a little more sly.
10- I love the idea that the nations actually speak different languages! I read an awesome fic on that once, I'll have to find it. Anyway, though, since Ozai took over, there's a standard Language that everyone knows, and Katara's tribe learned it to be able to communicate terms of surrender and keep intellegence up, which is why everyone is speaking the same. However, lots of cities have their own dialect or even own native language apart from the Fire Nation Standard.
11- So I hear there's an ATLA reboot coming out. I have a lot of very mixed thoughts about it. I don't want to overwhelm these notes with ALL my thoughts about it, but if anyone's interested, I'd be happy to talk about it haha. Also, what are your thoughts on it?
12- Last, I swear! For every 10 reviews someone gives me, ie; review ten times, and you get a drabble written by me of a couple of your choice! I do have a list from the previous fic, and I know that I have those to do, but I'm finishing up my last semester of undergrad so I probably won't have time to do those until after Dec. However, once I graduate, I won't be doing much so I'll have AMPLE time to write! Some of you might have hit that ten review mark from reviewing the last chap, but I'll let people know next chapter what the stats are. On that note also, I try to answer every review I can. I also try to do it after I update a new story. But, there's a lot this time, so if you don't see a reply after this posts tonight I'm working through them and if you don't get one, I'm sorry I didn't mean to miss it!
On that note, let me know what you think of this new chapter!
Chapter Text
"Wait, what? Prince Zuko proposed to you and you said no? Please, oh please, describe his face."
"What part of 'sworn to secrecy' do you not understand, Toph?" Katara asked, throwing a handful of grass at her. "And that's just mean. Heartbroken, as you can imagine." Even thinking of it now caused a lump to grow inside Katara's chest. She'd replayed that moment in her head a million times. And, in at least half of those times, she'd said yes. She had jumped up and down with joy, thrown her arms around Zuko and accepted. In the other half, it had gone the same way, Katara turning him down. And, if anything, those moments were winning by sheer logic of the situation at hand.
Oh, if things were so simple that she could have just said yes.
But they weren't.
"I understand it perfectly. It means don't go gabbing to Avizeh - who we all know is a nasty gossip - about it," Toph said, throwing a whole chunk of earth back at Katara.
"I think it also means not yelling it to high heavens," Suki added dryly. "Because, you know, I think with that tone, Katara's family in the South may have heard you."
"Ach, you two take away the fun. Besides, I would have found out eventually," Toph said with a wicked glint to her milky eyes. "I know everything."
"Which is why I thought I'd tell you first, get any mix ups out of the way," Katara said. Also, frankly, she'd needed to tell someone. Well, she'd told Aiga - of course she'd told Aiga - but Katara wanted to tell her other friends too. She wished she could tell Eva, but she didn't feel comfortable writing it in a message to Eva, along with her other messages. She'd written Eva five times since the announcement and Eva's leaving eight days ago, wanting to make good on her promise that she was going to continue being Eva's friend.
Last she heard, Eva had mentioned that they were going to try to go to the Moon Spirit Pool to see if the holy water could regain her sight, although Yue - who also had been informed - seemed less than optimistic about it.
"The water can't do everything," Yue had said. "It has limits, you know."
'It saved your life,' Katara had wanted to argue back, and saving a life seemed like the biggest 'everything' there was. Katara would be royally miffed if the reason Yue's life was saved but Eva's sight could not be was because Yue was a Princess, but Katara also admitted that the spirits may have saved Yue for reasons beyond any of their control or knowledge, that Yue may be a piece on a larger board they didn't have the height to see.
Katara got the feeling of late that there were a lot of Pai Sho pieces in motion that she was not privy to, of a larger game brewing on the horizon. That the Equalist attack was just the first move of a long, long game. It frustrated Katara.
However, that also meant that the time she had with the girls here was fleeting, and a part of Katara wanted to retain the simplicity of the reason they'd all come; to win Zuko's heart. This was just another reason why Katara felt obliged to share what had happened with Suki and Toph.
"If things were different," Suki said slowly, and although there was no question in her exact words, Katara understood her imploring and slightly pitying gaze. Katara would have been offended that Suki felt sorry for her, but Katara felt sorry for herself. She swallowed hard, and waited. After a couple moments, Suki dropped her look, perhaps thinking Katara wouldn't answer. In reality, Katara was just trying not to be sad all over again.
"I wanted to," Katara said after a second. She was twirling a grass blade between her forefinger and thumb, focusing hard on it, like it held all the answers she was looking for. "I really, truly wanted to."
There was a silence that followed, as though Suki and Toph didn't know how to respond.
"Well, I'm glad you didn't," Toph said flopping back on the ground with a wide grin.
"Toph!" Suki gaped.
"Oh, don't be so high and mighty. You're glad too. I can feel it," Toph said smugly. "Because, well, of course we want you to be happy Katara, and we want Prince Zuko - who can throw a helluva tantrum - to be happy too. However," she said in a grand and slightly nagging voice, "It would just be done. Poof. Nothing more. Suki would have to return home, the rest of the girls would be scrambling for marriages, and I would have to...I dunno, take off into the night. 'Cuz, I'm sure as hell not returning home! My parents probably have eight dignitaries lined up for my hand, all at least two decades older than me," Toph finished, breathing hard. She grimaced, collecting her thoughts. "Point being, Sugar Queen, one way or another you're gunna marry Zuko." She held up a finger at Katara's affronted expression. "But to have maybe another couple months to get our turtle-ducks in order is a blessing."
"Well, maybe Zuko could let you remain on as some sort of...emissary or something?" Suki offered up. "He loves you, as a sister."
"Unless it also comes with a marriage offer from someone of importance, I doubt my parents will go for it," Toph said glumly. "Because, well, who'd it be? Lu Ten? Well, I mean, I could marry him but it wouldn't be any real fun. Kuzon? Ha."
She seemed to brush the issue away, as easy as clearing dust from her plate. Katara wished she had the mental ability to do that. "Anyway, at least now I know this has an expiration date."
"It always did?" Katara asked, confused.
"Well, sorta, but like...this is for real. Zuko is such an awkward person that I could have seen him unable to make any real decisions and just stretch this out to infinity," Toph explained. As much as Katara wanted to protest that, there was a kernel of truth to it.
Suki reached over for their plate of finger cakes, which was far away from Toph ruining it with dirt. Toph had argued that dirt was healthy for everyone, and frankly, they should all try to incorporate it into their diet. Unsurprisingly, there were few takers on that.
"So, what now?" Suki asked.
"What do you mean?" Katara said, her eyes looking out over the other sets of girls dotted on the lawn, trying to enjoy the quietness of this moment.
"So, he proposed to you. That's huge. You said no. Do you, ah, stay? Leave? Do you continue on like it just never happened? Pull back on affections? Give more?"
Leave it to Suki to ask the hard-hitting questions, the ones that Katara did not want to answer.
She pressed her lips into a thin line.
"I stay, we discussed that much, at least," she began carefully, unsure how much she wanted to share with them. However, since she'd already dropped the big thing, everything else seemed so little in comparison. "I, well, I'm not sure what's going to happen with us. I really like him, and I want to continue seeing him but…if it makes it easier...I told him to ask someone else. Anyone, even Nadhari." She dropped her voice down to a watery whisper.
"Holy shit," Toph said, covering her mouth.
"Oh, wow," Suki agreed, her brow creasing.
"It might not matter," Katara continued. "It's not safe here anymore. We know Ozai is out for me, and this whole big competition might be just an excuse to get rid of me. It might be already decided, my fate. I can't win against someone like him, no matter how good my bending is!" she said, her voice reaching a slight hysterical tone.
"Yikes. I mean, you're right." Toph sat up, looking serious for a second. "You can't win if Ozai somehow worms his way into fighting you. No one would. Not even me."
Katara's jaw hung open to hear Toph admit such weakness. Suki looked just as unprepared.
Toph looked between them, her face reddening. "But if you ever repeat that, I'll deny it!" she snapped.
"Ozai doesn't care about you, no offense." Suki waved her hand.
"Good," Toph sniffed.
"So, chances are, you'll fight like Kuzon or someone. Someone we know you'll beat. But for Katara..." Suki swallowed. "He said to prove your worth. The worth of fighting to General Iroh is going to be different than to Ozai or to Azula. To them, Agni Kai is usually to death or disfigurement. Are you sure you want to chance that? Wouldn't it be easier to give up now?"
"I'd hate myself if I did." Katara pressed her forehead to the V between her knees. "If I didn't even try. I've been told I'm too stubborn for my own good."
"Yeah, I think I told you that verbatim once," Toph said.
Katara didn't look up, but she gave a half smile. "Yeah," she said, her voice muffled, "You wouldn't be the first."
"Well, first, you need to get lessons from Master Pakku. And, I could teach you some Kyoshi moves, something he wouldn't expect," Suki began in earnest.
"She still would need something else! If she goes against Big Daddy Evil, there's no telling what he could throw at her…"
The voices of her friends faded out as Katara let the sound of her blood pumping through her ears overcome her.
Blood.
Her head snapped up. She heard Suki and Toph still waffling between different options. Katara thought about Toph and metal bending. About the flower. About the fly.
"Guys," Katara whispered.
They didn't hear her.
"Guys," she said more forcefully. They looked over, as though forgetting that the person they were talking about hadn't left. "There's something I could do."
"Well, c'mon, lay it on us!" Toph said.
"I'm not sure if it would even work. If I'm strong enough for it...mentally or physically," Katara began. "Toph, remember when we were at the Spa and I was asking you about metal bending?"
"Yep."
"I can't describe it, but it's something that I've been thinking about in theory for a while. It could be game changer. However, I'm not sure if it can be done, or how ethical it is."
"Katara..." Suki began with a slight disapproval. "Cheating?"
"Yes, please tell!" Toph was far too excited. "Lay it on us."
Katara tried to explain the idea of the blood bending to them. About how she'd realized that living things were made up of liquid, themselves included. How when she tested her theory with the flower, she'd ruined it. About how she'd felt that resistance with the fly. All of it. She tried not to look at their faces, sure they'd call her a villain, be disgusted.
"I haven't tried again," she murmured after a beat where neither of them spoke.
Suki looked deep in thought. Toph looked a little uneasy.
"I've heard of that," Toph said, "but only in stories. Nightmares." Her pale eyes locked with Katara's and though she couldn't see, Katara felt like she was looking right through Katara. "Horror stories. Things to keep kids in their beds at night. The Monster of the South."
"What?" Katara said, shocked she'd never heard a peep about this.
"It's an old one too, I never thought any of it was real. I mean, it makes the person who uses it out to be a...a…" Toph gave a pained look, "You know."
"A menace," Katara bit out blithely. "A scare tactic. A savage Water Tribe beast," she said.
Toph looked down. "Yeah."
Katara quelled her anger, just for the moment. "Well, most myths are based in truth. Which means, there's a good chance this entire theory isn't just in my head. It can be done. Now, trust me, it makes me feel weird and squicky to imagine doing this to any person, to basically take away their free will, but with Ozai…" She trailed off, biting her lip.
"You're not a bad person, we know that, Katara." Suki gave her an encouraging smile.
"I haven't been able to find something, anything, to practice on. I mean, I guess I should be happy there are no mice running around the palace, but that would have been my first choice," she said, trying to insert even a modicum of humor into it.
"Well, do me." Toph stood. "Katara, I am giving you explicit and verbal permission to attempt to control my movements," she said firmly, "so no bad feelings."
Katara hesitated, still unsure.
"Okay," she said softly. "But, if at any time and I mean it feels bad or strange or anything, you tell me," Katara added firmly.
"Let's look at it this way, you can heal me. So, if things go south, you can stitch me back together!"
"Not funny, Toph," Katara mumbled. Toph stood, arms out, tilting her head in a 'come and get me' sort of motion. Katara sat on her knees, tucking her long dress underneath her and shoving her sleeves up to her shoulders. She breathed out slowly, trying to slip into a quasi-meditative state, because this wasn't easy. It wouldn't be easy.
Katara decided just to try to move Toph's arm. She imagined all of the veins and vessels in Toph's arm, and she tried to feel where they were. She had a thought; maybe, if her hands were wet, it would be easier. She had to wet her hands to heal someone, so maybe blood bending was just a different step away from doing that.
She dipped the tips of her fingers into the tea cup next to Suki, sending her an apologetic half-smile, but Suki wordlessly pushed the entire saucer toward Katara for her needs.
She looked back at Toph. Having water, some sort of conductor, seemed to help. There was that resistance, but Katara could almost feel it move.
"Are you gunna-" Toph began.
"Shush! Let Katara concentrate." Suki quieted her with a glare. Toph raised an eyebrow but didn't say anything more.
Sweat beaded on Katara's forehead. She breathed in harder, trying to force the will of a power she hardly understood. Her arms ached, though she'd only been holding them in the air for a couple minutes.
"Just a twitch," Katara murmured, "Please."
If she couldn't use blood bending at all, she had to know now, so she wasn't spending her time on a fruitless endeavor and could bulk up on other skills.
But if she could do this, make it move at all…
Just when Katara was going to give up, Toph's arm flailed. It was ungraceful, and Katara found she couldn't much control it, but it did move. As soon as Katara got it, it was like the cord that connected her to Toph's arm snapped back on her, sending Katara falling back hard on her shoulder blades. Toph stumbled, as though she was shoved by an invisible force. She grabbed her arm, holding it firmly at her side, her eyes wide with shock.
"Woah," she breathed out.
Katara sat up, brushing away her slightly damp hair from her forehead. She felt utterly drained. It felt like she'd finished a bending match that had been going on for hours. She downed Suki's tea, trying to catch her own breath.
"Well, you did it," Suki said slowly.
"What was it like?" Katara turned to Toph. "Did it hurt?"
"No, not hurt." Toph was rubbing her arm. "It was totally crazy. Like, one second I can move my arm on my own terms, right? Next moment, it's like I just couldn't feel it at all. Or, I could, but my ability to move it took a back seat in my mind, and I couldn't connect to it. And my arm moving without my precise thought? Totally batty. Like, a bad cactus juice trip or something. It sorta stung when the connection snapped, and now my arm's asleep," she finished. "But, I can move it myself again." She wiggled her fingers.
"I don't think I can do that again today," Katara muttered. "I need to work up my ability, somehow."
"At least we know it can be done," Suki said, placing her hands on Katara's shoulders. "If you get kicked out because you lose this fight, I'll be so upset. We all will. I wouldn't be surprised if there was a riot on the hands of the capitol." Suki offered a kind look.
"Suki!"
Maiha came to stand above them. She was wearing a skirt that was much shorter than anything Katara had ever seen her in, and her hair was pulled up and out of her face.
"Hello, Maiha," Suki greeted, and Katara echoed with a wave. Toph didn't really acknowledge her at all.
"Hey, so," Maiha chewed on her bottom lip, "I'm sorry to interrupt your tea time, but uh, I wanted to ask if you'd show me some moves. You know, as a non-bender. For the thing," Maiha said, twirling a stray piece of her updo in a finger.
"Of course. I'd be happy to," Suki said. "And we were just about done, right girls?"
"Yeah. Have at it. Knock her out. Literally," Toph said, showing her teeth in a grin. Maiha looked a little green.
"She doesn't mean literally," Katara scolded. Suki brushed herself off, leaving to go across the green with Maiha.
"It's crazy to see everyone so worked up about this fight," Toph commented. "It will surely cull some girls. I mean, Maiha's never gunna win," Toph said dismissively.
"Shame, because she's perfectly nice. Sad that the thing that would take away that chance are these matches," Katara commented.
"Tough nuts," Toph snorted.
"Well, everyone's super understanding about helping each other. I mean, I think we want to win because we're the best, not because Zuko's real choice got cut in a stupid Agni," Katara said.
"Not Nadhari. She's practically giddy about this turn of events."
"Most," Katara amended. "It makes me think we should help how we can."
"Teaching bending? I mean, what Waterbenders are there? I would offer it to the Earthbenders, but they're not at my level, doubt they could keep up," Toph said a little haughtily.
"There's something to discuss. Yue has the literal spirit of waterbending in her. I think it just needs to be opened or a switch turned or something. If we can, should we?"
"How?" Toph frowned.
"Aang," Katara whispered. "He's the Avatar. He could absolutely do it. And then she'd have a fighting chance, because we both know that without it, Yue can't fight. She wasn't raised like that."
"We can't help every poor sob story out there. That would mean telling her he's the Avatar," Toph hissed quietly. "Can we trust her with that?"
Katara paused. "Yes. I think so," she said quickly.
"Nuh-uh. You paused. You have to be unwaveringly sure, Katara," Toph said. "This isn't getting the Prince's hand in marriage, this freaking life and death."
Katara hunched her shoulders. "Yeah," she sighed dejectedly, "I know."
"It's a nice thought. If Yue knew, I'm sure she'd be grateful you spared her a spot in that mind of yours. But realistically, Katara, the fewer people who know about Aang, the better."
Who would have thought Toph would be the voice of reason?
Katara didn't reply.
"I can see you still trying to figure it out," Toph said. "Well, not literally see, but you're giving off major thinking vibes. Did you know that when you think it feels like someone's shaking a can of tea leaves? Fun fact."
"What if Yue didn't know? Like, she didn't see or experience it?" Katara asked.
"What? We knock her out in the night, drag her though the Palace, have Aang do his unlocky thingy and then drag her back and act surprised when she can waterbend?" Toph snorted. At Katara's silence, she ran her hands down her face. "Awe hell no."
"Well, do you have another option? I will feel guilty forever If I don't try!" Katara snapped back.
"I say we put a pin in it. The fight's not for a while. Think hard about what you'd risk for one girl. Think, and I demand this of people very rarely," Toph said.
"I-"
"Everyone!" Whatever Katara was about to argue was cut off as Caecillia strolled into the garden. "Everyone, come here! I have news."
The girls got up, eager and nervous, especially after the last 'news'.
"What is it, Cillia?" Anasemla asked, biting her nails.
"I've managed to get the exact, written out, binding rules of this supposed fight. So we know exactly what this is. No surprises, no shocks. It's all in a legal document now," Caecillia said with a tinge of pride. Katara blinked; never would she have thought to procure such an item. From the looks on the girls' faces, it seemed most had similar thoughts.
"Where'd you think to do that?" Jin said.
"I don't know. I mean, I've just grown up around this Royal Family stuff my whole life. Nothing is set until it's in writing. It matters," Caecillia said, kneeling down and rolling out the scroll she carried. She read it over, skimmed it, nodding to herself. "Okay. So, each girl will randomly have to fight one Royal Family member. The 'random' choice will be determined by the Royal Family picking names out a vase with a Fire Sage watching their every move. Each family member will be going up against three girls. The order will be put in place by the Fire Sages, as so that each member of the Royal Family gets at least one match after they've just gone to cool off. As for us; we just have to 'prove the worth of the individual's battle skills to the discretion of the opponent'. Ugg, that's vague as hell, crap. However, that means that we don't have to 'beat' them in order to pass, we just have to prove ourselves."
"How will we know if we don't pass? Can a member of the Royal Family just cut it off right away and say 'nope, not worthy'?" Toph asked.
Caecillia continued to scan through the very long parchment.
"Nuh-uh. You choose when you tap out. It's up to you to give up, though it comments that being knocked unconscious also constitutes as being disqualified. However, this wording means that if you lose an arm - extreme case - and want to keep fighting, seems like you can."
"They could cut off our arm?" On Ji squeaked.
"You'd probably want to fold before it got to that part." Ty Lee patted her shoulder.
"Oh, okay, it talks about what's allowed in the ring as a contestant here, for the girls. The Royal Family is allowed only one weapon, bending included. I mean, that makes it fairer for us, in a way. That's good," Caecillia said. "For us on our end, we can bring up to three weapons into the ring with us, and bending counts as a 'weapon'. They even wrote in something for you, Toph: metal bending vs earthbending is two different weapons, so if you wanted to use both, you'd have to write them down."
"That's utter bullshit," Toph swore, causing a couple of the girls to look uncomfortable with her language, "Absolute fucking stupid! I just knew they'd screw us over one way or another." She crossed her arms, scowling, "Guess it doesn't matter, though. I'll win this with one 'weapon', thank you very much."
"What happens if Toph didn't write down metal-bending, and then she used it anyway?" On Ji asked, looking warily at the pissed-off Earthbender.
"If you use a weapon that is not on the list that you'll give to the Fire Sages, you will be eliminated," Caecillia continued.
"What about Mai?" Alcina jerked a finger toward her. "She has like, twenty knives on her body at all times."
"Twenty-two at the moment," Mai agreed. Katara, as well as many others, tried to covertly look Mai up and down to figure out where she was squirreling away all those items. A part of Katara didn't want to know all the places Mai was hiding them.
"Uhm, yeah, good question," Caecillia said, going back in. "Okay, so with weapons, what counts as (1) weapon is however many are conventionally sold in the Fire Nation together. Like, you buy a sword by itself, but buy double swords obviously in doubles, so you can bring both in and have it count as one. It has a super long list for our convenience, but, hmm…" Caecillia looked Mai up and down. "I see you have throwing knives. Those are sold in sets of three, so you can bring three in that counts as a single weapon. And shurikins are sold in six, and you get the idea."
This sent the girls into a twitter, wondering about, if they wanted weapons, how they could go about getting them.
"Weapons must be purchased by the individual," Caecillia said. "Or gifted. No borrowing, basically, so they can log each one. We have to log our weapon choices no later than four days before the fight."
This was problematic to Katara. If she wanted to use blood bending, she had to tell someone. And, if she wasn't able to use it or master it enough, she would have wasted a spot on her list where she could have put another weapon she could use.
"Will the family know?" Killee asked. "Like, if we're logging it, then they could prepare, whereas we don't know what they're using! How is that fair?"
"I mean, it's not hard to guess," Mai said cooly. "They'll all be using firebending."
"Still," Kilee said, looking red in the face.
"Lemme see…" Caecillia held up her finger. "Nope, nope. Stays between the Fire Sages, it's for their benefit. Because, if anything goes wrong, they have the final say of whether a girl passed or not. Not Prince Zuko, not Fire Lord Ozai."
"Like that's actually gunna happen," Top snorted under her breath.
Caecilla rolled up the scroll. "There's a bunch of other caveats and stuff. I'll try to compile a list of what's important, but if anyone has questions about a specific thing, I'll keep this with me. It can be confusing wading through the proper jargon used, but I'm quite used to it."
"Thank Agni we have you!" On Ji looked completely overwhelmed.
"How do we know you're not making this up?" Avizeh asked suspiciously. "That you're not telling us all the wrong stuff to throw us off and make us lose?"
"You can read it yourself, or someone who also knows all of the terms could, like Ty Lee or Mai." Caecialla tipped the scroll toward them. "I know there's no reason to believe me, but I think this whole affair is just stupid, so."
Ty Lee grabbed it out of her hand. She read the first foot. "Well, everything Cilla has claimed is true." She squinted, scratching her head. "I'd believe her. Plus, her aura is as clean as snow."
"Thanks?" Caecilla laughed uneasily, since Ty Lee was a person who was hard to respond to sometimes. "Anyway, I know a lot about weapons too, and I'd be willing to take you through the basic things sold here, or what you could have your handmaids get. We had to learn it all in Fire Military Training."
"You were in the military?" Suki sounded shocked. Caecillia, who wore the frilliest dresses and the softest makeup, who never wore pants and always had the poise of a future princess, who knew what cakes to eat at dinner with which utensils.
"Mhh. My parents figured that if I wasn't going to marry a Prince, I was going to claw my way up the military ladder. Of course, then the Choice started up again, and I was plucked out of my station," Caecillia explained. "I didn't like it, but I was good at it."
"I knew that's how I recognized you!" Ty Lee gasped. "I talked to you like two years ago, when you were in the Chin province."
"Yep, yeah, that was me," Caecillia sighed. "Well, at least it's coming in handy now. I don't really like talking about it," she said, clearly wanting the matter in general to be dropped, apart from what she was more willing to share.
Luckily, the girls seemed to get the memo.
"Anyway, tonight come to my bed area and I can sort of show you some weapons. Tomorrow, we can practice with them. I'm going to go and study this," she said.
About five or six girls followed after her to ask specific questions they had thought of, and Caecillia left with her nose buried in the parchment and fielding questions.
Toph let out a breath through her nose. "This is going to be much different than I thought," she admitted.
"Different hard? Different bad? Different…?" Katara fished, glancing down at Toph. Toph gathered up the last two finger cakes from the blanket they had spread out, shoving them both in her face.
"Different. Just different."
XXxxXX
Zuko was anxious.
Even if Katara had not seem him of late, she knew this to be true. When she caught a glimpse of him, he always seemed to be ringing his hands or answering eight different people's questions at one time. Most of the girls assumed this busyness was due to the recent attack. Many things needed to be fixed - from the small items such as the broken dishware up to the large items like a chaise lounge burned in two - and beyond that, plans needed to be made so it would not happen again. Many girls also did not bother him in that first week or so after. They understood that he was seeing no one, so they could hardly feel like they were being treated unfairly.
This bothered Katara.
She had grown used to their clandestine meetings, even when no one else got them. In the months she'd been here as the favorite of Zuko's, she'd become accustomed to preferential treatment. Now, in the wake of everything, it seemed even she was unable to catch him.
A part of Katara wondered if he was avoiding her after she rejected his proposal.
Still, she wished she could help with his nervous frown, the one that seemed perpetually plastered on his face these days.
Even if the restorations to the palace were not what troubled him, the battles coming up were sure to. This, very carefully, was going to cut a great number of girls whether Zuko wanted them to go or stay. After that, there would only be a handful left. This meant that Zuko would have to pick very soon who he wanted to be his wife, someone other than Katara.
So, Katara felt bad, since she was sure that part of his anxiety was caused by...well, her. Caused by her because she said no and forced him to have to consider someone else. Caused by her because she remained, giving him the slightest hope. Caused by her, because frankly, why else would Fire Lord Ozai command such a spectacle if not in the hopes of eliminating Katara in such a way that even Zuko could not save her? In other words, if she wasn't here, if Ozai had been able to get rid of her, maybe they wouldn't be parading through this circus they were pretending was to vet everyone.
She told three people her final theory, because it gnawed on her like nothing else. It wasn't fair that girls like On Ji, who could make a great future Fire Lady, would be culled only because a lack of warrior skills, which most high-class women weren't taught anyway. It was like asking a fish to walk on land and being upset when it couldn't.
The first was Aiga. Aiga just paused her brushing of Katara's hair when she heard and gave a quiet laugh.
"Katara, even if it were true, I doubt Zuko would ever be upset that you're on his mind. He loves you," she said simply.
It was nice to be reminded. After the whole palace was thrown upside down and Katara had been lumped in with the remainder of the girls while things were settled, it was easy to forget that moment had happened. But, out of everyone in the palace, Zuko was ready to marry Katara with no reservations.
Hearing Aiga confirm it made her feel better, for a day.
When she told Toph, she laughed. "Oh, gosh, Sugar Queen. Must be nice being you. Strange, though, because I thought you were a waterbender," she replied.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Katara scowled, hearing the heavy sarcasm in her friend's tone.
"Well, you just basically insinuated the world revolves around you, right? So that must mean you're the sun, which is basically the root of being a firebender and all…" Toph shrugged. "At least you're always gunna be warm."
After Katara got over her offence, that was also nice to hear. She would never tell Toph that, because her ego was big enough as it was, but she could do with someone telling her that it wasn't all about her. She didn't want it to be all about her. She just had a sinking feeling it was.
So, she told Suki. Suki, who wasn't as loyal to her as Aiga nor as blunt as Toph. Suki, who walked the middle of the line, usually, and always had given Katara sound advice in the past.
"I think it's a mixture. I think Fire Lord Ozai wants Prince Zuko to pick someone fast and this expedites the process. I think he wants you gone. I think he's playing some entirely other game we couldn't guess if we had a thousand tries. I also think worrying about it is playing into exactly the trap he wants us to fall into," Suki said after Katara told her the fears she held.
Yes, leave it to Suki to put things in a perspective that made sense. Katara agreed that it was all of those things, and many more.
If she was freaking out about this, she could only imagine what Zuko must be feeling.
There was one day, in which Katara saw him through a crowd between her moving one way and him another, that he sent her such a look of longing that Katara felt as though she'd already lost him. That in denying him, she'd signed her own release statement.
This was not what she had wanted at all.
Her attempts to reach him were all thwarted; she could rarely catch his eyes long enough to tug her necklace (and, when she did, he just gave a sad frown back and held up his long sheet of things to do), all missiles to the Prince were paused while he got his footing, and it had been days since a meal with the Royal Family.
In her loneliness without him around, Katara had time to truly think. After her own revelation of her feelings, she imagined a world where they'd met under different circumstances. Maybe he wasn't a Prince or maybe she actually was a Princess. Maybe it was in the past or in the future. Maybe their love story wouldn't be so filled with other issues. Katara thought of all the different scenarios in which she simply loved Zuko and he loved her in return and there was nothing else to say about it.
However impossible, it was a nice dream.
XXxxXX
Ty Lee was all alone.
Katara noticed this on her way to the bath house to soak away a long day's practice in the gardens, battling against Alcina and Suki. It was late in the day, far after dinner, but the air outside was still warm despite the darkness of night that had drifted upon the city. Kartara was surprised to see anyone still outside, since most of the girls had retired for the day, and were enjoying after-dinner tea and quiet activities before bed. The gymnast was over in a smaller Zen garden, twisted into an impossible knot that made Katara's bones ache just looking at her.
Seeing Ty Lee alone, in itself, wasn't a strange event. It was that Katara realized, as she passed, that she'd been seeing Ty Lee increasingly alone.
Ever since the attack, Ty Lee had been apart from the group more often than not. Before the attack, Ty Lee was almost always attached to someone, usually Mai. In fact, Katara could count on one hand the amount of times she'd seen the pair separated. And, an even lower number, that in the instance Ty Lee wasn't with Mai, she was with someone else, like Azula or Caecillia. In fact, Katara could only think of two singular times before the palace attack that Ty Lee had been all on her own.
Now, it seemed like this was the norm, not the exception.
This in itself stopped Katara and caused her to divert her bath, at least for a little bit, to investigate.
"Ty Lee...erm, are you okay?" Katara asked.
"Oh, this pose is hardly a problem. I learned it back when I was like seven," Ty Lee said, untangling herself. "But thanks for the concern. I could show it to you if you'd like." She seemed all too eager to have someone to talk to. That wasn't strange, Ty lee was always outgoing.
"No, I meant…" Katara wondered if maybe she was making up this issue in her mind. She hadn't been friends with Ty Lee before the attack, and hardly was now, so maybe Ty Lee spent a lot of time alone and Katara had just never noticed. Then, she saw the look in Ty Lee's eyes, the absolute relief to be talking to Katara. "I just noticed you weren't hanging out with Mai or Azula as much anymore."
"Oh, well." Ty Lee tried to force a smile, but it seemed pale and shallow. "I didn't think it was obvious."
Katara didn't really know how to respond to that. Ty Lee seemed to admit it so freely, in such a melancholy way.
Ty Lee pulled on her long braid, thinking.
"You haven't-" Katara began.
"No." Ty Lee interrupted before she even asked. "I guess that's part of it. Katara, can you answer a question honestly?"
"Uhm-"
"Your aura is mostly clear. I suppose that's a yes," Ty Lee said, patting Katara's shoulder. "How did you do it? Keep it a secret? And when did you find out about Kuzon?" It was the unspoken agreement that, when in public, they would all continue to call Aang 'Kuzon', just for pretenses.
"Oh." Katara was expecting something much more intrusive. "A long time ago. Months, I think. But it was an accident, much how you found out. I told Zuko Toph had to know right away too, because she was going to figure it out herself if we didn't come straight out and tell her. I guess...how did I keep it a secret? Well, I could talk to Toph or Kuzon or Zuko. Plus, I knew how grave the secret was to keep. It was bigger than anything else I may know."
Ty Lee nodded in thought. "I suppose that's the hard part. I can't tell Mai. She knows there's something I can't tell her, and that I'm not. I've been told I'm not a good liar, which I always thought was a positive." She sighed.
"Could you trust Mai?" Katara didn't like the idea of letting another person in on the secret, however…
"No." Ty Lee looked terribly guilty to admit it. "She's very adamant about her beliefs, one being that the Royal Family is never wrong. I have many things to be thankful for in regards to them, since they treated me better than my own family did."
"They do?" Katara tried not to look too surprised.
"A story for another day. Anyway, if she knew what Kuzon was...she'd feel obligated to tell. Plus, she doesn't know him personally, like we do," Ty Lee said carefully. "But even if he was a stranger, I couldn't. Telling Azula or Fire Lord Ozai is just as good as kill…" She choked a little on a small sob. She couldn't even get the word out. "I've tried to live my life with no blood on my hands. I've tried to be a better person than the way I was born, the way my parents were. Katara, it's just gotten so hard. It all matters so much now," she all but wailed.
"I know, Ty Lee," Katara said, rubbing her back. "And really, you have the strength of a lion-bear for staying so steadfast. No one ever thought it was easy. And you'll always have a friend with me."
"Really?"
"The secret brings us together," Katara insisted in a hushed but firm tone. "And the only way we're going to survive whatever happens is if we trust each other. No one was meant to protect the world alone."
Ty Lee wiped her tears on the back of her hand. "You're so wise, Katara. No wonder Prince Zuko practically adores you." She sniffled. "Have you seen Kuzon at all? Do you know how he's coping?"
"I haven't." Katara was flustered to realize she'd given Aang a smaller part of her thoughts than she likely should have. "Maybe we should go find him together?"
Ty Lee brightened, nodding with vigor.
The pair set out through the halls of the palace that were fit to travel. Ty Lee was a never-ending stream of words; mostly nothing important, usually about food or music or dance. Katara just nodded and told herself that Ty Lee had practically no one, and that she could be her friend with all things considered.
"Lady Ty Lee, Princess Katara." A familiar warm voice came from behind. Both girls turned to see Prince Zuko, a soft smile on his face at the sight of the pair. Or, Katara, since he was looking mostly at her.
"Prince Zuko." Ty Lee bowed.
"Princess Katara, ah, can I borrow you for a moment or two?" he asked, rubbing his neck. Katara felt a flash of relief overwhelm her. She looked back guiltily at Ty Lee.
"We were looking for Kuzon, so-"
"Oh! No, you go with him!" Ty Lee practically shoved Katara forward. "I guess I should get used to being alone," she said with a slightly sad smile.
"Kuzon is in the Royal Study, Ty Lee. I'm sure he'd be glad of your company," Zuko supplied. "So, if you want to, Princess…"
He held out his hand.
Katara took it.
Notes:
So, now that we've taken the time to see what our three POVs are up to, we're able to put them all back together, specifically, Katara and Zuko. You can ask my wonderful beta, hepchaton, but there's a slightly steamy bit coming up in the next chapter ;)
I'm still a wee bit behind from answering reviews from last chapter/the last bit of TPC, but I hope to be caught up soon XD School is just super busy for me right now!
Remember to review! Reviews will get me through an exam tomorrow ;)
Chapter 4
Notes:
Sorry for the lateness of this chapter, but as it turns out, my holiday break was actually BUSIER than my school schedule, since my mom was doing family stuff the whole time, as well as I was trying to balance seeing some of my old highschool and middle school friends.
But I digress!
As always, thank you so much to all my reviewers (I'm still behind on replying, I'll get to it eventually...)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
"You seem happier tonight." Katara breathed in the night air of the Royal Capitol. The air at home always tasted like 'cold.' Sokka claimed that cold doesn't have a taste, but Katara always disagreed. Cold tasted sharp, like fresh snow. The air here didn't taste just like 'warm', but it tasted like 'city'. It tasted like smoke and Fire Nation food and summer breezes. And, up on the roof, she had a good inhale of it.
Zuko had brought her up here with a small basket, and the pair sat staring at the stars. Zuko had offered her a sweet rice ball with a sticky fruit sauce that clung to her fingers.
"I'm happiest when I'm with you," Zuko admitted frankly, shoulder to shoulder with her.
"I had thought you were mad at me," Katara admitted in a rush, "After...well, after."
"I'll admit I was upset." Zuko titled his head. "But it's fairly impossible to stay mad at you."
Katara nodded to herself, licking off the sauce between her fingers. She realized after a second that Zuko was watching her tongue flicker in the folds of her digits, his pupils darkened and bleeding out into the golden flecks in his eyes. Katara felt a warm blush come all over her body, a shiver that sent her hairs standing upright.
Zuko noticed this and laughed to himself, looking away. Of course, it wouldn't be proper to launch herself at him on the roof, as much as she wanted to.
She looked up, gnawing on her lips. "I haven't had much time to stargaze since I came here," she said out loud, more of a thought than a comment. "It's familiar to do this."
"You study the stars a lot?" Zuko tilted his head.
"We have to. To travel anywhere by sea, I mean, once you're on the waves there's no land masses at all to tell you where you are. It was used a lot more when we visited the North, but we brought it back into use when we started having to go farther out to find fish." Katara gnawed on her nail. "You know them?"
"A bit. I spent a lot of my formative years in military training on the Navy ships with my Uncle. It's when I found Kuzon, remember?"
"Of course, right." Katara laughed to herself. "What's your favorite constellation? Mine is Kaguyagat."
"What? Was that a sneeze?" he said, trying not to sound rude.
"Kaguy…" Katara started again, but saw his blank stare. "You know, the fox. Right there." She pointed up.
"Oh, you mean Hoki Hosi… we call them the brush stars. Like, flickers of ink across the sky," Zuko said.
Katara laughed out loud. "I like mine better."
"I do too," Zuko agreed.
They spent the next hour comparing constellations. Katara realized that of course they'd have a totally different views on the stars, despite looking at the same constellations. It was a weird feeling to think that when her mother was teaching her how to chart the choppy dark seas using The Caribou stars, General Iroh was teaching Zuko the same thing but with a different name. In the beginning, had they this conversation, it would have reminded Katara about how different they were. Now, it just made her smile. She was glad to find out this information.
"Prince Zuko? Prince Zuko…?" A guard called for Zuko from below.
Katara looked down, but Zuko pulled her back against his chest, and a half-giggle, half-shriek erupted from her lips. He put his hand over her mouth, and she could feel his own chest quaking with laugher.
"Shh," he said. "Just for a little longer."
"What if it's important?" Katara sighed, knowing their stolen time was at an end.
"It probably is." Zuko dug his nose into her hair. "But let me just have this moment with you. I don't know when we'll get time alone again."
Katara's giggles ceased at the severity in his voice. She stilled against him, just felt the steady thump of his heart in his chest. The heart that pounded for her. She curled into him, sighing in quiet resignation.
"Prince Zuko?" The guard seemed panicked now.
"Spirits, they watch me twenty-four / seven," Zuko whispered. "Although, after the rebels…"
"Yeah." Katara focused in on the delicate embroidery on his robes. "You should probably let them know you're alive before they wake the whole palace looking for you."
Zuko didn't answer, but began to detach himself from her. Katara felt the lack of warmth immediately and something clenched inside of her.
"I had fun, though. I hope you did too," she whispered, helping him pack up his things.
"It was nice to forget about it all," Zuko said, his voice taking on a subtle change. However, Katara felt like she knew him so well that she noticed. "The attacks, the things that need to be fixed, the competition…" He trailed off, leaving Katara feeling a little strange. Like her stomach was being swirled about.
He took out his top knot, sighing. "Sometimes," he began, the word stretched out like he was still considering if he was going to continue with his next words. "Sometimes I wish it was all easier. That it was more normal."
It was very close to Katara's own thoughts. She swallowed hard. "What is normal, though?" she proposed, not wanting to let him wallow. "Zuko, you're extraordinary any way you look at it."
"You know what I mean. If I were normal, if we were...maybe you would have said yes."
The theory hung between them, as vast as the stars above. Zuko looked upset, like maybe he hadn't meant to have said it. Katara curled her knees to her chest.
"We're not, though," she replied a little too hotly, angry at the situation - not at Zuko - but unable to express it. "And maybe we would have never met at all or you wouldn't be proposing. Maybe we would just 'be'. Maybe you'd be married to Mai or Yue by now," Katara also threw out. "Maybe we should be happy with what we have. And I didn't say no completely. I'm still here. It just wasn't the right...time."
She hated giving him hope like that, but it killed her to see those sad puppy-dog eyes turned her way. And it was 'time', for lack of a better word. Time to figure things out, time to have him pick someone else, time for Ozai to mysteriously bite the bullet (one could hope). Time for any number of impossible things to happen.
Zuko gave a laugh, one that was a little more lighthearted than Katara expected. "Kat...I would give you anything in the world if you asked. You want a diamond as big as your face? I'll have the Earth Bending Brigade dig up every rock if they have to. You want a falling star? I'd go to the end of the earth and learn off the edge to grab it as it passes. You want clothes made from the finest silk in the country? I'd make you a whole room full of it. The one thing you ask of me, time," he added with a slight grimace, "is the one thing I fear we do not have."
"I know," Katara whispered to herself, feeling awful for asking it of him. He caught her face and rubbed his palm over her cheek, sighing.
"But, because you want it, I will give as much as I can," he added. "And I will do it happily."
"You're far too good of a person, Zuko," Katara murmured, kissing his fingertips. Zuko let out a quiet groan and took his hands away. Katara was worried she'd done or said something wrong, until he grabbed her and pulled her up into a kiss. It was a slow one, and she felt her whole body light up as she relaxed into it.
After much too short of a time, Zuko pulled away. Katara found herself following forward, wanting more.
"This is probably a bad idea," Zuko said quietly, his breath hot against her neck. Katara wasn't sure if he was referring to taking the kiss farther or the simple truth that kissing on a roof probably was bound to end in a broken bone somewhere.
"Yeah," Katara agreed to both counts.
"Prince Zuko!" The guard sounded close to having a heart attack. Zuko pinched his nose.
"I really must go. But we have things to talk about."
"We do?" Katara felt her heart thump. She thought it was all squared away. What did he mean? Was her position not as secure as she thought. Was-?
"Yes, we haven't had a time for all of us to come together and truly discuss the fact that many people are in on Kuzon's secret."
Oh, right. Yes. The issue that was much bigger than their own confusing emotions.
"So," Zuko continued, "Can you get everyone to the kitchen tonight? I'll bring Kuzon. We need to all be on the same page."
"Of course," Katara agreed, pushing down her childish glee she'd see him again tonight. "In three hours or so?"
Zuko leaned forward and gave her a small peck on her cheek, a domestic gesture that was so unexpected. "Until then."
Then, he disappeared over the side of the roof.
XXxxXX
Come on, boy, you need to memorize this! Knowing military positions of the past will help you in your future endeavors.
"I'm trying, Gopan, but not all of us were librarians and scholars our whole lives," Aang murmured, flipping back to the last place in the book that he recalled absorbing information from. Which was, he was horrified to find, pretty far back.
Technically, you were.
"Thank you, Yangchen. I can always count on you to state the obvious." Aang rolled his eyes, propping his elbow on the long table to support his head as he blinked wearily.
I say you've been hanging around too much with my grandson. Zuko's sarcasm has been rubbing off on you.
"You know what?" Aang snapped, standing and rubbing his eyes. "This would be a whole lot easier if all of you just-"
"Oh, ah, are you busy?" Aang spun on his heels to find Ty Lee staring unexpectedly into the library, looking around. "I heard you talking to someone…" she said.
"Lady Ty Lee." Aang fumbled to bow to her, and suspiciously, all the voices in his head went quiet. At least for a second.
Ty Lee chuckled behind a hand. "I think I'm supposed to bow to you, Master Kuzon. You're part of the Royal Family, after all." Her eyes glimmered with mirth, since obviously, she now knew he wasn't truly.
"I wasn't talking to anyone, not really. I was just…" He lifted the title of the tome, Historical Victories and Militant Accomplishments, for Ty Lee to see, giving a weak smile. "Doing some homework, I guess."
"Sounds, uh, exciting."
"No, it's really not." With a decisive flip of the cover, he closed the book, forever losing the page he'd been on. This got the attention of the past Avatars.
The fate of the world rests on your hands-
She's a fine girl, child, but there are more important things to consider-
The Avatar can continue his family line in due time, but it's quite irresponsible-
"Aang?" Ty Lee asked quietly, looking up at him.
"Sorry. I don't mean to be elsewhere, but my mind is a little full," he said.
"Prince Zuko mentioned something about that. I can see it in your eyes, all your past lives fighting for their voice to be heard," she said, gazing at him with a thoughtful hum to her voice.
"You can see it?"
"It clouds your true self. It's muddy. It must be difficult, I'd imagine, to know what parts of you are you and what parts are your past lives," she said, raising a philosophical question that Aang had battled with many times. He was surprised that Ty Lee offered such a thought, since any intelligent ideas she may have had were usually overshadowed by Mai or Azula. She'd never been dumb, though, he realized. She'd always stayed near the top of the Royal Lessons and picked up on theories and equations quickly.
"I guess I'm all of them and none of them, all at once," Aang said. He rubbed his head. Avatar Suluk was arguing with the seated group that Aang should be allowed a moment of fancy, since he realistically couldn't be saving the world every minute of every day. Kyoshi was arguing that he'd have plenty of time for that after, and that every moment he wasn't focused on the war at hand was a moment he was losing. And Kuruk, poor Kuruk, was just in the corner all weepy about his lost love, reminiscing that Ty Lee's smile reminded him of his late wife.
"Arguing again?" Ty Lee guessed when he dazed out for just a moment.
"Yeah."
"Here, lemme just…" She leaned around, and Aang jumped as she touched the back of his neck. He laughed uneasily as she let him settle back down. She rubbed a spot just where his neck met the spinal cord. There was a strange feeling, like he'd shocked himself, and then it was still. It wasn't painful as much as it was a shock, a minor discomfort that only lasted a moment.
All of a sudden, it was just silent in his brain. Not the silence in which no one was talking for a rare moment, but a silence like he had before the attack, when his brain had been his own.
"What did you do?" he asked in absolute awe.
"I had a theory," Ty Lee shrugged, leaning back onto a cushy chair, "That your connections to the Avatars were using spiritual chi. I can block chi. I mean, fill in the blanks from there." She laughed her bell-like laugh, which Aang had always found so enchanting.
"Great Agni, it's incredible!" Aang let out a sharp laugh, almost unbelieving. "I can't...spirits, Ty Lee!"
"It will wear off in about two hours, I think. I mean, I can teach you how to do it. You probably shouldn't do it all the time, but every once in a while shouldn't be too bad. Just until you get it under control," she said.
Aang opened his mouth to nearly argue 'but I like it when you did it', and he waited for the onslaught of Avatars telling him otherwise. Blessedly, none came.
"You okay?" Ty Lee asked worriedly. "No weird side effects from it? Oh, Agni, I didn't muck it up did I-"
"Ty Lee, hey." Aang leaned across the table. "Really. Thanks," he said. "I'm just not used to it, that's all."
Ty Lee relaxed. She sent him a smile that made him feel a little dizzy. "Anything for you, Aang."
XXxxXX
Zuko shuffled through the files profiling each Choice contestant on his desk. He flipped half-heartedly through the top five or so, wondering if his emotions had shifted enough to change his personal ranking system. While he'd done some real soul-searching and changed around a lot of the order in the past week or so, the number one seed had stayed the same.
Katara, as always.
He leaned back in his chair, just on the edge of tipping it, recalling the moment he'd claimed with Katara on the roof. He'd slipped away from the guard for some 'personal time' and had gotten sorely reprimanded afterwards, since a missing Prince in light of recent events was never a good thing.
Agni, it was worth it though.
The image in his mind of Katara lapping up that sauce with no idea how she was affecting him would both be the bane of his existence and his most satisfying memory for weeks to come, if that was all the time he was going to get with her. And, frankly, if she'd asked, Zuko would have gone farther.
Putting them in a precarious position on the roof hadn't been his plan, but it had worked out in the favor of the situation.
A part of Zuko, though, also was angry at himself. If the situation demanded it and Katara truly could not be budged on her opinions, Zuko was going to walk out of this married. And, with the little time he had, he should be spending quality time with the other girls, seeing if any of them could fit so perfectly the way he knew Katara would with him. Instead, what was he doing? Giving everything away to Katara and falling deeper in love with her than he thought possible, putting distance - mile upon mile - between Katara and even his second choice.
"I'm an idiot," he murmured out loud, feeling another migraine creeping up.
"Yes, but what else is new."
Zuko snapped his eyes open, slammed his chair back onto the ground, and hastily threw his arms over the files. He glared at Azula, who sat on the edge of his desk, perched while she enjoyed a piece of chocolate she'd chipped off his personal supply, looking almost bored. She'd slipped in without him even hearing.
At his murderous gaze and the way he hoarded the papers to his chest, Azula snickered. "Spirits, you're so...dramatic. You think I haven't seen your little ranking of the girls?"
"Azula-" Zuko growled warningly.
"Oh, I won't tell a soul," she said, going back in for another piece of chocolate. "A lady's honor," she said, crossing her heart. "Cross my heart and hope to die."
"One, you're a lady? Two, you have no honor. Three, you have no heart," Zuko said, leaning back, but still shuffling the files into his lap, just in case.
"Sibling honor then." Azula shrugged, unconcerned. "It's nothing anyone couldn't guess. It would do you good to be a little less transparent."
"Are you here just to lecture me on something you know nothing about?" Zuko asked, standing up with the full intention to drag his sister out of his room.
"You think I want to be here?" Azula gave him a long side-glance. "Zuzu, I'm here for you." She flaunted a scroll around, which she had pulled from her lap. "This, dear brother, is the exact set of rules the ladies have gotten on Father's little scrimmage. Caecillia got the sages to write it down and sign it. I think you should move her higher up frankly, she's got something there. She should be at least above On Ji, who has the disposition of a kitten." Azula made a face like she'd just seen a bug.
"Most people enjoy kittens," Zuko said, not surprised that Azula actually did know the order he had the girls in currently, just honestly a little tired.
"Mhh. Still. I mean, you can really see that good military training coming through. She's precise, she's not too much of a beauty, but makeup can fix anything, and she's a girl who doesn't like surprises," Azula said out loud.
"How do you know about her background?" Zuko furrowed his eyebrows. Caecillia didn't like talking about it much, and Zuko was under the impression that it was a carefully guarded fact.
"Well, I read it in her entry bio, of course." Azula laughed like it was obvious. "Oh, you think I haven't vetted each and every girl too?" she said at Zuko's surprised expression. "I mean, this is going to be my sister, so I wanted a hand in wading through the thousands of applications that were went in. Father was all too happy to agree."
The idea that Azula, in any way, had been instrumental in bringing the girls in that had arrived sickened him. That she knew them in the slightly intimate way that their bios had given, all had to be laid out, so there would be no nasty surprises like a hidden child or a history of arrests. It felt like an invasion of their privacy on some level, because he'd been under the impression that only his father and the Sages had seen the applications.
A part of this made sense, though. It's how Azula knew how to get under each girl's skin so easily.
A slim smile crept on his face.
"What?" Azula narrowed her eyes suspiciously.
"Nothing," Zuko chuckled. There was one girl Azula had a preoccupation with to the point of mania: Katara. But, Katara had been a last moment find, a bargaining chip, and so she didn't have an application. All the things in her file were accumulated after the fact, as stories were published and documents were charted. Azula couldn't glean information beforehand, she had to take what was thrown at her like everyone one else. No wonder Azula was so consistently frustrated with Katara.
But, Zuko doubted Katara could be summarized in a simple bio, anyway.
"Is that all?" Zuko said, slipping the scroll to his own lap. "Or, are you just going to sit here and eat my entire chocolate stash? You could also just get your own like that." Zuko snapped his fingers.
"Ah, but it is a universal truth that chocolate is much better tasting from your sibling given unwillingly," Azula said, taking the last piece and hopping off his desk. She left without a closing remark, and Zuko considered that if the price he had to pay for an unexpected visit from his sister was just his chocolate, he'd gotten off easy.
He was about to put the bios back in the locked drawer that he usually kept them in, but in light of Azula's taunts, he hesitated. He shifted them between two or three places, finally settling on his pillowcase.
And, his pillowcase reminded him of another obligation. He patted his chest, still feeling the journal there, and fished the wrapped fabric ball of poison dust from a deep trunk.
The night waited.
XXxxXX
The store-room felt cramped with the whole group sitting around. Shoji, in the corner, was yawning into his helmet. It was past his time off, and usually he'd be sleeping, had this not been of such importance. Aiga was leaning against a wall, looking a little tired too. The handmaids had been doing double the work with helping the palace staff repair anything that needed fixing if they were available, as such was their extended jobs. Ty Lee was in the corner, sitting on a sack of potatoes, but her leg was bouncing up and down. Toph and Sokka were milling around, just...waiting.
Everyone was just waiting.
The door opened to the kitchen and everyone jumped, as though all six of them would fit behind sacks and shelves if someone other than the Prince were to arrive. Luckily, Aang came first, followed by Zuko. He very firmly closed the door behind him and Shoji stepped forward to light a lantern Zuko had brought with him.
By the light of the flickering flame, the eight all sat in a circle, unsure of where to begin.
"We need a name." Sokka broke the silence. "Something cool, something snazzy."
"How about 'Let's Not Get Killed For Treason' and make this quick," Shoji offered, glancing nervously at Zuko. Katara saw him give a slight smirk, but Shoji's joke revealed a very ugly truth.
The knowledge they all had could not only get Aang killed, but could cause each of them in turn to die a horrible, horrible death.
"We need to make some rules, be telling the same story." Zuko took charge, since he was the one who gathered them. Katara got the sense he had taken it upon himself to be the unofficial leader, but he was still trying not to step on Aang's toes. Avatar trumped future Fire Lord, Katara guessed. He was glancing at Aang every so often, trying to read the cues of the sixteen-year-old.
Aang just looked overwhelmed.
He'd gone from having no one in his corner to seven people, but at the same time, not much to do with it.
"Okay, but what about the death dust?" Sokka held up a finger. "Where's that?"
Zuko placed a ball of fabric in the center of the circle. Meaning to or not meaning to, everyone flinched back at least an inch. Sokka scooted back a full foot, shaking his head in a clear 'don't you dare get that near me' sort of way.
"We need to get rid of it," Aiga whispered. "Soon. The journal too."
"We need to move it to somewhere not in the palace. I don't trust people," Sokka agreed. "Er, sorry Zuko."
"No, none taken." Zuko raised an eyebrow. "I don't either, most days. I don't trust anyone outside this circle anymore, if I'm being honest." And, though maybe he didn't want to say it, his list of people he trusted might be even smaller, Katara wondered.
"Well, it's probably safest with Sparky, eh?" Toph shrugged. "I mean, until we can get out of the palace."
"I don't know." Zuko scowled. "I learned today that my sister has been snooping in my stuff. If she were to see this…" He swallowed hard.
"I don't think I could. Between my training and the meetings with the family, I undress and redress twelve times a day it seems," Aang bemoaned.
"I'm blind," Toph said, which was in itself a good enough reason.
"The guards can search our rooms anytime," Aiga twittered nervously.
"And the guards don't have their own room," Shoji sighed.
"Well...I guess I could," Sokka said, realizing the options were limited.
"I'm not sure. I mean, we don't want this falling into the wrong hands, obviously. Keeping one person on it seems bad, strategy wise," Katara said, something that no one else had brought up.
"I should be the one." Aang shook his head. "It's mine. This stuff is about me, when it comes down to it, and my legacy."
"Which is why you shouldn't!" Ty Lee broke in, looking horrified. "Aang, we're expendable. You, the Avatar, you're not."
The idea that the rest of the group was 'expendable' had Aang looking ill.
"Maybe we all share the burden," Zuko sighed. "Yes, even you Toph," he added when she opened her mouth. "Switch off every day. Until I can get us out of the city, or even a small group of us. And split it up, minimize the fallout."
"How soon will that be?" Shoji ran his fingers through his hair.
"I wish I had an answer," Zuko said rather honestly. "In the meantime, no one congregate in a group larger than three of you at one time. No reason to give anyone suspicions. No one talks about it. No one uses code-words or whatever to refer to it, because you're probably not half as smart as you think you are. Also, does anyone speak Old Nomadic?"
"I studied first lessons of it," Ty Lee spoke up. "But I don't recall much."
Everyone else basically just looked at Zuko rather blankly. Katara had never even heard of it before now.
"Great," Zuko sighed. "You're going to start learning it. It's a dead language, which means no one knows it. That's how, if we really have to, we can communicate about anything involving us or him or the book." Zuko held up the journal. They'd discussed just burning it at the palace, but if any pages were to be seen, or survive, or if someone were to find out what they were doing, having seen the smoke...as dangerous as it was to have it intact, it wasn't worth risking it yet.
"Yes, sir." Toph saluted him. "I don't know anything about anything."
"Lose the sarcasm, keep the idea," Zuko instructed, holding back a groan.
"I'll take one first," Sokka said when no one moved to leave the room nor take the items. "Tui and La, protect me," he murmured to himself, gathering the power wrapped in fabric delicately in his arms. There was another pause, and no one moved again.
"Fine, I'll take the journal." Katara finally said.
"Water Tribe coming in clutch," Sokka raised his hand to high-five it. Katara gave a low, angry scowl.
"Right, we should scatter," Shoji suggested, "or else people are going to notice our absence, and more than that, our combined absences."
"True. Dismissed, uh, team."
"See? We need a cool name." Sokka said.
"For a club that's not supposed to exist?" Ty Lee tilted her head. "Might be better it doesn't?"
"When it requires a cool name, we'll get a cool name," Zuko said with slight aggravation. "Now, seriously. Scat, all of you. Shoo. No, not all at once." Zuko dragged a hand over his face as everyone went right to the door. "Hasn't anyone a lick of espionage in them?"
"Right, um. Maybe those two first." Sokka laughed nervously, and Katara knew he felt stupid since he was smarter than that. He was pointing at Aang and Shoji, who had reason to be seen together. "Then Katara and Aiga." Katara was a little disheartened to not have a chance to catch Zuko alone again, but it made sense. "Then...where's Toph?"
"Already gone, I think. Through the ground." Shoji pointed below his feet. Sokka scowled.
"Fine, for the best, I guess. Uh, Ty Lee after, then me, then Zuko. Sound good?" He looked at Zuko. The prince shrugged, not seeing a flaw with it. Aang and Shoji ducked out first, and then, after a respectable amount of time, Aiga tugged on Katara's arm.
Katara slipped back into her bed, and it seemed no one was none the wiser.
XXxxXX
Aang took a deep breath outside the doors to Zhao's suites.
The conversation last night in the small and cramped store room had put a lot of things into perspective for Aang, most notably, that many people were willing to practically go to war for an Avatar who, so far, hadn't done anything to earn their trust or their loyalty.
All the years before, since he had moved into the Palace, it was so easy to tell himself that this was the way to fix things, by learning the Palace language and becoming one of them, so that when he pulled the rug out, no one would be any wiser. And Zuko having his back and teaching him this world, telling him he'd surely be killed if he came forward with his true identity, doing so much to keep his secret a secret...well, it would have felt dishonorable to spit on all that the young Prince had done.
But now he couldn't pretend any longer. Even if the voices were not in his head reminding him daily, the world had forced its hand.
The Avatar's return was whispered. Airbenders were on the rise, just as the horrible monsters who killed them the first time were peeling themselves up from the ground.
Aang paused, tilting his eyes upward as the Avatars mumbled in his mind.
Ty Lee's trick had given him nearly six blessed hours of peaceful mental space that was all his own. After, however, the Avatars had returned to his mind groggy and disoriented. They sounded as though they were drunk, like they'd all gone out for a grand ball and returned worse for the wear.
Aang had gotten drunk once, and he had hated it.
Passing himself off as a vegetarian in the palace wasn't hard. With all the fruits and veggies they imported from Earth Kingdom, there was a growing faction that only ingested leafy green things, as compared to meat. And, if he was being honest, the Fire Nation had more to offer a vegetarian than the Air Temples even had. Refusing alcohol, however? Silly to say, but that would have blown his cover.
So, Aang drank in small quantities, when it was appropriate. It had been early into his guise as Kuzon when Zuko had given him a little too much and the pair had gotten roaring drunk. Aang didn't really remember much about that night, but it was enough to know that he never wanted to get that way again.
He was getting side-tracked, though.
"Can you take over, Kasata?" he whispered. "I can't do it without you…"
Lately, Aang always felt like he was fighting for headspace, for his own voice to be the most present one. It was always a battle. It was only when there were no voices around, and Aang had just sat on his bed and thought about it, that he considered maybe there was a way to release his own dominant voice and let one of the other Avatars take over. They were loud enough and boisterous enough to tell Aang that they had full personalities, each and every one of them. And, they'd retained all their memories from past lives. While Aang could tap into the knowledge base containing all of Gopan's musings on bird migrations or Kyoshi's lessons on fan fighting, to actually use it was something entirely different, that often Aang fell short on.
But, maybe, if he allowed a different, specific Avatar to use his body as a conduit for just a moment…
Now, more than ever, he needed Kasata, one of the previous Fire Nation Avatars, to help him. Kasata, who had dealt his whole life with two-headed snakes like Zhao and was raised with the military in his bones. Avatar Roku was just too kind, and there was no room for kindness in these matters.
Aang needed Zhao to trust him. He needed Zhao to see him as his apprentice and take him everywhere there were airbender sightings, so Aang could finally do something. He didn't know what, but something. He needed to be able to be as ruthless as Zhao and not let his emotions override him.
"Please, if you can, now would be the time." Aang screwed his eyes shut and knocked twice on the door.
For a moment, it seemed like Kasata especially was silent, and Aang feared he'd be standing in front of the terrifying man and start blubbering incoherently. Then, it was like someone had just...shoved his consciousness back a couple paces. Aang could see exactly what was happening, but he found he couldn't move his arms or legs. He was just a voice, thoughts, floating in nowhere while someone else puppeted his body.
"Now you know how we feel," Kasata said out loud. It was Aang's voice, Aang's own lips moving, but the way he spoke was no longer his own, replaced by Kasata's curt and sharp tone. It was unmistakable and more than a little eerie.
The door swung open. Zhao blinked at the young student in front of him for a second, unable to hid his surprise to find Aang standing outside his door.
"Master Kuzon, or...should I call you Guardsman Kuzon? Which do you prefer?" he said, his voice calm as though it was a simple question.
It's anything but, Kyoshi murmured, and Aang could only agree from his backseat position. Luckily, Kasata knew exactly how to navigate it.
"Guardsman, if I must. I'll respond to either. Service has been different, eye-opening. Alas, I feel guilt for not signing up previously." Even if he had supposive guilt, his words were delivered an with even-tempered drawl, something nearing emotionlessness.
"What kept you, if I may ask?" Zhao turned his gaze down on Aang. Not on him, per se, but down as he straightened to appear taller.
"Many things. It was never quite so necessary. I was a little older than Royal Family members usually are when they begin, and I also wanted to get to know the Palace before diving in. Know what I was protecting."
"And now it's necessary?"
Kasata laughed, but it was neither warm nor full of humor. "As you said, Commander Zhao, it is a dangerous time we enter." He paused, waiting. When Zhao did not invite him in, he continued, "I came to apologize. The other day, I may have seemed a little unwelcoming toward the idea of bringing me into such an important campaign. I did not mean to sound ungrateful. I was just surprised that anyone would consider me important enough to be considered, because I am, after all, a distant cousin." Something about Kasata seemed so sincere it made Aang feel sick. He was playing it perfectly though, because Zhao seemed to relax. Just a millimeter, but it was something.
"Guardsman Kuzon, Ozai is fond of you, and his son even more so. You are family, you do realize. Blood is terribly important," Zhao said, like he was teaching a lesson.
"I do realize. I wanted to come to express my gratitude in person that you'd consider me for this. I want to make sure that I am still considered a candidate to join you," Kasata continued.
Zhao blinked. "Ozai is very firm, so there was never a question. However, I am pleased you are showing such a renewed interest."
"These airbenders are a danger to us all, sir. As you said, this is my family, and I will do anything to keep them safe. I was more surprised we weren't leaving immediately. If you would be so kind, I would be honored to learn under your tutelage."
There was a pause, but then, Zhao smiled. It was just as awful as it usually was, but now, Aang saw it was genuine, and that made it worse.
"Guardsman Kuzon, I see a great deal of myself in you."
That's all he said, before closing the door.
Aang suddenly sagged as he felt Kasata lose the grip of the reins on his body.
"What's that mean?" Aang whispered, feeling dizzy and disoriented. Kasata sounded apologetic.
It means he's accepted you. You're going to be his new student, he's going to groom you to be a monster.
It is the way we will win., Roku assured Aang, who felt ill to hear Kasata confirm such horrors. Aang felt nothing rise up his stomach, like before. He was then even more disgusted that he wasn't going to vomit after all was said and done.
As he walked back to his chambers, legs feeling like lead, he couldn't help but think that in the pursuit of peace, he'd just signed his life to the war. That while he was trying to wipe clean the slate of the world, he was going to end up with a blackened heart. One for the many, he whispered to himself, one for the many. He felt like this was a sudden insight, and he'd just stepped over from childhood to what it meant to be an adult Avatar. Even if he realized this, he hated it.
Roku's long sigh was cryptic.
We all must sometimes do terrible, terrible things to make things good. But the worst travesty is that one day, this will fail to make you ill like it once had.
Notes:
Poor Aang! And my poor Zutara babies. One order of pining, coming right up!
I have only two little notes.
When Zuko and Kat are comparing stars, they're actually looking at the Pleiades! Their versions are real life constellation equivalents, Inuit and Japanese ones.
I also sorta consider what Aang's doing at the end to be like in the show Sense8, if you guys watch that, where like other people can 'hack' into his mind to use their specific skills. I will forever be salty they cancelled that show.
As always, remember to review!
Chapter Text
Katara hit the dusty floor of the training ground, her chin smacking against the ground. She tasted copper in her mouth and reached a finger up to feel a small cut on her lip where her tooth had gnashed against her mouth.
"If that's the best you can do, Fire Lord Ozai will send you back to the Southern Water Tribe in a Pai Sho tile box," Master Pakku said dismissively. Katara felt the aching in her bones and stood, despite how much she wanted to remain on the ground just a few moments longer. Her bones felt like jelly and her whole body quivered, but deep down she knew Pakku was correct. If she went up against Ozai or Azula in the competition, at this stage of her training, she would hardly last past a minute. She needed to train. She needed to be ready.
Pakku turned back around, his head tilting as he watched Katara steady herself. She ran her thumb over her forehead, gathering the sweat that pooled there, and pressed it to her lip for just a second. Not long enough to heal it completely, but enough to stop the bleeding, clot the blood, and encourage the start of scabbing.
"Again," Katara asked, her voice rough.
Katara was pleased when Pakku looked at her with approval.
"You have the fortitude of a warrior." Pakku nodded to her, pleasure in his quirk of a smile. "At least, for now."
Pakku held little back. Of this, Katara was eternally grateful. She didn't need someone like Zuko, who was worried about hurting her all the time, she needed a teacher that was honest with her about the brutality of Agni Kais, or other matches she might go up against in the future.
She only had to bother Pakku about eighteen times before he caved, giving their first lesson a little over three days ago. He'd declared Katara not completely incompetent, which for a girl was an over-the moon compliment, and said they'd meet daily until the competition. Katara was thrilled.
She learned very quickly that while Pakku was indeed a master of his bending, his teaching style was unexpected. It was complete, and Katara felt like she'd gleaned more from him than she would have gotten by herself in years of fumbling, but a straightforward teacher he was not.
What he preferred to do was scrimmage and have Katara watch him to copy his movements mid-battle, to take the information and internalize it. There had been no 'step one, step two, step three' and so on about how to produce a proper water whip, and he hadn't started out by seeing what Katara already knew. He only ever stepped in to correct a stance if Katara was really and truly failing, but he almost never said anything otherwise.
The first day, he'd had a comment. "You fight like an untrained penguin-seal. Your movements are hardly graceful, and you attack like someone is going to steal your last leg of meat."
He'd said it with a such a pretentious sneer that Katara couldn't help but take offense.
"Well, I've never had a teacher," she'd snapped back. "Everything I've learned I've done myself, so if you have a problem with it-"
"I never said it was a bad thing." Pakku had cut her off with a smirk. As Katara had been left with her jaw hanging open, trying to figure out what this meant, he'd simply moved on.
Three days in, Katara wasn't sure she completely understood, but she thought maybe she was starting to get the idea. While there was a grace and perfection to the way that Pakku waterbended, Katara's movements were unexpected and hard to predict. He'd shown her this when he'd begun to use Katara's own movements against her. Katara had been waiting for the proper waterbending moves, and though she recognized the hobbled-together foot dance of her own style, she was still unprepared to face it. When Pakku had knocked her off her feet (a phenomenon that was happening a lot lately) and she'd gotten back up with a grin, she knew that Pakku realized she 'got it'.
He was a man of few words, other than drawled jabs. She could appreciate this. Every insight she herself made just made her feel so much more adept, since Pakku had yet to spell out anything for her.
"Well, again," Katara said when Pakku did not move for a moment. She was about to start this herself, until a strike set her off balance. She managed to freeze it, wiggling out of the way, and sent the icy sphere back at Pakku. All of this took place within a second, as this was a high-paced spar they took part in.
Back and forth it went. Pakku never went easy on Katara, especially not when she was hurt. In fact, he seemed to up his game even more. Or maybe Katara was just utterly exhausted? Yes, it could be that too.
It went on for what seemed like eons, but was likely hardly longer five minutes, until Katara was knocked flat on her ass once again. At least nothing was bleeding this time.
She got up, despite her feet swaying beneath her.
"Again," she nearly begged.
"No," Pakku said with a cool tone. "We meet again tomorrow around-"
Katara threw a water whip at him. He managed to deflect it easily. She was just trying to get his attention anyway, so she wasn't upset that he was able to just wave it off.
"I can still go," Katara insisted firmly, wiping her hair back from her face.
"Maybe so," Pakku said, sighing, "But exhaustion makes mistakes. Part of being a warrior is continuing to fight under the worst of circumstances, but being a better warrior is knowing when to stop."
"I'm not too good at that," Katara said, crossing her arms, but readying herself for a sneak attack. Pakku saw her stiff posture and almost smiled.
"I can see that. Truly, Princess, we are done for the day. Go do whatever frivolous things princesses do. Bathe in rose water. Eat a good meal. Go to sleep early in a bed made of goose feathers."
While it sounded like a list of insults, Katara almost guessed he was encouraging her to take care of herself. Of course, Pakku couldn't be caught caring, especially not about a female warrior.
Letting her guard down just a little - but never fully - she walked over to the water bins where they summoned their weapons from. She splashed the cool water onto her cheeks, thinking that maybe a nice hot bath did sound like just the ticket. Oh, yes, food too. They were serving some peppered steak tonight, if Toph's information was correct. As there was nothing Toph loved more than food, usually it was.
She blended the water off her face and turned toward where her accessories lay on the bleachers to see Pakku holding up her grandmother's necklace, a soft look on his face, far softer than she'd ever seen on him.
Ever since Zuko had used her necklace for his proposal, Katara had mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, it did make the jewelry so much more meaningful. However, whenever she thought about wearing it, she just got a dull ache as she remembered she'd turned him down. She found herself unable to wear it, at least in his vicinity, but also unable to let it out of her sight ever again. Thus, there it had laid, waiting for her to finish.
"I'm glad I didn't have to write to my grandmother and tell her you still are refusing to train me. I think she would have sailed back across the sea to make you." Katara didn't know where it came from, to talk about her grandmother, but the words just tumbled out.
"I don't doubt it." Pakku still hadn't put down the necklace. "You and she are very much alike. In more than just your face," he mused. "She was far too headstrong for her own good."
"Or just so. Maybe too headstrong for your good," Katara said, which she wouldn't have said if Pakku wasn't so blunt back to her most of the time. She got the feeling that Pakku was a man who appreciated honesty.
"I suppose." Pakku finally put the necklace down. "The world seems to think of me a cosmic joke. Training the granddaughter of the woman I loved. And, despite a rocky start, a waterbender with so much potential. One that makes me wonder…" He tilted his head.
"What your children would have been like?" Katara finished with a low chuckle. "What kind of waterbending masters they would have become?"
"Perhaps. In all, it's a shame your grandfather could not have lived to teach you. I've heard it's easier to teach family. Perhaps he would have been able to put up with your stubbornness, even found it enchanting."
Katara blinked once. "Waterbending? He wasn't a bender," she said.
Pakku frowned. "And your father was not, nor your mother?" he asked.
"Nope. I thought I told you, I'm the first waterbender in, well, since GranGran's childhood friend left for Iroh's choice. But, even then, there weren't a lot of us." Katara rubbed her arms.
"Impossible, child. Bending is obviously an inherited trait. Just look at the Royal Family," Pakku scoffed.
Katara shrugged uncertainty. Once, this very question had bothered her, but it was something she hadn't thought of in a long time. Bringing up it now seemed pointless. She was a waterbender who was learning and all, what really else mattered? She once thought it was a dormant gene, lying around the people of her tribe, but she did find it strange that no other children in her generation were waterbenders, if that was true.
"There has to be a waterbender in your tribe, some blood line-" Pakku was continuing on.
"I don't know," Katara snapped at him. "What I do know is that most of the refugees that left the Northern Water Tribe to form our society weren't benders, and back when things were good, even then, there was only about eight benders and most died out before I was even born. Does this even matter?"
Pakku blanched a bit. "No, I suppose not.," he murmured after a moment. "Knowing one's lineage, with bending, can sometimes shed light on how powerful a person's to become. It could have told me how far I could push you, how much training you can take. If it's even worth it to prepare you for a battle, if you are always going to lose it."
"I think that's bull," Katara said, and then blushed at Pakku's stern expression. "Sorry, that's just not true. Excuse my language. Neither of Toph's parents nor any of her grandparents were benders. She was taught by badger-moles, and she's the strongest Earthbender I know."
"She was taught from the original masters, of course she's powerful," Pakku dismissed.
"But if she didn't have it in her, it wouldn't have mattered," Katara stressed.
There was a beat of silence. Katara wondered, after all that, if Pakku was just fishing for information about Gran Gran. Had she gone off and married a someone just like Pakku, or had she found the polar opposite of him? Katara didn't know what happened with them after the revelation in the garden, but she couldn't say she wasn't horribly curious.
How could her grandmother have loved such a man once? She knew she loved him, from the way Gran Gran's eyes had been sad. There was a startling realization that his gruffness reminded Katara very much so of someone close to her...of Zuko. Was this what Zuko was destined to be without Katara? Spirits, she hoped not. However, it seemed Pakku never remarried, whereas Zuko would be taking the hand of another lady.
"Maybe there's something to be said. They always said my father would have been a bender, in a different life. He was born on the Winter Solstice, when the moon is in the sky the longest."
"I know what the Solstice is, my child," Pakku grumped.
"Right. Well, Gran Gran had only been in the tribe less than a year, arriving that past end of winter and married the current chief not soon after, so they said it solidified my father's future as a leader."
Pakku squinted. "Don't you mean she arrived in the summer? Right after the Summer Solstice?"
"I know my family history," Katara retorted hotly, not liking the tone Pakku was taking.
"Child, she could not have arrived before the Summer Solstice, for she left on the first day of the celebrations at the North. I was set to marry her on the third day. You think I wouldn't recall the day she just vanished into the night?" From the anguish in his tone, Katara knew that he couldn't be lying. Or, at least, he had convinced himself of this. "Perhaps your father was born later. Or he was a premature child."
"Well, then the whole story about the moon wouldn't make any sense, would it? And I've delivered babies; I know what an early child looks like. They raved about how big my father was too, so there's no way, unless he's a god on earth," Katara said, trying to keep as much sarcasm out as possible.
Pakku frowned. "Then, Princess, something is not adding up."
Katara was smart enough to realize this too, however she wasn't sure how to reconcile it.
"Well." She licked her lips. "I mean, logically she had to arrive late winter, to have my father near nine moons later, so…" The answer was on the tip of her tongue, but she could not put it together.
Pakku, however, turned abruptly and began walking away.
"Hey, are we done?" Katara called, but from the urgency in his steps, Katara doubted he could hear her. He always set up their next lesson, so for him to forget was very unlike him. Something was plaguing his mind, something that made him abandon all other pursuits.
Katara put her dress back on and walked through the palace in a near daze, forehead burrowed in deep thought. She arrived at Sokka's door, shaking her head half in awe, half in disbelief. She knocked twice, but he did not answer.
This sharpened her mind. She knocked again. "Sokka, I know you're in there, I can see your shadow moving under the door." She rolled her eyes. "I'm coming in, in one...two…"
Sokka hastily opened the door, sliding himself to the other side of it. He shut it behind him, back pressed against the wood. "Hey, sis. Sup?"
"What's up with you?" Katara crossed her arms. "Oh, La, don't tell me you have, like, a handmaid in there with you, or a dignitary's daughter." Her face reddened at the obvious. His shirt was a little wrinkled and he seemed nervous. Plus, his breathing was short, like he'd been running. And, he was making a big deal of holding the door closed. Well, frankly, Katara didn't want to see a half or fully naked girl next to her brother, so perhaps she should be glad.
"No, not that." Sokka's neck was red, but he seemed to recoil at her suggestion. On another day, Katara would examine this more, but for right now she had something else on her mind.
"Sokka...I think Pakku might be our grandfather."
XXxxXX
"-and as you see here, smaller-sized Equalists were able to squeeze through this hole here, which seems to have been made over a long period of time."
Zuko ducked as he stepped into one of the mostly unused areas of the bottom of the palace, swatting away a cobweb. As his slippers walked over the ground, he kicked up a cloud of dust, causing him to sneeze.
The gathered group turned around: one of the repairmen, his father, Azula, and Lu Ten, who was standing a good foot away from Zuko's direct family.
"Zuko, how kind of you to join us." Ozai's voice was crawling with acerbic purrs. "That you would take time out of such a busy day to join us for this bothersome and insignificant moment. Since you were summoned an hour ago, I must only assume that you placed this farther down on your list than whatever you had been in the middle of. It's only our safety at stake, of course."
"I would have loved to join you, father." Zuko shivered only because of the chill from the air that whipped around the room. "Had I actually been informed."
"Well, perhaps you should be easier to find."
"I'm sure it was merely an oversight, Uncle. A harmless mistake." Lu Ten stepped in, trying to breathe evenly. Zuko snorted, doubtful, but he was glad for the backup.
"I only found out when a passing foot soldier told me of your location. Have I missed much?" He turned to look at the repairman who was practically sweating at the tension between the family.
Just an average day, Zuko wanted to tell him. It's Tuesday? Time to give Zuko a vague and slightly threatening comment. Oh, it's Wednesday? Time to remind Zuko of what a failure you think he is. A Friday? Guess what, it's Azula, vying for the throne, on time like clockwork. Speaking of Azula...don't look her way, Zuko.
From the way Azula was examining him, Zuko was sure if was her fault the message wasn't passed along, whether she had been told to do it herself or she'd threatened the person Ozai had instructed. Either way, she was probably looking for him to accuse her, and then she'd bat her big eyes at their father, and it would just lead to Ozai scoffing at Zuko. No, he wasn't going to give Azula that sort of satisfaction.
"Uhm, not much, your highness." The repairman bowed twice to Zuko. "I was just explaining that the holes that were made in locations like this that allowed the Equalists to get into the castle. As we fix the palace and find them, your father requested we keep tally of them…" He trailed off nervously.
"I've kept a log of them, Zuko, don't worry," Lu Ten said, relaxing now that his more favored cousin had arrived. Frankly, Zuko was glad that Lu Ten was there, too.
"As the Fire Lord, you should know these things, Zuko," Ozai said. Zuko was unsure if Ozai was offering a piece of advice for the future (unlikely) or scolding him for not magically knowing how hundreds of insurgents eked their way into the palace.
"If I could be in eight places at once, I would." Zuko gave an apologetic smile. "Which is why we have other people to do our work for us. Delegate, and read the reports, right?"
It was a tactic his father used very often. His father just hummed, folding his arms into his sleeves. "Continue," he told the repairman.
The next hour or so was spent with the repairman dragging them deeper into the underground palace, showing in the hidden corners all the ways a human could have slipped inside, and likely had. It was staggering, to be honest. They'd likely covered their holes with boxes or crates, making them inconspicuous, making them easy to pass by. There was no one and everyone to blame.
"We're, of course, sealing off any passageways found that are of this nature," The repairman said. "But that's just if we come across them. Unless you managed to capture one of these spooks and get them to fess up, sir-"
He looked down at his feet.
The palace was huge. There could be thousand more spots where they slithered in. They could be working on new ones now, knowing their plans were being fixed. It also gave the sense of familiarity of the palace, something that twisted Zuko's stomach deep within him. He looked at his father; he'd been non-reactionary toward this whole tour.
As if he already knew they were there. Zuko furrowed his brows. It had been a passing theory with Katara before, but now Zuko was doubting his father more and more. As much as Zuko really hated his dad, was he ready to come to terms that his father might have brought such horrors upon the palace? To further his airbender-killing narrative? Maybe he'd known for ages that the Avatar, an airbender, had returned and he'd been planning this for months. It wasn't the most outlandish scenario.
So what would he do now?
"The flaws in the security must be dealt with," his father was saying as he led them back to a main hallway. "Zuko, you'll handle this," he said casually, nodding to him. It was an impossible task he was giving Zuko, because he'd continue to sneak more and more Equalists in, or he'd play it some other way.
"I have much going on with the Choice, father. Why don't you let Azula handle it?" he asked, because his sister had begun to pout at his father's decision. Azula brightened. She looked gleeful at the thought of this task, of killing trespassers, or torturing them, or something equally grim.
"Father, I will make any Equalists rue the day they were born, just you wait-"
"No," Ozai shot her down. "Zuko will be the Fire Lord one day. Security of the Palace is a Fire Lord's job, for it translates to how you protect your country."
"I understand that." Zuko breathed in hard. "But Azula is fairly free with her time. If this is such an important matter, someone who has the chance to give it their undivided attention should be at the helm."
Zuko sure as hell wasn't going to let his father puppet him around, not if he could help it. The look his sister gave him was one of awe; probably because he hadn't been on her 'team' for eons now. Plus, Azula was scary enough that maybe she was the sort of person who should be dealing with this.
"My word is final," Ozai said and when he turned his glare on him, Zuko couldn't help but flinch. "Is that clear? Azula is not to help."
"Father." Azula's voice was almost heartbreaking in a way. "You haven't allowed me the opportunity to do something meaningful in a while, and I just think…"
"You haven't been given a job in a while because you will be married off soon enough, Azula, for whatever political ally we decide worthy. It's worthless to have you start projects you will not finish. I perhaps have let you alone far too long, and you've become over-confident in your place here, as made obvious by your dissent toward your brother, the heir. I expected more decorum of you, but I see I was mistaken."
It was like Azula had been slapped in the face. She grew stony, cold. Zuko truly felt bad for Azula in that moment. Father had never been so short with her. Zuko was used to it, but Ozai had always had a soft spot for Azula, and Zuko couldn't recall a single time when he'd ever been so cruel to her.
"I see," Azula said, taking a step back. "I suppose in that case, father, I will take my leave." She turned around, her steps wobbling. Zuko wanted to go after her like he did when he was a child, ask if she was okay, risk a burn or two. However, his father's gaze fixed only on him kept him here.
"Have I made myself clear, son?"
I am no son of yours, Zuko wanted to snarl. you have always made me feel like a mistake, an embarrassment.
However, Zuko could not say that. So, he clenched his fists twice and nodded hard.
"First, I will choose my own generals to be in charge of the palace guards," Zuko said. The current generals were his father's, and Zuko didn't trust them, as they'd been in his father's back pocket since he was a young ruler.
"Only expected," his father said, more amiable to it than Zuko would have thought.
"I also want to bring Lady Bei Fong in, and give her free rein to anywhere in the palace. Get her expertise," he added.
His father frowned. "A contestant? A noblewoman? Whatever for?"
"Her blindness is unique in that she feels with her feet. While we see a wall here." Zuko knocked on the wallpapered hall. "She can feel all the rooms behind it. If there's passage that we missed, Lady Bei Fong will find it."
"Are you sure?" Ozai questioned.
"Yes," Zuko said immediately. Ozai was silent, but nodded.
"It's your call now. Stick to your choices." He patted Zuko's shoulder as he passed, such an unexpected gesture that Zuko couldn't help but startle. Was he trying to show pride? Trying to psyche Zuko out? He honestly couldn't tell. "Do not feel the need to inform me. You do have the power. Just record it in reports, should I feel the need to check in."
"Uncle Ozai never fails to make things go from bad to so much worse," Lu Ten said dryly when Ozai was out of earshot. Zuko had thought for sure his father would want to know all his movements to be able to counteract and aid the next Equalist attack. Maybe he had little birds everywhere, so it didn't matter?
He brushed that aside. Now he had this assignment, and it was hardly something he could shirk off. He had to do a good job. It would severely cut into his time with the ladies. Maybe that's what his father wanted, less time he could spend with Katara?
"Lu Ten, do you know where Admiral Jeong-Jeong and Lieutenant Jee are stationed?" Zuko turned to his cousin.
Lu Ten smiled, shaking his head.
"No, but I'm sure my dad does."
XXxxXX
The letter the Water Tribe siblings sent home had been re-written about six different times. They sat in the library, hunched over the scroll, nitpicking wording and smearing their fingers across the ink if they were displeased. If they'd been writing individually, the letter likely would have been much curter, much more 'Gran Gran, what the hell', but together they tempered each other until the letter seems much more polite. Then, they'd sent it off with a messenger hawk and waited.
"She might not even answer us," Sokka said, watching it fly away.
"If we know, Pakku knows. Cat's out of the bag," Katara pointed out. "Might as well come clean on her own now."
"Think Pakku would drag her through the snow like that?" Sokka frowned.
"No, but the one thing I've learned about secrets….when one person knows, it's a secret. As soon as more than one person knows, it's going to come out, eventually. It's inevitable."
"So what does that say about our secret?" Sokka rubbed his neck, eyes cast back toward the door, as though he could see all the way back to his room as he was one of the the 'persons of the day'. Katara had yet to have either items fall to her hands, which was for the best, as of right now.
"Well, it's not really a 'secret', because we want people to know about Kuzon, eventually. Gran Gran would have taken this to her grave, if she got the chance. We're just trying to prolong an omitted truth."
Sokka snorted.
"I guess I have to admire that about you. So full of hope, always." Sokka said, patting her head like she was a seal-cat.
"You don't have hope?"
Sokka weighed it. "I'm realistic. I hope for the best, but a good soldier has to be able to see every outcome. All the best, all the worst," he said, puffing out his chest.
After that, Sokka returned to his room. Katara had nearly forgotten that he may or may not have a woman in there, but she wasn't looking to find out. She returned to her own room. Or, her current space. 'Own' was possibly an overstatement.
As most of the girls' chambers had been utterly destroyed in the attack, and not just Katara's, it was unsuitable for them to return. Their bathhouses had been smashed, furniture had been burned, and their beautiful little garden was just a square of upturned earth and charred trees. The girls had been allowed, with a guard envoy, to go back one by one to save what could be saved, but the general idea was that they wouldn't be returning.
For the time being, they were all squished in barrack-like conditions. The ballroom had been used for overflow bedding, but pretty much the only people left were the contestants. They each were given a trunk to keep belongings in, but many didn't have enough to fill even one. There was a changing area, and they could use the bathrooms. A lot of girls stored items of importance in their handmaids' rooms. Some went as far as to displace their handmaids from their room and force them to sleep on the cots while they used the tiny servant's halls. Aiga had graciously offered, but Katara wouldn't hear it. She used the room just to sleep, anyway. Plus, even the rolling cots were more comfortable than the beds she had at home.
Zhi had tried to keep the group positive on their temporary space.
"You'll be getting bigger, better rooms soon, ladies," she had assured them. "We're not just going to place you in a generic guest room, because we are preparing the best for you all."
According to Mai, as Katara overheard, they moved rooms twice throughout the competition. They were supposed to have moved at 20 girls, but things had just gotten in the way. With that, luckily, they were closer to being done with the new suites as compared to not. When it was whittled down to just five left, they'd move again. These suites would be like small apartments inside the Royal Family's doors, and none would be too far from Zuko's room. Whoever won would retain their room at this point. Some ladies, like Ursa, used it as a personal sanctuary. Other winners who were less interested in love had historically remained living in there, only entering the Fire Lord's personal chambers to produce an heir.
Either way, they were promised that their time living like cattle in a small pen was coming to an end soon. Some girls, like Nadhari, asked Zhi every day if they'd be moving. Zhi always responded with a forced smile and said, "When the Royal Family deems it appropriate, dear," and then would usually follow up with an overly-cheery, "Patience is a virtue!" or similar mantra.
Inevitably, little pockets of beds had begun to form, little clusters of girls who shoved their beds into groups.
"It's just like a sleepover!" On Ji had bubbled, trying to brighten the mood. Nadhari had heard the comment and been nasty about it.
"Yes, but you usually go home the next day after the sleepover," was one of the least cruel things she'd thrown On Ji's way. Apparently, corralling Nadhari with a whole host of others was not the way to make her nicer. Not that Katara was sure there was a way…
Katara's own bed was near Suki's, Toph's, and Alcina's. Smellerbee's cot had worked its way over toward her, through the encouragement of Toph, and Katara didn't mind. She'd never gotten a chance to speak in length with the short-haired girl, but Toph seemed to have given her the 'okay', so Katara couldn't complain.
Next to Katara's section, but still a little displaced, was Yue with the other two Northern Water Tribe girls that remained. As Katara looked out at their little group, she felt a deep pang. She wondered if Eva was still around, would she have moved her bed next to Katara's? It felt silly, to worry over beds, but it just reminded Katara how much she missed her, wished that something could have been different. Maybe if she hadn't been hiding. Maybe if she'd gotten there, to pull Eva back. Maybe if she'd been found sooner. The thoughts, questions, plagued her.
On Ji, Maiha, Ratana, and Jin were the next group over, all perfectly nice girls.
Next to them was the pair of Anaselma and Avizeh, but Katara wondered if they'd banded together more being the odd ones out than anyone else.
And then, far over in the corner, was Mai, Nadhari, Cillia, and Ty Lee. Well, saying Ty Lee was with them was perhaps overstating it. Those first couple nights, her bed had been pushed firmly next to Mai's. Mai, when she thought no one was looking, had seemed to comfort Ty Lee. But, of late, Ty Lee's bed was wheeling farther and farther away. Whether it was intentional or not, it broke Katara's heart a little. Every time she saw it, she had more than half a mind to invite Ty Lee so move near her group. The thing stopping her was that this might seem weird, since on the surface no one knew she was friends with the group, and Katara told herself that they were bound to be moving any day.
What was truly strange was Mai and Nadhari 'bunking up' together. It didn't seem like they were friends at all. Cillia, who was far nicer than either, was on a noble level to Mai or Yue, so that was hardly surprising, but still made Katara wish she'd become better friends with Suki or Alcina or someone. No, the one that mystified her was the pair of Mai and Nadhari.
"Maybe they're both in 'We're Horrible High-Class Snots' Club," Toph had snorted, and while Katara hadn't meant to put it indelicately, she'd had similar thoughts. The only thing that seemed to separate them was the fact one was Fire Nation and one Earth Kingdom. The climate of late was one in which it was nearly imperative to have an ally, at least somewhere.
A part of Katara was horribly curious to know what they whispered about, when they were, since Mai was such good friends with Azula and was appreciated by Ozai - if he could choose a wife for Zuko, it might be Mai. In fact, Nadhari was also a favorite of Ozai's. She was only here because he was strong-arming Zuko on it. A part of Katara hoped that was the only reason Mai was here too.
She shook out her thoughts as she pushed open the gilded doors to the ballroom. She saw a commotion of handmaids helping tidy things up and girls shoving things into trunks.
"What's going on?" Katara asked, holding the door open as Mai shoved past her with a whole group of maids following.
"Princess Katara, we could not find you to give you the good news!" Zhi smiled at her with a sense of relief.
"Oh, I was with my brother, in the library," she said. "Good news?" Though, she could have guessed.
"We're getting our new rooms, finally," Alcina finished for Zhi, grabbing Katara's arm and pulling her to their bed square. "I'm so excited to see what they look like! Aiga has been here since mid-morning, gathering your things for the move. I'm just about done too. Want to go with me?" she asked, her friendly exuberance a warm gesture. She knew that she and Alcina were friends, but it was still sometimes nice to have that reminder.
"Aiga, thank you so much," Katara said, a little red that she hadn't been around to help at all.
"Not a trouble, Princess. I know that you've been keeping yourself busy," she said. Her breath was a little short, though, and her eyes were a little too wide, a little too placid when she had no reason to be looking so oddly forced-serene.
Oh, she had the other item today.
And, if Katara had to bet, it was on her, for that in itself was the safest place. Or, the journal, at least. Would she really risk moving around so much with the powder, lest it tear open and kill everyone? However, from the slight tip of Aiga's head to Katara's chest near her cot, she understood. While she didn't like the idea that the power - as well wrapped as it was - was near her own things, it was the safest place. That meant Sokka had the journal.
"You okay, Katara? You can't tell me you're going to miss this," Alcina teased, nudging her. Katara realized she'd been scowling hard.
"No, no. Just thinking about something my brother said," she replied, lying easily.
They followed the convoy of girls and handmaids, finding the new suites with little trouble. They were closer to the Royal Family's quarters, somewhere in between where they put the regular visiting dignitaries compared to where they put up extended family members when they came to stay. The message was clear, they were starting to all be important to have made it this far. They were also on the second floor of the palace, a change to pace, since Katara really didn't spend a lot of time thinking about the multiple floors.
The area was once again sectioned off with a pair of guards and doors, although the doors were wide open to allow them to move in. It brought Katara back to those first days, when she'd been unsure who to trust and she'd heard things about Zuko, like that he was 'strangely handsome', or 'pensive', but not much else.
"It goes alphabetical instead of by nation," Alcina noticed immediately. "They probably want to promote more intermingling, now that we're getting whittled down and such," she said with a shrug. She was the first room, on the left. The doors were a little bigger, a little whiter. Instead of their names hung from a sign tacked onto the door (albeit, it had been in an impeccable font), their names were now on little stained wood signs drilled into the wall. A deeper sign of permanence. The hall itself was even bigger, Katara noted. And, it seemed that instead of looping around in a square shape, there were 11 doors down one long hall, mirrored on each side. There were also things hung on the walls, like it was an actual part of the palace, and not just an assembly of rooms in a convenient spot. At the end of the hall was a smaller doorway, and Katara was curious to see where it would lead. A couple other girls were eyeing it and blushing. Agni, did they think it was something stupid like an entrance into Zuko's suites? Spirits, that would just be an all-around bad idea.
Katara noticed as she passed that the first door from the front had no name, but she was reminded that they were supposed to move in at 20 people. It seemed each group of five rooms had a bathroom, though with only 17 girls left, it was three groups of four and one group of five at the end.
Katara's room was in second grouping, so near the middle. The girls' names went alphabetically back and forth, so while her name actually fell in between Jin's and Kilee's, her left door-mate was Avizeh and - she resisted a shudder or horror - to her right was Mai. This was the second worst combination that Katara could imagine, which could only be topped if it was Mai and Nadhari sandwiching her.
Being next to Mai was a nightmare for obvious reasons. And Avizeh was an incorrigible gossip, who would give her left foot if it meant being the first to spread around news. If she were allowed, she might make a fair journalist, Katara thought. And, when it was a slow day, she'd been known to amp up the truth. She didn't lie, but her word was always taken with a grain of salt. However, this meant any illicit meetings in Katara's room were going to have to stop; between Zuko sneaking in for kissing or for Blue Spirit meetings and she and Toph planning things, or any other secrets of the sort. This did put Katara out.
She saw Mai exiting her new suite and from the frown, it was clear that Mai was just as displeased to be saddled next to Katara as well.
Nadhari had left her room, a little down and away from Katara. "Where's Zhi?"
"Here, Lady Nadhari," Zhi said, sounding very tired.
"Are you who we talk to if we are displeased with our room?"
Katara could see Zhi's jaw twitch, probably holding back a string of cuss words. "The Royal Family has worked hard to make this exceed expectations. It's not even a day in. What could possibly be wrong?"
Katara never heard what vexed her so, because Nadhari dragged Zhi into her chamber. It was probably something stupid, like the paint color clashed with her eyes, or something.
"At least it's not Nadhari next to you," Aiga whispered when Mai was out of earshot and Nadhari's door had closed. Katara covered up her laugh with a cough.
"You're right, of course," Katara amended. She'd take Mai over Nadhari any day.
Aiga opened the door, and Katara couldn't help but be blown away. She'd gotten used to the very elaborate and superfluous rooms of the palace, or so she'd thought. Maybe the fact that this was hers was something different, or maybe Katara would simply never be used to the extravagance when all her lif,e she'd been raised to be pleased with anything the gods sent their way.
It was still just one room, but Tui was it a large single 'room'. A whole family in the South could fit in this one room. And, it was sectioned off to make it seem like there were separate spaces. A grand bed in one section, slightly larger than the previous one. An area dedicated to a desk with a couple book cases. A small sitting area, complete with a tea set waiting to be used. A space for putting her makeup on, complete with a new mirror and cushy chair. Katara didn't see a place to put her clothes, but was sidetracked by a window directly across from the door. There was a balcony with heavy curtains, and when Katara opened them, they revealed a sizable porch with a pair of chairs. They looked out onto a small sitting area that was probably hardly used, but well maintained. It seemed that they could not get down there directly, however. A part of Katara was already examining the walls to see if she could scale it down.
When she came back inside, Aiga was nowhere to be found.
"In here, Princess," Aiga said. There had been a door other than the front door that Katara had missed. So, not a single room. She opened it to reveal a closet with a full mirror. Aiga was putting her dresses that had survived, plus some she'd clearly spent time re-making, onto the hangers.
"What do you think?" Aiga said, holding up a pretty lilac dress.
"In general? Err, beautiful?"
"Oh, I suppose you didn't hear," Aiga said, pleased with Katara's reaction as she laid it across Katara's bed. "For tea time today, you've all been asked to meet with Lady Ursa. She wishes to talk to all of you."
"About what?" Katara asked, allowing Aiga to begin to undo Katara's current dress.
"I could not say, Princess." She patted Katara's shoulder. "But Lady Ursa is kind, of course."
Katara gave a short, slightly forced laugh. Somehow, talking with Zuko's mother was nearly as intimidating as going against Ozai. But, Aiga was correct. It couldn't be that bad.
Notes:
This is very late. I get that XD However, I am RIGHT at the end of my last semester of undergrad (I graduate on the 16th) and because of this I have just been so incredibly busy. On that note as well, I will be taking a by week next weekend to graduate and spend time with all my family coming out to celebrate that. So, expect the next chapter around the 20th of December. After that, it should resume to regular update schedule.
As for notes, they are thus
*We're getting a little into the genetics of being a bender. I'm going off a great website I found, but I'll link it to later, because the discussion of hereditary bending and such will be a bigger deal later ;)
*Later tonight (I unforch left the files at home...I'm updating from work...bad Lex) I will have a schematics of the girls rooms, the order of them, as well as a picture of that nice lilac dress up on my tumblr (youngbloodlex22) or the Art Story on my Archie of Our Own
Not much else to say. I hope you all enjoyed this! Predictions of what you think Katara will be talking to Ursa about ;)
Chapter 6
Notes:
I've had this ready for about a week, but being with family can just be so busy and exhausting XD
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
But of course, Ursa wasn't meeting all seventeen girls at once. So, even after Aiga had gotten Katara dressed and put on her makeup and jewelry, there was still a lull in which the girls waited to be summoned. Aiga suggested they go visit Toph, something Katara was very much agreeable to.
Toph's room was near the end of the hall. Katara came to her door and paused, turning to Aiga. "You sure she's in here?" she asked. Toph always answered the door before Katara even got a chance to knock, and she enjoyed yanking the door open and giving Katara a mini heart-attack.
"Oh, for the love of-" Toph growled, throwing open the door. "I hate this."
"Hello to you too, Lady Bei Fong," Aiga said, bowing and attempting to keep her smile from breaking across her face.
"Yeah, yeah. Felicitations, what a fairy-tale day and all that yuck," Toph said, waving her formality away as she encouraged the pair inside.
"What do you hate?" Katara asked, sitting on Toph's bed. It pretty much looked the same in here, except for much of Toph's fabrics and details were in browns and greens whereas Katara's were blue.
"Being on the second floor! Obviously," Toph huffed like it was the clearest thing in the world. She held up her foot, scowling at it like it had betrayed her. "I mean, I can still feel things, but it's like I'm getting it second hand, as though it's a friend of a friend trying to recite shit to me. First chance I get, I'm gunna have words with Sparky."
"Oh, you think he'll just move you down?" Katara crossed her arms.
"It's either that or I tear up this carpet to feel the stones underneath. Or, he brings me slabs of metals and I get to redesign it."
"Zhi would have an aneurysm if you did that."
"Tough nuts," Toph said, flopping face down on her bed.
"Hey," Katara said, standing, "Is this...is this from Sokka?"
Katara had spotted a picture on the wall, an ink drawing so horribly done that it could really only have been made by her brother, bless his heart. And, if she wasn't mistaken, it seemed to be of Toph...except, it was hung upside down.
"Is it supposed to be that way?"
"What way?" Toph turned her head, tilting her ear up to hear Katara's voice better.
"This picture. It's of you, I think, and it's the wrong way," Katara said. Maybe Toph wanted it that way, stylistically. Maybe Sokka had, and it was art 'she just didn't understand', something he'd said to her on more than one occasion.
"It probably is. I tried hanging it. Can't blame a blind girl." She shrugged.
"Why would he make you a painting if you can't see?" Aiga frowned, rubbing her chin.
"Sokka tries to pawn off his drawings on anyone that will take them," Katara replied, for she had a stack of drawings from him she'd taken. In moments when she had missed her family, she'd taken them out.
"Actually, I can feel the raised ink on the paper, so I can sort of feel his drawings," Toph corrected.
"Huh."
"Speaking of your brother, did you see that we have these locked chests for our rooms, with like, super intense locks? I mean, they're metal so I can get into them, but I bet the average lady can't. Might be a good place to...hide something of importance. Something I know a certain Ambassador currently has."
Katara hadn't noticed. "Wait, how do you know Sokka has half of the items?" Toph blinked, and for a second Katara thought maybe she just wasn't going to answer.
"Easy. I can always tell," she said slowly. "Heart-rate. Aiga has the other half," she said breezily, "But the point is, maybe we don't have to do this back and forth thing with them. Maybe we can just...keep them in one place."
"That still seems dangerous." Aiga hushed her tone. "We shouldn't even be talking about this," she added in a near furious reminder.
Toph looked ready to fight her back, but reeled herself in.
"You're right," she agreed, which was the closet Katara had ever heard Toph come to apologizing. "I just want to get rid of it all fast."
Katara didn't answer, but sent a look, something she hoped conveyed 'Toph, we all do.' Then, of course, she realized Toph couldn't see her and said it out loud.
"You know what else sucks about this room?" Toph said after a second, rolling around on her nicely made bed, probably just out of spite.
"What?" Katara deadpanned.
"The rest of y'all only have three other people to a bathroom. I have to share it with four people. What kind of shitty luck is that?" she asked. "I mean, it's me, Saoirse, Ty Lee, Suki, and Yue," she listed, holding out a palm, fingers outstretched to represent five. Frankly, Katara thought, that sounded like a great group.
"Maybe I'll have to kill one off." Toph was still talking. "Ty Lee used to bother me, but she's-" Toph made a weird hand motion where she just waved her hands around in the air, but Katara got the gist. It was meant to represent 'part of the group', "-now, so can't get rid of her. Suki's boss, Yue is nice to everyone and somehow it works for her. So, I guess it's going to have to be Saoirse."
"If someone hears you talking like that, they may think you're serious!" Aiga chastised.
"You hate bathing," Katara also added, "Fine layer of dirt and all?"
"I dislike it due to the principal of it all!" Toph said, which Katara took to mean she was just looking for things to complain about.
"Oh, two of you!" A handmaid that Katara had seen around before - she thought maybe she was Anaselma's - was at the door. "Lady Ursa will see you now. Please, follow me."
The girl nodded to Aiga in the way that two people who were on the same level of importance did, acknowledging the other. Aiga followed respectfully behind. Toph's handmaid was nowhere to be found, but that was hardly surprising. Katara wondered how long it would be until someone got wind of it and told Toph that even if she didn't need a minder, she did need a handmaid. Or, maybe there were just bigger fish to fry than a rebellious competitor.
"Lady Ursa is taking groups of six, but rotating them out," the handmaid explained. "Two by two. She alerts me when it's time to switch, but it seems most girls stay around an hour and a half."
Katara wasn't sure how far Ursa's cunningness went, but if this were Katara and she was thinking about these girls in a very political sense, this was a stroke of genius. She made it seem like the girls were special and loved, but at the same time she could chart how they responded to different girls. Nadhari, for example, was probably pleasant around Mai but couldn't help being nasty to other girls, which she hoped Ursa would see.
The handmaids didn't bring the girls into Ursa's private chambers, as Katara was sure many of the girls were expecting and hoping. None of them had ever actually seen inside the Royal Family's rooms that stood behind the two golden doors. Well, except Katara. She wasn't supposed to have, however, so she wasn't about to offer up what Zuko's room looked like, even if the satisfaction of watching Mai's or Nadhari's face at the news was tantalizing.
Instead, they were brought to some of the many, many fancy rooms of the palace, near where the grand balls were held. When they'd met General Iroh for tea, the room had been a little stiff feeling. She never thought of Iroh as a staunch type of person, but he was a general and the brother of the Fire Lord, talking to a group of young girls, so the slight barrier had felt reasonable. Ursa's tea room was small and comfortable and seemed like something a mother would share with her daughter. It gave the idea that this wasn't Ursa the Mother of Zuko talking with the girls, but Ursa, A Fellow Female.
As they were being shuffled in, Maiha and Jin were being escorted out. They nodded in a friendly way to Katara and Toph, but both were holding onto a sheet of paper and seemed deeply engulfed in whatever it said. This did make Katara wonder where they'd gotten it and what it said.
"You're either very lucky or very unlucky," Anaslema's handmaid prefaced before they entered, as a couple other handmaids came around to clear the previous two girl's places and set fresh tea cups. "For you're the last two. Which means you'll leave with the two that came before you and get less time with Lady Ursa, or you'll get to talk to her alone."
She bowed, slipping inside to speak to Ursa for a moment.
Aiga had become adept at reading Katara's expressions.
"You were probably difficult to find. I do not think it was on purpose," she said, but Katara could never be sure of anything anymore.
"It's no matter to m.," Toph almost wiped the gloss Aiga had convinced her into wearing off, but Aiga grabbed her arm at the last second. "But I do have other things to do today…"
"Like what?" Katara snorted.
"Well," Toph's grin was feral, "Sparky asked me to meet him. Dunno what about...but that's sure interesting, eh?"
Although it did pique Katara's interested what business Zuko had with Toph, she also knew that Zuko saw Toph as nothing more than a sister, so she didn't linger on it, as Toph clearly half-hoped she would. She knew Toph well enough to say that Toph was the sort of person who liked setting fires, sitting back, and watching the world burn. Usually, it wasn't done out of malice, but Toph also wasn't being super careful to not hurt feelings. So, Katara was not going to react.
Instead, she shrugged.
"Have fun I guess?"
Toph almost pouted, but realized Katara wasn't going to play. "If I said that to any other girl, they'd be begging me to tell why and offering their firstborn child or something to change places."
As the door re-opened and Katara caught a glimpse of the other girls sitting around the table, she snickered. "Well, Avizeh is here, so don't let her hear. Or, next thing you know, there will be five witnesses coming forward saying that they heard Prince Zuko announce his undying love for you, two articles in the news, and one ring maker on hold to make the royal engagement ring."
"There might also be a rumor you're pregnant," Aiga added in.
Toph tilted her head. "Maybe I should. Some chaos is always fun."
Before Katara could argue, Ursa was waving them inside.
Both girls bowed before Ursa.
"Princess Katara, Lady Bei Fong, please take a seat," she said. Katara took a set at a rich red cushion, sinking blissfully into the feathers. Toph hadn't moved.
"Aren't you going to help me, or ask handmaid to, Lady Ursa?" Toph asked in a small and helpless voice.
"Lady Bei Fong," Ursa sipped her tea with a sparkle in her eyes, "We both you know are more than capable of finding the place yourself. Your tricks that my brother-in-law finds so hilarious will not slip past me here."
There was a scattering of giggles from the remaining girls. Toph seemed stunned for a moment, a look rarely worn on her face, before she nodded twice.
"Yep, you're just like Sparky," she said, doing away with any sort of formalness and plinking down next to Katara.
The others at the table, besides Avizeh, were On Ji, Besu, and Ty Lee. Katara was sure her sigh of relief to not be seated with Nadhari or Mai was very visible, but she was too relieved to care.
Besu and Toph did a funny movement in which they knocked their fists together in greeting, and Ursa seemed enchanted by it.
"Please, help yourself to the snacks. Attendants will be coming around with my favorite teas, if you so wish to try them," Ursa said.
"No need to tell me twice to eat," Toph said, fingers wiggling as she filled up her plate like this was dinner instead of a mere tea meeting. Katara took some cookies and some spicy looking meat on a stick, finding the spread of food in front of her unusual, but welcome.
"All my favorite snacks as well. I could have gone more traditional, with dainty finger cakes or fruit, but I want to feel comfortable, just as I wish you all to do too," Ursa said. Katara's fingers jerked back to her. She had not expected Ursa to be so perceptive.
Ursa met Katara's eyes with a knowing look, something near a smile, and suddenly Katara was burning to ask her a thousand questions. She hadn't had an opinion, much like Toph, whether they were going to be alone with her or not, but Katara found herself so hoping that she'd even get a moment alone.
"We were just talking with Ursa about her Royal Wedding," On Ji interjected in a dreamy voice. Katara tried not to let her lips pucker. They had Ursa right in front of them, who seemed very willing to answer anything, and they were asking about trivial things like what colors she used in her wedding?
Katara paused before saying something unkind.
These girls had just survived a battle that left people dead. This was more action than they thought they'd ever see here. They were forced out of their rooms, had lost important items and their clothes alike, and were still around. So, for an average girl like On Ji, was it really so bad to talk about things like this? Normal things? Lighthearted, un-scary things?
Katara, and even Toph, decided not. Katara let herself sink into the conversation. She tried to summon the way she talked with the girls back at the start of the competition, but she'd found friends in Toph and Suki quickly, and had mostly talked them. She tried to think back to even the girls on the tundra, but Katara hadn't had many female friends.
So, instead of trying to be someone she wasn't, Katara decided she wouldn't make an overly large effort to join in, but merely listened and sipped on mango-lemon green tea.
"As I was saying, I only had two ladies standing up with me for my vows," Ursa said.
"Can you only have two?" Avizeh sounded a little frazzled. While Katara wasn't up to snuff on Fire Nation wedding customs, she imagined that they were talking about something like a witness or someone to sign a document, like they did in her tribe...or had, when they still had paper.
"Girls and boys often stand by one pair of the intended when they wed, as a symbol that the bride and groom respect what they've done for them to get to that point," Ursa cut in for Katara. "You know, I can't say I know many Southern Water Tribe customs regarding matrimony."
Katara realized that the gaze had turned to her. She was about to decline, until she saw that Ty Lee and On Ji looked actually interested.
"Well, it's not much. It usually begins by the male giving gifts to the female. Then, to prove his worth, he will usually help the bride's father for about a year, doing various things from joining in hunts to building a shelter for himself and his future wife. Then, sometimes couple will just go off and that will be it. I wish that it could be as romantic as this all is, but when you're nearly starving, having lavish ceremony to an event sometimes is unneeded. You make a pact with another person to love them and to care for them and that's how it is. But-" She realized how small and unofficial this all felt. "If someone really wanted to prove to the tribe that they were taking under a true vow of love, there's a small ceremony. We have witnesses for the sides stand up, and the wife will weave a blanket for the pair. A part of that blanket will be wrapped and tied around the couple's hands, to signify an unbreakable bond. To cheat or leave a union after this would be…" Katara shook her head. Luckily, the group seemed to gather the meaning.
Ursa looked thoughtful. She wondered if she was going to tell this information to Zuko, or if she actually was genuinely curious? Maybe both?
"Thank you, Katara. You never have to share if you feel uncomfortable," Ursa reminded, "But to answer your question, no, Lady Avizeh. I only wanted my childhood best friend and my other closest friend that I had made during the competition. I didn't need any more support than that."
"I have so many friends, I don't know who I'd choose," Avizeh whispered in a quiet laugh.
"Some do have many. Nia, may she rest in peace, had twelve girls," she said. Some girls looked confused, but Katara took a guess that it might be Zuko's aunt. The name sounded familiar too, she was nearly sure of it.
"I want a big wedding." On Ji gave a star-eyed smile, setting her elbows on her folded legs. "Can't you imagine?"
"I'd like it to be a big deal too," Besu added with a small smile, and Katara jumped, having rarely heard her talk. "I just...I dunno. Like the idea that so many people would be happy to see it, to be there."
"If my son picks you, your wildest dreams could come true," Ursa said. "No expense will be spared."
"If I get married, I like how Katara's people to it. No fuss, no drama. If you love someone, why do you need all that anyway?"
Ursa laughed. "I'm somewhat inclined to agree. However, it's more for everyone else than it is for you. I think I loved Ozai enough I would have married him in servant's clothes in the desert, if we needed to."
Now this was interesting. That Ursa had even once loved Ozai. She wasn't sure about currently, but even to have once loved that man...now Katara had more questions than ever.
Ty Lee gave a quiet coo, a small 'aww'. Katara had never thought to ask Ty Lee, who saw their domestic life more than Katara did. Maybe she'd have to later.
"What about you, Katara? What sorts of things do you want at your wedding?" Ty Lee said, turning, smiling as she encouraged Katara to add in.
"Uhm," Katara frowned. She'd never really romanticized a possible wedding. "I guess...well, I don't need to do it the whole way my tribe does. I like the betrothal necklace, but that's more something in the North. I guess I'd just really want my family to be there."
"A very sweet thought." Ursa nodded at her.
"I've heard that in some places, like the Earth Kingdom, the father gives the bride away. I guess I really look up to my dad, and I like that. I'd want to know that he approves of the marriage." Katara looked at her hands, saying much more than she had ever intended to.
"I can't imagine your father would ever disapprove. You have a good head on your shoulders, Katara. I can't imagine you would ever pick a future spouse lightly."
Did Ursa know that she'd turned Zuko down? All of a sudden, Katara wasn't sure that she didn't. That she might even...respect Katara's choice to say no? Or, Katara was just reading into it. Damn it, Katara truly couldn't tell.
"Lady Ursa." On Ji suddenly looked very red in the face. "Can I ask...a well, more personal question?"
"My dear, I would never want you to feel uncomfortable to ask me anything."
"I've just heard…" On Ji frowned, swallowing. "It was a myth of sorts in my town. We weren't as big a part of the Fire Nation as other cities, but...well...no, never mind," she squeaked, covering her face, her skin as red as the cushion Katara sat on.
Toph coughed into her tea, trying to hide a laugh. Whatever On Ji was about to ask was apparently setting off Toph's sensors on something.
"Oh," Avizeh realized and grimace, looking at her tea though it displeased her. "I think I know the rumor. On Ji wants to know, and I guess I do too...I hear that on the night of the wedding, there's uh, people watching to be sure the union is...consummated."
Toph burst out laughing, covering it up by shoving more chicken in her mouth.
Katara recoiled back. People watching while you had sex? Spirits, and they called the South archaic!
Ty Lee played with her braided hair, her cheeks a little pink as well, and Besu's eyes just widened to nearly comical lengths.
Usra gave a heavy sigh. She set down her tea, something she hadn't done with such ceremony since Katara had arrived, which told her that this was a slightly tense question.
"In short, yes. Spirits knows I've been trying to convince Ozai to abolish that darn rule since he took the throne, but the Fire Nation prides itself on tradition, if you cannot tell."
"Oh, gosh." On Ji looked terrified. Katara wondered if she'd ever even kissed a boy? It did seem awful for someone's first time, which Katara was sure was many of the girls' experiences, to be viewed and charted.
"They attempt to make it less awkward, but nothing much can change it, if you really think about it," Ursa said, patting her hand across the table. "They just want to be assured that the event of an heir will come as soon as possible. The Fire Nation has had two or three examples in which a Fire Lord has died without a son or daughter and it has not been pretty. So, the Fire Sages are overly nervous, and did this to combat that, or at least to give it the best chance. They have very heavy curtains up and the lights are very dim. After, the next morning, they check for blood. The maidenhead."
"Not every woman bleeds her first time," Katara couldn't help but blurt out. She didn't dare ask what if a woman wasn't a virgin, because she wasn't sure she'd like the answer.
The girls were looking at her with mild surprise, and Avizehs' eyebrows were raised in a 'oh, you know from experience?' sort of way. Which, no, she didn't...at least, not that sort of experience. She had just helped deliver enough babies that Katara knew the whole process, from sex to baby.
"Very true," Ursa said, "which is why they require to see the act. And a handmaid checks. To be honest, most are loyal enough to their ladies that they'd say there was blood even if there was none, just because it can be hard to convince old Fire Sages of such things, as if-" Ursa paused, biting her lip. "Excuse me, I didn't mean to speak badly."
"If they've ever been a woman, you were about to say, right?" Toph guessed. Ursa did not confirm it, but her gaze did turn to Toph, which Katara took as a 'yes'. However, she continued talking.
"You can pick who you want in there, if that helps. Three people. One Fire Sage, one male representative, and one female. Non-handmaids, royalty."
"A little," Besu agreed that it was a benefit, settling back. It seemed like most the girls were circling through who they'd ask, or who they'd want.
Katara couldn't help but wonder. Frankly, she didn't want anyone hearing or seeing the union, but...well, not her brother. Ugg, gross. Not Aang, since she thinks this might horrify him. But Zuko would theoretically pick the male. Who would he pick? Maybe Lu Ten? At least she knew that Lu Ten would be respectful about it, and he wouldn't derive any pleasure from it. So, on her end, females...well, maybe Toph or Suki or Eva, all people who she felt close with. Maybe not Toph. Toph may spend the night critiquing Zuko's form or something.
"I didn't want to end on that note, but perhaps it's best you all know. Feel free to pass this along. Now, as for your two assignments." She nodded to On Ji and Avizeh and they joined Ursa in a small side-chamber.
"She'll explain in a moment," Ty Lee said, smiling at the pair. "How are your rooms? Definitely different, huh?"
"You're probably used to it, though," Besu said, "Being a noblewoman and all."
"Not like this. Not something just for me," Ty Lee admitted.
"It's, uh, different. Scattered," Katara said. "Like, scattered around. Not like before. And on the second floor."
"Such astute observations," Toph drawled.
By this time, Ursa had returned.
She bowed goodbye to the two girls, and they both had a paper too.
"For Toph and Princess Katara, as you're both wondering what is happening, the purpose of this meeting is twofold. One, to get to know you all a little better. But today, I am also facilitating an outreach program, to assure the people of the capitol that not only are we strong after the attack, but we are there for them. Being a mother to the nation is a very important part of being the Fire Lady. It's not just dresses and makeup, of course. So, to lead you into this role, I set up different programs to be happening today and I am placing each girl where I feel they would be most useful."
"Clever," Toph breathed under her breath. "I'm sure the papers will love that."
"Perhaps." Ursa stirred some honey into her tea. "But the people we're helping will love it more." In that moment, Katara sort of loved Ursa. Even if she'd grown used to underhanded ways, at her core, she was just a good person.
After the pair left, it was just four. They continued to talk about trivial, fun things. Besu took reign of the conversation, maybe feeling a bit more at ease, and asked about any mistakes Ursa had made as a young Fire Lord's wife. It was a fair question, and Ursa regaled them with tales of her missteps and things she learned the hard way. She was a good storyteller, and funny too. Katara would have never guessed that without this meeting. She had all the girls nearly snorting up their tea in laughter as she talked.
"-And then, I was so nervous to go to my first ball after Ozai picked me. All my formal training, all that etiquette that my parents had taught me and that I had learned here went right out the window. I remember that I had opted to wear gloves, since my hands were sweaty and I didn't want the people I shook hands with to know. But, he'd commissioned me this gorgeous ring when he proposed, that I couldn't not wear it to show off. As I was waving when we walked in, as everyone was bowing, I suppose I waved my hand a little too violently and the ring came sailing off and hit one of the dignitaries square in the forehead. He said he was honored to be hit by it, but spirits, I was so sure that that was it. I'd be out of here that night." She laughed, shaking her head. "I suppose it goes to show as put together as you think I am, every young wife starts out nervous and unsure. It's something you grow into to."
After that, she collected Ty Lee and Besu. Since she did not grab Toph or Katara, Katara wondered if that meant they were on the lucky side. Neither of the girls leaving seemed upset to see the pair alone with Ursa.
When she returned, she poured herself another tea.
"I won't keep either of you long. It would be terribly unfair, and I don't want to upset the other girls. But, I admit, it would be equally unfair for you both to not get the full time. Still, I know you're antsy to get out of here, Toph, so I might just give you your assignment now."
"Please, respectfully," Toph grumbled. "Look, I love tea as much as the next...well, I love tea more than the average lady. But all this wedding talk makes me gag a little."
"Fair. It's not everyone's cup of oolong. You will be going down to the servants housing structures. There's still a fair bit of rubble there from the attack, and I figured no one would be better for clearing rocks quickly."
"Sounds fun. I'm on it, Mama Sparky." She winced, realizing how informally she'd called her. Ursa just patted her shoulder.
"I'm honored to have a nickname, though I request you use it in small company with me only," she assured kindly.
Toph all but ran out.
This just left Katara and Ursa.
"Any questions before I send you off too, m'dear?"
Katara hesitated. Yes, she had a million questions. So many. In the end, two seemed to cover almost all of her worries.
"Did you ever love Fire Lord Ozai? Did you know when you married him that he'd be...this?"
Ursa didn't seem shocked or offended. She nodded, thinking. This question led to so many of Katara's others. Was evilness learned or bred? Would Zuko be like this one day? Could Ozai be redeemed? Could you see it and stop it before it bloomed? Was this love, whatever it was, doomed to repeat itself?
"May I first begin by stating that Zuko is not his father. I have made sure of that," Ursa said, her forehead crinkling. "But even at birth, he was different. But for the actual questions? Oh, my dear child, I did love Ozai."
She motioned for Katara to sit back down, indicating this might be a story. Katara settled herself, nibbling on a slice of flatbread with herbs and cheese and fireflakes.
"I was always going to be in a Choice, what with the fact I was Roku's granddaughter. They'd had their eyes on me since I was born, the Fire Sages. I just happened to be too young for it to be acceptable when Iroh went through his, though I think I could have loved Iroh. He is kind too, as you already know. I did not want to come. I had a boyfriend in my hometown that I thought was my forever. My parents would never dishonor a direct request from the capitol, so I went. I didn't try to win. I knew my old flame would wait if I wanted him to. But Ozai, as a young man, not much older than Zuko? He was...enchanting. He was suave, clever, intelligent, and handsome. When he said he loved you, even if it was all a lie, you felt like he did. I perhaps foolishly thought he held some tender emotions towards me. Maybe he did, but it's so hard to see that today. But if I think back to when we were all in the competition, and when we were first married, I thought it would all be alright. He dazzled me with gifts, called me sweet names, wrote me letters...he can be romantic if he so wishes. Once it began clear he intended to choose me - though I'll never know how much his father was encouraging this - I knew I had few choices. I wasn't going to go back to my hometown, to my boyfriend. I was going to marry Ozai and bear his children. So…" Ursa drew in a near shaky breath. "I worked with what I had. I picked myself up from that sadness and decided that I was not going to be unhappy in this life. That would feel like they won, you see, if I was morose about it. I looked at what the spirits were handing me and I did everything in my power to make it into a life I woke up to that I was happy with. You understand, Katara? I don't know if my love for him was all a lie too, or if I convinced myself into it, or anything. All I know is that I wasn't going to wish for things that weren't there. And I have found happiness. My children. I love them more than my own life. I would do anything for them," she said sternly, in a terrifying sort of tone that Katara knew she meant it with absolution. Katara nodded in agreement, getting her words.
"As to the second part? I saw it. I was more observant than most, or more in tune with reality. He had a temper. He would get upset over small things. He could be unbelievably cold and cruel, especially to handmaids or guards that displeased him. He spoke of ambitions that were...terrifying. And still a part of me thought that maybe if he was shown love, a love his mother - who was cold and detached - and father - who saw his sons more as chips on a board than children - never gave, I could have fixed him. I suppose I was naive. I suppose I should have known. His older brother would have given all the love in the world, but that still hadn't done anything. For years I labored under that thought, until there was something else worth working toward. Now...well, can someone really be forgiven for doing atrocious things? I doubt I'm in the position to be making such calls, but I wouldn't have the answer anyway."
"I'm sorry." Katara's voice was raw, despite having spoken very little.
"I didn't have to answer. I wanted to," Ursa assured. "These are most things you could have figured out yourself, in due time. I'm not going to paint Ozai as a better human being than he is. He has brought the Fire Nation much celebration, made us strong. At what cost?" Ursa shook her head. "Do you have any more questions?"
Katara locked her jaw, firmly shaking her head. She felt a little ill, a little faint. She'd already dug so personally into Ursa's life that she couldn't imagine wanting more out of her.
"In that case, I will just tell you where you'll be going." Ursa stood, motioning toward the door.
"Don't I get a paper?" Katara asked, frowning.
"Some jobs need more instructions than others. This one is more feelings-based, you see. More instinctual." Ursa motioned for the handmaids to start cleaning. "Some of the girls are talking to those affected by the attack, asking what we can do to help. Guards and maids whose houses were destroyed or family slain, dignitaries that were injured, delivery people who got caught up in the wrong place at the wrong time, healers who worked double to make sure those who could be saved were. A lot have family they couldn't just leave alone, so I've set up a daycare in the gardens. While we have some workers watching, it always goes a long way for others - more important members - to come by. If you wouldn't mind, I'm sure the children there would be happy to have you."
"Of course, Lady Ursa," Katara bowed. She wasn't upset to be placed with children. She missed how many there once was in the tribe, or from the stories she heard of her grandmother, back when things were a little better. She knew she was good with children too.
"It is located in the gardens in which we had the small fair of the dignitaries. Do you need an escort?"
"I think I can find it again. And, thank you. That was...enlightening." Katara struggled to show her gratitude about how open she'd been.
"You deserve only truths, Princess Katara."
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Katara did manage to find the gardens easily enough. She heard the laughter long before she saw it, which was a good sign.
When she came under the awnings, she saw a sea of small heads running around in the grass. Compared to their parents or guardians, and what they were doing here, they seemed extremely care-free. Some had balloons, others were painting with watered-down ink, and most were playing games with only their imagination. She spotted Shoji with a couple other guards, and figured Aang was in the fray (or, worse, he was with Zhao somewhere). Shoji was doing more playing than helping to guard. Small kids, six and younger, were grabbing onto the long handle of a spear, and Shoji and his guard partner were lifting it up, holding it horizontal, and letting them dangle before they fell back onto the ground in a fit of giggles.
She caught a familiar set of robes near the back and paused completely. Zuko sat with a group of small kids around him, grinning and making animals out of the flames on his fingers. From the way that the kids' fingers waved in the air, despite being unable to hear him, she guessed they were calling out animals to do, for they'd all quiet and Zuko would make another ethereal flame creature, leaping from his fingers before sizzling on the ground, leaving behind only embers and slightly blackened fire.
He looked like he was having fun too. He looked relaxed. There was no one here to monitor his actions other than the guards, who had their own hands busy, so he was himself.
At one point, a small toddler tripped over his own feet and fell face first into the grass next to Zuko. Zuko paused his magic tricks immediately, kneeling down to pick the boy up. He set the boy on his leg as he sat back down and made a ferocious tiger right near the boy's face. The toddler's wails stopped as he watched, enchanted.
Even after the boy had stopped wailing, Zuko continued to let him sit there. He seemed so small, in comparison to Zuko. Yet, there was a care to the way that Zuko handled him, a gentle hand on his back, a quiet muss of his hair here and there, a watchful eye in case something happened.
Katara's first thought, though she realized only later his practice might have been from being an older brother to Azula, was that one day he'd make a good father.
Her next thought was a confusing one. As much as it hurt to imagine Zuko marrying someone else, it was a hurt she could withstand. The idea that Zuko would be a father one day to someone else's children? That was almost unbearable to Katara, though she didn't know why.
Third was that it was weird to think of Zuko having children, though by their ages and expectations, it wasn't too strange at all. There were many boys in her tribe that Katara thought were not ready for parenthood in the near future, one of which being her brother, but she admitted to herself that Zuko could probably step into that role tomorrow and be brilliant at it.
And a part of Katara hated how cliché it was, how much of a typical girl this probably made her but...seeing Zuko with a child, imagining all of that, it did things to her.
"Request a royal picture. It will last longer."
Katara nearly jumped out of her skin, as she turned to see Hahn carrying a large piece of wood, his beady eyes watching where Katara was hovering. Katara wondered how long she'd been standing here like an idiot.
"Sod off," Katara snapped, shuddering.
"Yeah, c'mon, this thing is getting heavy." Arrluck complained from the other side. Yue came from around the corner, reading a list of things, nearly colliding.
"Come on, let's keep going. Oh, Katara!" she waved. "Did you get assigned? We're helping to build a new temple area, since some of the smaller gods' offering sites got destroyed in the attack," she said, motioning to the log.
"I'm, uh-"
"She's watching the prince and thinking about making one of those herself." Hahn's voice was utterly creepy. Katara stiffened, despite his observation being not too far off.
Yue struggled for a way to yell at him, horrified.
"Let me," Arrluck said, being more forward than Katara had ever seen him. He dropped his side of the log onto Yue's shoulders, grabbed her papers, and whacked Hahn over the head with them. "You're an ass. Let's keep moving," he said, re-taking his place.
Katara had stayed away from the North Water Tribe representatives, mostly because Hahn made her skin crawl and Arrluck always seemed mousy and quiet when he spoke. Hahn seemed to be the same. Arrluck? Was his newfound confidence because he was on his own and had grown out of his family's teachings, or was he always like this around other Water tribesmen?
Before she could think of it more, Shoji noticed her and waved to her. This caught Zuko's attention. Hahn might have started to make another comment, but Yue urged him forward, sending an apologetic look back in Katara's way.
Katara stepped onto the grass.
"Princess Katara!" one of the girls squealed, no more than ten. "I'm playing princess with my friends. Will you tell me what it's really like? Will you be our queen?"
Although Katara had wanted to say something to Zuko, she found it hard to resist the pleading faces and the crowns made from the weeds and wildflowers that grew in the area.
"Of course," she said, letting the girls take her hand and lead her away to their imaginary kingdoms.
Although Zuko didn't stay as long as Katara, likely could not, she caught him looking at her often, stealing glances that were soft but also willing and intoxicating. She had a feeling he was thinking similar things as she'd been thinking about him.
Katara wasn't ready to be a mother, she knew that much, no matter how adorable and pudgy-faced these kids were. In a not-so-distant future, with the right person? Katara put a pin in that thought.
She didn't actually get any chance to talk to Zuko before he had to bow out for other duties, but she felt like they'd gotten a chance, from how much she knew her mind was drifting to him. How good he was with these kids, how patient and thoughtful. No other ladies from the Choice came out here. Did Ursa know that Zuko would be here, or was it extreme luck?
Either way, Katara stayed until almost all of the children had been collected by parents, and only left once one of the older maids gathered the remaining children into her care, since it wouldn't be long now and it was nearly dinner.
They wouldn't be dining with the Royal Family tonight, but the girls around the table hardly seemed to care. It was very lighthearted, as they all talked over each other to share about their day assignments and what they ended up doing, or about what sort of things Ursa had revealed to them in the tea time. Katara couldn't remember a time that there was so much conversation buzzing around.
As they retreated back to their new rooms, Katara found a missive slipped under her door. She waited until her door was closed completely to read it.
It was simple. But Katara could glean a whole lot from it; probably because she was thinking and feeling the same. Uneven lettering; distracted - probably thinking of her. The nib making deep imprints in the page; frustration - sexual in nature, she had to bet. Short; saying what needed to be said in fear of putting too much out there, things that shouldn't be said on page.
Painted Lady tonight? If yes, return to me a slip of parchment with black ink on it only.
-Z
Grinning, Katara took out a scrap of parchment, smoothed her ink-stained fingers across it, folded it, and sent it off with one of the guards near the doors right away.
Notes:
So, not a lot of plot moments, but a lot of fluff, which we can all use!
I more or less made up/changed Ursa's backstory. The comics I think are sorta 'meh' and so only certain parts will be used from them, including Ursa's boyfriend and all that. I personally like this version of Ursa better ;)
In personal news, I graduated undergrad and I got into the grad school of my choice, but it starts WAY earlier than expected (In late Jan) which sorta threw a wrench in my plans cuz I thought I'd have all this free time to write so...we'll see how that changes things on my end. I can't be sure yet. You all, of course, will be the first to know.
I hope everyone who celebrates the New Year had a happy and safe night! Onto 2019!
Chapter 7
Notes:
Ayyyeee good people! What's up? Welcome to February. In the past month, I have traveled to Scotland and London, started work again, started Grad School, and met our lovely beta in person finally!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
She realized immediately after that there were more than a few problems with her plan.
First, Katara strode over to the balcony and threw open the doors. The night was just slipping into dawn, allowing Katara enough light to see how high up she truly was, and how few footholds there were to shimmy down. She also realized how turned around she was; she had no idea how to get to the kitchen passageways if she wanted to, let alone the kitchen itself.
She left the balcony door open as she slumped in one of the many chairs that now adorned her room, scowling and tapping her foot.
Two, she realized, did she even have her outfit? Most of her things were destroyed in the attacks, and worrying about a costume get-up wasn't high on her list of fears. She supposed she could scrounge together a black ensemble, like when she started, but Katara was used to the Painted Lady now. It was hers. She didn't want to slip backwards.
She yanked open the drawers of her make-up counter noisily. She was pleased to see a new assortment of cream paints; red, white, black...everything she'd needed for her face.
Well, one problem down.
She went into her closet next, turning in a circle. Aiga had begun to refill it, already flowering the racks with long and frilly dresses. She spotted her fisherman's hat on a high shelf and jumped for it. It was dusty and gritty, and the edges were singed, but it had survived. Katara felt a warm glee rise inside of her. It was stupid, but her first thought was that she was a fighter and her alter-ego and costume was an extension of her too, and therefore more durable than collapsing during a rogue hit.
The chiffon that flowed from under her hat seemed to have mostly survived, too. Once she took it out to her porch and gave it a few good whacks against the railing, the dust poofed off, leaving it presentable.
And finally...her dress.
She could manage in one of the plainclothes dresses that Aiga made sure she had a couple of. They were a little ordinary looking, but with the makeup, Katara could elevate them. She was fingering through her choices when a box in the bottom of the closet caught her eye.
She opened it and found a brand-new Painted Lady dress, perfect and pristine and white like fresh snow. It was made of a heavy-duty fabric, one that could withstand her jumping on buildings all night and still flow around her like a goddess.
Confirming a theory, Katara checked the hemlines. Uneven.
A grin bubbled in her chest, one she couldn't help but release with a breathless laugh.
At least half the battle, her outfit, was sorted.
Like an anxious child, Katara waited in her room until near nightfall, when Aiga came in to brush out her hair and help her wipe the makeup from her face. Katara spent her free time trying to get through one of the novels on her shelf, but with little success.
"Aiga," Katara asked once Aiga was settled into brushing out her hair. While Katara abhorred most of the handmaid's jobs, having someone run their fingers along your scalp was enjoyable, and therefore Katara allowed this. "You wouldn't know a thing about that dress, there, would you?" Katara pointed to where her Painted Lady dress was on display.
She could almost feel the smile Aiga was so desperately trying to hold back.
"I wouldn't," Aiga said, her voice vibrating with a sense of glee, "But, if I did, I would say that the people need heroes to look up to."
"Heroes, eh?" Katara raised an eyebrow at Aiga in the mirror.
"Good people. It's hard to conceptualize Royals being so, when they are so far away. Of course, they would not know that it's one in the same, however...people want something to believe in," Aiga explained softly.
"Have you heard things?" Katara didn't know how to phrase the question another way, but Aiga seemed to catch on.
"The Painted Lady has already gained quite a cult following, Princess. The Blue Spirit was appreciated, but there's a…oh, and don't take this the wrong way…mothering, that the Painted Lady possess that calms people. As though she's caring for the whole Capitol."
"I didn't," Katara assured. "A female giving literal sustenance is quite evocative. If this Painted Lady did want to, tonight, she may be concerned with how to, uh, find her away around with the new set up. Since, though a goddess, she cannot fly." Katara's head tilted toward their second-story accommodations.
"Well, I can't help the Painted Lady," Aiga said matter-of-factly, "But I can invite Princess Katara to join me in my room, because I believe I may have left her favorite hair oil there, and it's best to put it on right after the braids are taken out."
Katara hummed, pleased. She knew how to find the kitchens from Aiga's room.
Aiga had a drawstring sack that she carried around, usually to take Katara's laundry from her quarters at the end of the night, but on this moon she only took the dress, the wrappings, the hat, and the make-up there. It made a semi-funny shape, but Aiga carried it like it was a totally usual thing to be ferrying. There was a quiet confidence about her, one Katara hadn't noticed. The confidence to be invisible, if you will. Aiga could walk into any room pretending like she belonged there, and since she was the help, most would not take notice and if they did, she could spin her tale week enough to slip into any scene.
"This isn't a long-term solution," Katara stated.
"No," Aiga scoffed, already realizing this. "But tonight, it will do. It will do."
She realized the time was drawing near to meet Zuko, so Aiga helped her get dressed. She also acted as a look-out, allowing Katara to slip into the storerooms unseen.
At the threshold, Aiga hesitated.
"There's a house, near the fourth quad. I do not think so highly of myself to ask anything of you, Princess, but even if you may just look upon them, see they're doing okay, will you? It's a house that always has a candle for the Dragon Gods in the window. If it's out, it means...well, just can you?"
"Aiga, of course," Katara grasped her hands. "Is there something else you wish to tell me about this house?"
"Not right now, Princess." Aiga's smile was tight.
Katara was not going to push.
As Aiga exited, Katara heard the crinkle of her outfit as she bowed and the sound of the gate being shoved over the cobblestone floor. It meant Zuko had arrived.
Aiga clicked the door closed behind them.
"Katara, hi." Zuko waved, his voice muffled by his mask.
"Dork." Katara laughed, lifting it over his head. She leaned up, but Zuko stopped her.
"Will this smear makeup all over me?"
"You're in a mask," Katara whispered, "So who cares, anyway? If my face is smeared, well…" Well, Katara didn't care.
"Good point," Zuko growled, grasping her arm and tugging her against him. She squeaked as he spun her around, pushing her against one of the shelves.
He didn't give her time to stop him, not like Katara wanted to. He hungrily kissed her, pulling the mask up over his head, dropping it with a clatter on the flagstone. Katara sucked on his lower lip, causing him to grunt as he angled himself to be closer against her.
Yes, Katara's instincts about the short note had been correct. This was, she realized, the only short thing about it.
Having only one layer of clothes between his warm flesh and her hands gave Katara a very clear idea of the parts of Zuko she rarely got to feel or see, for usually it was covered under heavy traditional robes. Katara thanked Agni above for his black ensemble, deciding this was her second favorite outfit of his.
His first, and she was only guessing but had a feeling it would top, would be him with no clothes at all on.
There was a clunk from the kitchens, reminding them of where they were.
Zuko leapt back, snatching his mask from the ground. He rubbed his thumb over his lips, chuckling as it came back with red paint. Katara found a dingy mirror and saw the area around her mouth was now a pinkish hue, from the mixture of the red and the white.
Using a rag, she cleaned up the best she could, feeling acute embarrassment. Zuko, if he felt any, hid it well. He only looked pleased with himself.
"We do have a job tonight," he said, but sounded like it was the last thing he wanted to do. Well, not the last thing. Zuko was a gold-hearted boy at the end of it all, so she was sure helping villages was on his list. It just was not quite as high as what they'd been doing.
"We should, yes," Katara said. "Aiga asked us to go to a specific area." She explained best she could where the location was.
"Ah, we can hit that last," Zuko nodded. "Any idea why?"
"She didn't want to say."
There wasn't a reason not to go there, for Katara trusted Aiga, and all conversation ceased as they scurried up and over the tops of roofs.
Their usual route, over the garden pass of their previous rooms, was mostly destroyed. They had to do a route around it, and Katara could still see the devastation that had befallen the courtyard, the tops of the gilded awnings. She hadn't thought about her first room here, but it
was special to her, in a strange way.
In the South, they may need to re-set their house up every six months, with the weather. Therefore, Katara had never gotten too attached to one set up, one configuration. It was the people that mattered. To miss a room felt strange, felt foreign.
And still, Katara did.
"Aiga covered for me tonight." Katara was the first to talk, once they were on a part of the roof that was familiar again. "But she can't indefinitely."
"I agree." Zuko's voice was muffled, but she heard the frustration in his tone. "I had specifically asked for the suites to be elsewhere, but the attacks left much of the palace unsuitable."
"Toph is upset she's on a higher floor. No dirt."
Zuko snorted. "You know, she could cover the floor with soil and it might be an improvement."
"Tui, don't give her ideas."
"I'll need to assess what passageways are still in use. There are a few near your quarters, so if you can use them to get out the rooms at night, and get to a hinged door, we can figure it out that way. That means finding guards, aside from Shoji, who will be on our side." He went to rub his chin.
"Tahoe. That's Aiga's boyfriend, I believe." Katara snapped her fingers. Realizing her mistake at once, she covered her lips.
She swore that if Zuko could be rolling his eyes at her, he would be. "Aiga's one of us now. I think she can have a boyfriend. I'm not in the business of cutting fingers off for fraternizing between staff, in fact, all power to them. Also, It's rather obvious. You're not subtle."
"Oh. Right." Katara felt her face blush.
"It's my job, Katara," Zuko pointed out, helping her off the high walls that held the royal palace.
"What, to know when maids and guards are breaking stupid rules?"
"That, among other things," he agreed, though he was laughing. "In general, to have a sense of the Palace...and not just the diplomats, is essential...to know that Shei always will shove shrimp down his shirt for later at dinners or that Lady Mantress is sleeping with an ostrich-horse stable boy when her husband isn't looking, but that's okay, because he's sleeping with Lady Antons, and so on. And, the staff are people too- just like the visting guests, with their own torrid dramas."
"Aiga's in a torrid drama?"
"No, she's reasonable. I like her," Zuko said. "So, four houses?"
"Lead the way."
XXxxXX
The night, in all, was successful. The first two drops went off without a hitch. They were patrons of the palace that had given their last dollars for the reparations to the halls, giving more than the ladies and lords who had never-ending pockets. In between the second and third house, they caught and bagged for the local police a man attempting to steal from a little old lady. The third house was like the first two.
It was the fourth house that threw everything for a loop, or at the very least, changed the mood of the night.
"That it?" Zuko asked.
Katara checked the window. On the right, with a green curtain, was a candle. She was sure if she got closer, it would be the only golden item this family owned, and she'd be staring at the bust of the Dragon God from the window.
"Night's waning, let's be quick. It's still half an hour back, and that's if we don't stop for any more mangos."
"I was hungry, and it seemed wrong to take it from the food we're giving to others, when I can very well buy it from the vendor."
"You also made him think he saw a spirit, so."
"Okay, fine. No more mangos for me."
They skirted across the empty, darkened streets.
As Katara carefully arranged the basket on the porch, Zuko knocked on the door. Usually, they'd make themselves scarce, long gone by the time someone answered, but the figure who awakened caused Katara pause.
Zuko realizing Katara was not directly behind him, turned to see her staring wide-eyed on the stoop.
"Katara, come on!" he hissed. He darted forward, tugging her right behind a pile of wood near the door right as the door opened.
There was a coughing sound in the back of Zuko's throat when he saw it too.
There weren't many siblings born in the South. With such poor food and conditions, most families were lucky at this point to have one child. And, people had commented that Katara and Sokka resembled each other. However, it wasn't until Katara had come here and met Zuko and Azula that she truly understood family resemblance. The siblings looked startling alike, to the point that if their personalities were more similar, the only difference would be their gender.
And now, it was like Katara and Zuko were looking at Aiga, but as a man.
His entire face structure was the same, down to the doe eyes and flushed cheeks.
There was zero point in denying it; this man and Aiga were related.
As soon as he shut the door, Zuko was breaking one of their first rules: don't creep on the families.
Their faces were in the shadow of the window, watching with confusion and surprise as they spied a whole host of Aiga look-alikes in the room. Far too many people for the small house, Katara decided. Mother. Father. Grandmother. Siblings...baby cousins or, very young siblings.
Katara swallowed. She vaguely recalled that Aiga had been hired due to her poor status, but Katara forgot just how poor one could be, and she was from the South. Still, this was almost too much for words. The gauntness in their faces and how their fingers shook as they opened the food. Aiga had asked for a report.
They were starving.
Maybe, Katara considered, that the moment she had told Aiga her true intentions for being here, she'd made an ally. That this moment had cemented that Aiga would do anything for her, because she understood Katara.
They were often far more alike than Katara cared to think about.
But, on the other hand, there wasn't much Katara truly knew about her handmaid. She made a promise she'd change that.
Zuko was halfway between fuming and horrified when he finally tore himself away. When they were safe on a roof, high above the city, Zuko ripped his mask up.
"Why didn't she ever ask for help?" he questioned. He sounded shocked, guilty, and sad all at the same time.
"I think, this, was that." Katara said, bringing her knees in close. "But Zuko, you have to figure most of the staff's extended family is dying slowly. Why else chose to work at the palace?"
"But it's Aiga." Zuko's eyebrows knit. "She's not just a face, she's-"
"I know. But she'd probably dislike us for ever thinking so. She just got dealt a slightly better hand. Any of the girls could have been my handmaid."
"But it wouldn't have been anyone like her," Zuko said. "I can't do nothing, now that I know. It was a mini Aiga. Do you know how unnerving that is?"
"Yes, I was there. I saw it too."
"Right. Yes." He rubbed under his eyes. "I'll give them some assistance. That, along with other workers. Maybe I should…" Whatever Zuko's thoughts were, he mumbled them to himself. He was distracted all the way home, giving Katara a quick kiss before he was gone.
Katara didn't take it personally. He had more on his plate than anyone else here.
XXxxXX
"You seem tired, my Prince."
"Time never stops, especially not for Royalty." Zuko gave a kind smile to the server at the table the next morning, the one he had in his rooms, pouring over eight different maxims and proclamations at once.
"Permission to speak?"
"Granted," Zuko said absently, sipping his tea as he scribbled out a wording on one of the parchments, amending it to be less vague.
"I worry you're spreading yourself too thin. Like ink on a brush, too watered down across a page or over too many pages will just be illegible, and therefore useless."
Zuko glanced up, a smile twitching on his lips.
"Let me guess, you're usually my Uncle's server."
"He's just worried, my Prince."
Zuko leaned back, stifling a yawn. It wasn't just that he'd gone out last night with Katara, it was that he hadn't gotten a proper nap in...well, too long ago for Zuko to remember, which was probably not good. However, it wasn't as though the palace's problems would cease if he took eight hours to himself, and therefore sleep would just have to wait its turn.
"I appreciate the effort. You can tell General Iroh that the message has been received, but also tell him that if he would like to take over some of my work, I'd gladly take a nap."
Probably a lie. Even if he roped his Uncle or cousin into some of the many projects he'd taken on by choice or by his father's command, he'd use his free time just to focus on something else, or...if he could have the perfect moment, with Katara.
"I will be sure to do so." The server bowed. "More tea?"
"Yes. But, follow me. Bring the platter with us. If you're going to be my server today, you'll be on your feet. If I wasn't walking the length of the palace daily, twice daily even, I may be better rested." Zuko gathered a couple papers in his fingers, ordering them against his chest. These three had to be dropped off with the Fire Sages. This one Lu Ten had offered to proofread. This one he needed outside knowledge, and would spend some time in his library or call in an expert.
"Sir?"
"I would carry the teapot myself, but my hands are rather full. Are you following?" he asked, glancing behind to see the server following dutifully after him. He held out his emptied cup as they paused at the doors to the Family's quarters, nodding to the server as he filled the cup.
"Just, do this," Zuko held up the cup, "Until my hands are less tied up." As it was, one hand held the tea cup, the others held the papers. Or, they were shoved under his arms, as he started going through the maze of the palace, attempting to plan his day's journey.
And thus started Zuko's very busy day, or rather, an average day for him.
The closest location was the library, but he didn't intend to utilize it until last. He wanted to be able to devote as much time as needed to researching his topic, and it would be best to do that after the rest of the day's adventures were done. He did, however, stop by and find a Master, and asked him to pile up some books on economics as well as studies done in the last decade, so when he sat down to research it would be very easily found.
Next, he needed to drop some charters off with the Sages. He had his tea servant do so, since Zuko wasn't overly fond of the Sages, and he'd either get roped into a conversation about duty and honor or get nagged about taking so long with the Choice, topics Zuko didn't have time in the day to sit through. And, if he did have time, he wouldn't spend it trying not to set a Fire Sage aflame.
Lu Ten was not in the war office, but Zuko set the papers on his desk anyway. Azula was there, however, but she didn't seem to be going over some papers and schematics. A part of Zuko knew to be wary of her reasons, but he didn't have the time to mull on it. Instead, it was pinned to the back of his mind for a later thought.
He still had a stack of papers to distribute and people to talk to, but took a 'break', insofar as tracking down Toph Bei Fong. Although they'd set up a meeting, Zuko hardly expected she'd show up on time, which was true. Perhaps it should be said that Princes should not be chasing down contestants, but Toph was a rare breed of...of, well, anything. Zuko had almost thought 'woman', but Toph would probably take offense to that, just for the sake of taking offense.
Still, he allowed Toph a sense of freedom that reminded him that he put he and Toph in this weird power balance in the first place. Also, claiming that he was going to another meeting gave him an excuse to not talk with a governor or lord…even if he was unsure of where that meeting may be.
He found Toph in one of the topiary gardens. She was knee-deep in a mud crater the Equalists had left behind, looking perfectly happy. He was glad he'd instructed his waiter to go and make him lunch, or fetch it, for he was sure a proper servant would be horrified by Toph's behavior. Zuko was merely used to it. When he didn't think too much about it, it was almost funny.
"You're a hard person to track down."
"Not really." Toph was bending the mud ever so slightly, just enough to mimic a ripple in a pond. "There are only so many green spaces in the palace. Also, now that all the servants keep an annoyingly close eye on any hall that has an item of value, outside is more exciting."
"Right. So." Zuko decided Toph would appreciate it more if he got straight to the point. "The Equalists had multiple passageways to get in. While I think I know most, having grown up bored and lonely in my younger years, there are probably passages that I haven't even come close to stumbling upon. At the moment, they're a liability, as anyone who knew about them could sneak in at any moment."
"I have a guess where this is headed."
"If you were to guess that I want you to find any passageways a person could fit through in the palace, you'd be correct," Zuko said, crossing his arms.
"Seems like a lot of effort."
"Well, one, I can just command it of you," Zuko pointed out with a dry tinge. "But c'mon, to say this doesn't tempt you? To have unlimited access to hidey-holes all over? To poke your nose in places you otherwise would never be?"
"You drive a hard bargain, Sparky," Toph said, considering. "And, after I find these passages…?"
"The ones that pose a danger, such as ones that lead outside, we seal off. Some passages are there to make the servant's lives easier, I wouldn't want to get rid of those-"
"And some lead right up to your bedroom, and Agni forbid Katara couldn't sneak in," Toph snickered. Instead of denying it, though his face was flushed, Zuko coughed.
"Well, yes, that too. And, I want a map of it. So, I have a list, you see. In case this happens again, we know where to check."
"Yeah," Toph got out of the mud pit, not bothering to wipe her legs off, "That seems like a no-go for me."
"Well, take someone with you."
Toph bit the inside of her cheek. "Sokka has a lot of free time-"
"And his maps would probably resemble a blob of ink over anything substantial." Zuko has seen Sokka's efforts with an ink and brush. Much to be desired. "Someone else. Someone we trust. Someone with art skills."
"Oh, yeah, well, I have a huge list to pick from, so let me just go down it." Toph snorted.
"Fine, I'll find you someone. I'll just do it all, why not," Zuko bit out, not the first time he'd started to lose his temper around Toph. Toph, either oblivious or uncaring, patted his cheek as she left.
"You're a gem, Flinty."
Zuko hardly had time to stew about the frustrating meeting with Toph (though, he knew she'd do as he asked and do it well) because he was whisked away to his office for a lunch and meeting combo. Thankfully, it was only Ru, which relaxed Zuko.
To say it was only Ru was maybe rude. He was thankful it was a friend and not a dignitary, and Ru always brought a bottle of whatever was popular in the rings. He didn't spend nearly enough time with his reporter friend outside of business, a constant irritation whenever he did end up seeing him, but one that was hard to avoid.
"All I want is for you to keep an ear to the ground," Zuko asked of him in between eating their noodle soup and partaking in a bubbly drink Ru had brought to share between them.
"I always do, Prince Zuko." Ru shrugged.
"Yes, but," Zuko struggled, "I feel now it is more important than ever to chart reactions and rumors. Nothing should be taken lightly."
"If I hear anything I think is troublesome, you'll be the first to know, before any headlines," Ru promised. "In general right now, people are shaken after the attack. Concerned, of course. The palace is putting on a good show, which eases the public. You'd better hope another attack isn't on the heels, because I worry that a public panic is just this close to exploding out." Ru held his fingers together. "And, nothing is worse than a million worried, frantic people who have abandoned good reason."
"Noted, though if it were anyone's choice, the Equalists would be already gone from my mind." Zuko rubbed his temples.
They didn't have the luxury of a long break, as soon enough Zuko was back to check up on some papers he'd dropped off yesterday or two days ago or a week ago. He spent a good part of his afternoon going in with red ink and making changes to charters and bills, before sending them back to the desks of the men associated with their plight.
In between a few other tasks, Zuko figured out who to send with Toph into the tunnels. His first instinct had been Aang, since the boy had spent his younger years at the Air Temple doodling on sheets, and his formative years here in calligraphy training. This idea was quickly nixed because he was just too busy. It did, however, remind him of another high-trained person at their disposal...Ty Lee. She had as much training in the arts as Aang, plus she would be invaluable for squeezing into small areas with Toph. Besides that, Zuko was not blind. He had noticed her adrift of late. She was, for better or worse, in this crazy mess with them. It would do her good to have a reason to bond with a member of their group.
He took a moment to send a missive to Ty Lee. She could reconvene with Toph on her own. Zuko, despite his quip, was not going to do everything. That would defeat the purpose of deferring this to Toph.
Closer to dinner, it was announced that an invitee of Zuko's had arrived, and was waiting for him in his personal antechamber. Zuko had a fairly good idea of who it would be, since he invited few people to the palace directly that would be as confident as to wait there instead of the very
nice waiting accommodations.
"Admiral Jeong-Jeong, sir," Zuko said, bowing back as the older man gave Zuko a respectful, but stiff, bow. "Tea?" he asked, motioning for the servant - he had learned throughout the day his name was Atsushi - to come forward. He'd been able to keep up with Zuko all day. If Zuko liked his uncle less, he might be inclined to steal Atsushi as his own liege.
"If you are offering." Jeong-Jeong watched him carefully. His hands were covered in scars, just like his face. This man had seen things. As soon as his tea was in his hands, before Zuko could say anything else, Jeong-Jeong was interrupting. "I have come to decline your very illustrious offer, My Prince."
Zuko frowned, totally unprepared for this.
He took one inhale. Regroup, he told himself. Re-think and regroup before speaking.
"You came all the ways to tell me no?" Zuko asked, feeling an itch in the back of his mind. "Surely a letter would have sufficed."
Jeong-Jeong gave another tiny bow. "I live to serve the Fire Lord dutifully."
Nothing in his voice indicated anything but truth. No sarcasm, no biting tone, not even a hint of bitterness.
Zuko, however, had spent years perfecting his speech around his father so that he would not find himself in trouble for a reply with an edge. He had just learned to express his true colors with other parts of his body: his gaze, his clenched fists, his smile, his posture...this is what tipped him off when he saw the telltale signs of Jeong-Jeong doing the same thing.
He examined the weathered man before speaking again. He, like a detective, took stock of what the man had with him. A large duffle bag, much bigger than the usual military standard. There was a bed-roll on top of it. His shoes were filled with muck and grime that he surely hadn't just picked up from town. He spied Jeong-Jeong's military badges in a bag, not on his person. Finally, Zuko searched his eyes. The answer became obvious after a second of contemplation.
He asked Atsushi to step out of the room, for the next words he spoke of were treasonous.
"This is just a stop along the way, a stop in a plan set into motion long before I summoned you. You're deserting."
Jeong-Jeong held his face incredibly well, but Zuko saw the surprise of being figured out in the way he held his palms against the teacup.
"I'd imagine you are because you hate my father and his way of commanding the military. You probably hate yourself too, for what it's made you do. I know the name you've acquired, it's not a nice one. You're a terror, the most brutal out there...well, before your prodigy Zhao came along. I imagine you heard what he's been tasked with currently and that was the last straw," Zuko surmised swiftly, standing between Jeong-Jeong and the door. "You don't have to confirm it. I see it now. I am disappointed, Admiral, that you did not see the same in me? Your eyes gave you away. They are the same ones that look back at me every time I look in a mirror, can't you see?"
Jeong-Jeong's fingers rubbed over the chair back, the smooth wood, as he stood firm. "Will you have me killed, my Lord?" His voice now had a dark edge to it.
"I want to offer you the opposite. Live, and help me. Be loyal to me, not my father," Zuko said. "But, if you cannot bear to live with the person you are now, I will not stand in your way. You're free to throw yourself into the wind and never return."
"What drives you, Prince?"
"I'm sorry?" Zuko frowned.
"What drives you as a leader?"
The answer took little thought. "The people. My people, as well as the people of the Four Nations not within my command." He thought of Katara. "Not to conquer them, but to make a world of compromise. Honor. Safety. Family, blood related and not. Truth."
"Even if the answers are damning, the answers to this truth you so promise to uphold?"
"Especially if they are," Zuko said.
Jeong-Jeong gave a small smile. Well, it was more a smirk, but it was a movement. "I will follow you, Prince Zuko, because I can see that you and your father are driven by two very different ends. However, the moment I see you sink a foot into power, greed, and hysteria, I will protect the most important thing to me - the good of the people - and will not hesitate to kill you. And then, before anyone can find me, I will be gone."
Zuko swallowed hard, not for fear of slipping up, but having one's life threatened was always a little alarming. Still, after a second to contemplate, he replied, "I would wish nothing less."
Notes:
Going forward, due to my busy schedule as well as our beta's, I will be updating every other week. If, at a point, I manage to write ahead like 10 plus chapters, I'd consider going back to the weekly basis, but atm, that's just a little more than I can chew right now. Looking forward, I also imagine this installment to run between 25-30 chapters!
Has anyone else been caught up in this polar votex? Last Wed it was -60 with windchill where I was. You betchyer bucket I didn't step foot outside lol. I started re-watching one of my other fav TV shows, Lost, and I have decided that Toph and Sawyer would make good friends XD
A question to get you back into reviewing! Coming up, in Zuko's POV, there will be an opportunity for some details of dates with other girls. So who would you like to see him on a date with (Besides Katara, obvs, because I do know that's what we're all here for deep down hehe).
Leave your thoughts and comments!
Stay warm,
Lex
Chapter 8
Notes:
Uhm...welp...who knew grad school would be so difficult and busy? XD
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Katara was often told she did not know how to let a matter drop. She considered this, as she went in search of Tahoe.
Aiga had been less than forthcoming about the house and the people that looked startlingly like her. Katara had realized she really knew very little of substance about Aiga's family, about her life.
"You can always tell me," Katara had asked. Aiga had just continued to set out her clothes for the next morning.
"Not today, Princess. Please."
So, Katara had stopped asking...her, at least.
Tahoe was on rotation near the Royal Solar, or as Katara had learned from Zhi that this just meant a big fancy private room, which Ursa was in currently. She was happy to find him at his post alone, though another guard sat not too far away.
"Tahoe, may I ask you something about Aiga?"
"Has she done something wrong, Princess?" Tahoe's face switched to horror. "Is she in trouble?"
"No, no, nothing of the sort." Katara patted his arm. "Do you know much about her family?"
Tahoe tilted his head, frowning. "Not more than you, I'd think. I know she came from the lower sectors, as most of us did."
"Would you know anything about a house near the fourth quad, red shingles, with a lot of people that look just like Aiga?" Katara asked. From Tahoe's face, it was clear he hadn't.
"Princess, what is this about?"
"I just...I think she wants to talk about it, but as close as we are...there is a divide. If you may find the time to get her to open up…I know what it's like to hold things inside until it's too painful." Katara rubbed her arms. "I'm just worried, is all."
Tahoe threw her a soft smile. "Of course, Princess. I'll be sure to talk with her."
"Right. Thank you. Erm, carry on?" Katara rarely knew how to end conversations with the help here. Most just left without saying anything, but Katara felt weird doing that. Not to say her current way wasn't equally as awkward.
She saw Sokka waiting outside her room when she returned to the Ladies Rooms. He had a handful of rolled scrolls in his fingers, his thumbs and face smudged with ink.
"I need you to draft these better," Sokka said, holding up the papers, causing half to lose their precarious position and tumble to the ground.
Katara welcomed him into her room. Taking only one look at Sokka's near illegible notes, Katara knew he'd been having the same thoughts that she had been.
That, each day that went on, was one more day of Zuko and Katara stealing time that wasn't theirs. That it was one day closer to a Fire Sage commanding Zuko to pick a wife and Katara having to say goodbye. One day nearer to the inevitable end. One more day that their people reaped the benefits of her presence in food, supplies, and other goods, but one day of become more reliant on this. Even with the promise of a trade set up, they had become woefully used to the thrice-weekly shipments from the Fire Nation.
Her people were enjoying the food as it came. And Ozai wasn't the sort to encourage them to go out on their own. He sent food that would spoil if not eaten quickly, leaving them dependent. They needed to be looking toward the future, to surviving on their own. There would come a day that the shipments would no longer come. They'd have to trade their own wares, prepare. Or, worst case scenario but hardly an impossible one, there may come a day in which Zuko was captured or overthrown or killed, and Azula took the throne, and the Southern Water Tribe would get nothing but soldiers and weapons and shackles on their arms.
The first parchment: a green house. Sokka had also grabbed a Farmer's Almanac and the pair scoured through, looking for the most resilient plants for their climate. They bounced ideas off of each other to make it useful in the winter as well; harnessing the little sun they got to bounce off mirrors, heating it with ever-going fires, building an igloo around it to build up heat...all good ideas, but none that could be confirmed until tried.
They drew up plans for smoke-houses and pickling cans. They looked at how to dig stores underground that would not collapse.
They discussed how to make better houses.
Hours into their talks, with Katara's fingers just as dirtied as Sokka's, she gave him a soft, sisterly smile.
"What? I have something on my face or something?" Sokka said. He did, but that's not what caused her expression.
"You're going to be a good chief one day," Katara murmured.
Sokka punched her arm lightly. "You will too."
It wouldn't be the same. She'd be a chief like her mother or Bato was. Sokka, though...he was always meant to lead.
Sokka got up, stretching his arms. In his clumsiness, he knocked the papers off Katara's desk. He leaned down to shuffle the papers back into groups of her things versus their things, but became drawn to one sheet. Katara peered over his shoulder to see her notes of possible weapons she could use in the upcoming match, and if it would change if she could know who she'd be up against. What weapons would work best across the board, since she would not know.
"Oh, yeah, that," Katara said, trying to grasp the sheet from his fingers, but he held tight.
"Katara," Sokka sighed. "When you were born, I promised dad I'd protect you. That's what brothers do. You know you've made that unbelievably hard?"
"Like you run away from danger. You're no better than I am." Katara rolled her eyes.
"I'm serious." Sokka's voice was quiet. "You've probably had the same thoughts about this whole thing. That you can't just let things go and Ozai knows this and he'll use it against you. He could kill you, and no one would blink an eye, if done in the sham of his completion."
"Yeah." Katara's fingers twirled around her hair loops. One word, that's all that she needed to say.
"I," Sokka's finger's ripped through the parchment, "Is it worth it? This? For him?"
"Sokka-"
"If I don't say this now, I'll hate myself. You'll hate me for saying it, but at least the thought will be there. If you get called and it's against someone you know wouldn't hesitate to kill you, throw the fight. Don't engage. Let them win and walk away alive."
"You're right, I do hate you for saying that," Katara snapped angrily. "I wasn't taught to just back down from a challenge, and neither were you!"
"I was taught when to know that a battle isn't worth it! Dad told me that not every battle is worth your life, most aren't! I was taught to stay alive!"
"But what if this is the war?" Katara asked, her voice growing near frantic, "Because, if I throw it, I know I'm going home-"
"How is that different than now?" Sokka demanded. "How is that any different. You know how this ends. You know it."
Katara stood, biting her cheeks to hold back her tears. "You don't get it. If I throw the match, that's a day on the calendar. A date of the end that I'm just waiting up to, dreading. Knowing my time is up. It's like if we were told what day we'd die on, we'd all spend our whole lives worrying up until that point. If I win it, there's more time with him, I don't know how much, but it's more time. You don't get how badly I want that time."
A flicker of something across Sokka's face, like a pain that she knew well. "Katara, I...I get it. Not just saying it to say it. I know what you mean."
Katara's whole tirade dropped, just for a second. Sokka's face was red, and his fingers ripped apart a tiny piece of parchment. It was the same nervous tic that Katara had. Understanding, at least in one way, flooded her. How had she not noticed her brother falling in love, with someone Katara couldn't guess, right in front of her?
"You don't mean-" she began. "Who?"
Sokka gnawed on his lip, and opened his mouth.
"Sokka? Katara?"
Zuko tapped on Katara's door. Sokka seemed all too pleased to be saved by his interruption, practically sprinting over to open the door.
"Hey, Zuko. What's up, man?"
"Glad you two are together. I have a little surprise," he said.
Sokka grasped his chest. "For me? You shouldn't have, darling. But I thought we weren't going tell Katara, she's the jealous type, you know," he said, giving Zuko a saucy wink. Zuko just snorted, rolling his eyes.
"Yeah, ew, stop." Katara shuddered.
"Not that sort of surprise." Zuko looked equally horrified. "Katara, I wanted to tell you that I've secure and hired a master swordsman to aid you for the match, to teach you sword fighting. I've been saying for a while that you should learn a secondary skill, since bending is a weapon that - as Ty Lee has shown - can easily be taken away."
"Awesome!"
Katara's eyes shone with excitement, until she truly thought about it. "Wait, just for me? Zuko, I'm concerned that the other girls will realize this is blatant favoritism for you to just give me lessons. I know our affections aren't exactly hidden, but this goes too far, no matter how much I appreciate the sentiment."
Zuko just smirked. "What do you take me for? A fool?" He turned to Sokka. "Sokka, I've hired you a swordsman. I do expect you to attend, not just for show, but because I also think it would be good for you to learn this as well. So, here I am, giving you – Sokka - the paper that officially has your name on it."
"Oh!" Sokka said, nodding. "Sneaky, sneaky." He laughed.
"What?" Katara stood, coming to stand by the pair of boys.
"It's why I was glad you two were already together for this," Zuko said, tilting his head toward Sokka.
"Because, dear sister, if you were to accidentally see the time and location of my first couple lessons with this master dude, and were to show up in the annoying way you happen to do, and you were to happen to learn a few tricks during my lesson, well, who could call that favoritism?" Sokka explained with a wicked grin.
Katara felt a smile curl over her face.
Zuko gave a sigh of relief, patting Sokka's shoulder. "I think I might love you, Sokka," he teased, clearly pleased someone else ran on his level of cleverness and strategizing.
Sokka rolled up the lesson plans, wiping away a fake tear. "Right back at you, bud."
XXxxXX
That was not the only surprise that Zuko had in store for the Water Tribe siblings, as it would come to be. He hadn't wanted to say anything then, in case his second plans fell through, but two days later, Katara got a message delivered on a silver platter, with all the pomp and circumstance of a usual Royal Missive.
Princess Katara,
As our efforts to broker a trade agreement between your tribe and the Fire Nation progress, it has been brought to my attention that it may do me well to become better accustomed with some of the traditions of your tribe. Specifically speaking, to experience a fishing expedition through your eyes, as to better understand the ways of your people going forward. Therefore, today you and your brother-the Southern Water Tribe representative-will be accompanying me on a Fire Nation fishing boat for a very educational day. Expect to be gone a full day. Food will be provided, so only bring anything you think would aid my teachings.
Cordially,
Prince Zuko
Katara had a feeling there was more to this, but she couldn't figure out what. If it had been just her, she would have chalked it up to a creative date. The combination of her and her brother? Not exactly romantic.
Still, she arrived at the front gates to the palace early the next morning in her traditional fishing garb, or the closest approximation due to her lack of usual outfits and adjusted for the humid temperature. She was happy to see Sokka wearing a version of his traditional garb too, so she didn't look completely out of place. He was lugging behind him a basket where they often kept fish clean and cold.
What was even more hilarious to her was that Zuko was decked out in a similar look, except in the rosy colors the Fire Nation so seemed to favor. It was laughable, but also strange, because there were things that were markedly Southern Water Tribe to his outfit. Katara wondered where he found that on such a short notice. Or, she reasoned, this had been in the works for longer than she knew (which, that did upset her a little).
Either way, it was about an hour down to the docks, just like when she'd arrived. She had not been so far out into the city since coming here all those months ago. She hadn't been on a boat since she arrived, which may have been the weirdest realization of them all. As a child, and growing up, she'd spent more of her life on fishing canoes than she had on ice.
The talk from the palace to the wharf was safe; although they were alone in the palanquin, there were guards riding on ostrich horses close enough by to overhear. So, they talked about the weather of late (wet, hot, nothing new), of the new teas that General Iroh had been passing around during meal times, and of the colors that the Hall of Histories may be painted, and if either of them had strong convictions toward or against a truly obnoxious yellow shade that apparently Iroh had chosen.
Once they arrived at the harbor, Zuko was quick to get rid of the guards. When they protested, he asked Sokka if the Southern Water Tribe fished with guards, which was met with a derisive snort, and that was the end of that argument. Plus, he argued, he'd spent more than a few years on a boat himself. He was very well versed in sailing jargon, and did know how to man a Fire Nation vessel, especially one as small as the boat they were taking. It was larger than any of their fishing canoes or even war ships, but against the largeness of the ship Katara had been brought here on, it was in fact laughable even.
They also didn't have time to talk once they were maneuvering out of the harbor. Zuko seemed to have planned this precisely, for the ship needed no more than three people to run it. Once they were safely out of sight of the shoreline - or any ships for that matter - and the anchor had been dropped, Katara came up to the top decks.
"Okay, are we actually fishing?" she asked, crossing her arms.
"Don't see why not," Zuko shrugged. "But no, it's not the primary reason for this trip."
"It sure is a good cover though, eh?" Sokka was preening. "Brilliant, don't you say?"
"I take it this was your idea?" Katara snorted. Then, she frowned. "How often do you two talk?"
"I am actually the Southern Water Tribe representative and we are actually trying to work out a reasonable trade deal, so more than you think," Sokka pointed out. "But no, this little brain child of mine...ingenious."
"Yeah, yeah. Off your high horse. I may have thought of it too, had I had time to breathe and think properly of late." Zuko shoved the basket across the wooden planks to Katara. Cautiously, she opened the top of the lid and felt a mixture of relief and terror at all one. The journal was staring back up at her. Which meant the powder wasn't far beneath it.
"Oh."
"This way, we have a paper trail. A reason to go out to the middle of nowhere on the water," Sokka explained, kneeling.
"I am also going out tomorrow on a different boat with Yue, Arrluck, and Hahn to make this whole excursion even more believable." Zuko grimaced. "Also Sokka's idea. A good one, I can't deny."
"Well, you like Yue." Katara played with her fingernails. More than 'like,' she reminded herself. She had a feeling Yue was on the shortlist of Zuko's choices.
"Yeah, but add Hahn into any situation and it just makes it so much worse," Sokka reminded her. "Thank La I don't have to go out tomorrow. And, to think, you'll probably actually have to spend a full day learning about Northern Traditions. We'll give ya a crash course, in case someone asks, but let's be real."
"I'm just glad we're putting this whole matter to rest. It gave me anxiety to have it around all the time," Katara said decisively. "So, what's the plan?"
"We rip each page out of the journal and dip it in water to make the colors bleed. Then, we burn the pages to dust and spread it out over the lake," Zuko said, holding the journal.
"And the powder?"
Sokka lifted out a gigantic metal ball, likely what was making the basket so heavy.
"Toph wrapped the sucker in twelve sheets of metal. Nothing's getting out. With Zuko's help here, they carefully covered the original dust in molten metal, just to be super-duper safe. We sink this to the bottom of the ocean, never to be seen again. And, if by some bizarre chance it does wash up, no one's getting inside of this," Sokka said, holding it much more casually than he ever had in his life.
"Well, let's get to work, team." Zuko clapped his hands.
"See? That's why I think we still need a cool team name!" Sokka whined.
Both Zuko and Katara ignored him.
They all took to their jobs. Sokka filled a bucket with water and started ripping the pages and gleefully dunking them into the water. Zuko burnt each soaked page handed to him in a small basin. Katara was passed the ball, and she went over to the other side of the ship, dropping it into the bay. The splash of water was satisfying.
She was able to waterbend, feeling the sea part as the metal ball sank farther and farther down into the depths of the water. It was extremely deep, thank Tui and La. She maneuvered it to the bottom, and then pushed and pulled the water currents to her best ability near the ocean floor, covering the ball until it was buried a few feet down. It was tedious work, since controlling water so far away was not an easy task, and it was quite the strain to cover it. Katara didn't want to do anything about this job half-assed.
She finished just about the time that Sokka and Zuko were done too. The last thing to do was to spread the ashes around the boat. And, silently, they did, as though paying tribute to all the airbenders and citizens alike who had been killed by these monsters. Then, no one spoke as they watched the blackened dust sink deeper and deeper until it was gone.
"Well," Katara's voice was unexpectedly hoarse, "It's done."
"Finally!" Sokka's voice was much brighter. "I think we deserve a job well done," he said with a smirk. He went back into the basket.
"Sokka, you don't mean-"
"Of course, sis." Sokka pulled out a jar of clear liquid. "You may have your sake and fancy alcohols, Zuko, but in the South, we have Pearl Algae. It's shared by comrades after a good hunt or fishing trip, a job well done, and I would say this qualifies as a job well done."
"Where'd you even get that?" Katara asked, sighing.
"Dad."
Sokka unscrewed the bottle, taking a swig. He smacked his lips, grinning, holding it out to Zuko. Zuko raised an eyebrow, but lifted it to his lips. He took a much larger drink than anyone ever should, and immediately began to cough.
"You find that enjoyable?"
"Burns, right?" Sokka's eyes were glittering. "Puts some hair on your chest! Makes you a man, er, warrior," he added at Katara's disapproving frown.
"Burns, sure. Burns like it's trying to kill me." Zuko was still sputtering. "Let me try it again."
"Atta boy!"
"Oh, stop it!" Katara said. "It's gross and after a fourth of that jar, you won't know up from down. Plus, it has zero taste."
Zuko took a much less generous sip. "Well, that's for sure. What is this made out of?"
"Algae. And Katara's just a spoil-sport." Sokka waved her away. "It's traditional."
"It's for getting smashed quickly," Katara argued. "And I swear, we do have better drinks. This is not all we have to offer."
"I hate to say it, but this would sell well here." Zuko waved around the jar. "Especially in bars."
"Ha-ah!" Sokka waved a triumphant finger at Katara.
She rolled her eyes, leaving the boys to their drinking. She went and sat on the top of the boat, staring out at the vast expanse of the sea. If she ignored the heat, it was so barren that she could almost pretend she was home.
Zuko came and found her after a while, bringing sandwiches. She gratefully took one.
"No more Pearl Algae for you?"
"Someone has to be sober to drive the boat back. At this point, I don't think it will be your brother." Zuko laughed. "That's quite something. Enjoying the view?" he added, sarcasm heavy on his lips.
"Beautiful," Katara breathed, but she meant it. There was something utterly enchanting about a view of just nothing for miles and miles.
"Well," Zuko settled himself down, crossing his legs to eat with her, "If you go back this way, that's the Fire Nation Harbor. North takes you to Ember Island, a beach city. South, to the Black Cliffs, which are really volcanoes. If you keep going straight, you'll hit the Earth Kingdom. Well, first you'll probably nudge along the Crescent Islands, but eventually, you'll likely hit Pirate's Pier. Named because of the Pirates that trade there. Or, some of the other endless shores of Earth Kingdom."
Katara was rapt with attention. "Really? You seem to have a great handle on navigation."
"You could say that."
"Is the rest of the Fire Nation like this? Or, is it hotter the farther you go? Colder?"
"The Beach Town gets really hot, but the seas are calm and soothing, thus a popular destination. The Crescent Islands are about the same temperature, but mostly built on rocks. The Volcano lands, near the base, are a little colder. They're not usually active, so you don't have to worry about that. You don't-" He began to ask, but then broke off, looking embarrassed.
Katara knew what he was about to say. "No, of course I haven't a chance to go elsewhere. The South and here are the only places I've ever been. Even as a Princess." She leaned back on the hull of the metal ship, enjoying basking. "Though, to be honest, when I talk to the other contestants, it's not unusual. Most girls have never been outside of their own cities before the Choice."
"You're joking."
"No, truly. Even when suitors were being paraded around, it's a man's job to travel. Men are warriors. Men go out on the road. Women learn how to tend to the house. Why would they ever need to leave?" Katara sneered with a tinge of anger. "You, of course, spent your whole life traveling. I'm sure it doesn't feel foreign to you. But, truthfully, has Azula traveled much?"
Zuko quieted, answering her question by saying nothing. Oh, she was sure Azula had hit up some of the Fire Nation cities, but she had her confirmation that outside of their own nation, she had not the opportunities Zuko had.
There was silence. Katara sat up, shielding her eyes.
Zuko had been...off. At first, she'd thought it was about the whole business with the journal and the powder. He was still nervous now, so it couldn't be that.
"What?"
"Huh?" Zuko asked, a little distracted.
"Something is eating you, and you don't seem like the person to bang back shots of basically cleaning alcohol. What's wrong?"
Her mind leapt to the worst; that he was about to tell her that tomorrow it would be up. He'd be picking someone else tomorrow. She'd be going home. He'd be marrying someone else.
Zuko's eyebrows knit together. "I just heard from my Uncle. Zhao thinks he has a lead, out somewhere in the Earth Kingdom. He's taking his troops - Aang included - tonight."
Oh. This wasn't the worst she had thought, but this was undeniably the worst of things. So much worse than her own love problems.
"No," Katara breathed. "Does Aang know?"
"I'm sure he's being told now."
"What do you think will happen if they find someone?"
Zuko dropped his head into his knees. "Frankly, I don't even want to know. I just don't."
Katara, quiet for a second, just pursed her lips. Then, tentatively, she nudged Zuko's arm with her shoulder. Without thinking, Zuko moved her arm to pull her next to him. If either noticed about how domestic and comfortable the motion was, neither spoke. Instead, they just enjoyed the magnificent view of endless sea.
XXxxXX
The day was hot and dry, and the only relief was when the water splashed against the docks, showering the gathered men in sea salt. When Aang inhaled, it felt like he'd stepped onto the sun, and his Fire Nation standard uniform did little to offset the immense heat. He would take this over the Fire Nation weather, still, since if he were in the Fire Nation, he'd be sweating profusely.
"Think we'll find 'im?" one of the recruits asked, scratching underneath his helmet. "The tip seemed sketchy, at best. None of the others have panned out..."
"I hope so!" Aang winced at the enthusiasm of the second person's response. "We don't want those sorts alive. Gotta get rid of them right away, before it becomes a problem. Like weeds."
"I guess so," The first one sounded a little unsure. "I just don't want my family in no danger. If they are dangerous, like Fire Lord Ozai says."
"Of course they are!" The second huffed. "I wanna look these terrorists in the face. When Commander Zhao smokes them out, I'd kill to be in the room with him."
"I didn't meant to say Fire Lord Ozai is a'lyin, I just-,"
"Commander Zhao will pick whoever he feels is most correct to be in there, if he wants anyone at all. I think we should stop talking about it, lest the vermin overhear and escape," Aang said in a controlled voice, trying not to stumble over 'vermin'.
Very good, very logical, Kasata purred in his mind, cunning.
"Oh wow." The first soldier's eyes widened underneath his helmet. "You're right. You're right."
"No wonder Commander Zhao prefers Guardsman Kuzon," A third voice whispered, but this did effectively manage to quiet any talk about killing airbenders. Aang was of a mixed mind to be recognized as a favorite; on one hand, he did need to have a direct line from Zhao about the comings and goings. However, to be the favorite, meant to be appealing to this devilish figure. No matter how much you tried to keep your pretend life away from your real life, eventually, the two mixed. Years living at the Royal Palace taught him that.
"They got him! They found him!" a recruit called, running fast toward the milling soldiers, panting. He approached the docks, throwing off his helmet and running his fingers through his hair. "A real honest-to-Agni airbender!"
The bedlam that occurred was monumental. Aang was shoved aside by the stomping of soldiers and townspeople, to see the first actual airbender that he'd seen in over 100 years. Well, Dhakiya was an airbender, but he hadn't known, so that didn't count.
He had a horrible fear that this would be Dhakiya, because Zuko had been extremely tight-lipped about her current location. However, it was not a young girl at all that they dragged out, but a weathered man. He was already bleeding from a couple places, and he seemed to be more of a bag of bones than anything else. He stumbled over the cobblestones, and his clothes showed a man of little wealth. He was roughly shoved by the two guards, while Zhao paraded behind like a proud father.
Did any of his comrades honestly think a man that already looked an inch away from death posed any threat at all? Even if the airbenders were dangerous (which, surprise, they weren't.)
Aang positioned himself near Zhao.
"This really the airbender?" Aang knew he should have perhaps thrown in an insult, but he couldn't bring himself to, not at the ragged look on the man's face already. Sunken in brown eyes, light brown hair. He looked nothing like the airbenders of old, those that had coloring much like Aang's.
"Aye, son," Zhao said, kicking the man's legs as he hobbled to stand. "Coward was hiding out in some woman's potato cellar. Everyone gets what's coming to them eventually, though."
"I sure hope so," Aang said truthfully, looking at Zhao. He hoped this man would miraculously be let free, and he hoped Zhao was eaten by a moose-bear.
"Good townspeople," Zhao announced, tugging the man to his knees in front of him. "We require a location to interrogate this dangerous man. If one of you would be so kind to offer up a location, perhaps a boat, we will make sure your town is safe from his kind and any others who may think they can outsmart the Fire Nation."
There was an uncomfortable murmur that rose through the townspeople. Despite being commanded by the Fire Nation, none of the Earth Kingdomers seemed overly excited to offer up their place.
"We would, of course, be willing to give compensation," Zhao added after no one came forward.
A man with a full white beard edged his way forward. "How much are we talking?"
"Dear!" Assumedly his wife, a petite woman with gray hair pulled into a bun, a decorative stick through the middle, pulled on his arm, casting not quite a sympathetic look toward the airbender, but a look more than nothing.
"We need the money," the man said firmly. "We have a boat. It's not much, but it's what I can give."
Zhao threw a deceptively friendly arm over his shoulder. "I'm sure, sir, a proper price can be worked out…"
Hours later, Aang was sitting at a restaurant near the boat, legs bouncing with anxiety. They'd set up quickly. Zhao had taken some of the older military members on board. It had been hours; Aang was horrified to think of what they were doing to that poor man. His mind was whirling with ways to possibly get onto that boat, to fix this.
"Gonna eat that?" the soldier with the family nudged Aang. He looked down at his plate of rice, raising his head from his palm.
"Hmm? Oh, no…" He trailed off. He couldn't imagine eating. His stomach felt like someone was shaking it violently. This man could be dead already, and his whole reason for going along with this charade would be for nothing. What good was he as the Avatar if he couldn't save one old man?
"It is not going to rain!" The same old couple who had sold their usage of the boat to Zhao walked by the harbor restaurant. The man pointed to the clear as clear skies. The woman was arguing furiously with him.
"Well, if it were, you gave our boat away, so we can't get to those buckets aboard anyway."
"I leant it out, for this!" The man held the bag of money aloft. "And it's a perfect day. Not a cloud in sight," he said. The woman threw up her hands, stalking away.
Aang frowned, standing up, his helmet cradled under his arm.
"Ugg, no more rain," the guy who took his rice moaned. "The Fire Nation is floodin' enough without it."
Aang shot a near-friendly smile (no use alienating his fellow guards quite yet) but was asking the round table of voices. Gopan was offering his wisdom on weather patterns, but nothing conclusive could be made. Gopan bemoaned the fact he was only watching, claiming he used to be able to 'feel it in his bones'. Aang wasn't about to go through the exhaustion of switching minds to confirm this.
Still, Aang, ever-looking for a window, silently slinked aboard the fishing vessel, staying out of sight.
Within the hour, the skies darkened and the rain began to pitter-patter onto the deck. The town itself nearly cleared out. Aang saw most of Zhao's men gathering under awnings, using their capes as shields. Aang pressed himself against the side of the shack on the boat, inhaling.
If there are any Gods listening, now would be the time to really help your favorite Avatar out… Aang prayed in his mind. This was, of course, met with some responses and offended scoffs about being the 'favorite Avatar of the Gods' but eventually Kyoshi shut them all up.
Whether his pleas had been answered or the storm rolling in was set to be terrible either way, soon the rain was like tiny arrows on his skin and the wind howled like a dying polar bear-dog. The ship rocked like someone was playing with it, despite still being very close to the safety of the docks. Men rushed to tie it down more securely, but before anything could be done, a bolt of lightning lit up the sky like the sun, before cracking. The next thing Aang smelled was burning wood, and as he peered around the hut, he saw with glee that the ship had caught fire.
Talk about divine intervention, he thought with a sigh of relief.
He saw Zhao come up to the deck to see why they'd begun slowly sinking, and was preoccupied with a whole very uneasy crew. Aang wasted no time. He, light on his feet, tiptoed down to the lower decks.
There was only one room, so it was easy to find where the old man was being held. One guard was left to guard it.
"Commander Zhao says to go up on deck!" Aang tried to sound commanding.
He was a carpenter before this, Yangchen spoke evenly. I made sure to remember things like this.
"Part of the hull is blown out," Aang continued. "He sent me down because you'd know how to patch that. Go, now!"
Apparently, knowing the bit about his former occupation and that he might be well fit to help with such a disaster caused him to move.
This just left a door between Aang and the prisoner. It was locked, but one swift airbending blast (after making sure no one, and absolutely no one was around) opened it quickly.
Aang shut the door behind him.
"Ohh, no more…" the man moaned. Aang knelt next to him. His head hung low and his arms were tied behind a chair. His whole face was either covered in blood or bruises.
"Hey, hey, can you just hold on a little longer? I'm going to get you out of here," Aang whispered.
"Cruel tactic," the man wheezed. It sounded like a lung was punctured. "Too cruel…"
"It's no joke," Aang said frantically. "I'm here to save you."
The man lifted his head a little, breathing hard. "I'm sorry, but after today, I'm not inclined to trust anyone."
"Would you trust the Avatar?" Aang whispered. He very slowly lifted up a tendril of water with his hand, while making a flickering flame in his other. And, just to really drive the point home, he unlaced his ribbons on his fingers just enough for the blue arrow to peek out.
"Oh, spirits, it really is you." The man's eyes widened. "Am I dead?"
"No, still alive. You're going to stay that way." Aang rose. "I can't take you out now, but I wanted to give you hope. I'll need to find a reason to take you out of here, people would see if I tried to do it now. If I play my cards right, there's no reason I shouldn't be able to save you, still. If you can just hold out a little bit longer-"
"Avatar, please," the man said, his voice pausing Aang. "I don't have longer."
"Well, Zhao wants you alive. For information. He wouldn't kill you," Aang said slowly. The man gave a toothless grin, but it wasn't a kind one. Aang was sure some of those missing teeth was Zhao's fault.
"That's my fear. I am near the end, my friend. I know that keeping quiet is imperative, but the pain...forgive me, but there is not much more I can take before I tell your leader all that I know. And, if I do so, other, younger lives will be lost."
"More of us?" Aang echoed in horror.
"Near here. But I'm about to break. It's too hard."
Aang swallowed thickly. He could hardly blame the man, for he'd already endured so much. He had never asked for this. He'd never trained as a soldier. He was just an everyday merchant. This wasn't fair.
"Okay, okay." All the avatars in his mind were talking at once, and he tried to wade through their thoughts. "We need to get you out now. I guess I can-"
"You're undercover?" the man asked.
"Yes," Aang said, a question he could answer right now.
"Then you cannot risk blowing it. I am an old man. My life was near its natural end anyway," he said, a certain resolution settling over him. A peace that Aang didn't think he'd see.
"What...what do you mean?"
"Avatar, you need to kill me. Kill me so that I do not reveal where they are and more lives are not lost. We both know as soon as your leader gets what he needed, he'll kill me anyway. It is not unreasonable to think my heart gave out or the wounds were too severe." His smile was brighter now. "I will lay down my life for theirs and for the Avatar."
Aang stumbled back against the walls of the small room. "No, you don't understand! I can't! I'm...I'm an airbender by birth. We're pacifists."
"And, I mean no disrespect, but that may have gotten you killed 100 years ago," the man said. "There's eight of them. There is a girl who's only ten. These men cannot get her."
"No, there has to be another way," Aang argued.
"There isn't," The man said, which deep down, Aang knew to be true. He refused to admit it. He turned around, fingers in his black hair, panting as he frantically raced through options. Options that would get this man out of the ship and out of this town alive without blowing his cover or endangering the lives of the other benders…
"We need you, Aang."
Aang inhaled hard, like he was sucking in sea water. All of a sudden, he wasn't in the tiny boat room, he was on Appa. The storm, very much like this one, raged around him. He couldn't control Appa, the winds were too ferocious. He was falling, falling...Appa was trying to regain flight, but his fur was far too wet. He hadn't meant to end like this, he'd just meant to go out to clear his head, to visit Kuzon or Bumi and figure all this out. The Fire Nation had been coming closer and closer to their home. He was only 12!
Then, he crashed into the water. He could feel the dark, black sea swallowing him up as he swallowed more of it. It burned in his chest, and he had one thought; this is how he died. No one would ever know. Gyatso would never know. And Appa, oh, spirits, he hadn't meant to do this to him. He didn't mean to. He needed to save Appa…
We need you...we need you...we need you…
The voice in his head was not one of the Avatars, but Gyatso. It was more than a memory washing over him, it was the feeling of absolute guilt and anger and fear he'd managed to shove down for the past 4 years, ever since waking to see Zuko over him.
Why'd you disappear?
He was back in the boat, just like that, sling-shot back. His hand was against the wall, and when he picked it up, he realized he'd burned his imprint into the wall. His whole body was covered in a cold sweat.
"What," His voice was rough, "Did you just say?"
"I said...I need you, Avatar."
For once in his life, without Ty Lee's aid, his mind was silent.
This man needed him. His job as the Avatar was to save lives. And, he was going to save eight, and possibly more. There was no other way out of this.
"Okay." Aang swallowed, near tears. "Before I do it, what's your name?"
"Roddon, Avatar."
"Roddon, the spirits will welcome you. And I'll never forget you."
Three minutes later, Aang slipped back out and into the heavy rain and forced himself to make it back to shore and talk with the other recruits, per Kasata's instructions to have an alibi.
Twenty minutes later, when the ship's hole would be patched and everything would be back in order, and two minutes after Zhao and one man would go back in to continue the interrogations, the man would die with a smile on his face. Official cause of death, whispered amongst the men? Injuries during interrogation got the best of him. Zhao would punish his supervising interrogator heavily, but Aang couldn't feel bad about that.
He had figured, as an Avatar, if he could heal with waterbending, could he also kill?
The confirmation made him feel all sorts of uneasy.
They stayed in the Harbor Town one more night. Aang, having gotten instructions right before he left the room from Roddon, went to a small inn for dinner called 'The Weary Traveler' and turned off the lanterns in the third window from the door. This was a message to the other airbenders that it was not safe, if they hadn't already figured it out, and to continue on further into the Earth Kingdom, and above all, to trust no one.
They would travel back to the Fire Nation in stony silence, none as scarily quiet as Zhao. It was to the point that no one met his eye and everyone scurried around him like he might throw a man off a ship at any moment, which is not an unrealistic thought.
And Aang?
He felt as though he'd collapsed into his own mind, letting autopilot (or, more accurately, another Avtar) take over basic interactions, because he couldn't be bothered. If anyone noticed, they didn't say. Or, perhaps they were all considering their own necks and how much they enjoyed them being attached to their bodies to care.
Back in the Fire Nation, Aang found his feet taking him to Ty Lee's door late into the night, far later than it was acceptable by any means for someone other than the Prince to come calling at a lady's room.
He realized this, only after he saw the name near her door, and saw where he'd ended up. Frowning, he turned to leave, but the door opened suddenly.
Ty Lee was on the other side, her hair out of her braid, her eyes wide.
"Oh, Kuzon," she crooned, "Your aura is black."
He expected revulsion, horror. Instead, her eyes turned liquid as she pulled him into the room. "Are you okay?"
The question was so unexpected, so kind that it broke Aang out of his walls. He gave a hard shake of his head, and let Ty Lee wrap her arms around him. He hugged her back, burrowing his head into her neck, holding back sobs.
He did not speak a word the entire night, but somehow, Ty Lee still knew it all.
Notes:
When I sent this to my beta to proof, I just titled it 'ANGST' which I think is accurate XD
How did you all like my spin on the episode 'The Storm'? We'll be re-doing quite a few of these episodes in this world, so just a look of what's to come ;)
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Chapter 9
Notes:
IT WAS 60 DEGREES HERE TODAY. SPRING IS COMING. I KNOW IT IS.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
"Well, go on, pick one up," Sword Master Piandao instructed. "Attack me."
Katara sat on the pile of cushions a maid had taken care to drag out to the zen garden where Sokka would be meeting his instructor. There was an array of swords shoved into the sand, and Sokka wound around their hilts with a careful examination, wiggling one or two there, flicking one here. Katara resisted the urge to roll her eyes; she knew exactly what sword he'd go for. This was all for show, to act like he was some great connoisseur of metal weapons.
Katara, of course, was not allowed to formally take part in these lessons. She was left to sit against the wall, in the shade, sipping iced tea while attempting to soak up any and all information she could. It would only be later, after the official lesson, when she could pick up a sword of her own to spar against Sokka. This way, Piandao could examine Sokka's stance as an observer, and correct to the best of his ability. Katara, however, was going to learn despite the hoops she had to jump through to even be here.
As it was, she was fairly sure Sokka was ignoring her.
She had thought, once they'd disembarked from the ship, that drunk Sokka was the best Sokka to ask about that 'girl' he'd almost told her about. However, at the very mention, he'd clammed up. Katara had pestered, to little avail. He'd lied (very unconvincingly) that it didn't matter, that this girl didn't like him anyway, that he was already over it. Then he'd barfed on her shoes, and that had pretty much ended that sisterly confrontation. She still wasn't sure he hadn't done it on purpose.
Since then, since Katara smelled bullshit a mile away, he had been harder to pin down than Toph usually was. This should have given her an indication that whatever, or whoever it was, it was dangerous. But weren't they all playing with danger, even knowing who Aang was? What was one more ticking time bomb of a secret to add to their ever growing collective list?
She would edge it out of him sooner or later. She was his sister; she knew exactly which buttons to push.
Case in point; Sokka finally settled on a sword near the back of the sand bowl, one that resembled a Southern Carving Axe most prominently. The one Katara knew he'd gravitate toward. Southern Carving Axes, while mostly used to cleave off meat from the carcasses of whales and seals, made terrifying weapons in the heat of battle nonetheless. This wasn't exactly one of their axes, but it was shorter than a traditional sword and curved a little in the blade.
Sokka picked it up, switching it between his palms to work out the equilibrium, before looking at Piandao.
"Please," he repeated, "attack me. I'll even give you a leg up and turn around."
Sokka gave a haughty chuckle. "Okay, but don't say that you didn't ask for this…"
Sokka raised the sword above his head, gave a battle cry that would make the spirits quiver before him, and ran right at Piandao. Katara watched as Piandao, moving lightly on his feet, easily side-stepped Sokka. Before Sokka could turn, Piandao had hooked his heels with the hilt of his own sword, sending Sokka face-first into the sand. Sokka lifted his head, shaking the particles from his hair and wiping them from his tongue. He went to grab his sword, but Piandao put his heel on it, shoving it just out of Sokka's reach. Piandao drove his own sword inches away from Sokka's head, and knelt down. His whole face was bright with amusement.
"How'd I do?" Sokka asked.
"Dismal," Pinadro said, grinning. "But not hopeless."
"Hear that, Katara? I'm not hopeless!" Sokka said, puffing out his chest as he sat up.
"I do have some preliminary notes that I can give you, right now." Piandao helped Sokka into a standing position. He kicked the sword Sokka had picked with the heel of his foot, handing it back out to the young warrior.
"Okay, lay it on me."
"It may serve you well to not scream prior to attacking, thus alerting your opponent, the rest of the opposing force, and any dogs of your presence."
"But...it's tradition. The wolf's cry." Sokka scratched his head. "To terrify, you know?"
"Very well as that may be," Piandao tilted his head, "May I offer you this to think about? In a whole group, it might be terrifying. One on one? Less so. It also does little to dispel the rumors of the Water Tribe being savages, with their guttural un-human cries. Also, while I don't mean to disparage the Southern Water Tribe's way of fighting - you have managed to stay autonomous - the method in which you wage war, on flat ground and cold temperatures, is to your benefit, but the world around you has progressed. You will find that fighting in a war now is very different. Much more tactical, if you will. So, I will not stop you from your traditions, but if you learn from me, you will be learning the Fire Nation way. Is this something you can accept?"
Sokka swallowed. "Sir, yes. I mean, to say, I didn't-"
"No offence taken." Piandao patted his shoulder. "Let's just move forward, shall we?"
And so they did. Piandao was far less morose than Pakku, Katara noted. He joked around with Sokka, he willingly and often gave advice to correct his technique, and he just overall seemed like a more pleasant person. He commented that he'd been the Royal Swordsman for both of the Royal Children, and he also taught Mai how to use her shirkins. Anyone who had been the master of those three was someone truly terrifying, at least in Katara's mind. Zuko's double swords skills were nearly better than his firebending, and he was indeed a bender that had a strong teacher. Azula, well, Katara had never seen Azula use anything but bending, but she was sure to be horrifying. And Mai? Mai was arguably the one that, out of the three, Katara wouldn't want to meet alone in a dark alleyway.
The first day was instructional, in the way that Piandao took care to go through and discuss all of the swords in the ground. Katara had the forethought to bring a piece of parchment and some ink and furiously took down notes one each of the weapons, knowing Sokka was just going to 'commit this to memory' and likely forget it in a week.
"Each sword or weapon here has a story. A different use, a different history. To pluck a sword from a pile randomly will only take you so far. It is up to you to pick the sword that best fits your needs. Who you are, who you want to be, what you want to use it for. At the end of this session, we will make you your own sword, to all your own qualifications. In the meantime, though, I encourage you to play around with the ones here. Prince Zuko has been so kind as to book this garden patio for the extent of my stay. No one will disturb the swords or training figures set up here, and you will be welcome as you come and go." Although he spoke to Sokka, he looked at Katara, at least fleetingly. She nodded; this is how she'd practice.
The lesson ended after the descriptions of the swords. That, in itself, had already been about two hours. Sokka was gone like a jackrabbit, before Katara got a chance to grab him.
XXxxXX
It seemed impossible to Katara, that with everything going on, that the ladies were still expected to attend meals with the Royal Family as they had before the attack. Or, possibly, the Royal Family was doing this to restore some sense of normality.
Some of the girls, like Maiha and Anasemla, breathed a sigh of relief to be able to return to 'sensible' and 'logical' things. Which was funny, for Katara personally thought that getting entirely dressed up for one meal- food that was usually a little bit too ridiculous for her taste- was the antithesis of sensible. It was downright crazy, and something that Katara would not miss once she left the Palace.
At home, meals were a group event, yes, but it was so much more casual. There wasn't the air of stiffness that seemed to linger here, the baited questions from Ozai or the intense glares from Azula.
Zuko was the only thing that made these meals bearable, but more often than not, he was skipping meals to keep up with the insane amount of work his father expected of him.
Katara thought they'd be dismissed on those days, but instead, they were told to sit through meals with some of his less desirable family, trying not to answer anything wrong. It felt like a test that Katara was never prepared for.
A few girls liked the challenge of impressing Royal Family members. They thought that, maybe, if they made a good enough impression on Ozai, were able to form a daughterly bond with Ursa, or charm Lu Ten, that their rank would shift. Katara thought that was stupid, but all power to them.
The groups had been shaken up once again, and this time, Katara's group was much better. Toph certainty got the short stick, having her designated meal time with Mai, Nadhari, and Avezieh. Smellerbee joked there was some god out there that really didn't like Toph.
Katara was with Suki, Maiha, Ratana, Jin, and Soairse. A respectable, albeit quiet, group. She was grateful Suki was there, otherwise she didn't know who she'd talk to. Well, she'd make friends with others, she reminded herself, as she'd done with all of her other companions here.
She was picking through her lunch, talking to Suki about something sort of silly- the history of tea in the Earth Kingdom- and not something fun like swordplay or fighting stances, ready to accept that it would be another meal without Zuko in attendance. It was the norm, recently. Katara knew she wasn't even the only one to feel this disappointment. In fact, she had less reason than any to feel so morose about it, considering she saw Zuko much more regularly than anyone else, but Katara was so selfless sometimes she allowed herself to be selfish with him.
"I apologize for my tardiness, ladies."
Katara choked on her soup, which was the average response from around the room. Zuko hadn't been to a meal in days.
"Of course not, Prince Zuko, no need to apologize," Suki spoke up first, a sigh of relef escaping her shoulders too, "We know how much you have to do of late."
"Still, I had not wished to have been ignoring any of you," Zuko replied. When he smiled, it really did feel like he was smiling at all of them.
"Why don't you sit, dear? You've only missed the appetizier," His mother said, coming to kiss his cheek. He smiled and blushed a little at her affection, the red on his cheeks such an adorable softness that Katara thought she'd never tie of seeing. The love for his mother was refreshing, comforting.
Zuko rubbed his mother's hand as his eyes gazed around the table, trying to find a seat. There was only one seat left, one next to his father and far away from any of the ladies.
"I can move, of course," His mother offered. Katara tried not to look too excited; Ursa was sitting on her other side, which would mean that Zuko would sit next to her.
"No, that's quite alright," Zuko said. Katara ran her nail across her palm under the table, "Lu Ten, do you mind?"
"Of course not, cousin," Lu Ten said, bowing. Katara sipped her water, hiding her face. She couldn't help it. She felt sort of tossed aside, a little forgotten or unwanted. Which, she considered, is what she told him he should do, not to draw attention to them.
It still hurt.
Lu Ten wasn't a long way away, more or less across and to the left of her seat. Far enough away so that his dismissal to sit next to Katara was still...noticed.
Suki, under the table, patted Katara's leg comfortingly. Jin sent her a winsom smile. Maiha looked pleased, and whispered something in Soaire's ear, who had a grin that Katara had never seen on her face, one of vicious glee.
Luckily, just as Zuko was sitting, the salads were arriving, meaning that there was a flurry of maids and servers, letting the burn settle and ease on Katara's mind.
Zuko talked with almost everyone, except Katara. It almost seemed like he was going out of his way to snub her.
No, snub her wasn't right. He still would glance over to her, like when he was talking to Suki, and he'd get a warm look in his eyes. It was obvious he cared. This was just...strategic. Something Katara repeated to herself over and over.
It was nearing the end of the meal, when a fruity dessert was served, that Katara felt it.
At first, she just thought it was Suki's long dress robes brushing against her leg, and she ignored it. It was a mild tickle, a slight touch near her ankle.
However, when it happened again, it was much more forceful of a touch and ran up the length of her leg, under her dress, from he ankle to her knee.
Katara yelped, thinking it was a spider or a bug, grabbing her leg...nothing was there.
"Princess Katara?"
"I just...poked myself on the knife, my Lady," Katara said, looking to Ursa.
"Are you bleeding?" Azula seemed much to excited at the idea.
"No, it just startled me."
When the feeling occurred yet again, Katara bit her lip to keep from crying out. She felt it rise up higher, on the upper part of her thigh.
She was ready.
Her hand clasped the foreign object under the table and found it...foot-like?
She ran her fingers across what felt like a sock, trying not to frown or make a face. She chatted with Suki, trying not to draw attention to whatever was occurring under the tablecloth.
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Zuko give a nearly unnoticed shiver.
She would bet all of her fancy jewels she was drowning in who was on the other end of this mystery foot.
Zuko glanced up her way only as Suki asked him a question.
There was clear amusement, boy-like enojyment, in his eyes. Behind his hand, a shit-eating grin.
His foot rose higher.
Katara startled again, unable to help herself, as his foot went dangerously high. Her face was as hot as the soup they'd been served earlier. Zuko's foot retreated.
"Princess?"
"Knife, again," Katara muttered sourly.
"My, my, you're just an accident waiting to happen today," Lu Ten laughed, completely unaware.
"Something like that." Katara said.
Zuko got up a moment later, apologizing for his early exit, claiming he had some papers to look over. Katara wondered if this was true.
She was a little irked he'd gotten the best of her.
As she watched him leave, she knew it was on. She was absolutely going to find a time to make him as red as he'd made her.
"Katara, you fine?" Suki asked kindly, "You have a war look on your face."
"I'm fine," Katara agreed, but her mind was already forming a game plan. If there was one thing that could be said of Katara, it was that she never quit. Katara liked winning things.
XXxxXX
As it turned out, she'd have a reason to find Sokka later, what with the arrival of a certain letter from GranGran addressed to not just Katara and Sokka, but Pakku as well. Apparently, Pakku had also sent her a letter after the sparring lesson, though perhaps a little more colorful than her grandchildren's. The letter paused all thoughts of how to devilishly get back at Zuko.
She went and banged on Sokka's door.
"Seriously, it's important! GranGran sent me a letter. Stop ignoring me!" She pounded on his door with each word.
"You're not kidding, are you?" He creaked the door open.
"Is this how to get you to pay attention to me?"
"I'm not ignoring you," Sokka muttered sourly.
"Oh, you so are, but we're not going to bicker about this now. We have important family revelations to read," Katara said. She held the letter away from him. "It's addressed to Pakku as well."
"That doesn't bode well. I mean, 'spoiler alert' much? He's totally our grandfather," Sokka said.
"Shh!" Katara shushed him. "Not so loud."
He ran his fingers through his hair, at least looking a tinge embarrassed. "I'll meet you in the arena in like five while you go find Pakku."
And so they met. Three Water Tribe members, all staring at the letter in Katara's hand like it was going to bite.
"Well, get on with it," Sokka urged.
Carefully, Katara broke the seal.
The letter was more like a novel, but perhaps they'd finally get some answers.
"Dear loves; Katara, Sokka, and Pakku," Katara began. Both her and Sokka looked up at Pakku. He did look a bit more flushed than Katara had ever seen him.
"Well, get on with it," he grumbled.
"Right. Uh, okay. By now, it seems you've already guessed a secret I only thought I'd be revealing on my deathbed."
Once again, Sokka and Katara looked to Pakku to see his reaction.
"We're going to be here all night if you two look up at me like damn meerkat-seals every half a sentence!" he griped.
"Well, he's right." Sokka rubbed the back of his neck.
"Fine. I'll read it straight through, no stopping." She stood up on the arena seats, turning her back toward Pakku so as not to be tempted to see the faces her mentor was making. She cleared her throat, and began to read.
Dear loves; Katara, Sokka, and Pakku.
By now, it seems you've already guessed a secret I only thought I'd be revealing on my deathbed, if at all. I should have foreseen it; Katara and Sokka, you two are far too intelligent for your own good. And, as soon as I saw Pakku, a part of me knew that this was not going to stay buried for long. So, I've had time to think of how I wanted to write this letter. With that being said, I think I have re-written the letter itself time and time again, never quite finding the right way to explain something that, frankly, has no valid explanation.
But I owe it to all of you to at least try.
I suppose the beginning is a good place to start.
When I was betrothed to Pakku in the North, I was young. I was 16, and he was a good match for me, considering his family was in the upper class of citizens, whereas my family - your ancestors - were in the poor class. I was told I was lucky to have such a match. But, even more unique, we were in love.
I was set to have it all, or at least all that most girls could have ever wanted. A husband who would care for them, security, their future children's lineage set...yes, it seemed to all be set perfectly. Except, it wasn't.
I was very much like you, Katara; too stubborn for my own good, and worldly. I was not blind to the ways that the North was that was so antiquated, so backwards. I was enraged often and dismissed even more so. Among the many, many issues within the North, one that I recognized was that I - as a woman - would always be a second class citizen. My greatest achievement would only ever be the children I bear and I would fade into the background, a faceless and nameless generic woman, despite having so much more to offer. I was interested in politics, in health, in weather, in astrology...and, as soon as I became of marrying age, I was told to put these 'silly things' aside, whereas the men were only encouraged of this.
Pakku and I would fight constantly over this. Of all the wedges in our relationship, this was the biggest. He had no reason to see my views. He was who the system supported, who the system was built for and by. I knew that as much as he loved me, and I never doubted that, I was not going to change his mind.
And that was a life I could not live.
At this point, the North had a new and burgeoning relationship under the Fire Nation rule. We'd cut off communication from our sister tribe nearly eight years ago. I managed to find some letters kept that described the South as a more welcoming society, one in which women were treated the same as men. I had no way of knowing if the South still acted as such, or if the plan forming in my mind would end in disappointment, but I knew I would hate myself if I never tried.
There were some women who were, like me, disenchanted about the way the North was, but too scared to try to leave. They were instrumental in helping me leave, however, and I'll always remember them. Even if they did not think themselves to be brave, they were, more than they gave themselves credit for. One woman stole food for my journey, another a boat. One planned the route I would take. One listened in on her husband's lessons and then taught me, in secret and against the law, how to navigate by only the stars and the wind. My best friend sewed me the warmest parka I've ever put on to this day, so I would not freeze on the journey.
On the first day of the Summer Solstice, I left. I knew the festivities would give me the best chance to leave without any notice, as most people would be starting to get drunk and feed on the year's harvest. I was also set to marry Pakku on the third day, and I was terrified if I waited any longer and married him, I would convince myself into living this life, as so many other women before me had done. That I would be charmed by him, that he would give me all the reasons in the world to stay.
It was the most terrifying thing I'd ever done, but I pushed myself out into the sea and sailed to the South. I kept the betrothal necklace, because despite it all, I still loved Pakku and knew it was unlikely I would ever love someone as much. He was not a bad person; he isn't. He may be grumpy, but he was just a person who grew up in a way that he was taught to be normal. I knew I was breaking his heart. My heart, as I went farther and farther from home, was breaking too.
Arriving in the South just days after the Summer Solstice, I was met with enthusiastic warm welcomes. I was put to work immediately, and taught along the way all the things the North would have never allowed; hunting, battling, ship mending, astrology, sailing...my gamble had paid off.
During this time, I became close friends with the chieftain, Kesuk. He was not much older than I, having taken over the majority of the tribe along with his younger brother after the passing of his father in the battles against the Fire Nation. He was actively looking for the third addition to the trio of leaders, a partner.
I look back onto now and think that it was kismet. So many things just fell into place for me. I was already giving him council on a variety of things two weeks into our stay, and we were simply inseparable. He was my best friend and I was his. Thus, when I realized the state I was in, he was the first person I told.
If I had known then that I was pregnant, would I have left the North? It's uncertain. I hate that I took away Pakku's opportunity to know his future child, but this life was already so much better, so much fuller for me, that it's hard to regret too much. It's something that would keep me up at night, as I wondered, what sort of father you'd be, Pakku. I know in my heart you'd be a good one, but maybe it only brings you pain to hear such things. I never wanted this to happen. I had thought I had watched my moon cycles better, so for this not to happen. Especially because if the North had knowledge about what Pakku and I had done prior to our marriage, they would have been horrified and we could have been punished. But alas, to be young and in love and have far too many emotions and hormones...well, I won't horrify my grandchildren any more than that.
It was the day that I told Kesuk my secret he told me his...he did not favor women, but men. This in the South, in itself, was not frowned upon. It was that he was expected to further the line and find a third council member, as his brother was merely 10 and years away from even thinking about his future like that. It was then a plan was hatched, one mutually beneficial. We would marry, I would help as the third council member, and this child - boy or girl - would give the South the heir they so desperately needed after losing so many members and so much hope in maintaining their independence.
Most of the members of the tribe were young. There were only a few elders around, and they agreed that this solved more problems than it made. It was easy enough to lie from that moment on that I had arrived after the Winter Solstice the year prior, repeat it and repeat it and repeat it until that's what the tribe itself believed. It helped that your father was born wailing, and strong, on the Winter Solstice six months later. A true leader, they said.
By the time that your father was sixteen and starting to like Kya, everyone believed without question I had arrived about four months earlier than I actually had. No one questioned that your father was not Kesuk's. Of course, there were whispers as to why we never had another, or that he seemed to linger too long sometimes on a particularly hearty warrior, but it didn't really matter, not with a strong heir to bring them into the future.
I loved Kesuk, not even as a brother, but as something hard to describe. I love Pakku in a romantic way, but my love with Kesuk was none less real because it was built on friendship. I miss him constantly. We were well matched. Had I been a man or he liked woman, we would have been perfect together. The day he died still stands out in my mind as one of the darkest days of my entire life.
And oh, did he love your father, children. Hakoda was the light of his life. I have no doubt had he lived to see the birth of the two of you, he would have cared just the same. I know he's watching over both of you. Even if he was not biologically your grandfather, he is still your family and will always be there for you.
I never intended to tell anyone. Or, at least, not now.
In all, it's out to the people that matter now. I sat down with your father yesterday, for he deserves the truth too. He's hurt, but I know he will come through it.
There are a few positives, or so I hope, to this. One, that I do not have to hold such a lie in my heart anymore. And, two, that you two may get to know your true grandfather. He may seem grouchy, but deep down I know he's a man that has much love to give. And Pakku, I pray you do not hate me too much.
Forever yours,
Kanna.
Katara finished reading. She licked her lips, turned, looking hesitantly at Pakku. She'd known, somewhere, but hearing it out loud was just…
"Grandpa!" Sokka said, breaking the tension. "Or would you prefer Grandfather? Or maybe Grandpappy? GrandPakky-"
"I'd prefer Pakku," Pakku broke in cooly. "And you will not refer to me as your grandfather again."
"Ouch, man." Sokka looked a little crestfallen.
"You childish boy," Pakku snapped. Katara raised an eyebrow, re-rolling up the letter. She knew somewhere, deep down, Pakku was showing love. "You are referred to as a Prince and Princess due to your lineage. Have you no forethought to what would happen if they found out you are not from the chieftain's line?"
"But, GranGran married Chief Kesuk." Sokka scratched his head. "So, I mean, technically…"
"The Fire Nation cares little about technicalities. It's blood itself that matters. Your father's claim to the nation could even be argued. If there is any weakness…" Pakku pressed a finger to his temple. "It would have been better for this secret to stay buried. Kanna had the right idea. You understand?"
"Yes," Katara said, "We do."
There was a flash of pride on Pakku's face, so fleeting Katara thought she might have imagined it. Sokka, however, was not done and wanted to argue.
"So, what? We just go on like we never heard any of that?" Sokka asked, slouching low, clearly hurting a little bit.
"For now, yes. My interactions from here on out with you will be strictly professional, so I will take this moment to say that, you are - despite it all - intelligent young children who I am not completely horrified to be related to," Pakku said. Katara knew this meant that he loved them already. Sokka seemed to realize this because he looked almost angry.
"Until when?"
"Until…" Pakku paused. "Until things are better."
XXxxXX
"He hasn't said a thing since he returned."
Aang could hear Ty Lee talking to Zuko in a hushed whisper, just outside his door to his room. Ty Lee shouldn't even truly be in here, but she had very adamantly refused to leave his side since last night.
"Do you know what happened?" she finished. "His aura is black. Like-"
Whatever comparison she was about to make she cut herself off from saying, ending with a small cough.
You did your best.
No, Aang though back angrily to Suluk, I refuse to accept that! I could have saved him.
Aang, dear, your friends are worried.
The soft voice was the one of Udaya, one of the kindest Avatars, whose voice often was spoken over by other, more aggressive Avatars. In fact, it seemed only Suluk and Udaya were comforting him now, after Roku's and Katsata's stern 'pull yourself together's seemed to do nothing but cause Aang to recede further within himself.
"Only that it was not good," Zuko replied to Ty Lee. "Which I hope means that they did not succeed. I'll try to find more out. Perhaps Uncle Iroh will tell me. I'll be back later. In the meantime…" Aang could hear Zuko breathing behind the door. He sounded tired. "In the meantime, make sure he doesn't do anything stupid."
"Stupid?" Ty Lee echoed. Aang could imagine her eyes widening in confusion. They were probably a warm hazel-brown right now. Ty Lee's eyes were so expressive, taking on the color of whatever shade was around her. Whenever they were around Aang, they were a soft gray color, just like his.
"You'll know it if you see it," Zuko huffed.
Ty Lee hesitated outside the door. Aang could just see her now, bottom lip between her teeth, fingers playing with each other as she decided what to do, and maybe she'd trail her left hand through her long braid, tugging on it when she reached the bottom of the twist.
Finally, she seemed to decide, because she entered through the secondary door, breathing deeply.
"What is Zuko afraid you'll do?" she questioned, unable to keep her curiosity settled.
Aang, who found it difficult to not answer Ty Lee, turned toward her with a blank look on his face.
"Go into the Avatar State. Kill Zhao. Recede so far into my mind that the other Avatars will have to take over."
Ty Lee's fingers clasped around his wrist. Her skin was so warm, so soft.
"You're not actually thinking of those things, are you?" Her eyebrows knit looking at him.
"They've crossed my mind," Aang replied dully.
"Aang, please, tell me what happened," she tried again.
He gave her a sad, quiet smile and shook his head. He couldn't speak of it. He wouldn't.
Ty Lee didn't pressure him, which was absolutely something Zuko would have done. He was pleased about this, and she let him just drag his knees to his chest, considering all the ways he'd already failed the world.
When Zuko returned later that night, he wasn't alone. At first, Aang just thought it was a servant pushing food into the room, food that admittedly smelled divine, from the second shuffle of feet. Then, Zuko asked them to leave, and the movement of feet multiplied.
Aang lifted his head to see the whole group staring back at him.
"Why are they all here?"
"He speaks," Zuko said dryly, shoving the cart on wheels toward him. "Eat," he commanded sharply. There was an undertone of care and of worry.
Aang rubbed his hair, scowling. The aroma of the rice and vegetable dishes were too tempting, and he angrily grabbed a bowl, trying not to make an expression of pleasure as he took his first bite.
"Why are they here?" he repeated again, mouth full of food.
Sokka sat next to him, reaching over his arms to take a dumpling and pop it into his mouth. "Because. We're all in this now, bud."
"I got the story from my father, of all people," Zuko explained, motioning for everyone to sit. Sokka scooted over to make room for Shoji and Aiga to sit with him on the chaise lounge. Ty Lee balanced on the arm, closet to Aang. Toph leaned against the wall. Zuko sat on an oversized chair. Katara, seeing no other places to sit, blushed momentarily before settling herself on Zuko's lap.
Zuko's whole face went red and Sokka made a string of noises in the back of his throat of displeasure, waving his hands.
"Do you want to sit on Zuko's lap, Sokka?" Katara shot back, crossing her arms, any trace of embarrassment she might have momentarily felt overridden by her desire to set her brother straight. Aang raised an eyebrow at the Water Tribe warrior, who just continued to gesture helplessly.
"Can't you sit on the floor?" he whined.
"Okay, okay," Zuko said, shaking his head, but his palm tightened around Katara's waist. "Can we get back to actually important things?"
Aang shot Zuko a small smirk. He knew his quasi-brother well enough to see that he clearly wanted Katara to remain there. Luckily, his distraction wasn't without merit.
"Fine," Sokka huffed.
"What did Big Bad Fire Dad have to say about Aang's torpedoed mission?" Toph threw out, head slightly turned in curiosity.
"Apparently," Zuko said, staring straight at Aang, "They found one single airbender hidden in town with a family. The family has been…" He made a face of displeasure, choosing his words carefully. "Dealt with."
The family helping him! How could I forget! Aang's eyes widened as he felt his despair start to spiral again. They were killed. I know it. Zuko just doesn't want to say it in front of me. I should have thought of that! I should have realized that-
Ty Lee brushed her fingers over his shoulder. Not enough for it to be a straight-up touch, like the way that Zuko's fingers were on Katara's side, but a comforting motion. He breathed out hard.
You'll just have to be aware of that, for next time. No one expects you to know it all, Udaya murmured in his mind. That was true. There would be a next time. Aang was sure of that.
"Damn," Toph said, raising a single eyebrow.
"The airbender, though Zhao told my father he was very careful to keep him alive, somehow still died during interrogation, before anything useful could be found out," Zuko said. He wasn't quite grinning, because a man's death was never worth a smile, but he did look almost pleased.
"Aang?" Ty Lee asked.
"I had to," Aang said firmly. "He asked me to...he asked me to kill him, so he wouldn't talk."
"Aren't airbenders all love, peace, zen, and no violence or whatever?" Toph frowned.
"Toph!" Shoji choked.
"Usually," Zuko answered smoothly. "But Aang clearly made a difficult choice. It was, I believe, the right one." Hearing Zuko on his side made things a bit better. Just a bit.
"How did your dad just offer all this up?" Sokka leaned forward with suspicion.
"Well, I might have overheard the fallout between my father and Zhao." Zuko shrugged. "Since it was clear I wasn't getting it anywhere else. Azula...erm, she was the one who told me that they were fighting."
Aang snapped his head up. He'd never liked Azula.
"Why would she care?" Aang asked carefully.
"Azula is always looking for a good fight, she likes drama." Ty Lee laughed uneasily.
"Yes, obviously, she's psychotic," Sokka snorted. "Why'd she tell you?"
Zuko gave a helpless shrug. Sokka began to theorize with Zuko, but Aang more or less tuned it out. All he thought about was Roddon's face, and the relief he expressed when Aang agreed to help him. But, if Aang had been doing his job, he would have never been in this situation.
"I should have found him first," Aang said firmly, speaking over his friends.
Everyone quieted.
"What?"
"Roddon, that's his name. I should've...I should have found him, and the other airbenders, before. I mean, Zuko managed to get Dhakiya to safety, so clearly there are options and...I just...I feel sick imagining having to make this choice again when I need to be getting ahead of it!"
"Well, it's easier said than done," Toph said, in one of the rare moments she was completely serious. "You couldn't have guessed where Roddon was gunna turn up, or where any airbender would turn up, to be honest! Seems sorta like a blind girl throwing darts at the wall and seeing where they hit."
"Is that true though?" Katara rubbed her chin. "I mean, Pakku told me that all bending his hereditary. You had to have the gene somewhere. Maybe it's not...awake," she struggled for a way to describe it, "But it's still there, like in my father."
"You know, that's not totally ridiculous," Zuko said, eyes brightening.
"Erm, thanks?" Katara said.
"No, gah, that came out wrong. What I'm saying is at first Dhakiya thought it was just a gift from the Gods that gave her her bending, that it was all random. However, her father researched his family history, and while we can't confirm it, because it's not like airbenders were painting themselves bright blue and announcing their location to the world, but the location of his mother's side of the family is fairly close to where Airbenders might have come from, if they were just off from visiting a Temple."
"So, it's not random, who had these powers 'woken up'." Sokka did air-quotations. "It's trackable."
"Not in the sense that our records are precise, but it's not nothing to go off of," Zuko said. The group fell quite for a second.
Suddenly, Aiga took a sharp intake of breath that whistled through her teeth, standing up. "The reports!"
"What reports?" Katara asked, blinking at her handmaid.
"The reports! The census reports! Oh! Remember when we were in the hidden room, during the attack? I was looking at census reports about big groups that suddenly migrated to the areas nearest to Air Temples? I'd bet you anything that those were Airbender Refugees going under the radar. They probably took on Fire Nation last names, to stay undetected, but they are there!"
Aang was on his feet at once, pacing.
"You really think we can find them?"
"We can trace lineages," Zuko said, and Aang could see his mind racing too fast for words. "And it will give us ideas of descendants about who possibly could have inherited airbending. I mean, we could start to cross reference it, see if any of those descendants in the family line have gone missing, run away recently. And, you could hit up cities where people are before Zhao gets wind of it. I mean, you're the Avatar, people will trust you. Even if they don't know, likely Air Temple communities still stick in touch, culture, so they might be aware of who-"
"Woah, Sparky, take a breath there," Toph said, eyes wide. Aang realized he hadn't actually paused or inhaled the entire time he was talking.
"I just...we can really make a difference," Zuko said, meeting Aang's eyes. He looked more excited about politics than Aang had seen him in years...no, in forever.
"How did you get Dhakiya to the safe house?" Shoji asked.
"A lot of friendly helping hands. Food merchants, friendly houses, boats...people that didn't mind smuggling her away, keeping her hidden. Her dad went with her. Sometimes, she'd be stuck at a place for days, waiting for a contact, but they always came through," Zuko explained.
"A route of safe passage," Katara echoed, eyes wide. "Do you think they'd be willing to do it again?"
"Some, because they're good people. Some, if we pay them right," Zuko responded. He nudged Katara for her to get up. "But, first, we need some documents. Toph and Aiga come with me; you'll need to open the secret room again, Toph, and Aiga knows what we're looking for," he said, motioning. "Shoji. Go into my room with Aang. You two have the most reason to be in there. The very bottom left drawer of my desk is a fake-out. Lift up the fake bottom and you'll find my scrolls about how I got Dhakiya out. Bring them back in here and we'll start going over them to figure out who we can trust, who we can pay enough to trust, and who we might need to replace. We'll come back with the census reports."
"This is going to be a whole lot of paperwork we have to wade through, isn't it?" Sokka complained.
"Unfortunately." Zuko didn't sound sympathetic though. "And, since you are the Water Tribe Representative, you probably have the most reason to be in the Royal Libraries and Records Center, which means you'll be doing a lot of it."
"Oh, wonderful."
"Sokka, we're saving lives!" Katara hit his arm.
"I get that, I get that." Sokka did look like he didn't mean it. "It's just...well, things are sort of serious now. I don't want to screw up."
Aang found it in himself to smile.
"Hey, at least you'll know that that first mission I did was rock bottom. Nothing we do from here on out could be any worse, bud," Aang said, and Ty Lee grinned broadly at him, clearly pleased he was able to put aside his worries, temporarily.
The groups split up. Aang easily found Zuko's hidden drawer, perhaps too easily. He made a mental note to make a better hiding place for that. Aang had been hiding for years. He knew a thing or two about secrets.
He spread the maps and notes all over the floor of his room, and immediately the group started pouring over them. Zuko was meticulous, at least, years of careful Fire Nation schooling meaning his notes were all flawless and ink-splotch free, as well as thorough. It was all too easy to start organizing his thoughts, as though he was in the room with them.
Katara and Sokka began listing off people who had helped, as well as discussing ways to contact them again, and then ways to keep them safe. Or, was that even a possibility? Anyone who leant them a hand was putting themselves in grave danger, and short of getting the people themselves out of the system forever, they were risking everything.
Shoji was studying the map with a concentration Aang didn't dare break. He saw his finger flit across the surface, and when Aang gathered the courage to ask, Shoji explained he was mentally trying to map different paths the airbenders could take. It would make them sitting turtle-ducks if everyone took the same route every single time.
By the time Zuko, Aiga, and Toph returned, Aang made sure to pull Zuko aside to ask how many people the safe house that Dhakiya was in could take. Would they have to find another one? How were they being fed? Somehow, Aang had fallen into a leadership position with this whole thing, albeit unexpectedly. Zuko didn't seem like he was ready to take that away from him, in fact, he looked relieved.
This was Aang's mission after all, to save these people. The rest of the group looked to him, the Avatar, for guidance.
For the first time since Aang found out he was the Avatar, he had the feeling like he sort of knew what he was doing and where he was going to go from here.
Notes:
So, a few small notes!
If you all liked the meal Zutara scene, thank my beta hepchaton, who encouraged me to put a fluffy Zutara scene in ;)
And I do apologize that Gran's letter is a lot of exposition but I...well, I got a little carried away XD
Oh! So in the usual two weeks time, I will be in the Caribbean, so without wi-fi and sipping pina coladas or something. So, either expect the story very early (like next Friday, preferably) or late, if it's just too busy and my beta doesn't have time to edit or I drop the ball on writing it.
Anywho, remember to review!
Chapter 10
Notes:
Hey you guys! I'm sorry for such the long wait...Explanation in bottom A/N.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
As Zuko paused to mark some of the parchment against the wall of the palace, Lu Ten slapped the brush from his fingers.
"You got ink everywhere," Zuko said, jumping back, watching as the brush skidded across the ground.
"I'm," Lu Ten said, reaching down and picking the brush up very purposefully, "Confiscating this from you."
"But I just-"
"The motion draft is fine, cousin," Lu Ten said, holding the brush high above his head as Zuko tried to reach for it. "Better than fine. As close to perfect as it can be. Dad wouldn't let you ask Uncle Ozai with anything less.
Zuko pulled a frown. It was only in moments like this that it was obvious how much taller Lu Ten was than him. Lu Ten was stringy and built like a tree. Zuko wasn't short, but when Lu Ten had the brush balancing on his fingertips, Zuko was still a foot away from grasping it.
"As close to perfect, exactly," Zuko argued. "Which means there's room for error." Nervously, his fingers picked at the edges of the parchment.
"Well, as dad would say-"
"Don't," Zuko groaned. The last thing he needed was a vague life affirmation.
"Nothing in life is perfect."
Zuko locked his jaw. It had been less philosophical than he was expecting, but it didn't irritate him any less.
"Look, just one more note, so I don't forget," Zuko begged, jumping to grab the brush. Lu Ten just stood on his tip-toes.
"No! Because after that, it will be another, and another, and another-"
"I'm the Heir Apparent!" Zuko didn't like pulling title often, but in times like this, he felt it was necessary. Lu Ten just laughed.
"No, you're little Cousin Zuzy to me, face smeared with jam and trying to eat dandelions," Lu Ten teased, rolling his eyes.
"Just-give-that-to-" Zuko began, hopping, waving his hands, and trying to get Lu Ten to yield. Lu Ten waved the paper around, and at this point, Zuko wasn't sure if he was doing it for the stated purpose, or just to mess with him a bit. It didn't matter. The door flew open, unnoticed to both, until Ozai's dark voice crept over their skin.
"I must be dreaming, for I can't possibly be seeing two members of the Royal Family hopping about like a pair of brainless Hog Monkeys, or worse, plebeian children."
Immediately, all joking ceased. Lu Ten dropped into a bow on the floor, and Zuko knelt, swallowing hard.
"Dad," he murmured, face blushing bright scarlet.
"Uncle Ozai," Lu Ten said respectfully, his voice quivering, just a bit. When Ozai only frowned at him, Lu Ten inhaled, saying even quieter, "My Grace."
Seemingly pleased with making his nephew grovel, he turned his attention to Zuko.
"If anyone had seen the pair of you," he began to bite out, his displeasure abundantly clear, "You, of all people, my son-"
"It was me, Uncle," Lu Ten said, standing. "I was the one that caused him to act in such an unrefined way. My fault."
Lu Ten, when push came to shove, would always have Zuko's back. He'd take the blame, without fail, even if was Zuko's blame to shoulder. He looked after Zuko like that, and the thought that Lu Ten would stand against Ozai for him every time, let the consequences pile on himself, caused Zuko's heart to hurt.
"You're both grown men, and I should hope that Zuko can tell right from wrong himself, Lu Ten," Ozai said swiftly, his icy-cold gaze still fixed on Zuko.
"Of course, sir," Lu Ten said, and Zuko could see him hold back a long sigh. It was exhausting to navigate what Ozai expected you to say. But, Zuko thought, part of his father's whole...thing might have been to never be pleased with anything ever.
"Father, as Iroh may have told you, I have a proposal for you," Zuko said, rapidly rolling the sheet up, "If you'll hear it?"
"We should have time at the end of the meeting," Ozai said, and Zuko may have imagined it, but his tone picked up a little. "Come, you're making all of us wait."
'All of us' was a little extreme, Zuko thought, since this was a Royal Family meeting, which only meant that his mother, his uncle, his father, his sister, and Aang were sitting inside. Ozai made it seem as though Zuko and Lu Ten had kept hundreds of eager Lords and Ladies waiting.
Zuko bit back a snarky reply, wiping a smudge of ink on the back of his hand as he followed his father inside. Once both men were sitting, Ozai firmly shut and locked the door, usual per meetings.
"Zuko, it's impolite to keep us waiting," Azula snipped.
"I'm pretty sure that the day runs on the Fire Lord's schedule. You're all just early," Lu Ten said with a grin. Aang laughed. Thank Spirits, he needed to laugh more.
"While that may be," Azula didn't miss a beat, "He's not the Fire Lord."
"Yet," Zuko growled out, for it didn't seem like that fact had gone without saying, but more that Azula had purposely left the thought out. "Not the Fire Lord yet."
"Children," Ozai said once, and Zuko sat up straight. "If we may?"
The first part of the meeting, as it had been of late, was unbearably boring. The family talked about money, costs, and account issues. Iroh and Ozai argued about what things were worth re-gilding in gold, and what things could perhaps just be painted a shiny gold color. Iroh was petitioning quite heavily for jade handles on the new doors, to which Ozai was less than enthusiastic, and was partial to a warmer-colored stone. The meeting, in all, discussed things Zuko really couldn't care less about, and he was pleased to see even his mother trying to hide a yawn behind her hand.
After the reparations and costs of reparations, the talk slid into the report that the highest butlers and handmaids had drawn up. How many Lords and Ladies were staying with them, who was set to leave and arrive, who was the most important out of the list, what the chefs were planning on making for meals in the next week, and so on. Details that Zuko realized were the very structure of the palace, and therefore important, but details nonetheless that Zuko found drier than the deserts in Earth Kingdom. Things that, like his father, he'd assign to others to deal with on a day to day basis, and sign off on the sum of the ideas at meetings like this.
Finally, the review drew to a close.
"Zuko, apparently, has written up a proposal for us to hear," Ozai said, as though Zuko was about to give a 'show-and-tell' presentation.
"Oh, this ought to be good," Azula said with an exaggerated eye roll.
Zuko's eyes flickered nervously to Iroh. He gave his nephew a warm smile, and that gave Zuko the courage to stand.
He'd been sitting on this idea for a while now.
No, that wasn't quite right. He'd been sitting on this frantic worry for a while now, ever since the palace attack, that the idea that his beloved home was not as safe as he thought it once was. But, it hadn't been until two days ago, on the boat with Katara and Sokka, and yesterday, with Aang, that all the pieces he needed to do something had fallen into place.
He'd left Aang, Aiga, and Shoji to their own devices last night, all but running to his uncle's room.
Once, as a very young child, he'd been under the illusion that there was no safer location anywhere in the world than the capitol. It seemed laughable to think otherwise.
And, if he was being honest, this belief held within him up until the attack on the palace. He was becoming more aware of the different cracks in the system as more responsibility was given to him, but still, he'd never imagine the death and destruction that his home could have ever weathered.
As much as his father may try to pretend like they had it handled, they didn't. Anyone that was so lucky to look at the reports would see that. It was all one big farce.
Most of Zuko's family could handle themselves. Lu Ten, Iroh, Aang, Azula, Ozai...they were all gifted benders and better fighters. It was only his mother that he worried for, but he knew his Uncle would never let harm come to her.
His key concern was the ladies here.
Even if some of them were gifted in battle, many were not. It was wildly irresponsible to keep the ladies huddled here, like turtle-ducks in a barrel, just waiting for another attack, which could happen when they were less secluded, or it was daytime, or they were the focus of the attack.
Keeping them all in one big group, in a palace that had already proven that it was not impenetrable, seemed like they were just asking for the Equalists to really make a statement by slaughtering the entire year's Choice competitors.
And, after everything, this had been a worry that he hadn't seen a logical end to, or one he liked, at least.
The most logical solution was to pick a lady, marry her, and send the rest away.
Zuko didn't want to do this, since Katara wasn't agreeing to marry.
Plus, it seemed rude to make a hasty choice - of the future Fire Lady - out of fear, and he was gripped with the terror that he'd pick wrong. Someone who wouldn't be a good mother of the people, someone he'd grow to hate, someone he didn't know enough about.
But then...then on the boat, Katara had stated that most of the ladies had only ever been to the Capital, apart from their own cities. He recalled it was common for the Prince to take the ladies on a trip to one location outside of the Palace.
At the time, it had just been...a flutter in the back of his mind. Transporting the group as one large sum to another place was as foolish as keeping them here. Plus, staying there for a long time as was common would create the same issues as the Palace.
It wasn't until he'd been with Aang, pouring over maps, and trying to discuss how to make this trail for the Airbenders, to get them from wherever they were to the Swamp or other strongholds.
That's what had sparked it, this idea. An idea that would kill two birds with one stone.
He'd gone to Uncle at once.
There were, of course, things he couldn't say to his father about the plan: Father, I want to do this to make sure the Ladies stay safe because I don't trust you, nor your men. Even beyond that, there was the undercut that he couldn't say directly to his Uncle; While on location, I want to try to build up this underground passageway, so I can knowingly aid Airbenders and procure safe passage for them.
Still, his uncle seemed to know, and together, they spent the entire night working to perfect this proposal. There was no time to waste.
"Most Honorable Fire Lord," he said, bowing to his father, per custom. "I wish to begin a tradition that is built upon a common Choice occurrence, but make it my own. As you know - both you and Uncle - it is expected that the Ladies visit with the Prince to a location to get a wider appreciation for the land, and stay there for a moon or two. I propose something different, but I feel, more applicable."
He paused, trying to gauge his father's face. His father's only reaction was a raised eyebrow, but this in itself was unexpected enough to give Zuko the courage to continue to speak.
"In a time of such unrest in all of our territories, it is imperative for the Royal Family to have a strong presence across the land to set the people right. To let them know that despite the minor inconvenience of the attack, we will not allow anyone to walk over us. I know you had been in discussion over who to send; yourself? Lu Ten? I would like to offer myself, along with Kuzon when his travels permit. Kuzon is a good diplomatic, you can't deny that. As I went out with Uncle so many years ago, I would like to do so again. But, since I realize I do have a competition to honor, I want to allow the ladies to come with me."
"What? Pick up the whole competition and just send them to spirit's knows where?" Azula snorted.
"No, not all of them," Zuko said, shaking his head. "Small groups. Each lady would submit applications to which locations they wish to travel with me to. There is no limit to how many they can choose. There's no limit how many I would take. I anticipate we'd maybe take three or four per location. We would make it clear that we'd expect work from them, nothing past what we'd ask mother herself to do. It will be good practice for the future Fire Lady, as well give me a chance to observe them in this role. We would pick who we feel would be the best fit, or who has the best reason, for each location, and we'd be accompanied by a convoy of guards wherever we went. Also, having Kuzon there would ensure that, well, no honor codes are broken."
It would be, he reasoned, easier to protect two or three ladies at any given time than nearly twenty.
"It would send a message to any location we visited, one that will be seen two different ways; for those that are thinking of a coup, to show that we will not allow that. For those that feel neglected, it will be an honor for the Crown Prince and a possible future Fire Lady to visit and help in small ways."
And, he thought, with Aang there, we can be slyly looking for merchants, people with transportation, those willing to help, as well as looking for Airbenders. It's perfect!
Silence.
Zuko coughed, looking over his notes, making sure he got everything.
"It's good of Zuko to take the initiative, brother." Uncle Iroh was the first to speak.
"Or is he just reading your fine writing?" Ozai accused.
"While it is true that I helped him refine it, the ideas, the language, the intricacies are all Zuko," Iroh said, a tinge of annoyance in his voice. "You should not think so low of your own son."
It was true...mostly. Iroh had this annoying habit of asking very leading questions and never giving a straight answer about much of anything. Of course, it led Zuko to coming to the realizations that were necessary himself, and thusly writing them, but the night may have gone a lot faster if Uncle had just told him what he was thinking. Still, it made him overly prepared for this morning.
"I think he should go," Azula said after a moment. "The girls are getting so tired, being kept in here like cat-mice in cages."
"I didn't know you cared, Azula," Aang said with an even face.
"About a few, sure," Azula shrugged. "But father, you must admit, it is not nearly the worst plan he's ever had."
Zuko tried not to send an incredulous look Azula's way. Why was she helping him?
"And what if there is another attack here?" Ozai asked.
Zuko tried to look as terrifying as Ozai did. "Do you expect there to be another one, father?"
"Oh, Ozai, it would also be different for the girls," Ursa urged. "It would be good for them to see territories beyond what they're used to. You recall that on my first year as Fire Lady, I didn't know the difference between Northern Earth Kingdom customs and the Southern, and a trip like this would save the capitol and the Royal Family embarrassment."
Zuko could have sworn his father nearly blushed. He tucked this away to ask Iroh later. He'd never heard of this, but from the frown on his father's face, apparently it had been a big faux pas on his mother's part.
"I have compiled a list of locations that I feel most need our attention, father," Zuko continued. He wasn't going to let his father make a fool out him at any point in this, he'd told himself. He had mountains of research and late-night markings to prove how much he'd thought about this. Nearly seven straight hours of making sure this was unflappable. "As well as a hesitant plan of when we would go to them."
He flourished a secondary, smaller, parchment from in front of the one he was reading off of, handing it to his dad.
Ozai accepted it. His face was still thoughtful, which Zuko thought maybe he'd won him over.
"Do you have the full proposal too?"
"Yes, of course, here," Zuko tried not to stumble over himself to give it to him.
"I will read this over, although I cannot find much fault in it currently," Ozai said, which to Zuko meant that he was pleased. A weird feeling filled his chest. He should have been feeling relieved and happy; this was high praise from Ozai. Instead, the compliment felt twisted, dark, and unsatisfying.
Zuko shoved it down.
"If there is nothing else to discuss," Iroh began slowly, "I would very much like to go to lunch. This meeting has been long and dragging."
"Quite." Ozai waved a dismissive hand. "Zuko, I will read through this tonight and have a reply back to you soon."
"Oh, yes, thank you." Zuko was still feeling caught off-guard. For all his planning, for his father to have been...pleased or receptive to this was the one thing he wasn't expecting. He was expecting that he'd have to fight with Ozai for any sort of allowance on this front. To have near respect given to him was, frankly, the most startling thing he could imagine.
Azula was hanging behind. He didn't imagine she helped him out of the goodness of her own heart.
Aang must have seen his expression, for he came up close to Zuko.
"You know, with you out of the palace so often, it would be easier for her to drum up support to have you cast aside," Aang said, causing Zuko's stomach to clench.
"Damn," he hissed. "I wonder if I could convince Father to have her come with me on some of the longer missions, ones where I may be gone for a week at a time."
Aang gave a tired-looking shrug. "Worth asking. Maybe Uncle Iroh can help convince him again. Your dad's been tough on Azula lately, maybe he'd be just as glad to get her out of the palace."
"Yes, but that means we'd have to deal with her," Zuko groaned, wincing as they exited the meeting room to walk to the lunch location.
"Sure, but it's easier to keep an eye on one person in a group of like six than in a palace of thousands," Aang said wisely.
Zuko rubbed his chin, biting the inside of his cheek. "I hate how you're right," he muttered. "I will bring it up with Iroh if my father approves this. Keeping Azula here in the palace, practically alone, is no good either."
He nodded to Shoji as they passed him standing, and Shoji peeled off the wall to walk with them.
"Were you up late last night? Did you...find what you were looking for?"
"We began to, yes," Aang confirmed. "But there are no guarantees to any of our traces. Katara, she…"
Aang looked around, before furtively pulling the pair into a small closet.
"Cozy," Shoji said dryly, which was an understatement, considering the closet was maybe fit for some buckets and soap. Three grown men squished in the closet basically meant they were chest to chest. If anyone opened the door, it would be impossible for courtly gossip not to come of it. Oh, the whispers would be wild. Zuko, in a tryst with not only a distant cousin, but a guard too? Or, maybe just the guard. Maybe Shoji was with both of them?
It didn't matter, but Zuko still thought about the impossible scenario anyhow.
"Katara asked me a bit ago if I could open Yue's waterbending abilities, since it stands to reason that she has them, but they are blocked somehow. At the time, I thought it too risky, since I fear I'd have to go into my Avatar State. I still think it's risky, and I'm not planning to do that, but I don't want to go into the state for nothing, if I can't do it anyway, or if Katara is wrong and there are no abilities to be had."
"What are you thinking, then?"
"Well, there has to be a way for me to feel her powers, to know if they even exist. Katara's been showing me water-healing. I may be able to tap into it without going into the Avatar State, just to see. And I feel like I have to, because then, I could perfect it to know if someone's an airbender just by touching them, if I get good enough at reading the powers, if that's a thing that happens. It would make it easier to find them. Or, to know who might be next up for a...metamorphosis…" Aang's forehead was deeply creased.
"Are we telling Princess Yue about this?" Zuko asked.
Aang's wince said it all.
"Oh, great. So you're just going to touch her - not weird at all - or sneak into her room while she's asleep, even better. She wakes up to you above her and-"
"Shush!" Shoji slapped a hand over Zuko's lips. "You're getting loud!"
"Toph knows an herb that causes heavy drowsiness. If we put it in her tea at dinner, she'll fall asleep for the whole night, unable to wake even if there was a hurricane coming through," Aang said hurriedly. "Toph's room is right next door. I'm going to...hide in her room until night falls, and then just go right next door. Yue is trusting enough that she never locks her door, so." Aang seemed nervous. Rightly so. "And I'll just see. That's all I'll be doing."
"And if she does? WIll you switch it?"
"Yes. No. I don't know. Not tonight, for sure. Maybe later. But maybe she has the choice, or she should." Aang picked at his nails. "I just thought I should tell you."
"Damn right," Zuko said. "Spirits...okay, yes, I get why. Fine. Just be smart about it."
He carefully unlocked the door, peeking out. No one was around. Three teenagers stumbled from a very small closet.
Aang wiped the wrinkles from his shirt, Shoji fixed his helmet, and Zuko just ran his fingers through his hair.
"If Toph is wrong and this goes south, even I don't think I could save you, if Yue wakes up to 'Kuzon' creepily standing over her," Zuko warned him a low hiss.
"I get that," Aang snapped back. He inhaled. "I know," he said quieter, "It's not a perfect plan-"
"An awful one, actually."
"But it's what we got."
Zuko winced, thinking of all the half-baked ideas he'd taken on in just the last half a year or so. "Yeah. There are a lot of those going around."
XXxxXX
Sometime in the middle of dinner-time, when a third of the girls were with the Royal Family and the rest were most likely to be seeking their own food elsewhere, Toph let Aang, Shoji, and Sokka into her room. At first, Aang had just expected it to be himself, however Sokka and Shoji were adamant about being 'in' on this.
It seemed like the only one who wouldn't be participating was Zuko, but he couldn't very well vanish for most of the night, hiding out in a contestant's room. Zuko wasn't supposed to be in any of their rooms.
Aang was sure Zuko had been to Katara's room for multiple reasons on multiple nights, but that was neither here nor there, and too much for Aang to judge anyway.
As it was, the trio was banished to Toph's closet, where they leaned against the walls, trying not to disturb the dresses she never wore and waited for night. Sokka had the foresight to bring a small chip game, made out of painted slices of shell. He taught the boys a couple variations and they just waited, and waited, and waited.
It was cramped and uncomfortable, and soon Shoji and Sokka were deep into a strategy game, something Aang had never been good at. He was good at speaking of peace and finding the best in people. Strategy and subterfuge just frustrated him, as well as frustrated his lack of understanding of it. Why couldn't people just be…good?
For as many places we find light, it cannot exist without dark too, Yangchen spoke quietly, and Aang batted the air as though dismissing the spirit of her.
He'd turned away temptation his whole life. Sure, he was the Avatar, but was he a good person because he was the Avatar, or was he the Avatar because he was a good person? People had the ability to do great things, he mused, if they let goodness guide their hand. And, not just goodness, but traits like honor, trust, love, restraint-
Restraint and temptation, huh? Kyoshi said, her tone almost teasing as an image of Ty Lee flooded his brain.
Aang ground his teeth, pressing his palms to his eye socket and blowing air through his nose hard in frustration. That was hardly fair of them. He was, despite his mental wisdom, in the body of a sixteen-year-old boy.
"You okay?" Sokka looked up.
"Fine," Aang snapped, probably doing a poor job of convincing them, dragging his hand to his chin but keeping his eyes screwed shut.
"Uhm," Shoji snorted.
Aang flopped backwards, the skirts of the dresses softening his fall, groaning. "You remember when your parents gave you the talk?" Aang asked.
Shoji made a noise in the back of his throat. Sokka seemed to give a full body shiver.
"My dad showed me. Ew, not like that! He showed me seal-elk mating season. So much flub, so much moaning. It for sure made the idea of any sex at all very unappealing, let me tell you!" Sokka explained. "But don't monks…"
"I knew the vague details, but it was Zuko. It wasn't comfortable." Aang rolled on his side to face his companions. "But point being, even with meditation, I'm a guy and these Avatars…"
"Oh." Shoji was looking at Aang with horror.
Sokka tugged on his wolf-tail.
"Well, maybe we can turn it into a positive. They must have mad skills, you'd think. Like thousands of years of practice. Maybe they can give you some pointers." Sokka shrugged.
"I do not want to know that stuff. It's like finding out about your parent's sex lives," Aang said firmly.
"But they're you?" Sokka pointed out. "I bet you five golds, Shoji, that Aang's like some sex god."
"Forget I said anything!" Aang said loudly, realizing that this was bound to go downhill with Sokka here.
"Do'ya think they'll give him the room when he finally gets a moment? Or will they just be giving him pointers in his-"
"Stop it, seriously! And no one up here answer," Aang said. Spirits. It was much easier when he was 12 and he liked girls but he didn't like the idea of doing anything past kissing with them.
"I-"
"You boneheads are so loud," Toph said, throwing open the closet door. "You all ready?"
"Are you sure it worked, Toph?" Aang hurried up, glad for a distraction. "I mean...that you put the right dosage in, because you're…"
"Aiga did it, ye of little faith," Toph said, offended. "She's in there now. Yue is out like a light. And I seriously mean O-U-T."
"Well, that's good, isn't it?" Shoji asked.
"Where's Ty Lee?" Aang was glad that Sokka asked, so he didn't have to.
"On the way out, Mai cornered her. Asked her for...well, girl talk is probably a stretch. Ty Lee couldn't very well say no," Toph said.
"Ugg. Good luck with that," Sokka winced. No one really liked Mai. Aang wasn't even sure Ty Lee, who was the nicest person around, actually did.
"What time is it?" Shoji asked. Toph's room was usually dark, obviously, as things like candles were just useless to her.
"Maybe two or three hours to moon high," Aang observed. "So, likely, not many will be awake."
"Are we going?" A new voice whispered from near the door. Katara. "Or are we just going to sit around and gossip about the time like old ladies?"
Right. This whole mission was better to be done quickly and efficiently.
Aiga was standing with Katara. She was slipping a small key back into her bun, hiding it effectively, in the case that the door had been locked.
"Oh, wow, it is open," Shoji murmured as Yue's door swung in. Katara and Aiga herded everyone inside, before closing the door. Aang threw a look across the hall to Ty Lee's room, wishing she was here too. Sokka took a chair and placed it under the handle, after manually locking it.
"Don't want to leave anything to chance," he hissed when Katara rolled her eyes at him.
"We sure she's asleep? Like, really asleep?" Aang asked nervously. Toph stomped over, waved her hand over her face a couple times.
"Yeah, I think she's out."
"You're blind," Shoji snorted.
"But I can hear her heartbeat. Totally calm, even. No changes. Asleep," Toph shot back.
"Okay," Aang whispered, motioning for them to stand down. "So, uhm." He fidgeted at Yue's bedside.
"Agni, you don't know what you're doing, do you?" Sokka whispered, dragging fingers down his face.
"Sorta! I mean, vaguely. I mean…" Aang winced. "It's a mixture, I figure, of water-healing and chi-bending," he said, looking to Katara. The spirits in his head were offering no help, as no one had ever had the need to find this out before, or even attempt it.
"Ty Lee had showed me something a while ago, thank Agni, since she's not here," Aang spoke again, recalling how she'd pressed two dainty fingers to the hollow of his neck, and how at the time - back when they were on the cusp of children to adults - he hadn't had a reaction. Now, even just thinking back of the memory made his blood warm.
"I can, well, feel her soul. Ty Lee called it my aura. In the neck hollow."
"There?" Katara asked. She took a tendril of water from the bedside water cup, placing it over the area that Aang was gesturing to. It began to glow. "Take over, Aang."
Aang stood beside her, coating his fingers with water and pressing into the warmth of the healing. He took two fingers, just as he'd watched Ty Lee doing, pressing lightly to her neck, just the lightest amount. At first, he felt stupid just sitting there, just pressing her neck. He almost pulled back, he almost called it quits, thinking that maybe this wasn't going to work and they had to just call it a day. Then, it's like Yue's soul- awake, even if her body was not- was pulling him through here. He could feel his physical body still above her, pressing down, but his spiritual self was dragged to where her soul resided.
It was like he was in the backseat of Yue's body, such as when he let another Avatar take over. He didn't have any access to her arms to move them, and he couldn't read her mind, but he was sitting in front of every other part of her. It was like he was in a great white expanse, and echoing around him he could hear her heart thumping. In front of him was a slightly glowing blue ball. He walked toward that, reaching out.
He felt many things. He could feel her blood under her skin, like how one would go about healing. He could feel her heart beating. He could feel her inhale, the exhale.
And, beyond that, he could feel something else. It was so faint, that at this point, he couldn't quite reach it.
He pressed a little harder with his physical fingers. Inside Yue's soul, his fingers brushed over the glowing ball.
Yes, it was power. It was hard to catch, for he didn't want to choke her, but he dismissed all his other thoughts and went into a quasi-meditative mode. The sensation became sharper, now. Not complexity clear and readable, but sharper.
Aang tasted fresh snow. He tasted summer rain, pattering on a tin roof. He tasted a babbling stream, chirping as it glided over mossy stones. He tasted the water in all things. He tasted coolness that lingered over his whole body.
What he felt, too, was a thread, tied to it. If he pulled hard enough, he wondered, maybe he could…
Like someone clapping their hands loudly over his head, he was shut out without warning.
Aang stumbled back.
"Well?" Katara asked nervously.
"I...I think..I need to…" he said, struggling to form words. His eyes snapped to Katara. He re-wetted his fingers, going to try to feel Katara's throat too. She, understandably confused, stumbled back a bit, knocking into a piece of furniture.
"Sorry, I just, I need to feel someone else's to-"
"Oh, yeah, I was just startled," Katara blinked.
"Let's move this party back to my room, eh?" Toph suggested. "We don't want noise in here. But bumping and groaning coming from a blind girl's room? Per the norm."
Sokka gave a strange cough, but Aang hardly thought about it. Aiga looked curiously at Sokka, a small grin widening across her face. Sokka shot her a dark look. He looked to Katara, and then shook his head. Katara didn't see the exchange.
The group hustled back into Toph's room. When there, Katara emptied a water skein into a bowl, holding it out to Aang.
He gratefully dipped his hand in.
When he did the same experiment to Katara, he had the same exact emotions overwhelm him. The same thread, though he dare not pull on it.
He pulled away, flicking one hand, watching the water fall onto the carpet.
"I'll need to try this to all of you," he murmured. The Avatars were rushing in his mind to make sense of the information, though no faster than Aang himself was.
"Aang, what's going on?" Shoji looked concerned.
"I just need to...let me try it on at least Toph and Aiga right off, and I'll explain," Aang said.
As soon as Aang pressed his fingers to Toph's neck, applying pressure, she giggled. "Kinky."
"Ack, Toph!"
"Sorry, sorry. I'll be good, Twinkle-Toes," Toph promised.
When he delved in, at Toph's core, he tasted upturned earth warmed by the sun. He tasted red clay, malleable in someone's palm. He tasted slick mud, underneath the foliage in a forest. He tasted cool stones, laying under the shade of a mountain cliff. He felt the string.
He spent less time at Toph, fearing another comment.
Aiga was waiting patiently.
When he delved into Aiga, he felt...nothing. Not a complete absence, not a desolate wasteland, but no strings and no tastes. Just her body, human, average.
Not average in the sense that she wasn't entirely instrumental to helping them, to helping him. For that, he was eternally grateful. He knew Aiga was not one to be underestimated. But when it came to powers, she was indeed average.
"Aang?" Katara prompted.
More used to the feeling, and the process, Aang slicked his fingers for Shoji.
"When I went into Yue's soul, I guess, I could feel waterbending," he explained.
Shoji tasted like burning embers. Like a warm fire. Like lava smoldering as it crept along. He wondered if he felt Zuko's soul, for instance, it would be more overpowering. Shoji was a good firebender, but he wasn't a great one. Katara and Toph's souls were strong. Toph was a master bender. Katara had the potential. He considered that for as much as Shoji may practice, perhaps his soul wasn't built to be more than a slightly above-average bender? "And I felt a...well, like a piece of string, tied to it." He stepped back, wiping his hands on his pants. "When I started tugging, I was more or less shoved out. I didn't have enough power."
"So you do have to go into the Avatar State to access her waterbending," Katara finished, frowning and nodding to herself.
"Well, yes. No, because…" Aang chewed on his lip. "I think it's already...been accessed."
There was silence.
What?" Katara finally sputtered, "But she told me-"
"I think it's new. It felt new. I can't describe it, other than 'new'. Your soul and hers felt the same, at least with bending, Katara. Yours felt like a familiar song, whereas her felt more unsure. I think she doesn't even know it's there. It probably happened during the attack," Aang rushed to clarify.
"And feelin' us all up?" Toph prompted.
"I wanted to make sure there was a difference between the elements. There is. With Aiga? I mean, nothing. Just...no bending anywhere."
"None of my family, at least in five or six generations, were benders," Aiga confirmed.
"What would you feel with Sokka, then? Because my parents weren't benders, but they gave birth to me."
"It would probably be faint, or just not there. Not at his soul," Aang said, "Because, well, he's not a bender."
Aang looked at Sokka, who shrugged, pulling down his shirt. "I like not being a bender. No magic for me, you know," Sokka said cheerfully.
Aang pressed in.
"Yeah," He said, about to withdraw, "Like Aiga. Noth-"
But it wasn't nothing. He could taste water too. At first, he thought maybe Katara was right, and it was just buried for the next generation, but then he realized he also felt a thread.
It was at this moment he realized everyone else's threads had been on his right. Sokka's was on his left. As he began to tug at Sokka's, the water became a clearer feeling, like he was tugging back a curtain and letting light shine in. The sense of the spirits started swimming through him, in Sokka.
He felt the tension and pulled himself out before he was shoved away, as in Yue.
"Oh." That was really all he could say.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Sokka demanded frantically.
"You're a waterbender."
"What? No, I swear, I'm not." Sokka looked so taken off-guard that it sort of terrified Aang.
"That came out wrong. You could be. Bending is like a switch, I think. Tug it off or on. Yours is just...off. Katara's is on. It could be turned on."
"Holy shit," Katara whispered beneath her fingers. She was shaking.
"So." Toph clapped her hands. "What we've learned today is that Yue already is a waterbender and Sokka could be one. Did this actually do anything except show us none of us know anything?"
"Yes," Aang nodded, "Because now I can feel who is an Airbender. I can refine it, so I don't have to do it through the throat. And, I can see who might become one next."
"What do you mean 'next'? Children?"
"No, them. I think every time I go into the Avatar State, strings are tugged over. I mean, it makes sense. I'm connecting to the Spirit World, bending is spirit gifts in human bodies...so…" Aang gave a shrug.
"Makes sense, I think." Shoji scratched his head. "Are we...uh, flipping his switch?"
Sokka's eyes swung to Shoji, wide as the moon.
"I don't think we can risk going into the Avatar State again." Katara luckily spoke up as Aang fumbled for some explanation. "It was too dangerous the last time, as it was!" She seemed just as spooked and unsettled about Sokka becoming a bender. She was looking at him with guarded eyes. Aang knew a large part of her identity had been the fact she was the only bender in the South. If that was taken away...
Aang just have a nod.
"Yeah, she's right," Toph said. "We don't want to draw attention to Twinkie's true self. Er, sorry, Sokka."
"Fine, yeah, nope, that's, nope."
Aang had never heard Sokka quite so inarticulate.
"What now?" Toph asked.
"Well, I guess we go about our day," Shoji said. Toph flipped him off, which Aang though was an extreme reaction. Then again, she was an extreme person.
"No, literally, I mean what right now. Aiga and Sugar Queen here go back to their rooms, but you three?" She spun to Aang, Shoji, and Sokka.
"Damn, we didn't think about that," Shoji winced.
"Back into my closet you go until morning, I suppose," Toph said, and Aang groaned. That sounded awful.
"I'll bring over some extra pillows from my bed," Katara said, casting the trio a sympathetic look.
"It will be fun," Toph said, sniggering, "Like a slumber party."
"Or, you'll all just go to sleep," Katara corrected with a narrowed look.
"That sounds fine to me," Aang admitted.
As Aiga collected Katara's bedding and Shoji started arranging it, Katara gave Sokka a deep hug. He hugged back, a tender moment that Aang looked away from. He wanted to say something to the Southerner, but frankly, didn't even know where he'd begin.
Notes:
How are THOSE revelations? Wasn't expecting either of those, huh?
So, now onto the notes!
*The reason this took so long to update, is because I thought I'd be done with it before my vacation and I could get it uploaded the day I left. Then, while writing this, I realized I made a HUGE mistake that to keep things in canon, would ruin a HUGE part of the story later. I had to re-write that, and that took time. When things are reveled later in the story, I'll tell you what the mistake was.
*A reviewer of mine asked if maybe I'd be open to making a Zutara playlist. I LOVE making playlists, so yes! But, I'm curious, what songs do you guys have that when you hear, you immediately think of Zutara?
*Started writing the drabbles again! The one for Jacpin2002 is posted. If you guys like Bonnie/Kai from The Vampire Diaries, check that out :)
*I know this was a lot of plot. By the next chapter is ALL zutara and their relationship!
*Who is also excited that we'll be getting out of the palace? I already have my list, but I'd like to hear your guesses to where you think we'll go/what might happen during these trips!
*I really hope Aang looking into the souls made sense. It's hard to put onto paper, but I see it in my mind so clearly. #writerprobs
*On that above note, what I model Avatar genetics is after this post:
Mendelian Genetics in Avatar: The Last Airbender and The Legend of Korra.
Copy and past that on the web and you should find the post. It's pretty long but worth a read if you're interested in this sort of thing. Basically, the idea is that with punnet squares, to be a bender, you not only have to have the bending genetic, but the spirit genetic 'flipped' on. So, in my world, bending can be flipped as we saw in Korra. I even went back and re-watched Wan's Beginning. In that, turtle-lions gave bending. My idea is that since they're great spirits, every time they gave bending, they were literally changing someone's DNA with the 'gift', making them 'x' bender or 'y' bender and flipping the spirit genetic. Once the lion-turtles left, people reproduced and it stays as genetics usually do. Aang can flip the spirit genetic as the Avatar, but he can't physically change the make-up of some...ie, give Katara firebending or something. Hopefully this makes sense! If you have any genetic questions to me about how I do it/my headcannon for this world's purposes, feel free to ask it in a review!
*Lastly, Raven, you have reached a drabble!
Thanks for your patience! Hope you enjoy this :)
Chapter 11
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Katara was scribbling away in the gardens when Zuko found her. She was consolidating the knowledge from the morning lesson with Piandao, having found that manually scribing it helped to secure it in her mind. It was hard to write what Sokka was learning in his classes, since a lot of it was doing instead of 'knowing,' but she managed. She had gone up against Sokka once, and he won.
She was happy for him. He needed a good weapon, something other than a boomerang.
Her mind continued to wonder to Zuko. She was contemplating how to get back at him for that stunt at lunch.
Sitting on his lap in the meeting was her original idea, but upon consideration, that had been among friends. It wasn't the same was Katara spitting up her soup in front of the whole Royal Family and her competitors. Plus, she got the feeling that Zuko enjoyed her action. He probably wasn't even all that upset about it.
Katara needed to up her game.
It needed to be something public, but not something she was obviously trying to do. Part of the reason why the dinner thing had worked so well was because no one knew that Zuko was doing it.
It needed to be something that would cause him mild embarrassment, but nothing that would get him in trouble with his father.
It needed to be simple, or else it would just be obvious how much effort she'd put into this.
Why was thinking of anything within these parameters so difficult?
"Princess Katara!"
Zuko's voice was light, despite the formal title. It was tinged with a humor that made Katara's cheeks blush and her heart race at how glad he was to see her, how the smile on his face seemed to brighten the nearer he got to her.
"Prince Zuko, hello." Katara set her quills to the side, standing up to greet him. He lifted her fingers and gave her a soft kiss on the back of her hand. It was hardly the most scandalous thing they had done. They'd been together in ways far more intimate than something as silly as his lips pressing to her warm tanned skin, but the zing of electricity it sent up Katara's back reminded her of their first kiss. There was something very quiet in the motion, something far more personal than one may think. Katara liked it. She liked kissing him more, but it would hardly be proper in a garden so public, so this would have to do.
She wasn't complaining.
He looked around, and she could see his shoulders relax when he realizes they are more or less alone.
"Katara, I," Zuko was still holding her fingers. "I was looking for you."
"And you've found me," Katara purred. "Should I maybe reward you for that?" she asked, blinking up at him innocently, but her lips curling tell a different story.
She had stepped up close to him, enough so she could see his adam's apple bob as his brain worked through her words.
"Kat." His breath hitched, and he seemed ready to pull her against him, into a small alcove or a forgotten meeting room, but he placeed an inch of space between them. "I wanted to talk to you. I have managed to carve out some space in my schedule, so I will be continuing on with dates with the ladies in an effort to...well, to do as you wish me to do."
"Oh." Katara frowned. Her brow knit. She wasn't sure why this seemed to catch her off guard. It was what she told him to do. "I mean, okay? You didn't have to tell me," she assures, because it would be crazy of her to expect him to inform her before every moment with another girl, not when she knows he's still supposed to be choosing one of them.
"I know, I well." He bit his lip. "I thought I should be the one to tell you, unlike the last time. The first girl I'm taking out on another date is Mai."
Katara thought that there were two ways she could take this info. The first, and the one she wanted to do, was to cuss a little and get angry. He was coming to tell her in a motion of good faith, but it didn't mean she liked Mai. Hated her, really.
The second option, the one she knew was better to go with, still took a second to fully form. She paused, making sure she wasn't going to say something that would get her into a fight with Zuko.
"You couldn't take Suki or Alcina out first?" she asked, attempting to put a tinge of humor into her voice.
"I have to take her on a date eventually, or cut her," Zuko pointed out. "And, despite your opinions - the one written all over your face - I actually...well, like her."
Katara was silent. So, Zuko kept talking. This hadn't been her intention, but she didn't mind the next words.
"Of course, it's hard for me to compare her to you, because you're...well, up here, and the rest are way down here." He makes a motion with his hands. "But Katara, we're...we used to be friends. I'm confident that maybe we can be friends again."
Katara pushed herself up on her heels, cutting him off with a quick kiss. "Zuko, it's fine. You can do on dates with whoever you want. And, I guess, I'm glad you told me."
Zuko relaxed. "Okay."
"However…" Katara raised an eyebrow. "I still think Suki is your best choice after me."
"I haven't forgotten," Zuko clipped, and she couldn't tell if he was upset with her interference. "And I will consider it."
Katara wanted to say more, but in the end, she could not think of anything that wouldn't lead to a big blow out. So, she just played with her fingers. She was a little upset Zuko said nothing else either.
"Enjoy your date," she whispered.
"Do you really mean that?" he asked.
Katara held back something between a laugh and a cry. "Don't ask questions you wouldn't like the answer to."
XXxxXX
Zuko attempted to shake off his frustrations with Katara as he walked to his date with Mai. A part of him wished he'd never even told her, since he sort of knew how it would end. Another part was glad he got it out of the way, because his ribs still ached from the fallout of the last time he went on a date with Mai and specifically hadn't told Katara.
He didn't want to admit it to Katara, but a part of him was...well, excited for this date with Mai. He could have put it off until he'd cycled through the girls again, but he and Mai had been friends once. He was very much interested in seeing if they could be friends again.
On his way from stopping at his room to grab something for Mai, Azula slid out of the shadows.
Her eyes flickered to the item in his hand. She snorted.
"Going on a date with our darling Mai?"
"Uh, it's not a secret. Any of my attendants could have told you where I was set to be," Zuko said, trying to slide past her. His hands were itching after his minor quarrel with Katara. Oh, did he ever want to fight Azula. Or maybe just punch her. That is, if he found it honorable to punch girls, which he did not. Was Azula truly a girl, though? Or more of a cryptid? Answer unsure.
"Do you think you'd marry her?" Azula asked, coming into step beside Zuko. Zuko gave a shrug that told Azula nothing.
"Well, if she's still here, you have to like her-"
"Did Mai set you up to this? I thought Father strictly forbade you from interfering or trying to bend the competition in your favor." Zuko gave a shake of his head. "I know she's your friend, but honestly-"
"I think we're far past me 'interfering'," Azula pointed out, laughing. "And no, she doesn't have a clue. This is just for me."
"Oh?"
"Actually," Azula said, patting his arm in a motion that made him jump away from her, just out of practice. "I was going to say that I'm not sure Mai is the right one for you anymore."
"Really." Zuko said, absolutely dumbfounded. "But, as children you were impossible when it came to the two of us. I can't count all of the crazy plans you had for us to 'accidentally' get locked in closets together or 'accidentally' have to sit next to each other at dinner. It drove me mad."
"What can I say," Azula said innocently, "People change."
"Uh-huh. And what has caused this drastic shift?"
"Just...oh, intuition. I was actually going to ask what you think of Ty Lee."
"Ty Lee?"
"You know, as a wife."
Zuko held back a laugh. It ended up sounding more like a choking sound. Azula raised a single, manicured eyebrow at him, but waited for him to catch his breath. How kind of her.
Zuko imagined liking Ty Lee like that. Ignoring the fact that he knew how much Aang, his adopted kin, liked her, it was still almost laughable. Plus, Aang may be a pacifist, but he thought he might whoop Zuko's ass, or punch him, if he tried to corner in on Ty Lee.
But even from the beginning, there had never been much there.
It hadn't been like with all the other girls that he'd had an immediate reaction to. In those first brief interviews, if they hadn't interested him (among other key warning flags) he'd sent them home right away. He couldn't say Ty Lee had, but he'd kept her in from their friendship and history. She was also just so nice and Zuko had wanted a kind soul around the palace. He'd, in the beginning, had the hope that perhaps he could grow to appreciate Ty Lee in a romantic way from her caring personality, but it hadn't happened. Plus, Aang had made pretty clear - as much as he tried not to - that he cared for her more than normal.
At this point, the only reason he wasn't sending Ty Lee home was because she was entangled in the mess of the Avatar and there wasn't a reason to make her leave. She seemed to know - although he admitted he'd never asked her - that her fate did not end with Zuko.
"Do you think I'm stupid, Zula?" Zuko questioned. "All that reverse psychology. Just stay in your lane, huh?" Of course, Azula had to be pulling his leg. Getting him to think that Mai wasn't tangled up in Azula and then pick her. It would probably make Azula gleeful to see Mai on the throne.
"Zuko, truly, I am just looking out for you. Do you not trust me?" Azula gaped dramatically.
"No."
Azula laughed to herself. She patted his cheek.
"Probably wise. Except I'm being honest now, dear little brother."
Zuko didn't think it was worth pointing out he was older than her.
"Mhh. Well, I have a date to get to. Please, make yourself useful and…" Zuko frowned. He couldn't actually think of something useful Azula could do. "And just...scram."
"Ohh," Azula said, but started to slow her pace to let Zuko hurry away. "You're just a master with your words, Zuko."
As soon as she was out of sight, Zuko kicked a wall.
"Dammit, Azula!" he cussed under his breath. He left a little scorch mark on the wall. He felt a little bad about it, but he owned the wall, technically, so…
He shook his head out and told himself he was going to enjoy this date.
But what if Azula was telling the truth, and she knew something he didn't, and she was actually looking out for him?
Azula always lies.
Arg, she'd gotten in his head!
He stopped in an alcove, breathing in hard. He meditated for ten minutes, wiping away his worries. When Uncle had insisted that he learned proper meditation, Zuko had thought him mad. It was proving to be more useful than he'd ever guess of late, however.
He met Mai outside of the tea room, as they'd agreed.
She saw the bouquet of foxgloves in his hand, and for just a second, her eyes softened.
She offered up a quirk of a smile as she accepted them, her fingers rubbing over the petals.
"You remembered," she said.
"Considering when we were ten and I gave you roses and you set them on fire in front of me, I'd be crazy not to."
For all the fronts Mai put up, Zuko knew that - on rare occasions - Mai liked feeling girly and loved just as much as anyone else. It was probably the only romantic gesture he'd manage the whole date, but he was glad this one made her so pleased.
"You're late," she said, her face turning back to a frown. She punched his arm. Not lightly, either. When she punched, it was painful.
"Azula ran into me. Or, came looking for me. I don't know." He decided to test the waters. See if she'd react at all to Azula, if there was truly something that Azula could use to kick her from the competition. Instead, her face stayed impassive. Mai was nothing if not a good warrior. Of course she'd stay impassive.
"Oh? What did she want."
"Nothing important," Zuko said, telling himself Azula was just trying to get under his skin.
"So, where are we going?" Mai asked, walking respectfully next to Zuko. Close enough to indicate they were going somewhere together, but not touching him or his arm, like a good proper highborn lady. Zuko placed her hand on his arm; it was tradition for him to make the first move. She allowed it to stay there, but he could feel her relax just an inch as she moved close enough so her robes brushed his.
"I would say it was going to be a surprise-"
"But I hate surprises," Mai said, her voice devoid of any emotion. Sill, her eyes had a quiet glimmer to them.
"Exactly." Zuko rubbed his fingers over his remaining eyebrow, wincing even though the event they were both thinking about was six years ago and his eyebrow had grown back just fine. Mai noticed and tilted her head.
Zuko found himself wishing for more emotion. It was hard not to compare her to Katara, when all Katara often was was overpowering emotion. Even if she tried to quell it, often it still seeped through. If one didn't know Mai better, they'd think she was bored with the entire world. Well, she was a lot, but Zuko knew that she enjoyed certain things. She'd once even laughed with him.
This date was important in a lot of ways. Zuko was getting to the point where he needed to really examine all the girls carefully. If there wasn't any hint that they could return to the friendship they had as children, Zuko was sorry to say, but he'd have to let Mai go. He wasn't going to marry a girl he would feel estranged from.
"So?" Mai quirked an eyebrow.
"Shooting range on the first level of the city. I heard you've been practicing archery."
Mai tilted her head. "I've mastered throwing knives. I figured it was time for me to expand my skill set."
"Very logical," Zuko nodded. He helped her into the palanquin. It was maybe a twenty minute walk away. If he were with Katara, she'd insist they walk, to the horror of the guards. He didn't have to ask Mai. He knew she'd prefer to be carried.
"Is this acceptable?" Zuko asked.
Now that they were inside, alone, Mai sat right next to him instead of across the way. She nodded, letting herself grin a bit.
"Very much so."
Zuko let out a breath he didn't know he'd been holding.
It was difficult, he wasn't going to lie. There was a lot of Mai to chip away, the Mai that had been raised to be dutifully married off to a highborn Lord, the Mai that her parents had molded her to be. Many Lords may find that more than agreeable. Zuko didn't want that. He wanted a friend in his wife.
He didn't want to overwhelm her, because he knew it was hard to shake the teachings that had been pounded into someone their whole life, but Zuko kept at it with small jokes and soft nudges to her arm, hoping he'd get her to reciprocate.
It was near the middle of their date, after Zuko managed to get a bullseye after a couple of very horrendously aimed arrows, that Mai actually giggled.
"There's hope for you yet," I'd say," she said, arming up again. Zuko had ensured that the range was empty except for them and the waitress bringing them fresh tea.
"Do I hear a joke?" Zuko asked, going over to the sheet and wrenching his arrows from it.
Mai gave a casual shrug, but he could see her usually porcelain cheeks reddening.
"A small jest," she said quickly. She knocked her arrow, but didn't raise it. She tried to, but then looked back at Zuko.
"Stop looking at me like that," she complained, but Zuko wondered if she was enjoying his quiet smile.
Zuko raised his hands in a 'not me' sort of way and purposely looked the other way. He watched her raise the bow out of the corner of her eye, but then she put it down.
"Do you remember," she started slowly, her words never raising above the soft lilt she had used her entire life. "When we were kids and Azula got in trouble for attacking that guard that 'looked at her weird'?"
"Agni, how can I forget?" Zuko barked out a laugh. It had been the first time that Azula had bled as a woman, and she hadn't quite figured out how to control her emotions. "My dad blamed me for it somehow, as though I was supposed to jump in between Azula and the guard and stop Azula. As though someone could stop Azula." He scratched his head. "It would be a bad memory, had you not intervened."
"It wasn't fair," Mai said. "Plus, I don't think your father truly knew what he was getting into."
"You told him that your cycles were synced and you were tempted to give your attendant an unexpected haircut at lunch," Zuko recalled. "My dad had no idea how to handle that admission, nor you talking so plainly about 'woman things'."
"Well, I had to do something," Mai said, and he saw a wide grin slip onto her face. "But, we both know that guard was completely looking at Azula weird."
"Well of course he was! Azula was burning all of her food to ash and then eating it. It wasn't normal," Zuko said.
"I got in so much trouble for that," Mai recalled. "My dad was furious. 'Mai,'" Mai mimicked in a low voice, "'It is unladylike to talk about your monthlies, in front of the Fire Lord, no less! I am completely horrified.'" Mai shrugged. "But, of course he said it with a completely straight face, and followed it up with saying, 'Can't you see how upset I am.'"
Zuko laughed so hard he snorted. This caused Mai to dissolve into laughter herself, forgetting everything for a second.
"Man, it's good to see you laugh," Zuko said, wiping his eyes.
Mai clammed up. Zuko tried not to wince.
She patted her cheeks, inhaling. Then, silently, she raised the bow and hit the target with scary accuracy.
As she returned from grabbing the arrow, Zuko sighed.
"Mai, you're enjoying this date, right?"
Mai frowned, looking upset. "Well, of course I am. Is that not obvious?"
Zuko considered what would be the worst option; lying or telling the truth. He was the Heir Apparent, he decided. Truth it was.
"Honestly? No. You're so hard to read these days. I hardly know if you even want to be in the competition or if it's your parents who want this."
Mai's frown deepened. At least she wasn't throwing knives at him yet, which maybe meant he hadn't horrendously screwed up.
"I want to be here, Zuko," she said slowly, as though he was a child, like it should be so clear. "Very much so."
"Oh."
"I...I hadn't not realized...it's…" She struggled against all of her professional teachings. "I would think it would be unbecoming of me to show my emotions so clearly. Crass."
"When have I ever cared about that?" Zuko asked, tilting his head. Mai seemed to be considering his words carefully, digesting them. Zuko had no idea what her next response would be. Instead of all the things he'd predicted, it was a soft string of four words.
"No, I suppose not."
XXxxXX
Katara didn't want to think about what his date with Mai was like. Was Mai tenderly holding his hand? Was she staring longingly into his eyes, while he stared back? Were they kissing?
Okay, all of those things seemed extremely unlikely to Katara, but she couldn't help thinking of them. Even imagining Mai doing normal Mai things with Zuko, like practicing her aim with her shierkins or painting happy things black grated at her mind, leaving Katara unable to do anything other than obsess over this damned date. Maybe it would have been better to just find out later, instead of him telling her beforehand.
She found herself aimlessly wandering around the castle, hoping to stumble upon something worth the effort or for an event to take her mind off things. She considered finding Sokka and challenging him to spar with some of the weapons, but she knew she was very distracted. It would be dangerous to be around sharp pointy things with her mind halfway somewhere else.
"Katara, hey!"
Katara blinked as Suki jumped in front of her path, wearing a casual dress.
"I was calling your name for like the past five minutes," she teased. "You were somewhere else entirely."
"I guess." Katara winced. "What are you up to? Practicing for the fights?"
As she'd walked around the palace, she'd run across a large number of girls practicing different fighting methods, reminding Katara of the steadily approaching date in front of them. Katara was nervous about that, but less so than most of the girls. A lot of these Palace ladies had never done anything violent in their lives.
"Oh, ha, no," Suki shrugged. "I mean, I'm concerned, but I'm also confident," she said. "Kyoshi prepared me for something like this."
"They prepared you for the day you'd have to fight one of your possible future in-laws?" Katara asked, a sly smirk creeping onto her face.
"Not that exactly, but for something like an Agni Kai," Suki said. She steered Katara off the path to a blanket where it seemed she'd just been enjoying the sun. There was an open ink pot and some parchment rolled, telling Katara she'd been writing home. "But to be honest, I don't know if even fighting in this will help me win this."
"Oh, you mean, Zuko." Katara said. It was easy to forget with her friends, such as Yue or Suki or Alcina, that they were all here to win Zuko's heart too. What once had been a commonality between the girls just left a bitter taste in her mouth. She doubted they'd step aside to allow Katara to win, as kind as they were, if the Prince proposed to them.
Maybe that's why she'd become so close with Toph of late. She knew that Toph had zero interest in Zuko at all.
Still, she didn't want any awkwardness between her and Suki. She genuinely liked the warrior.
"I told Zuko to marry you."
She wasn't sure where the words came from. Maybe, had she not been so distracted, she would have thought it through before blurting them. Or, maybe not.
Either way, the words tumbled out in a rush in some attempt to make sure that there wasn't any weirdness in their friendship. She wasn't sure it achieved that effect.
Suki snapped her head up, eyes widening.
"You...oh…"
At first, she just seemed shocked. Then, her whole face creased, like a parchment in someone's fist, as she just stared at Katara.
"I have been, since he proposed to me. I told him that I think out of everyone, you'd make a good Fire Lady. Fair, nice, kind...I know you'd treat him right. He deserves someone who really will. Not someone who just wants the throne. I don't think you do. I think you like him for who he is. He's so much more than just a title, and I think that at the end of the day, you could be the person he's real with. Ground him too. He can fly off the handle a little, needs someone earthy," Katara continued. "But, I'm sure you've thought of all this about yourself too."
"Well, I suppose, yes." Suki was still looking at her with a face that told Katara maybe she'd said the wrong thing.
"I didn't mean to overstep. Tui, I just...I wanted you to know that while we're both in a competition I don't want any of that cattiness. That, in truth, I'm gunning for you."
"I'm touched. Honestly." Suki seemed finally able to shake her head of that look. "I...thank you."
"I don't know if he'll listen," Katara whispers.
"He seems to listen to you a lot," Suki considers.
"Not about this. He'd only choose a wife he really likes."
Katara can see now why it might have been ill-advised to say something. She wouldn't want Suki to think she's been picked as a second choice, just Zuko listening to Katara.
"Katara, it's clear you care about him." Suki laughs a little. It seems a little forced. "The way you talk about him…" She shakes her head. "Can I...be frank?"
"I guess, since I was just maybe a little too honest with you, it's only fair."
"Zuko proposed to you. You denied it. He's head over heels for you, you're in really deep…" She seemed to be considering her next words very carefully. "You have to be prepared to lose him."
"I am!" Katara argued, "I told him to marry you!"
"You're not," Suki said sharply. "And I get it. Feelings don't just vanish. But I know that he's currently on a date right now with Mai, and I'd bet my place in this competition that's what's got your head so far away. You can't not think about it. Is this how you're going to spend the rest of your life if he really does marry me?"
"Don't be ridiculous," Katara scoffed, a little angry with her.
"Is it really, though?" Suki muses out loud. "You don't get to play with his feelings-"
"Hey!" Katara stood in a huff.
"That was maybe a little harsh, but damn it, Katara!" Suki grabbed her arm, forcing her to stay put. "You declined his proposal and you're still here. You think that any of the rest of us could get away with that? For as much as you're telling him one thing, your actions are saying another."
Suki's grip loosened and she sighed, tilting her head and looking at Katara. Katara bit her lip, trying not to get over-emotional about this. Somewhere, she knew Suki was right.
"Maybe," Suki whispered, "The best thing to do for him and his chance at truly loving someone else is to leave?"
Katara wanted to hate Suki. She wanted to shove her, fight her, make her recant all those words. But she couldn't. Not when Suki said it so delicately, not when she looked so pained to say it herself. Not when, deep down, they were the same thoughts that had been swirling around in her own mind.
"I'll think about it." It seemed like too little to say, but in reality, Katara would. She also needed to be alone. Suki's eyes searched hers before the girl gave a sharp nod.
Once her arm was free, Katara fled.
She found a space inside, near a closet of some sort, and she pressed herself against the wall, breathing hard. She didn't feel like crying, but something in her chest was constricting.
She wanted Zuko so badly. She didn't think it was possible for her to cut him away, not when he still wanted her here.
But a part of Suki had been right. She wasn't sure he'd ever be able to look past her to other girls when she was still around. A part of her hoped he wouldn't, that spiteful part of her that had gotten her in trouble so many times in the past.
But Katara was selfish. She wasn't sure she could take herself out of this game quite yet. Not until something else forced her out. If not Zuko, then Ozai, or losing the Agni Kai, or something she couldn't yet guess. At that point, she'd go. She'd go without a fight, she promised. She would leave so Zuko could move on, and maybe she too. She'd return home and rule her land and maybe cross paths with him once in a blue moon.
She felt better, even with this 'plan' that, in reality, was not a plan and was pretty vague.
Still, it felt like there was more of a moment she was hurtling toward when her time here would be done.
So, she had a choice.
She had - at the very least - maybe a couple more weeks here. If she somehow won her Agni Kai, maybe a couple months at best. In that time, she could go about her way two options.
One: she could pull back, restrict her interactions with Zuko. So that, by the time she left, he'd hardly notice her presence gone.
Two: she could be greedy of every part of him, soaking in the last time she'd ever get with him.
Would that be cruel, she wondered, to spend every moment with him, enjoy kissing him and dressing up as the Spirits with him, only to leave abruptly?
But, she argued, if she wasn't enjoying her time with Zuko now, why was she even still here? If she went with plan one, what was the point? Wouldn't it just be better to leave tomorrow if she intended to hardly speak with him above the minimum and not touch him?
Katara dropped her head into her hands and groaned. Things would be so much easier if he hadn't proposed and they could have just carried on without that milestone being...jumped over. If she was still just a constant, her presence wouldn't be such a difficulty.
She laughed, and considered that she might be going batty, and then laughed a little more.
She might be the only girl in this history of The Choice to be upset over a proposal from the Prince.
XXxxXX
"Did you kiss Mai?"
Zuko pulled back, frowning.
"In the middle of our make-out session, you're seriously wondering about me kissing someone else?"
Yes, when he put it like that, it did seem a little ridiculous.
Katara gave an uneasy chuckle, her fingers curling in the hair at the nape of his neck.
They were currently in one of the still-rubbled rooms from the attack, a room that had yet to be fixed and repaired, other than clearing out the debris. It had been Zuko's idea, or maybe Katara's, maybe both. Either way, it was a spot where they were unlikely to be interrupted.
If Katara was a better person, she'd encourage Zuko away from meeting her in secret shadowy spots, but in truth, maybe she wasn't.
And, she reminded herself, she might be a bad person in general, since she'd clearly been unable to enact option one for more than ten seconds after Zuko asked to meet up with her in the night, placing her in option two.
And, oh, was Katara enjoying him…
"Call me crazy, but I just have to know," she shrugged.
"I think you're a little jealous," Zuko whispered, nipping at her neck, his tongue flicking out to lick over the area his teeth had grazed. "And I guess I'm equally as crazy, because I'm liking it far more than I should."
"Zuk-oh!" Katara's tone pitched as he found one of her sensitive spots, biting it a little bit harder than before. She quivered, hands grasping at the stiff material of his robes, nails ranking on his shoulders.
"No, I didn't," Zuko breathed, panting. "And to be honest, my date with Mai isn't what I want to be talking about."
Katara just managed a hum, cut off as his lips dragged upwards, back to her own. She was sort of sitting in his lap right now, facing him, as he sat on a nearly un-destroyed couch. There were a couple scorch marks on it, but other than that, it was in good condition, enough for a pair of lovers to utilize for the hour they had.
Katara lifted her hands to his hair again, scratching his scalp as she tried to press herself closer to him, desperately. She was wearing one of her under-clothes sets and he still had on his day's outfit, and Katara wanted to reduce the number of clothes they were wearing to zero.
In a flash of a moment in which her hands were not connected to her brain at all, it seemed, her fingers began to fumble for the clasps of his ornately embroidered jacket. Zuko's response was to gasp a bit, and trail his hands down to the area right above her lower back, pressing his palms against her. It caused her to rock forward a bit, sending a shiver up both of their spines.
"What would you rather be talking about?" Katara asked, tearing her lips away to focus on the tiny and difficult sewn buttons. She managed to get them. Zuko seemed all too pleased to shrug off his jacket. He was still so warm underneath, but it was one step closer to his bare skin against her own.
"I don't really want to talk at all," Zuko admitted, his left hand tracing at the laces on her back, the ones that were really the only thing keeping her dress on her at the moment. She wondered if he was gathering the courage to yank it, but one look into his gold eyes told her he was more or less teasing her.
In the end, his fingers strayed back to her front. She wondered if it was truly because he liked to watch her squirm, or if he hadn't been ready for that yet. She certainly knew that from the pair of them, she was the more sexually advanced. Even if he was a boy, he could still be unsure about certain steps. Katara would never want to rush him. She enjoyed this just as much.
Zuko seemed to enjoy it as well; she knew how she affected him. She wanted him to be the one pushing the boundaries, though. She'd let him take the pace.
She'd pretty much agree to whatever he wanted to do, however far he wanted to go.
"Let me…" Zuko mumbled, and before he could finish his thought, he was flipping them so that she was now laying on the couch. He hovered above her for just a second before diving back in for more contact, his mouth frantically seeking hers, his hands gripping her waist. Katara wrapped her legs around his, sighing in bliss as she felt his hips thrust forward just a little bit, enough to give the ache she was feeling a momentary respite.
"Oh, gods," she whispered.
Zuko's nose nudged her jawline, when he exhaled, steam left perspiration on her skin.
"Mhh?"
"I just...I lo-"
Katara paused. She started, so suddenly that Zuko sat up off of her.
It had been like her lips hadn't been connected to her, either. It seemed, in general, when she was around Zuko, her body parts seemed to work without consulting her. She hadn't even known what she was about to say.
That's a lie. She did sort of know, even if she wasn't sure where the declaration was coming from.
"Katara." Zuko pulled her up to him.
"I...whew, can we go back to kissing?" Katara asked weakly.
His fingers laced with hers.
"Please finish that sentence. Please."
He was flat out begging. The desire and want in his voice overwhelmed her. Not the sexy type, but the desire for her, as Katara, and her emotions to be voiced. She hadn't ever considered until now the weight of any word, but this tiny four-letter one had Zuko completely unraveled, even if it was half-said.
Katara dragged her legs underneath her, clasping her palms over her lips.
"It's not fair to you," Katara argued weakly. This, though, wasn't fair. This whole situation. Nothing was. She didn't need to make it worse.
"I don't care," Zuko said heatedly. "Katara, please."
"You know this will end." Katara motioned between them. "It would be easier if we didn't."
Zuko was silent, his gaze fixated on her with such pain that it nearly caused Katara to say it, just to see his face brighten.
"Why," she asked in a low, quiet voice, "does it matter so much? Do you really want to hear it, even if it will just hurt you?"
"It matters," Zuko replied softly. "I would rather hear it said once, and know that I did hear it, than let you go without ever hearing it at all."
Katara's heart hammered.
"And, look, I'll...the last time, it all came out and we brushed it away, but I think we both knew. I love you Katara. Please, please, can you say it back to me?"
Somehow, Katara felt her emotions overwhelm her.
Maybe it was hearing him say those words so easily, when she was stumbling over them herself, that made her brain jump to an imagined scenario where they were married years down the line. She imagined he'd say that to her as they woke up in the morning, snuggling closer to her, and she'd be able to say it back as easy as breathing.
She didn't mean to cry. Agni, she hated crying, but this entire scenario was really frying her wits.
Zuko's eyes immediately widened in panic.
"Hey, hey!" He shushed and patted her arm gently. Seeing Katara cry must terrify him, she figured, since she was usually such a strong figure. "Look, I didn't mean to…pressure you...damn it. Look, you don't have to say it. You never have to say it, if you don't want to. I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
He was so concerned, Katara couldn't help but laugh a little.
"Oh, Zuko," she breathed out, wiping her cheeks. "I'm not ready, but that's not why I was crying," she assured, and was relieved to see his shoulders sag.
"Then, what?"
"I was just...imagining this...us," Katara whispered. She didn't say the truth. The truth being that she didn't want to leave him. But it wasn't just him. She didn't want to leave her friends, or Aiga, or Aang, or the people of the town, or her Painted Lady costume. The world had become so much more full since arriving here. "And how hard it will be to leave." She decided this was the softer way to phrase it.
"It grows on you, I guess." Zuko rubbed the back of his neck. "Despite annoying sisters and scary fathers. But, the palace is pretty. It has its perks."
"It's not even that, it's you," Katara said, feeling like Zuko deserved something. "I think, had we met differently, I still would be drawn to you. If we were two peasants or if I were an actual heiress and you were the commoner or any other worldly incarnation."
"We do work well together," Zuko said, and as his fingers led a trail up her arm, she considered how electrifying he always felt to her. "We make a good team."
"Us," Katara rephrased, "We make a good us."
That was the crux of it, wasn't it? Take away everything and she wanted Zuko, the person. Not the Fire Nation, not the politics, not the competition or the money. Just him. If there was any way this world could be reversed or she did not have to choose between her people and Zuko, she'd pick him. Without question.
"I think the hour is up," Zuko said, sighing. "I...thank you, Katara."
"I didn't say it," Katara said, frowning. Or, she hadn't said what he so wanted to hear.
Zuko re-buttoned his jacket. He gave a little shrug. "You said other things that mattered. So, maybe, you didn't have to."
Notes:
Hope you all enjoyed that last scene ;) And anyone have a guess what Azula is up to? Do you think she's being honest? If so, why?
So, in the date scene, as much as I disliked Mai in the series, I figured I give her a fighting chance in this one. Well, not a fighting chance WITH ZUKO, but to be liked. She's, at least, an interesting character to write!
I might be able to start updating once a week once summer hits and I have less on my plate. MIGHT. No promises. Though, if you want this to happen, show me some love!
I'm totally editing and posting this chapter to 'Spirit: Stallion of the Cimerron'. Who else remembers that? Ah, memories...
Anyway, for those of you who celebrate it, happy Easter! Next chapter our girls go to the first location. Anyone have a guess where?
Chapter 12
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
"I wonder what this big announcement is going to be," Saoirse twittered quietly to Yue as all the girls gathered in the sitting room they'd first filed into on their first day.
It had felt so crowded then, Katara mused. Of course, they were a good number of girls down from the original complete set, but the feeling of being alone in a difficult new setting had also made Katara feel very alone, even with 35 girls always around. There were still a lot of contestants - more than the Fire Sages would prefer at this stage - but it didn't feel like as many because Katara knew all these girls. She might not like all of them- she'd readily admit she disliked a handful - but the fact that she knew weird intimate details about all of them made the group feel smaller. More compact.
She gazed around at the girls sitting in their large skirts. Of course, Zhi had taken out the unnecessary chairs, but the places where friends had once sat still felt like they lingered. Like Eva, Katara thought with a depressed sigh. The letters between her and her Northern friend had been slow coming. She was blind now, so she could hardly blame her. Still, she was biting at the bit to make sure Eva was okay.
"Something huge, or else it wouldn't be so formal," Yue whispered back logically. It wasn't just the girls sitting here. The room was packed all around, even if the girls were sitting up front. Sokka was leaning on a back wall, having given up his seat for an elderly delegate from some tiny Earth Kingdom town. Hahn and Arrluck had been seated, but as soon as they'd seen Sokka graciously offer to stand, had jumped up to find an older and more in need delegate to offer their chairs to. Or, at least Hahn had. Arrluck had given his chair to a middle-aged woman, and Hahn had whispered angrily about something to him. Everything was a competition between the two Water Tribes. Katara would call them childish, but she also knew that if provoked, she would be just as determined to show Hahn up.
Point of the matter, this was a wide-reaching announcement, one that required everyone's attendance. Many of the delegates were in the room here. It did point to a large sort of event happening.
From across the room, Toph sent Katara a raised eyebrow look. It seemed to ask 'spill the beans, sis'. But Katara just shook her head back, hoping Toph picked up on it. She had no idea what was happening. Zuko had not given her any cues to what this was.
As Katara thought back, the only thing she thought of was how Zuko had suddenly left the room when they'd been pouring over the census reports. He had a funny look in his eye, that of a man who was planning something some might call mad, but he'd left so swifty that Katara had been unable to pick his brain. In the following days, she'd simply forgotten.
Until now.
She crossed her arms, sliding low in her seat. She was glad there were so many ladies, for if they were alone, Zhi would have been appalled at her posture, commanding her to correct it at once. Zhi was flitting around doing something else, something probably related to this, but Katara couldn't be sure. Zhi always seemed one task away from a colossal anxiety-driven breakdown, but that was just what Katara saw.
So no, she wanted to tell back to Toph, she had not the foggiest what was about to be announced.
There was a table set out in front, one that had been brought in for this. It was scattered with sheets of parchment and Katara wished she could peer up at what they were, but a set of guards stood stoically beside it, only allowing the Royal Family to view the sheets. They seemed to know what was about to be said.
Ozai didn't linger on it long, which soothed Katara's nerves. Anytime Ozai gave an announcement it always turned bottom-up. His track record with 'surprises' made Katara nervous whenever he was the one reading the proclamation.
"What's your wildest guess?" Suki asked Katara, nudging her shoulder. "The most ridiculous thing that you think they might say right now."
Alcina, on Katara's other side, laughed sharply, drawing the attention of a couple delegates two rows behind them. She stifled her amusement, trying to sober.
"Great fun! Hmm, lemme think…" she said over Katara.
"The sad thing is," Katara let a smile curl upon her face, "Is that with how ridiculous things have been, the most ridiculous guess may end up true."
"It is." Suki raised a finger. "If any of you manage to guess right, I'll convince the Warriors on Kyoshi to train you in our fighting style. Full out. Not many outsiders get that."
Katara admitted this was a good prize. Alcina's eyes were gleaming with excitement.
"If you get it," Alcina offered, "You can come train with the Fire Masters in my town. They're looking into how to incorporate other styles of bending into Firebending and currently they're studying old Airbending movies. It's very hard to get into these classes. My father helped start the school," she preened. Katara also agreed this was a good prize for Suki. She wanted Suki's more. She could simply have Aang teach her moves if she so wanted.
"Okay, best and most unimaginable guesses, go. I don't want something semi-plausible, I want 'never in a million years,'" Suki said, clapping her hand once.
"I think," Alcina swiveled around in her chair, humming, "That the Fire Sages have decided the competition is drawing on far too long and they've decided that the next Fire Lady to be named will be the most beautiful turtle-duck in the pond. They've decided that the rest of us will be paired up with the single delegates, lottery-style. I hope, if that happens, I get that silver-fox right over there. The Fire Nation dude that looks seriously ripped."
Katara and Suki dared a look behind them. Katara blinked, having never seen such an attractive older man before. Suki fake-fanned herself.
"You know, if he is single, perhaps Prince Zuko could make introductions for you," Suki winked. "You should get something nice out of this, eh?"
"I'm just saying..." Alcina rubbed her neck, blushing a bit.
"Okay. That was good. Me next," Suki offered up. "Hmm, I think they are going to announce that along with the fights, they'll be hosting a talent show to go along with it. Fire Lord Ozai will be performing with ribbons and ballet, Princess Azula will do a surprisingly moving and heart wrenching interpretive dance about a fire lilly caught in a sea storm, General Iroh and Prince Lu Ten will just get up there and make tea, Ursa will shock us with her abilities to play an instrument with her toes, Kuzon will read his erotic poetry he works on in his spare time, and Prince Zuko will do magic tricks."
Katara and Alcina were in stitches. Katara was laughing so hard, or attempting to stifle her laughter so much, that it hurt. The fact that she had to keep quiet just made her laugh even harder. Alcina's eyes were watering.
"Oh, Agni, I hope you're right!" Alcina breathed. When they managed to get their laughter down, the girls looked at Katara.
"I don't know if I can follow that up!" Katara sighed, shaking her head at Suki.
"Oh, come on! I'm sure that there's a thousand more impossible things out there," Suki urged. Katara held up a hand, considering it.
"Fine. Uhm..." Katara scratched her head. "They're announcing Azula's betrothal. To a lower-ring peasant. The wedding will be held tomorrow, everyone will be barefoot, and there will be traveling bairds playing quaint folk music. The food will be just bread. Nothing else. Just bread. Azula will give up all of her worldly possessions to make homemade jewelry as her career while her husband plays in a semi-competent all-flugelhorn band. And here's the kicker; she's madly in love and won't complain at all about it."
Suki snorted hard into her hand. "You're right, that is completely unbelievable. Perhaps even more so than mine."
Alcina was about to add something on, but Zuko walked into the room. Immediately the conversation ceased. Alcina sent a smile to her friends.
"Here's to hoping I'm right," she mouthed to them, sending a thumbs up.
Katara raised an eyebrow; crazier things had happened.
XXxxXX
Zuko stood in front of the gathered people, probably 100 in numbers. His uncle had pointed out that instead of doing three to five small explanations, it may be more efficient to do one large one. It seemed logical, though he wasn't sure why he hadn't thought of it. It had created quite the buzz in the room, however.
His family was already sitting for the announcement. He'd been surprised about how willing his father had been to pitch in in helping him with this. It was almost...kind?
A part of Zuko thought that he was just doing it because it would be easier for Zuko to have some tragic accident abroad. He'd get the Equalists to do it. It would be the perfect crime.
Maybe he shouldn't be so jaded. Maybe his dad truly wanted to help.
Zuko doubted it, though.
He needed not to quiet the room. They had fallen silent as soon a he'd walked in.
While he was confident in his ability to say what this new plan was going to be, he realized with a sense of horror that he had no idea how to start this speech.
"Hello, all," he said brightly, like a tour guide or something. He immediately regretted it. He tried not to wince. Damn it, he'd blown it. Can't restart it. Urg. He'd almost waved with it. Thank Agni he hadn't.
"As is tradition, usually there is a location that the Prince and his remaining ladies will visit outside of the palace, and do some charity work while there." Zuko decided to dive right into it. The more he talked, the less nervous he felt. "And I do realize that those of you who have been around for a Choice know the timing of this is strange. Yes, usually it is not until the top five are present that we do this, and let me assure you, I do not intend to cull it down to five right now." Around the room, more than one lady let out an audible sigh of relief. He probably should have started with that.
"I have talked with my most venerable Father, and we have decided that the Future Fire Lady would benefit more from going to a variety of places. Our reach is wide and diverse, and it is impossible to give the ladies just a taste of what they may one day rule by going to one place. So, in the upcoming moons, will be taking small convoys of girls to different locations all over the map."
This did sent the room into a tizzy. From what it seemed, a positive excited one. Well, there was that.
"You are all in here, because up at front, I have a list of the cities and territories we wish to visit. If you're sitting it here and not a contestant, that likely means your city is on the list and I wish to speak with you about housing arrangements and any jobs that will need to be done in the city. As for the ladies; you may submit an an application to go to as many or as few locations as you please. Zhi has lists for all of you with her at front. She also has tomes on the regions, and you have the delegates sitting here now to ask as well. We will pick the most convincing essays. These will be due in three days time."
The girls started looking around, murmuring to each other. He saw Katara even was smiling. He was happy she was happy. If she was unhappy, well, he wouldn't cancel this whole thing, but he'd be less excited about it.
He hoped she put her application in for all of them. He knew her to be a talented writer. She might just manage to get on all the trips, if she put her mind to it.
There was a long pause. His father nodded to him to continue. Zuko stifled a groan, swallowing it deep.
"Also," He plastered a fake smile on his face. "Tomorrow, all the ladies and I will be going to Ember Island as a taste of what is to come. Arrangements and travel has already been set. Zhi will tell you all what you'll need to pack."
He saw the girls' faces light up, but he was not thrilled.
Firstly, taking the entirety of the convoy of participants was exactly what Zuko had been looking to avoid. Picking them up here and taking them there, wherever there was, didn't help them at all, except make them more likely to be attacked, as they would be in an unfamiliar group and it would take 50 guards to safeguard them at the beach.
Secondly, he just hated Ember Island on principal. His family's summer house, surprisingly, wasn't big enough to fit the necessary girls and guards, so they'd be staying elsewhere. That made it a little bit better, but a lot of dark memories still hung around from the beach in the fact that they were good memories. It was backwards, yes but something so good had to be fake. He hated that there was a time he'd believed in the goodness of his father, in the pureness of Azula, for he now knew those thing to be false.
Lastly, Zuko just did not like any sort of beach. Ember Island specifically, but all beaches were pretty bad in his opinion. But girls loved beaches. It wouldn't be a vacation for him, not with all of them vying for his attention.
Ugg.
But, as Ozai had pointed out, there were a few girls here who did not possess good rhetoric and may not make the cut for any locations. Or, they may be homebodies. Frankly, Zuko thought that if you didn't like traveling, trying to be the future Fire Lady was the wrong business for you. But the girls deserved something good.
Zuko had no such illusions his father was altruistic. There was some other plot there, though of what, Zuko could not imagine.
XXxxXX
Zuko left right after he finished his speech, probably to avoid the hoards of questions coming his way, or girls trying figure out how to sneak their way onto all of the trips. He went into a room and called in delegates one by one.
Katara didn't know if she wanted certain ladies to come to the South Pole. Why else would Sokka be there? She hoped Sokka could pick the girls going to their home. Someone like Nadhari would not be welcome there.
The girls were handed the list of locations and immediately they all began pouring over the lists of places. It was split into regions, but the dates near it showed that Zuko intended to have this continue into many moons.
"Great spirits, he doesn't think he'll have picked a wife by then?" Jin murmured, frowning at the lists. Katara actually wasn't aware of how how long the other girls thought this would go.
"Maybe this is just in case. Obviously, at the point he's made a choice, he'll stop the trips," Maiha theorized.
From the other side of the room, Katara heard Nadhari snickering.
"I don't even like traveling all that much and I don't really want to go," she was saying to no one in particular, "But I know I'm a skilled writer and I'm not going to say no to spending quality time with the Prince. It seems it will be small groups. Maybe even...one on one?" she was purring.
Katara gagged a little. She hoped Zuko saw right through her.
Katara was unsure if she wanted to go on every single trip. While she was curious about the world abroad, she also knew this was a lot of time spent in carriages or ships. She tapped her lip, humming and sighing as she stared at the list. The South wasn't planned for later down the line, far later. She did have to wonder if he anticipated having picked a wife at that point, and would be visiting Katara married.
She pushed away that thought.
"How many will you be going on?" she asked Suki.
"I hope to get on at least half," Suki said. "I think that staying here will also have it's benefits. Sure, no Prince Zuko, but perhaps we'll be given more responsibility here while he's gone. More chances to prove that we can make choices when he's away. The lady picked needs to hold her on in the partnership, of course."
"Do you think if it's your own town you're automatically added in?" Alcina asked, tapping where 'KYOSHI' was written.
"I'd imagine if you wanted to, yes," Suki laughed. "It would be weird to leave you."
"Hey," Toph said, plopping in a free chair, twirling it around to face Katara, sitting on it completely the wrong way, as only Toph could. "Does this seem weird to you? This seems weird to me."
"Not weird," Katara decided. "Just...I think we're not getting all the information, you know?"
Why had this plan come to Zuko in the middle of trying to look into airbenders? Were the two connected? Katara decided she needed to think about that one more.
"I have no desire to go any place." Toph scrunched up her nose. "Because I have a certain degree of freedom here, ya know? Out there, I have to put back on bad makeup and act all prissy again."
"Oh, come on, not even your home?" Alcina asked.
"Especially not there!" Toph sounded horrified.
"What about Kyoshi? That might be fun," Katara said, grinning at Suki. Sokka had wandered over to sit, trying to answer the girls coming up to quiz him about the South in answers somewhere between serious and joking. Katara could tell he was torn between wanting to give the girls information that was true, since much of the reports about the South were just straight up wrong, and not wanting to encourage too many people there.
"Well," Toph paused. "Yes, that."
Not soon after, Zhi had found an aid to write for Toph.
"That's not fair!" Nadhari threw a fit. "We have to write our own, she shouldn't get hlep! For all we know, that aid is making it sound way better!"
"I'm blind, you walnut," Toph snapped back, which was probably the least offensive phrase in her possession. "So, unless you'd like to give me your eyes, be my guest. Or, to make it fair for all of us, you all could pen yours blindfolded."
"Lady Bei Fong is not getting any special treatment. The aid is writing verbatim what she says." Zhi sounded exhausted with Nadhari.
"Ugly sea-cow," Sokka muttered in Nadhari's general direction under his breath. Toph high-fived him.
XXxxXX
The ferry with the girls moved at a brisk pace, enough to cut through the waves and send salty mist from the breaking waves onto the faces of girls leaning over the railing. Some were pushed out as far as they could so that when the vomited it wasn't on the desk, while some girls were wide-eyed with enthusiasm, having never been near water before. Those that came from the Earth Kingdom had to, but some of the girls surrounding the capitol probably just traveled on roads and horses.
Katara looked upon the girls before her with a half-smile on her face. The energy was so palpable that it was hard not to be in a good mood. She was glad those that had never been on the water were so interested and she felt awful for those whose stomachs did not agree with the sea.
Not many in the South got sea-sick. Katara was unsure if it was an inherited trait or if their vessels were not big enough to cause such illness, but she'd always felt more comfortable on boats and ice than on dry land. She had crawled up on top of a metal box, legs dangling precariously over the side of the ship, right near the front. Zhi was attempting to sooth the sick girls, so she hadn't a chance to demand Katara down from there.
"Is this where the cool kids sit?" Sokka asked, tapping his knuckles against the metal. Sokka, Hahn, and Arrluck had managed their way onto this trip, along with Azula and Kuzon. The extra teens were - to most- not an unwelcome addition. Katara could have only done with Sokka and Aang, but she knew Aang was miserable on this trip too. Sokka at least seemed excited.
"Yeah, but I don't know if you qualify," Katara teased. Sokka sent her a dirty motion, shaking his head. Katara rolled her eyes and helped him up, scooting over. It was only a moment later before Zuko appeared.
"Make room," he said firmly. "Spirits...I already regret this."
The area where Katara had found was relaxing to her for the very reason it was hard to find and mostly only where the crew walked between. A perfect place to hide away from the group of girls. They had a good view of the main decks, and the sea-wind carried conversations to Katara's ears, but unless you were searching hard, you likely wouldn't have found Katara.
"Toph is for sure regretting it," Katara winced, pointing to where she was sitting with her head in a bucket, moaning.
"We'll be there soon," Zuko said, more automatically than anything, and Katara got the feeling he'd been asked this more than once in the last hour. It took about six hours to get to Ember Island...just past the point where people started getting antsy.
The pair of siblings moved so Zuko was the most out of view, both wanting to protect him from annoying girls. The crew raised an eyebrow at the trio, but didn't give up his location. Jeong-Jeong, a newly minted member of Zuko's personal guard (if Katara was recalling his name correctly) noted Zuko, for he always was watching Zuko, and was asked where the Prince was. Zuko tensed, but Jeong-Jeong just shrugged.
"I couldn't possibly say," he lied convingly. Katara smiled; Zuko needed loyal men, even if it was allowing their prince a moment to breathe.
"I can't stay forever. Soon, they'll for sure all notice," Zuko grouched.
"You know, for a man going on a vacation, you sure seem...grumpy," Sokka observed.
"Forced vacation. This wasn't my idea." Zuko threw his arms out.
"A lot of the girls are looking forward to lounging on the beach, doing nothing," Katara said, having picked up those sentiments.
"Now is not the time for nothing!" Zuko angrily shook his head. "Agni, I-" He punched the metal box, his fist heating it. Katara scooted over to not burn her dress. "There is far too much going on for me to just be doing nothing right now. I want a break, trust me I do, but not at the expense of people who could die while we're building bonfires and suntanning."
Katara liked both of those things as much as the next person, but Zuko said the activities like there was nothing more disgusting and appalling. But Katara understood, in part. She didn't understand all of these trips, but she gleaned enough that it was more or less a cover. Ember Island was strictly a vacation house, therefore, useless.
"I feel like a child, still being pulled this way and that way by my father. He insisted on this. He...he wanted all of us out of the palace, though I don't know why," Zuko murmured softly. Katara didn't even have a guess.
"Remind me to never complain about our father again," Sokka nudged Katara. "Even when he yells at me for something that's not my fault."
"Oh, because it's never your fault," Katara snorted.
"Well, hardly my fault. But, you get the point. Yeesh, Zuko."
Zuko gave a quirk of a smile. "Yeesh is right. He's a monster."
He said it so plainly that it quieted the siblings. They sat in blessed silence until a high-pitched tone pierced the air.
"Prince Zuk-oooo!"
Zuko cussed. "That's Zhi. Sounds like my time is up."
Katara squeezed his hand quickly. "You'll know where we are if you need to escape for a second again."
Zuko crawled down. "You two have the right idea. There's a reason I like you both."
After Zuko left, there wasn't much for Sokka and Katara to talk about. So, they instead leaned in toward the sound coming from the main decks, listening to the snippets of conversation floating their way.
They found out that Zuko had been called away because On Ji had fainted on the decks, right where their view cut off. They heard Toph cuss many times in between vomiting. They heard Ratana speaking a mile a minute about how the water here was so much better than her water at home. They heard Ty Lee sliding up near Mai, trying to engage her in a friendship that they once had.
"Do you remember when Azula and Zuko used to come here every summer? And how we wanted to go with them so badly?" she asked, twirling her hair.
"Yes," Mai replied in a monotone voice. "Though that was their personal house. This will be different."
"Everything's different now," Ty Lee sighed, trying not to have her tone darken too much. Sokka sent Katara a half-way worried frown. Katara, having gotten closer to Ty Lee, almost wanted to comfort her. But that would seem strange. To outsiders, their friendship was that of just two fellow competitors. But Ty Lee was not so much someone in need of defending. She was strong, and Katara often forgot that. Case in point; she forced a bright lit to her voice. "They used to have so much fun. I'm sure we will too."
XXxxXX
Debarkment was a nightmare. There were girls like Nadhari, who, though she was well aware that they were only going to be gone for two days, seemed like she'd packed her whole room in six oversized bags. None of the handmaids had been brought (much to many girls' dismay) meaning that Nadhari had to cart the six bags up to the house herself, and this was just unacceptable.
"Oh, Arrluck, you're a strong man, aren't you?" Katara overheard her croon to the Northerner. Arrluck looked momentarily taken-aback to be spoken to by such a pretty lady.
"I, uhm, well-"
"Nice try," Hahn said, steering him away. "But Arrluck wouldn't be carrying your things. He's above you, don't you know? The only person worthy is Azula...speaking of which-" Hahn then tried to flag down Azula to ask if she needed help with bags, looking not dissimilar to a pelican-mouse in mid flight.
This was, of course, just a handful of the interactions all happening at once on a very small dock. Katara wouldn't have been surprised if someone took an early and unexpected dip into the ocean.
Katara had brought one very manageable bag, thank you very much. And, if it had been bigger, Katara could have carried it with ease.
"Feel better?" she asked Toph.
"No, I'm on a dock. This is worse," Toph snapped back, clutching Katara's arm for dear life. She sniffed the air, "Ugg, who're the corpses?"
Katara shushed her, turning to see a pair of very old ladies walking up the gangway in matching outfits. Outfits that, perhaps on a twenty-year-old may have been appealing, but were just wrong-looking on them.
"Welcome to Ember Island, kids," the pair said in unison, catching most people's attention.
Zuko strode forward, bowing respectfully to them as they bowed low. "Li and Lo, thank you so much for allowing us to use some of your many properties on the island for our use."
"Anything for the Fire Family," one of them said. Katara couldn't tell who was who. She supposed it didn't matter.
"The ladies in the choice, along with the guards and their minder, will be at one of the inns. The Prince and Princess - as well as the other distinguished guests -" The left one looked at Sokka, Kuzon, and the Northerners. "Will be staying at our personal home."
"How very gracious," Azula said dryly.
"Hear that? I'm distinguished," Sokka whispered to Katara.
"Yippie for you," Toph snapped. "Can we go? I'm really hating being blind. Like legit blind. Koh, how do actual blind people live ever?"
They were already being herded off in separate directions. Sokka gave Katara a salute and stuck his tongue out before throwing his arm around Aang as they were pointed in a different direction.
Katara thought that the ladies were getting the better end of the deal. Li and Lo's house, while perfectly fine for two people, was less ostentatious looking. The hotel they were being guided to, on the other hand, was white and shining like polished stone. It reflected so much that it almost appeared to be glowing. It was the definition of Fire Nation opulence.
The girls were assigned to pairs, which went over with Nadhari about as well as Katara predicted.
"Oh, rooming with another girl, the horror," even Jin snapped uncharacteristically. Katara took some strange pleasure in knowing that Nahari ruffled the feathers of such a sweet girl as that.
Katara was put up with Yue; not a big deal. She would have prefered Toph or Alcina or Suki, but it wasn't the worst match-up.
"Get your suits on, we'll be going down to the beach promptly," Zhi said. Probably best to set them loose as soon as possible, Katara thought. An hour into the trip and Zhi already looked far too pleased to be 'rid' of them.
XXxxXX
"It smells like old lady in here," Sokka side-whispered to Aang.
"You're surprised?" Azula asked, running a finger along the cabinet, frowning as a thin layer of dirt came back on her finger.
Aang frowned, wishing he could have gotten out of this. Beach = swimsuits. Swimsuits = showing skin. That equaled bad since Aang had some specific tattos he'd rather no one see. But alas, it hadn't worked. Aang nearly went as far to wish for another assignment with Zhao, but that was really wrong, and he quickly corrected his thoughts.
"This is...uhm, quaint," Arrluck said, wincing, forcing a smile and Li and Lo.
"It's been in our house for nearly 100 years," they said in unison, just as creepy as when they'd done it the first time.
The group of teens began to wander around the living room half-heartedly, waiting to be assigned.
"Look at those two babes," Hahn said, grasping Arrluck around his neck, pulling the scrawnier man next to him. Aang turned to see Hahn pointing at a portrait of two identical young girls, back to back in skimpy swimsuits.
"They've gotta be these two crone's granddaughter's, or one of them, eh? Think they'd be interested in the two future rulers of the Northern Water Tribe? Maybe a foursome, hmm?"
"I don't-I'm not-" Arrluck flushed bright red, unable to reply.
"Fine, I'll take a threesome, better for me," Hahn said, flicking his tongue out and licking his lips lavisciously. Aang shuddered.
Li and Lo noticed Hahn staring at the portrait.
"Who are these two lovely ladies?" Hahn asked with an arrogant grin. "I'd love to meet them."
"You can't tell?" Li asked.
"You already have!" Lo added. At Hahn's blank, confused face, the pair of older women turned and mimicked the picture perfectly.
"Can't you see the resemblance?" they asked together.
Understanding dawned over the group. Next to Aang, Sokka visibly shuddered. Zuko groaned, dragging his hand over his face. Arrluck turned even brighter red, if possible. Hahn turned an acute shade of green.
Those two are still kicking? Great spirits, Roku commented, now that Aang had turned attention enough on the pair to really look at them. Aang held back a sound of surprise. Somehow it didn't shock him these two had been around at Roku's era.
Logically speaking, they're probably not too much older than you, Aang. Maybe only by ten or so years, Kyoshi threw out, ever making connections. Aang's eyes widened.
Imagine if you'd come out of the ice looking like that… Gopan stuttered.
It really just weirded Aang out to think that he was actually, literally, the same age as these two. Or close. It was a reality he didn't enjoy thinking too hard about, that he was 116.
Lo and Li turned to Zuko to discuss rooming arrangements, and Hahn promptly threw up in a very expensive and ancient looking vase.
Azula let out a bark of laughter. She wiped a tear away from her inner eye.
"Oh, wow. You've made me laugh, Hahn. Consider yourself lucky. If Yue does end up winning, and Arrluck takes over the North, we could always keep you around in the palace as a court jester," she added cruely.
With Li and Lo's back still turned, Hahn grabbed a bottle of what looked like expensive alcohol off the counter, chugging it to get the taste out. He was immediately spitting, gagging.
"Perfume," he managed to get out with a strangled sound in the back of his throat. "Fuc-" He threw up once again, this time in an already sad-looking fern.
Azula was cracking up. Aang didn't think he'd ever seen her truly laugh and he'd come to a decision. He hated it.
"Oh, my, I might just have to undermine your ascendance to keep you around," she said, composing herself.
"Let's just get into the rooms," Zuko muttered, waving the group on.
It was set up that Zuko and Aang were in one room, the Watertribe men in another, and Azula in a third. Sokka desperately tried to move to Aang's room, but no luck.
They were showed the first room; the Water tribe one. It was vividly decorated in seashells, ugly pinks and greens, and overall just a lack of interior design. It looked like Toph had decorated it.
"It's quaint," Arrluck repeated, voice shaking.
Azula turned to look at him.
"Are you just a simpleton that lacks the vocabulary for anything else, or...actually, there is no 'or'," she said, shoving through the boys to go to her room.
"It looks like the beach threw up," Sokka groaned.
"I'm going to get dressed for the beach," Zuko said in an authoritative tone. "The ladies will meet us down there." He said his next words through gritted teeth like it was almost painful. "We're all going to have a good time this weekend, okay?"
Aang followed Zuko to their shared room.
"That really wasn't convincing."
Zuko purposely ignored him.
Notes:
So yay! A fun little adventure for the girls, even if it's not within what Zuko thought this plan was going to be, but it will be a jolly good time for us!
*This is obviously based around the episode in s3 'The Beach', though this won't be an exact mimic. 'Course, you'll see
*Awkward Zuko being sucky at small-talk and giving presetations is one of my favorite Zukos. For as suave as some people think he is, in truth, he's rather helpless
*I might draw small comics to the guesses that Alcina, Katara, and Suki gave. What do you think?
*Lastly, if you follow me on my tumblr (youngbloodlex22) I have finally gotten my shit together on there and made a masterpost of everything relating to this series!
Remember to review!
Chapter 13
Notes:
IT WAS 80 HERE TODAY! HAPPY SUMMER MY PEEPS!
Thank you, as always, sincerely, to those that continue to review. Y'alls are the true MVPs.
My beta has dubbed this story the 'funniest chapter yet', so I hope you all enjoy it!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Once in her room, Katara set her bag on her bed. She went to the bathroom, and when she came back out, Yue was carefully folding her clothes into a chest on the left side and hanging some dresses. Katara was glad for the cue; chances are, she'd have just left it all crammed in her basket had she not seen Yue unpacking.
As it was, it took far less time for Katara to organize her things (and re-organize them, frankly) than it did Yue. She, besides Toph, had probably packed the least extensively. She was beginning to wonder if perhaps she should have brought more.
"Yue, we're here for two days. You have four dresses hanging up." Katara frowned, peeking inside the cabinet. She knew there were even more clothes in the drawers, and to be honest, she was worried she'd misheard Zuko. Maybe they were supposed to be here for a week and two days, not just two singular days.
"Oh, I know," Yue sighed, sitting back. "But I couldn't decide what I might want to wear. And Prince Zuko was a little...vague." She frowned. It was perhaps the meanest thing she'd ever said. "Which is fine, I like surprises," she amended swiftly. "But I don't know what to expect."
"Beaching, probably," Katara said, shrugging.
"Yes, we should get changed," Yue said, perking up, opening a small drawer. Katara simply shucked off her dress, but left on the wrappings that were underneath her three layers. She took care to slip her beads out of her hair, pulling all of it into a bun on her head.
Yue vanished into the bathroom.
"Are you nearly ready?" Yue asked when she returned out.
"Uhm, I'm ready now."
Yue blinked at Katara, as though she didn't understand.
"Princess Katara, you're in your underclothes," she said slowly.
"Yes?"
"I just," Yue cut herself off, studying Katara, "Did you forget your swimsuit?" she asked in a near pitying tone.
"What do you mean?" Katara frowned, crossing her arms, feeling embarrassed but she did not know why. "This is my swim outfit."
Yue frowned, pressing her hand over her lips. "Princess Katara, you can't wear your undergarments in front of the Prince and the other ladies!" She sounded scandalized. "It wouldn't be...it wouldn't be right."
"Well, I mean, I usually take this piece here off when I sleep." Katara tugged on a knotted end of the fabric. Yue was still staring at Katara like she had just announced she was marrying Ozai.
"What do you wear when you go in the water?" Yue asked in a different way.
"We don't," Katara said flatly. Until recently, she hadn't even been aware that people went in the water for pleasure, at least not prolonged amounts of time in the water. Swimming in the South was basically suicidal. The most people ever did - and it was idiots like her brother - was dare each other to dive into the ocean and then get out very quickly. They warmed water for bathing, but that was done in the nude, and Katara had never lingered in the bath, knowing others needed it and it was a process to re-warm the water. The closest approximation they had were the sweat huts, but people just wore...well, what Yue was calling undergarments. There really wasn't room to be shy about one's body. Besides, the huts were always separated by gender.
So truly, the concept of swimming for pleasure and having a separate outfit just for this seemed really wacky to Katara.
"But surely…" Yue was very much struggling. "We have hot steam pools in the North, like spas. Don't you have that?"
Katara gave a firm shake of her head. It would be so much firewood wasted to be continually warming a pool of water for someone to just splash around in. She was starting to feel like the Katara that had first arrived: savage, stupid, and unaware of the way the world worked. Maybe Yue saw the way her lip trembled, despite Katara telling herself she wasn't going to cry over this. She knew Yue wasn't trying to make her feel bad, but well…
"I have extras. I brought four suits," Yue whispered. "You can have one of them," she said, rushing over to the drawers, holding up different variations of what she was wearing.
"Thank you," Katara breathed out. "I'll have Aiga clean them and-"
"You can just have one, Katara. I have plenty," Yue insisted. Katara didn't like taking things like she was some poor little untaught Southerner.
"Until Aiga makes my own," Katara said. Yue offered her up a warm smile.
"Well yes, of course," she said, realizing that this was the only way Katara would take it.
It was in two pieces, and made of weird stretchy fabric. Katara had never touched anything like it.
"And this is just for when you go in the water?" Katara asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Yes, or beaches, like today," Yue said. "It's new in the North too. My father's generation was the first to hear about these," she admitted after a second.
The garment was made in Water Tribe colors, small miracles, since Katara recognized the stitch work as culturally Fire Nation. It was just a band on the top with a small skirt on the bottom. Yue's was very covered; one piece in all, except for the big 'v' down the front of it.
"Seems, uh, like it's missing some parts," Katara said blankly.
"It's the style. You'll see other girls wearing far less. I'm not a fan." Yue scrunched up her nose.
"I'll just change then," Katara grumbled, closing herself into the bathroom. The suit seemed to fit her well, but she felt really...strange in it. But, if this is what she was supposed to wear...well, Katara trusted Yue.
Yue handed off a lightweight kimono, motioning for Katara to put it over her shoulders. Katara shrugged, taking all her cues from the Northern girl at this point.
"I have a bag of things for us," Yue announced, patting a woven tote that was under her arm. "A pair of towels for the beach, some water skins in case we feel dehydrated, and wide hats to protect our faces from the sun. We probably need it less than others, but it's good to avoid sunburn."
Katara wouldn't have thought of any of that, despite being told by Sokka continuously she was the 'mom friend'.
"Thank you," Katara said, and she meant it.
Down in the lobby, most of the group had already gathered. Zhi was counting heads as they came down the stairs, using her handy clipboard and ink pen, which Katara thought might be glued to her hands.
They were some of the last pairs, which was fine. The absolute last to arrive down were On Ji and Ratana, who were slowed down because the pair was lugging a huge parasol down the stairs.
"I have very sensitive skin," On Ji said to Zhi, who just ticked off their names.
Most of the girls were covered in lightweight kimonos or blankets and scarves, as Katara and Yue were, so at this point, Katara couldn't see their entire outfits. Most of the girls were carrying totes as bit as Yue's, if not bigger. Katara wondered what they possibly could be bringing down to the beach?
"Before we head down, girls, I just have a few things to remind you all of," Zhi started, but was easily drowned out by the chatter of excited girls. "We won't go down until you all quiet," she said, raising her voice above the noise. Quickly, a hush grew over the crowd. Toph, next to Katara, opened her mouth like she was going to be loud, and Katara sharply jabbed her side. Toph pouted, like Katara had just rained on her parade.
"This is a very popular beach for young people all around your age. I am sure there will many handsome and strapping men on the beach. On one hand, I must remind you that while you are a contestant in this competition, you are the property of the Fire Lord." Katara remembered that rule and winced. It really, still, rubbed her all the wrong ways. "And thusly it is considered treason to be with any other men romantically and," Zhi inhaled, "Sexually." Katara looked around; pretty much all the girls would give their left leg to be with Zuko, she doubted anyone was going to ruin their chances by cavorting with a guy. "However, many of the young men around on the beach this weekend are the children of Fire Nation and Earth Kingdom officers and loyalists, very prestigious pedigrees. It would not be completely unwise to befriend them. Often, it is tradition that Prince Zuko will help secure worthy betrothals and marriages for the top ten girls, and I'm sure if you had a preference, he would one day not be opposed to hearing so. Keep both of these things in mind, ladies!" Zhi finished cheerfully.
"I'm so confused," Alcina murmured to no one in particular. "Does she want us to be friendly toward the guys here or not?"
"Yes and no," Suki said. "I think she's saying that we should find our second choice, but not to cross the line anywhere." She snorted.
"Think guys here really want a near-princess?" Alcina said.
"I think they want girls with boobs and father-in-laws with money and power," Toph said bluntly, "Which means that girls like Ty Lee should pretty much be getting marriage offers by the end of the night!"
Ty Lee, who luckily didn't overhear, did fit that criteria.
"Toph!" Katara said, shaking her head.
"You're not too bad yourself," Alcina said with glimmering eyes. Katara often forgot she was a true Fire Nationer, but when she was smirking at Toph, she had a little bit of Azula in her. "Well-proportioned and a palace to your name," she said, motioning to Toph. "Plus, the rest of you is dainty. I'm surprised you're not swimming in suitors."
"If they try to touch these," Toph said, motioning to her chest, "I'll break their goddamn arms. I keep forgetting I have these. I was flat-chested up until a year ago, looked sort of like a boy. Wish I would have stayed that way," she pouted.
"I really doubt that any girl ever bemoaned the fact her woman figure arrived," Suki said.
"Ugg, don't call me that. A girl. Yuck." Toph shook her head.
"But you are."
"Unfortunately," Toph said. "I rarely like to be reminded."
The walk down to the beach was quick. It was right near the hotel, and already swimming with people roughly their age, just as Zhi had foretold. And, yes, a lot were men. Men that Katara could understand some girls would find attractive, but they all just reminded of Hahn. She knew she shouldn't judge a book by its cover, but honestly, none of these men seemed like boyfriend material. That is, if Katara wanted a boyfriend...besides Zuko, who was sorta her boyfriend. In the way that he was everyone's boyfriend right now.
She did not.
"Where is Prince Zuko?" Avizeh asked Zhi, turning around in a full circle.
"The prince and the others will come down shortly. Right now, I think you should set up. There seems to be some open space over there. If anyone needs me, I will be at the hotel bar.
The girls, now alone, all stayed in a close pack for just a second, shuffling over to the pointed spot. There was a pause, as though everyone was unsure how to proceed, before Suki unfurled her towel, laying it down.
Immediately, everyone else jumped to work.
More than one person had brought an umbrella, but On Ji's was the largest. Katara watched Yue jump into action, trying to encourage the umbrellas be spread evenly, so that everyone had a little bit of shade.
"Always the peacemaker," Azula said, seemingly arriving from nowhere, causing Katara to jump out of her skin.
"Where's Prince Zuko?" Ty Lee asked, frowning.
"Agni, like I care. Doing something stupid, I'm sure. Work." Azula rolled her eyes. She put her hand on her hip, scanning the area. "Now, who can I get to set my things up?"
"I can, Princess," Hahn jumped to offer.
"Oh, well, if you insist," Azula said, hardly needing much to be swayed. Aang, who had lingered for a second, turned. "Where are you going, Kuzon?"
"I have some things that Zhao asked me to do," Aang said carefully. However, Katara expected he was looking for an excuse not to take off his clothes.
"Oh, come on, it's not like he'll know," Azula said, grabbing his shirt. "I don't know if I've ever seen you have fun. You sully the Fire Nation Family history with your stuffiness."
"Cousin," Aang said through gritted teeth, indicating to Katara how frustrated he was. He didn't often like reminding Azula of their kinship, specifically because it was fabricated. "You want to tell Zhao when I come home empty handed why it was so?"
Azula made a sound in the back of her throat, releasing Aang. "Yuck, fine. But you will have fun this weekend," she said firmly, pressing his chest.
Aang rolled his eyes. "Fine."
He caught Katara's eyes, rolling out his shoulders. That whole encounter had obviously ruffled him. He then looked to Ty Lee, his face staying exactly the same, which also told Katara how hard he was trying not to smile her way.
He turned away to leave.
Ty Lee gave a halfway sad smile, but shrugged it off as she pulled her lightweight dress over her shoulders. Katara immediately understood what Yue had been talking about when it concerned swimsuits. It looked like she was just wearing three small scraps of fabric. Katara was glad Aang was turned around; surely, he'd be bright scarlet if he saw her.
The boys that had been lingering, watching the large convoy of mostly girls settle up, immediately swarmed Ty Lee.
"You need help unpacking?" one asked, making heart-eyes toward Ty Lee.
Ty Lee frowned. "I think I can manage."
"A girl as beautiful as you shouldn't have to lift a finger," the boy continued, reaching for her bag.
Aang paused, turning back. Katara closed her eyes.
Don't, Aang, don't, she silently prayed, don't show your hand and give Azula something over you, over us.
After a very prolonged moment, Katara watched his fist unclench. He inhaled sharply, angrily, turning away. Thank spirits.
"Don't be rude, Ty Lee," Azula said. "Let them help you."
Ty Lee frowned at the group of boys, clearly unsure. She stuttered a little bit, her eyes sliding to the left, not exactly toward Aang, but close enough. She clutched her bag to her body. Azula hadn't given the words as a playful encouragement, she'd demanded it of Ty Lee.
"We got it," Katara said firmly, coming over to Ty Lee. "Imagine that boys, we're both beautiful and smart enough to put an umbrella in the sand," she said sarcastically.
"Oh, hello," a boy purred, eyes switching to Katara. "You're not like the other girls, huh. Little bit of that exotic beauty."
Katara wanted to barf. "Not interested," she said, rolling her eyes. "Really, shoo. I think some of those girls would be elated to have your help." She pointed to where Nadhari and Avizeh were milling.
Once they left, Azula shook her head.
"They were just being nice."
"Oh, sure." Katara let out a bark of laughter. "And they didn't totally want something in return. A kiss, at the very least." She began to help Ty Lee dig the umbrella into the sand and flatten her towel. "Just bad news."
"You have such experience?" Azula asked suspiciously, a devious grin appearing slowly.
"You'd like that, wouldn't you?" Katara asked, tired of her games. "To smear my name and tell Prince Zuko I'm impure or whatever bullshit. No, I just have an idiot brother. You do too."
"I sincerely doubt you should be calling the Prince "stupid," Katara," Azula said, as though personally offended.
"I'm sure you've called him worse." Katara knew she had. "And not that he's an idiot. Just that he's a boy. And boys think with their…" She raised her eyebrows, motioning downward.
Azula broke a smile. Whether it was genuine or not, Katara didn't know.
"Well, that's just common knowledge," Azula said.
"Look, if you were so concerned about my virtue, obviously you should be concerned about Ty Lee's as well. You can't be naive enough to think that they were honestly flattered by personality - no offense, Ty."
"Oh, I know it all," Ty Lee assured, "Not offended."
"Whatever." Azula pinched the bridge of her nose. "You don't seem like the type of girl who wants to sit around making childish sandcastles. Do you want to play a round of kuai ball?" She motioned to the set-up net.
"You want to play with me?" Katara guffawed.
"I want winners. Fighters. As much as I hate you,"
"Gee, you're really making me want to play a game with you."
"-You are both of those things, irritatingly. I pick the best for my squad," Azula said. "Ty Lee, you're playing. Mai...if Zuko ever arrives, he'd be a good addition. If not…" Azula scanned the girls gathered. "Suki. One more...Katara, do you think you could convince that dwarf of yours to play?"
Katara stared at Azula, uncomprehending. "You mean...Toph? Not if you call her that."
"Fine, the short angry one. Better?"
"Maybe. Let me ask her. You go claim the next game. Spirits," Katara grumped. Why was she even agreeing to this? Maybe the idea of seeing Azula act like somewhat of a normal teenager was too tempting to pass up.
She shook it off, sharing glances with Ty Lee.
"Thanks," Ty Lee said quietly.
"Don't mention it. Truly. I have your back," Katara said honestly, and then turned to find Suki and Toph. "Yo! Toph! How do you feel about being a winner?"
XXxxXX
Zuko walked down to the beach. He could not pretend to have pressing work to do any longer, and his absence would soon cause a hoard of girls to come looking for him. He'd stayed in his room at Lo and Li's house as long as he possibly could, but alas, it was time to hit the beach.
If his plans had gone like he'd hoped, he would have enjoyed coming down here with just two or three select girls. To try to spend equal time with all of them? Spirits, it seemed like an easier task to figure out the whole situation with the Airbenders!
Sokka had stayed with Zuko, while the rest had gone down about an hour ago. Aang had popped back in to say he was going into town and would reconvene with Zuko before nightfall. He'd mentioned that Azula had seemingly been in good, playful spirits...and this deeply concerned him.
If Aang hadn't passed that along, Zuko might have convinced himself to stay hidden for another half an hour. But he didn't trust his sister.
It was a little silly, huh? Hiding from girls like they were rabid moose-bears or something, and not teenage ladies.
He'd admitted to Sokka as much why he hung back.
"Yeah, let me just say that I feel for you, bro."
"All the girls in the South want you, I take it?" Zuko asked, trying to resist adding in an eyeroll.
"I don't like that tone. I'm the son of a chief, and look at these!" Sokka flexed his arm proudly. "Plus, not a lot of options, if I'm being honest. I mean, I guess it's nice to know that I won the popularity contest against the boy that licks icicles or the boy that lost three toes because taking his boot off to put socks on was too much of a hassle."
"Has your dad started mentioning marriage?"
"Not as aggressively as putting together a competition to pick a wife." Sokka laughed dryly. "But I'm 20. My dad had picked my mom out when they were ten and married when they were sixteen. So yes."
"Does he want you to pick a Southern wife?" Zuko asked, genuinely curious, and noticed the wince that Sokka tried to stifle. "Do you want a Southern wife?"
"I…" Sokka suddenly lost his voice. "I guess...well, you have to imagine if that's the boys for husband choices, there's not a ton of girls either." He tried to play it off with laughter, but there was a raw, pained sound. "Okay, we need something for this conversation."
Zuko was at first confused about what that 'something' was, until Sokka vanished into the kitchen. He could hear him asking Lo and Li something, and a moment later, he returned with two jars.
"To take with us to the beach. Very slowly," he offered, handing Zuko the glass. Once in his hand, Sokka clinked his glass against Zuko's. Zuko sipped it. Sake.
"I think he'd prefer a Southern wife, since she'll be part of the council for our tribe. He's had a lot of reasons to be untrusting." Sokka pointed out as they gathered their towels for the beach. Zuko latched the door behind them.
"Does he...does your dad wish the same of Katara?"
Sokka took a big gulp of his glass. "That's where this is going."
"Where what's going?" Zuko asked defensively.
"You're asking if my father would approve of you," Sokka replied back with a smirk. "And to be honest? Well, I don't know. My dad has always been super protective about Katara. She's his baby girl, you know? And she's always been his favorite. Not that my dad doesn't love me, but there's something between them I never had. I think…" Sokka chewed on his lip. "He'd want her to feel safe, wherever she ends up. I think he'd want a relationship where Katara is in charge. Spirits knows it wouldn't work the other way around," Sokka laughed. "And while I could vouch for you, Zuko, you're a prince. I don't know if Katara would ever be in charge."
"I take it she hasn't told you about the first time we met, huh?" Zuko said before he could think about it.
Sokka snapped his head toward him. "No."
"Erm, never mind." Zuko drank deeply.
"You're blushing! Now you have to tell me, bud," Sokka encouraged, "C'mon!"
"Okay, fine," Zuko snapped, only because he knew Katara would gleefully tell Sokka if he did not. "She mistook me for a burglar. That's too much to get into, but she knocked me off a roof and tied me to a tree. And then the first time I tried to kiss her, she broke my nose," Zuko added.
Sokka snorted so hard that the sake came up his nose. "You're joking! Oh, well, that does sound like her."
"I don't think I'd lie about something so...horrifyingly embarrassing." Zuko replied stiffly, but when Sokka threw his arm around him, he felt a little bit better about it.
"Well, I feel a lot better about you liking Katara knowing that she can just break a bone whenever she feels like it," Sokka said honestly. "She's a force."
"I don't like recalling those times," Zuko mumbled.
"Everyone has an embarrassing story with a girlfriend," Sokka assured. At Zuko's dubious face, he sipped the glass. "Okay, okay. Take me. First time a girl went down on me, my dad walked in on us. I guess we don't really have doors, so maybe I was asking for it but," Sokka shrugged. "At the time? I thought I was going to die of embarrassment."
"That happened?" Zuko said. "And you're just...telling me?" he added, a bit more unsure.
"Well, yeah," Sokka shot him a weird look. "We're bros, right?"
"I just...I guess I haven't had a friend like you before," Zuko said honestly.
"Obnoxious and different?" Sokka punched his arm playfully. "Someone who forces sake on you?"
"Someone not looking at me as a way to climb the social ladder," Zuko said bluntly.
"Oh. Yeah, I don't give two shits about that," Sokka said as they approached the beach. "Gee, I wonder where the contestants are," he said.
Zuko shielded his eyes with his hand. There was a large group of girls...and a larger group of boys milling near them. He chuckled.
"We're not inconspicuous. However, I don't think I see Katara…"
"Oh! There she is! Playing some game or something with your sister."
"Har-har," Zuko shoved him playfully.
"No, seriously," Sokka dragged him to the right, the opposite direction. Indeed, as they approached a kuai ball field, Zuko realized that Katara was one of the competitors...along with his sister.
"Oh." Zuko blinked.
"Ah, look at that, Suki...Ty Lee...Toph...Mai's playing too," Sokka said, a tinge pink. Zuko raised an eyebrow. This seemed like a worst nightmare; his sister playing a sports game with all the top choices for his hand in marriage.
As they got close enough to see individual figures, Zuko was caught off guard by how little Katara was wearing. He'd seen girls in swimsuits, but seeing Katara in a swimsuit?
They approached just as the game was ending; clearly in the favor of his sister and Katara's team. In fact, he and Sokka had come just in time to see Katara serve Azula a perfect airborne ball, just for his sister to strike it ruthlessly onto the other team's side. They attempted to block it, but it went careening down into the sand.
"Victorious!" Azula crowed, holding up her hand. To Zuko's surprise, she allowed Katara to high-five her. What sort of alternate world had they entered? Was he dreaming?
"That's hot," Sokka said simply, sipping at his drink. Zuko really didn't want to ask to whom he was referring to.
"Oh, Zuzu, nice of you to finally join us," Azula said, catching her brother's eye. "We've already played two rounds of kuai ball. I would have asked you to join, but I think that this girls team is more ferocious than you could be."
"Uhm, thanks?" Zuko tilted his head.
"Whatever. Mai, you thirsty? I'm getting a drink. Ty Lee, you too." She snapped her fingers. Mai joined her without a beat, but Ty Lee hesitated. Less than a year ago, Ty Lee wouldn't have thought twice, Zuko considered. Now, she hung back, just for a beat, before following.
Suki and Toph were shaking hands with the other team, chatting them up casually.
"You were playing a game with my sister?" Zuko asked, raising an eyebrow as Katara came over to them. She looked at the two glasses in the boys' hands before taking Zuko's and taking a drink of it.
"You know, she's actually being nice. As nice as she can be, that is," Katara snorted. "She's very...strategic. She noticed that one of the girls had a limp on her left, and we served there. It was all very military, but we won. I mean, there were times I was a little scared for their lives, like when your sister said 'We defeated you for all time. You will never rise from the ashes of your shame and humiliation', but you know, other than that…"
"Oh, that." Zuko rolled his eyes. "I'm pretty sure that's how Azula expresses she's having fun."
"Mhh." Katara sipped more of the glass. "Well, we did win, and that's Azula's favorite activity."
"Kuai ball?" Sokka asked.
"Winning," Katara corrected.
"Hey, so," Zuko said, taking his glass back, "Look, I should probably spend the day hanging out with the other girls...I don't want you to feel…"
"Offended?" Katara tilted her head. "It's fine. Seriously. Go and make some girls giggle. Azula told me I didn't seem like the type who wanted to build sandcastles, but joke's on her, because Toph and I are going to make the most epic sandcastle. We still have tomorrow." She shoved his chest goodnaturedly, "Seriously. I'm fine. Sokka, you wanna help?"
"I mean," Sokka puffed out his chest, "I did make that guard tower out of snow, and how different is snow and wet sand?"
"Yes," Katara replied deadpanned. "Exactly. C'mon!" She tugged him to where Toph was stomping down a good flat area with her feet.
Zuko looked back at the gaggle of girls. Sighing, and wishing he could spend the whole day with Katara, he undid his robes. As he tucked his robe into his arms, showing off his chest, he heard a great many girls - and not just the ones in the competition - give a sigh.
He turned back and caught Katara looking, if even for a second.
Turning back, smirking, he felt a lot better as he walked over to the rest of the girls.
XXxxXX
The rest of the day lazed by beautifully. By the time the group started walking back to the hotel, Katara considered it a very full and fun day. She hardly saw Zuko, apart from the moments she saw him switching between girls. It sort of seemed like he was just going along with the day. Anything that they asked him to do, he agreed...within reason. It was the easiest way to please everyone, but it had to be taking a toll on Zuko. She truly felt for him.
She, Toph, and Sokka were making good work on their sandcastle, which was quickly sprawling into a sand fortress. Toph was practicing ways to just make the sand do what she wanted, but if there was a lot of water in the sand, it became difficult for her. So, it was more that Sokka and Katara and Toph were making warring cities. Toph, trying to create models of her hometown, had encouraged Sokka and Katara to make a sand version of the Southern Water Tribe. Katara hoped it would still be up the next morning.
Most girls were so exhausted from the long day in the sun that after dinner, they just went to bed without fuss. Katara herself, her skin warm and face sore from smiling, fell into bed without complaint.
XXxxXX
Where Katara was sleeping soundly at night, Zuko was up whispering with Aang, who had only arrived back at the house an hour ago.
"There aren't any airbenders around here," Aang reported back. "This town is full of Ozai sympathizers. If there were any, they wouldn't be caught dead."
"Yeah, I worried about that," Zuko whispered back. He was careful to keep their voices scarcely above a whisper.
"Plus, it's all riches here. People aren't desperate, aren't without means to get out," Aang continued.
"Anyone that may help us?"
Aang furrowed his brow.
"There's a lady...when I brought up airbenders, her face flashed, just for a second. I bet she had a relative that was one, and they got out. She seemed worried for them. She might be willing to help people through the area." Aang sighed. "But she might be the only one on the whole island."
Zuko nodded to himself. "Work on her tomorrow, as much as you can. We don't want to leave it hanging before we go back."
Aang paused. He seemed unsure. "You, ah, you said your family has a place on the island that you never use. Do you think-"
"No," Zuko replied flatly.
"But…"
"It's out of the question, Kuzon," Zuko hissed. "Besides, it's just full of empty memories anyway."
He rolled over.
"Zuko, I-"
"Just go to sleep," Zuko said without turning. "The whole weekend is giving me stress. Don't give me anymore."
XXxxXX
Their second day on the island was to be much of the same, as Katara was told. The girls had a painfully long breakfast. By the time they were gathered with their things to go down to the beach, it seemed that half the day had already been wasted.
Not that Katara had anything she particularly needed to do, but the general slowness of the girls bothered her. She could tell it bothered a few others, such as Suki and surprisingly, Nadhari. Girls like Avizeh took their dear sweet time with everything. It was almost painful.
This time, the group from the other house met up with them to walk down, still sans Aang.
Katara saw a flash of disappointment on Ty Lee's face. When Katara patted her arm in understanding, Ty Lee shrugged.
"It's for the best," she said, but her smile didn't quite fill her face.
Down at the beach, most of their sand castle creations were still standing. There was a group of young children gathered around Toph's, staring in amazement at the intricate details.
"Did you make this?" one little girl asked Toph.
"Yep, what's it to you?" Toph said, tying back her long hair into a high bun.
"It's incredible! How did you do it?" she breathed.
Toph blinked. "Earthbending," she said after a long moment. The little girl squealed.
"I'm an earthbender too! Show me, show me!" Katara entirely expected Toph to brush off the young girl, but to her surprise, Toph just grinned, cracking her knuckles.
"You won't ever find a better teacher," she insisted. Then, Katara worried she'd be harsh on the girl, until she saw Toph helping her build her own tiny towns. Not with a whole lot of love, but not meanly. Toph wasn't a jerk enough to hurt an eight year old's feelings, at least.
"Hey!" Sokka choked out. Katara turned to see a boy with a toy Fire Nation Navy fleet ship shoving it through the sand, like it was the sea, into the guard tower closest to the water. Sokka's muddy guard dower flopped and fell.
"Aha! Attack of the Fire Nation! Pew pew!" the boy cried.
"It's a sand castle, we can rebuild," Katara said, waving to the boy who gave a floppy, but friendly, wave back.
"But that took me all day," Sokka groaned. Katara watched him go over to try to convince the boy to stop attacking their sand city. He became momentarily distracted watching Toph with the young girl, a weird look in his face that Katara couldn't quite place.
"Can I help you?" Suki asked, tapping Katara's shoulder. "Looks like fun."
"Yeah, we're just making the South here," Katara said. "Here's my house," she added, pointing to a pile of sand she hadn't yet shaped.
"Just tell me how to help."
XXxxXX
"I should get going," Zuko said, trying to sound apologetic as he nudged Saoirse.
"C'mon, can't you stay longer?" Saoirse pouted, crossing her arms.
"It wouldn't be fair to the other girls," Zuko said, pausing before wrapping an arm around her waist.
"I won't tell anyone if you don't," Saoirse smirked, tilting her head. Zuko laughed.
"If you don't think a girl wouldn't notice I spent an hour longer with you than anyone else, you clearly haven't been paying attention."
Saoirse shrugged her shoulders in defeat. "I just always want to spend more time with you than I have," she pouted quietly.
Zuko swallowed nodding. "I know the feeling," he said. He did feel bad at the way that Saoirse instantly brightened, maybe thinking he was referring to her, but in reality, he was thinking of Katara.
It wasn't fair to Saoirse; she was a very nice girl. She'd take him on a walk down the beach, away from the group, and they'd picked up interesting seashells along the way. It had been fun, it had been enjoyable, and Zuko had forgotten how much he liked talking to her.
"Are we going to get another date soon? You know, more than just this?" Saoirse questioned, motioning to the beach.
"Of course. Things are settling down after the attacks and soon I'll be doing dates regularly again."
Saoirse pursed her lips. "I can't wait."
Zuko offered back a slight smile in return. He turned them back to the main beach, finishing their hour and a half together with a kiss to her forehead, which seemed to please the Northern Water Tribe girl enough.
As soon as Saoirse was waving to Zuko, returning to find Kilee with her palms full of brightly colored shells, Zuko was scanning the beach for Katara.
He found her exactly where she'd begun the morning; at the sand castles.
"Hey, Kat, Sokka," Zuko nodded to the pair of siblings. "Toph."
"Oh, Zuko," Toph teased in a sing-songy voice. "Are you here for our date?"
Zuko groaned. "Do you want one?"
"Naw. I'm just messin' with ya." Toph came up, slapping his arm. "Don't look so depressed at the thought though!"
"I wasn't depressed, I was-"
"You can't hide from me, remember. I know when you're lying," Toph teased. "Besides, I still have more to work on here."
"Uh, looks pretty complete to me," Zuko said, eyes widening in surprise at the complexity of her work.
"So you'd think, so you'd think," Toph just replied cryptically, shaking a finger.
Zuko blinked, rolling his eyes. "Katara, so...do you...can we...maybe…"
"Yes," Katara laughed. "Sokka can finish by himself, right?"
Sokka, who was currently precisely measuring twigs to use as flags, startled. "What? Oh, yeah, whatever. I'm busy." He waved them away. "Wait!"
Zuko bit his tongue to groan in frustration as Katara turned back.
"If you find any more of this seaweed - the green stuff, not the brown gooey stuff - bring it back. We need it for the walls. Gotta make my city more impressive than Toph's," he added, sending a narrowed glare her way. Toph sent him back the middle finger, which three young children immediately tried to copy. Zuko groaned and dragged his hand down his face; he was going to be scalped by parents for one of his contestants teaching their children dirty words and phrases before the weekend was up.
"He's lying, we're just doing it for fun," Katara said, bending down to pat a wall back into place.
"That's what you think," Sokka said firmly.
"Right," Zuko said, since there was a clear difference in skill level between the two.
"We'll look our hardest," Katara said, winking to her brother.
Once they were a few feet away, Zuko resisted the urge to twine his fingers in hers. "What do you want to do?"
"Have you been in the water yet? I'm covered in sand and could for sure use a good wash," Katara said, patting off her arms.
"Not further than a few feet. Most of the girls asked me to put lotion on their backs or read with them or find shells," Zuko said.
"Have you been having fun?"
That was Katara, always looking out for him.
"Of course," Zuko said, and he meant that almost-completely honestly.
"We can do something else," Katara said, picking up on that small unsureness in his tone.
"No, that sounds great," he assured, pointing to the sea. Katara grabbed his hand to pull him to the waves. "I should have guessed the waterbender would want to go in the water."
Katara, running her fingers through her soaked hair to shove it back, blinked innocently at him. "Maybe I should be more unpredictable."
"Oh? I'd like to see you try." Zuko said.
Katara shrugged, at first seeming to brush his words off as she led them deeper and deeper into the sea, until they were almost treading water.
"How's this for unpredictable?" she asked. Zuko frowned, not understanding. As he was opening is mouth to ask what about this was something strange, Katara tackled him under the water. Just as he was getting his bearings under the waves, she kissed him. He opened his eye to see her hair floating out behind her like she was a sea goddess, tiny bubbles escaping her lips as she laughed.
Zuko dove back up for air.
"I could have drowned," he said, though he wasn't as upset as he pretended to be.
"I wouldn't have let you," Katara said firmly. She flashed him a white smile. "Are you properly wet?"
"Yes, my hair is soaked," he said, pointing to his locks, shaking his head like a dog to try the tips.
"I am too," Katara said.
"Yeah, you dove in right away," Zuko agreed.
"No," Katara said, coming up right next to him. He was just hardly touching the bottom flat-footed, so he was sure Katara was on her tiptoes, and grasping his arms to keep herself steady. "I'm soaked,"she breathed in a husky tone.
"You…" Zuko breathed out, but it sounded like a pained wheeze. About a thousand neurons all lit up at once in his brain...and then went right from his brain downward.
Katara used the weightlessness of the water to push herself up far enough to wrap her arms around his neck, kissing his neck, curling a leg around his own legs. She wasn't going to kiss him in public, not on the lips, but even just the hot kiss to his collarbone had him groaning and his hardness straining at his bottoms. Something about her doing this so openly, when she probably definitely wasn't supposed to be doing this, drove him even crazier than if they were alone.
"Katara, you-" Zuko started to protest, hands gripping her arms, until he wondered why he was protesting? This was, actually, sorta great.
"Mhh? What's that?" Katara tilted her head.
Zuko shook away the water in his head. This was bad. As much as he wanted this, it was bad. They shouldn't be doing this right now. They couldn't be doing this now. The rest of the competition was just lounging on the beach, definitely in sight. He let Katara's fingers trace his stomach, hard as he flexed as he tried not to move, until they got a little bit too low.
"Katara, you are not helping," he hissed.
Katara took her hand away. He expected her to be offended. Instead, she looked up at him with slightly confused, liquid eyes. Did she truly not-
She leaned up, kissing him chastely on his neck, before flicking her tongue over his earlobe.
"This is payback for dinner, Zuko," she murmured against his warm skin.
Zuko cussed in his mind. The foot-on-leg thing had been a spur of the moment thought, something he hadn't thought through other than that he'd enjoyed seeing Katara's ears redden. He hadn't thought she'd retaliate, and not so deftly!
Katara stood back, stretching. "Well, I think it's just about time for dinner. We should probably get out of the water, hmm?" she teased.
"You go," Zuko said, gritting his teeth.
"Aren't you coming?" Katara asked, smirking.
"No," he replied shortly, trying to think of all the least sexy things that he'd ever seen, to little help.
Katara flashed him a grin before swimming back. Zuko closed his eyes; if he walked out now, surely, everyone would see his tented pants. Think of Ozai in a bathing suit...think of Lo and Li in bathing suits...think that dead owl-cat he'd poked when he was eight…
"Zuko! Come inside! Dinner's soon!" Sokka called, wading into the water. "And you know me, I'm starved."
"You're always starved," Zuko snapped out. While he could tell Sokka his predicament, and for any other girl who had caused it he would, he wasn't about to admit he'd gotten hard while in the water with his sister.
"Well, hurry it up," Sokka encouraged.
"I just...I want to enjoy the water a little longer." Zuko forced a smile.
"The beach will still be here tomorrow."
"Yes," Zuko breathed out, willing himself to relax, trying not to catch sight of Katara in that swimsuit, knowing she'd still be wearing it the next day. "That might be exactly the issue."
Notes:
THE LANNISTERS PAY THEIR RESPECTS (that's honestly all I could think as I was writing that line about payback for Katara. I've been in a Game of Thrones mood lately, which has seriously hurt my heart. Arg. Urg. Avatar continues to be one of the most satisfying shows ever written, but what else is new?)
Little Margarita! You have reached a drabble if you so want one :)
In terms of what's new on the Zutara/ADS front, if ya head over to my tumblr- youngblodlex22- I have uploaded (1) A floorplan of Katara's rooms/the contestant rooms and (2) some aesthetic boards for the original characters. I have previously uploaded Aiga, Alcina, and Dhakiya's before, but I now have added Ratana, Avizeh, Caecillia, and Bahiravi to the mix! I'll be continuing to upload those periodically, so if you want to see what I imagine them to look like, check that out!
In other, non Avatar news, because I'm still stewing about the finale of Game of Thrones, I've uploaded a GendryxArya fic about 5 scenes that I feel should have been added to the last episode.
Anyway, enjoy this chapter!
Chapter 14
Notes:
A couple days late...explanation at the bottom...
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Aang watched the robe saleswoman from his spot at the cafe with careful scrutinizing attention.
"Sir, your honor, would you like more tea?"
Aang startled, glancing up at the very nervous owner who was offering out more from the tea cup. Aang wordlessly accepted, nodding his thanks. The man left, stumbling over reverent thank-yous, retreating back.
Yesterday, Aang had worn his military uniforms for his recon work. It had been his intention to be invisible, to be forgettable. Fire Nation military were as common as mouseflies here, and even one with light gray eyes was easily forgotten once out of sight. Today, however, he was wearing his family robes. It had been Kyoshi who had pointed out that flaunting his fake ancestors would allow him prestige and encourage people to listen to him.
As it was, as soon as he'd stepped into the tea shop, the owner had been falling over himself to offer Aang any table and tea on the house. He'd taken up a spot out on the patio, in perfect view of the woman of his watch as she sold her robes to passersby.
He'd gathered that she was the owner, but still worked the shop herself. She had scant workers, and it seemed to be mostly tourists who stopped in, the locals avoided her shop tactfully. She was marked by some invisible taboo, something that was known but not talked about at this point in time.
Her figure was lithe, and when she stepped, there was a spring to it. Her shoulders were small. Her eyes, not quite grey, but somewhere between a murky blue and true slate color all indicated to Aang that some of her ancestors had to be airbenders. He doubted she herself was an airbender, but it was somewhere in her family.
He hadn't had proper time to research Ember Island and the census reports. As it was, this town was very changed year to year. It was built up for the tourists, and the actual people who lived here were probably few. It was also a hot spot for all types of high-ranking Fire Nationers. Chances are that someone wouldn't have come here unless you didn't know about your airbending ancestry until it was too late.
When the owner came back over a second time, Aang motioned him down.
"That woman there?" he asked, pointing, "What do you know of her?"
The man poured Aang's green tea, frowning. "Lady Tuan? What does the Royal Family care of her?"
"What do you know of her?" Aang repeated, recalling how Kasata had told him to be aloof and cold, someone imposing.
"She's hardly anyone, m'lord," the man said carefully, "And, if I may...a disgrace to the town."
"Oh?"
"She's vocal, sir," the man said distastefully. "Or, she was. She had a son, you see, and he was always a little off. He vanished a year or two ago. Since then, she's always had opinions, and will tell anyone them. Mostly about the soldiers that come through here...which we are always pleased to have, of course," the man said quickly.
"I take it she doesn't?"
"In more words or less," the man said shortly.
Aang sipped his tea, nodding.
"The Royal Family thanks you for your generosity," he said, dropping a handful of gold coins in the man's hand.
Then, he strode across the walkway.
"Lady Tuan?" Aang said in an even tone, "May I have a word?"
"Lord Kuzon." The woman bowed immediately, as did everyone else in the general vicinity. "I am humbled you would choose to visit this small store, I am-"
"Lady," Aang said, resting a hand on her shoulder, "If there is perhaps somewhere we could talk?"
"Yes, let me just...I will...come in," she said. She was middle-aged, wrinkles creasing her face, hints of silver shining in her dark hair. She brought Aang to the back storeroom, filled with bolts of fabric and thread yarn. She hustled around, clearing off tables.
"Your son. He was an airbender." Aang got right to the point. He saw no other way around it. The woman's back stiffened.
"My liege, you-" she began to scoff, but Aang raised a hand.
"I'm sure others assumed, but no one would be so bold to say. And, he's gone now, so it doesn't matter. You overplayed your hand," Aang said, but it was Kasata's voice in his head telling him the words.
The woman's lip trembled.
Aang pursed his lips as the Avatars warred inside his head.
He needed this woman, the first part of his masterplan, to cooperate with him. Kasata was telling him to blackmail her; threaten that he'd turn her into Zhao if she didn't do as he asked.
Aang needs her to agree; that seems counterproductive, Yangchen said evenly, and the Avatar should not use war tactics!
An airbender, maybe, Kasata spit back. But we are at war! The ends sometimes justify the means!
Aang swallowed hard. What sort of precedent would he be setting if he bullied her into agreeing with him?
You have your information! She could just as easily turn you in, Kasata continued, and all this secrecy would be for nothing.
"Are you here to take me in, my Lord?" Lady Tuan's voice was fearful, but strong.
"The opposite, actually." Aang shushed the voices best he could. He was an airbender, and he was peaceful. He would do a great many things for his people, but this was not one of them.
Honey catches more mouseflies than vinegar, Yangchen agreed with a hint of pride.
"I wish to...I want to…" It was the first time, apart from talking to Zuko, he'd had to describe his crusade. Aang breathed in deeply, centering himself.
"I am trying to help airbenders escape danger," he said frankly, but spoke quietly and swiftly. "I mean to get them out of cities and towns, away from those who wish to hurt them."
The woman narrowed her eyes suspiciously.
"How do I know you are not trying to goad me into a confession?" she asked with a hint of bitterness.
Aang was not going to bring out his airbending, not again, for it was a kept secret now. Too many people knew, and soon, it wouldn't be a secret anymore. Still, he would rather err on the side of caution while he still could.
"I have nothing, I suppose, other than asking you to look into my eyes and believe that I want to help keep people alive. That I think it's wrong to kill airbenders," Aang said honestly. "And that you can take this information if you so please, take it straight to the Fire Lord. But, I think we share a similar desire to see them helped, to do what it takes," he said. "Believe it because I come to you with no guards flanking me, nothing but my words and a plea."
The woman jumped forward, jerking Aang's eyes up. For a second, her grip on his chin was firm, and she looked at him like she was staring all the way down.
"Your eyes," she said after a moment, voice rough. "They are the same hue as my son's were…"
Aang bit his lip cautiously. Let her believe him another nameless airbender, not the Avatar.
Perhaps, if that's what it took, it would be better.
She drew back. "What do you ask of me?"
"Safe passage. That, if they come through here, you keep them safe or give them food and shelter until they move to their next spot. You clothe them, care for them as though they were your son who died," Aang said.
"You are asking me to defy the Fire Lord. That treason is punishable by death," Lady Tuan said simply.
"I realize."
She crossed her arms, face unreadable, staring Aang down for a few minutes. Aang waited for her, knowing that this was not something he asked of anyone lightly. While he'd be disappointed if she refused, he would understand.
He saw a small smile curl across her face, and that's when he knew.
Aang opened his lips, speaking with a careful annunciation. "Are you a friend of Rodden?"
Despite the phrase itself being spoken for the first time, and unfamiliar at that, the way that Aang spoke it to her, and the fire that lit in her eyes indicated that she understood.
"Aye, I am a friend of Rodden."
XXxxXX
"What's Prince Zuko doing still out in the water?"
Katara gathered her hair into one palm, using the other to draw the water from the tendrils as she glanced at Kilee.
"You know," she said, trying to keep a straight face, "I'm not really sure."
"I'll get him," Sokka announced. "My stomach is rumbling! You hear that?"
"We all can. It's like you've never eaten," Suki laughed.
"Katara! Can you help me?" Ty Lee called, and Katara turned to see Ty Lee struggling to fold down her parasol as the wind battered the fabric.
"Of course," Katara said, bounding up to grasp onto the thick material as Ty Lee did her best to beat it down so she could tie it.
"Need help ladies?"
The same two goons from the previous day suddenly materialized. Like magic. Like they were bloodhounds to ladies in short skirts struggling with something.
"We're fine," Katara said shortly.
"Looks like you're having a bit of trouble," the second one said, but he was eyeing the two girls with a wandering gaze.
"If we were, we wouldn't ask you," Katara said. "We'd probably ask Prince Zuko," she added, batting her eyes.
"He seems a little...distracted," the first one said, glancing out to the sea. "Look, anyway, I'm having a party tonight. You all should come by."
Katara paused, turning to cross her arms. "All of us?" she asked, motioning to the group at large.
"Well, we'd prefer just the girls-" the second boy started, but the first elbowed him hard.
"If that's what it takes to get you to show up," the first said.
"You do know who we are, don't you?" Azula asked, sneaking up on Katara so stealthily that she nearly jumped.
"A caravan of nearly 20 girls and a kid with a scar. You're not exactly inconspicuous."
"Big words there," Katara said dryly.
"Hey!" the second boy snarled. "Don't they teach you manners on whatever ice cube you come from? Don't you know who we are?"
"Are we supposed to?" Azula asked, examining her nail bed.
"We're Chan and Ruan-Jian!" the second one squawked indignantly. Azula looked the pair up and down. Katara saw Azula's gaze linger just a second too long on Chan, and that there was almost something like approval in her eyes.
"Oh, of course," Azula said with faux recognition.
Chan looked directly at Katara.
"Look, some of the most influential Fire Nation families will be there, so maybe if you didn't act so…" He made a weird hand gesture. "Just be normal."
"I'll be on my best behavior," Katara said sweetly, and as soon as they turned, she rolled her eyes.
"This will be fun," Azula said to the girls who had gathered. "I've never been to a real party."
"What if Prince Zuko-"
"My brother has little reason to say no," Azula cut off On Ji. "He can schmooze with some sons of important people, and we can enjoy ourselves. This is what teens and young adults do, or so I've heard," she added, tapping her chin. "For some reason, no one ever really invited me or Zuko to parties…"
"I wonder why," Katara heard someone mumble as they tied their kimonos. By this point, Zuko had exited the water.
"Prince Zuko! We just got invited to a party tonight!" Avizeh gasped, running up and pulling on his arm. "It's going to be so much fun!"
"What?" Zuko looked right at his sister. "Azula-"
"Oh, pish. Live a little, Zuzu," Azula said, grinning and showing her teeth bared. "I think tonight will be smashing."
XXxxXX
"No, no," Arrluck was sighing hard. "From dusk till dawn doesn't literally mean that it starts at dusk."
Zuko glanced over his shoulder to see the Water Tribe boy sitting across from Azula, trying to explain the concept to her.
"It's just an expression," he added at Azula's very dubious face.
"But I overheard him saying they'll be partying from dusk until dawn," Azula argued firmly, using her hands to indicate the two marks of time. "Why would he say that if he did not mean it? The Royal Family is never tardy."
"It's fine to be slightly tardy at parties." Zuko was unsure how Arrluck had somehow been conscripted into explaining this to Azula. Well, better Arrluck than Zuko; Hahn was taking a very long time getting ready doing Agni knows what and Sokka was having a post-dinner snack. "It's normal, even."
Azula leaned forward, smiling. "If you are incorrect, Arrluck, I will come into your room at night and wax your whole body using day old wax. Trust me, it will hurt."
As she stood, Arrluck sent him a 'what the heck' sort of look, to which Zuko only gave a tired shrug. It was per the norm for Azula.
Aang walked through the door right as Azula was going to her room.
"You!" she said, pointing at Aang.
He sent Azula a bewildered look, wordlessly pointing to himself.
"Yes, you. We were invited to a party tonight. We're going," she said, with all of the authority in her voice she could muster.
"I don't think-" Aang begun.
"You are teenager, are you not?" Azula asked.
"Erm, yes," Aang said, but there was a tinge of nervousness in his reply. Zuko stifled a laughter.
'Are you a teenager' was a pretty loaded question, considering that he was sort of 16 and also sort of 116.
"It's what teenagers do. You're going."
Zuko didn't think he'd be able to persuade Azula out of going, and Aang seemed resigned to it. He plopped down next to Zuko on a weirdly lump armchair.
"Did you have a productive day?" Zuko asked.
"Actually," Aang's face brightened. "It was."
He glanced around, realizing that there was only so much that could be said between the pair of them without giving too much away.
Zuko gave a satisfied nod.
Aang took out a tiny slip of parchment. "Maybe going to this party won't be the worst thing," he admitted. "I was given a list of people – teens - that might be...helpful to us," Aang said, sharing the list with Zuko. There were three names on it: Bahuo, Rasra, and Aden. "They were, well, friends with a...a...fallen family member of mine." Aang decided his words carefully, dropping to a scarce whisper.
Zuko wasn't sure if he totally understood Aang's meaning, but he understood enough. He looked at the three names, memorized them. There were no guarantees they'd be at the party, but at least it would give some purpose to this otherwise rather odious night Azula had agreed to.
XXxxXX
The group walked over in a massive hoard. Katara tugged at her dress, unsure if she was underdressed or overdressed. She'd anticipated some fancy dinner, and had the forethought to bring a nicer dress. However, she had little experience with teen parties, and what was the proper dress code for one.
Some girls seemed to be wearing as little as they had on the beach, while other girls were dressed like they were preparing for a big important dinner party. Maybe what mattered was effort; whatever effort meant to everyone individually.
Yue had brought a similar dress to the one Katara was wearing, and this made Katara feel much more settled in her choices.
Chan's house was situated on a cliffside, and by the time they arrived, there was lights flickering on the inside of the house. Azula had muttered something about being late, and Ty Lee had bounded over to her friend, explaining that parties were really more of a 'come and go when you please' sort of thing.
At the door, Azula shouldered her way to the front, rapping three times with the exact same pressure.
Toph grasped Katara's arms.
"You ready for this?" she whispered excitedly.
"Toph, you hate parties."
"Wrong. I hate balls," Toph said, raising a finger. "Parties though? I can hear it from here: music, dancing, drinks, food, sin. I can't wait," she explained, rubbing her hands together deviously.
Chan answered.
"We are here," Azula said. "It is not in my nature to be so late, I'm usually a perfect party guest, and-"
"Yeah, yeah, come in," Chan said, cutting her off. "So; my dad doesn't know that I'm throwing this party. Don't fuck it up. I don't care if you're the Royal Children, okay?" he said.
Ty Lee inhaled sharply, eyes bugging. Azula just breezed on in, smiling as she did so.
"Usually Zula would have killed him for a comment like that," Ty Lee said to Mai. "I don't…"
"It's obvious," Katara heard Mai say to Ty Lee in a bored tone, "She likes him."
Ty Lee was so shocked that it took until most of the group entered for her to shake herself out of her expression. Katara nudged her elbow, and the pair went inside.
The girls dispersed quickly, like mist evaporating on a sunny day. In every corner that Katara turned toward, it seemed a girl she knew had taken hold, giggling with Earth Kingdom and Fire Nation boys who fawned over them. Sokka had found the food, once again, and was chowing down while telling some over-exaggerated story to a couple of girls. She saw Toph only in brief moments; the first time, she was shoving some dude, though it seemed nothing came of it. The second time, she was dowing shots like there was no tomorrow. The third time, well, she was still taking shots.
Katara hovered unsurely for a little bit, gliding through the throngs of people without any effort to talk to anyone. She was very grateful when Aang joined her in a corner.
"Having fun?" she asked.
Aang scowled, tilting his head. Katara looked behind him to see a whole group of boys making fools of themselves around Ty Lee. Ty Lee was walking a thin line, trying not to be rude, but also trying very hard not to encourage them.
Katara instinctively looked around for Zuko. She found him facing a similar issue with non-Choice girls, but he was managing to elude them a little bit more effectively. Still, girls mooned over him with stupid smiles on their faces. They probably wouldn't ever get this close to the crown prince again.
"Look, we're looking for some people. If you find any of these three people here, come find me or Zuko," Aang murmured quietly, slipping a thin sheet into her hand.
"What is this about? Are they for sure here?" Katara said, clasping her fingers tightly around it.
"Later and no," Aang said shortly. "But it will give you something to do other than just stand around." He offered a thin smile.
"You're one to talk."
"You two need drinks," Azula commanded, pointing at them both. "Agni, you two are so depressing over here. You're being bad guests." She snapped her fingers, and someone was offering the pair a beverage of some sort. Azula seemed pleased and moved on, only because she spotted Chan.
"Oh, Chan! I forgot to tell you before that you're wearing a sharp outfit. If you're not careful, it could puncture a hull of an empire-class Fire Nation battleship, leaving thousands to drown at sea. You know, because it's so sharp." Azula's voice faded as she followed after Chan, but Katara still heard the whole compliment.
Katara snorted so hard it hurt. She pressed the pads of her finger to the glass cup, wondering if it would be rude to pour this out.
"Think she's trying to poison us?" Katara asked, looking hard into the glass.
"She's trying to get me drunk for spirits knows why," Aang said. "Bottoms up?" he said, clinking their glasses. He drank half of it before Katara could argue, wincing. "Start talking to people," he said, sending one last longing look back at Ty Lee before plastering a fake smile and gregariously inserting himself into an ongoing conversation.
Katara shielded herself against a wall to unfurl the slip of paper. She got the impression that she was not to let these names fall into the wrong hands. After memorizing the trio of titles, she stuffed it down her shirt, between her breasts.
No one would be trying to reach there besides herself. Or Zuko, if he was feeling frisky, but she got the feeling he knew about this.
She pushed down her unsureness and social anxiety, smiled warmly at a nice-looking boy and girl, and forced herself to walk over to them.
XXxxXX
Katara didn't talk to her friends for most of the party. She slipped between groups of strangers, putting forth a more talkative and friendly version of herself, one that charmed and amazed easily. She hadn't found any of the names on Aang's list, but the night was still young, and people continued to pour in through the front door.
Most people weren't quite as awful as the two hosts, and were actually nice to talk to. Most were amazed by her Water Tribe heritage, but there had only been one or two people Katara had stopped talking to because of stupid comments.
As she passed by the food table, Ruan-Jian caught sight of her in the mirror he'd been using to fluff his hair.
"Hey there, tiger," he said, coming up next to her.
"If you're not careful, I'll eat you. Better scram," Katara said, trying not to punch him.
"You know, I'd be nicer to me," he said, cornering her.
"How do you figure?"
"Only one of you all is going to win this thing with the Prince," he said, waving a hand around. "And the rest of you will need a man to marry anyway. Not everyone would be willing to handle someone as...difficult as a Southern Water Tribe bird, but I'm open to the challenge. I've heard you're a little rough around the edges; Prince Zuko can't possibly be expected to properly train you with all the other girls he's handling, but I'd fix that easily. Just need a strong hand to lead you, you know? If you're nice to me, I'd consider asking my father to broker an agreement between us."
Katara took a step back, teeth bared, fury twitching her hand. She was a second away from slapping him, but she kept her fingers twitching at her side. She hated him more than she hated Hahn. Hahn was an asshole, but he hadn't tried hitting on Katara in moons, and was more akin to an irritating insect. He certainly hit on other girls, so it's not as though he was absolved, but he seemed to have a type: girls that could defend themselves as aggressively as he pursued them. She got the feeling Hahn might not actually like a girl who was declawed, where as this fucker seemed like he wanted nothing more than to leave his poor wife defenseless and depend upon him.
Ruan-Jian seemed to be looking for a meek girl, wanted someone to control. She wasn't going to make a scene right now, not when this wasn't her party and others were enjoying themselves. She could deal with an idiot. She'd dealt with worse.
"That's sweet," she said with as much sarcasm as she thought she could get away with. "However, I think I already had some other prospects lined up. I'm sorry."
Ruan-Jian blinked. "Shame. I think we would have had fun together," he said lazily, plucking a rolled finger-food from Katara's plate.
"Maybe," she said. Ruan-Jian sent her one last disappointed look before stalking his next prey. She saw him head for Kilee next. A girl like Kilee might actually enjoy a man like him.
"He thinks he's so great," Zuko growled, his presence shocking Katara. She'd been so focused on not killing Ruan-Jian she hadn't noticed him sneak up. At Katara's lack of a response, mostly just because she hadn't fully processed his first words, he added with a lot of jealousy, crossing his arms, "You liked him, didn't you?"
"I find him abhorrent, but I can't just say that in the middle of his party," Katara hissed angrily. "I'm not looking for a husband! I wasn't even looking for one in the first place," she added, the words falling out of her mouth before she could stop.
Zuko straightened his back. "You hardly let me forget that," he said crisply before turning away.
Katara wanted to scream. What was suddenly bothering him? It's not like she'd been in the corner making out with that idiot, in fact, she'd been trying to shove away his affections as best she could!
Katara snatched her plate off the table, intent on finding a quiet place in the middle of nowhere where she could eat her food and stew.
"Ruan-Jian comes on a little strong," a boy said as Katara passed him, "Sorry."
Katara paused, inhaling. "You shouldn't have to apologize. It's not your fault."
"I know. Still." He frowned. "It's not polite, and honestly, I don't think his heavy-handed tactics have ever worked."
Katara paused, smiling thinly at him. She felt Zuko's eyes on the back of her head. For Agni's sake, she wasn't discussing a marriage with this guy, she was making polite small talk.
"So, what's it like being in The Prince's Choice?" he asked.
"How do you know I am?"
"You're Katara. I've seen drawings of you in the papers," he said frankly. "Plus, the Southern symbol on your bracelet is a dead giveaway. There's only one Southern girl that's anywhere near Fire Nationers."
Katara absently rubbed the bracelet that Shi had made for Katara with her family's symbol.
"You got me," she said after a beat. "It's exhausting."
This was, entirely, the truth.
"I guess you know my name." Katara extended her hand.
"Rasra."
Kara blinked, her grip on his hand a little lackluster.
"Let me just…" She held up a finger, pulling the sheet from between her breasts. "Ah. Yes."
"Uhm-" Rasra blinked, averting his eyes. Katara grabbed his arm, pulling him through the crowd. "Where are we going?"
"You're meeting the Prince tonight," Katara said.
"Why?"
Katara spotted Zuko sulking near the back. "No idea. If you find out, let me know."
XXxxXX
Aang watched Katara drag some poor soul through the party to Zuko. The only explanation he could think of was that it was a name from the list. He wondered which one it was?
"-those boys won't leave me alone, they all like me too much."
At Ty Lee's voice, Aang switched his attention. He saw Ty Lee rubbing her arms, standing next to Azula. Behind Ty Lee was a whole host of boys who were bickering over which one Ty Lee liked more.
Aang leaned more into the wall, trying not to be obvious that he was eavesdropping. He also tried not to glare at the gathered boys. Ty Lee was a catch; of course other people were taking notice of her.
Azula looked Ty Lee up and down, her expression darkening.
"Come on, Ty Lee, you can't be this ignorant," she said, raising her chin.
Ty Lee frowned, tilting her head, looking back at the boys. When they noticed her looking, they all waved exuberantly and called her name.
"What do you mean?"
Azula leaned in, her razor cut hair falling over her shoulders. "Those boys only like you because you make it so easy for them. You're not a challenge. You're a tease, and they think they're going to get something from you. It's not like they care about you as a person."
Ty Lee gaped for a second, floundering for words. Aang saw tears forming on the edge of her eyes. He thought she might lose it on the floor, in front of everyone. Maybe even a year ago, she would have.
Now, however, Ty Lee managed to pull herself together enough to scowl at Azula. Azula looked surprised she wasn't a blubbering mess on the ground.
"That was mean, Azula. I think you're just jealous. I feel sorry for you," she said simply, turning around.
"Ty, wait," Azula said, realizing her folly a second too late. Ty Lee smacked her hand off.
"Leave me alone. Please."
Go to her, Aang, Kyoshi whispered quietly.
But she wants to be alone, Aang frowned, swallowing. Kyoshi replied back immediately.
From most, true. But not from you.
Even her fanboys had enough sense to give her distance. She walked out onto the patio, leaving Azula halfway between contrite and fuming. Aang watched as she stood motionless for a couple seconds, her face rapidly switching between emotions, before she squared her shoulders.
"They do just want sex," Azula muttered to herself. "Can't help it if Ty Lee is too naive to see that."
As soon as Azula was preoccupied, Aang peeled himself from the wall, with every intent of finding Ty Lee.
She was underneath the porch out back, hiding in the shadows, sitting in the sand. She was sobbing.
That's your descendant, Roku! Gopan hissed angrily, By the spirits, she's a monster! This girl is pure! Like a dove and-
Azula is all Azulon's family, Roku replied back tersely, I only take claim to Zuko. There is nothing of me in Azula.
Poor girl, poor girl, Suluk crooned.
"Ty?" Aang asked softly, wondering if he would be told to go away. Maybe he should have just let her be?
"Aang," Ty Lee breathed out softly, her eyes glimmering with wet tears as she lifted her head.
"She's wrong, you know," Aang said before Ty Lee could say something else. "About all of it. You're not a tease, you're not easy. Boys don't just want one thing...I care about you. I could care less about 'getting something' in return and-" He paused when he noticed Ty Lee smiling. "What?"
Oh, to be young and stupid once again, Suluk sighed. Aang didn't understand.
"I know she was just saying that to hurt me, Kuzon," Ty Lee said, reminding herself of his cover. "I didn't think it was true. I'm crying because I hate how mean Azula can be, how she can have so little care for anyone but herself."
"And you're smiling because…?"
"Because you're you," Ty Lee was still hiccupping, but her sobs were quieting. She lifted her hand as an invitation. Aang sat beside her. "And this is the nicest thing anyone has done for me. I do know that I'm often overlooked. No one cares about Ty Lee."
"You couldn't be more wrong," Aang choked out, horrified she'd think that.
"I'm used to it. Did you ever know I was one of six sisters, all who looked exactly the same as I did? That I ran away to the circus at the age of five, until Azula tracked me back down and invited me to the Palace as her esteemed friend?"
"I knew about the circus." Aang furrowed his brow. "But I had no idea about your family."
"I don't want to talk about it all now, but I'm just very used to being one of a group. Maybe I do try to get noticed, a little too much," she said, looking out at the sea that bashed up against the rocks, a faraway look in her eye.
"You're noticed because you're incredible," Aang said. "And kind. And caring. And funny."
Good job, Aang! Most effective! Gopan cheered him on. Okay, he was doing something right.
Ty Lee turned. She leaned forward, pressing her forehead to his. There was a moment, one moment where Aang was sure she was going to kiss him. Instead, she just softly ran her fingers over his cheek, up into his unruly black hair. All at once, the voices were silent. It was as though it was just him and Ty Lee.
"I wish I could," she murmured, and he knew what she was referring to. "But if we were caught-" She bit her lip.
"Treason. Not even a fake relation to the Royal Family would save us, huh?" Aang agreed, knowing full well. Perhaps it was for the best. He imagined if he kissed her even once, he would find it impossible to be near her without wanting to do it again, without wishing they could be open about all of it.
"Yeah," Ty Lee whispered back, ever so softly, so that her answer was carried away on the wind.
Aang was about to stand, but Ty Lee jerked him back down. She motioned to stay silent, pointing above.
Now that Aang tilted his head, he heard a pair of footsteps.
"Is this your first time on Ember Island?"
Aang mouthed 'Chan' to Ty Lee, who nodded. She mouthed back, 'Azula', which Aang wasn't expecting.
"No, I used to come here years ago," Azula said. Aang frowned. He'd never heard Azula sound...so soft.
"It's great if you like sand," Chan said, throwing a pebble off the porch. It clattered near Aang's foot.
"Not a fan?" Azula asked.
"It gets old after a while. Do you ever get tired of the capital?"
Azula scoffed. "Never. It's mine."
"I was born here too, but…" Chan trailed off. "You're really pretty." There was a sound that happened next that Aang didn't recognize, not at first.
"Did she just giggle?" Aang whispered in mild horror. Ty Lee's eyes were as wide as Aang's.
There was a pause, before Azula continued. "I'm going to be honest. I'm not looking for a guy to tell me I'm pretty and bring me flowers, even if the sentiment is appreciated. I have big plans and I need someone to stand by me. Plans that would make lesser men weak at the knees. Are you that man Chan?"
Chan made an audible gulp. "That's, uh, a little intense…" he trailed off uneasily.
"I know what I need. If you aren't that, your loss," Azula said flippantly, confidently, before walking off. Aang counted her steps above them.
"Wait! Princess!" Chan called after her, running after her.
"Well, that was something," Aang said dryly. He wondered if Azula was talking about taking over the throne, the same drone threat she'd been peddling for years on end now?
Ty Lee just smiled, "Let's re-join the party."
Notes:
So, the reason that I was a little late to updating was that I got news this weekend that an old high school friend of mine was in an accident this weekend, and while he's alive, he's been paralyzed (as of right now from the neck down). I admittedly am dealing with it way worse than I thought I would. When I'm really upset, I either go two ways with writing; I try to ignore reality by throwing myself into stories, or I feel just to sick and sad to touch them at all. I can't ever really guess how it will be, but I guess this week it went the latter.
But, he's starting to do better, so I am back to updating and writing and catching my feet, if you will.
Sorry to bog you all down with that super depressing stuff, but erg, yeah.
Onto lighter notes, the chapter notes
* So this one isn't exactly relating to the story, but ya know how I've said (and a lot of you have made the companion as well) that this is basically like The Bachelor or the Bachelorette? Well, one of the guys I went to High School with is on this season of the Bachelorette! And let me tell you why this is WEIRD. My High School only had 800 people total at good years, so we were all very close knit. He was a year above me and I had a huge crush on him, him and my bf were good enough friends that my bf noticed when he strangely deleted his Facebook a couple months ago (they used to also play video games together), and this guy was seriously the NICEST person around. He might not have known me, but he knew my name and would have never been a jerk to anyone. It's just so wild seeing him on TV, like, woah. I've gotten strangely protective over him haha
* Also! I've been doing a lot of boards/aesthetics to show faces and personality of characters! Head onto my tumblr (youngbloodlex22) to see them! I still need to upload them to the picture album on here, so my tumblr is the best place to see em
*The one thing I found really strange in the episode of the Beach is that somehow Chan didnt' know they were the Royal Family kids? I mean, maybe Azula and the girls he could have been unsure about, but clearly there was more than general knowledge that Zuko- the royal prince- had a huge burn on his face over his eyes. How many kids do you guess are like that out there? It seems weird Chan didn't realize. Or maybe he's really that dumb.
*Ty Lee and Azulas talk obvs went a little differently now. I like to think that because of the Avatar group, which like Ty Lee for her own person, she's started to become stronger about her own self worth.
*lastly, while I LOVE the original Beach Episode and all the catharsis that happens at the end, those particular feelings and reveals aren't quite right for this moment in time...
Anywho, hope you all enjoyed this chapter!
(I'll reply to comments tomorrow...I'm exhausted rn!)
Chapter 15
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Walking up to the Royal Palace late in the afternoon the next day, Katara nearly expected it to be burned down, or to find out that Ozai had done something really crazy in their weekend gone, like invited the Equalists to live with them or culled half the girls himself and thrown their items onto the lawn.
The palace, however, looked exactly as it always had, perhaps a missing spire or two from the attack. Overall, it was familiar. Familiar enough that when they pushed the grand doors open, the scent that was kicked up from the carpet and the walls felt homey. It did disturb Katara slightly to have such a pleased unconscious response to the burning smell of incense and cloves.
Behind Katara, the whole caravan of girls and others followed, some stumbling slightly or wincing at the bright sun.
If Katara asked Toph, having half of the group hung over was a mark of a successful party. Katara wasn't sold on this.
She did consider the party a success on a much different scale; Ruan-Jian had kept away from her the rest of the night, no one made too big a fool of themselves, and the party didn't end with Azula burning the place down. She'd heard stories whispered among other girls about certain events that Katara assumed were true that indicated most other people had equally as good a time.
Maiha apparently found her 'back-up' suitor, and he'd professed he'd wait for her, because Maiha had said she was '98% sure she wasn't going to be the winner'. Ty Lee sent warm smiles to Aang when no one was looking, which made Katara sure something had happened, though she was unsure what. Azula had finished the night with a scowl, and whoever made her so unhappy, Katara wanted to high five them.
She'd heard some other tall tales. Arrluck had been found at the end of the night half-naked with an Earth Kingdom girl, because surprise-surprise...being the possible future leader of a nation was a turn on to a lot of girls. Hahn had struck out horribly with everyone he tried to charm. Ruan-Jian had set his sights on Jin after Katara, but Jin was more tight-lipped about her opinions. Nadhari had apparently gotten so drunk that she became, arguably, nice...but this was one rumor Katara thought was totally ridiculous. She doubted any amount of spirits could make Nadhari a pleasant person.
Aang and Zuko, and whatever their secret plan was, had gone well. Zuko had sat talking to Rasra in the open for about ten minutes before taking him somewhere private. Katara hadn't been stalking Zuko's every move (but then again, she sort of had) and they had been out of the view of the party for at least half an hour, if not more. After they'd exited, Zuko had seemed a mixture between even more wound-up but also pleased? Katara hoped he was planning on telling her, or the group of the secret-keepers soon, because Katara and secrets being kept from her never went well together.
"Welcome back! I hope you enjoyed the beach, ladies," General Iroh said, greeting the group as they arrived, a smile on his face. Katara smiled back. She may not be pleased to be in the same house as Ozai again, but she'd always look forward to the gentleness of Iroh.
"It was a blast!" Toph said honestly, her grin a little bit more mischievous. "Look at how all those girls are stumbling around."
General Iroh laughed. "Lady Bei Fong," he said in a half-serious and half-teasing manner, shaking his head at her.
Zhi elbowed her way to the front, corralling the girls before they could return to their rooms. Zuko, Azula, and the others were able to slip past her. Iroh followed behind Zuko, clasping his nephew on the shoulder, gleefully asking about the weekend.
"Ladies! I know that it's been a long day already, but please quickly drop your items off and meet me back in the Ladies' Area," she said. There was a string of groans that followed, which made Zhi look more frustrated than usual. "Let me remind you all that none of you were forced to partake in alcohol last night, so the fault is merely your own. Perhaps this will be a lesson in decorum and consequences for the future. Now, swiftly!" she said, clapping loudly twice. The sound echoed around the chamber. Nadhari rubbed her temple, sighing loudly at the noise, and Kilee, who had certainly had too much to drink, winced very visibly.
"Consequences for the future," Alcina parroted jokingly in Katara's ear, putting on a ridiculous accent, once Zhi was gone. "Agni, she's serious."
"Well, she is sort of right," Katara said. "On the other hand, it was a party, so…" She made a weighing motion with her hands.
The girls did not hasten swiftly to put their things away. The sober ones deposited their things and walked at a semi-leisurely pace to the Ladies' Room. Those who were less fortunate took their dear sweet time. As she passed one of the bathrooms, Katara spotted Kilee with her head in a basin, moaning.
It was nearly an hour before everyone made it to the room.
"I have made notes of those who were tardy and how long," Zhi said in a clipped tone.
"The horror," Katara side-whispered to Alcina.
"-but moving on, the schedules for the remainder of the trips have been decided. I will be handing out to each of you the trips you have been chosen to attend, so that you can properly plan and make choices about your upcoming time here. Some of the locations may have a project to work on, and you may need to start brainstorming right away." Zhi motioned to Wei, who began to hand out individually scrolled parchment.
"Having your name listed for a future location is not a guarantee of your presence. The Prince may choose to cut any one of you at any time. This is just a best-case plan, pending your continued participation," Zhi added when a couple of the girls began to whisper that they were settled for a location nearly six moons in advance and that had to be near to the end of the Choice.
"Zhi!" Nadhari raised her hand. "What happens if someone, and oh, let's just pick someone randomly, On Ji," she said all at once, which told Katara On Ji had not been targeted randomly, "gets sent home and had dates still listed. Would another girl be put in the place?"
"I cannot confirm or deny that. That is up to Prince Zuko if he wants to fill the roster to capacity again," Zhi said.
Katara unraveled her roll. She wasn't exactly sure, but from the chattering, it seemed like four girls were picked per trip.
Before she could read her own, Toph was waving her sheet in front of her face.
"Sugar Queen, be a dear and read this to me?" she said, not so much a question as much as a command.
Katara rolled her eyes, but unfurled it.
"Just give me the ones that will happen in the next two or three months."
"You don't think you'll be here longer?"
"Okay, hm, it says you're going on two: the trip to Gaoling and the trip to Kyoshi. The Kyoshi one is soon; leaving tomorrow. Then the one to Gaoling is next week. After that, you're good for a while."
Toph frowned. "Ugg."
"Wish you were on more?" Alcina asked.
"Less. I wish I was on none," Toph said, slouching low. "This is hell. I've decided just now."
Katara threw Toph's sheet back at her, sighing. Her friend could be so melodramatic sometimes.
Katara finally unrolled her own sheet. She counted off the number of times she was listed, and eventually switched to the number of trips she wasn't on instead. It seemed that, by and large, most girls were placed on 4-5 trips on average. Katara was on so many more; eight or nine that she could count, just in the 'near' future!
Almost guiltily, Katara folded the slip into a tiny square and wrapped her palm around it. Her first trip was early next week, and then she was going pretty regularly from there. Eventually, the other girls would realize that she was going on a disproportionate number of trips, however, Katara wasn't going to announce it right now.
Not like Nadhari, who was boasting about the numbers she had on her sheet. It ground Katara's teeth to imagine someone like Nadhari nearly matching her numbers, especially since chances were their trips overlapped often. If it was that Nadhari would be gone all the time and Katara here, she could have spun that for herself to be a plus. No Nadhari would be like a vacation in itself. She seemed to be not so lucky.
"Katara, did you notice your final trip?" Ty Lee asked, scooting her chair between Katara and Alcina, shielding her body away. Alcina was talking with Anaselma, and didn't seem to notice.
"Huh?"
"I bet Toph has the same one too," Ty Lee said, tapping Katara's fist. Katara un-creased her paper, looking at the very bottom. She then grabbed Toph's from the floor, holding it close an out of views of others. While most of the writing indicated that someone else had written this, probably Wei, Zuko had managed to grab Ty Lee's, Toph's, and Katara's for a final note at the bottom.
Midnight.
Nothing else needed to be said. It was understood.
XXxxXX
"Every time that we all meet, shit goes down. Expectations are shot out of the water. Truths are brutally revealed," Sokka said as he settled himself on a sack of potatoes, rubbing his eyes tiredly. Shoji snorted, Aang glanced his way and gave a shrug, and Zuko kicked his shin, hoping to wake him up a bit more.
"It's because we're always discussing things that could very easily get us killed," Zuko said in a tight voice. "We're not a group of old men sitting around playing Pai Sho," he added with a scoff.
"Yeah, well," Sokka opened one eye to send a half-glare at Zuko, "This 'Group Without A Snappy Name' gives me anxiety. Guhwasen."
"Gesundheit?" Shoji said, scratching his head.
"No, it's the acronym of the title. GWASN!"
"That's awful," Aang winced.
"Hey, Mister, I don't see you offering up any better solutions!"
"As I said before, a name isn't exactly on our lists of concerns," Zuko snapped.
Sokka just regarded Zuko for a moment before nudging Aang. "Zuko is grumpy," he muttered in a stage-whisper that Zuko could absolutely hear.
Zuko turned away. He had been more irritable of late, and a lot of it was coming from that damned party last night. Yes, a tiny part of it was because he was still hung-over, but a larger part was why he'd drank at the party at all. Seeing those boys fawn over Katara had been infuriating.
It's not that he actually thought Katara liked Ruan-Jian, that had been stupid of him to even ask that. He knew Katara to be of sound enough mind to find him annoying...but a part of him wondered if maybe she didn't? Totally without cause, true, but there was so much Zuko didn't know about her preferences. Was Zuko the norm of who she liked or the antithesis? And, even more than that, it was the first time that Zuko had to watch Katara and imagine she might marry someone else.
And that infuriated him.
He didn't think he owned her, but Zuko knew that he would love her and care for her and give her the entire world if she asked, so it was crazy to him that she'd settle for some asshole who would treat her like a doll or an interesting pet.
It was the first time that he really thought about how after all this, after how much he loved her and how his heart bled at the thought of being without her, he might never actually have her. And worse, she may sail home to the South and he might never see her again.
He was angry when he thought about this.
And he knew, he knew, it wasn't fair to take it out on Katara, or on Aang, or on Sokka. But great Agni, he was young and he didn't claim to know it all or be a perfect master of his emotions. It was the Fire Nation way to hold grudges, lash out, and push everyone else away until it was just you, sitting alone on that cold stone pillar high above everyone else. As much as Zuko fought against this, blood history was hard to shake.
The door opened and shut nearly silently. Zuko glanced and bit back his frustration; it was nearly half an hour past midnight. There were a number of reasons the girls could be late, however, and it would do all of them no good for him to stew about it.
"We're here," Katara whispered silently. "Zhi was patrolling the halls tonight," she said by way of explanation.
As always, it was more than a little cramped all together.
"As well as a name, I think we need a more convenient meeting place," Sokka said as he hauled himself up onto a shelf, ducking his head awkwardly between his shoulders.
"Once again," Zuko exhaled out, "Not our biggest concern."
"I'd hope not! We nearly got caught!" Toph said, crossing her arms. "And you!"
Zuko startled, realizing that Toph was angrily pointing at him.
"Yes, you, Sparky! What's the deal, sending me to Kyoshi and Gaoling?" she said furiously.
"Aren't you from Gaoling?" Shoji asked.
"Shut it, Embers," Toph held up a hand, "I'm talking with the Prince right now."
"You have to go to Gaoling. I know, I couldn't get you off that list," Zuko said. He knew that it would be no fun for him or Toph, but spirits he'd tried. "And I thought you might actually like Kyoshi...you know, it's only the women there who are the warriors."
Toph cracked a knuckle. "Yeah, well," she sniffed, "One place is doing something right I guess."
"It's only for a short trip," Zuko said. "And then, after those two, I believe you aren't on the sheet to go for at least two moons."
"Well okay." Toph crossed her arms. "But don't ask me to like it."
"Noted," Zuko said, letting out a small smile. Toph was furious at him, he should be terrified. Something about her anger relaxed him, even made him laugh.
"Can we get to the actual reason we're here?" Shoji asked, and Zuko realized he'd been furtively checking the entrance every couple of minutes. Every second they all met as a group they were one second closer to being found out.
"Yes. Right." Zuko rubbed his hands together. "I guess I'll come out with it. Aang and I are trying to make some sort of system to sneak Airbenders through wherever they may be - Fire Nation, Earth Kingdom - to a safe place where they cannot be killed. We're not just trying to identify them before Zhao does just to talk to them, we're hoping to make them vanish completely. An underground chain."
Toph brightened. "Underground?"
"Not literally," Aang threw out. "Although…" He rubbed his chin. "Remind me to talk to you later, maybe."
Toph tapped her head. "Noted."
"This won't happen without help," Zuko continued. "Aang and I have been talking about finding like-minded people who aren't in danger themselves to help us smuggle them out. People who will let them stay in basements overnight, let them hide on ships, give them food, give them clothing…" Zuko trailed off. "We need them in a lot of places. We don't want to send the people the same way every time, in case one way becomes compromised."
"Is that why you were looking for that kid? At the party?" Katara asked, understanding dawning. Zuko felt a warmth in his heart. Katara always figured things out quickly.
"Yeah. I'd talked to a shopkeeper on Ember Island who lost her son because he was an airbender, who probably was turned when Dhakiya was. She gave me a list of his best friends who might be willing to help. Obviously, this is always a gamble, because if we get one person who isn't willing to help...or worse, has turned their loyalties…" Aang stared at his hands.
Shoji made a cutting motion across his throat. That summed it up.
"And?" Katara's voice trembled.
"He's in. He thinks he convince his other two friends on the list," Zuko said. "It's in the very early stages, but now that it's been started, we realize it's so much bigger than two people."
"Yeah, sounds like a ton of shit to do," Toph said. Ty Lee was nodding quietly.
"What do you need us to do?" Aiga spoke for the first time.
"Listen," Aang said. "Listen and report back to us. If you hear anything about people who go in trouble because they spoke against Zhao and his crusade, or someone who might have an airbender in the family, let us know. We'll determine if they can help us. No person whom we can have help us is too small of a task. We don't need everyone to throw away everything; if someone can only give food from time to time or donate toys to the children on the run, or even be an ear themselves, that in itself is enough."
There was a silence among the group, a somberness that was not touched by jokes.
"This weekend," Zuko broke the silence, "We think most of the Kyoshi warriors may be able to aid us. I know we've said before that Suki is a person who we could bring into the fold, or maybe on the outside, but having the support of an island would be incredible. While we're on trips, also keep an ear open, since these are all locations that would make sense on the way to take people. I didn't pick them for their natural beauty or food scene."
"Where would they go?" Ty Lee asked.
"Only Zuko knows." Aang shrugged. "But it's safer that way. He had someone to help even before I knew what was going on. It's where Dhakiya is."
"It might not be worth it," Katara spoke slowly. "But the South would always be willing to hide refugees. It might be too hard to get to, or they might notice if ships are going there all the time, but," She exchanged a look with Sokka. He nodded, "My parents would never say no."
"And, pissing off Fire Lord Ozai would probably make my father giddy," Sokka added.
"While we're gone the next two days in Kyoshi, Aang and Zhao don't have any plans, though that may change," Zuko said looking right at Katara. "If it does not, we need to start teaching him waterbending. Earthbending too, but I feel he'll find waterbending easier than earthbending. He's nearly mastered firebending. It's dangerous to do it in the palace, but we can't put it off any longer."
"Of course," Katara agreed immediately. She shared a look with Aang, smiling softly at him. "We'll figure it all out."
Of that, Zuko could be certain. He wracked his brain, and found nothing else he needed to speak to everyone about. He motioned to the door.
"Meeting adjourned. But Aiga, before you leave, can I talk with you?"
XXxxXX
"I'm surprised you managed to get us out of the Palace," Katara said, waving to some townspeople as she walked beside Aang.
"Being a member of the Royal Family has its perks," Aang said, smiling at Katara, "As well as being part of the military."
"Maybe Ozai figured it would be easier to assassinate me away from the palace and had no reason to say no?" Katara offered with a shrug. Aang gave a choked laugh.
"I really shouldn't be laughing, but spirits, Katara."
Zuko had left that morning for Kyoshi Island, along with Suki, Toph, Anaselma, and Maiha. For as much as Toph flopped around and complained about it, it wasn't the worst group to be lumped with. Aang had knocked on her door early that morning, asking if Katara would be open to a trip down to the city with him. As Katara didn't have any previous engagements, and she loved the city, she readily agreed.
"Oh, you know he'd love to get me out of the competition," Katara gently shoved Aang's arm.
"Yeah, like just have you cut." Aang rolled his eyes.
"I think you severely underestimate him," Katara said, but at least she could laugh about it now. "He hates every inch of me."
"I'd say we should toast to that," Aang said quietly, keeping his expression bright as he waved to some more gawking common people.
Katara understood from last night that this was not just a cute little trip to the shops in the middle circle. It was more, but to what extent she didn't know. It wasn't exactly safe to talk about, however.
Their day could have been split into three distinct parts, Katara would later consider.
The first; Aang led Katara deftly through the maze of streets with a familiarity that Katara was honestly surprised to see. It was the sort of confidence that Zuko had here from his nights of the Blue Spirit.
"When I first came, the palace was stifling. I wasn't the crown prince, so I was allowed outside often," Aang said.
They went to three doors, one in each of the levels. At each one, Katara and Aang were invited inside, but Katara was left out of the main conversation. She made polite conversation with whoever was left behind: a wife, a brother, a young daughter. She accepted tea in whatever form they were offering.
In the high level, the wife boasted about how specifically curated the tea leaves were, how delicately they were wrapped, how flavorful every mouthful was, to which Katara had no disagreements about. It was quite good tea.
The brother in the middle level had a standard tin of oolong, nothing special added in, and packed in bulk. He had a teacup that was mostly clean, while he himself drank from one with a small chip on the rim.
The daughter in the lower rim offered, but Katara graciously denied. Their tea was in a box, a box not meant for tea at that, and as the daughter made herself some, she used a quarter of what was usually used in a medium-strength brew.
Katara had a feeling what was happening behind those doors, but a part of her wished to join. She didn't want to be so arrogant to talk ad nauseum about her skills in politics and handling different people, but she did feel as though she was specifically qualified for helping get this secret passage off the ground. She was more than a pretty face in the competition, which Zuko knew, and she was almost sure Aang knew.
This wasn't her project, so Katara said nothing, despite how desperately she wanted to be in the room too.
"Success?" Katara asked when Aang announced they were done for the day, "All?"
"Of sorts." Aang rubbed his neck. "I didn't want to push my luck, although there's about eight more people either Zuko or I need to try to talk to. Three was ambitious enough as it was."
"And?" Katara pressed. If Aang was going to use Katara as his excuse to get out of the Palace, she wanted to know what he was doing.
"The first family was very willing. They were friends with Dhakiya's father, you see. He gave us their name specifically. They have houses - two vacation houses - they are willing to let us use, as well as their location in the city. The people we just visited were going to give me anything I needed for the cause, but I haven't decided to what extent I'll use them. They have so little to begin with."
"And the middle people?" Katara asked, recalling that the brother had been kind.
"Afraid, rightfully so." Aang knit his eyebrows. "They did not...they didn't say no, not exactly. They just asked that they be a last resort, not a common contact."
A part of Katara flashed in anger. They had so much to give, and were willing to only give on occasion? Poorer people would give Aang anything, as it should be! But, after a second, she relaxed her shoulders. It was easy for Katara, who already hated Ozai and whose tribe was autonomous, to offer help, but it was harder to rebel against the man who could very easily have you killed for sneezing his direction.
"We should get lunch. Shop," Aang suggested.
"As a cover?"
"Because I want to," Aang chuckled. "Not everything is always so...calculated." She forgot she was not talking with Zuko or with Sokka sometimes. Aang was much simpler, a refreshing perspective.
They ate lunch at a place that served mostly Northern Water Tribe cuisine, chatting lightly about a lot of things that were safe and unconnected to any of their looming issues at hand, and mostly that ended up being about the other girls in the competition. Katara wasn't looking to be catty, and that wasn't in Aang's nature, so it was honestly about the weekend they'd just had and what ones Aang had started to become friends with.
Then, they started meandering through the shops.
"I'd like to, if possible, stop at a weapons store."
"Why?"
"Well," Katara crossed her arms, "We only have an all-important duel coming up against the Royal Family in 12 days...where you will also be participating."
Aang blushed. "Yeah, that, right."
Waterbending was a given for her, and Katara had done enough with fans to feel like she might write that as a secondary weapon. Suki had already offered her a gilded pair, saying that Kyoshi Island would be honored to have Katara practice their form.
She wanted something else though.
Sokka's lessons were still continuing, and Katara was still sitting in the shade and taking notes. Sokka was much better with swords than she was, but Katara was learning. She knew that Sokka would get his own at the end of this, but Katara had to find one for herself. And, if bloodbending was not going to be her third option, she needed a sword. She couldn't put something down that may not even work the day of. No, better to stick with things that she knew would work. She may not be a master at a sword, but she knew what end to stick people with, and she knew that they consistently did cause damage.
The shop they found was mostly empty. The store manager bustled right up to Aang first, until Aang explained with a small blush that it was actually Katara who was interested. The man blanched a bit, but then noticing her nice clothes and how she politely stood by Aang's side, decided she was still worth the money to be welcoming to.
Katara would have gone elsewhere, had there not been such a wide selection for her.
She took her dear sweet time weighing swords in her hand, testing out pommels and cutting small fruits that were brought out to test the sharpness. She probably could have gone a bit faster with her selection, but Katara first wanted to be absolutely sure this was her weapon and secondly, she enjoyed seeing the manager check the time thrice.
By the time they left, Katara had chosen a rather pricey, but very well-made, sword that had sapphires inlaid on the hilt. It wasn't necessary for her to have the glamour of gemstones, and would have been happy from a standard metal handle, but it did remind her of her home. The sword itself had been the most balanced in her hand, and while was a smidge shorter than what she'd seen Sokka swipe around, would suit her better.
Twelve days. It seemed so far away, yet so close at the same time. In that time, she'd practice relentlessly with this, along with her waterbending, so she at least had two weapons that she had no fear in using.
Aang carried her sword for her, like a gentleman, and also because he had an open sheath. He'd opted to leave his own weapon in the palace, for Katara knew he hated ever having to use it.
Katara was talking on about the competition, and how her and Suki had been preparing, when suddenly Aang was no longer beside her. She turned once and saw him vanishing into a store a couple of feet behind her.
"Kuzon!" she scolded, "Tell me before you just vanish! You step so quietly I didn't even notice you were gone." She sighed, but Aang wasn't listening anymore.
Katara took a chance to look around. It was a high-end pet store, and the scent of animals hit Katara all at once. She sneezed, wiping her nose. She hadn't really taken Aang as a person who liked pets, considering he was anti-meat. As it was, he was looking at the cages the animals paced in with a mixture of displeasure and sadness.
She wondered if he had the urge to free them all, as Katara did.
Something had to have caught his eye, as this was hardly the first pet store they'd passed.
Katara felt her eye wandering around. She saw a couple animals from the Water Tribe, including an Arctic Hen. She snorted.
"You know we eat these in the South, right?" Katara asked the woman at the register, pointing to the beady-eyed bird.
"Yes! But there are a great many nobles who enjoy a pet that's a bit more...interesting. While we have your average pets, we specialize in ones that are harder to find," she said with a broad smile.
Katara bent down, eye to eye with the Arctic Hen. Those things were, by far, some of the dumbest animals Katara had ever met. Far be it from her to stop an uppity Fire Nation noble from purchasing an animal no smarter than a pet rock.
She straightened, following Aang farther into the store.
He was standing in front of a cage of an animal that was making a lot of noise. Katara wasn't sure what it was. It had a lean body, sort of like a cat or ferret, but the coloring - cream and brown - was strange. Its ears were also humongous, fit on an animal twice its size. And, as it moved its little arms, she saw wings bridging from its arms down to its body.
"Kuzon?" Katara asked, putting a hand on his shoulder. Aang jumped, as though he hadn't completely been there, mentally, in the shop.
"This winged lemur," Aang said, spinning around, a desperation in his eyes Katara had never seen. "How much."
"This?" The shopkeeper asked, patting the bottom of the cage. "He is very expensive-"
"How much?" Aang said, snapping her off uncharacteristically.
"1,350 gold."
Katara blew out, coughing hard as she inhaled dust. "Are you crazy?" she asked, "For a...flying house cat?"
"Winged lemur," both Aang and the shopkeeper corrected together.
"He is, as of right now, the last of his kind," she said simply.
"Where did you find him?" Aang asked, eyes shining with hurt, reaching out. While the lemur snapped at the woman, he seemed to move toward Aang, reaching out his little paws for his finger.
"Near Whale-Tale Island. It took me months to classify him, as no one has seen these lemurs in nearly 116 years."
Katara felt sick looking at the animal. She couldn't confirm it, but she felt deep in her heart that this animal had to have been at the air temples, and most of its kind was probably wiped out with the people. If that dust could kill people, it likely killed all the animals too.
"I'll take it," Aang said. Katara's eyes bugged.
The woman looked at Aang dubiously.
"Sir, are you sure?"
"I will take him. Today." Aang's voice, while even, was burning with an anger that Katara had only heard when he talked about the slaughter of his people.
Aang took out his money and began to count. When he did not have enough in his pouch, and refused to leave without the animal even to return to the palace for more, he began taking off pieces of jewelry or prestige from his person, and gave them to Katara, instructing her to go and barter them away.
"Are they yours to give?" Katara asked, running her finger over a golden dragon ring.
"Yes, Princess Katara, and please hurry."
In the end, Aang walked out of there with that lemur, after selling nearly every item worth anything off his body. Katara would have sold a necklace too, and her sword back, but Aang insisted this was his to take care of.
"Will you be wanting the cage, sir?"
"Cage? Of course not!" Aang replied, horrified.
"He is a little...well, he's tried to escape every time he's out of it," The shopkeeper said uneasily. "I would not suggest-"
The words died in her throat as Aang unclasped the cage and the lemur jumped onto Aang's shoulders. It would not be budged.
"We will not be needing the cage," Aang all but spat.
Outside, Aang rubbed under the chin of the animal, offering it some nuts he had in his pocket.
"He's from an Air Temple, isn't he?" Katara asked quietly.
"He is. I thought them all dead...like the world probably thought me," Aang whispered.
Katara hesitantly reached out to pet the animal. It seemed to recognize Katara as a fellow friend, and allowed her to rub its soft ears.
"But there's more of you," Katara said. "So, I wouldn't count out more of him quite yet. Do you have a name?"
Aang held out his arm, and the lemur skittered around his clothes, before settling out the outstretched appendage.
"Momo."
Katara smiled. "Well, hello there, Momo."
Momo blinked at her, making a small chirping noise, before crawling back up to Aang's shoulders.
Aang squinted at the sky. "We have one more place I have secured for us. We'll still have time today, I think."
It was an empty room near the docks. Aang explained that areas like this could be rented out for anything: storage, wild parties, a secret rendezvous...but Zuko had had the idea to buy it for them to practice bending, at least for the next two moons.
Aang set Momo down near the door, along with a bag of fruit he'd bought along the way, and helped Katara drag in a tin of water.
"Before we begin, can I try something on you first?" Katara asked.
"That sounds weird."
"It's not." Katara paused. "Okay, it is. It doesn't have a name, I don't think, but I've been trying to bend blood…" She began to ramble a little bit, she admitted, to Aang about how she'd realized blood was a water-based liquid and if she could manipulate it, just if, it might swing her win in the competition.
She'd been practicing in her room, late at night, at flies and spiders on her porch. It was easy for her to control a small insect now. Humans? Much harder. If she could control a whole hoard of flies to sicc on Ozai, that would be one thing...as it was, she wasn't even sure she could control more than one fly! She would need intense practice, but she wasn't sure she could pull it off in the time left. Since, well, it sort of needed a secondary participant.
Aang's face darkened.
"I dunno Katara," he said, shaking his head. "That seems a little...bad. To control other's arms and legs and everything? It leaves a weird taste in my mouth thinking about it."
"But think, Aang! I could win the fight like that," Katara snapped her fingers, "And neither me - nor whoever I fight - would need to get needlessly hurt! In battle, I could save people by disarming fighters! I could-"
"Probably make someone turn their own sword on themselves if you wanted, make someone's hand slit their own throat," he snarled furiously.
Katara broke off, taking a step back at his harsh words. "I would never!"
"You say that now." Aang squared his shoulders. "But a power that strong, that intoxicating, will ruin even the best of people."
"And you're exempt from that?" Katara threw out her arms. "You, who will one day master all four elements? That's more powerful than bending blood!"
"Do not be so ignorant to think I am not tempted! Avatars have wrought awful things for what they thought was right!" Aang replied back with the same tone. "I spent my entire life learning how to mediate, learning how to keep my emotions in check, and there are times I still am almost overwhelmed! Never think it is easy for me."
"I didn't say that!" Katara said, seeing for the first time how much he acted like Zuko.
"I won't let you. I cannot help you with that," Aang said resolutely, shaking his head.
Katara clenched her fists. The barrels overflowed onto the ground.
"Fine," she bit out, "I won't force you."
There was silence. Katara snapped her wrist, lifting most of the water from the ground and back into the buckets.
She exhaled hard.
"Okay, do you know any waterbending?" Her voice was soft, because after all, she had asked him his thoughts on bloodbending. He had the right to disagree. She disliked his implication, but there was little she could do about that right now.
Aang blinked, wincing. Katara moved to help Aang into the first stance.
Notes:
So, yes, I've been gone awhile.
Part of the problem is that I just can't seem to write the next chapter. It's not that I'm not totally excited about this story, because I still am- I've been doing a TON of traditional art as well as aesthetic boards- so I can tell I'm still super into it. And I'm so excited to write some of the upcoming stuff. It's just the new chapter...every time I go to write it, it just turns out bad? Like, trust me, really bad.
I think I just need some motivations. Some of my best motivation come from reading other really good fic because it makes me want to get back out there and contribute! So if you could drop me the names of your favorite one-shot or multi-chap, I'd greatly appreciate it, and hopefully that will kick my butt back into gear!
Chapter 16
Notes:
A new chapter? In my inbox today? It's more likely than you think!
Hey everyone, sorry for such the LONG time away. Summer has been hectic between grad school, work, and a trip to Peru! I really wanted to get this chapter out before I leave for a long weekend, so I will answer reviews later as well as thank you all at the beginning chapter of the next time for being such awesome people! I just figured you all would rather have the chapter than wait for it :)
But who we all really need to thank is my beta hepchaton! I sent her this new chapter and she sent it back in record time. So, if you're pleased you're reading this, know that it's hepchaton for being just such an awesome human!
Enjoy!
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Chapter Text
Aang scratched Momo's ear as they wandered around the palace.
"-And you see here, buddy, this is a picture of Avatar Roku. The only one that I think is left of him, anyway. He kind of…" Aang sighed. "Well, Fire Lord Azulon and he had a falling out."
A falling out? Roku's voice was scathing, furious. You call leaving me to my death a falling out? That pompous little-
"Right, he's talking a lot right now," Aang whispered under his breath to his new familiar, in reference to Roku's ranting. "But...shhh...that's me...before." He knew that Mono didn't have the ability to hear inside Aang's very crowded head, but Momo also didn't have the vocal cords to talk like a human, so Aang wasn't concerned about sharing his little secret. Even if Momo wasn't hearing what Aang was hearing, Aang could give a play-by-play. It felt good to unload his constant stream of consciousness onto someone else. He'd feel bad if he sought out Ty Lee all the time. Even Aang felt as though he could use a break from this. Since that did not seem like it would be happening soon, Momo as a confidant was the best new choice.
Aang stretched his arm out, and Momo scurried to the edge of his outstretched hand, his little black nose inches from the canvas. It was an old picture, hidden in the depths of the palace, in a place where not many would see it.
"I think Ursa insisted on keeping it," Aang said, smiling softly. Ursa had always made him feel so welcome. The truth was, at this point, Aang no longer recalled his mother's face. He wasn't even sure if the name he had was her real name. He recalled the name 'Liyah', but that didn't mean it was actually hers. It could have been the name of any female Air Nomad who showed him kindness. Sure, he'd left her when he was hardly weaned, but he still thought that maybe she would have came to him in dreams. Maybe it had, 100 years ago.
By this point, he couldn't recall. Whenever he tried to think of his mother, Ursa's face would morph onto the body of an Air Nomad woman instead.
She may be quiet and reserved, but Aang knew that she would protect him as fiercely as though he were her own fire-cub, just as she did for Azula and Zuko. He couldn't imagine her renouncing him if the truth ever came out. Maybe, because he was connected to her grandfather in a way, she'd enjoy it even more.
Momo placed a tiny paw to faded paint, before turning to Aang. Aang had only had this little guy for about two days, but already he was starting to feel slightly unnerved by him at some times. Not that he didn't adore this animal to bits, but there were times he was absolutely sure that Momo...was looking at him. Really looking at him, as though he understood everything.
But he was just a lemur, right?
…Right?
"And, that's basically my family, I guess. Like you, I uh...don't have much. Or not my people anymore," Aang said. "We're similar in that way, huh?"
Momo made a chirping sound, something that Aang interpreted as sympathy. Momo rubbed his head on Aang's shoulder.
"Anyway," Aang said, trying to brighten. "You must be hungry, little guy. It's been hours since breakfast. We'll go into the kitchens. I'm sure they have some fantastic fruit already cut. Sometimes, being a Fire Nation Royal Cousin has its perks," Aang said, winking.
Momo crawled onto Aang's head, which seemed to be his place of choice. Aang liked to think it was because Momo enjoyed watching everything and needed a good vantage point. It was also the easiest leaping place, though Momo had clung close to Aang since arriving back at the palace, which was for the best, truly. Aang was more than a little protective over him.
As far as he knew, Momo was the last flying lemur around. He was tempted to add on, like himself, but then recalled he wasn't the last airbender out there. He was the last one that hailed directly from an Air Temple, but that was just semantics. An airbender was an airbender.
Nature always has a way of balancing itself, Yangchen reminded him gently, Whenever there is an absence, something else will spring up. It may not be the same, but the spirit of it is. The Avatar cycle should have taught you that.
Her tone was not scolding, but a reminder. While each Avatar was, physically, a different person, they all had the same literal spirit within them. It made even Aang's head hurt if he thought about it too much!
Aang thought about this as he walked through the halls, watching Momo's tail swish in front of his face. He had never thought there'd be more airbenders, unless he created them himself. Maybe there would never be this exact lemur again, but who knows where a similar flying marsupial would return? The world was always changing. Always in motion, never stagnant.
Aang waved to the chefs in the kitchen, who smiled jovially at him and waved back in between flipping noodles and chopping meat.
"There he is! The little creature that the whole palace is talking about," the lead chef said, reaching out to scratch Momo's chin.
"The whole palace?" Aang wasn't sure if he liked that.
"Well," The chef rested the fist holding his oversized knife on his waist, "Besides Lady Ursa's turtle ducks, the last actual Royal Pet we had was...oh, was it the racoon-collie? Back when the Royal Children were six and eight?" He scratched his chin.
"No, no," a line-worker piped up, "Remember? Princess Azula had the mouse-canary when she was twelve!"
"That one, yes." The chef furrowed his eyebrows. "I can't believe I forgot about that adorable little thing."
"Well, it didn't stick around very long. Or should I say last very long," a different line-chef snorted, "Because-"
Whatever he'd been about to say was cut off quickly, like something had choked in his throat. Aang was almost sure that he could feel the air being sucked out of the kitchen, like some evil spirit had crept through the walls.
"He was a sickly thing, tragic," Azula's calm voice seemed to cut through the area, despite the hissing of the food, the noises from the pots, and the squealing of the kettle. When she spoke, it seemed even inanimate objects quieted.
The head chef made a face that showed he didn't think that was quite it, but changed expressions before Azula saw. Aang wanted to stuff Momo in his shirt, away and safe from Azula.
"Well, we don't pay you to just stand there," Azula said through a narrowed glare. The kitchen burst back into work, double-time, to show the crown Princess that they deserved their jobs. The workers were still silent, sans the necessary noises from their preparing.
Aang grabbed a bowl with an assortment of fruits, hoping to make a quick exit. Unfortunately, Azula had no such plans to allow him to do so.
"Come, Kuzon? Aren't you going to introduce me?" she asked, blinking at him.
Aang weighed his choices quickly and carefully. After a long moment, he outstretched his arm, but Momo refused to budge. In fact, he stayed close to Aang, hissing and chattering at Azula. If an animal could express disgust and hatred, he was pretty sure Momo was doing it.
"Sorry, he's been like that with everyone. I think he has a natural distrust of most people," Aang lied quickly. He had horrible thoughts of Azula killing Momo in the night for the pet's insolence, or something equally as terrible.
In reality, Momo hadn't been like this to all. In fact, when Iroh had bustled into Aang's study to meet the newest member of the Royal Family, Momo had climbed over Uncle Iroh like a tree, poking and prodding every bit of him. At first, Aang had been tripping over himself to apologize, but Iroh had just laughed.
"He's just curious, and it's likewise," he had said, patting Momo's ears. "We find each other quite the fascinating species."
If Momo were giving out seals of approvals, Iroh was one of the recipients. Azula was clearly not.
Many animals can sense goodness in people, Gopan said, And I would trust an animal's instincts over humans. Like crows! Did you know that crows-
No one wants to hear about your blasted birds, Gopan, Kuruk groaned. But I have to agree. We would be wise to take cues from the world around us. It's usually telling us something important.
"Of course." Azula pulled back, trying not to look offended. Still, Aang could tell she was frustrated. "Well, I'm sure in time it will come around."
"Yes, absolutely," Aang said, another lie. He never lied as much as when he was around Azula.
Azula hesitated. No, she lingered. Aang looked her up and down; she had a letter in her hand. His own curiosity won him over, plus the fact he was almost sure Azula wanted him to ask.
"What's that?"
"Oh, this?" Azula raised the letter like she'd somehow forgotten it was there. "I was just picking this up from the Royal Post. It's from Chan."
"From Ember Island?" Aang wracked his brain.
Azula brushed a piece of her bangs from her forehead with two fingers. "Yes. He's absolutely besotted with me." To someone who hadn't spent a great deal of time getting to know Azula - and most didn't - they may have interpreted her expression as disinterest. However, Aang knew that if Azula was even making a point to not burn his letter immediately, there was a genuine interest on her part.
Plus, he'd also overhead that moment under the porch.
Aang nodded, offering a true smile.
Aang hoped for goodness for and from everyone. He hoped that Chan made Azula happy, made her feel completed. He hoped that she got the opportunity to enjoy falling in love with someone that truly liked her, and he had to admit Chan did.
Azula - much like Zuko - had grown up far too fast, the weight of a whole world on their shoulders. In this, Aang felt a kinship. He didn't think that there was much else he shared with Azula, but on this, he understood. He knew how it felt to be expected to be an adult when you hardly knew how to be a kid.
To be honest, this was something he shared with everyone in his put-together little group. Katara and Sokka had been fighting a war against the Fire Nation since they'd been born to protect their own people. Toph had had to advocate for herself and her blindness without her parents. Ty Lee left her own family to find her own path. Aiga had to step up to provide for her family by working at the Palace. And Shoji did something similar, but by starting at the fighting pits…
That was perhaps why they were so closely-knit. They all knew what it meant to have stress and responsibility much bigger than any one person. Aang considered, briefly, that in another world, one where something had gone differently, Azula might have been a fantastic addition to their band of misfits. But Aang wasn't sure if there was anything in the world that could have changed Azula's personality. Maybe if everything had been different, everything would have still been the same. Some people just...just were.
"He's written twice already. What can I say? I guess I just...enchant people." Azula waved the letter around. Someone in the kitchen line made a sound that he covered up with a cough. Aang internally winced and hoped he wasn't about to lose his job over that. However, Azula didn't seem to notice.
"Are you going to write him back?" Aang was almost sure that Azula wanted someone to talk to. He wondered why she wasn't talking to Mai. Aang knew her friendship with Ty Lee had been flagging, but there was still the surly sharp-thrower left, wasn't there?
"I haven't decided," Azula said, and Aang knew she meant that.
What was Azula looking for in someone, other than...oh, what had she said? 'Someone to stand by her?' That surely couldn't just be it. Chan didn't seem like the best guy Aang had ever met, but maybe Azula needed someone a little slower, a little less ambitious. Someone to temper her.
"Kuzon?"
"Hmm?" Aang asked absently, holding out a handful of grapes and orange slices for Momo to choose from.
Azula leaned over the prep table, examining Aang. Her face was soft, just for the quickest flash of a second. Aang didn't shiver, though that was his gut reaction. Then, it was the usual calculating coolness that she was so well known for, the look she got when she was about to kick Lu Ten's butt at Pai Sho or the tilt of her head when she was finding someone's biggest insecurity to knock someone down a peg.
"How closely related are we?"
Aang snapped his fist shut, swallowing once. He stopped himself from jerking back, but couldn't stop the frown that came over his face.
Careful, young one, Kasata hissed in his mind, This has to be a trap.
Yes, Aang knew this, but he wasn't sure how.
"You know this, Azula," Aang said first, trying to buy himself time to figure out where this was coming from.
"Oh," Azula sighed, twirling a strand of her hair around. "Remind me?"
It hit Aang with a burst of clarity: she had to know something. She had to be questioning his fabricated lineage, trying to trip him up, prove he wasn't really who he said he was. This was a test.
This is very important, Katsata said, as though he needed to be reminded.
Aang leaned forward too, placing his hands in front of him on the table, twined.
"Fourth cousin, once removed," Aang replied softly. "We share a set of great-great-great grandparents. Fire Lord Tai."
Azula held his gaze for a second. Aang wasn't wrong. He knew he wasn't wrong. He could recite the whole darn lineage. He knew every weird cousin squirreled away, every illegitimate bastard, every strange ancestor, every stitch in the tapestry.
Azula chuckled. "Yes, that was it. Of course." She looked away.
"Uh-huh," Aang said, still not sure if he was out of the woods with this.
"I suppose calling you 'Fourth Cousin, Once Removed Kuzon' would be a bit of a mouthful, right?" she continued, standing and rolling out her shoulders. "Thank Agni you're in the military now, so we can just call you Guardsman Kuzon, if one is so inclined."
"You can just call me Kuzon," Aang said softly.
Kasata was still rambling on about watching oneself, about traps and pitfalls, and while Aang wasn't ignoring him, but he also wasn't paying attention. Azula was absolutely expressionless as she gave Aang one final look-over.
"Yes," she said simply, "I know."
XXxxXX
At the arrival of the docks to Kyoshi Island, Zuko wasn't sure who sprinted off of the ship quicker; Toph or Suki. Had it been a race, it would have been neck and neck. Toph may have won out by a smidgen, though. Suki's desire to hug her family again was no match for Toph's intense hatred of boats.
Zuko hung back until it was just himself and his crew, allowing the other two ladies, the servants, and guards to disembark first.
There was a sizeable envoy waiting for him at the edge of the island.
Toph had already flung off her slippers, holding them in her fingers but looking like she'd like to chuck them far into the sea. Maiha was standing obediently in line. Anaselma stood next to her, but her eyes were darting all over, as though trying to absorb every inch of the area. Suki had been engulfed in a group hug, but managed to detach herself reluctantly to come by the Prince.
From the gathered people, a withered but stern looking woman approached them.
"Honorable Prince Zuko," she said, bowing. Not all the way down, not as far down as his father would have liked if he were here, but enough to show an acknowledgement.
"Governor Riki," Zuko bowed back. He'd only met the woman once or twice in his lifetime. She disliked leaving the island and often only sent missives with her opinion, something he knew his father usually burned. He laughed at the 'silly Islanders', with their female-chosen leader. Zuko thought it was often irresponsible of Ozai to discount her; Riki was an imposing figure, no matter her gender.
"If you are not too weary from your travels, I figure we may as well get this political fuss out of the way." Riki waved a hand.
Zuko gave a firm shake of his head. "I am quite able to discuss right now. My ladies might want to settle a little...erm, some of them," he said, catching Toph's roll of her eyes.
"Of course. We have set up a very lovely set of rooms for the five of you, and of course your workers. If you please?" She led them through the fields that was the outskirts, into the heart of the village.
The city looked clean, though Zuko was not sure if it was kept to a usual status and shine or they had cleaned it for his arrival. In the middle of the city was the towering statue of Kyoshi. Zuko wished Aang were here; he knew how he would adore this. Kyoshi was one of his favorite past selves.
Zuko also wished Katara was here, but he was trying not to think about that.
He'd originally had her on this trip. He knew that she'd be enchanted by the female warriors and would have taken to the culture with gusto. It was only when Lu Ten examined the list and pointed out that Katara was on many more than the others that Zuko had been forced to cull her trips a bit.
"Your preference is showing, Zu," Lu Ten had said, a long sigh, but yet a hint of a smile.
It was difficult. The truth was, Zuko could easily imagine Katara on his arm arriving to all of these locations. There wasn't a single place on the docket that he thought she'd turn her nose up to or find boring. Even if it wasn't the fanciness of the Palace, Katara would probably still feel fine there, unlike certain girls, who he was unsure couldn't survive without a private bath.
Of course, if Katara just said 'yes', she'd be coming on all these trips as the Fire Lady.
Before Zuko could ruminate more on Katara, a lithe figure broke from the villagers.
"Oh! I'd wanted to meet you down at the docks, I'm so sorry!"
Suki went to hug Andica first. She embraced the younger warrior in her arms, smiling into her head. It made sense that the two had bonded at the Palace, perhaps more than if they'd both remained here.
"Andi!" Maiha cried, pleased as punch to see one of her close friends. It wasn't just Maiha's new interest in non-bending fighting techniques that had prompted Zuko to put her on this list. Zuko took pride in the idea that he knew the girls fairly well.
A couple of the villagers were motioning for the rest of the group to follow them. Andica was talking a mile a minute to Maiha about everything that had happened since she returned home, and Maiha was clambering over her to do the same. Just before she turned to leave, she looked at Zuko.
"Awe, come here," Zuko broke down, opening his arms.
Andica came to his embrace easily, hugging him firmly around the center.
"Don't get me wrong, I've missed the palace, but it's also nice to be home," she assured Zuko. Zuko grinned.
"I miss you as well. It's a bit quieter without you there."
"Andica!" An older Kyoshi Warrior sharply called her. She blew a quick kiss to Zuko before bounding off. She may be dressed as a more seasoned Kyoshi now, but Zuko was pleased to see the bounce in her step had not been left behind.
It was just Governor Riki and Zuko at the doors to the Village Hall now. Riki was giving Zuko an absolutely judgmental look, one Zuko saw on Azula often.
"You claim to have missed her, yet you sent her home?"
Riki had offered two of her girls for the competition. She was as interested in the outcome as anyone.
Zuko watched the young girl go.
"I did. We were simply not compatible, but I do care for her." He thought adding 'as only a sister' wouldn't have helped him, so he kept it out. He truly did want to see Andica thrive, grow up. He had considered that even with maturity, she wouldn't have been the girl for him. He was sure that one day she'd find someone wonderful, but they both knew by the end that it wasn't him.
Riki led him into the conference hall. A server near the door offered him tea as he approached. Zuko nodded his acceptance, waiting to see where Riki would sit before choosing the seat across from her.
He took out his little scroll, which tallied the exact imports and exports from Kyoshi Island. They hadn't been able to meet the standards of grain that they'd set forth; however, it seemed like fish was plentiful. He wondered idly if Riki intended to negotiate some sort of agreement concerning this? While the Fire Nation had their own fish in the sea, there was a particular one that only swam near this area, so Zuko was positive he could convince his father that it was a worthy trade.
"So, your corn…" Zuko began, but broke off uncertaintly when Riki began to laugh in the corner. He looked up; first of all surprised that anyone would be laughing at the dauphin, but secondly just straight-up confused.
"Forgive me, my prince, but I...you imagined I wanted to talk about crops?" she said, fixing Zuko with a look that made him feel like he was in front of the Royal Tutor and he'd given a horribly erroneous answer.
"What do you want to speak of, then?" Zuko recovered easily enough, setting down the scroll.
"Why, the most important export thus so far," Riki said like it was clear. After a beat, a withered smile. "Suki, my boy."
"Suki, as in, the contestant?"
"Would you not say she is an export?" Riki questioned quietly.
"I would say she's a person," Zuko snapped, furious at her nonchalance toward admitting to utilizing Suki. He was half-convinced, in that moment, to find a way for Suki to remain at the palace so that she would not have to return to a land where it thought so little of her!
Riki hummed. "My, yes, I had forgotten how emotional you Royals were. You may think it heartless of me, I think of it as pragmatics," Riki said. "And before you burn down this very hall we sit in, let me riddle you this. Why would I send a girl who, admittedly, didn't have much going for her, except for her looks - but I see now that did not work. Why would we send one of our most formidable girls to this circus your father calls an Illustrious Competition if we did not expect something in return? So she could have a 'good time'?" Riki scoffed. "You must not be as intelligent as they claim if you think anyone sent a girl out of the goodness of their heart. Everyone wants something."
"What do you want, then?" Zuko asked bluntly.
"For Suki to win, of course. Shall we discuss how to best make that happen?" Riki said. Zuko felt uncomfortable shift in his stomach. He hated talking about Suki, or any of the girls, like they were tagged cattle. Suki was so much more: strong, intelligent, kind.
"That is a choice for me to make myself. But rest assured, Suki is in no danger of being cut anytime soon," he said. He was walking an impossible line here. On one hand, he didn't want to give Riki any information. But on the other, he did not want to dishonor Suki by pretending as though she wasn't as high up in his thoughts as she truly was.
"And yet, once again, you have not picked a wife. Curious," Riki said slowly. "Is there anything she could do to perhaps make the choice a bit more clear?"
"Suki would never-"
"Suki would do what it took to win. That's why she was chosen," Riki said, waving a tired hand. It put a doubt in Zuko's stomach. For every moment that he felt a true connection with Suki, had she just been playing him? Reading him and doing exactly what she thought he wanted? Wouldn't Katara have warned him of that? If Riki thought she was doing the girl a service, how wrong she honestly was.
"I can see I've darkened your mind," Riki said at once, her face frowning with a hint of true emotion. "That had not been my intention. I am asked to guide my people, and sometimes that has made me hardened. Suki does care for you, make no mistake there. While she is a warrior with a cause, she is also a girl with a heart and while you may be a bit... softer," Riki said after a moment of deliberation over the word, "of a man than I imagined her to marry, I also would not have been opposed."
"She keeps you well-informed of her plot, then?" Zuko couldn't help but spit out, feeling angry and tricked.
"Has she never told you? I'm her godmother, and her sole guardian now that her parents are dead."
Zuko inhaled, but he couldn't suck in air enough. Suki was an orphan? Riki was her godmother? In all of the times they'd talked, it had never come up, not once. And she'd spoken about her parents - but now that he thought about it, there had always been a hint of wistfulness tinging the edges of her voice, a longing and a soft remembrance. True, she'd never said it out loud, but she'd said it in her own way. And, the information was most assuredly on the info packets of the girls, but apparently Zuko had never taken the time to commit such a thing to his memory. Had he always just been too busy with Katara to notice Suki, a quiet girl alone in the world, probably mourning deeply at times, and he'd never even thought to ask?
"It was unexpected to be asked to godparent her, at first, but she has been a true light in my life," Riki said, a smile glowing momentarily on her face. "And my husband adored her, bless his late soul. Suki was named after him. His name was Suko."
"Was it?" Zuko managed to choke out, still reeling.
"Extraordinary how close your names were, is it not? Just one changed letter." Riki's fingernails tapped on the table top. "And how melodic your name and Suki's name sounds when they are said together."
"Governor Riki-" Zuko began, trying to hold back a groan.
"Do you believe in fate, Prince Zuko?"
Zuko was once again thrown off. If meeting with dignitaries was usually a calm boat ride, as he had perfected the careful art of it, meeting with Governor Riki was like trying to guide a dingy in a raging, unforgiving storm.
"Do I believe in…" Zuko gave a quiet laugh. It was such a change of pace, difference of topic. "I don't believe so, not quite," he said. If fate were truly kind, his father would be kinder. The airbenders would not have suffered such a horrendous end. The world wouldn't need to be balanced, fate would have done so. "I mean, I believe in spirits and their strange connection to the world. What I don't prescribe to is some red string connecting individuals or a path pre-laid out for us. I like to imagine that I choose my own path as I walk it, that I'm not just ordained to go somewhere from the beginning," he explained hastily, now that he was asked, unable to stop talking.
"Well, I most certainly do," Riki said.
"And you believe it fate for me and Suki to marry?" Zuko raised a disbelieving eyebrow. "Because two names happened to share two letters, when both names are not uncommon to begin with? If that's true, I should be having a Prince's Choice only with girls whose fathers have a grouping of similarity to my name. I assure you, I would have more girls than I would know what to do with."
"Maybe I'm an old romantic," Riki informed him. Zuko stifled a snort. Yeah. He doubted that.
"Governor, you said that Suki was at the Choice specifically. Would you be at liberty to share why?" he asked, inserting as much sarcasm as he could entirely manage.
"There is a need."
"And what...what precipitates this bad of a need?"
Riki got up. She walked along the collection of pictures on the walls, intricate and brilliantly-colored ink drawings showing Avatar Kyoshi. Zuko knew the stories of her, through Aang. Aang adored his Earth Kingdom past-self, and in the early days had chatted nonstop about her. Kyoshi was nowhere to be found in the Fire Nation curriculum, but that didn't surprise Zuko.
"We have nearly always been a sovereign island, even slipped from under the thumb of the Earth King. One does not create an entire island if they wish to follow the rules of others," Riki said with a darkened scowl. "And we lived that way for hundreds of years. Until your ancestors came," she said, glowering at Zuko as though it had been he who had stormed the banks of the village. Zuko felt himself slipping down his chair. He knew enough from the history books that the conquering of other cities was never as simple as just coming in and winning. There was always bloodshed, looting, pillaging and other extremely disgusting things that made his stomach crawl just thinking of it.
"We are good fighters, some of the best," Riki continued, her fingers gingerly touching the glass panel in front of the portraits. "But even we know when we had lost. We were no match for your people, so nearly eighty years ago, we surrendered. Live to fight another day, as it were. I was hardly three years old at that time, so I don't recall it firsthand. My husband was eight, so he recalled little snippets. I do remember how it was directly after, how my family mourned for years. Not for dead friends, but for our freedom taken from us."
Zuko did not dare speak. He imagined that trying to suss out her meaning, to put words in this woman's mouth, may be a bad idea.
"If we could have Suki win, we would be back within our own means again. A true Kyoshi, ruling us, is what we've always wanted. And, she would have signed a decree to release us back to ourselves again as soon as she could manage it."
"You have to know that plan wouldn't have ever worked," Zuko said slowly. "The Fire Lady has unimaginable power, yes, but there's still a checking system. None of the council would have gone for it."
Riki was quiet. Even if she knew this, Zuko saw a person who had thrown out a last-ditch effort when he saw one. Sending Suki and Andica for this very goal had always been a longshot, but it was what they had left.
Zuko moved up to the pictures on the wall too, but not toward the portraits. He instead moved to a detailed map of the island, complete with the rolling hills and hidden passageways. He looked at how far it was from the mainland, ghosting his finger across all the space unused, all the way to the tiny gathering of houses and huts that made up the singular town.
This was apart from many other places, as well as situated right on the edges of the Earth Kingdom. It was a spot not easily seen from boats, once you turned around a corner. In short, it was ideal.
Aang romanticized the work they were doing and Zuko would enjoy if it could be kept that way. Let Aang remain bright-eyed and warm-hearted. The world would surely be a sadder place if he was not. Zuko was entirely prepared to carry the darkness upon his shoulders, take on the things about this upcoming war - the one that he could feel brewing under the ground as sure as a storm rolling in from the North - that would leave his blood-brother shaking.
Not everyone would do the right thing because it was the right thing to do. Most people were jaded and desperate. Most people lived in a world where food wasn't handed out for free, you had to trade something for it. This bartering system was how most people saw their universe so why treat anything they come across differently? The effort to hide and save airbenders would be a business transaction.
Aang may blanche and be horrified, but this gave Zuko hope. Not everyone could be swayed by pretty words and the prospect of peace or because they were golden at heart. Everyone, however, could be bought. It was just a matter of finding out what they wanted most in the world and being able to unequivocally provide it.
And Riki had just given Zuko this exactly. She could not have presented it prettier if it were given to him on a silver platter and adorned with moon flowers.
Zuko had no use for conquering the world. His ancestors' desires were not his own. Spirits knew he had a hard-enough time imaging he was just going to be in control of the Fire Nation. Some may claim the deal he was about to make was foolish. To Zuko, it was an asset he was willing to let go.
"My mind is not yet made up on who I will choose," Zuko said evenly, "But I have a different proposition for you. If you swear on your life, on Fate, which you put so much stock in, right now to never divulge anything I'm about to tell you and agree to my terms, we can certainly work something out."
Riki examined him. "I'm not one to agree blindly to anything, sir."
"Some of the most legendary agreements take a," Zuko gave a quiet chuckle, "leap of faith."
Riki sat back down. She clasped her hands in front of her, staring straight ahead. Though she said nothing, Zuko could see that behind her eyes, she was whirling through possibilities.
"What is it you promise to give me?"
"Your freedom back, once my end of the deal has been reached. I'll sign the papers, have you come out, make an unquestionable show of it," Zuko said.
Riki was silent a little bit more. Finally, looking at Zuko with a mixture of respect and wariness, she relented.
"And we are to do…?"
Zuko knew he had her. He let out a breath of relief; the airbenders were one step closer to being safe. He knew there was no one in the world that could give Riki what he was offering, so his agreement was air-tight.
"Have you heard anything about the new airbenders?"
Notes:
We're back in the game ya'll!
If you live in the USA, have a great Labor Day. I don't want to make promises about when the new chapter will come out, but I'm kicking my muse into actually paying for the space in the room she occupies, ie making her make me write that chapter. We'll see how it goes.
See you all in the next one!
Chapter 17
Notes:
How have all you lovelies been?
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Katara wouldn't say she was counting down the hours until Zuko returned, but she sure as heck missed him. And those that he'd brought away with him too. Without Suki or Toph, her two closest friends here, Katara felt more than a little adrift. It did encourage her to spend more active time with some friends that she didn't hang out with as much, like Alcina or Yue, and she was given time to write letters to her family and to Eva. Still, she would admit freely that she really missed him.
There was no exact guarantee on when he'd return. She knew the date, but what time was a little unclear. On the day that the Royal convoy was set to return, Katara felt antsy. She had not realized how pathetic she was, she berated herself mentally, for feeling such a need to see Zuko again after only three days! It was preposterous. She had gone months without seeing Sokka and she hadn't missed him nearly as much.
Sokka was grumpy too, which Katara didn't even want to touch. When Sokka was in a bad mood, everyone was in a bad mood. Unlike Katara, who usually excused herself from activities to pout in her room, Sokka actively sought others to share in his woes...whatever the heck they were. She wasn't really sure what ailed him. He insisted on bugging Katara but refused to tell her why.
After managing to escape Sokka after breakfast, Katara locked herself in the Women's Hall, knowing full well that Sokka couldn't follow her there. To her surprise, it seemed most people were down in the gardens. Katara stripped herself of some of the layers she'd worn to the Royal Meal and stepped lightly down the stairs to the first level gardens.
The first thing that she saw was Avizeh sobbing, with Jin and Ty Lee attempting to comfort her.
"You'll get it, Viz," Jin said, patting her back. "You nearly had it that time!"
"What's going on? Are you okay?" Katara asked, hastening across the grass to the trio of girls. As Avizeh blubbered, trying to formulate words, Nadhari gave a disgusted noise and rolled her eyes.
"She's disturbing our practice, that's what. If she wants to be melodramatic, she could do it over in her own room," Nadhari said, pinching the bridge of her nose as she glared. "Do you think that we want to hear your pitchy wailing?"
Katara opened her mouth to snap at the dark-haired girl, but someone else beat her to it.
"Nadhari, shut up."
To Katara's great surprise, and everyone else's, it was Mai who had spoken. Mai was a foot away, her bow notched but waiting between her fingers as she turned toward the commotion with something a step above apathy in her expression.
"I'm just saying-"
"Then don't." Mai cut her off with a narrowed expression. "No one really cares about what you have to say anyway. I'm managing to shoot just fine. It wasn't until you started talking that my head began to hurt."
The entirety of the girls just stood there in silent shock, staring at Mai. Nadhari, more than anyone, was nearly bright scarlet for being snipped at like a child. Avizeh hadn't gotten a hold on her crying, but hardly anyone noticed. Mai turned back, aligning her arrow and shooting with grace and precision.
This snapped everyone back to what they'd been doing. Nadhari stormed off, furious, sending murderous looks to Avizeh.
"Perhaps we should move," Katara suggested quietly, herding the girls over to a shaded area near the edge of the gardens. Avizeh filled a cup of water, holding a small sword in her fingers. She stared at it dejectedly.
"Are you feeling...better?" Katara asked, unsure.
"No," Avizeh said emotionlessly, now that she had dried her tears. "I just have to accept it, though."
"Accept what?" Katara asked, sitting next to her.
"That I'm not going to win any of those stupid fights, even if I'm put up against Prince Lu Ten or Cousin Kuzon," Avizeh mumbled, her voice quiet and faint.
"But you were doing really well with the knife," Jin said with a bright, slightly forced smile. "I wouldn't give up hope."
"So I nearly hit a tree that's unmoving and five feet wide. Big whoop. Let's just face it...I'm never going to be good enough by the time the competition turns around." Avizeh sniffled. "And it's just so...unfair. I love Prince Zuko so much, and he might come to love me too, but we'll never get the chance. It's so tragic!" she cried, throwing herself onto the tabletop as her sobbing resumed.
While Katara thought her dramatics were a bit much, the heart of her problems truly hit hard. Katara was as unconcerned as they came about the fights. She had reason to believe she'd come out as a winner, whatever that meant. Or, she wouldn't. To worry about it seemed so stupid, compared to the real atrocities that Katara knew lay at home or in the cities around them. To Avizeh, this competition wasn't so simply put aside. Avizeh annoyed Zuko thirty percent of the time, but he was fond of many girls that Katara knew couldn't have a chance in hell at winning a fight against a Royal family member. It did seem terribly unfair that he'd never get to explore that further with them, and that these girls would be put through the stress and rigor of this stupid rule just to fail.
Katara rubbed Avizeh's back comfortingly. There wasn't much she could say. Avizeh, by her own announcement, was correct. She wasn't going to win one of these. She could hardly hold a spoon without it quivering and she screamed for ten minutes when a bug flew into her mouth once.
Looking out on the girls, who she now realized were all practicing some form of defensive or fighting techniques, Katara truly did wonder how many would be packing their bags. Maybe Avizeh had it right. Maybe letting the pieces fall where they were now, realizing that her chances were slim, was the right way to go. She'd at least spend her time doing things she'd prefer instead of trying to become a seasoned warrior in less than a moon. As it was, Avizeh's days here were set to expire.
Jin's face was set into a worried scowl. Katara had a feeling that, unless Jin pulled something extraordinary out of her, she would lose this fight too. Yue as well, she realized, looking at her light-haired friend.
While Avizeh's possible departure was met with a small hint of sadness, Jin's possible departure was a bit more depressing, and the thought of Yue having to go because of something so stupid made Katara equal parts angry and sad.
Katara could manage without Avizeh or Jin in the palace. Letting go of Yue, when she knew how highly Zuko regarded her?
It may be completely stupid, but Katara could not idly sit by.
"Hey, can I talk to you?" Katara murmured to Yue once it seemed Avizeh had calmed down enough to be left with just Jin. "Maybe...in your room?"
"Is something the matter? Can I help with anything?" Yue asked, immediately concerned.
"No, not really. I just…" Katara was unsure how to phrase it. "Please?"
There must have been some sort of desperation in Katara's voice, for Yue nodded twice. She hugged Avizeh and promised that she'd be back down in just a moment before leading Katara upstairs. Yue's room was washed in the same blues as Katara's, but more muted, like the view outside during a blistery snow-storm.
"Would you like anything?" Yue asked, clasping her hands in front of her. "I have some candies from the North, or I could always summon a maid to make us some tea. My father just sent the most aromatic brew. I believe it's made with-"
"You can waterbend," Katara blurted, wincing hard at her shit handling of the matter. "Erm, sorry."
Yue blinked at Katara with wide, liquid eyes. Not confused or disbelieving, but also without any sort of reaction. She was just looking at Katara like she had been moments ago, as though these seconds had not elapsed.
"You can...waterbend…" Katara echoed a bit more unsure. "Please, don't ask me how I know," she said, closing her eyes, trying not to imagine how furious everyone would be with her. "Just believe me. I want you to stay. I want to help you win the fight."
When she opened her eyes, Yue's delicate brows were creased and her head slightly cocked. Katara's fingers fumbled as she grasped for a water jug, pouring a sloppy tea-cup.
"Just try it!" Katara said, "And you'll see that you can."
Yue fixed Katara with an infinitely deep gaze for a few quiet moments before she said, ever so softly, "I already know."
The teacup slipped from Katara's fingers, as though it had transformed into a slippery fish, smashing on the floor. The delicate pottery shattered and the water seeped into the rug, growing wider between her and the woman standing in front of her.
"But I've never seen you practice it! And you can't just…" Katara broke off as Yue gave an expert flick of her wrists, picking up the water from the ground effortlessly. She wiggled her fingers, configuring the water into brilliant mid-air shapes - galloping ostrich-horses, leaping koi, soaring eagle-cats - before she dumped the water back into the bin. "I've been trying to do those sorts of tricks for ages," Katara murmured, licking her lips self-consciously. "And you just...did them."
"I'm not using waterbending in the fight," Yue said decisively, smoothing her dress front as she sat on a chaise lounge.
"Yue!" Katara choked, "How can you not? You're a natural!"
Yue looked at her hands, deep in troubled thought. "Katara, have you ever stolen something from a family member or a friend, even just to borrow it?" she asked.
"Well, sure." Basically, the entirety of having a sibling was stealing and re-claiming cool things back and forth. It used to be a game in her youth to see how long she could get away with sneaking Sokka's boomerang and throwing it at icicles hanging from caves.
"Back when I was eight, my father had this pen that was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. It was a gift from the Earth Kingdom King, but it was carved in seals and snow flowers. I took it, just wanting to write to one of my friends, just to see what it would feel like to use it. But even as I had the ink in front of me and the pen between my fingers, I could not use it. Even though I had it in that moment, it was not mine to use. It would have been wrong," Yue explained, settling herself in this choice.
"You can't possibly be equating-"
"This waterbending is not mine to use. I was not born with it, it was shoved into me. It belongs to the spirits," Yue said, her tone hardening enough to show that she wasn't in the mood to argue about this. Unfortunately, Katara very much was.
"It's not like it's a spirit who can come and go! If the spirit leaves you, you die. I'd say it's pretty intertwined with your being." Katara made a vague motion with her hands. "And honestly, I don't think it would complain!"
"I've spent many nights debating this, ever since I woke up a couple weeks ago in the palace with this ability. It was opened, though I don't know how," Yue said, trailing off and sighing.
"So by that argument, the Avatar should not use the elements, since he is a mixture of a bigger spirit in the body of a boy...er, or girl?" Katara quickly covered.
Yue laughed. "Well, don't be silly. The Avatar was created especially for that. I was a byproduct, an unintended mistake."
"I don't think a spirit enters a dying body by any mistake," Katara muttered.
"It's quite final, Katara. While I understand waterbending with a brilliance I could have never imagined, I am quite content to just experience the knowledge," Yue said, smiling warmly at her.
Katara huffed. She had never realized it before, because Yue was always so cordial and kind, but Yue was unflappably stubborn. She wondered if it was a Water Tribe trait, or born of being the daughter of a leader?
"You'll have to leave." Katara decided to try one last time. "And I know Zuko...he cares for you. You'll have to return home and marry-" Katara could not stop the shiver that ran through her body. "-Hahn."
"Katara," Yue reached out, clasping Katara's fingers in her own. They were just as cold as Katara's usually were, now. "I am honored and warmed to see you worry so for me. But if Prince Zuko's adoration is as pure as you claim it, I could not imagine that he would allow me to leave because of something like this."
"You underestimate this, I think," Katara said, shoulders falling.
Yue pulled Katara an inch closer, looking at her with a gentleness that was almost criminally unfair. "Have faith, nayak," she advised. "I trust that everything is going to happen exactly how it should."
Katara, on some small level, wanted to agree that things happened in strange and mysterious ways. She didn't know how to convince Yue, though, that sometimes effort was required on the part of the person to achieve what one wanted.
But, she realized there would be little budging her. Yue hugged her, thanked her again for looking out, and then said that she figured it would be best she go back to check on Avizeh.
Katara wandered back to her room, feeling more than a little defeated and disappointed. She should start preparing herself for those that would lose now, so it was easier to accept that they would leave.
The door was open and Katara was a figure in the shadows. Her heart leapt as she opened it with excitement. It must be Zuko, waiting for her back in her room!
The door hit the wall as she paused, realizing it was not.
"Pan?" she asked. She hadn't seen her advisor in quite some time. "I didn't mean to keep you waiting…" Aiga was probably looking for her right now to tell her of the man's arrival.
"I've hardly been waiting," he assured away with a wave of his hand.
"Usually, it's something incredibly good or incredibly bad when you see fit to visit me," Katara observed, crossing her arms over her chest.
"I'm not sure what you would classify this as. You're being summoned by the Royal Court of Justice."
Katara felt her heart nearly jump out her throat. Oh, fuck, they knew, didn't they? About Aang, about the airbenders, about the Avatar...she was so in trouble. Still, she kept her voice level. "Oh?" She couldn't manage more than that.
"About Bahiravi, and the attempted poisoning. They'll bring in Lady Bei Fong when she returns."
Katara relaxed. Oh, right, this was only about the person who had tried to kill her. Funny, with all that was going on, that this was literally the least concerning thing. Obviously, it was meant to be a very trying experience, so Katara put on her best serious face for her advisor.
"Of course. I assume they wish to hear my statement?" she asked.
"Indeed so. I'm sorry to dredge up such awful memories, Princess…"
"It's fine." Katara's smile was tight. In truth, she'd more or less put it behind her. It was something that was being pulled from the deep pools of the back of her mind. "She should be properly tried." Katara believed strongly in giving everyone, even awful offenders, a chance.
"You'll be asked to come in tomorrow. Does that work for you?"
Well, it certainly wasn't like Katara had a choice. Pan bid her goodbye and Katara put the notice on her desk.
While it's true that so much had happened that this seemed very inconsequential, now that Katara was being forced to think about it again, and she was looking at it from a non-emotional viewpoint, there were things she hoped would be answered.
Bahiravi was crazed, this was true, so how did she manage to think up a highly eloquent and sophisticated plot? To poison someone wasn't new, but to use that specific poison? It was odorless and would have killed Katara hours after tea, which would have made sure that nothing was tied to that place and time. It was unlikely that anyone would have figured out what the culprit of her death was, meaning that Bahiravi would have gotten off scot free. It was far too organized for her, Katara realized, it just seemed strangely out of place.
And how did she manage to get the poison to begin with? It wasn't a common poison; rather, it was one of the most obscure ones out there! Katara could hardly recall if Bahiravi's family was wealthy, but even so, she'd have to have some shady connections to buy it. Once again, the ability that Katara felt Bahiravi possessed didn't indicate a possibility to orchestrate such careful transactions.
Katara had little doubt that Bahiravi had attempted to poison her and Toph. What she wasn't sold on was that the entire plan had been thought up by the delusional contestant.
More than ever, Katara hoped the trial would shed some light upon her musings or, even better, prove Katara wrong.
XXxxXX
Zuko was the first one through the doors. He thanked each girl for accompanying him on the trip but made himself scarce quickly. It was right around lunch time, so with any luck he could slip right into the end of the meal. He felt like he was drained, and what he needed to see was Katara's smile. It was a little silly; he'd hardly been gone three days. Still, since realizing and pursuing his feelings for her, it was the longest he'd gone without physically seeing her and it was difficult. Even if they couldn't talk, Zuko was very single-mindedly determined to sooth his mind and his aching heart.
As he turned a corner, he saw his mother. She smiled warmly at her son and Zuko kissed her cheek as he passed, murmuring a quick greeting.
"Oh, actually, I was wishing to talk to you."
Zuko turned on the balls of his feet, resisting the urge to groan.
"I was actually about to pop into lunch, so-"
"We can have food brought to my room, it's no bother," his mother said, grasping his hand and patting it.
Zuko inhaled. He didn't know if his mother was trying to annoy him, or if she did so unknowingly. That was maybe the bane of a mother, though, wasn't it? Not that he didn't adore her, but she often seemed to want to chat about his life at the most inconvenient of times.
"Actually, you know the girls in the competition haven't seen me in quite a few days, so…" He trailed off, hoping that his mother would understand and encourage him. Instead, his mother studied him.
"You mean you wish to see Katara, who is currently in that dining room?" she surmised. While Zuko may be sufficient enough at lying to fib to most others, his mother was one of the few people he knew better than to even attempt it with. His mother watched the changes on his face and hummed. "Yes. I see. Even more so that I wish to talk to you, then," she announced.
It was a tone he knew well: an 'end-of-discussion' sort of tone. Zuko may be the heir apparent, but his mother still wielded a great amount of power over him and Azula, far more than either would like to admit.
Defeated, Zuko tore himself away from the dining hall door. Ursa stopped a passing servant, requesting whatever was being currently served to be sent to her study.
Once inside, Zuko sank down onto a red cushioned chair. As a child, it had swallowed him. He'd often found himself in this office with her, scrawling on bits of parchment or setting paper airplanes on fire while she worked. It was the right size for him now, but he felt like a child from the way his mother commanded the room, and he felt so small. Instead of sitting behind her desk, his mother sat on a chair next to him.
He wasn't sure what to expect.
She chatted quietly with him about how Kyoshi was until their food arrived. He could tell that this wasn't why she'd stopped him, so it aggravated him even more. The food was delicious, he was sure, but he couldn't recall the taste at all. He was just anxious. He wanted to see Katara, he wanted a moment alone, he wanted to decompress and talk to Aang about what he'd just acquired for their cause. While he adored his mother, now was not the opportune time.
"Zuko, you have not yet picked a wife," she finally said, as suddenly as a flash-flood, in the middle of Zuko explaining how the Kyoshi fought in their ceremonial dresses.
"No, well, yes...I…" He was flustered, caught off guard.
"I would have expected you would have asked Princess Katara by now," Ursa continued, frowning slightly. "It is obvious to me – and most others – that you are completely enchanted."
Zuko leaned on the arm of the chair, resting his elbows on the velvet as he placed his fingers over his lips while he scowled. He considered playing it off, until he saw his mother's kind face. His mom had only ever wanted the best for him, supported and loved him all his life. She had the sort of face that made people confess, even without meaning to.
And so he did. He knew that she'd take the fact that he'd proposed to her grave if he asked, and it felt nice to tell someone other than Aang. His mother listened without interrupting once, her face expressionless as she sipped her tea and watched him try to work through his feelings about the whole affair.
"-and she says she just needs more time, and I do believe that. Which is why she's not…" Zuko finished awkwardly, licking his lips self-consciously. "I know in my heart of hearts that she cares for me and wants to be here."
"But does she not love you?" Ursa asked, her first comment since he'd begun talking twenty minutes ago.
"I...not yet maybe. She's not like me. She doesn't just…" Zuko made a waving hand motion. "Fall into feelings."
"This is a little distressing to me," Ursa admitted. "I quite liked Katara. I had begun to imagine her as my daughter-in-law."
"It's not over yet," Zuko reminded, sinking lower.
"No, but-" Ursa started to speak but stopped herself. Zuko saw her stare down into her tea-cup and sip almost angrily before she looked back up. "I adore her. I think Katara is a warrior and a fine young woman. I do not even hate her for denying you, which as a mother, I was sure I would."
"But?" Zuko knew that tone too, and she was not done talking.
"But as a mother, my first priority is to you and your happiness."
"I am happy," Zuko defended. Stressed as hell? Yeah. A little tired? Sure. But depressed? No, he didn't think so!
"I'm not sure if I believe that. I see a boy who is head over heels for a girl who he's waiting on to love him back. It's draining you. More than that, others are beginning to notice how much you're favoring her. The people are wondering why you haven't proposed? If this continues and it gets out that Katara said no…" Ursa scowled, putting down her cup. Zuko winced. He hadn't even considered that. It would be a fiasco. Katara would be ridiculed and shamed in public, and the Fire Sages may call for her removal. It was unprecedented that a contestant had denied a proposal and remained to tell about it.
"Spirits," Zuko hissed under his breath, rubbing his temples as he dropped his head.
"But more than that," Ursa continued, taking only a small breath in. "You are denying yourself the opportunity to fall in love with someone else. I want to see you married with children, living a good life, and you're never going to get there like this."
"I've tried," Zuko groaned. "There's just no one like Katara, mom!"
"I don't think you've tried," Ursa snorted. "Not an honest attempt, anyway. But I can see your issue. If every time you try to eat brussels sprouts immediately followed by chocolate, it would be hard for you to like eating brussels sprouts, wouldn't it?"
"And Katara's chocolate," Zuko said dully. "Uncle Iroh knocked, Mom. He wants his ambiguous and indirect philosophy quotes back."
"She is," Ursa said, face stony. "So I think we both know that the only way to truly give brussels sprouts any fighting chance is to stop eating chocolate."
Zuko stood up, furious. "I won't send her away! You cannot make me, Mother. This conversation is over!" he snarled, ready to slam the door.
"Zuko, come back," his mother snapped. "I'm not advocating to send Katara away at all." Zuko paused by the door, turning around. "Come, please, sit and finish your tea."
He hesitated, but knew that he couldn't disobey his mom. With his father, he'd gladly do so, but it was different with Ursa. Grumpily, he returned to his seat.
"I'm asking you to try something, my son," Ursa said, patting his cheeks lovingly. "There are only a few weeks before the tournament. In that time, I would like you to spend less time with Katara and spend more time with other girls. Whenever you have the urge to speak to Katara, try to talk to someone you haven't talked to much. This will help you narrow down who you truly do want, as it's been a while since a culling. Sometimes, when we stop gorging ourselves on that which we feel we cannot live without, we find we can," she said quietly, almost sadly.
"And if I can't?" Zuko asked, swallowing. "If I do this and I still can't get Katara out of my mind and I've tried as hard as I could?"
"Then we will visit other options," his mother said. "Including, possibly, a long betrothal or stopping the competition. But, before we do that, I need you to be sure that she is unquestionably the one. Which means you need to give the effort to this competition that you haven't been giving," his mother lectured sternly. "Will you promise me, Zuko?"
Zuko swallowed hard. His chest ached at the thought, but like usual, his mother's sage wisdom was undeniable. It wasn't that he couldn't see Katara at all or talk with her, but he needed to treat her like any other contestant. He needed to give Katara the same sort of attention he gave Kilee or Suki.
Which, he could now see, would be incredibly difficult. And he could see as an outsider, in that moment, why his mother was asking this of him. It seemed impossible now, but to prove to his mother that his love for Katara was unquenchable, he had to do this.
"Yes," he said after a long moment, "I swear to you that I will."
XXxxXX
Zuko sat in his room in the worst mood he could recall in a very long time. He was trying to read and re-write some edicts his father had insisted he looked over, but he wasn't getting very far.
He swirled a small glass of amber liquid, tilting his wrists as he stared down at the parchment with a mixture of frustration and resignation.
It wasn't the legal document that was the source of his anger - the title being 'New Proposition on Housing in the Middle Circle' - for that didn't sway his emotions one way or another, but it was a piece of paper slipped right underneath it. Taunting him.
A letter sent via Aiga from Katara asking if they could see each other tonight.
For a second, he'd forgotten his chat with his mother and gone to eagerly reply. As he was just about through, he recalled.
And then he burned his own reply with a slam of his fists.
He'd then had to write another letter replying that he was busy. He was, but not busy enough he would usually deny her. However, would he have met with any other girl after hours? No, he wouldn't have.
He knew he should probably explain it to her, but that seemed worse.
Hey Katara, I let my mother convince me how to play this competition, but I swear I can make choices by myself!
So, Katara, since you won't give me an answer, I'm going to play the field and see if I can fall in love with someone else. That cool?
It was mere hours into this agreement and already it was killing him.
But, somewhere deep down, the fact that it was doing so told him that he needed to see it through, as difficult as that was going to be.
There was a knock on his door. At first, he ignored it. He wasn't the mood to have a tête-a-tête with Azula, nor talk to his father, or get weird advice from his Uncle.
"Uhh...Zuko? You in there?"
Aang. The singular person that he realized he might be able to stand right now.
"Door's open. Come in," he grumped, not getting up.
He nearly jumped out of his skin when Aang entered and there was something attached to his shoulder. At first, Zuko almost though it was a rat or a chipmunk-hawk, until he saw its wide ears. He groaned; he'd nearly forgotten about Aang's new pet, the most whispered-about topic among the maids and servants right now. And, honestly, everyone else.
"You couldn't have gotten something a little less obvious?" Zuko hissed, waving a hand to the wide-eyed monkey creature. "Fucking spirits, if you wanted a pet, I would have suggested something very Fire Nation. Like a flaming lizard or something."
"What? Oh, duh!" Aang hit his head. "You haven't met Momo." Momo hissed at him, chittering angrily. Aang petted Momo's head. "Shush, Zuko's sometimes mean, but he doesn't really mean it-"
"I do," Zuko growled.
"I didn't go out intending to get a pet," Aang said, shrugging his shoulders down so Momo could explore Zuko's study. "But I had to get him. He's the last of his kind!"
"And you don't think that this was a bad idea for you, specifically?" Zuko narrowed his eyes, "An Air-Nomad animal?"
"Look." Aang waved his hands. "It's done now, okay? And yeesh, I guess, well never mind. I wasn't going to leave him. Besides, there's little talk of that. I ranked to be 'More Fire Nation' on the Royal Family Poll than Lu Ten did two years ago. I eat, sleep and breathe Fire Nation-ness."
"I guess it can't be stopped, we'll have to watch for damage control. What did you want?" he asked.
Aang snorted. "Why are you so grumpy?"
"I'm not!"
"Riiiiight," Aang stretched out his word. "Uhm, well, I was going to show you this letter, thought it might make you happy, but now I'm just thinking that it might make you angrier or more stressed…" Aang was creeping back toward the door. He gave a whistle, calling Momo. "So I'm just gunna-"
"Kuzon. The letter," Zuko said, holding his hand out. Anything worth bothering him with this late at night had to be important.
Aang hesitated but finally handed it over.
"It's from Rasra. You know, the guy from Ember Island."
"Yeah, I know who that is," Zuko said with a roll of his eyes. He realized that he was probably being unnecessarily cruel, but Aang just rolled his eyes back. It was only his good-hearted nature that kept him from flinging Zuko's attitude right back at him.
He flicked the seal, which had partially re-melted to the letter, to read it. It was folded from where Aang had creased it as he read it.
To whom it may concern,
We wished to thank you for taking the time to visit our little island! We are so honored and hoped you had an enjoyable time.
As a token of our appreciation, we have a few gifts for the Royal Family. I have just recently acquired them and thought it would be best to send them your way. Three buffalos. One filly, aged 10. Two males, 17 and 29.
What would be the best course for these three?
I look forward to your reply.
Ever grateful,
a fRiend of roddEn
Zuko read the letter twice, frowning at it.
"See," Aang leaned over, pointing to the two strangely capitalized letters in the signature. "Rasra...his last name begun with an E, but I've forgotten it." He was speaking in old Air Nomadic. Zuko switched over fluently.
"I take it that the three 'buffalos' are-"
"Yeah."
Zuko weighed the letter, rolling it up.
"I suppose we're in business now, aren't we?" he said, taking the letter and moving to his desk. With a wave of his arm, he cleared enough space away to see the map that was laid out. "I procured Kyoshi for our cause, by the way, but…." He looked at the Earth Kingdom. He needed to find a way to get them to where Dhakiya was, and it was a long journey.
This would take some careful planning.
"It's a clever letter. Most wouldn't think twice about it, though they might be disappointed that we aren't getting actual buffalos," Aang said, leaning on the other side, his finger tracing near Ember Island. "I'm just glad Azula didn't see it."
"Hmm?" Zuko asked, his attention half-way on Aang but mostly on the map.
"Well, she was around the post. She got a letter from Chan on Ember Island too. This letter was postmarked to Shoji, but I have a feeling if it was to me or you she would have opened it without a doubt."
"It was smart of him to address it to a guard," Zuko nodded in agreement.
"Actually," Aang made a tiny coughing noise, "We sort of had a weird moment."
"You and Shoji?" Zuko mumbled.
"Me and Azula."
Zuko snapped his head up. Aang bit his lip, wincing.
"What sort of moment?" he asked cautiously, his full attention now shifted to the young airbender. Aang gave a great, long sigh. He explained the whole exchange in the kitchens, about the letter from Chan and her weird attitude toward it. Then, he came to the point where she'd asked about his ancestry and how she'd gotten soft at the end.
"I usually can't figure out what's on her mind, but this morning?" Aang huffed. "I'm worried she's unraveling my...you know," Aang said, scratching his wrappings that hid his tattoos.
Zuko had another thought, one that made him feel vomit rise in his throat. He coughed on the bile, shuddering.
"Arg! Ew! Damn her," he said, reaching for his whiskey to mute the taste on his tongue.
"What?" Aang asked. "I feel like I just missed something."
"Yeah! She's not interested in how well you know our family tree, she's 'interested' in you! Not romantically. Well, quasi-romantically. My dad told me that she needs to be married off soon, so she's been pushing for an advantageous marriage, one where she can weasel her way back into power here. You know, important sons of lords who would be worthy of being Fire Lord if something 'tragic' happens to me. She was seeing how closely we're related so that she can…" Zuko felt ill again. He couldn't even finish that thought. Aang looked a little green at the thought too, but looked unsure.
"I dunno...she's smart…" he said, but shuddered too. "Is it weird that I'd rather that be the case?"
"You might be my brother, but dude, I don't want you as my brother-in-law," Zuko said, trying to banish the idea from his mind.
"Uh, me neither," Aang guffawed. He scrunched up his nose. "That's...hmm. Maybe I shouldn't be so nice to her."
"I dunno…" Zuko raised an eyebrow. "I'm pretty sure being mean would turn her on. I'd say be as nice as possible and she'll be absolutely disgusted with you." He took a long drink. "And as much as I wish that were the most pressing issue, it isn't. We have three pieces of delicate cargo that we need to get from here -" he tapped Ember Island "- to somewhere here." He tapped the Earth Kingdom. Aang nodded resolutely.
"I hope you got a nap today." Zuko cracked his knuckles. "Because we aren't leaving until we have it figured out."
Notes:
Very plot-y. But, I still hope you all enjoyed it. What do you think about Zuko and Aang's fight? Who do you think was right? What was Azula's true goal? And what do you think about Yue not using her waterbending? And Mama Ursa, gasp! Lots of things happening, eh?
So, this weekend is my birthday, and I would really love it if you would drop a review as a birthday present.
I'm doing things I love as I upload this, which is basically I'm re-watching Crimes of Grindlewald. It's not my favorite HP movie, far from it, but a HP movie is great any day. And, oof, I gotta just...just talk about it for a second. QUEEN AND JACOB IS MY SHIP yall. I know we're supposed to root for Newt and Tina, but man am I feeling Newt and Leta. And Nagini and Creedence, my heart. I wish that they'd done more about the magic about London, instead of just setting it there with little relation to the plot, ya know? Anyway, those are my quick thoughts. I have a thousand more but I just needed to say that.
Also, Nayak means little sister in Inuit!
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Chapter 18
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
By the time Katara woke up the next morning, the chatter was revolving entirely about the trial. It seemed that not only Katara and Toph were being asked to talk about the incident. They may have been the only girls required to go before the jury and give detailed reports of their incidents, but almost anyone who had so much as passed Bahiravi walking in the halls was being questioned in a tiny, private room by the Grand Judge. As Katara ate breakfast and got dressed for the day - Aiga had picked something out that was more frilly than usual and a clean white color - most of the girls had been called to testify one-on-one.
Bahiravi had poisoned contestants. This was a most egregious sin, and her trial was not a small affair. If the tournaments had not been fast approaching, Katara would have been sure that this would be the event of the season, chattered about for months to come.
Katara had not thought of the girl with sharp, cold eyes for a long time. While some of the girls were whispering that Bahiravi was someone like Azula, Katara found this incredibly untrue. Azula rarely did anything without careful, specific forethought. When she looked at you, you could see a hundred queued insults in Azula's eyes, a burning flickering flame that would not be stifled. Katara realized whenever she had looked at Bahiravi, her eyes had been blank and emotionless. It was as though there was hardly any light left. They were like those of an animal. Driven purely by instinct and savagism.
Unbeknownst previously to Katara, the trial had officially begun a week ago, but it was only now that they were getting around to the witnesses. Katara was slated to talk today, Toph tomorrow, Iroh and Lu Ten the next day, and Zuko as the last 'big' account.
Aiga was allowed to attend as Katara's 'support friend'. Pan, among other officials, as they led Katara and Aiga all the way across the grand palace grounds to the Courthouse, kept looking at Katara like she may break at any second.
Maybe it would have been smart to pretend. For any normal girl, an attempt on their lives would have been traumatic. This would have been an awful, cruel experience and they would have been close to shattering. Katara was not a stranger to near-death. Her childhood, while it had been good overall, had also been hard. Living on a piece of floating ice was not for the faint of heart. Starvation near-misses were about once every three years, but Katara could count on her hand the number of other times she was sure her time was up. There'd been the one time she'd accidently sliced her leg open with no one around and it wouldn't stop bleeding, and it was only her shoddy waterbending healing skills that kept her conscious long enough to limp back to camp. There was another time a bear had ran after her and if she'd just tripped, she would have been the animal's lunch. There were other times, when she was younger and her waterbending was more unrefined and uncontrollable, where she'd fallen into the water in her furs or when she'd gotten trapped under snow.
This was the first time someone actively tried to kill her, though. Well, as far as she knew about it. Even still, she'd just gotten sick - thank Tui - so it was a hard time equating her sickness to death after all this time.
"Pan, would I possibly be allowed to ask Bahiravi some questions?" she asked as they stood, waiting to be announced and called into the room. The jury and the judge were recounting the trial's history thus far.
"You survived her attempting murder. I think you'd be allowed near anything. A few questions are hardly an issue." Pan coughed. "Though, I'm not sure if she'll answer you. If she can."
Katara hummed, frowning. Bahiravi had a right not to answer any questions she had but Katara would still try to unravel the poison conundrum she'd been thinking about non-stop.
She was seated at the top of a dais, near the Judge. Katara and Aiga had curtsied before settling to sit, waiting. Zuko was here, as well as the entire Royal Family. Katara looked to him. She had been disappointed about his reply last night, but understood. He'd just returned from Kyoshi, so there was much to do. She hoped that perhaps he would offer something else, such as a lunch or a walk about the grounds after this was said and done. Or maybe a sparring match. Katara knew she'd have some rage to free.
Zuko gave her a comforting smile, until he looked away, his face pinching. Katara frowned, opening her mouth to ask Aiga if Zuko was okay, but a scratching noise distracted her.
A door near the left opened and four guards entered, shuffling someone in between them. Bahiravi.
Katara stretched her neck up to view her, sure that Bahiravi would be close to spitting at Katara or smiling at Zuko, but she was doing neither. It was hard to see her at first, but Katara did realize her head was down and she shuffled along.
She looked pretty worse for wear. Her hair was unkempt and ratty and her skin was pale white. She was wearing long and baggy black robes that covered her entire body and when she walked, she was sluggish.
Then, she lifted her head and shifted, and Katara held back a noise of shock and dismay.
Pan's strange 'if she can' reply stood out starkly in her mind.
Bahiravi's skin was deathly sallow, her hands bony and her flesh hanging limply, illustrating her bones inside. Her face was blank; not of someone who was trying to disassociate with the proceedings, but of someone who was not there at all. A dribble of saliva dripped from her lips but she didn't seem to notice at all. When she shifted, it was jerky and uncoordinated, and Katara would bet money that underneath her robes she would have ugly black and blue bruises blossoming over every inch of her.
She was so caught up in this shell of a person sitting in front of her that Katara nearly missed the Judge's first inquiry.
Through the proceedings, which took Katara the better part of the day, it became increasingly more obvious that Bahiravi was not in that body anymore. Her soul had been broken, taking flight and moved on, leaving behind just a dull girl that hardly had the ability to keep herself upright anymore.
They'd broken her. Whoever had been watching her at the prison had destroyed her being so completely that her will and fight had been long gone. She shouldn't have felt bad about this turn of events, but she was unexpectedly sickened by this revelation. She could not imagine the horrors that they'd done to her to leave her so empty, but Katara was reminded that under Ozai's reign many men were encouraged to act like monsters. And although Bahiravi had previously been Fire Nation, she was now stripped of any title but a traitor to the crown.
Katara's retelling of the incident was stifled and stilted. The onlookers, and even Aiga, surely assumed it was because she was in such horror to re-imagine the event. It was rather because Katara was consistently tripped up; she couldn't help but have her eyes fall on Bahiravi's hunched shoulders and fumble her words, the proceedings dying in a quiet whisper on her lips. How was it hardly fair to hold a trial when the accused was not in any mind to defend herself?
As it was, there was no one going to bat for Bahiravi. Even if Katara did not think she deserved freedom, even if Katara did not think that she deserved a good life after this, Katara did strongly believe that she deserved justice.
She felt as though all of their accounts were just a farce. The Grand Judge had made up his mind about Bahiravi anyway. Katara could sit there spinning a ridiculous tale that the spirits had come in and puppeted Bahiravi's body, and the Grand Judge would probably find a way to find Bahiravi at fault. Katara could claim that she asked to be attempted to be killed and the Grand Judge would have likely told her that it was in no way Katara's fault.
Still, they dug into her story with frightening detail. It was obvious they wanted as much cannon fodder against Bahiravi as possible, all the sordid, illegal details.
Katara attempted to recall it the best she could without her judgement being clouded. Not by her shock for nearly being killed, not by her anger about the trial proceedings, not about her pity for Bahiravi. It took a person truly desperate to feel as though killing to win was the right answer.
The trial drug on, the heat of the crowded room heating her cheeks and forehead. During this time, the Royal Family sat with apt attention. Ursa and Iroh looked concerned and horrified. Ozai watched with unreadable eyes. She did have the passing thought that Ozai had put Bahiravi up to this, but killing off Toph too made little sense. Azula sat with her fingers clasped, but it was obvious from her eyes she thought Bahiravi to be an amateur. Aang had been present during the first half, but got called away by Zhao a quarter through.
Katara had spared a sorry look his way, pressing her lip as Aang left. She did not wish to know what horrible things they would be talking about.
She sort of expected Zuko to be looking at her, most of the time, with encouraging soft eyes, like he often did. She was surprised to find at every moment he was looking away from her, his eyes firmly focused on Bahirav, his face in a deep-set frown. She wished that she could see inside his mind, know what ailed him, know why he was giving her such an unexpected cold shoulder.
It was Lu Ten who was encouraging Katara on, taking the role of his cousin in an unexpected sort of way. She did not need such prompting, but to know that she hadn't been written off by the entire family was a relief.
By the end of the session, Katara's undergarments and petticoats were damp with a mixture of her own sweat and her nervousness and confusion around the entire proceeding. As there was a great noise as everyone got up at once, Katara nearly jumped over the dais to get to Bahiravi.
"Pan," she reminded in a small shout, nodding toward Bahiravi. Her advisor nodded, going and speaking to the Royal Guards, gesticulating something. They were shuffled to a small side hallway, out of the hustle and bustle of the courtroom. The attendants were too busy overwhelming the judge and making their decisions about Bahiravi's poor behavior to notice Katara and Aiga slipping away, following the traitor.
Out in the hall, Katara shuddered to stand in front of the girl who tried to kill her.
"Princess," one of the guards said uneasily. She recognized that it was Tahoe. Aiga blushed, but did not stare openly at him, nor did he look at her.
"I'll be fine," Katara nearly spat. "I don't think she'll be doing anything now, hm?" Katara asked, holding his gaze with an accusing tone. If the guard had been the one who did this and felt any guilt, he sure as hell did not show it.
"Princess Katara!"
Katara heard Zuko's voice slide through the air and she spun to see Zuko marching up to her.
"What are you doing?" he asked as they stood face-to-face.
"I have some questions for her," Katara said, crossing her arms.
"Great Agni," Zuko muttered. "Shouldn't there be a glass between the pair of you?" he asked, looking above her head to the guards.
Katara felt bile rise in her throat. "I fail to see how she's capable of even lifting a spoon now," Katara said sourly, spinning back around. She did not know how much longer the guards or the judge, or even Zuko, would entertain her inquiries, so she was determined to get her time.
" Bahiravi, it's me...Katara," she began uneasily, waiting for some flash of recognition in her eyes. Even a look of hatred and fury, she was pleading for something.
Bahiravi lifted her head from the place where her chin was against her collar bone. It was a start. She looked up, though Katara was unsure she was looking at someone, but the eyes were now trained in Katara's general direction.
" Bahiravi, I need you to listen to me. Where did you get the poison? Whose was it?" Katara asked hurriedly. Beside her, Zuko stiffened. The guards turned to Katara too. Katara ignored all of them, even Aiga's tiny hands pressing against her shoulder.
Bahiravi did not answer. She tilted her head, though it may have been more about gravity than a purposeful action.
"Did you bring it in? No, it had to be someone else...who was it?" Katara asked hurriedly, eyes wide as she inhaled. "Please. I know you have no reason to like me, to want to help me...but perhaps they could lessen your sentence." she tried.
Bahiravi did not make a motion.
Katara reached into her dress, pulling out her skein of water, uncorking it. Before she'd gotten a step more forward in an attempt to heal her, thinking that perhaps if she helped her, maybe Bahiravi would be more willing, it was as though many things happened at once.
Zuko jerked her back and the guards all shouldered together, separating them. Pan made some noise of disapproval and Aiga gasped.
"Let me go!" Katara snapped, trying to snatch her arm from Zuko's firm grip. "I just-"
"You will not touch the prisoner," One of the guards said in a firm monotone.
"Perhaps we should-" Pan started nervously and Katara saw her window closing.
"No! Just, please! I need to know."
"Princess Katara," Zuko said slowly, "She admitted to poisoning you and Toph."
"Yes! But did she claim to bring the poison in? Did she say where she got it? How she planned it?" Katara asked, and felt a minor glee at the blank look on Zuko's face. She managed to break from his hold and got as close to Bahiravi as she could manage.
" Bahiravi...who was it...it wasn't you, was it?"
There seemed to be a gleam in her eyes, a flash of something, as though what Katara had just said something that piqued her interest. Hope grew in Katara's chest, fluttering for just a second.
Bahiravi opened her mouth. This must have been quite the unexpected spectacle, for everyone present stared as she prepared to speak. Katara wondered how few words she'd said since her imprisonment.
Her lips began to move and Katara strained to hear the words. She picked up on a few wispy sounds, but was unable to properly hear what she was saying. Everyone in the hall was silent. Hope blossomed in Katara's chest as she leaned in closer.
"As the years go by, give me but peace, freedom from ten thousand matters. I ask myself and always answer: What can be better than coming home? A wind from the pine-trees blows my sash…"
The hope deflated as quickly as someone turning on a lantern in a darkened room. Once Katara heard the familiar folk song that she was singing to herself, so did everyone else.
"She's mad." Pan shook his head. "A child's tune," he sighed, but looked none too surprised.
Katara held back her disappointment, staring at Bahiravi with the sinking realization that she'd never be able to tell her again, perhaps even if Katara healed her skin. Katara was unsure even her own powers of magical healing could mend a broken, shattered mind.
"It's time to bring her back," Tahoe said, his voice markedly more sympathetic than the other three guards. Katara stood back, watching her leave with a sense of despair growing in her stomach. Was it possible that the culprit was still in the palace, waiting to strike again, or do something worse?
"It was unlikely she would have answered at all," Zuko said quietly, though Katara was not sure if this was meant to comfort her.
Katara rounded on him.
"Your guards destroyed her!" she seethed, "Don't you see what they did to her?"
"Princess Katara," Zuko said evenly. "She tried to kill you and Toph."
"So that's justified?" Katara demanded, waving a hand. "To hollow her out until there's nothing? That's not justice, that's revenge. That's sadism."
"Wait a second now," Zuko said in a darker tone. "You'd prefer she be let go? Free to live out her days without any repercussions?"
"To lock her up forever would be a repercussion. I cannot believe how you can't see how what we just saw was...was...torture! How that wasn't right!"
"Maybe things are different on the tundra," Zuko began, crossing his arms, eyes cold. "But we treat our prisoners as dangerous people here."
Katara stared at him, open jawed. "Well, of course we handle our prisoners with care!" She threw her arms up. "But the fact that you're not seeing the issue here, the way that your father runs his prisons, sickens me!"
"Well, it sounds like your mind has been made up," Zuko said. "Before I even spoke about how you, esteemed Princess Katara, feel as though we should be treating our Fire Nation traitors. I'll be sure to ferry it up to the Grand Judge right away."
"Why are you being so bull-headed?" Katara asked, shaking her head. "You're being impossible."
"I'm being the Prince," Zuko said crisply.
"So you're okay with this? With that?"
"They did it for you, Katara," Zuko snapped, "They did it for the injustice served against you."
Katara's stomach rolled, "I never asked anyone to do that," She felt ill. She felt it rising in her like the tide, pushing against her chest. Had she really invoked such violence, such depravity. Then, however, she thought of all the articles fawning over her, of the people pushing for an interview or for a picture. "And let's not mince words. They may have done it 'for me', but only because as part of this competition I'm yours. They are responding as though she tried to break a favorite toy of yours."
"Why do you have to act like that?"
"Why do you have to let that happen?"
"I'm just trying to keep my people safe!" Zuko clenched his fists, his face turning redder and redder the more they argued.
"She is part of your people too! A person's worth does not vanish the moment they do something bad!" Katara backed away. "You know what? Just...urg!" She began to turn away.
"Princess," Zuko said and for a second she thought he was going to apologize. He licked his lip, looking almost contrite. "Perhaps we could...talk? Later today?"
"Is it about Bahiravi?"
Zuko exhaled hard. "I have no more to say upon the matter of her."
Katara clenched her jaw. "Then, I find I don't have anything I wish to speak with you about, Prince Zuko," she said stubbornly.
Zuko inhaled once and she could almost see the steam exiting his nose. "Very well," he replied, his voice tight and devoid of any niceties. "Princess. Advisor Pan," he said quietly, bowing. Katara gave a curtsey back, feeling anger and fury and despair cling to her chest.
"Princess, you've missed lunch. Shall I ask the kitchens to make you something?" Pan asked in the wake of Zuko's departure.
Katara found herself unable to speak for a moment. When she did, her throat was raw and close to something she thought might be tears, though for who (Zuko, herself, Bahiravi) she was unsure.
"That would be excellent. Thank you, Pan."
XXxxXX
"You seem distracted, Prince Zuko. Are you okay?" Zuko turned in the palanquin to Alcina, shaking himself out of his thoughts.
"I just have a lot on my plate," he said, which was not untrue.
Alcina nodded with understanding. "With the tournament approaching, and of course picking a wife...well, I'd be distracted too."
"It's no excuse however. We're on a date," he said, trying to banish his upsetting argument with Katara earlier today.
And to think, he'd gone through the entire trial knowing how difficult this had to be for Katara, thinking about how he hated Bahiravi for nearly taking Katara away from him, and finally having come to the decision that he'd tell Katara about his mother's promise.
Well, if she didn't want to talk to him, he certainly wasn't going to bend over backwards for her!
"We're traveling to the date," Alcina pointed out, pushing aside the curtains with her nimble fingers. "We have not arrived. We could have gone separately, but it made more sense to only request one palanquin," she continued, "Therefore, you are free to worry over whatever concerns you now, until we reach the location."
He let out a sigh of relief. He liked Alcina. It did sting like a thorn in his side a little because he knew this was one of Katara's closet friends, but he'd been planning this date for weeks. Still, the girl's forward and easy-going nature was the reason he held onto her. She was louder and more outgoing than her sister, though Zuko was sure with time he could have brought Dhakiya out of her shell.
He'd never know now, though, would he? Hiding the Avatar, a practiced bender, within the Palace was one thing, but trying to pass off an unseasoned and overwhelmed airbender? No, it would not have been safe for her.
"That's kind of you, but I have much time in my office specifically for those thoughts," he said. "Err, have you been enjoying the palace?"
He longed for Katara, who he rarely felt like he was forcing conversation with, though tried not to have it show.
Soon enough, Alcina had taken charge and steered him into a conversation that came easier, a discussion about the literature to offer in the Royal Palace Libraries. It was something fairly safe, but gave them enough to talk about without fear of running out of topics. By the time that the palanquin paused, they hardly had touched the tip of the amount of things to speak on. It was an ingenious thing to choose to speak about, something Alcina had assuredly chosen with that in mind.
Zuko leapt up so that he could part the palanquin's curtains for her, offering her his hand as they stepped outside.
"Ooh! How magical!" Alcina breathed.
Zuko had brought her to an underground grotto near the edge of the city. He recalled that she enjoyed swimming, having spent much of her time at the beach in the water, and realized that she would very much appreciate this location. Katara probably would too, but he had to go on dates with others and it was a relief not to have to do something generic and basic with Alcina
"But, Prince Zuko, I haven't…" Alcina began.
"While we're on a date, it's just Zuko," he said, blushing red. "And I had your handmaid procure you a suit for the day. In here."
Alcina squealed, hugging Zuko as she jumped back into the carriage to get changed.
Most of the day was spent with the pair splashing around in the cool water before having a picnic on the shore. Alcina was like a fire-fish in the sea, her long black hair spread out around her and taking to the natural dip and lull of the waves with a seasoned practice. Zuko couldn't help but find her joy and exuberance contagious and soon found his mind was not drifting to Katara for the time being.
"Alcina," he said after a few hours, "We have to get back soon." He sighed.
"I understand. It's been quite a day," she said. "And I am grateful for it anyway."
"Before we go, perhaps we should go into the caves one more time?" he asked, motioning to the cave opening that was only accessible by swimming under. Alcina's eyes brightened and she dove under. Zuko followed a second later, rubbing his hair back from his face.
"I could stay here forever," Alcina said with a girlish giggle.
"I, er, well I wanted us to be out of earshot," Zuko admitted. Alcina's face sobered immediately as she turned to him with curious eyes. "There might be a chance for you to contact your sister again. A letter, I should think, so...if you wanted to write one...pass it off as something innocuous...I'd get it to her."
Alcina frowned, and for a second he thought he'd displeased her. However, after a moment, he realized she was trying to keep from crying. "I haven't heard a thing from her...she's still safe?"
"Most assuredly."
"That is far better than even this," Alcina waved a hand around. "I will, yes." The cave's bottom was shallow enough so they could stand and did not have to tread water. The sea water was up to her neck, but lapped at Zuko's chest. "Zuko, can I ask you something?"
He nodded.
"Would it be...oh...I know you and Katara...I hate to be that girl...but I would be lying if I pretended like I didn't have feelings for you too," she admitted. "And I love my friend Katara, but if I am to play with my heart," she blubbered, looking terribly torn. Zuko had a feeling where it was going and felt warmed that she was so concerned. Others girls would not have cared, friends be damned.
Zuko leaned in, stopping her with a quick, chaste kiss.
"You were not the one who did it," he said when they parted. "It was me. Katara shouldn't be angry at you. If she wishes to fight with someone, let it be me," he said kindly.
Alcina's whole expression slackened. "Oh, thank you. That was quite...wonderful," Alcina admitted, blushing hard.
Zuko, who knew his mother would be pleased at his attempts, nodded. "Indeed, it quite was."
XXxxXX
The next two days passed in a haze for Katara. She was almost sure that Zuko was ignoring her, though it was hard since it seemed he was also just incredibly busy.
She was sure he was upset with her in some backwards way, since after his date with Alcina, Alcina came back looking red and a little guilty. She couldn't quite figure it out until Zuko informed her, over a message sent with Aiga of all things, that he'd kissed Alcina on the date and not to be upset with her.
Katara wasn't upset with Alcina, not entirely. She was upset that he couldn't face her like a man and tell her, and that he was trying not to glare at her during meals, which was indication enough.
Sure, they could fight (and she was still mightily angry at him) but now there where whispers she'd be kicked out soon because of his clear displeasure with her. The questions about when she'd be packing her bags, mostly from Nadhari, that she was now fielding were ridiculous.
She had almost forgotten about the next upcoming trip until she was reminded via letter that she was on the docket to go to Makapu Village in Earth Kingdom.
Alcina would be there, which she wished she were more excited about.
The other two girls would be Besu, who Katara hadn't gotten time to learn much about, so perhaps she should, and Ty Lee. Thank Tui for Ty Lee, who Katara was planning to cling to. She'd be fine to not see Zuko at all.
Still, she wished more of her comrades were joining.
"I thought you were leaving tomorrow as well?" she asked in confusion when Aang announced he was not going.
"Zhao is tapping me for a mission," he said darkly. "I also have to courier something," he said, which Katara did not entirely understand what he meant.
"Will you be okay? Mentally?"
"I'll do what I need to do. Hopefully save some more lives," Aang said with a sigh, but he did not seem convinced he'd be able to do so.
She went to Sokka next.
"C'mon, don't you want to come along and spend some quality time with your favorite little sister?" she begged.
"Uhh...no?"
"Sokka!"
"I have stuff to do here! Don't hurt me!" Sokka said, cowering dramatically as he saw Katara's scowl. "It's like a day. You'll survive it. I thought you'd be excited to be all kissy-kissy smoochy-smoochy with Zuky," he teased.
"Only you call him that." Katara said, not wanting to let on to her brother that they were in a minor spat right now. "I swear you two are like secret lovers or something. Does he have a pet name for you too?"
"I was just making fun of you." Sokka patted her shoulder. "Stop changing the subject."
"I just...I dunno, I miss you." Katara said, putting on her best innocent face. Sokka snorted.
"Aww...how cute. Yeah, I don't believe you a bit. Well, anyway," Sokka shrugged, "You'll survive. It will probably be fun!"
Miraculously, she still managed to pull a string or two and got Sokka on the trip as an assistant to General Iroh, who would be coming as well. He seemed pleased as punch to have the Water Tribe Warrior at his side.
Their first part of their journey was via boat at night, which they all slept through. By the time Katara woke up the next morning, there was a convoy of animals and carts for them to load up on. Katara stretched out, eager to try to make the best of the trip, but saw the faces of her friends and Zuko and knew it wasn't going to happen.
The carriage ride was a sullen affair. Zuko choose to ride out on his ostrich-horse, away from the contestants, though Katara swore to Tui it was only after he saw Katara in the cart that he chose this. Katara tried to get out of the stifling suffocating little square box to do the same, but was told by Zuko it would be 'improper' for her to do so. Since when did Zuko care if she did the proper actions?
Uncle Iroh was also riding with Zuko, ignoring everyone's concerns for his age, hopping upon his ostrich-horse with ease and comfortability. It left the four contestants plus Sokka jostling in the covered chart, all sulking or in a strange mood.
Katara, sulking because of Zuko's weird mood and her own frustrations directed at him. Ty Lee, no doubt, was upset to be away from Aang. Alcina was uneasy still and sending Katara careful looks after her date and kiss with Zuko. Besu and Sokka? Well, she didn't know why the two of them looked so nervous (Besu) or grumpy (Sokka), but something was biting at both of them as well.
Wonderful. This was set to be an extremely long and silent ride.
The hours ticked by as agonizing as ever. Whenever someone attempted to bring up something to talk about, even if one person half-heartedly answered, it was quickly killed by the mood.
"Lots of sisterly-brotherly bonding we're doing," Sokka grumped to her sourly.
Near the last hour of their trip, Iroh managed to convince Zuko to allow the ladies and Sokka to ride into town on extra ostrich horses. He argued that it was a beautiful day and they should be allowed to enjoy it, plus it would give the dragon-moose a break from dragging them half-way across the forests.
"Uhm…" Besu looked pink. "I'd rather...walk. I'm not too good with big animals," she said, eyeing the ostrich horses with trepidation.
"Nonsense! These are calm and gentle creatures," Iroh said. "You'll be fine, Besu."
Besu looked ready to make a break for it. She'd been eyeing the forests with a sense of longing all day, but she begrudgingly let Iroh and Zuko help her onto her horse. She sat on top of it, clutching the reins with her face pale.
Sokka, although he'd never ridden an ostrich horse, had spent his childhood days chasing after polar-bear dogs in an attempt to ride them, so this was a much calmer ride. Katara, Alcina, and Ty Lee all seemed to have little issues too.
Katara in fact felt a breath of relief escape her. She didn't have to sit aside the frowning faces of her friends in silence, instead she could listen to the chattering of the forests.
The convoy of the ostrich-hoses trotted along at a brisk pace for most of the time. Besu's legs were pressed so firmly against her animal Katara was sure she'd squeeze it to death if it were smaller. Iroh was riding next to her, giving her quiet affirmations about her progress and the animal was being well behaved for her.
Katara understood they were nearing the village as the trees began to thin and the path grew more worn. She strained her eyes to see the entrance, but all she could see was a massive volcano shadowing the earth in front of her.
There was a bend in the path ahead of them. Katara was bringing up the rear in a staunch stubbornness to be as far away from Zuko as possible, plus she enjoyed having the time to soak in everything the Earth Kingdom forests had to offer. It was, after all, her first time in the Earth Kingdom.
There was a frantic buzzing sound and from out of the forests broke a man with a swarm of hornet-birds after his head. He stumbled in front of the caravans, right before Besu's ostrich-horse. One of the pesky avians stung her horse and all at once there was a loud noise as the animal bucked. Besu was unable to reign it back in, trembling and squeaking as the animal began to thump on the ground hard, its talons digging hard into the ground.
The poor man, who was caught underfoot, seemed to be one second away from being speared by the ostrich-horse's claws, as he waved his arms to try to get the hornet-birds away.
Zuko swung his ostrich-horse around, leaping off and jumping in front of Besu's horse. He waved his arms, petting its beak as he eased it back to normal. Iroh had waved a sweet floral scent around, drawing the hornet-birds away. He threw the flower in the river, sending the vibrating creatures after it.
"Are you okay, sir?" Zuko breathed, turning to the man, who seemed shockingly chipper about the entire interaction. The rest of the ostrich-horses had pulled together, forming a semi-circle. Besu was near inconsolable, but scared stiff and unable to get off her horse.
"Oh! Quite well Prince Zuko!" The man said with a jovial grin. "Isn't the weather lovely today? We're lucky for such tolerable sun."
"Lovely weather?" Sokka all but choked out, "Dude, you were nearly killed and you're worried about the weather?"
"Not worried at all! More just commenting," the man said. "There's no reason to worry."
"Right," Zuko said with a raised eyebrow. "Are you sure you're okay?"
"Peacy! One hundred percent," the man said with utter confidence.
"Erm, okay…" Zuko looked unsure. "I'm sorry about this ostrich horse. I didn't expect her to be so skittish."
"I was in no danger."
"Well, actually," Zuko looked ready to argue, but the man cut him off.
"It was all under control, Your Majesty," he continued with an equally bright grin.
Sokka snorted. "You were being attacked by hornet birds and you nearly got squashed flat. I wouldn't call that under control."
"I would. Aunt Wu told me I'd have a safe journey back to the village and I have."
"Aunt Who?" Zuko echoed.
"No, Aunt Wu!" The man smiled. "She's the fortune teller from my village. Always nice to know your future."
"That sounds interesting," Katara said, but noticed that Zuko looked dubious. Sokka outright laughed, a sort of choked sound of disbelief. Ty Lee sighed longingly and Alcina looked intrigued. Besu was still too frightened to show much emotion.
"But you didn't have a safe journey! You were nearly killed...twice!"
"But I did," the man insisted, "I'm alive, aren't I?"
"Because of us!"
"Because Aunt Wu knew you'd be here."
Sokka looked ready to implode, staring at the man with such a look of abject frustration it was palpable.
"Can we offer you a ride back to the village, sir?" Zuko asked, clearly dropping any reservations he had to what the man was claiming.
"I was planning on it! Aunt Wu said a ride would be coming for me any time between dawn and dusk to take me the final leg."
"That must prove it!" Alcina whispered to Ty Lee, who was staring at the man with starry eyes. Even Katara felt impressed. Sokka slapped his hand against his forehead.
"Well, duh! Everyone knew that we'd be arriving today. It's not exactly a fortune that we'd be on this road. He could have just been waiting at any time for us," he argued. "That proves nothing!" he snapped, turning to Alcina.
"How did he happen to be right here when he needed it, though?" Alcina argued.
"Because...I...you all are far too gullible," Sokka growled.
By that time, the caravan was ready to move again. Besu sat back with the man in the carriage, since no one wanted any more hiccups. As they started moving again, Katara caught Iroh's quiet musing.
"I think I'd quite like all of us to meet this Aunt Wu!"
Notes:
Next chapter...the Fortune Teller's village! I've been looking forward to this one for quite a bit, but of course, it needs to be done delicately.
As for news, there is a drabble I posted from Aaliyah92 that you may be interested in! She asked for a POV of Zuko and Katara's first kiss from The Prince's Choice, and that was so fun to write! It's now up on wattpad and Karios under A03 and should be posted on my tumblr (youngbloodlex22) soon!
As for the whole Bahiravi thing, she's basically muttering the equivalent of like 'Mary Had A Little Lamb' or 'Ring Around the Rosy', but I wanted it to be more believable. I choose a poem:
Five-character-regular-verse
Wang Wei
ANSWERING VICE-PREFECT ZHANG
As the years go by, give me but peace,
Freedom from ten thousand matters.
I ask myself and always answer:
What can be better than coming home?
A wind from the pine-trees blows my sash,
And my lute is bright with the mountain moon.
You ask me about good and evil fortune?...
Hark, on the lake there's a fisherman singing!There's the whole of it, if you were interested. Anyone have interesting thoughts relating to it? I'll tell you this...it was chosen VERY specifically!
See you at the next chapter. Remember to review if you're enjoying this!
-Lex
Chapter 19
Notes:
Hey all, it's been awhile. Longer example in the A/N down below.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Katara missed Toph. She missed Aiga. She missed Zuko, and he was here in Makapu with her, though you would never be able to guess that they had some wild romance from the way he was treating her.
As soon as they had set their items down in their rooms, General Iroh was asking about this mysterious Aunt Wu, and Zuko was finding a reason to avoid going to see her.
"Oh, she sounds fascinating, she really does...but I think that I need to meet with your Mayor...yes, well, maybe tonight…but everyone else should absolutely go! We don't want to offend our hosts!"
Sokka had tried to jump ship with Zuko, with little success.
"Prince Sokka, you're my assistant. You go where I go," Iroh announced jovially, dragging Sokka back to the convoy that would be going to Aunt Wu's shop in the middle of town.
Prince Zuko had said good-bye to each of the four girls, kissing their knuckles and wishing them a good trip. When he came to Katara, however, she saw him redden and kiss her knuckle like he was licking General Iroh's shoe.
The motion was not missed by anyone.
"What in the world did you do to get him to act like that?" Besu said, snorting.
"Did you two get into a fight?" Ty Lee asked, eyes liquid with worry and sympathy.
"No! We're just…" Katara struggled, "You know how it is sometimes." She flailed helplessly for an explanation. Only Uncle Iroh gave a knowing hum, patting Katara's shoulder comfortingly.
"Do you think this might stay between us?" Katara thought to ask. "If his displeasure is so overwhelming, I'll be gone soon anyway. If not, there's no reason to send certain girls into a tizzy," she said, wincing.
"Certain girls," Alcina hmphed. "You can say Nadhari. We're all friends here," she said, winking. Ty Lee quirked a smile and Besu cackled, nodding. She seemed to be doing much better after the whole ostrich-horse incident. Now that she was on solid land, of course.
"Right?" Alcina prompted, uncertainty coloring her tone.
Katara gave her a smile. She might be on the outs with Zuko and his ultimate bull-headedness right now, but there was no reason to hold a grudge against Alcina. It's not as though Zuko was off limits to her. She was only doing what she was supposed to be doing.
"Of course," Katara said, clasping her fingers. She cared about her friendship with the fire bender far too much to let Zuko come between them.
General Iroh enthusiastically led the way to Aunt Wu's. Katara hung back, having a feeling that Sokka was going to try to slide away from the group, as he was walking slowly near the edge, eyes flashing all around.
"Oh, come on. It might be fun!"
"I just think it's all mumbo-jumbo," Sokka said, "and a waste of time. We could be eating, Katara. Eating." He nearly tripped as his nose followed a scent wafting from the food carts near the square.
"So," Katara started dryly, "Your sister can manipulate water, and your other two best friends can manipulate earth and fire, and you've seen signs of spirits, but you draw the line at fortune telling?"
"Exactly. A guy's gotta make his stand somewhere, or else he'll believe anything," Sokka said, puffing out his chest.
"Or are you afraid to have your future told?" Katara teased.
"What? No. No! I'm not afraid," Sokka waved her off, "I doubt I'll believe anything she says to begin with."
"Then what's the harm of just going in there?"
"Because it's against my morals!" Sokka objected. "The ones that, albeit, I just discovered, but I'm strongly against it."
By this point, they had reached the entrance of the fortune house. The girls at the front were talking amongst themselves. Katara turned to go back to them, but caught Sokka trying to scoot into a side alley.
"No you don't!" she said.
Iroh, at the front, was looking around. "Prince Sokka? Prince Sokka! Oh, there you are! Come up here, right in the front by me," he said, grinning. Katara almost wondered if he was doing this intentionally, bothering Sokka, but General Iroh was more refined than that...right? Sokka cussed, holding up his hands in a defeated motion.
Katara made sure he went to the front. He was as slippery as a whale-eel when he was skiving off doing something he didn't want to do.
Ty Lee spun to the girls, tapping her chin.
"What do you all want to know? Is it silly for me to want to know about love?" Ty Lee asked, sighing.
"Not at all," Katara said, although Katara knew that Ty Lee would not be asking about Zuko, as the rest may assume she was. To the point, Alcina was looking at her warily, sure she was trying to get a leg up in the competition. Besu…Katara couldn't tell if she cared one way or the other. She seemed aloof concerning most things. No, driven. Focused. On winning Zuko's heart? Katara was unsure.
"I'm torn. I'd like to know about that, but there are other things I'm worried about," Ty Lee admitted. "What about you, Besu?"
"Nothing specific," she said, but it absolutely sounded like she had something specific she wanted to find out. "Alcina?"
"Oh, spritis...just about everything." She gave a creaking laugh. "I guess that my sister is…" She trailed off. "Just that she'll find happiness."
"Oh, right," Besu said, looking sympathetic, "How's she doing since she was kicked out?"
"Sent home," Alcina corrected sharply. "Fine," she added, but her confidence was only surface-level.
"What about you, Katara?" Ty Lee switched swiftly.
"I'd be happy with anything," Katara said. "The world is unpredictable. Even knowing one thing may be helpful, whatever category it falls into." She wasn't sure if she could hear a truthful fortune about her love life right now, Tui and La!
"Ah! Aunt Wu has been expecting you all," a tall, thin man said, greeting them at the doors with a bow. Alcina's breath increased, her eyes sparkling. Sokka saw and rolled his eyes.
"Well, duh! Everyone in town, once again, knows we were arriving. Plus, someone could have ridden ahead…"
"Or she saw it in the future!" Alcina argued.
"Fine! Look, I can make a prediction." Sokka coughed dramatically. "In the next minute, the six of us will walk through that doorway. Oooh, spooky, I can tell the fuuuutuuureee toooo," he said, wiggling his fingers dramatically as the six started through the door. When Alcina moved toward the door, though, she suddenly squeaked right outside.
"Ouch!" she moaned, holding up her foot to show a large thorn stuck into her heel. She sniffled, carefully extracting it as Ty Lee twittered next to her.
"Can you walk on it, Lady Shen?" Iroh asked.
"Yeah, darn, that just really hurt," Alcina said, limping through the doorway.
"Hey genius," Besu said, grinning at Sokka. "It was over a minute. You were wrong. Only five of us went through the doorway in a minute."
While Sokka was sputtering incoherent arguments, Ty Lee just kindly patted his shoulder. "Some people just don't have the gift, Sokka. Don't take it personally."
Katara did wonder what Ty Lee thought about all of this. She could see auras, or so she claimed. Was seeing the future on the same line of deeper thinking?
There were six cushions inside. Sokka sat on one immediately, drawing into himself and crossing his arms. Iroh started talking to Sokka about something, drawing his attention away from the gilded room.
There was a yelp of joy from the door to their left. A woman in green came out. "Oh, thank you! I just found out the love of my life is going to give me a rare panda lily!"
Ty Lee gave an 'aww'. Sokka either was trying to ignore this entirely or didn't hear.
"I'm happy for you! I hope we'll be getting an invitation to the wedding," a second voice said.
Sokka whipped around so fast that Katara was almost sure that he almost snapped his neck.
"Woah, where's the fire?" Alcina giggled.
"I just…" Sokka said faintly, eyes scanning. Something about that voice had sounded familiar to Katara, too.
The lady in green waved to the sitting six, a grin as wide as her face stretched out. Following her was a petite girl with unruly hair, likely sixteen or seventeen. She wore a traditional kimono, a deep purple shade that glimmered in the light.
"Welcome, Royal Palace Friends!" she crooned, and Katara blinked in surprise. If she closed her eyes, it sounded like Toph. A much nicer, less swear-prone Toph, but Toph nonetheless. Sokka was scrutinizing this girl too, probably wondering what Katara was, if this might be a long-lost cousin or something. Or, logically, there had to be people that sounded similar to one another out there, right? "Would anyone like some tea or food while we wait for Aunt Wu?"
"Tea!" Iroh said enthusiastically at the same time that Sokka asked for food as though he'd been starving for a week.
The Toph-not-Toph girl vanished and reappeared a couple minutes later with a tray of puffs and a large teapot.
"What's your name, child?" General Iroh asked as she handed him a steaming cup. Sokka attacked the bowl of food.
"Meng. I've been Aunt Wu's assistant for years now. You're in for a real treat."
"So she tells your future?" Ty Lee asked, looking thoughtful.
"Bits and pieces. To know too much is to obsess over it. She tells me what she thinks I can manage to know," Meng said sagely, "and it's always been enough for me."
"So, she's not a fraud?" Sokka asked, mouth full of food. General Iroh sent him a disapproving look and Katara elbowed him.
"You're hardly the first to question it," Meng said. "But nothing we say will convince you. You'll just have to go in there yourself," she said with a casual shrug and a wide, welcoming smile.
Iroh distracted Meng with questions about the tea in the area while the girls nibbled on the food. It seemed like in no time at all, an aged woman was parting the curtains at the doors, coming out.
"Ah, so good to see your faces all in person finally," she said. "Who would like to go first? I can only have one at a time, or else I begin to get mixed signals from your spirits."
No one rushed to offer. Katara wasn't sure if it was because no one wanted to seem too eager, or because they were suddenly caught with a little fear of the future.
"Well, I will. I didn't want to let these lovely ladies feel unimportant, but since no one else is offering…" Iroh said.
"General Iroh, please follow me."
They were gone for maybe ten minutes. In that time, the girls broke out into nervous laughter, unable to contain themselves. Sokka rolled his eyes, continuing to stuff puffs into his mouth.
"These are great, Meng," he said. "So, uh, you've lived here your whole life?"
"Far as I know," Meng said.
"Right, right, cool…" Sokka swallowed. "You...a bender at all?"
While Sokka tried to engage Meng in conversation, Katara curled her legs underneath herself. What did she want to know about her future? Well, perhaps right off, knowing that she wasn't going to die some tragic death would be a fantastic start.
She could ask if she was going to marry Zuko, but she feared the answer. She feared a yes as much as she feared a no.
She still hadn't figured much out by the time Iroh returned.
"I hope that this settles you, General Iroh," Aunt Wu said brightly. "It was a pleasure to look into your future!" She scanned the group. "You next, dear," she decided, pointing to Besu. Besu scurried up, nearly tripping over her pillow.
Katara could tell the other girls were dying to know what Iroh found out, but they stayed quiet. Meng continued to serve them while Katara sighed. If Zuko was here, what would he ask the fortune teller? Would it even be about her?
When Besu exited, she looked exactly the same.
"What happened?" Alcina asked as Ty Lee was led away.
"She was a little vague, but I think I got the answer that I was searching for."
"Of course she's vague! She's just throwing things at the wall and hoping one will stick!" Sokka said, waving his hands around. "That's not magic, that's guessing."
Ty Lee looked brighter when she returned. She gave a thumbs up the group.
"She probably hasn't ever told anyone a bad fortune," Sokka hissed under his breath. "Then she wouldn't have any customers."
"Visiting Aunt Wu is completely free," Meng said. "She always uses her vision for the good of the community!"
"Me next?" Alcina said, starting to stand.
"Dear girl, your question is overwhelming my senses," Aunt Wu laughed. "And I have an answer; it will be a noble year for twins."
This seemed to ease Alcina, who let out a long breath. "Thank you so much!" she said.
"That's all you need? Don't you want a full reading?" Sokka asked, shaking his head, as though someone disappointed in her.
"I guess I really only had one overwhelming question and she just answered it." Alcina said, "Nothing else matters as much."
"If there was more to say, the spirits would have told me to bring her back, but as it is, they were resounding about that," Aunt Wu agreed.
"Katara, you next," Sokka said.
"Actually, boy, I'll take you." Aunt Wu said.
"Uh, no. I don't need my fortune read," Sokka shrugged.
"I think you might want to hear what I have to say."
Sokka exchanged a weird look with Katara but followed her nonetheless. Katara sat back down, already having been ready to follow her.
"Princess Katara, that's your name, right?" Meng questioned, "More tea?" Katara hadn't even realized that she'd had all of hers until she was staring at the bottom of her cup.
"Sure."
"Look," Meng started uneasily, "You can tell your brother I'm flattered but-"
"What?" Katara blinked.
"He's been flirting with me this whole time. Asking me questions and stuff," Meng said. Katara frowned. He had been making a big effort to talk to her. "Aunt Wu told me I was gunna marry a guy with big ears, and no offense, your brother's ears are average."
"Erm, thanks? I'll let him know," Katara said, blinking at the interaction that had just occurred.
Sokka was in with Aunt Wu the longest, nearly fifteen minutes. When he reappeared, he looked sallow.
"So?" Katara prompted.
"It's not true. She's just...she's not…" Sokka spat out. "I stand by it. Fortune tellers are all phonies," he said firmly, but seemed unwilling to share what he'd heard or explain his sudden caginess.
"Princess?" Aunt Wu waited for her at the door.
Katara gathered herself, still unsure what she wanted to know, if anything at all.
The room was cozy. There was a scent of burning incense lingering and a warm fire. It made her outfit feel a little too heavy and she wished she could strip her layers. As it was, it was unlikely she'd be in here for a long time. She fanned herself with her fingers the best she could, wishing she was an airbender so she could do something as stupid as cool herself off.
Katara sat on a bigger, softer cousin that was in the middle of the room. Katara mused upon the methods that she'd seen in their short time.
"You're wondering how I see the future, dear," Aunt Wu said.
"A little, but well, everyone must...don't they?" Katara asked, craning her head up to the cloth-covered ceiling.
"You'd be surprised. Many are simply complacent with their place in the world, wondering no more or no less than what's outside their doors each day. They are pleased with simple predictions; if it will rain tomorrow or if they'll have a safe journey in three days. Very few question things and seek deeper truths."
"So I'm different?" Katara raised an eyebrow. "So...I ask a question and you...magic the answer somehow? Bring it forth?"
"No. There are many ways to divine the future or deeper truths. Ty Lee sees people, I see time. We are not dissimilar. Rather, the truths to the future exist around everyone. They are not something I am pulling from the bottom of a lake, but we are swimming in, at any moment. I have just learned how to best interpret the answers and sharpen what you seek," Aunt Wu said. "It's like a swarm of bees above your head. I just find the exact bee you have a question about, but all the other bees do not fail to exist."
"Ah," Katara said absently. "What if I have no question that I wish to ask?" she asked in a soft voice.
"That is fine, Princess. You are open to any sort of response from the spirits, that is good." Aunt Wu held out a basket of animal bones. "These will help me seek through your spirit aura. Choose one and throw it on the fire," she instructed.
Katara felt her fingers draw her to a long, curved one. She looked at Aunt Wu, who only gave her an encouraging smile. Katara threw it onto the fire. It crackled and sizzled, until Aunt Wu fished it out with a pair of tongs.
"Mhh, so, I see you're a native-born Fire Nationer. Water is important to you," she began, looking over the bone's crackled edge at Katara.
"One out of two." Katara couldn't help but wince. It was pretty obvious she was Water Nation, wasn't she?
Aunt Wu looked deeply distressed. She looked at the bone again, then back at Katara. Katara half expected her to fake some reason why she'd flubbed her original reading, but she instead just ignored it and moved on. Her face was set into a frown, like she couldn't make sense of something.
"Okay, well, you made a great sacrifice for your town, did you not?"
Katara felt uneasiness settled over her, "Tribe, but erm, well, yes I suppose I did."
Aunt Wu looked more relieved that she'd been able to see that, though Katara wasn't sure it made her feel okay.
"And would you say that you are a voice for those who did not have a voice? That you performed a selfless act for your people?"
"In a way, perhaps," Katara said, gnawing on her lip.
"Also, did you-" Aunt Wu broke off, face pale.
"What?" Katara asked, breath increasing. "Tell me, what do you see?" she asked, leaning forward nearly over the fire, desperate to know what caused such a paleness to the woman's face.
"It says here you died."
"I'm going to die?" Katara echoed, her voice cracked in terror and anguish.
"No, that you did. Have you ever had a near death experience?"
Katara thought back. "Well, I mean...another contestant tried to poison me. Unsuccessfully, but I suppose…" Katara swallowed hard. "Would that count?"
Aunt Wu did not look convinced. "Yes, yes. That must be it."
"Oh, well, that's a relief...I guess…" Katara tried to ignore the urge to get up and leave now. "Does it say something about my future?"
"It seems to be intertwined with your future, your past that is." Aunt Wu turned the bone every which way. "It's hard to untangle the two from each other. This, Princess, is not something I've come across before. It's most peculiar…" she said, "But...yes, I think this is part of the future, your future," she added, which Katara found a weird thing to specify.
"Yes?"
"You will be in a fight. It will have a great sacrifice, but your rewards will end up being exactly what you seek. You will find your companion where you least expect it. It will be a child of a dark dragon and humble girl. "
Katara thought back to what Sokka had said about Aunt Wu just throwing out phrases with the hope one hit home. She couldn't help but feel a little let down.
"It's not more clear?"
"I'm sorry, Princess, but this is a very strange bone reading," she said. "I wish I could be of more assistance."
"No, no." Katara felt her hands shake. "I suppose you've been most helpful."
She stood, bowing to the elder. She couldn't help but feel like her legs were shaking hard as she walked outside.
It had to be talking about the tournament. What sacrifice would be made? And what was that she sought after the tournament? Zuko? Her people's salvation? Both? How did Aunt Wu know the answer to that if Katara herself did not even know?
Or maybe the spirits knew and Katara did not!
And the comment about her companion. Did that mean romantic love? Best friend? Partner in crime? But it sounded an awful lot like Zuko and his parents, did it not?
Spirits, Katara had more questions than she did when she walked in!
"Hey Kat. Were the answers of the universe unveiled to you?" Sokka asked sardonically.
"Maybe," Katara replied tightly. "I guess it's a lot to think about."
"Everything...okay?" Sokka asked, realizing she wasn't hitting him or yelling at him.
"If I choose to believe it, it's just a lot to take in," Katara said, unwilling to share her concerns with him. "What now, General Iron?" she asked, specifically turning around to their leader.
"Well, Meng was just telling me about the most wonderful little tea shop near a market! If you ladies would like that, we might as well make the most of our day while Prince Zuko handles some boring meetings…"
XXxxXX
"Can't believe that we lost those airbenders again," Aang overheard one of the other soldiers grumble.
"Well, they're literally light on their feet," another whispered in the darkness of their camp for the night. "And now they have to know we're after them."
"Yeah, but what about good ole turning on thy neighbor? I'm surprised we haven't had better luck."
"Zhao's pissed," a third voice said, shuddering. "If we don't find at least one soon…"
"Where do you think they're going?" the first voice asked again. Aang rolled himself more snugly in his night furs, trying not to be obvious he was eavesdropping, but terribly curious. His fingers played with a long roll of fishing twine, distracting them from shaking.
"Airbenders?"
"Well, they could be anyway. They can fly," the second whispered in awe.
"No, they can ride the wind, idiot," the first said, and Aang heard a thump as they hit him across they head. "But they can climb things easier, I'd bet. Maybe we just need to start looking in the trees," he laughed, the joke funny only to him.
"Little vermin," the third one spat. "I hate having to hunt 'em like this. Who thought they'd be so intelligent?"
Aang tried not to inhale too sharply, too angrily.
Calm, my brother, Kuruk intoned, Do not let them see your anger.
Aang pressed his lips together. The handful of airbenders that Rasra had managed to find, the five that Zhao had originally gotten the tip about, and three today that Aang had managed to intercept before Zhao and the soldiers found them, and apparently a few more they picked up on their own. Nearly twelve airbenders, all hopefully on their way to the safe-house Zuko had set up.
But it still wasn't enough. If there was still one singular airbender out there that Zhao could kill and torture, Aang's work was not done.
We are walking a thin line, Kasata whispered to the group sitting in Aang's mind. Save too many groups that Zhao was actively hunting and he'd start to wise up that someone was funneling information. They needed to be just getting the word out, somehow.
"Whatcha got there, Prince Kuzon?"
Aang nearly jumped out of his skin. One of the guards near Aang's sleeping furs had noticed what he was braiding in his fingers. The voices of the three whispering guards that Aang had been listening to fell quiet.
Aang did not correct him. Many people assumed he was a prince or a prince-adjacent. It was fine. Aang was so used to being called faux names that it hardly registered as strange at this point.
He sighed. "Nothing much," he said, looking down. It was a simple necklace, braided from a roll of fishing line he'd found near the sea today. There was a soft pink flower in the middle of it. He hadn't realized what he'd done until now...but yes, Ty Lee would like that.
"Ooh, is that for a girl, sir?" the guard asked, eyes glimmering. "Is there going to be another Royal Wedding soon?"
"What? No."
"So you're just casually making your casual hook-up a casual necklace," the guard said, snorting. "Suuuureee."
"Well, I-" Aang turned bright red. "We're not...we haven't even...it's very complicated."
The man shrugged, rolling back. "Did she tell you that? That's what my wife said. One day we were 'complicated' the next day we were 'married'." He laughed. "So watch out, I suppose."
"Do you miss your wife?" Aang asked, realizing he knew very little about all the guards Zhao had tapped for this mission.
"Of course I do. Drives me nuts, but I still love 'er," he said, staring up at the stars. "She's always worried about me. I know it's just airbenders and they used to be all love and peace and all, but we're fighting a new war. Who knows what might happen."
"You'd die for Zhao's war?"
"It's Fire Lord Ozai's, isn't it?" The man frowned. "But what choice do I have? If he says it's for the good of the nation, well, I'm not a Lord so I couldn't know."
Aang was silent for a very long time.
"I think she'll really like it."
"Huh?"
"The girl you're not making it for. I think it's sweet, kid."
XXxxXX
Katara paced in her room that night. Aunt Wu's predictions swam in her head, unable to let her close her eyes for even a second before she was jumping back up, trying to unriddle them.
A great sacrifice; did this mean she was going to lose? Win? Would someone die? Was she going to be horribly injured?
It was all too much for her mind to handle.
"What does she know?" Katara hissed to herself, rubbing her arms. "You are the master of your own fate, not...whatever she sees…" she tried to tell herself, looking out onto the balcony.
She found a tin of water near her bed in case she got thirsty. Katara raised her fingers, lifting the water from the barrel. She started simple, molding the water into soft circles and a long whip, cracking it at a flower pot in the corner, slicing off a petal cleanly.
She made it into a spear in her fingers, feeling the water harden to ice. She made it into a dagger, into a sword, into a great big sphere that rumbled around the room.
Katara made the water dance like a bear on display, sliding her feet along the wooden floor of the room, twisting her wrist and ankles as she swung around. She made an impenetrable shield in front of her, wide and thick and glistening, ready to catch anything that came her way.
She went through all the motions of the waterbending stances over and over and over until she felt the sweat drip down her back.
But she still was not satisfied.
On the railing outside was a turtledove.
Katara cautiously opened the double-doors, letting the cool summer's air whoosh over her flesh. Goosebumps rose along her arms as she dipped her fingers into the now-dirtied water from her practicing, letting it coat over her fingers and palms as tight to her skin as a perfect glove.
"Hey, there," she cooed at it softly. "Just...I'm not trying to hurt you, okay?" she asked.
Her last animal to practice on had been a hummingbird. An actual bird was a great deal larger, but Katara felt the desperation freeze her veins with worry.
She stepped into her third stance, sliding her fingers out, trying to reach into the bird to feel the blood that pumped under the feathers.
It was there, like she was trying to grasp a thread billowing in the wind. She clenched her fingers harder, and like lightning hitting her, she was connected.
The bird began to fuss, no doubt feeling its will being taken momentarily, and Katara could feel the animal fighting against her.
"Shh, shh," Katara tried to calm it. "It's okay. Just...move...over...there…" she urged. She could feel it fighting back, but slowly she was able to bend the blood to its foot and make it hop to the other side of the balcony. She could feel its little heart fluttering frantically, terror gripping it.
"I know you're afraid," Katara said, "I'm not going to hurt you. I just need to practice. I'm sorry, I'm sorry," she said, shaking her head. "Okay...let's take flight?"
She cracked her knuckles as she expanded the wings, lifting her fingers as the dove leapt into the air. She made it fly in place for a second.
But, like a rope vine stretched too far, she could feel the connection was close to snapping. Before she could stop the whiplash, the connection broke apart. Katara stumbled forward, spilling her water out the balcony and slamming her lip against the doorframe. The bird made scared trills as it flew far away.
"Awe, crap…" Katara muttered. She raised her fingers to her bottom lip, feeling it bruised and split open. Droplets of blood dribbled onto the floor.
All her water was gone.
Her own blood was water, sure, but she wasn't ready to try that experiment yet.
Sighing, she threw on a robe, careful not to stain it, and creaked the door open to the hotel they were staying in.
It was past moon high, so most were asleep. There was not a single person awake, sans the guards, and Katara recalled where she saw the kitchen was. She would just pop in quick, grab some water, and heal her lip before anyone was the wiser.
She pushed the door open, spying a water pump at the edge of the room. Katara felt some residue of water in the pipe, not wanting to wake anyone by creaking the handle, and pulled it into the basin. Cool water rushed out with a splatter, spraying her hands.
She scooped her fingers in, pressing it against her lip and sighing as the cold water numbed and healed.
Someone grabbed her wrist.
Katara spun to find Zuko, seeming thoroughly exhausted, staring at her hand in the dim light. He looked sooty and weary, wearing just a pair of light shorts and a white cotton undershirt. His uniform was rolled under his arm.
"Why is it that whenever I find you, you're bleeding or about to make someone else bloody?" he asked, spying the smudges of her injury on her skin.
She snapped her hand back. "I see you're talking to me now."
"If I recall," Zuko said hotly, baring his teeth, "You were the one who refused to speak to me."
"You deserved it," Katara said, bending some of the water into a glass with every intention of going back to her room.
"Did you find out your fortune from the seer?" Zuko asked, but there was a hint of malice in his tone. Katara paused, turning.
"You don't believe? How original," she said, in a crappy mood as it was.
"I don't, no," Zuko confirmed, "Not in the way you girls seem to fawn over it."
Katara clenched her jaw, trying to keep from trembling. "Did you just get back?" she asked, changing the subject.
"Yes," he said, yawning. "The mayor took me up the volcano. It's not close to erupting, but I still spent the day helping them fortify the barricades, in case it does." He gave an emotionless laugh. "Had I been smarter, I would have brought you."
"Me?" Katara asked, bewildered.
"Yes. It would have been better if you'd been there to help. I was bending the lava, no small task mind you, and we were just waiting for it to solidify as a barrier. If we could have had someone dousing it with water, it would have hardened faster."
"Sounds like a lot of work," was all Katara could think to say, "Dangerous."
Zuko huffed, shrugging, as though this was per the norm.
"I suppose I didn't quite know what I'd be doing today," Zuko finally said. "And I wouldn't have wanted to put the girls in harm's way," he said, lifting his arm to show a pulsing, oozing crackled wound. A scorched burn. "The lava…." he trailed off, though it needed little explanation.
Katara considered all he'd said. She thought that if she hadn't gone to Wu's, perhaps they could have mended this argument together. Maybe she would not be worried by empty words, as it seemed now, or strange predictions.
But, as it was, Katara was still pissed at him. Sort of.
"So you're willing to risk my life, but not the others? Glad to know I'm expendable," she sighed, motioning for him to come to her. He narrowed his eyes, no doubt wondering if this was some sort of trap until Katara held up a glowing set of fingers wetted with water.
He came toward her, tripping over his feet as he did so.
"It's not...you could handle yourself. I know that well," Zuko said. "I wouldn't be fussing over you like I would be for Lady Besu, for example," he said, seemingly too exhausted to argue or having reached a point in which he did not want to.
Katara hummed in response, grasping his underarm to twist it upwards, giving her better access. As soon as she ghosted her fingers over the wound, both of them winced. It was no small thing to heal someone, and it produced an intimate reactionary feeling if you let it. Zuko stayed silent as Katara healed him. She wasn't about to let him go walking around with such a bad open blister, not when it was such an easy fix for her.
There was nothing she could think to say, not until she finished and he pulled back, rubbing his fingers over the newly stitched skin, shiny and sore.
"You look tired."
"You'd be right," Zuko said, leaning against a countertop. "I...I got these for each of you…" he said, pulling a leather square from his rolled items. He unfurled it to show four flowers. "Rare fire lilies. They only grow on the edge of the volcano."
"What a thoughtful and non-personalized gift," Katara said, but took one from the group anyway. Zuko shook his head, about to say something, but he licked his lips and kept it back.
"I'm trying Katara," he finally settled on, a soft whisper.
"Trying to do what?" she asked, halfway in the hallway to her room already.
"Find love," he said, sounding broken. His tone nearly shattered her, but she thought of the past few days between them, and then Wu's prophecy.
She gripped the stem tighter, keeping herself from saying something that would start a fight or make him want to kiss her. Still, it was not within her nature to leave a room utterly silent.
"Goodnight Zuko. Thank you for the flower."
Notes:
Hey guys.
So, yeah.
It's been a bit.
Early November, my boyfriend of 8 years pretty much broke up with me out of the blue. In a lot of ways, relationships and writing have always been closley tied and for most of November, I just really couldn't muster anything within me to write. I just felt really torn down, defeated in a sense. And, even if now I'm starting to edge back into it, this story specifically was something that he actually had a bit of involvement in. He'd seen the series and even if he wasn't a shipper, I would bounce ideas through him and all, so more than any of my other ongoing fics, this one has been the hardest to come back to after it's all said and done. I think that this breakup was the right thing, in the long run, but it still just really blows, you know?
I don't want to make promises I can't keep. I don't want to leave you hanging either. I am still very excited about the story itself, but my muse just hasn't been around lately. I am sorta taking a hiatus from all my writing for the rest of the month, mostly so I can re-connect with friends and family, so we'll see where the new year brings us to.
On less depressing notes, some things on this chapter!
*I really enjoy writing Wu and her really vague predictions! So fun hehe. Any guesses about what Katara's (or Alcina's, since we heard hers) meant?
*Apparently, when my mom was in college, she went to a fortune-teller who told her a lot of things that have ACTUALLY happened. Have any of you ever been to one? Has anything ever come true?
*Fun fact, if you didn't know, is that Meng's voice actor is the same as Toph's! They liked her so much when they introduced Toph in s2, they brought back Jessie Flowers for the voice. Originally, I had this interlocking secondary plot I was going to do that Toph and Meng were sisters separated, but our lovely beta suggested that I already had a lot going on. Sometimes you just gotta kill your darlings. One day I'll write up a more complete idea of where that plot line was going to head, but it doesn't change anything in the grander story, so *shrug*.
Sorry again for the long wait, but I hope you all enjoy this chapter.
Chapter 20
Notes:
Yep, still here! Not dead and not abandoned...just busy af
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lieutenant Lee met Zuko at the palace doors upon their arrival from Makapu.
"Your highness, your father said that he wanted to call a meeting as soon as you arrived."
"At this hour?" Zuko growled.
"Unfortunately."
"Look, our little family get-togethers can wait until tomorrow," Zuko said. "We're all exhausted. It's been a very long day of traveling, you see."
"No." Lee had a wild, fearful look in his eye. "A meeting for you and all the Contestants."
"Great." Zuko pinched the bridge of his nose. "His last 'group meeting' went over so well."
"That's what I'm afraid of, sir," Lee said with a long, exhausted sigh.
"And you have no idea what this might be?" Zuko asked. "The tournament's in what…" He counted off on his fingers. "Eight days? What could my father possibly have decided that will upend these girls again? And why am I just hearing about this?"
"Well, I think you're hearing about it now," Lee said, wincing.
"I...arg...that man," Zuko kicked the wall.
"Sir, are you okay? You seem more angry than usual."
"I'm fine," Zuko snapped, though he did have to admit he was angrier than usual. Not only was the tournament fast approaching (and Zuko had thoughts about that; mostly he hated his control about the future of his wife being so easily taken away, but he had considered this was the punishment for dragging his feet), but Katara seemed out to get under his skin. Well, she usually did, but before it had been with cute and sexy teasing things. Now, she just seemed like she was a thorn in his side. Whenever he thought he was making headway on her iciness towards him, something else would get her angry again.
"Stupid father, stupid tournament, stupid announcements…" Zuko grumbled as he shucked off his traveling clothes, throwing them in an untidy pile at his feet. "Lee, find my hand servant. How long before this 'meeting'?"
"Now that you're here, likely an hour to gather and sit everyone."
"Perfect. Have my hand servant draw a bath. Scalding. With any luck, I'll fry before I have to sit through whatever brilliant idea my father's about to announce."
He paused in the doorway, thinking of something suddenly.
"Yes, sir?" Lee said, seeing him stop.
"Is my cousin Kuzon back yet?" he asked, inhaling.
"Not yet, sir."
"Let me know when the second he's returned."
XXxxXX
Katara tried to hold back her fifth yawn, with little success. She covered her mouth, shuffling to the meeting space with the rest of the girls.
"Gee, Katara, why so tired?" Toph said, punching her shoulder, "Is it because you and the Prince were up to naughty, naughty things on your trip?"
"Ha, hardly," Katara said, blinking back her dreariness. "We'd have to actually be talking for that to happen."
"Ye-ouch." Toph raised her eyebrows. "That tone could cut steel, Sugar Queen."
"It's the truth. Try, rather, being shoved into a tiny, bouncy box for eight hours and being expected to get any sleep at all."
"So the trip sucked?" Toph surmised, scratching her ear, but she didn't sound surprised.
Katara gnawed her lip, thinking of Aunt Wu and her predictions. Of bloodbending and splitting her lip open. Of the feelings that swarmed her mind as she stitched Zuko's veins back together, how connected she felt delving inside of his body. Of the flower pressed between one of her books, a flower that she felt like a lovesick fool for holding on to.
"Yeah, it sort of did."
"A damn good reason to not want to travel," Toph said, crossing her arms.
"And here?" Katara asked. Toph made a 'neh' sound.
"Same old, same old."
"Don't undercut it, Toph," Suki said, coming up from behind and slinging her arms around the pair of girls' shoulders. "The reading room with all the plants and greenery got new curtains. That's something novel, wouldn't you say!"
"Ooh," Katara said, acting far more interested than the topic demanded, nodding dramatically. "Are they green again? The last curtains really looked awful with all the trees."
"No, no," Suki patted her heart. "They did us proud, Katara," she said, faking a sniffle, as though these curtains had brought a man back from the dead. "They're ...a light beige now!"
"You two are ridiculous," Toph said.
"You've got to enjoy the little things," Suki said, "or else we'd all go mad here."
"Who says we aren't already?" Toph shot back.
Katara tapped the side of her nose. "She's onto something, Suki."
"Oh, totally."
Katara's wide, genuine smile could not remain. As she stared at the pair of her friends, she realized that she wasn't sure anyone would win the upcoming tournament, and - for as good of warriors as these two were - there was still the small chance that they'd be leaving. Or that Katara would leave and they would remain here.
As much as they joked about the palace feeling droll each day here, at least it was consistent. There hadn't been a girl cut in weeks and things had fallen into a safe, familiar pattern. Katara would have never thought she'd be the one to like 'safe' things, but now...now she was beginning to find solace in the same people and the same things. Change meant saying goodbye to those she loved, one way or another.
If she were smarter, or if she were someone of more conviction, she would have never made these connections here. Not with Zuko, not with Aang, not with Aiga, not with the girls. She would have done what she came to do and would be back in her village losing no sleep over stupid, sexy princes.
But would that be better? Was it better to care so deeply for him than never at all? That was the question that she was still wrapping her mind around.
Zuko was already sitting, though Aang was not in attendance. Ozai's insufferable guard dog, Zhao, was still absent too, so Katara could only assume he was still off being a reprehensible person.
Zuko looked tired. If Katara had imagined him able to catch any wink of sleep, she was mistaken. It was late and all any of them wished to do was go to bed. Even the girls who had spent the last few days in the palace looked tired, with Jin stifling yawns like Katara was and Kilee halfway dozing off on Saoirse's shoulder.
"This cannot be good," Suki whispered. Even her joking tone had vanished, realizing that the Fire Lord didn't call a late-night, all-contestant meeting for no good reason.
"Ladies, why the tired faces?" Ozai purred, as though he didn't know it was nearly midnight. He and Azula were possibly the only ones who did not look absolutely knackered, though it wasn't by much.
No one had the courage to answer. Katara would have, had she been awake enough to think of a clever answer in reply. She would have delighted in seeing that look on Ozai's face like he'd just sucked on a lemon. The way she saw it, she was halfway out the door anyway.
Katara couldn't help but look at Zuko. She knew his tells well at this point. While to most girls, it may seem as though he was sitting dutifully, she could glean from the slight shift of his posture and the way his eyes stayed focused unflinchingly on Ozai that he had no idea what his father was about to say either. That did not bode well.
"As many of you are aware, the tournaments are in just a few short days," Ozai continued. This got everyone's attention, whether it was to send some girls into a moment of panic or to cause others to fall into a sad resignation. "And I couldn't help but feel as though we are not properly marking the occasion."
"What does he want? A commemorative plaque?" Toph muttered.
"It was brought to my attention that despite the pomp and circumstance we've been expressing, the matter of the situation seems to pale in comparison. And, it has been expressed that perhaps you all deserve a day of celebration too. With these tournaments, we will be one step closer to finding Prince Zuko a wife. However, many of you will probably be going home," he added, much to many girls' horror, "And yet, you are all very agreeable brides."
"Gee, now I feel like my life is complete, knowing that," Toph said. Katara shushed her, not because of her comments, but because she was close to bursting out laughing. The idea of Toph being an 'agreeable bride' at any time was preposterous.
"The day of the tournaments is the day after the Summer Solstice, which was not entirely unplanned. We usually have a small celebration for the spirits, but we have decided to make the celebration an event this year. The day before the tournament, we will hold a Masquerade ball in honor of the spirits! All will be invited; parents, family, other possible respectable matches...a thank you, to all of you, for doing your duty to your nation by being here."
The mood shifted instantly, mostly to glee or excitement, sans a few. Toph gave a groan like she was dying, muttering something with a lot of swear words and finishing with 'another ball', Suki pulled back as though unsure on how to respond, and Katara instantly went into a panic. Or, her brain was kicked into overdrive.
She did not believe for a second that Ozai did anything 'nice' for anyone. Food, marriage prospects, fun, celebrating? There had to be a catch – other than distracting the girls the day before the tournament – something far more dastardly. She just did not know what yet.
"Shi will be around tomorrow to speak with each of you and find a spirit for you to masquerade as. She and your handmaids will be fashioning costumes and masks for all of you. I know that this competition has been weighing on everyone," Ozai said, with a look of sympathy (fake, Katara thought, obviously). "So, we wanted to alleviate this issue in other ways. We know the hour is late, but we thought it best to let you know immediately, to give you the night to sleep upon it. Tomorrow and the day after, you will be allowed to make a list of all whom you wish to invite as well as give Shi some ideas of what sort of costumes you may desire. Tomorrow, we will also be around to collect a list of your chosen weapons, but that is less important. I think we all can agree that we need this sort of break."
His eyes were like a wolf's: glittering gold, cold, and calculating.
"Goodnight, ladies."
XXxxXX
"Ty Lee," Zuko said, catching the girl's attention as she exited breakfast. He waved her over.
"Hello, Zuko," Ty Lee said, one of the few girls that could get away with publicly dropping his title, seeing as she'd lived in the palace for a long time and was more preferable than most of his family.
"It's, uh, been a while since we went on a date. You have any afternoon plans?"
Ty Lee scrunched up her nose, half in confusion. "No, I suppose not. Are you talking about right now?"
"If you'd be willing."
Ty Lee gave a short chuckle. "If the Prince is asking, I don't see why not."
Zuko resisted rolling his eyes at her minor cheek and offered her his arm. The girls that she'd been exiting with were whispering, no doubt trying to analyze this as they did everything else he did. Some of the girls were sending snooty glances at Ty Lee.
Zuko felt like guffawing. If only they knew.
"Where are we going today Zuko?" Ty Lee asked, tucking a strand of her bangs behind an ear. "Or is it a secret?"
"Just…" Zuko was reticent to speak too openly about where he was bringing her. Ty Lee seemed to understand and she quieted or at least switched to asking him non-probing questions. Things about how he was enjoying traveling or about his excitement for the upcoming ball, which he volleyed back in polite answers. He took the long way around, bringing them outside to the Royal Maze.
"Thought it might be fun to attempt it," Zuko said. It was a lie; they both knew their way in and out of the hedge maze, having memorized it in their younger years. However, it was a location without guards or followers or ears on them, something without fuss but still in secret.
They made a few wrong turns, dragging themselves deeper and deeper into the maze. They continued to talk about non-essentials until they were both content with how far they'd gone.
As they walked, though, Zuko turned to really look at Ty Lee.
When his father had told him, rather point-blank, that Mai and Ty Lee would be joining the competition for his hand, he'd been unsurprised. At that point, he and Mai hadn't had things to talk about in years, so a part of him had been cautiously excited to get to know Ty Lee better. You'd be a fool not to notice her kind nature, her gentle soul, and her amazing abilities. A part of Zuko had wondered if his love had been right under his nose his entire life and he'd just never known it.
Now, having seen sides of her he'd never considered before, he knew how wrong he was.
Ty Lee was like a sister to him, one he most fervently wanted to protect at all costs. It wasn't dissimilar to how he saw Aang, so perhaps it should not surprise him so about their connection.
He should be furious. Instead, he was just pleased they found one another.
Still, it made for an awkward situation here.
"Is Kuzon back yet?" Finally, Ty Lee could resist no longer. Her voice was timid, near afraid.
"He was meant to return last night." Zuko frowned. "Alas, Zhao had written ahead saying that they're chasing something down near the Earth Kingdom."
"You're worried," Ty Lee observed. "Your aura is...full of it. That's near…" She trailed off, swallowing. Zuko nodded but would not say more of it. He could not allow so many people to be aware of the location of the airbenders, even someone like Ty Lee who would rather die than give it up.
"Oh, no," Ty Lee whispered softly, "That's horrible."
"Yes." Zuko agreed, unsure if any other words could convey the horror and anguish he felt about the murder of the airbenders and anyone who stood with them.
"I hope he's okay."
"He's probably better than before, having people that care about him," Zuko said. Ty Lee, trailing her fingers along the vines and leaves, hummed.
"This little group is good for him."
"You know that's not what I meant," Zuko coughed. Ty Lee turned.
"Will you have me...killed, Prince Zuko?"
There was true fear in her voice, something she couldn't mask if she tried. And, her fear was entirely justified. If he were a different ruler, a different man, a woman in the choice falling for someone else was a sign of a traitor. It was punishable by the deepest degree.
"Of course not," Zuko spat. "I'm happy for both of you. Honest. It does, however…" He scowled, "You'll probably win your fight, you know."
Ty Lee wrapped her arms around herself. "Do you think Azula would still wish me to remain here even if I were to leave the Choice? Then I could...foster this. With Kuzon, of course," she asked.
Zuko grimaced. "I don't know."
"I was thinking of throwing the fight(?) anyway," she admitted in a quiet, near-hurried whisper. "I'm sorry, Zuko, I just-"
She sniffled.
"Hey, hey," Zuko said, always unsure of how to deal with crying girls. "No, it's okay. I don't think we'd work as a couple anyway," he added with a laugh. "I could see you becoming a fair Fire Lady, of course, and a good partner."
"But there would be no spark," Ty Lee finished. She gave him a hug, tight around his waist. "I tried. I wanted to fall for you, however I…" She shrugged, shaking her head. "Fate had other plans, I suppose."
"Fate," Zuko snorted. "Azula may be upset. She was actually hoping I'd marry you, to be truthful."
"Me?" Ty Lee stepped back, frowning. "But what about...Mai? She spent so much of our childhood orchestrating the two of you that I was sure…"
"So was I," Zuko admitted. "However, last I talked to her, she didn't seem to think that Mai was the best choice anymore. I can't say. Who knows though?" Out of all the crazy things Azula was up to lately, her weird wishy-washy feelings about his bride were the least of his concerns.
"I hope I haven't given her any indication I liked you, other than what was expected of me," Ty Lee said, now seeming very concerned about it all. "Though, I guess, we haven't talked much lately."
"Look, I'll keep you on. I'll find something," Zuko said firmly. "One less girl would probably - never mind. He really likes you, you know?"
"I have a feeling, though it's difficult." Ty Lee rubbed her arms, as though catching a chill. "I've been careful. We haven't done or said anything that could...well, you know."
"Not even a chaste kiss?" Zuko said, deeply surprised. From how Aang looked at her, he would have been sure that they'd done at least this, but perhaps Ty Lee was more virtuous than he imagined.
"To be safe," Ty Lee said, "Honestly, I'll be glad to leave. It's suffocating at the worst of times. Until you get down on one knee, the girls will be ruthless and all. Well, some. Some I think have seen the writing on the wall. I've heard the talk a few will just opt out of the fight, as they doubt they'll win anyway."
"So I've heard." Zuko was not unaware of the cattiness of some of the contestants. "Ty Lee…?"
"Mhh?"
Zuko was deeply curious to ask about Katara, but he restrained himself. "Just, thanks. For being my friend."
Ty Lee put a hand on his arm."You're like family to me."
Zuko couldn't help but snort. "You might actually be soon enough."
Ty Lee's blush was something that he couldn't help but smile wider at. She hid her face, shaking her head, but found she had no words to speak anyway.
XXxxXX
"This has to be a trap! The ball, the masquerade, the whole thing!" Katara paced, throwing her hands up. "He just...it's...arg! Toph? Toph!"
"Huh?"
"It's a trap, right?"
Toph was absent-minded. Katara could tell that much. It was so unlike her to be staring out windows with a misty expression, yet here she was. Admittedly, she was staring straight at a wall, but the comparison is still apt. Wherever she was, her mind had just been a thousand miles away. Katara loved her friend, but she doubted Toph would ever offer up what was clearly getting to her.
"Maybe Ozai just likes balls. He seems to throw a lot of them," Toph offered, scrunching up her nose. "Maybe, it's been his lifelong dream to be a party planner but boo-hoo, he had to be the Fire Lord."
"Toph, be serious!" Katara snapped, spinning around.
"I am."
"Hardly," she said, "Aren't you concerned, like, at all?"
Toph didn't answer. She was staring off again.
"Toph." Katara snapped her fingers to get her attention. "Tui, what is up with you?" she demanded.
"I just have a lot of shit going on, Sugar Queen," Toph said, crossing her arms sourly.
"Like your family?" Katara sighed, looking at her still-unpacked bags and checking the sun. Soon, someone would be collecting Toph on her trip to Gaoling with the Prince and a few other girls, the second-to-last travel destination before the ball and the tournament.
"Yes, my family, what else would it be?" Toph was quick to fire back, her tone touchier than usual.
"Sorry, geez...I'm only trying to figure out a madman's plans, but fine," Katara said.
"You're in a mood too! Didja ever think that Ole Mr. Sparks is just doing it to actually be nice? He has to know a lot are going to leave and it's not exactly a nice exit."
"No, I don't think he has a genuine bone in his body. Maybe he's planning on distracting us the night before. Or...or poisoning the food and drink so we perform worse! Or-"
"And yeah?" Toph said, closing her trunk with a snap, foregoing any more effort on sealing it nicely. "Okay, so maybe he is. What are you gonna be able to do about it?"
Katara opened and closed her mouth, unable to reply. Toph grumbled, stuffing her clothes into her bags without an effort to fold or preserve them.
"Unless it's something you can fight, you're SOL, sister. You can't very well go around the ball karate-chopping shrimp cocktails out of people's hands," Toph said, lugging the bags off her bed. "C'mon. Let's just walk downstairs anyway."
Katara helped Toph bring her things down to the area where the carriage was waiting to take the girls on their trip. Since Toph was blind, Katara was allowed to remain with her, though they both knew Toph needed zero help. Katara's mood was sour, mostly because she knew Toph was right. She couldn't do anything, other than tell people. The worst of it was that this probably was some big trick and there was nothing she could do. No more than she could do about the tournament, which was blatantly dangerous, but hardly anyone but her seemed to care!
"Ah, there you two are!" Shi popped her head into the waiting area. "Mind if I catch you before you leave, Lady Bei Fong? I need to get some ideas for your masquerade ball costume and about your fighting preferences."
"Might as well," Toph sighed, obvious she'd been attempting to avoid her. "I imagine my family wouldn't be happy if I did anything less than my family's crest, or something to that approximation."
"The winged boar?" Shi said, scribbling something. "There's a myth about a princess, isn't there?"
"Yep. Prissy and pathetic and all. But it will look good for a mask. Not as though I'll see anyone anyway."
Shi seemed to pointedly ignore Toph and turned to Katara.
She had been thinking about this a lot. A part of her wanted to dress as the Painted Lady, as she'd taken it on as a symbol, a personal connection to her soul. She felt like she understood this spirit in a way unlike anything else.
Still, three things kept her from immediately speaking this.
One; she feared someone making a connection with the town's Painted Lady and getting caught because of this.
Two; it was sort of her and Zuko's thing and she wasn't sure she and Zuko were a thing anymore.
Three; on that note, if Katara was going to be gone because of this damned tournament, she wasn't going to go around as a Fire Nation spirit, appeasing Ozai. She wanted to be as obviously and obnoxiously Southern Water Tribe as possible.
"I'd like to fashion mine as my tribe's ancestral woman, The Cougar Daughter, Nukilik." Katara said, knowing that there was no one she'd rather be associated with right now, and also bringing forth her given 'Mark of the Brave' titles. "I could meet with you later today to go over the myth. If you make the base of the dress, I'll sew all the beads onto it. I'd like the monotonous activity, honestly."
"But, Princess," Shi frowned. "Wouldn't you rather a different inspiration? We have a whole host of beautiful goddesses and spirits! Whole books that-"
"No," Katara replied curtly. "I would very much like it to be her."
Shi sighed, nodding, realizing there would be no budging her. The other girls from the Water Tribe may try to assimilate to the nation they hoped to marry into, choosing spirits of Earth or Fire, but Katara was going to go out as she came in: a controversy.
"Onto the weapons," Shi said, shifting her papers to pull out a second sheet. "So, just because a few other ladies have been asking...you are allowed three weapons. Firebending counts as just one, a type of bending that is different counts as another-"
"You can just say earthbending and metalbending," Toph grumped.
"Or, like that," Shi said, acting as though the rule wasn't made specifically for Toph. "You will get a list tomorrow of what the Royal Family will be using, but they will not get a list of what you have chosen, just to try to give you an edge, as these are seasoned fighters. On the day of the tournament, the Fire Sages will draw random names as a match up. They will schedule the matches so the Royal Family members get a reprieve between their fights, but no one will know who faces who until you both walk out to meet each other. They will line up the three girls in a queue behind the scenes, but otherwise, you will be allowed to watch. All of the Royal Family participating - Fire Lord Ozai, Prince Zuko, General Iroh, Prince Lu Ten, Princess Azula, and Guardsman Kuzon - will be behind the scenes the entire time, as so not to see who we are calling out, and to take breaks between rounds."
"Yada-yada, lots of boring stuff," Toph said, yawning.
"It may come in handy for you to know this," Shi said, slightly miffed.
"Whatever. I'm using metal-bending and earth-bending."
"And a third?"
Toph gave a wicked grin. "I won't need one."
"Princess Katara?"
Katara hesitated, scowling hard. She stared down at her hands, seeing the veins on the arms pumping blood. Did she write down bloodbending? Did she dare? Was she competent enough?
"Waterbending, sword, and…" Katara inhaled hard, "A small dagger."
She couldn't risk it. She might not be as well trained in daggers, but in a pinch, she could throw it across the area and hopefully hit a target. She could not rely on her bloodbending to work in the most perfect, controlled conditions...ignoring completely the fact that it would be the opposite of desired environments.
"Thank you, ladies. Princess Katara, shall we meet for lunch tomorrow to speak more upon your dress?"
After confirming this, Shi left. Toph opened her mouth to say something, but the sound of footsteps quieted her. Zuko walked past the entrance of the room, as though about to enter. He saw Katara sitting, turned red, and swiftly continued walking, snapping his eyes forward.
"Ouch. Do you want some ice for that burn?" Toph asked.
"You can't see Toph," Katara sputtered, "How do you know what happened?"
"'Cuz I can hear. His footsteps and his direction. Plus, I could just feel it. A mixture of anger, confusion, hurt, and lots - I mean lots - of unresolved sexual tension."
"Thanks," Katara growled. She had half a mind to run after him and ask what the hell that had just been about, but before she could, another set of footsteps turned the corner. Within a second, Nadhari turned into the room, about five bags being dragged by her handmaid and a few other servants behind, as though she were traveling for years, not a handful of days.
"That's my cue," Katara said, hitting her legs as she stood. "Nadhari," she said in a forced tone. Nadhari just narrowed her eyes at Katara, offering no such niceties.
Katara wanted to evacuate the area in general anyway before she had another awkward run-in with Zuko.
She ran nearly smack-dab into Sokka.
"Where are you headed?" she asked.
"The convoy, has it left yet?"
"Ah, plucked to be Iroh's assistant again?" Katara asked.
"Uhm, well, I was actually hoping to get on the trip," Sokka admitted.
"You fought tooth and nail to get off the last trip and now you're trying to hop onto this one?" Kara asked highly suspicious. Agni, she was in a cynical mood today, she considered with an inward snort.
"I've seen the error of my ways."
"Huh."
Sokka sighed, pulling Katara into a room near them, unused and empty.
"Look," Sokka said, "Zuko was going to try to get me there to connect with Kuzon. We've only heard through Zhao, who knows how Kuz is doing or what the sitch is? He wasn't sure if there would be room, or if he really needed me at all, but still…"
"And then you would, what?" Katara nearly choked. "Going to go off into the woods looking for them? They may not even be near Gaoling!"
"Yeah, but we got to help him, don't we?" Sokka asked, eyebrows knitting. "He can't be handling this all well. Especially if they do find any...any well, you know," Sokka said, showing a maturity beyond his years that Katara so rarely saw.
"They haven't left yet. You might be able to catch them," Katara said. "I hope you can help."
Sokka blinked. When he spoke, it was as though his words were far deeper than Katara understood, though she couldn't decide in relation to what. "If there's something I can do, I have to do it."
XXxxXX
The next night, Katara found herself in her room with a carton of beads and an impressive collection of disconnected dress pieces strewn about. Next to her sat Aiga, who couldn't make clean hemlines to save her life, but could sew beads in a line, if given a direction and a pattern.
Katara wondered what would happen to Aiga when she left. Would she continue working in the palace as a general servant? As the competition continued on, would she be assigned to another girl in a team of handmaids? Would she be out of a job, forced to find another way to make money…
If that were to be the case, Katara would take her with her. She'd offer for Aiga to come to the South. She wasn't sure the petite girl would enjoy the snow and ice, but she'd be loved and cared for as family there. Katara was tempted to offer this anyway, as she couldn't imagine leaving her behind.
"You're staring at me," Aiga said, using her teeth to bite off a line of thread.
"Sorry, I just…" Katara frowned. "Just considering the future."
"That's what most are doing these days. I think you'll make it," Aiga said. "There's not a fiercer warrior around."
"You're too kind. And even so…" she shrugged. "Zuko may be done with me anyway."
"Stop being ridiculous, Katara," Aiga said. "That boy is stupidly in love with you."
"He has a weird way of showing it," Katara muttered. She shook her head. She was tired of re-hashing her feelings about Zuko currently. "How's Tahoe?"
Aiga ducked her head, blushing. "Perfect. Of course. Sometimes, I think he's too good to be real."
"Oh, now who's being silly?" Katara laughed out loud. "You're fantastic, Aiga! Why wouldn't any boy want you?"
Aiga shrugged, clearly not believing Katara, her cheek still splattered with the hint of redness. "He's just...well, everything I wanted. It's like someone made him for me. I'm ever so lucky to have found him."
"You deserve it," Katara kicked her foot softly, "Honestly."
Aiga licked her lips, a small smile on her face as she went back to the stitching. There would be enough beads on this dress to cover it, basically, and create a representation of a cougar. It was ambitious, surely, but the time was better spent than Katara staring out windows and wondering about Zuko, about her future, about everything. It was far easier in many ways to numb her mind with the methodical patterning of this dress.
There was someone running in the halls. Katara frowned; who was up at this hour, making such a ruckus? She stood to see if everything was fine (she prayed they weren't under siege again), and as she opened her door, she came face-to-face with a red-faced guard, about to knock on her own door.
"Princess Katara," he said, greeting her as only to get it out of the way before he pushed into the room. "Aiga! There you are!"
"Is everything all right?" Katara asked, worry clenching deep in her stomach.
"Your family," he said, still only focusing on Aiga, wiping his forehead, as his whole body shook. "They've been attacked!"
Notes:
If this story is jiving with ya, consider reviewing ;) Going to shoot for about a once-a-month update, and even that's a smidge ambitious for me right now, but I'll sincerely try to stick with it! Upcoming in the next chapter; We learn more about the attack and Zuko must contend with Toph's parents as well as the city of Gaoling!
Chapter 21: Chapter 21
Notes:
Pros of COVID19: Time to write
Cons of COVID19: Er, everything elseAlso, for everyone who wanted to see more of Zuko/Toph fake dating shenanigans...be careful what you ask for ;)
Chapter Text
At first, there was just silence. The only sounds were the panting guard and the needle that dropped from Katara's fingers onto the ground. Aiga stared at the guard, as though he was speaking Ancient Air Nomadic to her instead of the common tongue, frowning as her lips parted softly.
"What?"
Her voice was more confused than fearful or sad than anything else. It was a sign that something had not connected, something was lost in translation, not alighting all the many things in Aiga's brain. Katara's mind was whirling and screaming and shouting, but Aiga was just staring.
And, after Aiga murmured that scant question, she would be quiet for a long time after.
"Your family. Lady Ursa…" The guard was puffing. "A neighbor found me. I came to inform you."
"Lady Ursa wants us to come," he finally managed, unable to articulate anything else yet. Katara grabbed a soft blanket from her bed, threw it around Aiga's shoulders, and led her outside.
She thought that the young girl may be in shock.
Ursa was waiting for them in a small meeting room, wrapped in a night robe, her hair pulled back from her face. She looked deadly serious.
"Have some tea. You look frightfully pale," Ursa said, handing a steaming cup to Aiga, who was still just staring ahead, the color completely drained from her face. "Thank you, Princess Katara, for bringing her."
"What happened?" Katara asked for she felt that Aiga was in no position to be asking any sort of questions.
"The Equalists came into her house," Ursa began, "An Uncle found a guard and thought Aiga should be notified."
"Are we sure it was them? There are quite a lot of other nefarious groups lurking around that area…" Katara realized her folly immediately. "Or, erm, so Aiga's told me," she lied quickly.
"They left a calling card," The guard said, chugging a glass of water and sinking into a chair, "They wanted us to know."
"Unfortunately." Ursa's face was pinched. She looked at Aiga. Aiga was staring right at Ursa, frowning, waiting. Ursa closed her eyes, a pained expression crossing her face. "Out of the family and relatives in the house - and we went in to find twelve living there - three were killed. Four, I personally escorted to the hospital on the second circle, and the rest are waiting there too."
"Who died?" Katara pulled back the memory of all those who looked like Aiga from when she and Zuko had gone to her home. It seemed like ages ago.
"From what I understood, her grandfather, one of her aunts, and a…" Ursa swallowed hard, and Katara saw a glimmering tear in the corner of her eye. "…a six-year-old nephew."
"Spirits," Katara choked out, "Were there other attacks?"
"As of now...I don't believe so. We have not gotten any word of other family attacks from the Equalists unless my guards have not had a chance to report it back. Or, perhaps, people are not willing to admit to such things. However, I doubt it. This seemed…"
"Specific," Katara finished. Her mouth went absolutely dry. "But...why?"
"I do not know. I was hoping Aiga may help?" Ursa asked gently. Aiga just kept staring at her, her face now twisted. Her lip trembled.
"Maybe tomorrow?" Katara whispered as her heart was breaking. "I think that it's a lot to take in right now."
Ursa looked like waiting was the last thing she wanted to do, but finally gave in to the mental argument swirling in her head. She nodded.
"You're right," she agreed, "Why don't you bring Aiga back to her room, Princess. She really could use a rest. I asked the cook to bring her some food, however, in case she's hungry."
"Of course." Katara bowed her head. "I'll stay with her tonight if that's alright."
Ursa waved a hand and Katara helped Aiga to her feet. She was shaky, like a newborn foal, and with each step, Aiga seemed like she was crossing a great divide. It took a long time, but finally, Katara clicked her door open.
There was already a steaming bowl of rice and some fruit awaiting her, along with a tea-cup.
"Are you hungry or thirsty?" Katara asked, turning around to pour her a cup. She found that her lips were disconnected from her brain and any thought she had spilled forth from her mouth, "Agni, why would they attack your house? Your family? I should find Tahoe. I wonder if he's-"
Her stream of consciousness monologue was broken by a whisper from Aiga, something so quiet that at first, she missed it. As it was, she could not pick up what she'd said.
"Huh?" Katara asked, turning around.
"Who did you tell where I lived?" Aiga asked in a bolder voice. She was standing now, chest to chest with Katara, shaking with a fury Katara had never seen in her. Katara had seen Aiga through a great many emotions, but the sheer wrath that painted her expression was foreign. Katara would have never imagined the diminutive woman to be intimidating at all, but as she shoved Katara hard, there was a moment of panic as Katara stumbled to the ground.
The savageness of Aiga's face made Katara lose her breath.
"Who did you tell?" Aiga repeated a third time, shaking hard, face twisted into a snarl.
"I-what?"
"No one knew. No one here. I lied on my papers about where my house was so that even they would not be aware. I've never told anyone, except for you. Not the Fire Lord, not my friends, not even Tahoe. Who did you tell, Katara?" Aiga demanded with a frantic hush to her voice, though the lowered decibel did nothing to make it less terrifying. If anything, it made Katara realize how unhinged Aiga seemed right now.
"Only Zuko!" Katara blubbered, "But he...he wouldn't tell anyone. You have to know that, you know him! You know me!"
Another thought hit Katara and she frowned. "Why...why would you keep it such a secret, Aiga?"
"Zuko must have told someone. He must have. Or he-"
"He wouldn't. He knew it was a secret. He knew that you were very vague about it. He's not someone to go around blabbing about it." Katara rushed to defend him. "Aiga, why would the Equalists attack you?"
Katara stood in one fluid motion, grabbing Aiga's arm. Katara's touch seemed to break something in her. Her rigid, vibrating form collapsed, as though the ground beneath her moved. Katara rushed to catch her and then Aiga just let out a wail of anguish.
After that, Aiga just cried.
At that moment, Katara realized how closed-off Aiga was. Katara only recently knew her family's location and even then, there were so many secrets surrounding it. And now, a million more have been opened. None, Katara understood, she was going to have answered tonight. Or, possibly, any other time soon.
And Katara understood, in a sense, her flash of emotion. She did not feel upset that Aiga had pushed her or accused her, she just felt a sisterly pain for her handmaid.
Katara sat with her on the floor of her room, whispering lullabies in Southern Water Tribe mother-tongue, rocking her and petting her hair, and Aiga clung to her, impossibly small and broken.
XXxxXX
"Clear the carriage, please," Zuko commanded in a calm voice, "Except for Lady Bei Fong."
"Where are we supposed to ride, then?" On Ji asked, furrowing her brow. She didn't ask snidely but in a genuinely confused way.
"The soldiers have prepared some horses for you, just for a bit. It's good to get some fresh air," Zuko said with a slightly forced smile.
"And what will the two of you be doing in here, Prince Zuko?" Nadhari questioned as she gathered her skirts, raising an eyebrow. "And will we all get the same such...opportunity?" She batted her eyelashes, smiling with an unmistakable intent in her eyes. Zuko swallowed a bit, always a little overwhelmed with such bold advances, trying to find his voice.
"It's not quite as scandalous as you imagine. I must talk to Lady Bei Fong about our arrival since this is her hometown. I would place her on a horse and ride ahead, but…"
"I prefer to be as close to the ground as possible, thanks," Toph cut in, crossing her arms.
"It will only be for a little bit," Zuko said apologetically to the trio.
"That's fine," Yue said, always polite. "I think he's right. We've been cramped in here for hours."
Zuko ducked into the carriage, looking back to where the soldiers were helping the girls mount ostrich-horses. Sokka helped Yue on to hers, glancing backward toward Zuko.
His offered assistance had been a surprise, yet not an unwelcome one. Zuko hadn't considered fully yet how he'd navigate trying to help airbenders escape while simultaneously managing the high-brow, courtly dances of wit and politics. To have Sokka to run errands for him was a weight off his shoulders.
One of them at least.
He closed the carriage door behind him, sitting across from Toph. She was wearing a fancy dress, though no make-up yet. She complained that in the heat, it would melt off anyway, and she promised - grimacing - to apply once they were closer.
"Two days," Zuko murmured under his breath. That's how long the trip here would take.
Zuko was not disinterested in Gaoling. In fact, he'd heard a great many things about it.
He would be far more interested if Toph was not in attendance.
Oh, he'd tried to get her out of this trip, but everyone had looked at him so strangely when he'd argued against it. Of course, to everyone, they were still under the impression that Toph saw Zuko as a potential marriage match and vice versa.
In this assumption lay the problem…
"I know, two days too long," Toph grouched. She'd rather not see her family at all. Zuko was aware of their troubles. He could sympathize. In terms of sort of shitty family, he and Toph understood more than most of their group. Well, Aang didn't really have parents to speak of, but absent parents were different than straight-up bad ones.
"We have to...we're going to…" Zuko didn't know how to delicately explain this. "I don't want to be accosted like...last time." He winced, recalling the way Toph had thrown herself at him for a 'surprise' kiss in the gardens.
"I'm still coughing up fire flakes, yech," Toph agreed with a shudder. "But we have to sell it. My parents smell one hint of doubt, they'll have me back with at least twelve old men lined up as a potential husband!"
"Ground rules," Zuko said. He knew that this weekend would test his patience and acting skills to the limit. Not only did he have to act like he was, in some way, besotted with Toph...he had to act like she was near the top of his favorites list. At least, whenever they were around her parents.
"First off, know anything I do is to save my own skin," Toph said. "That covers any...uhm...things I might be compelled to do. An apology upfront."
"Oh, joy. Enlighten me, please?"
"Kissing, hugging, pet names...you know, stuff that makes me sick to my stomach."
"Same," Zuko said, narrowing his eyes. "Not that romance makes me sick, but I don't want you to feel as though I'm taking advantage or crossing a line or-"
"You aren't. You won't," Toph confirmed. "You can bed me as long as it keeps me out of my home-town, auctioned off to the highest bidder!"
Zuko's mouth felt dry. "Well, I hope it doesn't come to that."
"Me too, Sparky, me too." She bit her lip, scrunching up her nose. "It will all be over soon," she said with a long sigh.
"Two days," Zuko agreed. "Forty-eight hours. Hopefully, significantly less we'll have to...mhh," he grimaced, trying to prepare himself. He stared at Toph.
"You're looking at me all weird," she complained, "I can feel it, creep."
"Trying to, uh, find you attractive."
"Ouch. That's a low one."
"Not that you're not…" Zuko threw up his hands. "You know what I mean. Trying to recapture the same feelings I sort of had for you back when you started. I can't look at you this entire time like I'd look at a younger sister. People can tell those sorts of things."
Toph turned her face toward him, her green eyes were bright with a hint of mirth. "Want me to take my top off? Would that help?"
"Agni, no!" Zuko said, all but throwing up his hands and hiding under the seats. "No, that won't be needed, Toph," he added, coughing.
"Your pulse! Oh, it's fun to mess with you," Toph snickered. "And I wasn't really gonna. These puppies aren't for your eyes, mister."
"Great. Now that you've had a laugh at my expense, do you think we're on the same page?"
"We'll put on the best goddamn show. Anything you do is forgiven, anything I do is forgiven, right?" At Zuko's nod, Toph spits into her hand. "Shake on it. Like real men."
"That's now how-"
"Shake, Sparky. Or else it doesn't mean anything."
Zuko paused, spitting into his palm. He felt his body give a full shudder at the contact. Toph, at least, looked satisfied. She started giggling, which turned into laughter, which turned into maniacal cackling that had Zuko fearing for a life a bit. Not his own life, but someone's...whoever Toph decided it was, spirits help them.
"My parents won't know what hit 'em. We'll be the most in-love couple they've ever seen!"
XXxx
Fixing his clothes in the mirror of his bedroom, Zuko gave a long exhale. "Nearly one day down," he muttered to himself.
They'd arrived close to dusk last night. The girls had been shepherded away to rooms after a quick greeting, with Lao, Toph's Father, declaring that 'women should have no need to be up so late'. Though Zuko didn't agree, he was grateful he didn't need to act like he was in love with Toph right that moment. Lao had invited Zuko to stay up with him. He'd been given sake mulled in the region, sweet and smooth.
Most of the night had been 'talk between two men'. Sokka hadn't been invited, but he seemed none too upset about it. Instead, he'd just shrugged and let a maid lead him to his room. Sokka probably thought it would be boring.
He wasn't wrong, but at least it was easier to relax than if the whole group had been in attendance. Apart from an introductory comment about how pleased Zuko was that Toph was part of the competition, he seemed excused from having to make a big show of it. Most of the night Lao talked about the mechanics of the city that he supervised and how the Fire Nation had helped them. It seemed in general he was kissing up to Zuko, but it was sprinkled with informative tidbits between his near-pandering.
There were a few scant mentions of Toph.
"I'll admit, I was afraid to send my daughter," Lao mentioned off-hand. He mentioned how delicate Toph was ad nauseam. That she was so small and so helpless that she could hardly do anything for herself. If Lao had mentioned one time that Toph could not exist by herself, he'd mentioned it three million times.
It was a wonder Toph even knew how to use a fork from the way her parents had pampered her! And it was a bit insulting. Sure, being born blind wasn't a great start to life, but plenty of people survived just fine. Zuko was offended on her behalf!
"Toph manages," Zuko bit out. "She is very...motivated." Zuko knew better than to mention that she'd sooner kick Zuko or anyone else that tried to help in the balls than be tugged around like a dainty pet on a leash.
"She has an issue with not asking for help when she needs it," Lao said, which perhaps was the singular closest thing to the truth he'd said all night. Zuko sighed but almost laughed.
"Yes, that is indeed very true," he murmured. She hated to be seen as weak, so Toph nearly never admitted she was ever struggling with anything. Zuko could admire someone who did things independently, but he did know that sometimes everyone needed a little help.
And, just as quickly as he'd considered his daughter, he was talking about something else.
Zuko nearly made one slip-up that night. He wasn't sure what led to it, but somewhere he off-handedly said, "Oh, and well, there's Toph. She's a fantastic earthbender."
Lao had guffawed, setting his cup down.
"That's kind of you to bolster her, Prince Zuko," he'd said, his eyes dubious, "But we can admit freely here that she is simple at it, at best."
"Simple?" Zuko echoed. "Toph's the best earthbender I've ever seen, sir."
Lao looked troubled. "I don't think that's right, your highness. When Toph left here, she had hardly finished her stage 1 training. Because of her blindness, we doubt she'll ever progress farther, you see."
Zuko bit his tongue, wincing. He wished Toph had written to him, or told him, a list of all the things that her parents didn't know about her. No, it would have been easier for her to compile a list of what they did know.
"So, while I appreciate your attempt to honor me, she simply is just not capable," Lao finished.
Zuko took a big swig of his drink. "Of course, sir. You saw right through my compliments," he finished weakly, unsure how to backtrack now. Lao nodded as though he accepted this, but was looking at Zuko with curiosity, a look that meant he didn't quite believe Zuko.
Damn it. Zuko hoped he hadn't already mucked everything up.
They retired not long after.
The next morning, the girls were sent out on an assignment to do some service in the city. They would also be eating breakfast there, so there was no need for a group meal. Nadhari would be assisting at the Earthbending Academy. Yue would be visiting the orphanage. On Ji would be helping at a school. Toph was spending a day with her mother, and she acted like it was the end of the world.
Zuko met Poppy in passing. The diminutive woman could hardly meet his gaze, quaking like he was some great war-lord. Meeting her had left Zuko at a loss.
He'd thought that perhaps Toph's mother was a little snappy since her father was so unlike her. However, after meeting her parents, Zuko was wholly unconvinced they were actually biologically related. Where did this girl full of sass, naughty words, and strong opinions come from? He wondered if there was some uncle in the family tree that had been disowned that was out there, a male-version of Toph or something.
Zuko sent Sokka off on assignment early in the morning. His singular goal was to make sure the airbenders made it into the swamps, where Dhakiya should be waiting for them. This last part of the trip was not any more treacherous than any previous location, despite the feeling that they were just so close with this first group, and that if something went wrong…
No, Zuko could not think like that.
He hoped Aang was keeping Zhao away from this area, wherever he currently was.
XXxx
Zuko was to spend the day out and about checking up on some of the Fire Nation Guard camps: schmooze the soldiers far from home, shake hands, bring up morale. That sort of thing. And so he had, quite successfully.
His work, along with the other girls' jobs, had taken up until dinner. This meant he'd successfully avoided having to pretend to be in love with Toph for nearly half of the trip.
It wasn't that he thought he couldn't do it. Zuko was confident in his acting. It was more that Zuko was afraid of what Toph would do to him to convince her parents.
"Are you ready for dinner, your highness?" A servant knocked on his door to escort him.
"Yes, yes, I'm ready," Zuko said, reminding himself that Toph had already kissed him, so they'd already gotten the worst out of the way. He doubted there'd be any kissing at the dinner table, as it simply wasn't polite and Toph knew better (even if she pretended she didn't).
The dining room was set to impress. Only Toph was there, her face painted like a little doll. The other ladies had not arrived yet. Zuko was there first, as was customary. Toph had been granted special allowance because obviously she couldn't possibly find her way to the dining room in a reasonable amount of time...in a house she literally grew up in.
The first thing that truly hit him about Toph, though, was her expression. It switched as soon as he walked through the door. Something full of unbridled devotion and affection, something he'd never seen on Toph's face before. She looked at him like he was her whole world and she couldn't imagine another moment without him.
He tried not to react negatively to it, but his face must have still shown something, maybe unsureness, because Lao nervously came to his side.
"Is there something displeasing to you, sire?"
Zuko ducked his head, trying not to let his face redden or admit that he'd been thrown off by Toph's expression.
"I, uhm, where is my aid, Sokka?"
The fact Sokka had not returned did vex him. He had thought he might be back by lunch at the latest. It did not bode well for the mission that he had not made an appearance yet.
"I'm unsure, Prince Zuko," Lao said, though he hardly sounded upset. "We can keep a seat for him if it would please you."
Zuko nodded once, steeling himself for this dinner. As he was moving to find a seat, Toph piped up.
"Oh, Prince Zuko, won't you sit by me?" she asked in a pleading, hopeful tone. "I haven't been around you all day!"
She sounded positively depressed at that thought. Zuko paused, unsure until he remembered his goal.
"Erm, sure, Lady Beifong."
Toph laughed behind her hand, batting her eyelashes at him. "Oh, Prince Zuko, it's so virtuous of you to refer to me in such proper terms. My parents wouldn't be upset if you refer to me like you usually do, though," she said.
"Like I usually…" Zuko started, his hair prickling as he considered how uncomfortable he felt.
"Sparky, you're so silly."
When Toph usually called him Sparky, Zuko got the feeling she was using it in place of a more offensive term, or that it was synonymous with 'an utter idiot'. When she said it now, it sounded like they'd been using cute pet names for months with each other. Out of the corner of his eye, Poppy smiled and whispered something to her husband. Zuko took this as a good sign and gave a laugh.
"Just didn't want to be inappropriate…" His mind whirled as he tried to think of any nickname for her, and focused on the green of her dress robes. "...Melon-bear."
As Toph's parents turned to talk with a server bringing out a dish, Toph dropped her expression for a fraction of a second, glaring at him.
"Melon-bear?" she hissed.
Zuko gave a helpless shrug. He'd been forced to think of a nickname basically under duress, what else did she expect?
Toph switched back to her placid and infatuated expression as her parents took their seats. She very obviously slapped her hand down on his leg, very far up his thigh. Zuko truly tried not to jump out of his skin at the contact and instead choked on his water. Poppy almost looked pleased that her daughter was feeling up a prince in front of their nice mahogany dinner set.
He detached her hand as On Ji entered. On Ji noticed the encounter, her eyes narrowing with confusion. Agni, he'd forgotten that the other girls would find this weird. He hoped no one said anything. They should have discussed this before...the fact that the other girls might be confused by their amorous connection.
Shit, shit, shit. He hoped that no one was going to say anything. Jugging Toph's wandering fingers would be enough to deal with right now.
It seemed that Toph's parents were pleased with what they'd seen so far, enough so that Toph backed off an inch for a bit. The other girls came in and found their places, but Sokka still did not appear.
Most of the dinner seemed to go fine. Toph was sitting closer than normal to him, but she didn't try to feel him up again. Zuko foolishly thought he'd be lucky enough to get through this dinner, a whole day, with no incidents. He should have known better.
"We are so happy about our daughter's inclusion in your competition," Poppy said as they were bringing out dessert. "I doubt you could tell us, but as a mother, can we expect a wedding any time soon?"
Zuko drank water before answering. "You know it wouldn't be fair to admit anything," he said, "But, uhm, certain girls in this room are quite within my favor." He hoped that was vague enough to please them. He would consider Yue pretty far up on his list and he did find favor with Toph as a friend, so no lies here.
Poppy clapped her hands, smiling.
"I'm sure you are all lovely girls." She turned to the remaining trio. "But I can't help but hope that my daughter will be asked for her hand quite soon," she said as a near-apology.
"Mother, oh, stop," Toph actually blushed. Zuko wondered if she could do it on command at this point. "He'll ask me when he finds it appropriate," she said, giving Zuko moon-eyes. Zuko smiled at her, having found it less strange to look at her with such tender affections. He could admit from a purely platonic point of view she wasn't unattractive, plus he knew her to be a strong, independent, funny person. If he focused solely on her positive attributes, yes, it was easy to pretend to find her completely enchanting.
He found her hand, intending to touch it for just a moment, but Toph took it a step farther, lifting the back of his hand to her lips and placing a long kiss on it. It was not nearly as shocking as a kiss on the lips, but the intimateness of the gesture was not lost upon her parents. It was as close to scandalous, perhaps even more so than the leg touch, as one could get.
From down the table, Nadhari muttered something under her breath.
Zuko held his breath, hoping no one heard her. Rather, he hoped Poppy and Lao did not.
"Pardon?" Lao said, blinking at her.
Zuko stiffened, grinding his teeth. Shut up, shut up, shut up...whatever you said, don't say it again, he pleaded inwardly, glaring at her. Agni, how he wished he could just get rid of her.
"I just was thinking," Nadhari said, placing her hands in her lap and turning to Toph's parents with a completely innocent look, though Zuko expected what she was about to say was anything but. "It seems strange to me that Prince Zuko is so partial to Lady Bei Fong when at the palace, he hardly interacts with her or seems not to care about her."
The silence that followed was icy.
Zuko clenched his fists under the table, trying not to say something he'd regret, whether it be a bold lie or to snap Nadhari's head off. Nadhari looked smug. On Ji and Yue looked at each other with wide eyes, though they were sharing an expression that was close to 'well, I wasn't going to say it, but she's right.' Toph looked pale and furious, a sharp departure from the dewy, soft expression she'd had the entire dinner. Poppy and Lao were just whiplashed, confused, trying to glean what this meant.
"I do not think it is polite, Lady Nadhari, to make such assumptions about something you know nothing about," Zuko finally settled on, spit through gritted teeth.
Nadhrai didn't so much as blink at his tone. "It's merely an interesting observation."
Zuko was about to bite something back when On Ji started speaking in a quiet, warbling tone. "I mean, it is a little odd…" she said, swallowing. Even Nadhari looked shocked she was speaking up. "And I get that obviously you know more about it, but you never do seem romantically close to Toph."
Toph set down her fork. Zuko pre-winced, expecting Toph to drag one of the girls over the table with her bare hands, especially now that Lao was looking at Zuko and Toph with deep distrust.
"There are many things that happen behind the scenes that you may never see," Zuko nervously spoke over her. "What you might see as disinterest day-to-day may be different during other times."
"Behind the scenes?" Nadhari echoed, "Why, Prince Zuko, you wouldn't possibly be doing anything...untoward with Lady Beifong?"
Before Zuko could put the kibosh on that innuendo, Toph was grinning.
"Well, Nadhari, you said it yourself. We get along on a different level, something that's hard to express with all the ladies present. It's easier in a small group in front of my parents to show the truth."
Nadhari now looked unsure. Toph's tone sounded real enough and she said it with utmost belief, so much that Zuko was now wondering if he and Toph had a romantic connection that he didn't know about.
"So you...you two…" Nadhari faltered, eyes flickering between the pair.
Toph gave a small shrug and then, very slowly and very specifically, as she held the attention of the room, she placed her hands flat against her stomach.
Poppy gasped out loud. "My baby is having a baby?" she blubbered. Nadhari was nearly purple with fury, Yue was bright red and staring down at her uneaten dessert, and On Ji was white.
Lao strode over to Zuko and pulled him up firmly. There was one tense second in which Zuko was sure Lao was going to punch him for 'sleeping' with his daughter. He admitted he was more surprised when Lao began vigorously shaking his hand.
"A wedding is for sure to come then!" he crowed. "Ah, fortune on you, good sir! What a turn of events! Our daughter, The Fire Lady!"
"Yes, a surprise for all," Zuko said loudly, trying to regain the room. "Well, in light of...Toph's condition," he said sharply, trying not to glare at her, "Perhaps she should retire for the night. Perhaps we all should. It has been quite an illuminating dinner."
The other girls wanted nothing more than to be scarce after this, and Toph's parents fussed about her all the way out of the room. Zuko declined sake again, saying he had some work to do.
Back in his room, he kicked a chair.
Hah, and he thought this ruse would be manageable. The spirits loved to laugh at him.
"So, am I a good actress or am I a good actress?"
Zuko cursed as he jumped around, finding Toph standing at his door, closing it behind her.
"You!" Zuko sputtered, "One, you shouldn't be in here. Two...what the hell was that?"
"I just touched my stomach. Indigestion. Everyone else assumed shit," Toph said, as though she had no plot in place to make everyone think just that.
"You have basically just created a Royal Scandal," Zuko said dryly.
Toph grinned. "Cool."
"No, no! Not cool!" Zuko grasped his hair. "Agni, this is going to be a nightmare to fix. I hope you found it worth it!"
Toph just gave him a sly grin. "Immensely. My 'rents believed it! Hook, line and sinker, Sparky." She teased, her acerbic tone taking the same adoration when she used his nickname. He shuddered at the use of it now, a ball of anxiety growing in his stomach to even imagine what his father would say about this. Agni, Azula didn't have to underhandedly try to take the crown, Toph did it for her! He'd be a pile of soot when he returned home!
Before Zuko could dive into what he was queueing up his mind to be a devastating and furious lecture, the door next to his bedroom opened and closed. He paused, brows knitting.
"Sokka," he murmured, standing and leaving Toph where she stood. She jumped in line behind him. Zuko eased Sokka's door open and the pair slipped inside.
Sokka was illuminated by the flickering candlelight in his wash-room. He was dunking a cloth in and wrung the water out, droplets slipping down his arms. As he turned, Toph sniffed the air and stiffened a second before Zuko saw it.
Sokka was covered in blood.
Chapter Text
Dusk fell upon the city.
Aang breathed in the dry air here, pinching his collar between his fingers and lifting with the hope of some much-needed airflow. It was silly. He was an Airbender, he could cool himself down easily if he were permitted.
He scowled, thinking of air benders.
The group that Zuko had been moving along was growing in numbers. Every day, it seemed more airbenders arrived, hoping that they would find safety -- which they would if they could just get through the city.
He'd spent a scant few minutes with Sokka earlier today, explaining the issue, and the sharp-minded Water Tribe boy proclaimed he was on the case. Spirits, Aang hoped by this time of night, they were all settling in at their last location, which even Aang did not know.
There were times he was dreadfully curious, but he trusted Zuko's militaristic planning. It was far better for Aang to be as far away from the knowledge as possible since he was already so interwoven.
Zhao's army was far past its promised trip time. It had been days since any of the men had gotten a proper shower and most of the military kits were starting to smell. While the men here followed Ozai without question, and by extension Zhao, it was clear some were getting uneasy by this prolonged expedition.
Day by day, Zhao was getting closer to frying someone as each day brought them no closer to dead airbenders. Aang, as well as the cast of previous Avatars in his mind, took pleasure in seeing his plans so foiled, but Aang was concerned about his mental well-being. He knew Zhao was not someone who would so easily give up. Something drastic, and most likely horrid, was going to happen soon.
The avatars were mostly silent in his head most days. He was unsure if it was because they were starting to trust him more or if this activity was so against everything they stood for that it was hard to be present for it. Either way, the silence was new. Aang almost wished they were back sometimes, just for someone to talk to.
Aang shook his head, looking at the men scuffling about. Morale was low and Aang felt a pinch of pity for them. Most were sort of bad people or people that had no qualms about killing airbenders, but that didn't mean that Aang thought all of them to be like Zhao.
In particular, the man who had noticed him making Ty Lee a necklace was someone Aang had begun to see as a friend. He was far less violent compared to most of the others, here because he thought it was his duty as a Fire Nationer. While Aang couldn't be sure that he was displeased with the actions they were asked to take, there were times when some of the younger men were discussing how they'd kill airbenders that Aang saw the man's lips turn down and his eyes darken.
His name was Hivri, and he had a wife and two kids back home, not much older than Kuzon, he'd explained. When he wasn't in the military service, he was a woodworker. His favorite things to make were animal carvings, and at night, he'd been showing Aang how to make little whittled creatures from fallen logs with their issued knives. It was incredible how, with just a few quick movements, a log of wood could turn into an ostrich-horse in his hands.
Aang liked to listen to him talk. He had a quiet, even voice. It soothed him when he was at his most anxious, during the nights he was sure Zhao was going to find someone and Aang would be forced to intervene. Aang's only job right now was to keep Zhao away from any areas where Aang thought airbenders might be, to continually send Zhao on a wild goose chase. That alone was enough effort.
Hivri often ate with Aang. He too preferred veggies to meat, and they often made a stew together with things foraged in the forest. The rest of the men ate their jerky and killed animals, and while Aang had eaten meat in the palace before, he still did not fancy the taste.
It was nearly dinner and Hivri was nowhere to be found.
Aang stood swiftly, walking over to a group of men arriving back from a patrol. They all stiffened at Aang's presence, bowing to him. Though Aang had been a guard for far less time than any of these members, the fact he was a Royal gave him a status above almost all of the other soldiers.
"Where is Hivri?" Aang questioned, raising his chin.
"Still on patrol," one of the patrol leaders responded, "Said he had an inkling. Near the east. Old man's insane, but hey." The man shrugged. "We're all going a little stir-crazy here."
"And no one stayed with him?" Aang asked, frowning.
"Look, dude, we're starved," one of them said petulantly. "And tired and exhausted. If he wants to go chase shadows, let him."
"You don't think there's anything out there?" Aang asked, tilting his head.
"Not whatever Zhao thinks there is," someone spat and was quickly elbowed.
"Ah, right. Commander Zhao wanted to see you, Guardsman Kuzon," the patrol leader said, snapping his fingers. Aang resisted the urge to look surprised or horrified. Instead, he puffed out his chest, nodding. He hadn't spoken directly with Zhao in days.
Inside of his head, Kasata was blinking awake, slowly coming to consciousness, as he always was when Aang went head to head with his leader. Aang felt less alone, feeling the soft fiery presence of Kasata now taking it in with him.
Zhao's tent was set up in the middle of the camp. As Aang entered, his feet crunched over rolls of maps haphazardly strewn about the floor. He tried to avoid them until he realized that the entire tent was filled with crumpled maps.
"Sir?" Aang asked uncertainty, a pit gathering at the bottom of his stomach.
"Kuzon, there you are," Zhao said, turning. He was less put together than usual. His hair was unkempt, and his shirt was half-way unbuttoned, showing his undershirts beneath. Aang offered no words, just came to stand at Zhao's table, staring up at a man who he so vehemently hated.
"What am I not seeing?" Zhao demanded, shoving the map riddled with marks toward Aang. He hesitated, glancing upward at Zhao.
This could all be a trick.
While it was clear Zhao was losing some sense of sanity, the light had not completely died from his eyes. He was still sharp, though a little unfocused on the right thing perhaps, and Aang knew he would never get away with a flat-out lie.
Zhao was still far too clever for that.
"I will admit that this is deeply troubling to me too, sir," Aang said, licking his lips, drawing his fingers absently across the map. "But, perhaps...we are just worn out?"
"What?"
Aang thought about his next words carefully. "An unfit crew does no good," Aang said slowly, "And it's nearly the tournament. Ozai'll be expecting me back. While it is frustrating that they are slipping through our fingers, a half-dead battalion will make more mistakes than a fresh-faced one."
"We cannot retreat," Zhao slammed his fists upon the table, "With nothing in our fingers. Not a single airbender dead. Can you imagine telling our revered Fire Lord that? No, of course not," Zhao muttered to himself, carding his fingers through his hair. "We cannot go back empty-handed."
Aang sighed. "When was the last time you slept, sir?"
He was not concerned for Zhao's mental health. It could fall away for all he cared. What he was concerned about, however, was what rash actions Zhao might make. Plus, any soldier would be concerned for their leader, and Aang had a role to play.
"That is not a question for you to be asking," Zhao's voice was sharp, warning.
"Ozai will call us back," Aang said slowly. Ozai would never miss a chance to parade the Royal Family around, not when he had been building toward this tournament with such strange glee. "And you can either be mindful enough to explain why you deserve a second chance or be half-crazed and babbling in the Throne Room, sir." Aang narrowed his eyes. "I think you know what you'd prefer."
He turned without being dismissed, leaving Zhao somewhat taken-aback in his tents.
If he could convince Zhao to sleep through the night, there was a far better chance he could move the airbenders.
Agni above, he hoped this worked.
"Kuzon…" Zhao opened the tent and Aang gulped, for a second thinking he was about to be killed for overstepping. Instead, it was a rare moment of humanism that had Aang fumbling. "I perhaps do not say this enough, but I am grateful for your input."
"Of course, sir," Aang finally croaked, unsure how to tackle such a lofty measure of gratitude, since Zhao rarely showed this side to anyone. Aang had been convinced that Zhao had simply skipped the day in childhood when one learned how to thank people. "I'm just doing what I can."
xxx
"Sokka-" Toph's voice broke, her end tone something of horror and panic.
"It's not mine." Sokka's voice was rough, agonized. "It's not mine, but shit, I just…" His hands shook as he tried to wash the blood off. As a beam of moonlight cut across his washroom, Zuko noted how pale he looked, how much he was quivering.
"Why do I get the feeling this is bad?" he asked.
"Since when is anyone covered in blood a good thing?" Toph said, but she was still staring in the direction of Sokka, though unmoving, as though her feet were rooted to the floor.
Zuko glanced at her, frowning. "I'm surprised you couldn't tell that it wasn't his," he commented lightly. Toph practically bristled.
"What do you think I am? I can sense a lot of things, but I'm not a magic seer!" she said, her defense more venomous than Zuko would have imagined.
Sokka was still scrubbing the blood off with a great sense of hurry, swallowing and breathing hard.
"Sokka, what happened?" Zuko asked, dropping his voice to a quiet, encouraging whisper. He took two steps, taking the cloth from Sokka's hand, pausing his movements. "Are you going to be okay?"
Sokka took a step backward, his feet stumbling beneath him. Zuko managed to catch him before he hit the floor hard, helping him sit on the edge of the tub.
"Toph, keep an ear open for any...eavesdroppers," Zuko commanded, and Toph nodded firmly, though she was focused on the pair of boys. Sokka dropped his head into his hands. He switched to Old Air Nomadic, though it was broken, unskilled. Zuko knew him better than that; he had a knack for languages, and he had picked it up faster than his sister. Whatever had transpired was truly getting to him.
"We'll be fine in Common," Zuko offered quietly. He couldn't be sure, but he needed the details. Sokka nodded, but it was half-hearted.
"I met up with our favorite cousin," Sokka said, regaining a bit of sense as he attempted to speak with a hint of subterfuge. "Just briefly. He's okay but exhausted. And worn out. He's not sure when Zhao will bring them home."
"Well, at best, we know it has to be before the tournament," Zuko said. "Father would be furious if Kuzon missed the matches since he's supposed to participate."
"Right, I suppose," Sokka nodded. "Anyway, Aang informed me of a group that was stuck on one side of Gaoling. The swamps, that's the goal, but they've been stuck just outside Gaoling for days."
"I had wondered," Zuko said quietly. He'd been expecting a missive from Dhakiya for a bit now, but had been increasingly worried when one hadn't come.
"They've just been collecting, their numbers are growing. It's harder and harder for them to pass because there are guards everywhere. So I went to try to guide them through, as you said, but Zuko…" Sokka swallowed. "It's impossible. And I don't use that word lightly. I don't know how to smuggle all of them through the city. Every cart is checked. Every house is watched. All the alleyways have guards passing through and there are rewards posted everywhere. Zhao's closeness and frustration about his lack of catches have made everyone here super vigilant for them. I spent most of the day trying to figure it out, but I…" Sokka bit his lip furiously. "I hate the idea that this is a puzzle I can't solve."
"That still doesn't explain... " Zuko trailed off, waving a hand toward Sokka's soiled clothes.
"At the end of the night, six more had arrived. There's nearly thirty at this point. Thirty. If Zhao found even one of them…" The silence that followed felt heavier than before, an understood terror gripping all three of them.
"A guard saw. As I was trying to get some through. He saw everything, too much. And he would have told. I guess I just wasn't thinking, so I just…" Sokka's fists clenched and unclenched. "I've never...never before…"
The word he left out did not need to be said. Sokka may consider himself a Wolf Warrior like the other men of his tribe, and he had been trained by his father and Bato, who were two terrifying warriors, but he was lucky enough to have never seen war. The tribe had brokered peace long before he was born and he'd never been in the middle of a true battle.
Taking a life was not something anyone should do lightly, but there was little choice, it seemed.
It did not make it easy.
"We buried him deep, no one will find him," Sokka finished, shoulders slouching completely.
"But someone might notice his absence. Fuck." Zuko pinched his nose. "There wasn't any other solution?"
"I could not see one. He would have told. We couldn't move the entire group. We didn't have the means to keep him as a prisoner and as it was, I didn't even think I'd hit him that hard until he...made this noise and just fell over…" Sokka said, his eyes glassy and a thousand miles away.
"Fantastic." Zuko knew sarcasm was not what Sokka needed right now, but he was in a bad mood before this, and with this information, he was in a worse mood, which he hadn't thought possible. "Just another thing on my plate."
Sokka raised his head. "Why, what happened today?"
"Oh, you haven't heard the happy news?" Zuko asked, throwing out an arm. Toph made a noise in the back of her throat, one of a warning, but Zuko couldn't stop the grim smile from landing on his face. "Apparently, Lady Bei Fong and I are expecting."
Sokka shot up. "What? How? You're joking, right? I'm gone for twelve hours...tell me what the hell you mean, buddy."
"I cannot believe I'm saying this right now," Zuko said, thinking back over the last few hours, "But your situation seems a tad more pressing than that. Forget I brought it up."
"Forget that you-"
"Calm down, it was just...my parents…" Toph was floundering for words, something she rarely did. She always seemed completely confident in her own voice. "It's nothing."
"Well, it's not nothing," Zuko muttered. "It's a big freaking issue, but hardly the worst in comparison to this news. Imagine that," he added with a sardonic huff.
"I should get rid of these," Sokka said, looking down at his clothes. He was starting to regain a bit of color and he seemed more level-headed. "No one saw the event, it was near the edge of town. He was sniffing around far past where he should have. Not even sure how he knew to...wish he'd just stayed back," Sokka added.
"That's step one," Zuko agreed. "We should burn them. Destroy them. I don't think it will lead back to you, but we do need to move those airbenders fast. I don't like them sitting like turtle-ducks in a barrel any more than you do."
"I might have a solution to that," Toph said, tilting her head.
"By all means. Please, fix something tonight," Zuko said, still glaring at her, furious.
"Well, they can't fly over the city, that would be a huge red flag. They can't go through the city for reasons stated by Sokka. So it's clear, isn't it?" she asked, though both boys looked blankly at her. "They gotta go under."
XXxxXX
If Zuko could have his way tonight, creeping down miles under the city would not be his choice of activity. It would be sleeping. Sleeping peacefully, might he add, with no snafus in moving the airbenders nor any gossip about bastard children being freed upon the world.
Zuko rarely got what he wanted.
"This is all fine and dandy," Zuko said snappishly, "But unless the airbenders magically know where to go, it's useless. This tunnel system is nearly impossible, not even a map would help."
"Hush, would ya?" Toph said, navigating the turns with ease. "I have a solution to that too!"
Sokka was now in fresh clothes and all of the blood had been washed away from his skin, though his face was still haunted by the event. Zuko couldn't blame him. However, Sokka had refused to be left behind, despite Zuko's worry for his sanity, and apparently this wasn't something Toph could just explain.
No, she had to show.
"Hood up, and don't be obviously Fire Nation," Toph warned Zuko for the umpteenth time. He'd been told to switch out of his red and gold outfit and to put on something more earth-toned. He couldn't imagine why, but Toph was adamant this was a viable solution.
It would really make him feel good to have one less worry, so Zuko did as she requested. Now, coming to a fork in the road, it seemed they were close to...wherever she was taking them.
Zuko heard it first. It was a roaring sound, and he originally thought it was an underground waterfall. As they got closer, he realized there were distinct tones making one unrelenting sound. It wasn't a waterfall at all. It was a crowd of what seemed like thousands of people.
As the trio turned the corner, Zuko gazed upon an impressive dueling ground, raised high above his head. They entered near the bottom of the high ring, millions of stadium seats above them, filled with people yelling and screaming. As they skirted around the edge, a contestant yelped, careening off the side and landing with a crunching sound in the earth.
"Uh, is he okay?" Zuko asked, seeing the feeble twitching.
"Yeah. These idiots have thick skulls," Toph said with a shrug. She had switched into an outfit that allowed her to move freely. It was the most dressed-down he'd ever seen her, even when she was in more comfortable things in the palace.
"Who are these idiots, exactly? What is this? Why is this?" Zuko hissed as Toph scampered into a set of seats.
"Hush, just enjoy," Toph said, patting Zuko's hand. "Patience is a virtue."
"Once again," an announcer crowed, running out to an impressively-built man, "The Boulder reigns supreme! Now, attempting to take him on, The Gecko!"
The crowd screamed as a gangly thing scuttled onto the arena floor. As a piece of sheetrock connected with the dude's chin, Zuko winced.
"Toph, what is this?" he asked.
Toph sighed, rolling her eyes. "You spoil all the fun. Welcome to Earth Rumble VI, Sparky. Earthbending competition. Now shut up and watch the fun," she commanded.
"Six?" Zuko echoed. He wasn't sure how he felt that this was the six iteration of this. It reminded him of something Katara had told him was happening in his own city, though this was different in many ways. Where the underground ring in the Fire Nation Capital seemed keen on the most blood and near death, this one at least had a code of conduct. Err...sorta.
They watched The Boulder plow through about eight contestants with an ease that was impressive. He truly was a Master Earthbender. It wasn't just his size; it was the way he seemed to predict everyone's moves before they could do them. Zuko rarely got to see earthbending, at least not combat earthbending. There was an appeal to it that he found interesting. He wondered how his firebending would react if he tried to mimic some of the stances here…
"And, like every other night, The Boulder is the undefeated winner! All of this could be yours if you're brave enough to take him on...and win." The announcer was holding a sack of cash and a huge belt, but the crowd was utterly silent. Not a single soul moved, no one dared offer themselves up.
Zuko turned to Toph...to find her missing.
"What the-" he muttered, until he saw a green dot approaching the announcer. "She wouldn't…"
"It's Toph," Sokka said, "You know she would."
"I'll take a crack at it!" Toph said, her voice echoing around the arena. There were whispers all around.
"Do my eyes deceive me or is it...yes, it's the Blind Bandit! Oh, you're in for a show tonight, folks! We haven't seen this competitor for nearly two years! Let's give it up for the former supreme champion of Earth Rumble VI!"
"Get 'er, Boulder!" Sokka yelled, standing up. "Beat her!"
From across the arena, Toph flipped Sokka the bird.
"Dude, shouldn't we be cheering for her?" Zuko demanded, yanking Sokka down by his shirt.
"What can I say? The Boulder has a new fan," Sokka shrugged, "Plus, it's not like she needs it."
It was true. The crowd that had once been going wild for The Boulder was now basically falling over themselves screaming for Toph.
"But you don't think-"
"That she'll get hurt? She'll lose?" Sokka squinted at Zuko. "She'll probably win. However, she deserves it. Royal Baby with you my ass…" Sokka muttered to himself.
Zuko wasn't so sure. He was positive that the fight would be over in seconds and Toph would have to be scraped off the bottom of the arena floor. He knew her to be a good fighter, true, but this guy...this guy was something else. Plus, it had been a while since Toph had practiced, he knew this much too.
The fight was over in seconds, but it was The Boulder who took a nose-dive off the edge. All it had taken was one swift slide of her foot, and just like that the match was over.
The crowd was foaming at the mouth at this.
"Come back to mama!" Toph cheered, holding the belt above her head, soaking in the adoration towards her.
"You think she dragged us all the way down here to win back a stupid title?" Zuko asked. Sokka thought for a second before shaking his head.
"As frustrating as she is, she seemed sure she had a solution. I think we're getting to it...slowly."
It became clear that no one was going to challenge Toph, and the tournament was adjourned. Toph motioned to the pair of boys to follow her as seas of people streamed out, back up to the city. Zuko and Sokka hopped onto the walkway to the dueling ground and behind it, where all of the contestants were nursing injuries.
"The Blind Bandit! Awe, I thought I was dreaming. C'mere," one of the men said, pulling Toph into a sweaty hug.
"It's great to see you too, Gopher," Toph said, punching his chest.
"Fucking good show, man," The Gecko said, "Though it always is."
"You're a little shit though," a third man laughed. "You had The Boulder practically quivering when you walked on stage!"
"The Boulder does not 'quiver' at the sight of a small girl," The Boulder stated. "Though, The Boulder had hoped to hold out a bit longer."
"Two more seconds than the last time we went head-to-head," Toph teased.
"The Boulder says fuck you."
"Who are these two?" one of the men asked suspiciously, poking at Zuko.
"My guests. Be nice," Toph teased. "Fellas, meet the group. While the Badgermoles might have taught me to bend, it was these assholes who practically raised me. This is where I learned all the good shit."
"Makes a lot of sense now," Zuko mumbled to himself.
"What does?" The Gecko asked. Zuko smirked.
"Where she got her abhorrent potty mouth from."
"That's our girl!" Gopher slapped her shoulder. "Who knew that the little eight-year-old that wandered in here all those years ago-"
"You started here when you were eight?" Sokka made a choked sound. "And you all...fought an eight-year-old?"
"The Boulder was momentarily conflicted about fighting her," The Boulder said, crossing his arms, "But The Boulder got over that pretty quickly."
"I broke his nose," Toph said in a stage-whisper, making a splat sound as she slapped her hands together.
"Ah, Blind Bandit," a new voice said. His was silky. There was something dangerous about him, something that Zuko did not entirely trust. Sokka seemed to feel the same way, for he moved closer to Toph, as though in a protective stance. "I believe that this is yours."
"Xin Fu, pleasure as always," Toph said, but her voice was tight. "I actually don't want it. Keep it. I'd prefer to talk about a trade."
"A trade? Whatever could you want?"
"Toph…" Zuko hissed out of the corner of his mouth. She was not going to do what he thought she was, wasn't he?
"I'mma level with you all. Things are shitty up there and these tunnels are the solution. You all know these tunnels as well as I do, especially the ones that exit near the Swamps," Toph said, striding forward and ignoring Zuko's frantic expression. "You've probably heard that there are airbenders again. That's true. And they're being hunted like doe-foxes. Slaughtered like animals. And they need to get through the city, guided, to safety."
Toph looked in the direction of each of the men. "You all know me. You know I very rarely ask for something and that I'm generous with the winning pot. Know when I say that this is bigger than any of us. I am requesting that you assist these airbenders through the maze of tunnels and deposit them safely at the entrance to the swamp for the foreseeable future. For not just me, but for the fate of hundreds of innocent lives."
"What are you doing?" Zuko said, grasping her wrist tightly, his mind in a whirl of panic at how they were going to fix this.
"Anything for The Blind Bandit!" The Boulder said firmly.
"We can trust them," Toph said, waving a hand at everyone. "They're like older brothers to me. They have my back like I've always had theirs. Plus, they're good guys. Most, at least." She turned to Xin Fu. "Except for you. But, in addition to pissing off some Fire Nationers," she said, which did cause a slight smile on Xin Fu's face, "We are willing to pay you handsomely for your silence in this matter."
"How handsomely?"
"You'll be the belle of the ball," Toph said flatly. "Four times what any poster is offering for information on airbenders."
Before Xin Fu could open his mouth, Zuko dragged Toph aside, out of earshot.
"Are you mad? We can't trust that guy! He even looks shifty!"
"Not everyone is gonna be changed by the goodness of their heart. But everyone has a price. His is just actual money," Toph said, rubbing her fingers together. "Trust me. You pay him enough, you got him. He's not gonna be stupid enough to take away his cash cow."
"And if you're wrong? And he turns all of us in?"
"I know the boys would go to bat for me," Toph said firmly. "And plus, who's gonna believe him over the word of the Fire Lord Heir Apparent?" Toph asked. "Plus, he is also running a rather illegal fighting ring. I don't wanna shut this place down, but for the cause, I would."
"I don't like this," Zuko said with a furious hiss.
"Look, Zhao's a big bad, right? Xin Fu is a little bad. He's pretty shitty, not really good boyfriend material and you probably don't want to leave him babysitting a child, but he really fucking hates the Fire Nation. He lives his life by spite. We had him halfway just at that."
Zuko breathed out through his nostrils, puffing out hot air. "You'd better be right about this," he warned.
Toph stalked back over to Xin Fu. "We have a deal?" she asked, spitting and holding out her hand.
Xin Fu shook.
"Everyone see this?" Toph said. "Now, if he goes back on the promise that he will keep these airbenders safe…"
"The Boulder will gladly smash your skull in."
"The Hippo will join!" an oversized man said.
"I'll bury your body so far down no one will find it," The Gopher added.
"That will not be necessary, as long as there is a continual allowance left for me. I swear upon my mother's grave," he said, meeting Zuko's eyes. Zuko gave a terse nod of agreement. He didn't like it, but coins were a small price to pay in comparison to the lives of the airbenders.
"I'm not sure I approve of all these homicidal declarations," Zuko hissed to Sokka. "But I suppose I appreciate the honor and loyalty."
"Sokka. Where is the first group? We'll get them through tonight," Toph said, turning.
"Up near the entrance to the city. To the east," Sokka said.
"The Boulder will gladly assist! The Boulder likes the idea of doing something good," he said.
"Buddy, hey, before you go," Sokka said, fishing an ink-pot from his bag, "Will you sign my bag?"
XXxxXX
Katara's fingers couldn't quite finish the beading.
She was usually more skilled, but ever since the news about Aiga, she'd found herself too distracted to do something so tedious. Especially so, now that her maid was gone.
Thrice she'd messed up a line and had to snap off the entire thread, pooling the beads into her palm and noisily dropping them back into the ceramic bowl.
Aiga was down visiting her family. Katara had offered to go with, but Aiga had quietly rebuffed her. There wasn't the same fire burning in her eyes anymore, but the slight had still hurt Katara's feelings a bit. Katara didn't know how to explain that she hadn't told anyone, but Aiga did not seem to be in the mood to hear her.
She'd never seen this side of Aiga.
She was still respectful, almost alarmingly so, but there was something growing between them that Katara was trying to stay ahead of but feared she would not be able to cross.
How could Katara worry about something as stupid as a ball when her friend's family was being attacked? How could she rightfully focus on beading to please a thousand wealthy families when the poor were being killed off below her nose?
With a frustrated huff, Katara set aside her dress.
She pulled out her suitcase.
She had promised herself she wouldn't pack until she'd finished her dress, but her second trip was on the horizon. She knew Zuko would arrive home soon – in only a few hours, since it was past noon now, and not long after, she'd be off. Then, once she returned, there would be practically no time before the ball, so yes, she really needed to finish this dress.
However, it seemed her fingers were being purposely unskilled, and she was fearful that she'd break away entire sections if she tried anymore.
She flopped the suitcase on her bed but found herself totally uninspired to pack, too.
She decided to go and fetch herself an iced tea.
Usually, Aiga would do such things, so over-eager to please her and to do her job, but Katara could handle this herself perfectly fine. Plus, she didn't know how to call her replacement handmaid currently...
She nodded to the guards as she passed, making her way to the kitchens. She wasn't sure if she could go into the back areas, but maybe she could snag a passing maid to grab it for her?
She noticed that there were pools of women gathered among the halls.
As she passed the women's room, she noticed Kilee crying.
Katara stopped, changing her path, and going inside.
"I'm just repeating what I heard," Avizeh was saying, waving a hand around. "There's no need to call me names."
"You could have announced it more tactfully," Saoise snapped at her.
"Oh, and I should have just waited for the official Royal announcement?"
"What announcement?" Katara asked, frowning. Spirits, had Zuko chosen a wife while he was gone? Out of the convoy, Yue seemed the most practical. She could almost see that, she thought bitterly. Do it while he was away so he would not have to deal with the rest of the girls, just send them away.
"Distressing news. What is the standard?" Ratana stage-whispered. "Has this ever happened?"
"Has what-" Katara tried to ask again, but was interrupted.
"Did you know?" Avizeh asked, zeroing in on Katara. "You were in his favor for quite a long time."
"I don't even know what I might or might not know!" Katara threw up her hands.
"Lady Toph is...is…" Kilee hiccupped, trying to dry her eyes, but failing. "Pregnant!"
Katara almost laughed, until she realized the group of girls was serious. Then, her mind whirled.
"By...the Prince?" she asked, which seemed equally as laughable as the first bit.
"By who else?" Avizeh questioned. "It's all anyone's been talking about! She told her parents during dinner. We should pack our bags now, I reckon."
"Toph is pregnant by Prince Zuko?" Katara repeated.
"Yes, spirits, try to keep up," Avizeh huffed.
Katara blinked. "That's impossible. They're not...he's not.." she struggled. "That can't be right."
"Well, I have it from a very reputable source," Avizeh said, blinking. "My maid heard it from her cousin, whose best friend is the younger sister of a girlfriend of one of the cooks, who overheard it during the dinner there just a few hours ago."
Katara opened her mouth to tell Avizeh that clearly the information she had was wrong, but faltered.
Zuko and Toph both had been weirdly distant lately. Maybe there was something? And maybe neither wanted to dare tell her? Maybe it was all an accident, or one night, or something more?
Maybe Katara was closer to leaving than she thought.
"I'm sure we'll get a confirmation when they arrive back," Katara said, though her breath felt short. "I can't imagine something like this will simply be ignored."
Chapter 23
Notes:
How are people still holding up? Me? Oh, well, I'm not crazy yet... at least, I don't think so...
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Zuko arrived back at the palace with a headache the size of the Northern Water Tribe. The ride home had been silent, to say the least. Toph was given so many fluffy things to rest upon that the other girls nearly hadn't been able to fit into the carriage. Zuko noticed Toph wasn't setting the record straight, annoying little imp.
The girls were in a pissy mood. Sokka was in a pissy mood. He was beyond a pissy mood; he was ready to bite the head off of the next person who asked him about the Fire Nation's next little pride and joy.
He hadn't heard anything else from Aang either, and that was frustrating.
The girls scurried inside the doors of the palace, sending hateful looks toward Toph. He was pretty sure he heard one girl mutter something in a mean tone, but he actually couldn't tell who it was between the three, so he let it go.
"You," he said, pointing a finger at Toph, "My office. Now."
"Sure we should be meeting alone?" Toph teased.
"You are this close to getting cut," Zuko growled, and it seemed that for the first time the severity of the situation dawned upon her. She gulped.
"I was just...I didn't…" She began to bluster. "Look, man, you gotta-"
"You're lucky I'm even looking at you right now. Yes, you were instrumental in our issue last night, but spirits above, Toph," he snarled, "You're nothing more than a child sometimes!"
"Hey!" Sokka said, trying to step between them. He was glaring at Zuko, as though he was the bad guy!
"I can handle this myself," Toph said, wrenching out of Sokka's light touch. "Say that again, I dare ya."
"You have no care about anyone but yourself. No sense of the wellbeing of the rest of us. You do whatever the hell you please and leave me to pick up the pieces! Give me one good reason you should be allowed to stay by my side. Give me three good reasons to convince my mother or father of that once this whole mess is sorted out!" Zuko thundered, fists clenched, and steaming.
"I can't go back there! You saw my parents!" Toph threw out her hands. "Sorry if I thought quick on my feet. It worked, didn't it? Shut Nadhari's trap up."
"At the expense of a huge deal! Toph, you just...you…"
"Look, maybe we shouldn't be doing this out here," Sokka said, forcibly shoving himself between the pair. Zuko retreated, realizing he was still on the steps of the palace. Though the guards would not talk, he knew that they were one slip away from saying something truly incriminating.
"Lady Bei Fong," Zuko said, summoning a tone, not unlike the one his father used. "My office. Now."
Toph had the good sense to vanish in front of him.
Jee was waiting just inside the doors.
"An eventful trip?"
"Like you don't already know," Zuko groaned. "Why is it whenever I return, things seem awful?"
"I cannot say, sir." Jee blinked. "My Lord...it's not…"
"No. It was something that got away from the truth. Far from it." Zuko was short to cut him off.
"Right. I just…" Jee coughed. "A missive came for you. Well, quite a few...as you can imagine."
"Oh? And what's special about this one?" Zuko questioned.
"It was one of the few not asking for your head. I cannot for the life of me figure out the contents, so I figured you might want to read it," Jee said, handing him the letter. "It came via a Swift Hawk, so I was surprised it seemed like...such an insignificant letter."
Zuko thumbed under the cracked seal, reading the contents.
Hi Zuko,
I just wanted to write and thank you again for your generous donation of fifty-two air-fans for the Society for Women And Men Performers. Although the shipment came later than expected, it arrived alright this morning, not a single one damaged!
I will assume more will be coming via the same delivery service.
Your help has been monumental,
Dai
"Hmm, I have not a single idea." Zuko said, shrugging, "Perhaps it was something one of the Ladies was doing in a village and put in my name? Nothing to concern myself about, though, I'd imagine."
"I'm sure, sure," Jee said. "I just found it odd."
"Hardly worth getting excited about," Zuko said. "I assume my parents wish to see me?" he asked with a wince.
Jee flinched. "Yes, sir," he said.
"Fan-fire-tastic."
As Zuko turned away, he flipped the post-card. Postmarked from Omashu, but closer to the other end of the village. Smart girl. Despite what he told Jee, he could not stop a smile from rising within him.
One less issue to concern himself with. A million more to go.
XXxxXX
Zuko pushed open the door to see Ru waiting for him. The young journalist was sitting, picking absently at the threads on the lounge chair, his scroll, dip pen, and ink set out waiting for Zuko.
"Agni, we need to meet outside of this. Remind me of that. Sit down and talk without this desk...this competition between us," Zuko said, startling the younger man. Ru turned, a crooked grin on his face.
"No, mate, this is perfect. You keep me in business," he teased. "The Prince's Choice has been my most profitable year yet!"
Zuko sighed deeply, trying to ease his nerves. He was glad Ru was able to come on such short notice. He'd gotten read the riot act from both of his parents, but nothing was as awful as the disappointed look in Uncle Iroh's eyes. Somehow, that cut the deepest.
Luckily, being able to go and yell at Toph was pretty therapeutic. He'd feel worse about it if he didn't know that Toph would be able to throw it back in his face like she often did. She was choosing to stay silent, very smart of her, and allowed him to get his frustration out. If she'd really been bothered by it, she would have been up in his face, snarling back. Toph being afraid to say exactly what she felt was not an issue of hers.
He'd managed to save Toph's place here, but damn, it was by the skin of his teeth. They both agreed to chalk this up to a major misunderstanding that grew out of control before either knew what was being gossiped about. This wasn't untrue, but he did not believe for a second Toph did not carefully engineer that whole fiasco.
Toph even got off without a stern talking to from his father, which was a miracle. Though, his father's gaze of fury had been worse as he'd said, "Well, I suppose we'll just have to see how she fares in the competition."
Great, now she had a target on her back. She should have known that no one makes a fool out of a Royal.
Sometimes, he swore she didn't think before she acted. In moments like this, her youth compared to others was dreadfully obvious.
There was a very large part of him that wanted to send her home right now. To show that consequences happened, that actions had actions that happen back upon them. He hated how he'd been used as a pawn in her own game, one he was not privy to, and something they hadn't agreed upon. More than anything, he hated that dumbfounded feeling he'd felt as she'd so easily lied and carved out this fantasy.
It reminded him of all the things his father and sister were, and those were the things he swore never to be. As ingenious as it might have been to sell the fakeness of their love, at what cost?
At what cost...that was a phrase that was uttered far too little by those in charge. It was one he now kept in his mind most firmly.
But no, Toph would remain...for now. He didn't think he could keep her very much longer, so hopefully, things figured themselves out quickly. One way or another.
"Glad I could be so of help," Zuko said, but his anger faded. Ru was not who he was angry at. Still, Zuko stalked over to the cabinets and pulled out a deeply-aged bottle of whiskey and poured two small glasses. He downed his immediately before turning.
"Want some?"
"I'm technically on the job," Ru said, looking torn. "Maybe after...but…"
"Mhh, right," Zuko said and drank Ru's portion too. Then, he poured a third glass to sip on.
He felt better with some drinks in his system. Agni knew that he'd need it to get through this day. "So…" Zuko said, sitting across from his friend, "You know?"
Ru gave an uneasy laugh. "Who doesn't?"
Zuko groaned. "Yeah, that's what I was afraid of. It was just a comment...taken completely out of context! And then, what, I was supposed to awkwardly say no right after her father was congratulating us and everyone was making a fuss?" Zuko asked, noticing that Ru was writing things down. "I mean, I guess, yes, but it seemed like the wrong time. I was still reeling from this new information I was going to be a father."
"Uh-huh," Ru said, scratching his cheek as he scribbled, an ink-smudge appearing on his skin. "You say it was...taken out of context? How?"
"I mean, Toph - err, Lady Bei Fong, was just saying it to shut Nadhari up. Spirits, I was a little glad. She's so fucking annoying." Zuko realized what he'd just said and how the drinks were making his tongue loose and winced. "Uhm, can you not-"
"Yeah, that was off the record," Ru snorted. "I'm here as a friend to help you. I wouldn't put something like that in the official write up," he said. "Honestly? I can see it. She seems…" He thought for a second. "Needy. Extreme. Fake. She's not my favorite contestant."
"No kidding. She's still here because….another time, as friends," Zuko rubbed his temples, "Toph only patted her stomach. She had indigestion. Everything just went sideways from there," Zuko said, making a turning motion with his hands, as though he needed to use a diagram. "Right. And now it's all just blown up in our faces." Zuko gave a rough laugh. "You know what the really ironic thing is? I've never even had sex. Yeah, I know, me...the Crown Prince. Agni."
"Wait," Ru's fingers paused. "You've never-"
"I know, I know," Zuko felt a blush rise to his cheeks. He hadn't meant to let that slip. "I could probably have any girl, but sue me! I want it to mean something and I just haven't...you probably think I'm crazy." He sat back, thinking about how incredibly messed up everything was in his life right now.
"No," Ru said with an excited tone, "That's fantastic!" He paused as Zuko shot him a half-furious look. "I mean, that sucks, but on the bright side...I think we've hit our angle!"
"Of...the article?"
"Well, there can't be any discussion or questions about cover-ups if you've never had sex to begin with."
Zuko threw back the rest of the whiskey and slammed the glass on the table. "So let me get this right," he said, pointing at Ru, "You want me to announce to the entire world that I've never been laid?"
"Yes, basically."
"Oh, absolutely not."
"Hey, we won't make it sound as bad as it seems." Ru's eyes were twinkling like it did as he crafted a masterful article, something that spun words and truths into something nearly like art. "We'll remind people about how virtuous you are, about how humble and pious of a Prince you are. We'll use all the good things and really push the whole 'waiting for the right girl' thing. People will dig that. It won't be so much of a 'look at this poor schmuck of a prince who's never seen boobs' but rather 'this oh-so-respectful heir to the throne is waiting for his heiress'."
"If you're sure…" Zuko said uneasily.
"Completely. This should fix most of your issues, Zuko," Ru said, and then chuckled. "Every time I think I've written my best piece yet, you swoop in and make things challenging again. You keep me on my toes!"
Zuko huffed. "For once, I'd prefer to keep all our feet firmly on solid ground. I doubt that will happen, though."
"You can't say you don't live an exciting life."
XXxxXX
The news that Toph was apparently not pregnant spread just as quick as the rumor that she was. Katara heard it from her replacement handmaid, who was assigned to her at least until Aiga felt up to the task of working again. Perhaps there was some goodness in distance, especially after the tense moment when she'd accused Katara.
Katara did not hold it against her. People did crazy things when told horrible news. Katara hopping a boat to the Fire Nation was just one of a million other examples, so she couldn't hold it against her.
Katara was nearly finished with her dress. She'd been glad of something to distract her fingers while her mind whirled about the news. She couldn't say she was surprised at the quick reversal, but some small part of her had been sure it wasn't fake.
The other big news that dropped? An article that denied the pregnancy, explained the situation, and almost proudly announced that Zuko was a virgin. Which was something Katara knew, but it was like tinder to a flame of hot gossip for the other girls.
As Katara passed the ladies' hall, all she heard was the girls talking about how they could easily fix that issue for the Prince, if he so wanted.
"He's not a piece of meat and he'll sleep with who he wants to when he wants to," Katara said before she knew what she was doing. Some part of her cared for him, deeply and painfully, and she was not about to let the ladies giggle and gossip about him like this! It was frankly insulting.
"What if it's not you?" Nadhari asked, crossing her arms.
"Then fine," Katara grit out. "But it's objectifying to be talking about him like this."
"Oh, like he doesn't do it behind closed doors about us!"
"I'm unsure," Yue broke in, a frown creasing. "He does seem respectful, abundantly so. Not all boys are...like Hahn," she said, which was the aptest comparison.
Whatever Katara was going to argue was cut off by a shriek. Katara turned to see Toph coming down the hallway, her expression wild as Avizeh grasped her into the room.
"Oh my god! I don't know if I should be furious or impressed that you created the best gossip of the century!"
"Thanks?"
"You're not pregnant, are you?" Katara asked, and she couldn't help it. Even if that's what Zuko said here. Even if she doubted it. Even if a thousand things, she had to ask. Plus, if Toph wanted to stay, she could very easily find a way to get pregnant and attempt to pass it off as Zuko's...
Toph opened her jaw, staring at Katara incredulously.
"Really?" she said, as though understanding Katara differently.
"It's a fair question! Answer it," Mai snapped coldly.
"Well," Toph said, crossing her arms, "Naw, I don't think I am." She shrugged, as though casually discussing if she were joining the girls for dinner.
"You don't think so?" Nadhari circled her like a shark. "You know it's against the rules to be having a dalliance outside of the Prince. And if he's saying he's never lain with you-"
"That's why I said I don't think so. Short of spiritual intervention," Toph said, pulling an innocent face.
Someone harrumphed from the back corner.
"So it's a lot of drama for nothing." Saoirse threw her hands up. "Great. You…" She broke off, unable to articulate. Katara could feel the frustration ebbing from everyone it seemed. Katara had previously been one of the least liked girls, but it seemed now Toph had that position.
"Look, I don't appreciate the third degree here," Toph growled. "It was a comment that went way out of hand and look, I've already heard it from everyone. I'm going to go to bed. If that's okay," she asked, glaring at Avizeh, who still had her in a tight grip. As though realizing for the first time, Aveziah let her go like Toph had burned her.
The room was silent as Toph stalked off.
Katara was tempted to follow her, but she had nothing more to say to her right now.
"I don't know what she thought she'd gain…" Besu sounded incredulous. She was one of Toph's closer friends, besides Katara, but she seemed similarly thrown by this entire situation.
"She's fucked herself over, that's for sure," Ratana said, as though it was obvious. At a few blank glances, she shrugged. "I mean, okay, some people believe that she's pure and it's all a big misunderstanding. It's going to be hard to trust her again. Still, there will be some that don't believe the Prince or Toph and think she's been used. As stupid as it is, that matters to some." She bit her lip. "I'm pretty sure her after-marriage prospects have gone from here," she placed one hand over her head, "to down here," she dropped it below her navel. "She has to win the Prince's heart for any good match at this point, or come right damn close."
Katara was gripped suddenly by a fury she was not expecting.
Toph was a mastermind, something Katara was only realizing now.
All the other girls were looking at this drop in suitors as the worst outcome, which was totally a valid point as most of them wanted that 'after.' Katara was not going to call a girl stupid for wishing for this, but she wouldn't be surprised if this was part of Toph's master scheme – that she would be labeled as an issue as give her parents a hard time lining up a husband after this.
Katara understood her frantic desire to never return home, nor to be under the thumb of a stuffy lord or general who would treat her like a china doll. She sympathized with Toph's plight and felt it was so unfair. She knew her parents were overbearing, to say the least. She got all of that.
But to use the Prince like this? It left a bitter taste in Katara's mouth. She did not like how Toph used him for her own gain, disregarding his feelings or any other person in the equation. It felt as dirty as Nadhari's shameless flirting.
But are you not doing the same thing? a voice inside of her head whispered You came to use him too. For food, for protection, for your tribe.
"That's different." Katara narrowed her eyes, mumbling to herself as she slipped away from the room. "That's for others, not for myself."
But isn't it?
The question lapped at her mind and she found it hard to shake.
XXxxXX
As Katara dragged her suitcase down the hall to leave for the last trip before the ball and tournament, she found Toph waiting in the luggage room.
"You're not on this trip," Katara said shortly.
"No, but I needed to talk to you," Toph said, blinking at Katara as she entered. "I...I feel like…" She pressed her lip, frustrated. "Did you honestly think I slept with Zuko?" she asked, sounding frustrated and a bit offended.
"Well, I…" Katara wished she could have said that she never believed it for a second, but her words failed her.
Toph sucked in her breath, her expression hardening. "I wouldn't. Not with how you feel about him-"
"I don't even know how I feel about him!" Katara snapped back. "Look, I just…" She wondered how she could explain everything she was feeling all at once, but found it impossible, so she never finished.
"Sugar Queen," Toph said, sounding worn-down, "You're one of my best friends, and I don't give that title out lightly. I wouldn't ever, never, hurt you like that." It was one of the rare moments Toph was truly sincere in every word she said. "Actually, can I-" Before she could say anything more, the other three girls that would be coming to Jang Hui - Ratana, Jin, and Avizeh - carried their bags into the room. As far as travel partners went, Katara was happy with the group.
"We need to talk before the tournament when you get back," Toph said cryptically, starting to slide out of the room. As she did, Zuko swept past her.
"Lady Bei Fong, stay a moment," he said, his tone even, but Katara watched his eyes burn. She noticed he also moved out of his way to stand at least six feet away, as though the mere closeness of their bodies would incite another rumor.
"Ladies, I have just been informed that you will be traveling alone for most of the trip," Zuko said, frowning apologetically.
"But why?" Avizeh pouted.
"My father wishes me to hand-deliver some ball invitations to some important allies of his, and time is something we do not have much of. You will spend the first two days and nights there yourselves, with plenty to do, and I will join in on the last night. The trip is also being extended a night so I do have a chance to spend time there. If you need to grab any more clothes, a maid will run and fetch them now," Zuko said, standing back to reveal four maids patiently waiting. Avizeh threw open her luggage, calling to her handmaid, and trying to decide what to bring in addition. Ratana conveyed a short instruction to hers. Jin shrugged, deciding she was fine, as did Katara.
As the girls repacked their bags, Katara saw Zuko turn to Toph.
"Lady Bei Fong, while I am gone, best behavior," he said in a low tone.
"I got you Spark-err, Prince Zuko," Toph said, correcting herself at the last moment. Zuko pinched the bridge of his nose.
"I am serious. You cough on the wrong portrait, someone will know and it will be reported back to my father and myself. In light of this, you'll have your handmaid follow you. Everywhere."
Toph's respectful expression dropped.
"You're giving me a handler again?" she hissed, "Awe, c'mon, don't be like that!"
Zuko shrugged in a 'you did this to yourself' sort of manner. "Take it or leave it."
Toph seemed to pull herself together, biting her tongue. "Of course, my Prince," she said, sarcasm heavy on her voice.
"I like the words, but drop the attitude," Zuko hissed. "You're really not doing yourself any favors."
"Oh, don't worry," Toph muttered as he swung around and left. "I seem to be perfectly capable of fucking things up myself…"
XXxxXX
The girls in the carriage deferred immediately to Ratana for information on their location, since she was a native from the small town that most had never heard of. Katara recalled a few things she'd discussed, such as the legend of the Painted Lady, but not everyone had been present.
"It's really cool," Ratana said, her eyes bright. "It's a structure of a village built entirely on the water. The houses all float."
"So, how do you get around?" Jin asked.
"Well, on boats. I've been sailing since I was three," she said with a small giggle, and despite being a Fire Nationer, Katara thought once again that she and Ratana were not so different. "It used to be really beautiful."
"Used to?"
Ratana's expression darkened. "Fifteen years ago, the Fire Nation army set up a weapons factory, and it's been destroying everything ever since." She swallowed hard. "When I was ten, my parents sent me to live with my Aunt and Uncle in a different town. I think they were worried I would not survive. Many are starved and dirty and hungry. I'm lucky...my parents are nobles there. The only reason they refuse to leave is that my family has lived there as far as anyone can recall." Ratana smiled out the window, but it was a sad smile. "Perhaps we'll do some good when we arrive there. That's why we're being sent, aren't we?"
"I hope so," Jin said sincerely, placing a hand over Ratana's. "That sounds awful."
"I've made it this far in the competition, so my village is getting food, but that doesn't fix everything."
The girls took up most of their time by playing group games between them. They were all relatively friendly and nice, and it was much easier to play with all four than only three or two. They also discussed the upcoming fights, since it seemed difficult to imagine much else.
Avizeh had already accepted defeat, Katara knew.
Jin said she'd try, but it was clear she wasn't sure she'd prevail.
Ratana was a bit more hopeful. "I may not be the best fighter, but I've been fighting for what I want or what I deserve my whole life. This will be no different."
Katara eventually just read a book of poetry as the carriage rumbled on. It hardly felt awkward for there to be silence, everyone doing their own thing. Jin looked out the window and tilted her head, frowning.
"I thought you said that the town is on a river," she said.
"It is."
"Well, was there a drought? All I see is a dusty road." Katara tilted her head out her window to see a wide, barren road at the bottom of the ridge they were on. But no, was it...moving?
Ratana nearly upended the carriage, throwing herself to the windows to see. When she pulled back, her expression was pinched.
"That is the river."
Her words chilled Katara's body, as well as the other two girls'. In a flash, everyone understood.
Ratana switched places with Jin. "Down there...there's my village," she said, her voice breaking as she motioned to a tiny collection of what looked like sticks in the middle of the brown river.
"We're not going down there," Katara said.
"Well, there's probably not any good lodging there," Ratana spat furiously. "I'm sure that we're staying up near the factory. There's a place for families to reside in when they visit. I'm sure that's it."
Indeed it was. It was hardly an hour later that they were pulling up to what looked like a posh resort, so markedly different than the town below them, even from what Katara could see. If someone only saw a drawing of this building, they'd never guess it was next to a factory or a river that was more dirt than water.
"Welcome, welcome, ladies!" a man said, "I am sorry to hear the Prince will not be joining us for a few days, but I can assure you that you will be well cared for. I am Jhon, and I will be your host!" he said. "Oh, someone can take your bags to your rooms for you," he added as Katara tried to grasp hers.
"Oh, are we going right down to the town?" Jin asked, tilting her head. She was already tying up her hair, ready to work. Everyone was. No one in this group was cold-hearted and it was clear the town was in need. Even Avizeh, who perhaps had an issue keeping things to herself, was not a malicious person at heart.
Jhon laughed until he read the faces of the four. "Why in Agni's name would you go down there?" he asked.
"I just...I thought we…" Jin said, frowning, looking back at Ratana helplessly, "Aren't we doing service in the town?"
"No!" Jhon seemed horrified. "That's hardly where your services are needed. You'll be spending the time boosting the moral of the factory workers! Many of them come and serve our Fire Lord diligently and rarely get time to go home. I'm sure that many will be very pleased to see such lovely faces and enjoy your presence," Jhon said, completely serious. "You'll also be helping make some tokens that the Fire Lord is giving out at the ball this weekend, a remembrance of the Choice."
"So...we're not going into town at all?" Avizeh asked, breathless and confused.
"You don't have to worry about that, my dear," Jhon replied, as though lifting a great weight from their shoulders.
Jin and Avizeh exchanged worried looks but started to follow Jhon. Katara clenched her fists, looking back at Ratana. She was glued in place, her cheeks red with fury and embarrassment and tears gathering in her eyes.
Zuko was not here to help. Katara knew she had little agency as a woman, and just one of four here at that, but she could not stay silent.
"Lady Ratana is from here," Katara said, intercepting Jhon, crossing her arms. "Surely it would be cruel to not allow her to go down and visit her flesh and blood?"
"We can bring them up here-"
"Sir, just as your factory men no doubt long for their houses, I'm sure Ratana does too. She has not been home since she was ten. Are you truly going to refuse?"
Jhon hesitated.
Katara smiled widely at the remaining girls. "I am positive that the factory men will be just as enchanted with my fellow ladies here. We will be up later tonight, fear not. It just seems unnecessarily strict to not allow Lady Ratana this."
"Well...you..."
"We will be back before sun-down, of course," Katara said with a gracious smile, turning around and grasping Ratana's arm before he could stop them. "Ta!"
Once they were on the path down to town, and Ratana had found a boat to take them in, she burst into tears.
"How could Zuko be so mean to not allow us to help?"
"Zuko is kind," Katara said, and she knew this without question. "I doubt it was his choice," she said, patting her back. "As soon as he arrives, I am positive that we can persuade him that we've spent two days with the factory workers."
"Okay, okay," Ratana said, wiping her eyes. "Oh, I don't want to look like a mess to see my family again."
"You look beautiful," Katara said earnestly.
As soon as they reached the town, Katara saw that she had been entirely misguided with how badly gone the town was. She'd thought it to be on the level of her tribe before they'd left, however, it was worse in a totally different way.
Most people only had the strength to lift their heads as Katara passed through with Ratana. She saw so many sick, so many starving that it tore her heart to pieces. The entire town stunk, and most had a cough that would not leave.
"It's worse than my parents let on," Ratana inhaled hard, her shoulders slumped and her whole expression utterly defeated.
Ratana's home was by far the most well-groomed, though not by much. There were only tattered curtains in place of shutters, while most houses had none, and the door was partially broken. There was an attempt for furniture, though it was dusty and unrepaired. It had once been beautiful, Katara was sure, but age and sickness had taken its toll.
"Mom? Dad?" Ratana asked, turning around. She waited for three beats. "They're not here."
Ratana made a beeline for the kitchen. Katara followed, feeling as though she was walking over ghostly remains.
"My mom is a medicine woman, she's probably helping," Ratana muttered to herself. "And my father is just a good person."
Ratana opened the cabinets and icebox. The items looking back were few and far between, nothing worthy of a full meal. Most of it was rotten too. Katara coughed at the stench as Ratana furiously threw them out.
"Come, we're going to get them some more food," Ratana said.
Katara followed her through the town a weird daze, just so overwhelmed by the poverty and lack of fight of the entire village. Even at her tribe's worst, they'd always had hope and pride and the love of their people. This town looked on the verge of sinking away altogether, metaphorically and literally. As Katara walked over the planks, she could feel them hiss under her weight, sinking a bit more into the muddy river.
At the town center was a little rickety hut.
"We used to sell many fish," Ratana explained. "I doubt there have been good catches of late." She paused a few feet away. "Err, so, there's a man we're about to meet. His real name is Dock. He's friendly and harmless, but also a bit unstable."
"Unstable?"
"Mentally," Ratana said. "He's so nice, so don't fear. However, his two brothers - Xu and Bushi - died not long after the river was polluted. He didn't fare much better. He survived his illness, but it's messed some things up. He believes himself to be three different people. In a sense, he's taken on his brothers' spirits. So right now, we'll meet Xu, the store owner. Dock works on the docks and Bushi works in sanitation. He switches between the three."
"And you let him?"
"Why break his heart?" Ratana asked softly.
She left Katara, flabbergasted, and walked up to the counter. She tapped twice and an older man popped up.
"Lady Ratana, do my eyes deceive me? Oh, you look exactly like your mother!" he said, leaning over-enthusiastically to hug her. "Me and my brothers haven't seen you since you were, oh, this tall!" he said, holding out a hand below the counter.
"Xu, how are your brothers?" Ratana asked kindly, kissing his cheek.
"You can ask them yourself!" Xu said. Katara watched him pop below the counter's view and come back up with a different hat on.
"It's been tough on the river without many people needin' rides, but I'm doing okay. It's sure good to see you, Ratana. You know, Bushi would love to see you," Xu, err, Dock, said.
"Can you grab him?" Ratana said.
"Of course!"
Xu reappeared with another hat on. For a bit, Katara watched Ratana interact with the 'three brothers,' never letting it slip that she did not believe them differently. Katara wondered if this truly was the kind thing to do?
Finally, Ratana looked at the sky, scowling. "Can you fetch Xu again? I'd like to buy some food."
"Course!" Bushi said though Katara at this point was a bit confused about who was who.
"This is what we have today," Xu said, dropping a crate of odious smelling fish on the table, most that were double-headed or similarly disfigured. All were oozing with gray sludge. That could not be healthy.
"Isn't there anything else?" Ratana asked, horrified. "What about the food shipment? I know that one just arrived here two days ago. Or do you all distribute that freely?"
"Err, that…" Xu rubbed his neck. "That goes up to the factory."
The color drained from Ratana's face. "What?" She seemed almost ready to fall over. Katara took a step next to her, just in case she fainted. "But that's for the town!"
"They argued that the factory is part of the town," Xu said. He swallowed. "They give us some money for it. Since no one is making anything, we can't really say no...need it to get medicine from the next town over."
"But...that's...it's…" Ratana seemed like her brain had stopped working. "No!"
"Have you sold all of it yet?" Katara asked, "To the factory?"
"Someone's meant to come down tonight to get the rest of it." Xu rubbed his neck. "I'm not sure that-"
"Whatever they're paying you," Katara growled, reaching inside of her pockets. "I will make it more worth your while."
All girls were given a stipend to spend and Katara was not about to worry about using it now. There was nothing more worthwhile she'd want to spend it on. Then, she took off her rings and necklace, all baubles from the Palace, and dropped it soundly on the counter.
Xu hesitated, but could not resist, and pulled out a few crates of vegetables, rice, meat, and soups. It was meager but more than nothing. Katara was sure she had overpaid, but she was not going to care about that. If this is what it took...this is what it took.
"The factory might be a bit mad…" Xu said, still uneasy. "They don't have good food either."
"Then they shouldn't be poisoning their one food source," Katara spat.
Ratana sectioned off a small portion, holding it to her chest as though she were afraid it would slip into the water, before pushing the crate back to the shopkeeper. "Can you and your brothers give the rest of this to those that need it?" she whispered.
"We'll do what we can."
Ratana led Katara to the town center. There, in the middle, was a statue of the Painted Lady, though it was horribly dirty. The paint on it was chipped, parts of it were gouged out, and in all, she looked more dead than alive.
"Lady of the River, please, please," Ratana whispered fervently, dropping to her knees. "Your people won't survive much longer."
Katara watched silently as Ratana prayed, tears spilling over her cheeks. Her whole body was shaking with silent fury, sometimes she was so overwhelmed she was unable to speak and just clutched the bottom of the idol's feet, wishing that someone would help them.
It was a sobering sight.
As it crept into half-an-hour of prayer, a slight woman who looked like Ratana joined in. Behind her stood a man who had Ratana's kind eyes.
"Mum!" Ratana cried, throwing herself into her mother's arms.
Katara studied them. Their robes were made of fine fabrics, but they were patched and dusty. They both looked better fed than most, but they were still gaunt. Ratana's mother turned and coughed and a sick feeling sank in Katara's stomach; they could not sustain themselves like this. Her parents were going to run themselves to their death trying to help their village.
Katara sat in the shadows, letting Ratana have a moment with her family.
"Oh! This is Katara," Ratana said, "She's the one who bought the entire village food. And convinced that idiot from the factory to let me come down here."
"The Southerner," Ratana's father said. "We've heard much about you."
"Probably not all good," Katara sighed.
"It hardly matters what they all say," Ratana's mother said, pulling Katara into a hug. "Your actions, from what Ratana has said, mean you are a kind person with a good heart."
Ratana's parents tried to argue that the food they still had should be given to others, but Ratana would not hear of it. She made them a meal, and despite their reservations, they both tore into it hungrily as soon as it was placed in front of them.
They told Ratanana about all the sick, ill, and dying as they ate.
It sounded so familiar to Katara's own family she could not stop her eyes from misting. Ratana listened, absorbing it, but was unable to do anything.
When they had to leave, Ratana nearly could not.
"What if this is the last time I see you?" she asked. "I'm going to leave the competition. I can't! I can't."
"No, my sweet," her father said firmly. "You will see us again. And I will not allow you to throw away this chance."
"I don't want it without you."
"We are strong. We will prevail," her mother said. "Now go, before you get in trouble."
Outside the doors of the factory, Katara turned. She put Ratana's hair back into a braid, wiped the makeup that had messed up her face, and helped her dust off her robes. They both knew Ratana would not be allowed a moment to collect herself, or a night alone.
They were led into the main mess hall, where the factory workers gathered and had music nights after long days of work. Avizeh and Jin were already being friendly, playing board games or talking to different groups.
Ratana forced a bright smile and greeted a group that called over to her. Across the way, Katara saw Avizeh and Jin turn in question, about to ask about their little trip, but one firm shake of Katara's head sobered them.
Katara feared if Ratana were asked about it, she'd break down in tears and be unable to pick herself back up.
The night dragged on. It felt so stupid that Katara had to sit there doing little waterbending tricks for these villains while people were dying down in Jang Hui. She was itchy and distracted most of the night, despite her best efforts. When they were finally brought to their rooms, Katara muttered 'finally' out loud. Jhon, if he heard, ignored her.
Once in their rooms, Katara leaped on her suitcase.
She now knew she could not wait for Zuko's arrival. She couldn't wait two days for him to fix things. She had to do something immediately.
When she'd been packing, her fingers had grabbed something she'd almost forgotten. It was like there had been a fog around her mind, concealing this from her until this very moment. It was the oddest addition to her suitcase. She could not explain in any words or gestures what in the world had possessed her to grab her Painted Lady costume to bring.
Though, as she laid it out, it felt like kismet.
The real Painted Lady wasn't going to help her town? Fine, Katara would do what she could. She was never going to turn her back on those that needed her.
Notes:
Right now the schedule will be that this updates every three weeks. I meant to update this yesterday, and told a few people online that May 5th was the day, but Grad School and a 'surprise' last observation got in the way and tied me up for a good chunk of time there. I'm writing pretty steadily and I know you all are anxious to read what happens, but I'd rather give myself time to write more than update it all really fast and leave you with nothing for months, if my muse takes a vacation. We're two chapters away from the Masquerade ball, so probably about 4 chapters away from the fights if that gets any of you excited!
If you have a tumblr or an a03 and follow the 'shorts' as gifts for those who review consistently, I've also been getting through those like crazy! I think that I uploaded THREE Zutara ones in the time since the last update, or at least 3 Avatar the Last Airbender ones. So check out my tumblr or a03 to see those! If you're thinking that you 'requested' one a while ago and you haven't seen it...it's a'coming. As I said, I'm working through those right now to get the list back down to a more manageable size lol
Also, who is super excited about The Painted Lady episode!? I know a lot of you have been waiting for this! I hope you enjoy my twists on it. I also want to tell you that there WILL be some major Zutara moments in the next chapter! A lot of you might be pretty happy with where the next chapter ends, I'll just say that.
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Katara yawned widely the next morning, shuffling her feet as the girls walked to the dining hall. They'd be having all their meals with the factory workers.
While Katara knew that all these men individually were not bad people, she still could not help the feeling of anger that was growing, festering, inside her stomach as she looked at them. Her hatred for this entire factory made it difficult to focus on much else, but at least it distracted her from how weary and exhausted she was.
She'd spent the whole night healing people and separating out mud from water, leaving buckets of clean water at doorsteps. Her fingers were aching and her head was pounding. She was starved.
Luckily, Ratana was also yawning so no one assumed anything amiss. Though, from the dark circles and her puffy eyes, Katara knew she'd likely been crying all night.
They got in line for food, and as Katara was waiting for some coffee, there was a commotion down the line. One of the factory workers was arguing with a cook.
"What do you mean there are no scrambled eggs, man? I always eat eggs!" he cried petulantly.
"I don't know what to tell you," the cook said tensely, rubbing his face. "We don't have any."
"But, you always have some!"
"Not today, alright? I must have misplaced the batch of eggs that we got the other day and some jerk down in town bought all the rest from that batshit insane man. No eggs today," he said firmly. "We're also out of lettuce if you're going to make a fuss about that."
A factory worker near Katara snorted, "Baby."
Katara got her food and sat at a table with some of the workers she'd 'befriended' last night.
As they were chatting lightly over their morning sustenance, a man tiredly slumped into a seat.
"Oh, he's one of the watchmen. His shift just ended," A worker informed Katara. "Anything good?" he teased, "Or boring as usual?"
"Actually," The watchman frowned, "It wasn't a usual night. There's some activity going down in that stinky little town."
Ratana perked up two tables over.
"Oh, really?" Katara said, encouraging him on, giving him a wide smile.
"Yeah. Don't know why they decided to get off their asses today, but it seemed like they were cleaning that old statue of their stupid goddess or whatever. Lots of people seemed...healthier." he said, shaking his head. "Like something just came in the night and healed a bunch of people. It's insane."
Ratana dropped her mug. "She heard my prayers!" she said.
Jin jumped up, grasping her mug from the floor. As she stood, she hugged Ratana and placed her head on her shoulder for just a second.
"Thank the spirits," Jin murmured, a soft smile bobbing on her lips. Avizeh was pleased too, and while it was clear the factory workers looked uneasy, no one dared argue with these beautiful girls in front of them.
Katara tiredly sipped her coffee, trying to hide the grin on her face.
XXxxXX
The day's activities took the girls on a tour of the facilities with an in-depth explanation of how the weapons were made. If Katara were not so put out with the entire factory, she'd find it terribly interesting. She tried to remember a bit of it, knowing that Sokka would have been like a kid in a candy store here. He'd always discussed wanting to make his own weapons, and he would have asked a million questions. There were times that Katara almost forgot she was supposed to be hating the factory, such as when they got to see hot steel being poured into the molds and Katara was asked to use her bending to help by pouring hot water over the steaming molds and it made such a satisfying sound, but she regained her stony composure when she saw how much waste was poured down the drain.
She knew where that drain went.
After the long tour, the girls were split off with some of the more artistically-talented members in the factory to create little metal coins for each of the remaining girls in the competition. From what they explained, it was Ozai's idea. The girls would receive thirty of these at the start of the masquerade and give them out to whomever they wanted, such as if someone managed to guess their identity beneath the mask.
At that moment, Katara understood what Ozai was doing.
The ball wasn't a scheme to get something in or out of the palace, but rather, it was one big smokescreen. For as much uncertainty as there was surrounding the airbenders, Ozai was throwing this on as a sort of 'look, how could we be near war or a revolution if I'm still throwing balls' sort of action. To give a token would encourage those that wanted to collect. It was just another chance to rub elbows with the truly rich and forget about all the other issues, and they were using the girls as centerpieces.
It wasn't as though that was different from usual, Katara considered.
Still, she was the least excited by this idea. The other girls seemed cautiously optimistic. It was innovative and unique and it gave some amount of power to the girls at the ball. They'd choose who they gave the tokens to, not the other way around.
The girls would sit with an artist and try to come up with tokens for each lady. Then, each of the four designs would be put in front of the one who was making the molds, and he'd choose the best (easiest, Katara understood) one to create. He did have to go about making eighteen of them by the ball's start, which was not that far away.
They were encouraged to think of an animal or a flower or something girly that described each contestant. Sometimes, it was easy for Katara to think of an idea. She may hate the people and the institution making these coins, but for most girls, she wanted them to have a good design. She wanted to honor her friends.
The easiest by far was Toph's, since her family had their own animal.
As the man Katara was bouncing ideas off of began to sketch within the small circle, he cleared his throat.
"Can I ask you a question? Is Lady Bei Fong-"
"No."
"No I can't ask you?" He looked up. "Or no as the answer?"
"Both."
"You don't even know what I was going to ask," he said, scoffing.
"Oh, but I do. It's a no," Katara bit out. She might be a bit annoyed with Toph presently, but she would still defend her honor.
"Hmm," the factory worker said, but Katara got the feeling he did not believe her.
The rest of the day was spent playing board games or playing instruments with the workers again. Katara stayed her time, and tried to be less obvious she was displeased.
As night fell, Jin revealed she was given a bottle of sake by one of the head factory workers and she invited the girls to her room. While part of Katara longed to be able to sit with these women and giggle about their days and get drunk from the sweet intoxications, she had a job to do.
Last night she'd done the easy sort of healing; broken bones, bruised ribs, collapsed lungs. She'd had plenty of practice with those sorts of things before. Plus, to encourage muscle or bones to stitch back together underneath skin, while unpleasant for the receiver, was not a difficult task. She just needed to focus her water there and it was simple.
You know what was harder? Healing illness and fever. There wasn't anything for Katara to latch on to. It was untouchable. Illness was an overall feeling and it was something she was not used to healing. However, this is what ailed most and she'd be a pretty shitty spirit stand-in if she couldn't do that.
She was not about to admit defeat.
Her first patrons would be Ratana's parents. Those two, who gave themselves to their town tirelessly, deserved to be able to continue doing so. Depending on how the night went and how confident Katara was, she even wondered if she'd be able to heal Dock. Was it possible for her to fix a brain that was shattered, the most abstract of illnesses there was?
She brushed the dirt off of her robes and painted her face, and as she slipped out onto her patio, she heard the girls laughing from one room over.
Ratana deserved some happiness. Let them have it, she thought. She did this so others did not have to.
XXxxXX
"You okay, Princess Katara? You look a little pale."
"Just tired," Katara said firmly. "Sorry, what were you talking about?" she asked, putting on her most interested face and leaned in, taking another gigantic drink of coffee.
Last night had been more exhausting than the first.
There were many times she'd wanted to give up. Times when she thought that maybe certain illnesses just could not be fixed or that she'd done all she could do. Times when she imagined she was not skilled enough and would have to leave the job half-done.
That was not in Katara's personality, however.
She was not sure if she'd healed everyone, but she knew she'd given her everything. It was clearly affecting her – she felt ill herself. Of course, she did; she'd spent the entire night using a lot of energy and had maybe nabbed an hour of sleep at the end of it. She was looking forward to the ride back to the Palace tomorrow, where there existed all the time in the world and it was as dull as Earth Kingdom mathematical presentations, so Katara could just sleep it off.
"Maybe if you're lucky, the Painted Lady will come and visit you tonight," the watch guard said with a hint of humor.
"More activity?" One of the workers turned to the guard who'd sat with them yesterday, surprise coloring his face.
"Yeah, I think she healed most of their sickness last night. Or the rest of 'em. They're practically ecstatic. They're throwing a festival, last I saw."
"All because of a spirit?" one guard said, scrunching his nose. "No one actually believes they exist...right?"
A few of his comrades around the table gave half-hearted shrugs. Katara scowled at him. Those who denied the existence of spirits were looking for bad accidents to befall them, or for a spirit to leave him out in times of need.
"Can you believe how much an entire village can be affected by one lady - I mean, spirit?" Katara asked. "I think it's fantastic."
"Sure," one of the guards said unsurely, "I mean, that town needs it. I hope she's around to stay."
"Huh?" Katara blinked.
"Well, the place will go right back to how it was if she skips a night of her voodoo," the guard said in a factual tone.
"You...they…" Katara floundered. "But look how much happier they seem!" she argued sharply.
"Yeah, today. Tomorrow it will be right back to how it was. People will continue to be sick. They can't afford food or water, no more than we can. I mean, seriously, this is just like patching a hole with tape. It's bound to come undone eventually."
Katara seethed in her spot.
As much as she wanted to punch this guy, he was right. She could fix to her heart's content, but without food or without water, and not a single delivery but something sustainable, it was all for naught.
"Maybe she'll use her spirit magic to make them immortal or something," the non-believer teased, wiggling his fingers.
"Spirit magic doesn't work like that, Chen!" the logical worker said, hitting him on the back of the head. "I think it's more like this," he said and waved his arms around. The pair broke into sniggers.
Katara stood up abruptly.
"Where are you going, Princess Katara?"
"I think perhaps I'll go see the infirmary," Katara lied, but in truth, she could not stand another second.
"That's for the best. You look awful."
In her heart, she knew that making everyone immortal was illogical. That couldn't be done. She had to protect these people after she'd left.
It was clear where the issue was stemming from, even as all the workers skirted around it. The factory was the root of the issue.
Which meant, simply, it had to go.
Before Katara could exit, there was great fanfare. Katara watched as Zuko came in, smiling and waving.
Ratana slipped up behind Katara, grasping her forearm hard. The other girls joined Katara's side, watching silently as Zuko said a few words and shook a few hands.
Soon, he'd turned his attention to the girls waiting.
"Prince Zuko, I need to talk to you alone," Ratana said. "Or, err, Katara can be there too. I want her there," she said, linking her fingers into Katara's.
"Later tonight-"
"No." Ratana might have a sharp wit, but she'd never used it on the Prince, nor taken this tone with him. "Now."
Zuko was so shell-shocked that he just blinked and nodded. "Alright...I uhm, follow me."
Katara would let Ratana talk. This was Ratana's town and her fight, even if Katara was aiding. Zuko led them to a meeting room. Katara sat silently and watched as Zuko motioned for her to speak, worry creasing his forehead.
Ratana started but immediately started crying.
"Should I-?" Katara started but Ratana shook her head.
"No, no! I can do it," she said and managed to take a few deep breaths.
The next half an hour was spent with Ratana describing in horrifying detail the state of her hometown. She spared no ugly truth from him, and Katara watched as Zuko's face grew clouded and dark as she spoke. Many times, Katara wanted to add something in, but that would mean admitting to Ratana that she was masquerading as the Painted Lady, as well as telling Zuko of her nightly trips and activities, some of which were illegal.
When Ratana had finished, Zuko sat for a moment. "I'm glad you told me about this. I'm quite disturbed by this account."
"What are you going to do?" Ratana asked. Zuko offered her a handkerchief and she accepted it, dabbing her eyes.
The answer was obvious, Katara thought.
But, Zuko shook his head. "I will have to think about that. But I assure you, something will be done."
Ratana seemed pleased by this, but Katara hardly was. The pair were excused back to their activities and Zuko had other things to be doing. After making sure Ratana really was fine, Katara doubled back to catch up with Zuko.
"Zuko!" she said, storming after him.
"You were unusually silent during that meeting, Katara," Zuko said. "I am surprised you had no opinions to add."
"You have to close down this factory. Now," Katara said firmly, pressing her hand into her fist. Zuko gave a light laugh.
"Ah, there it is."
"Is this a joke to you?" Katara demanded, "Something funny?"
"No! Spirits-" Zuko backtracked, eyes wide. "It's not that easy-"
Katara felt her mouth go dry. She pulled her emotions back in. She could stand there and fight until she was purple in the face, but Zuko was not going to listen or do anything worthwhile. He'd send them some food, maybe, and an apology.
If you wanted something done right, you had to do it yourself.
"Of course, Prince Zuko," Katara said, lip quivering, "May I be excused from the day's activities? I'm feeling a bit ill."
Zuko inhaled, eyes concerned, and stepped forward to place a hand on her forehead. He rested it a moment longer than needed and seemed regretful when he pulled back. The feeling of his warm hand stayed in her memory.
"You are quite hot," Zuko said, then choked. "I mean...warm...ill...sick. Sickly," he said, nodding once. "Yes, go and rest in the hotel, please."
She felt her heart flutter at the tone underneath his attempt to be cordial. It was fear, for her, for this sickness.
She bit her lip, wanting to say more, but unsure what to say. Besides, she needed to go and rest up.
She had big plans tonight.
XXxxXX
Katara sliced across the padlock with her waterbending, catching the chains before they clattered to the ground. She hid against the wall of the factory as a searchlight roamed over the uneven grass, highlighting the space an inch away from her toes.
Silent as a feather falling on snow, she slid into the factory.
The steam caused her to sweat immediately. She knew that they warmed and heated the metal during the night to pour during the day, with only a skeleton crew around to make sure there were no accidents.
There would surely be a few tonight.
She came to the first vat, her plan being to flood the entire factory. Destroy their material. Mangle it, make it unusable and completely unfixable.
She pulled water from the damp air, making it a sharp water-whip. Just as she was about to create the first blow, righteousness digging deep in her heart, there was a low laugh.
She spun, furious and terrified, just as someone said:
"I knew it."
"You!" Katara hissed, storming up to Zuko, pressing an ice-knife against his throat. "What are you doing here?"
It was only as she focused on him in his entirety that she realized he was not wearing nightclothes or Prince clothes, but his Blue Spirit ensemble. The mask was pushed upon his head, his swords dropped by his feet.
"Are you going to turn me in?" she asked in a cold tone, tilting her head, "Or just here to watch?"
Zuko's eyes flickered to the knife as though to say, 'so we're threatening princes now', but he did not resist her. She knew he could. This in itself made her release her grip, just an inch.
"Well," Zuko said in a low tone, "When I arrived, the first thing I heard from the head of the factory was about some odd things going on in the town below. About how their sick were being healed, how they now had food and water, and how they were praising the Painted Lady. Funny how she appeared right when we did?" Zuko said, raising an eyebrow. "And I had the thought...hmm, that seems like something Katara would do. Then, after you and Ratana talked to me, you gave up your argument much too quickly. Suspiciously quickly. And I thought, damn, she's not going to something stupid and illegal, is she? But, here we are."
"More than you're doing," Katara spit, stepping back. "You're going to let those people down there die to protect your precious metal workers!"
"Despite what you think, I cannot just snap my fingers and close down a factory!" Zuko said. "I'm not the Fire Lord, I don't have that sort of power! Did you honestly think I'd do nothing?"
Katara did not want to think so, but she gave a grumpy shrug.
"Katara...I was finding a solution. The people down there aren't just my people, so are the people here. I'm not trying to choose one over the other! Most of these people are just workers. Low-class, pay-day to pay-day workers with families they haven't seen in years! They aren't choosing to purposefully do this, they don't have a choice!" Zuko said. "I have to do the best thing for both groups."
"One group is inches from death!"
"So, what, you're going to…"
"Destroy this place," she said.
"You know what happens if you break that there?" Zuko asked, pointing to the steaming tank, "It spills down, probably through the floor. Do you know what's below us?"
Katara blinked, unsure.
"Bunks. You'd be killing hundreds of innocents and yes," Zuko held up a hand before she could argue, "They are innocent."
"So you're going to drag me away then?"
"I'm here to help. Prince Zuko cannot destroy a factory, but the Blue Spirit can," Zuko said, grinning.
Katara stared at him, flabbergasted. He saw her face and laughed. "You thought you'd get all the fun, huh?"
"But you just...said…"
"I was going to suggest you're not so obvious about it," Zuko said. "I mean, c'mon...you steal a crate of eggs and a crate of eggs arrive in town? I'm surprised that you haven't started a civil war, Katara," he said, a hint of aggravation in his tone. "You destroy this in a clearly obvious way, who do you think the workers will blame? A spirit?"
He shook his head, pulling his mask back over his face. He motioned for Katara to follow. He led her to the boiler room and picked the lock with his swords and the door swung open. He confidently walked over to one of the pieces of machinery that kept half of the foundry chugging away.
"If we corrode the pipes away here and let water in, it will fry the mechanics and it will shut down all of the machinery. It would take weeks to fix, but I'll have a solution by then." He shrugged. "It's not boom-flashy, but it works. It will work," he said, nodding to Katara.
Katara wasn't sure she believed him, but she focused on the water inside the pipes. She worked to freeze the water, making it push against the metal pipes. She could feel the resistance and tightened her grip. She was shaking by the time she burst the innards, and she released the water back to liquid form.
There was a spark and a hissing noise as smoke rose from the machine. The sound of the factory lessened; Katara ran back out to the walkways to see one-quarter of the factory cease to move. It was like someone had just paused it.
"One down, three to go," Zuko said.
Katara nodded, throwing herself back into work. By the time she was finished, all the machinery in the building had stopped its movement and the temperature had dropped twenty or so degrees, the fires having snuffed out and the metal cooled. Katara made sure to internally fry a couple other pieces of equipment, but it was much easier and more effective than her original plan, she was ready to begrudgingly admit.
"Now, nothing will tie back to you," Zuko said teasingly, poking her shoulder. "And tomorrow the factory will close. I just had to figure out a reason. The cost to fix this place will be astronomical and I'm sure my father will see the logic in shuttering the doors. Plus, I've lined up jobs for the workers, so they're not out of a job."
He led her to a trap-door. She followed, up onto the roof with him. Now, as the smog from the factory was disappearing, Katara could see the hint of a full moon peeking out behind the clouds.
"You didn't really do much," Katara said, "I believe I did the heavy lifting."
"I came early and looked up the schematics of the machinery to make sure it would work! I had to break into like five rooms." Zuko made an affronted nose. "Plus, I had to make sure you weren't about to be tried for treason."
He leaned against a smoke-stack. He lifted his arm, inviting Katara to sit next to him.
It was hard to pretend she was still completely mad at him, and hard to ignore this night, where things seemed like they might just be alright.
She slid into the space he offered.
"And the town?" she asked. From their vantage, it was a speck on the brown expanse.
"I figure that you can go down tomorrow and teach the people how to clean the rivers. With the factory gone, it will be easier. It will take time, but soon they'll be able to fish from there again. Build an economy. In the meantime, the Fire Nation will provide aid. They'll be alright," he assured, leaning against her so that his head rested on the crown of hers.
"Good," Katara said softly, "That's all I wanted."
"Oh, come on, you liked it," He teased. "You like the thrill of it all."
Katara sat her hat to her side and lifted his mask off, noticing how his cheeks were flushed and his eyes were darkened. "It doesn't just seem to be me," she said, fingernails trailing lightly over his cheek. "Prince Zuko, does destruction of property, breaking and entering, and criminal activity turn you on?" she asked, moving so that she was kneeling in front of him, her legs over his leg that was stretched out.
Zuko laughed, trailing the edge of his tongue over his teeth. "Kettle black, Katara," he said, but did not deny it. He leaned in, digging his black gloves into her hair, pulling her in to kiss him. He did so hungrily; as though he were starving and she was an apple in a desert. Katara pulled herself onto his lap, pushing herself closer to him, refusing to have an inch of space between the pair.
One of his hands dropped to her thighs, digging into her skin and shoving up the fabric that pooled around her. Goosebumps raised on her leg as it was exposed to the cool night air.
Zuko leaned back against the smoke-stack, moaning as he bucked up into Katara. His breath was warm as she nipped his lips, a shiver running down her spine, need coursing through her.
If she were going from the competition soon, shouldn't she go out in a bang?
As she was about to lift her dress over her head, the moon revealed itself completely from the clouds.
She froze, pulling back and breathed sharply.
It was very obvious in that moment where she was and what she was doing; about to disrobe on top of Prince Zuko on the edge of the roof of the factory they'd just destroyed. The terrifying thing was that the moon, as it often did, urged her on and made her feel like a different person. Like a person who would do this.
Zuko's face was smeared with white and red paint. He seemed to realize where the pair was, as well.
"Uhm…" he said, the fog clearing from his gaze.
Katara sat back on her haunches, breathing heavily. She'd begun to pull up his shirt, or it had rolled up in the mess of hands traveling all over, and his stomach was on display. She swallowed hard, looking down.
She'd of course seen Zuko shirtless before, and knew that he had more scars than just the obvious one. She had really only ever asked about the one on his face, all the others fading away into obscurity. There was one that she'd unearthed, near his rib-cage, and the puckered edge of it was illuminated by the moon's beams.
Katara touched it gently and she felt Zuko's abs harden beneath her touch.
"Where, uhm, what was this from?" she asked, trying to find a reason to stop what they were doing. And, she was actually curious.
Zuko covered his hand with her own, his fingers trailing the length of it.
"I'm not sure, to be honest," he said, blinking. "Well, I mean...it's been there for as long as I can recall. Never healed exactly right. My mom says when I was three I was playing with some swords left out when my dad was in a meeting and managed to get myself good."
Katara grinned at the idea of it, chuckling. "Ouch."
"Yeah. Luckily I guess, I don't remember it happening. I've always just grown up with it there," he said. "None of my scar stories are that exciting, not battle-worthy. Just stupid shit."
"Even that one?" Katara asked, her gaze flickering up to his facial scar.
Zuko winced visibly and Katara regretted even bringing it up. "That one especially," he said, his voice low and gravelly, "Stupid, but worth it."
Katara pressed her lips together. "Are you going to tell me one day?" She wasn't trying to press him, but she was curious since he'd said it wasn't how she imagined it. Her curiosity was piqued even more so. However, she understood that this was delicate, more so than recalling an incident with a katana in his youth.
"I hope so," Zuko said honestly. "We should probably sleep. In our own beds. Right now," he said, quick to clarify. Katara swallowed, knowing it was best.
She let Zuko walk her back to her hotel room. But, she was not ready to sleep.
She was itching in a way she couldn't describe. It was partially from Zuko and from that want, but there was something else bothering her.
Why had the real Painted Lady forsaken this town?
She did not know what she planned on doing, but Katara was pulled out of her bedroom window for the second time that night.
Chapter 25
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
The night was foggy, as though the moon was pushing up dust from the ground and freezing it in time, sending silvery beams to illuminate it.
The previous nights had been calm. Tonight felt charged with an energy Katara could not quite place but felt in her bones. The air outside reflected how she was inside; anxious, and walking like an invisible voice spoke to her.
It was eerie.
It felt unreal, as though she were trapped between the edge of reality and fiction. Almost dream-like, she considered, in the way that as she walked. She could not hear the crunch of her feet nor hear the crickets chirping far away.
There was no noise, she came to realize.
There was nothing except the deep fog that rolled around her, obscuring her vision on all sides.
She did not know where she was going. She did not know if she was walking on land or water or air at this point, but some invisible string tugged her around, bringing her deeper into this state.
She exhaled and saw her breath, as though the temperature dropped from almost comfortable to the chilling numbers she'd expect from the Southern Water Tribe.
Yet, despite this acknowledgment of the coldness, and that she could realize that yes it was colder than usual she herself was not cold. She wasn't warm either.
She just felt...felt as though she were existing at this moment. An interloper where she shouldn't be. Someone teasing the seam between real and unreal, somehow crossing and existing in both while also not existing in either.
The answer came to her with startling clarity; she was in the Spirit World.
Or, perhaps the Spirit World was in her world. She could not be sure, but the lines between the area had been blurred to the point where Katara was unsure if she was alive.
As she touched her heart beneath her costume, she could feel it fluttering.
That had to be a good sign, didn't it?
She took a step and heard a splash. She looked down to see she'd reached the water.
She took another step, and another until she was up to her waist. The moon's reflection rippled in front of her but distorted enough that Katara reached out to touch it.
She felt a chill immediately, but nothing like the cold from the wind. It was sort of that unearthly, cosmic feeling, something she did not think she had words to properly explain.
She blinked and there was nothing in front of her one moment, and then the next, there was a woman standing there.
She was dark in features and in clothes. Her eyes were a warm amber color, one that despite her chilly appearance, made Katara feel safe like she was a mothering figure. She was eternally dripping with water, and it ran rivers down her face and hair, coming from nowhere to vanish back into the sea without a trace, no ripples emanating from her figure.
It took Katara a second but she realized that this spirit almost looked like...like Azula, at least in the face. They had the same pointed chin, the same calculating gaze, the same hair...though this spirit's hair was as black as night, almost with a purple hue shimmering beneath it. She was ethereal and beautiful and terrifying all at once, all the things Katara thought a spirit would truly be.
"The town thanks you, Katara of the Water."
Katara found her voice, as though it had been shut off before. She would partially regret what she did next, but she would argue that her brain was fried from meeting a spirit, so she wasn't thinking right.
"The town thanks me? What about the Painted Lady?" Katara snapped, horrified at once that she was arguing with a goddess who could smite her to dust. At the small smile on the face of the spirit, as though the spirit was humored by this human in front of her, Katara felt like she had to continue. "Why is it that I had to come and save them when they've been praying to their goddess for years? Doesn't she care at all?" Katara asked, shaking hard.
"The people prayed to their goddess and she delivered," the spirit said simply.
"No. I arrived and saw that something needed to be done so I did it. That wasn't…" She frowned, unsure why the spirit did not understand. "It feels as though the Painted Lady has forsaken her people."
"The people prayed and you came. You always come back," the spirit said, "Even if you do not remember."
Katara frowned, her brain frantically trying to process what the spirit meant. Katara looked down and saw her reflection; her paint-stained face rippled. Then, just for a moment, in its place was the face of a woman with no paint on her face but the same markings, but she was wearing Katara's clothes.
Katara startled and this time there was a splash in the water. Katara heaved, unable to catch her breath, snapping her head up. "I don't...I do not understand…"
The spirit began to fade into the mist. Katara leaped forward, her limbs not working quite right, as she noisily splashed through the water. "Where are you going?"
"Do you not want to know?" the woman asked.
Katara followed.
As far as they went within the water, Katara never went under. Her clothes and hair were not wet. She walked through the river as though she were walking on the path.
The spirit led Katara to the town.
It was cast in shadows, and the lines weren't quite meeting up. It was a reflection of reality, this one paused. As they walked, Katara knew no townspeople would notice them at all.
"You do not recall. I suppose I should not have been surprised. I had wondered when you donned that...it felt like kismet, I believe?"
Katara nodded uneasily, recalling how it had fit her soul when she'd first slipped this costume on. It had felt more than just a costume, it had felt like an identity.
The woman led her to where the shrine for the Painted Lady had been, but it was not here now. Katara walked to it, confused.
There was a bloodstain on the wooden planks.
Katara looked back, but the spirit just floated in the mist, face unreadable.
Katara knelt down, reaching out to touch the space.
She was bombarded with memories. They weren't her own, but it felt as though they were. She was having a hard time separating them from her mind, as though she was recalling in vivid detail something that has never happened.
She gasped, and her skin burned with agony. She stretched out her arms to see claw marks scarring up and down them.
And her head! It hurt like...like...spirits, she felt so woozy. She couldn't even think. She slumped forward onto the wood, her head lying right where the bloodstain was.
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw a pool of blood creep from beneath her head. She reached back to touch it, and as she raised her fingers to the pale light of the moon, she saw the sticky wetness of blood on her fingers.
Someone was standing over her. It was not the spirit. It was a man, wearing Fire Nation clothes, but they looked ancient, like the paintings she'd seen in the study from hundreds of years ago.
"Where are your spirits to save you now?" he sneered, spitting down on her. "Why would a Water Spirit save a Fire Nation town? It's the sort of people like you that sully our bloodlines."
Katara was yanked from that body. She was staring at the pair on the outside, an observer to this moment.
She started at the face of the man, this murder, fury lighting in her veins. Her gaze cast down to the woman, wearing a white dress that was torn and dirty. She saw the scar marks on her arms from where this man had wounded her.
She knew that this girl was dying.
As she traced up to her face, Katara could not breathe.
It was her face on the woman. Undeniably, it was her.
And though it went against any logical form, she could only murmur one quiet phrase, "That's me…"
She blinked and the shrine was back. The woman was gone. There was a smaller shrine in her place.
Not the one that was built today. It looked newer.
Katara touched her fingers to the newly painted wood and she was overcome by a thousand voices, all the villagers praying. Praying to her.
Praying to Katara.
But that wasn't...no, not to Katara...but also, simultaneously, to her.
Katara stumbled forward, the shrine now the current one. She touched the back of her head, the memory still fresh, and her head felt tender where she placed her fingers.
"I don't know what you mean," Katara said, tears burning on her eyes as she turned.
"Oh, but you do," the lady said gently, clasping her hands around Katara's. "You have returned to your village, even just for a time."
"But...I...I'm not... " Katara shook her head. "I'm just me, Katara."
But she at the same time was not. She knew, at her very core as it burned in protest, that she was the Painted Lady.
She shook hard. "I'm like Aang?" she questioned, her voice tiny and confused, "Or am I…"
"Your friend is a human with a spirit inside of him," The woman said, crouching down and petting Katara's hair. "You are completely human, make no mistake. Simply, a human that has lived thousands of lives, including one that was once a spirit. And though it's hard to hear, we often make the same circles, seek out the same things, live for the same reasons."
"I'm the Painted Lady," Katara echoed dizzily, "I was...I am…" She inhaled. "I was killed. I sacrificed myself for this town."
The goddess laughed, nodding, and her smile made Katara feel a little bit better. If even for a moment.
"What do I do now?" Katara asked. "If I'm...her...shouldn't I...but my tribe…" She felt torn in two. She was remembering living here now. She remembered how it was hundreds of years ago. She remembered her mother and father and a sister. She had a faint recollection of hundreds of lives in between, though none were as clear as that first one.
"You have done your part. Do not feel like you cannot live your life. It's what she wanted after all; to be human once again, live different lives. You have saved them. You have done your duty."
"Oh," Katara said, unable to say much else. "I was a goddess, but I wanted to be…"
"Human. Thus, you are, Katara."
"My name's not really Katara, then." She gave a dry laugh.
"But it is," the spirit said. "Mortals have a hard time understanding this, I do realize. You are Katara, just as you are also the Painted Lady. The essence of her, but not the literal spirit. Your souls are the same, but you are still you."
"Easy for you to say," Katara snipped, then flinched. "Erm, sorry."
The dark spirit chuckled. "It's fine. You've said worse to me. I suppose it comes with the territory sometimes."
Katara squinted at her. Another memory bobbed to the surface.
"You're...my mother-in-law. Or hers." She scowled, thinking. "The Dark Water Spirit. From Alcina's town."
The spirit dipped her head. She could feel the memories coming, like a wave rolling in, and she thought she'd be more prepared for it now.
Katara touched her own chest, gasping as she was overwhelmed with a love so vibrant it felt like she could think of nothing else. She cried for her love, the image of him just out of reach.
"Your son. My husband. I'm surprised he let me choose mortality again," she said. "Why would he not come to speak to me?"
The Dark Water Spirit blinked. "My dear, despite knowing the hurdles, he joined you in mortality. And has been, year after year. Sometimes, you find each other. Sometimes not." She turned to the sky, sighing. "You should be returning."
Katara nodded, unable to find a reason to argue, despite the questions swimming in her mind.
The spirit held out a hand. Just as Katara was about to touch it, the spirit pulled back. "Please, give my son my love."
Katara opened her mouth to ask who he was, but just like a flash of lightning, the face of her lover - the Blue Spirit - burst into her mind.
And Katara understood.
Just as she was the Painted Lady, Zuko was the reincarnation of the Blue Spirit, son of the Dark Water Spirit.
She touched the woman's hand.
When she blinked, she was sitting in her bed, her heart still pounding wildly in her chest.
XXxxXX
"Katara, may I speak to you?"
Katara blinked, hand tensing on the handle to the carriage.
"Oh, uhm, sure."
The other girls settled themselves inside as Zuko led her to the tree line.
The entire day had been a haze for Katara. It seemed each time she blinked she was somewhere else, her mind having completely taken over, putting her on auto-pilot.
That morning, the girls had awoken to the foundry in a tizzy. Zuko had announced, regretfully, that the best option would be to close for the moment and they'd do a full investigation on what caused the breakdown, though he suspected it was merely overworked machinery. He was completely ready with a list of locations that would take the men, as well as some apprenticeships, and informed the workers they'd have three days to gather their things and a week of paid vacation before they started their new jobs.
Most seemed not to care one way or another. A few were excited; they'd be moving closer to home. The general feeling was that one place couldn't be too dissimilar than another.
Zuko announced that Katara and Ratana would be helping the village today and the pair were sent down to the gleeful villagers, who believed the Painted Lady had helped close the factory.
Well, she had, Katara had thought almost sourly.
Each time she saw one of the villagers praying to the Painted Lady idol, Katara felt the strangest twinge inside of her. It was a flinch mixed with pride and joy. She wondered what they would all say if they truly knew their savior, the one they thought lived in some realm beyond them, walked amongst them?
Katara tried to keep her mind on the task of cleaning the water and teaching the villagers how to do so without waterbending or earthbending, as this was going to take months of cleaning, but whenever she had a free moment, her mind slipped.
The villagers had made good progress by the time they were called back.
Ratana paused at the gigantic statue they'd re-erected. Katara stared up at it too, her jaw clenching and her heart quickening.
That was her, hundreds of years ago. She had memories, some, at least. The ones from her first life, the one where she'd become a spirit, were the most present, as well as the years as an immortal. The other lives she's supposedly lived were less clear, hidden, dream-like.
It was all for the better.
Katara knew that reincarnation was a popular theory, but it was best that for most it was never confirmed. Having hundreds of years shoved into your brain was overwhelming.
She'd have to talk to Aang about this. He was the only other person who would understand, though their situations were entirely different. And her and Yue too! It was hard to imagine that there were so many forms of spirit possession, and yet, here they were.
There was Aang, who was one spirit that inhabited different bodies. He was timeless and unchanging, but with each new iteration, there was a new piece to his soul that made up one spirit bridge. He was not mortal, by all accounts. Yet, if you took the spirit away, Katara wondered if he could still survive?
There was Yue, which was more or less a spirit puppeting a body. It was impossible to tell where her spirit started and she ended, or if there were any remnants of Yue left at all. She was completely mortal, but could not live without the spirit.
And then there was Katara, who was formerly a spirit but was now an essence that jumped from one body to another. Though, she was unsure if she could be separated out, such as Aang was with his past selves. She imagined that when she'd die, there would not be a Katara in this state any longer.
It was a lot to wrap her presently very mortal mind around.
A part of Katara wondered how many people she passed were remnants of spirits who had done the same thing The Painted Lady had done? Then again, not many immortals gave that up, she reckoned. Perhaps she was unique.
Of course, there was one person who would understand...Zuko.
But should she even tell him?
She ran the risk of sounding insane if she did. She couldn't prove it, not by any real proof. There were only the images and the knowledge she held deep inside of her. She now looked at that scar they'd discussed and wondered if it actually was from a play fighting incident like he claimed, or if it was the wound that had murdered him in his first form.
Katara reminded herself to ask Alcina to retell the myth to her, which was now incredibly and startlingly relevant to her life.
More than that, Katara did not like the implications. She knew Zuko, who had loudly and clearly proclaimed he did not believe in fate, would like it even less.
What if the only reason they were meant to be together was that their souls demanded it? Was it real love if that was the truth or some fabricated idea?
The little incident last night did not mend all bridges. There were still issues and Katara was still unsure of her place, and of her safety, and of the next moves within the Palace. If she elected to tell Zuko, it may sound like a frantic last-ditch attempt to stay and all of it might be brushed away.
It was hurting her head and making her question every move.
If she could be spared of that...she might take it.
So, no, part of herself had made up her mind. She would not be telling Zuko about his past lives. There were so many reasons it was a bad idea.
But, most of all, if she were truly leaving...she wanted Zuko to be able to love someone else, not be thinking about if fate decided him to be with her. She didn't want that hanging over his head like it now hung over hers.
She was sparing him, she decided.
"You've hardly looked at me," Zuko said quietly. Katara bit her lip. She hadn't been able to meet his gaze, because when she did, she was seeing flashes of the Blue Spirit. Not his vigilante alternative, but of his prior life. The immortal side.
It was jarring, to say the least.
"I realize that last night...we...I'm so sorry."
Katara pressed her lips together.
"Don't apologize for that. I don't regret it," she said honestly, "It's not you. I'm just...it's something that's my own issue."
"Can I help?" Zuko asked. Katara sighed, forcing herself to meet his gaze.
"I don't think so, but thank you."
Zuko almost seemed like he was going to lead her back, but instead stood firm. "When we get back home, can we talk? Properly? Whatever is going on between us...I want to fix it," he said. "Just tell me how. I miss you. I miss being your partner in crime, I miss talking to you, I miss being your friend. Can we try?"
Katara's heart fluttered, though there was a seed of doubt of her own affections deep down. Still, she could not deny that her feelings felt real right now, and did anything else matter? If they felt true, they had to be, surely?
And he wasn't asking for her hand in marriage again. No, he was simply asking for an attempt. If he was willing to see where he'd gone wrong, to try to gain better conditions for Bahiravi and listen to her, if he wanted to talk…
Katara found no good reason to deny him.
"I've missed you too," Katara admitted softly.
Zuko pulled her into a tight hug. Katara's eyes prickled with tears as she pressed her face into his shoulder, wondering if they were already too late, what with the ball approaching in no time at all.
She hadn't gone on this trip expecting any clarity, but she'd gained far more than she'd been looking for.
Too bad it hadn't made anything easier.
Zuko stepped back, smiling, his whole face golden. He led Katara back to the carriage and opened the door.
"What was that about?" Avizeh asked, jumping onto the gossip, per usual.
"He wanted to make sure I was feeling better. I think it was just a one-day chill," Katara said.
As the carriage began to move, Katara watched out of the corner of her eye as Ratana took out a tiny carved Painted Lady.
"It was my mom's. She thought I might like to have it with me," Ratana said, reverently rubbing the old paint on it. "I'm glad things worked out. I like to think that The Painted Lady really is hearing me."
Katara gave a soft, kind smile, reaching across the way to hug her friend. "Trust me, she is."
XXxx
Aang dragged his feet through the palace, his legs stumbling and tripping over the expensive carpets that he bunched up as he shuffled. He was so exhausted. He could fall asleep against an ornamental vase if that's where he decided to lay his head.
He was filthy, worn-out, and mentally spent.
The Airbenders had made it to the location fine, he'd gotten word (and while he didn't know where it was, he had a pretty good idea forming, as did every Avatar in his head), but it was at the cost of Zhao's complete unraveling madness.
As it was, they had to come home for the competition, thank the spirits.
Something that was pressing on him heavily was the fact that Hivri had never returned back.
"Probably deserted," one of the troops had sneered, "He always seemed soft-bellied."
Oh, in his heart of hearts, Aang hoped this was true. Or maybe Hivri did abandon. Maybe this was the better option for his vanishment. He would have spent time looking for his companion had time not been pressing, and Aang did not want a reason to have to stick around.
It seemed as though there was some form of luck on his side today because the first person he ran into in the palace was exactly the person on his mind. Or, rather, this person flew into him.
"Kuzon!"
Aang had to blink three times to realize that Ty Lee had thrown herself around his neck, clutching him tightly.
"Ty Lee, it's three A.M and I smell like death," Aang said, pulling her off of him gently, though he hated doing it.
"I don't care. I'm so glad you're safe," Ty Lee sighed, a hand still on his shoulder, refusing to leave.
"That still doesn't answer what you're doing up at this time."
Ty Lee frowned, rubbing her neck.
"Are you okay?"
Stupid boy, of course, she's not okay! Kyoshi muttered in his head, Men…
The Avatars were quieter with exhaustion, as though his brain space didn't have the capacity to keep their dialogue running. Still, Kyoshi was very able to add that little snark.
She was right, however. There was no way Ty Lee was fine.
Aang swiveled his head around and saw not even a guard in the hallway. Before Ty Lee could protest, he opened his door and dragged her inside his room.
This got the attention of a lot of the Avatars. Most of them, not exactly in the way Aang was intending.
"Shut up, it's not…" he muttered to his mind, blushing hard, "We're not doing that tonight!"
Ty Lee giggled, a hint of a smile on her lips, and though Aang blushed hard, he was glad he was able to make her smile. Even at his expense.
Ignoring the voices in his head, he turned to Ty Lee. "We're free to talk in here. What's the matter?"
"Oh, Aang." Ty Lee flopped on his couch, shaking her head. "When you didn't come back, I was so terrified. I spent each day, just imagining you were dead and that we...that I…" She bit her lip. "It was the most awful thought in the world."
"I'm sorry to have worried you so," Aang said honestly, sitting next to her. A respectable foot of space stayed between them, though he was aching to be closer.
"It made me realize something…" She was playing with the end of her braid. "I'm not...usually in this position. I'm on the other side of it and it's weird for me."
"What position?"
"The one where I realize I'm in love," Ty Lee said honestly, meeting his gaze. She was fearful, but there was strength. "I just kept thinking about how it would kill me if you didn't ever return and I couldn't bear it. I'm not used to being the one with feelings."
"Ty, you don't have to worry about me not reciprocating," Aang said, shocked she could even think he didn't hold the same affections for her.
Ty Lee smiled broadly, but her smile faded, just an inch. "I guess I've come to realize that it's selfish for me to stay in the competition when I don't have any intention of becoming Zuko's wife. So, whatever happens at the fights, I'll be withdrawing my position."
"Well, why don't you just announce it before? Not even go through the fights?"
Ty Lee gulped nervously. "There were a lot of strings pulled to get me here. I'm not Mai...I don't think I'd just be able to leave by my own accord. I'm going to throw the match as best I can. I'm meeting Azula for tea tomorrow," she added in a tiny voice.
"And?"
"I hope she'll understand. Oh, I mean, I'm not saying specific names, not you, but she's my best friend." Ty Lee frowned. "Err, she was once. I feel like I should tell her. I'm also hoping she'll extend a royal invitation for me to remain here, even after I'm gone from the competition. I suppose I'm just anxious about that. That I might have to leave for real and who knows when I'd see you again."
"You know," Aang said, tilting his head, "I'm a Royal Family member. I could just extend the invitation."
"Oh, and it wouldn't be obvious when there's a wedding announcement in a month or two what's been going on," Ty Lee giggled, poking his arm. She balked a little. "I didn't...I don't mean to presume…"
"You want a wedding?" Aang asked though the answer didn't surprise him.
"A big one." Ty Lee's eyes glimmered. "With glitter and lights and dancing and laughter. Do you?" Her question was more unsure.
"Well…" Aang furrowed his eyebrows. He'd never thought about that before, being a monk. But he wasn't anymore. He was Aang and Kuzon and the Avatar. He had a duty to help repopulate the air benders. But beyond duty, he hadn't given it much headspace.
But he'd do anything for Ty Lee. And, somehow, the idea of marrying her made him feel all bubbly inside. Lighthearted. He understood, just for a moment, the infectious feeling of glee that she so associated with that.
"Yeah, I can say I do," he finally answered.
Ty Lee wiggled in her seat, pure joy filling her face. Sure, this wasn't an official proposal, but it was a talk about the future, something they'd never dared before.
"Oh!" Aang said, jumping up and grasping his bag, which he'd left at the door of his room. He rummaged until he found a cloth square. "I made this for you."
Ty Lee opened the cloth to find the flower necklace nestled inside.
"Aang, it's beautiful," she whispered. She put it on immediately, tucking it beneath her collar. "See? No one will know. Except us." She winked. It made Aang proud to know she was wearing it, thinking of him.
"I hope Azula does agree," Aang said, "Because just think, if so, in a couple of days...we won't have to...be like this," he said, fingers trailing across space between them. Ty Lee leaned in, humming in quiet, excited thought.
"It will surely be a weight off my chest," she agreed, "And I can't wait to be able to be affectionate with you in public."
"I just want to kiss you," Aang admitted since they hadn't even gone that far, not wanting to break any rules or jinx anything yet.
Ty Lee kissed her fingers and then pressed the tips to Aang's lips. "Just a few more days."
Aang tilted his head. "Why were you up at this time of night?"
Kyoshi groaned in his mind. Ty Lee, however, didn't seem offended he'd asked again.
"Worried about you. Couldn't sleep." She sighed. "Sounds stupid, but my feet kept bringing me here. Guess the universe was telling me something before I knew it. I'm glad I got to see you tonight."
Aang yawned.
Ty Lee stood. "I should probably be getting back. You need to sleep, eat, and take a bath." She winced. "Maybe not in that order."
"Mhh, right," Aang said, stumbling to his washroom and turning the faucet on, "I need to get this grime off me."
"I haven't asked yet. Are you okay?" Ty Lee questioned, her fingers seeking the necklace as she leaned against the wall. Aang used his firebending to light the box underneath the tub to warm the water.
"I'm still here, and we didn't catch any," Aang said shortly. "It's, uhm, not something I want to talk about, though."
"You know you can tell me anything," Ty Lee said. "I've been told I'm a good listener."
"I know," Aang assured, not wanting her to think that he didn't feel comfortable telling her. "I just don't want to think about it right now. Another day, maybe. I think I just need to remind myself who I am," he said, his honesty flowing from his lips before he could stop it, one hand in the bath to check the temperature.
Ty Lee frowned. "You're Aang. I know who you are. You are a good person and kind, gentle, and caring. That person you become out there? It's an act. I can see your aura, don't forget, and it's still as brilliant and white as the day I met you."
"Thanks," Aang said and truly meant it. It was nice to have someone believe in him so entirely. "I just need to remind myself that, I guess. Uhm, think you'll make it back unseen?" It would be the newest scandal if Ty Lee was seen leaving his room so late at night.
"Aang, I practically grew up here," Ty Lee scolded. "I know all the secret passageways. Goodnight. I'll see you tomorrow?"
Aang smiled warmly at her. "Of course you will. Save me a dance."
XXxx
They got back around 4 AM if Katara was reading the position of the moon correctly. She was so tired on her feet, despite the long ride home, that by the time she'd slumped through the doorframe of her bedroom, all she could really manage to do is unlace her dress and leave it in an untidy lump on the floor. She slipped under her covers and fell asleep in an instant.
Thankfully, she was not plagued with the memories, or rather the mocking, of her supposed former life.
She awakened to the smell of Oolong wafting in the air. She smiled as she opened her eyes.
"You have talked to…" she began to say to her new handmaid, but when she saw the familiar face at the edge of her bed, brushing off her dress from last night, she momentarily forgot everything and could not help but smile. "Aiga!"
She should have known. Only Aiga knew that the trick to getting her to wake up on the right side of the bed on truly difficult mornings was a cup of tea waiting for her.
She threw off her sheets, hugging Aiga tightly.
"Why aren't you at home?" she asked after a moment. "You shouldn't be here!"
"I'm here in solidarity for you and your hatred of balls and events," Aiga said. "The dress truly is stunning, Katara," she added, motioning to where she'd already laid it out with Katara's mask for the night.
"Aiga," Katara clicked her tongue.
"I couldn't sit there any longer." Aiga shook her head. "I thought coming back to work would ground me. Plus, I left things unsatisfied…" She sighed. "Katara, I must apologize."
"Don't think of it," Katara cooed. "You had just learned of your family. It's completely understandable. I don't blame you at all."
"No, don't let me off so easily," Aiga huffed, "Ignoring the fact that I shoved you, a competitor, and you could have my head if you were a worse person, I am horrified I could ever imagine that you would set out to hurt me."
"I wouldn't, but I cannot accept your apology. There is nothing to forgive."
"You must."
"If you are insisting…" Katara rubbed her tired eyes and picked up the steaming cup of tea. "You know why you were attacked, don't you?" she asked.
Aiga stiffened where she was putting Katara's dress on a hanger.
"Well, I wouldn't…"
"Aiga, you know you can trust me."
"And I do," Aiga assured, her voice quiet as she turned, "But it's not for you to know. It's not for anyone to know."
"So there is a secret!" Katara gaped at her.
"I suppose, a kind," Aiga's lip quirked, though Katara was unsure if it was in a frown or a smile. "But I know the price I paid. That was a warning."
"Just a warning?" Katara sputtered, "I don't want to imagine what they'd do if they were truly angry."
"I have an idea," Aiga said, and even though her voice quivered, "But I will not be scared away. It's too important."
"What is?" Katara asked again.
Aiga almost looked like she was going to answer, but snapped her lips shut, shaking her head. "Just know that if things ever go sour, there are safeties in place."
"But what if they go bad for you?" Katara whispered. "I would hate for you to die. Or your family."
"I am merely one of many. Faceless, nameless. Nothing special. Invisible," Aiga said carefully. "And I would die for the cause. Without saying much more, do know that it's not dissimilar to your own efforts."
She got the acute feeling that Aiga would not say a word more. She could attempt to order her handmaid, and while Aiga would do nearly anything, Katara understood that she'd die with this if she had to.
But what was she referring to? Katara's plight to save her tribe? Her work with Aang? Her worries about Ozai and his steadily maddening grasps for power?
"I assume the day is cleared?" Katara asked, deciding to put a pin in this line of question for now.
"Yes. What are these?" Aiga asked, dumping out Katara's makeup bag. In the middle of it landed a heavy bag of little coins.
"Oh, that." Even seeing them left a sour taste in Katara's mouth. "Uhm, all the remaining contestants get like twenty of them. They're collectibles for the guests at the ball. It's up to us though. We do hold that power; we can choose who we give them to and who we don't. Some might use it as a hint to who they are behind the mask. Others might give it to boys they fancied. I'm not sure what I'll do if anything."
"Intriguing," Aiga said, holding one of Katara's to the light. "Ah, a little wolf mask. For your tribe? I'm almost surprised you didn't choose something related to the Painted Lady."
"Well, I'd have to explain that," Katara said, her voice dry. Aiga had no idea, of course.
"Just teasing," Aiga giggled, motioning for Katara to sit in the chair. "We do need to start soon to have you ready for the ball. I allowed you to sleep in. Let me brush through your hair and then we'll wash it, alright?"
Katara nodded, her fingers rotating the little coin in her hands, staring herself in the mirror. It was the same face that had always stared back at her, but when she blinked or focused too hard, it shivered and the face of the Painted Lady stared back at her.
Tui, she was going insane.
She made a mental note to talk to Aang about this. He had to be able to confirm it somehow, didn't he? She wasn't about to call a goddess a liar, but she also wasn't unsure it hadn't just been a bad case of undiluted cactus juice.
Her fingers ran over the groves of the Wolf Mask on her coins. Something that had once given her great strength now felt cold and foreign in her fingers.
Being part of the Water Tribe now felt unsure of her. She knew she was born into it, but some part of her wondered if she was doomed to walk the same loops as the Painted Lady did? Both her and her first life - if she believed that, and she was almost sure she wanted to convince herself that she did not - fought for their tribe. Violently. Desperately. Before, Katara had been more than willing to die, if that's what it took.
Her fingers reached back to touch her scalp and Aiga apologized, thinking she'd snagged too hard. Katara's answer was airy and far away.
She was recalling the blood that had oozed from there.
Would she die for her people yet again?
Notes:
AHHHH! I've been waiting to drop this bomb for AGESSSSSS. A few people guessed along the way ;) I'm just a sucker for Blue Spirit x Painted Lady hehe. Clearly, I've been setting this up since last book! How do you think this will change things going forward?
Also, because I KNOW people are anxious, next chapter we finally hit the masquerade, and then one or two chapters after that, the fights!
Chapter 26
Notes:
This is late, yes, I know....
I ended up getting my Wisdom teeth out. I, because I am a scardy cat, waited until the last possible moment (basically nearly to when I'm not on my parent's insurance) to have all four pulled, and it's really not been fun. Today is the first day in nearly eight days I've been aware/awake/feeling okay enough to be on the computer. Word to the wise, if your doc tells you to have your wisdom teeth pulled, do it young! My 17-year-old sister had hers pulled with me, and she was literally back to normal by day 3.
In terms of the story, this is part one of THREE of the ball! Yes, we get three glorious, juicy chapters all before the fights ;) I hope you enjoy :D
This chapter is also written a bit...differently than others. I had a lot of little events I needed to happen and found myself having trouble writing the transitions between everything without sounding repetitive. So, being The Author, I just decided to write each moment as just that- a moment in time! You'll see what I mean in a second. I enjoy this because it gives a sense of time passed, and I hope you guys like this little deviation in story-telling style for these three chapters!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
5:30 PM
As Zuko stood in front of the mirror, he couldn't help but feel like he was thirteen again. He remembered that day vividly, as though someone had dumped it into the forefront of his mind just now, and let it settle.
Zuko looked at himself in the mirror in the crown prince regalia. It hung off his body, not quite fitting right. He seemed gangly and uncoordinated, like a child playing dress-up with his father's robes for a festival. It did not seem like these clothes were made for him. Right now, at the tender age of thirteen, his body was somewhere on the edge between that of a man and of a child. He toed the line, though he knew that his childhood was gone. Eradicated. Strangled and choked away, and he was left, still trying to gasp for air.
In a few years, his shoulders would fill out the space, his legs would grow, he'd shoot up a few inches...but for right now, he felt like an intruder in such robes. He felt like he did not deserve to be allowed in on the war meeting that day. He wished he were still just the cousin to the heir, but all that had changed. The shift had been sharply noticed, like shards of broken glass cutting against his skin.
His face burned. His jaw locked as his eyes – fuck, no, eye – traveled up the length of the mirror, trying not to make a face of displeasure at his clothing that fit so strangely, but he could not help but feel ill when he saw the gauze over his left eye.
The skin beneath was tender, almost painfully so, so that even as Zuko touched the wound, it felt like his world burst with pain. Perhaps it was the pain of knowledge, that weighed so heavily upon him, something he would never be able to unlearn. He did not think he would ever grow used to this sight. It would be a reminder; constant and twisted.
The healer said she could not fix this. His mother had cried when Zuko had been told he'd wear this mark forever.
Azula was sitting behind him. She was still wearing her girl's clothes. She would not have a wardrobe fit for a lady for a few years still, but she too seemed to have shed her childhood innocence (if she had any, to begin with), and to see such a look in her eyes fit jarringly with her ruffles and pink. She had just about thrown a fit that she was not allowed in the meeting, and it had been all Zuko could think of to let her sit in on this fitting. It satisfied her for now, or at least, she was quiet.
She was watching him. Glaring daggers, more like.
Ever since the event a few weeks ago, Zuko could not figure out what Azula thought about it. He knew better than to ask her. It had been years since they laughed as siblings, and now their relationship was icy. It had been icy before the...well, just before, but it was worse now. It had been days since she'd talked to him. Even Mai had written him with some sort of apology and asked how he was doing, whereas Azula has not offered up any comment on it.
He thought that perhaps he preferred it this way.
Ozai was a shadowy figure behind him. Zuko was not even sure he'd noticed his daughter in the room with them, poised on the red chair. If he did see her when he arrived, he's made no acknowledgment of her presence. His entire focus was on Zuko, and he regarded his son with a sense of pride, though through his smile, it seemed twisted and black.
Zuko could not help but to jump entirely when Ozai places a hand on his shoulder. He felt ill now, and not because he did not want to be in these clothes saved for the prince. He was not sure he wasn't going to hurl right now. Ozai's grip tightened and Zuko forced himself to stop shaking.
He wondered if he was ever going to be able to be in the same room as his father again without wanting to scream or cry or kill him.
Oh, the dark things that went through Zuko's mind terrified him sometimes.
Ozai nodded, finding his appearance acceptable. Zuko dropped his head, biting the inside of his cheeks so hard he tasted blood.
What his father said to him next was something he'd always said. It wasn't an uncommon phrase, though whenever others said it, it always seemed so comforting. Whenever his father had said it to Zuko – and it was indeed something Ozai seemed to like to say specifically to Zuko – it had always seemed vaguely like a threat. Zuko was always left wondering if there was a shadowed part to it that he'd picked up on, or if he was simply imagining villainous things where there were none.
Now, however, Zuko was absolutely sure that Ozai was capable of such awful things, and when he spoke this commonly-used motto, it was not meant to comfort Zuko.
It was a chilling reminder.
Ozai's warm hand, much too warm, was at his throat.
"Chin up, son, or your crown will slip."
The memory was corrupted. It wasn't Ozai's voice that spoke, but Sokka's.
Zuko was thrown back to the dressing room. He was not thirteen and scared anymore, he was nearly twenty-one and fit his costume perfectly. And Sokka was physically lifting his head up.
"What did you just say to me?" Zuko hissed, sure that someone put him up to it.
"I said 'chin up', dude, or I can't finish your coat," Sokka said, entirely unaware of the phrase he'd just uttered. And why should he be? It was perfectly innocuous.
Zuko swallowed hard and raised his chin, allowing Sokka in. He trusted Sokka, more than he'd ever trusted his father. When Sokka's fingers brushed his windpipe, he did not feel the quickening fear and his thudding heart like he did in his memories.
"Damn, this is tight. How do you Royals even breathe?" Sokka laughed, pinning the last bit at the top of his neck.
"We don't," Zuko deadpanned, but he couldn't help but smile a bit. Zuko's costume for the masquerade was not his choice, though he was mostly neutral about it. It was modeled after a black dragon, specifically, so he did not match nor clash with any of the ladies and their costumes. It was heavy and very ceremonial, to make a statement, and Zuko supposed that he looked fine enough in it.
His fingers brushed the mask lying on the table beside him. He didn't think he was fooling anyone in terms of his identity with this, but then again, perhaps that wasn't the point.
Sokka, Hahn, and Arrluk were all in the dressing room, too. Hahn was much too smug about the fact that he was allowed to be there, while so many other boys were told to wait in their rooms. He got to get ready with the heir apparent, as he told any lady who would listen. He was a step above the rest, having lived at the palace for months on end. If Zuko could choose, he'd throw Hahn to the patio. Arrluk, though still a bit jumpy, was nice enough. He could stay. There were some other sons of dignitaries from Fire Nation and the Earth Kingdom also floating around, but none that Zuko had made such close connections with. However, they were all good people to keep in his back pocket, and most of them were at the far side of the room, partaking in the drinks and food for the pre-party here.
And Sokka, of course, whom Zuko was grateful was there, was also present. Sokka stepped back and Zuko hoped that the boy didn't see how hard he'd swallowed.
The three boys were all wearing costume variations based on Water Tribe animals. Arrluk's leaned the most toward subtle, toeing the line of Fire Nation influence. He was a good diplomat, Zuko considered, playing both sides. Hahn had tried to be as intimidating as possible, while it looked like Sokka just wanted to look cool.
Zuko turned, still looking at himself in the costume, a part of him terrified he'd blink and be thirteen again, or that all night he'd be swimming in memories...
"Damn, you look a bit scary."
Zuko spun and grinned immediately as Aang unlocked the door to the room, slipping in, fully in costume already. He'd known that the troops had returned, having seen Zhao skulking about the halls, but he'd figured that Aang was exhausted and it was best to leave him to sleep.
"Buddy!" Sokka went for him with wide, open arms, giving him a huge hug. "You're a sight for sore eyes."
"Hey, Kuzon!" Arrluk said, high-fiving him. The other boys in the room patted his shoulder or gave welcoming sounds, waving. Even Hahn smirked and greeted him.
Aang was easily liked. He had trouble making enemies. His presence was just infectious, addictive, in a way that Zuko's never had been. While Zuko had questioned every step he'd taken his whole life, and often put his foot in his mouth, Aang seemed to attract companions. People just wanted to be around him.
Perhaps that was why he had slid into the Royal Family so easily. If anyone had any doubts about his lineage, he was just so damn likable, which was rare in the Royal Family, that most just let it slide. He won people over from the first time they met him. It was a shame...if Aang truly was part of the Royal Family, he might have been able to do some good. He surely had the influence.
Aang was a dragon tonight too, as everyone in the Royal Family would be. Zuko could not help but snort when he realized that the colors in Aang's costume were mostly golds and oranges. Yes, they were the colors of fire, but they were also the colors of air benders. It was subtle enough that probably no one would notice, but Zuko wasn't sure if he was pleased by this silent 'fuck you' to Ozai or worried by it.
Aang collapsed on the couch, crinkling his costume. It was a good thing he'd have a mask on, as there were huge bags under his eyes. He yawned.
"Think your dad will notice if I slip out early? I'm still basically dead on my feet," Aang moaned. "And there's the tournament tomorrow…"
"C'mon, half the fun is getting wasted tonight," Hahn ribbed him. "And preferably, ending up in bed with a lucky lady…"
"No!" Zuko growled, "No more Royal Scandals."
"Well, it wouldn't be a Royal Scandal for Hahn, not really." Arrluk's face slipped into an unusual vicious grin. "Besides, the girl he wants to bed won't even look at him, much less sleep with him."
"Who...ack, ew, no!" Zuko wanted to leave the room. Very badly.
"It's true!" Arrluk said, ignoring the fact that Hahn looked as though he wanted to punch his face in right about now. "Besides, Azula invited her boyfriend here tonight."
"Boyfriend? I'll show him-" Hahn cracked his knuckles.
"Why are you bothering?" Sokka squinted. "Firstly, I do not understand the appeal. Let me just get that out there. But more so, you have zero chance. The only way you'd be allowed to go for Azula is if Yue won the competition and Arrluk took the Water Tribe throne. But at that point, Yue would be married to Zuko, so an allegiance with the Fire Nation would be pretty useless."
Zuko turned around to hide his laugh. Though Sokka was only being logical, it was simultaneously hilarious. Hahn looked near furious.
"You just don't understand!" he spit, "She'll realize-"
"Dude, seriously, you don't want to go there," Zuko said. He really didn't like Hahn, but Agni, no one should have to put up with his sister.
"Haven't you ever heard the old saying, 'Don't stick your 'rowing oar' in crazy'?" Arrluk pointed out.
"This conversation is finished!" Zuko announced before anyone could say anything else. "Besides, it's nearly time for our arrival. Masks on. Let's just get through this night with no issues, please?"
He wasn't sure who he was praying to, but if there were ever a time that a god or goddess thought about giving him such a boon, now would surely be the time.
6:00 PM
Katara stepped out of her bedroom into the anxious, meandering queue outside. The world was splashed in color and movement, texture and light, a mixture of old faces, and new shifting beneath masks.
She had thought her own costume would be a centerpiece, to say the least. And it was, there was no denying that. It had taken the entire day to assemble this, one last hurrah in the palace before she was sure to go. Even if she fixed things with Zuko – but alas there'd been no time today – she was unsure how long she could continue on like this.
Her whole dress was strung with beads. With every step, she jingled, and the noise rolled around her. It was impossible for her to step quietly in this dress.
Her mask was tied into her hair ribbons and her hair...by Tui, Aiga had done it again. Early on, Katara had described how she wanted her hair to look like she'd been caught in a frost. She wanted it glimmering with frozen light. Aiga had found little reflective beads and diamonds and woven them into her hair. When she caught the light just right, it seemed as though her entire head was covered in frosted finery.
But she was hardly the only girl who had made a spectacle of herself. Most of their faces were entirely covered as they stood in the hallway, sans a few who were adjusting their masks, or had pushed them up to talk with friends.
Katara could guess most by this point; she knew the girls well enough that she could assume from posture or nervous tendencies who was under each fake face, if not taking a guess on their appearance altogether.
There was one person who surprised her, however, and it was not until she realized she was staring openly and the person turned that the realization startled her.
"Yue?" she asked, coming up to the figure. "Did you…wow."
Yue giggled behind her mask, a delicate shape of a two fish swimming together, as she touched her hair, which was now jet-black. It ran down her back in waves, much more unrefined than it had ever been, taken out of her delicate braids.
"Well, it would have been painfully obvious would it not? White hair is rather a giveaway," she pointed out. "It's only temporary, of course, but it's a good show, wouldn't you say?"
"I hardly even recognize you." This was the truth. It was almost a little unsettling to see her like this, to imagine that perhaps if she had not been ill, this is what she would have looked like. She was just as pretty with her dark hair as she was with her startling white.
Across the aisle, a person with a wide straw hat caught the corner of Katara's eye. She swallowed, turning to see Ratana wearing the ensemble of the Painted Lady. Katara felt unsure how to proceed; she stared at her elaborate and rich finery and felt self-righteous anger in her bones. Even in her first life, even as a spirit, the Painted Lady had always worn what the people wore. She understood that this was in honor of the Painted Lady, a thank you, but it felt wrong to see Ratana wearing something embroidered in gold and silver threads, something that her people or the people Katara had watched would have given their right leg for.
"I didn't know you were…" Katara said, waving a hand toward Ratana's outfit. Ratana touched the brim of her hat.
"It wasn't the plan," she spoke from behind her full face-mask, "But after the trip, it seemed dishonorable. It changed quickly but I was pleased my handmaids were able to accommodate it," Ratana said, her voice full of joy and radiating respect.
Katara swallowed hard.
"You look...nice," Katara finally choked out, unsure how she'd act turning at every moment and seeing a fleeting ghost of herself in the crowd, as though taunting her.
"We all look fantastic, sure, yeah," a half-disgusted voice said, and Katara would have been able to guess who said it just by reading the words on paper.
"You can't see any of us, Toph," Ratana said, frowning. She clearly hadn't picked up on Toph's sarcasm. Before Toph could reply, and Katara was half-afraid what she'd say with the sour mood her friend was in, a shrill voice with a vulgar laugh broke through the crowd.
"Are you...a boar?" Nadhari sneered at Toph. "I mean, I guess a fat pig isn't too far off."
"Are ya looking for a broken nose?" Toph snapped, lunging forward, only inches from her as Katara and Yue pulled her back. "Or maybe I should wipe that little smirk of yours off your face by punching in a few teeth!"
"It's the sigil of her family line," Mai's cool voice interrupted, "Which you should know, Nadhari."
"I'm well aware." Nadhari crossed her arms, and even through the slits of her mask, Katara could see her eyes lit with fire as she stared down Toph.
"Perhaps you're merely jealous," Mai continued, the entire hall deadly silent as they watched the two most intimidating contestants square off, "That your family isn't so prestigious to have an animal as your spirit guardian. I wouldn't go offending those who so highly outrank you."
"I would rather die than have a smelly pig as my family's sigil," Nadhari said, refusing defeat. "But whatever, to each their own."
"She'll get her due, but you'll be thrown out if you started something," Katara reminded Toph, hissing in her ear. "Best behavior?"
Toph backed off, swearing up a storm and sending murderous looks around the room, as though hoping it would land magically on Nadhari on one of her swings. Katara followed her, as did Smellerbee and Toph's handmaid, who followed a bit too close for comfort. Toph grunted, "This night is already off to a truly amazing start." She turned her milky gaze toward her maid. "Can I at least get plastered tonight?"
The handmaid gave a regretful smile. "The Prince has capped you at two drinks."
"Sadist," Toph muttered angrily. "How am I supposed to get through this night if I'm not so out of it that I can't remember who I offended?"
"I think that's the point. Not to offend anyone tonight," Katara said carefully. "Right, Toph?"
"Sure, Sugarqueen," Toph said, her shoulders dropping at once. "We'll, uh, see how it goes."
It was as good as Katara was going to get from her. Also, by this time, Zhi was gathering the girls for their grand entrance. They lined up in no particular order. There was a lot of bustling and bumping to be closer to the front. Katara couldn't care less; she let herself be shoved near the back with Toph and Smellerbee.
"Smile, ladies!" Zhi said enthusiastically. "And really, try to enjoy tonight." Her second command was laced with sadness. She stared at the group, likely knowing that many would not win the fights tomorrow. There was the general idea amongst some that this was the last chance they had to bathe in this luxury or find a husband if it were not to be Zuko. The excitement that buzzed through the line was palpable, so strong that Katara too almost wanted to have a good time tonight.
They walked through the halls in a line, the girls all giggling and waving their fans already, as though overheated, through the night had scarcely begun. Katara was confused when she realized they were not being brought to the usual front of the ballroom, where there was a wide reception hall. Instead, they were being brought around the back. They were asked to merge into the group of people waiting, all of them clustered like cattle here.
Two thoughts hit Katara instantly:
The first was that it was clear now why the girls had fashioned coins to hand out. Because many high-powered men had been encouraged to bring their eligible sons, they had thought the same with their daughters. This was practically a speed-dating ball for the high and wealthy! She'd wrongly assumed the ladies in the competition would be the only young women in attendance, but she saw miles upon miles of frills and fabric. It was like a game, perhaps to some, that they'd try to suss out who was vying for the Prince's hand and who was not.
Secondly, she felt a stab of fear. Was this part of some overarching plot? Was Ozai stuffing them into a room where there was little movement and only two doors – the way in and the way out – to dispose of them all?
"Not everything is a plot, not everything is a plot," Katara tried to remind herself under her breath, but it was hard. Still, it would be in really bad form for Ozai to murder all the other party guests just to get to her, right?
Well, as it was, they were in such close quarters that a well-trained assassin could slip in and kill someone without anyone noticing. She pressed closer to Toph and Yue, not liking this thought at all.
There were so many more people already than there were at the first few balls. As she thought more people could not fit in this small antechamber, more kept pouring in. There were many that were out in the gilded halls, spilling in wait, and Katara wondered what the heck they were all doing here. Surely the ball wasn't being held in this closet-sized space? That would be stupid...right?
Spirits, Katara didn't know anything about the procedures or crazy plans anymore. For all she knew, this was some new 'thing' that everyone would be lauding over.
Just when Katara was really starting to feel claustrophobic, a tall man in a dragon mask stood on a small platform. He had nothing to enhance his voice, but his very actions quieted the hundreds (if not thousands) of people milling and waiting.
With a delicate flip of his wrist, he lifted his mask to reveal Ozai underneath.
"I am so glad you all could make it to celebrate this event with us," Ozai said, his voice hardly above his normal tone, and yet every word bounced off the walls. "It is a momentous occasion. Not only are we celebrating the solstice, but we are also very anxious about the upcoming tournament tomorrow that our ladies will be participating in," Ozai said. "I suppose you all are wondering why we are out here? Well, usually, there would be a party in the city streets to celebrate the solstice, a day where the spirits are said to walk close to us. Since we did not feel as though we could bring you down to the streets, we tried to bring the streets to us. I hope I might be the only one unmasking tonight; keep up the fun and keep your identity hidden. Who knows…" Ozai said with a grin that Katara would say was genuine, if she thought that Ozai had a bone in his body that enjoyed 'fun' in any sense," Perhaps a spirit will grace us and walk secretly among us tonight!"
Though it was said in good-natured fun, and the people around all laughed at the idea, Katara felt something quake in her bones.
"You okay?" Toph asked, nudging her.
"Wh…at?" Katara answered back breathlessly.
"You just had the legit weirdest reaction to whatever Ozai just said. Like, seriously, I don't even know how to classify what I just felt from you," Toph said. Katara cursed inwardly. She hated how Toph could feel emotions. But to be fair, she wasn't even sure how she felt about the knowledge that weighed upon her, or how truthful Ozai had unknowingly been. What would he say if he truly knew what Katara was? Or, spirit above, his own son? Or fuck, even Aang...or Yue…
"I just don't trust or like Ozai."
"Join the club," Toph muttered, sending a suspicious side-eye to her aide.
"He's…" the maid said cautiously, "Intimidating."
That seemed promising enough to Toph that she wouldn't be squealed on. Luckily, the doors to the back of the ballroom were opened and people were pouring in to see what Ozai had been hiding.
Katara felt her breath catch. Though she hated everything about the idea of his ball, she could not deny that the masquerade's setting was the most incredible thing she'd ever seen.
They'd lined the entire ballroom with shops and stores, making it look like streets. It spilled out into the waiting-chamber of the ballroom, which was why they had not gathered there. Above them, lanterns sat on strings that tied from one roof to another. The ceiling had been covered in a dark navy-blue fabric, making it appear as though they had stepped into the streets below.
There was the main square where people were to dance, but the rest of the large ballroom was filled with food, clothing, and other sorts of stands. Katara felt overwhelmed in the best possible way, as she had when Zuko had taken her out to see the town. She was so interested in exploring every inch of this that the magic of the ball night seemed to make her forget her bad attitude.
"Okay, uhm, this is pretty cool," Katara said out loud, to which Yue gave an enthusiastic nod.
"Lots of people, lots of things," Toph said, tilting her head, toes gliding across the ground. "Hmm. Whatever."
Suki breezed by, in full Kyoshi wear, though it was obvious she was trying to look more like Avatar Kyoshi than just a standard warrior. She grasped Katara and Toph by their wrists.
"Come on!" she giggled, "Let's take a walk on the town, shall we?"
It was not like the previous balls, where there had just been everyone in a big, wide circle. Katara wouldn't have known who was who anyway, but it made it harder to find specific people. Namely, Zuko. She was looking forward to that talk. Speaking of which…
"Toph, you said you wanted to talk with me?" she asked as Suki pulled them to a fried food stand. The thought had hit her at once. It seemed like a while ago that Toph had talked to her, but in reality, it had only been before going to the town previously. Still, she'd recalled literal lifetimes between those two moments.
"Later," Toph said, but looked uneasy, "Let's uh, just enjoy this."
There was something more to her tone, but Katara wasn't sure what it was. Besides, Suki was already beckoning.
6:30 PM
By the time they found a place to sit, their plates were doing a balancing act with all the mesmerizing, mouth-watering food that had been offered. Suki pulled them around until their plates were full of street-food and they found a place near the main 'square' to sit and eat. The mood in the room was much more carefree and there was an element of whimsy. This ball didn't feel stuffy or like it had a lot of rules; the opposite. This ball seemed like the entire idea was to forget who you were for a night or where you were, physically at least.
"Is that...Andica?" Katara asked, squinting across the ballroom.
"Possibly. Lots were invited from Kyoshi, so I heard," Suki said. "I'll talk to her later."
"There's a dude from the Kyoshi group that's staring at you, Suki," Toph said. "I can feel his intense gaze."
Toph pointed, to which her maid batted her hand down saying it was impolite to do so, but Suki followed her gaze and sucked in hard.
"Oh." She winced. "That's, erm, my ex."
"You sure?" Katara asked. He was dressed in a generic masked costume.
"Well, just as I know all of you in your costumes, you just...you know someone well, right?" she said, sounding completely embarrassed.
"Who broke up with who? Give me the juicy details, sister." Toph encouraged.
"Me," Suki said. "He's nice, he's just a little…" She trailed off.
"Just a bit what?"
Suki looked around, as though to make sure that no one was watching. "When he gets excited, he tends to get really excited."
"Oh!" Toph said with a suggestive tone.
"No, not like that. He usually faints and sort of...foams at the mouth?" Suki said.
"What?" Katara snorted on her spicy chicken, the peppers running up her nose. Agni, that hurt.
"You're joking." Toph was wearing a full-mouthed grin. "And how can I get him to do it here?" She was already standing.
"Toph, don't make a spectacle," Suki groaned, "I feel bad. But, c'mon, he might be one of the wealthier villagers, but…"
Katara made a hum of agreement. For a while more, the trio sat and talked about the masked people walking among them. They had no idea who anyone was unless they were to be recognized, but that was doubtful. Katara knew no one from her tribe was coming, but she vainly hoped that perhaps the Northern Water Tribe would send more people. She was itching to see Eva, but it seemed there were no other Water Tribe members here.
Logically, a newly-blinded Eva and a ball was not a good combination, but she was still a bit disappointed.
Soon, a group of masked boys, about their age, came up and asked them to dance. Toph gave the politest 'fuck off' she could manage with her handler present, but Katara couldn't think of a good reason for herself to reject offers other than just hating dancing. She knew none of them were Zuko, but she wasn't looking to stir up trouble currently, so she graciously accepted as Suki did.
This led to a few rounds of dances from a few boys, only two of which guessed that she was in the choice. One smelled of bad fish and the other seemed polite enough, so Katara relented and gave him a coin. None were particularly memorable, she had to say, each out of her mind as quickly as they entered.
After this, she made her way back to Toph.
"I need some water."
"Or a strong adult drink," Toph suggested with a waggling eyebrow. At this point, Alcina had found them.
"Oh! I tried the best one from a shop...erm, well, down this way?" she suggested. Suki was still dancing with various boys, but Katara knew that they'd find her again.
Alcina brought them down one of the paths that had a lot of 'events' going on. There was a place to get beautiful henna up and down your arm, a place to try on other masks or costumes, a place to get your picture drawn...Katara had not explored this area yet. As she passed a little curtained off area, she caught a pair of pig-tails.
She paused in the walkway, and the other two with her.
"Fortune teller?" Alcina said, a bit quietly. "Oh, look...it's Aunt Wu's."
"Her?" Toph said, bending over, "Uchk!" She made a barfing sound.
"Oh, come on," Alcina batted her shoulder, "You weren't there."
"But I know her." Toph scrunched up her nose. "She's famous and shit. So, my parents invited her to our estate and she read my fortune. It's a load of bullshit, that's what it is," Toph said loudly.
"What did your fortune say?" Alcina asked, crossing her arms over her chest.
"She told my parents I was 'destined to marry a prince'. Exactly what they wanted to hear. Easy money. The stupid paper about this stupid competition was received two days later. My parents thought it was a 'divine sign' and are convinced I'm gonna marry Zuko. She's the reason I was sent here in the first place!" Toph said. "Oh, I'd like a word with her-" Though, as she spoke, she clenched her fists. Katara knew to replace 'word' with 'fight'.
"Uh, no," Katara said, holding her back. "That's a bad idea. No punching people at balls!"
She hadn't realized until now that keeping Toph out of trouble was basically a full-time occupation, thus the handmaid, who she hoped was being paid well. It was also amazing how much Toph had gotten away with before until she was put under the 'best behavior' threat.
"Why don't you get me my drink? Alcina will show you," Katara suggested.
"Didn't like your fortune?" Alcina ribbed playfully.
"Something like that," Katara said, gazing into the purple fabric that the tent was constructed out of. "I guess I just feel like we aren't quite finished."
Toph was more than happy to practically run and Alcina promised to return with the best drink Katara had ever had.
Katara slipped inside, the familiar scent of burning incense hanging in the air. It seemed exactly like the inside of Madame Wu's shop in her home village, having just been picked up and brought here.
"Kat?"
Katara turned to see someone lurking in the shadows. After a long moment, she realized it was Avizeh.
"Oh, hi. Are you getting your fortune told?"
"I'm just relaxing here, listening," Avizeh admitted. "Hiding from a boy who's sort of in love with me." She gave a shudder. "He's literally known me for like half-an-hour! And like, I love being worshiped, but he's a little bit intense. Ugg. But, hearing the fortunes of people is really fun."
Katara sighed. She didn't want to get into the fact that this was probably rude and an invasion of privacy, but leave it to Avizeh to find the one place where the gossip was sure to be hot.
"Anything interesting?" Katara asked, because well, she was curious too.
"It's hard to interpret," Avizeh admitted. "A few girls have come through here. Saoirse's wasn't really exciting. I'm pretty sure she's going to marry some guy she had a crush on back in her village. Guess that means she'll be leaving eventually. Nadhari was here."
"Really?" Katara took a step forward. "Did you hear her fortune?"
"She was foretold...oh, what did Wu say?" Avizeh rubbed her chin under her mask. "She would have to make a difficult choice. That she couldn't walk both sides forever. She said that she foresaw her choosing the side that would show her true colors."
"Oh," Katara said, a bit disappointed. There was hardly enough there to glean anything important from.
"Mai keeps edging around here. Didn't take her for the type. Maybe I'll hear her fortune before the night is up. Didn't you already get yours?" Avizeh asked after a moment. "In the village?"
"I just...needed to confirm something. Or...sort of." Katara said, unsure even now what she was doing standing here. "I guess if you hear anything really juicy from Mai, I'd be interested."
"Next!" Meng called from the next room.
Katara parted the curtain and found Aunt Wu sitting in front of her pile of bones. Katara lifted her mask partially up her face so that Wu could see her. Meng bowed to Katara and backed away.
"Sit, my child. I think that perhaps this time I could give you a clearer fortune," Wu offered. "I apologize for last time. I'm not sure what happened. I've never been so...wrong before."
"Uhm, there's no need. I just wanted to tell you that you weren't wrong," Katara said, the words catching in her throat. "We just didn't know it. You got me right." Or, rather, she had been reading the Painted Lady's fortune, intertwined with Katara's.
"Oh?" Wu said, examining Katara curiously.
"I'm not sure why I'm here. I just wanted you to know," Katara said, "And I guess maybe it warned me. Or maybe I sought it out." She gnawed on her lip. "But the truth is there. You weren't wrong."
"I might be able to see more, now that I know this," Wu said, motioning. Katara got the sense that even with Katara saying nothing, Wu knew more than she was letting on.
Katara gave a dry laugh. "That's fine. I think I've found out enough earth-shattering revelations about my life to last me, well, my entire life," she said. She knew her entire past. Some part of her wanted to keep her future shrouded.
"I see." Wu nodded sagely. "Thank you for coming back, Princess. You have given me much to mull over."
Katara slipped back out, and though she couldn't see Avizeh's face, she was sure the girl was confused. She didn't stay around long, though, because she could see Alcina lingering near the entrance with something fruity in her hand.
Notes:
We still have lots of ball to get through! Already we've seen a familiar face from the show we haven't seen before hehe (as minor as he was...he was...uhm, memorable).
Fun fact! The creators of Avatar actually confirmed that Foaming Mouth Guy really was Suki's ex hehe.
We're in for a few old but new-to-this-story faces that appear here! Any guesses ;)Because all these chapters sorta go together, and depending on how quickly my beta betas, I think the next chapter is gonna come out a week early. I'm also probably going to be gone during the usual three-week time, so it works out. So start checking back around August 6th!
Chapter 27
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
7:00 PM
Katara sat on a fake 'park bench' near the edges of the shops. In her hand was something that tasted like lychee. It was such a shame, she considered. She could (and very much would with her never-ending stomach and fantastic metabolism) try every food from every stand here, even if that was a momentous undertaking in itself. However, she certainly could not try every alcoholic drink there was on the menu, and there were nearly as many as food options. Each sounded just as delicious as the last, but she could only pick a handful if she was being careful. It wasn't even for lack of trying – if she had every option on the menu, she'd surely kill herself!
The one Alcina had brought tasted almost sugary sweet, like strawberries. The one after was bitter. This one was somewhere between, and she had to admit she enjoyed it the most.
Someone flicked their hand over her shoulder and, quicker than she could blink, the mystery arm had snatched her drink out of her hand. She hoped, just for a second, it was Zuko being flirty, but she spied him far on the other side of the room. It was not hard to guess which 'dragon' he was.
Also, he was being careful to not be too...overly romantic with any of the girls, sans some dances (which, she was well aware he had not asked her yet.) She wasn't upset, at least, so she told herself. He was currently dancing with Yue and he did look...happy. Though he was wearing his mask, his shoulders were relaxed and she could see Yue's shoulders quaking with laughter. She might have felt a little sad in that moment if not for the most grating sound of sucking liquid.
She spun and found Sokka. He'd taken the bamboo straw and stuck it through his mask's mouth hole and was slurping obnoxiously.
"That hits the spot."
"You know, there are like two hundred stands where you could have procured your own drink," Katara said in annoyance, trying to grab it back. She wasn't short but compared to Sokka, she was short enough that she couldn't reach when he held it high above his head. She kicked his shin and as he crumpled, she took it back. "And what if that hadn't been me?"
"Oh, it's obvious which one's you," Sokka said, gasping like she'd broken his leg. "Yeah, there are a few Water Tribe ghoulies here, but you're the only one who is so obnoxiously Water Tribe."
"Awe, real love for our nation there, bro."
"No, I think it's fantastic," Sokka said and she knew he was smiling widely under his mask, "You look freaking awesome."
Katara rolled her eyes as she sipped her drink, but inside was pleased. She remembered always wanting Sokka's approval as a child, whether it be in mimicking his fort building skills, or mastering his aim with a boomerang, or taking him on in a tussle. Sokka had been a good older brother, allowing her to win maybe 10% of the time. As she grew older, she realized that he absolutely should have always beaten her, so it must have been out of kindness. She didn't think that his approval now would feel so warm.
"What have you been doing this whole time?" Katara asked.
"Oh, you know, breaking hearts," Sokka said with a casual shrug.
"What? I haven't seen you dance with a single girl," she said, but out of the corner of her eye, a trio of non-contestant ladies was staring at the pair, eyes mostly on Sokka.
Sokka gave a wry laugh. "How do you think I'm breaking those hearts?"
"None are pretty enough to tempt you?" Katara said, finding it hard to believe that he couldn't find a single girl he wanted to dance with.
"I think the girl I want to ask would sooner stomp my toes," Sokka said, apparently more buzzed than he initially let on. Katara tilted her head, feeling like perhaps he'd just said a great deal and too much for his own sake because of how he stiffened up, but they were rudely interrupted by Nadhari as she appeared, it seemed, out of nowhere.
She was dressed as the Mother of Faces, her face the goddess and a whole large tree curling up her frame, hugging her body tightly and almost obscenely. It left absolutely nothing to the imagination.
"I think you're lost," Katara said shortly.
Nadhari pressed her shoulders back, her chest jutting out as she hopped on to the table next to Sokka. Too close.
He scooted an inch closer to Katara. Nadhari followed.
"No, I'm right where I want to be," she said, then turned all her attention to Sokka. "So, you're a Prince, aren't you?"
"Not really. I live in a snow hut," Sokka said, crossing his arms and narrowing his eyes. "I'm sure you'd hate it."
"Oh, let me be the judge of that. You haven't danced yet." Nadhari flicked a finger up his arms. "What can I do to get you out there?" she purred, "I don't think I've ever told you how handsome and strong you are."
Katara sipped her drink, unsure what to even say. Tui, how pathetic and desperate. Oh yes, she hated Nadhari. She had no qualms about sharing her opinions, so she said it out loud.
Nadhari turned, giggling. "Now, Katara, let's not be so mean on ourselves," she said, hardly ruffled, as though Katara was stupid or emotional enough to call herself those things. "But then again...Prince Zuko hasn't even looked at you, whereas you're doing a pitiful job of pretending like you aren't always looking for him. He's danced with me already, twice."
Katara wished Toph were here to confirm or deny it, but from how boldly she proclaimed it, Katara had a feeling Nadhari was right. Though she was sure there were reasons for Zuko's behavior, she found her throat dry and unable to speak.
"Well, you sure as heck aren't going to find something here," Sokka said at once, finding a firm tone laced with harshness. "Get lost or I'll tell Zuko you were trying to kiss me. That's treason, isn't it?"
Nadhari startled back as though she'd been slapped. "But I...I was just-"
"Who will he believe?" Sokka growled, stepping forward. "Want to test that? Your funeral."
Nadhari pulled up the hems of her dress and left with a huff. Katara had retreated back into a seat. She could no longer see Zuko in the crowd.
"Kat, you okay?" Sokka's voice was unspeakably gentle. It reminded her of when she'd nearly cut her hand off when a fishing expedition went wrong and he'd be so worried but had tried so hard to not let Katara see it as he walked her through patching herself up.
"She's probably lying," Katara said, though her voice faltered.
"What's going on with you two? Not Nadhari, but Zuko? I would have thought by now you'd be planning a wedding," Sokka said, sitting next to her. He blocked the ballroom from view, giving Katara a moment to feel as though they were the only two there.
"I don't even know. He started pulling back and I thought maybe I just imagined his affections, or that it was all just a momentary obsession. We had a huge fight...I know I'm right."
"You're stubborn at the worst of times," Sokka agreed.
"I just feel like I can't move forward unless we come to common ground. Then things just got so icy between us that it felt like every step we took was backward. Then, yesterday, he said he missed me and he would do what it took to fix us. I thought he meant romantically. Perhaps he just sees me as a friend and he's found who he really was looking for. I do miss him even as that, but it would be hard to…" She could not find the words. "I don't know if I could stay."
"Then marry him."
"I don't know if I want to stay here forever. I don't mind the Fire Nation, but it's not home. My home is the South. Plus, well, he hasn't danced with me...so…"
Sokka looked back, sighing hard. "I hate to see you hurt. And I get it. But, have you ever thought that home isn't a place, but a person?" When Katara didn't respond, Sokka touched her shoulder. "You know you can still talk to me about anything. I can't promise I won't punch Zuko, but I'm always here for you."
"You know the same goes here, right?"
Sokka pulled her in for a short hug. "Yeah, 'course," he said, but she got the feeling he was holding back.
He paused, sniffling.
"Are you...crying?"
"No. I smell something meaty and juicy, ooohhhh boy," Sokka said. She pulled back and could see Sokka's eyes shimmering under his mask.
"Go, you glutton," she teased and watched him lop off into the crowd.
7:30 PM
There was a table that people were altogether avoiding, Katara realized. People seemed to move around it, like oil and water. A lone participant sat there, seemingly amused by the revulsion that people felt, and Katara got the sense that she very much puppeted the control of this area without lifting a finger.
It was only on Katara's second pass by the table that she focused on the woman's dress enough to make a small gasp.
She'd recognized it as a Water Tribe from the moment she saw it, but she'd thought it was a Northern Water Tribe, and that perhaps this woman was a healer of some sort. She was very elderly, but did not seem frail. Even though her hands were gnarled, she looked like she could out-dance anyone here.
It was only on the second time she passed that she saw the curled design upon the bottom.
Undeniably Southern Water Tribe.
Katara stood there dumbly, trying to figure out which elder this was and how much of an idiot and incredibly rude tribe woman she'd been to not realize, nor to properly pay respects yet. She knew that the trip had taken a lot out of her Gran-Gran, so she was searching frantically through her mind to figure out who, besides her grandmother, could hold a space so easily and would have been well enough to make the trip?
But, the longer she stared at the embroidery from across the room (she did not want to be caught gawking, that would be far worse), she realized why it looked so off to her. It was the sort of embroidery her grandmother did, not the modern style or adjusted patterns she had been taught. Gran-Gran always laughed and said that old habits die hard; she'd been taught this way as a young adult girl and it was hard to shake her childhood method.
In an instant, Katara was sure she knew who this was.
Katara walked confidently to the table, ignoring the harsh whispers as people watched her do it. No one got more than a yard closer to the table, retaining a distance like she was some caged animal. Something feral and dangerous. She picked up on that sort of tension that rippled through the crowd.
"You knew my grandmother," Katara said in a rush at once, "You were her best friend."
Her grandmother rarely spoke of her time near Katara's age. The fact that she'd come from the North had been as much a shock as anything; plus, waterbenders had been slain all too quickly. She knew from her father that there had been one waterbender who had been taken for Iroh's choice, but no one had ever heard from her again. At least, no one in the South, that is.
Katara lifted her mask, holding in a breath as the masked woman turned to her. She gave a small smile.
"You look just like her," the old woman said simply, "I was wondering when I would meet the only other Southern contestant in 60 years. As it seems, we Southerners like to cause trouble."
She motioned for Katara to sit.
"Hama, aren't you?"
"So Kanna has spoken of me?"
"Not much. She's very closed-lipped about her past," Katara admitted. "But I know how much she misses you. Why did you never come home?"
"There was so much to do here. Time just...got away with me, I suppose," Hama said, tilting her head. "I always intended to, of course."
Katara rolled her thumbs. "It would have been nice to have a water bending teacher. A true one. I heard you were good."
"From what I hear, you've figured quite a lot out yourself." There was a calculated pause. "How are you feeling about the fights tomorrow?"
"Confident," Katara said, but her face must have betrayed her for Hama gave a quiet sigh.
"Well, I'm not sure it would help this late, but I doubt Pakku knows anything of Southern Waterbending Tradition. I'd like to at least pass along the knowledge so that one day you can teach the next Southerner that appears."
Katara nearly knocked over her drink as she stood. "Oh, my spirits...that would be...yes! I mean, no he hasn't. But yes, please, teach me!" she gasped. "I've never found any mention about Southern Traditional Style anywhere...I thought maybe It just didn't...exist," she admitted.
"Well, I discovered it, you could say," Hama hummed, "But it's part of our culture now. I think you'll understand why."
Katara heard a whisper to her left. She snapped her head around in time to see someone glaring obviously at Hama, as though this old woman had three heads. Katara stared them down through her mask until they looked away.
"Why are they...why does everyone look at you like that?"
"Both things are better talked about outside. Come," Hama said, beckoning for her. Katara followed through the crowd, uncontrollable glee filling her. What a rare opportunity!
"Why haven't you been to a ball before?" Katara felt a little upset she was just meeting her now. "Does the Fire Nation not like you?" She knew there were other former Choice contestants from both Ozai and Iroh's competitions who floated around at the previous events, though Katara had never talked to any of those women.
Hama barked. "They'd have to admit that they made a mistake, and they're too proud to admit such things. No, I tend to stay away from here. Too many memories. My curiosity got the better of me once word reached me of you, however," Hama said. She led Katara to a small patio and shut the doors behind them. Katara lifted her mask and tied up her sleeves, ready to attempt something.
"How much do you know of my time at the Choice, child?" Hama questioned.
"None," Katara admitted. "Actually, my family didn't even know what it was when the representatives arrived," she said, recalling the confusion of the council. "It was only later that I heard of you."
"It takes news a long time to get back there," Hama said, as though this explained it. "But when the Fire Nation came, they did not ask for volunteers. They demanded someone. Worthy, they said. A prized pony. I was by far the best waterbender...so I went."
Katara felt a bitter taste in her mouth. Though she'd found many good things here, the circumstances of her arrival were less than voluntary on her tribe's part as well.
Hama looked out at the gardens, tenderly touching a flower blooming on a vine near her. "When we are at home, water is all around us. It's easy. You probably have noticed that water is less present here, especially during the dry, hot months. I was literally out of my element, so I knew that I would have to be...creative," Hama said with a wry smile, "Using my feminine charm as much as I could to sway the choice. If I was to be here, I was going to make it worthwhile for myself. For our people."
"Yes, exactly," Katara murmured in agreement. "Though, I think the 'feminine charm' thing has caught on."
"So you have to adapt again. Water is the element of change and flow, Katara," Hama said wisely. "You must be like the stream that makes its way through the valley. Ready to move paths if there is a rock in the way, but staying steady in your convictions. Eventually, a small trickle of water can carve out a canyon."
Katara stayed silent, drinking in her every word.
"You might come to a time when you need water and it is not there. I would not be surprised if tomorrow if Ozai tipped the fights against you, made it hard to have access to water," Hama said.
"Once I pulled water from my own sweat," Katara said with a laugh. "I'm sure I'll be running tomorrow."
"True, but we can think deeper," Hama said, "Where there is life, there is water."
The flower began to sway under her fingers, and Katara almost spoke up to excitedly mention she'd realized this too, but paled when Hama drew the water completely from the flower. It lay dead, bending over, and water coated her fingers.
There was an equal sense of cosmic dread and awe overcoming Katara. It was the sort of sublime fantasy she'd only ever read about.
"That's incredible. I hadn't…" She watched as Hama drew her hands once again, this time evaporating a nearby tree to dust as she pooled the water in front of her. It was so unique, so unexpected.
"But the tree…" Katara said, "That had been rather pretty."
"In the case of your own life, wouldn't you prefer to save yourself over a plant?" Hama asked, which Katara couldn't deny.
Hama dropped the water back over the edge of the patio. "It's not a full moon, so I cannot show you my best technique. It takes years of practice, but it is something I think you should no doubt take the time to know. There is water in inanimate things, but there is also water within…"
"Creatures, humans. Animals," Katara finished. Hama looked at her with such a look of pride. Katara couldn't remember a time when Pakku had made her so happy with herself. "I'm not very good at all. And well…" She licked her lips. "I feel odd using it."
"The sensation will pass. That tingling is just a side effect, but-"
"No, I mean," Katara tilted her head, "I mean I feel morally wrong. It feels like it's not my place to reach inside something and control it like…" She remembered that even doing it with Toph's permission had made her feel too powerful. She did not enjoy that.
"Katara, oh," Hama touched both of Katara's cheeks, "You are so young, it's almost admirable. But the Fire Nation, nor Ozai, will think of such things when they come for you. They did not think of us or of morality when they demanded me here, nor as they dry the South, waiting for us to crack. They do not play fair. Why should we?"
Katara opened her mouth, but it felt dry. "I'm not sure."
"It is our tradition. We are the stream. Where they place rocks, we find another way," Hama said firmly. "In time, once your rose-colored vision has cleared, I'm sure you will see it my way."
Katara didn't feel better about discussing this with Hama, as she'd wrongly originally hoped. She felt pity for Hama though; when she looked closer, she saw a woman far from home that was pushed to her limit. It was lucky that Katara had found a friend in Zuko…
Or how far would she too have gone?
"Why do...why does everyone out there look at you with such hatred and fear?" Katara said, shaking her head out, trying to clear it. Hama gave a snort.
"They call me a witch."
Before Katara could question more or connect the two parts of Hama, the two sides that had just been revealed to her, the door opened, spilling light onto the patio. The figure in the doorway was a dragon in shades of green, but Katara knew from the height of the stature who it was. It seemed Hama did too.
"Prince Lu Ten," Hama said, bowing politely. In a weird way, in another world, had she won Iroh's Choice, this could have been her son.
"Princess, mind coming back inside?" Lu Ten questioned, "I was looking for you to ask for a dance."
"Oh, well…" Katara looked back at Hama, her mind not yet made up about the woman. Hama just nodded to her and Katara had no good reason to say no to Zuko's cousin.
8:00 PM
"I'm surprised you wanted to dance with me, especially after the last time," Katara said as he led her to the floor at the start of the next song. Zuko was nowhere to be seen, perhaps taking a moment to enjoy some food or drink. "You know I'm an awful dancer."
"Yes, but I don't trust her," Lu Ten said tensely.
"Do you know what happened to her at your father's Choice?" Katara asked.
"Of course. My father has never hidden it from me. Plus, Hama rather has...a reputation," Lu Ten said uneasily.
"A witch?" Katara said with a snort. She could not see his face under his dragon mask, but she could almost guess he was scowling.
"She made it to the top ten, did you know?"
Katara shook her head.
"Yes, it was so...strange. The entire group of girls and what surrounded it was odd, you know. They had three or four leave after being caught with other men; never anything too incriminating, like a kiss, but enough to plant doubt and cause grandfather to demand them gone. They all said it wasn't them, that some force or spirit made them get into these situations, but of course, who believed them?" Lu Ten said. Katara felt a chill rise up her spine. She didn't respond as Lu Ten continued, spinning her around. He spoke quietly enough so as not to draw attention to the other dancers.
"And then, two girls died. Both suicides. One was...believable. She'd been unhinged, according to my father, but hadn't seemed like she was close to an episode. She hung herself, and at first, no one thought anything of it. But the other? My father swore she'd never do something like that. She sat in the bath and slit her wrists. Though there was an investigation, there were no signs of a struggle or anyone forcing her, but it just bothered my father greatly."
Lu Ten dipped her, and Katara was surprised she didn't completely splat onto the floor. Perhaps her disbelief and a growing sense of dread made her a better dancer than she could have guessed.
"Girls asked to leave after that. They all claimed it was their own choice, but there was still something unexplainable about their departures. Always around a full moon. By the time dad realized what was happening, there were only 10 girls left."
"Hama was bloodbending them," Katara said quietly, so quietly so that she almost thought that maybe she only said it in her mind. The accusation Aang had thrown at her came barreling back, the comment that she would use this skill to turn someone's own knife against them. She'd never imagined making someone kill themselves, but Hama clearly had.
"Yes," Lu Ten said with a sense of crispness. "He almost caught her, trying to force another girl to kill herself. My mother. It shocked him; Hama had always seemed so sweet, so unassuming. He thought it was foul play from one of the contestants, but he never would have dreamed it was her."
"But he never saw...?"
"No. He came at the right time. Any amount after and well, I guess I wouldn't be here. My mother had no idea who was wielding the knife, only saw the shadows, and for much of the time afterwards, my father was just glad that she was alive. By the time he started putting two and two together...well, they'd gotten married and everyone had been sent home. Hama all but vanished into the wind and only popped back up a few years ago. If he'd seen her there, he could have killed her with a fair trial or locked her up forever. True, he couldn't definitely accuse her, and she'll never say it outright, but he knew. We all know," he whispered, quieter, and almost took a step back from Katara, as though fearing she too would turn her powers against him.
Katara was thrown back so long ago, a moment in her old bedroom, where Zuko looked at her with fear and nearly accused her of it. She had no idea what he'd been referring to then, hadn't even considered this a possibility. If he knew what she was doing...would he still be frightened?
Of course, it was no wonder the guests at the party looked at Hama with such hatred, disgust, and fury! Nia had been the Crown Sweetheart, more beloved than even Ursa, Katara had heard. Plus, Iroh had loved her so passionately, so kindly, that it had been hard not to want to root for them.
"And people found out?"
"How could it not come out after that?" Lu Ten sighed. "And it became synonymous with the Southern Water Tribe since any waterbenders from the North only knew to heal. It's most likely why we've stayed clear of your tribe for quite some time. I think if they'd known you could bend, you might not have been allowed to stay. It was too late by the time you were here, though," Lu Ten said.
"I wouldn't...I'm not her," Katara said, entirely horrified.
"I know that. Most people have realized now, but I would not put myself within her vicinity," Lu Ten said, a gentle warning on his tongue.
Katara exhaled hard. Hama had been forced, like Katara, to attend. Where Katara had been tied to her people and a cause, Hama had let anger fester inside of her. It was easy to imagine so. The Fire Nation Royals were not kind, and Katara could imagine that 60 years ago, it was even worse. She had to survive. She had to adapt and this was how she got her upper hand on the competition.
Katara understood why she did it, but she did not condone it.
Still, she did not feel the urge to throw the baby out with the bathwater. She was not willing to give up bloodbending in its entirety, though she felt even more sure that she could not use it against a living human and do such invasive things to them.
And she could not rid herself of Hama either, as much as she wanted to. This woman was still a Southern Water Tribe member, and they never abandoned their own. She was clearly suffering in a twisted way, though Katara now understood the dangers of association.
"I didn't know all that," Katara said.
She could imagine how awful it would have been if she used bloodbending tomorrow, if she'd written it down, and if she'd won with it. She imagined even so, Ozai would throw her out immediately. Damn, maybe even Iroh would have been calling for her exit. He'd almost lost the love of his life to it.
"The fights tomorrow…" Lu Ten began. Katara snapped her head up.
"Do you know something about it I don't?" she hissed.
"No. And if I did, I would tell you. Uncle is being very close-lipped about the process. I'm merely concerned for you."
"I might fight you or Iroh or Kuzon," Katara said with forced cheerfulness. Lu Ten's fingers stiffened around her palm.
"We both know it's not going to go that way." He seemed to think over his next words for a long time. "Though I would love to see you next to Zuko at the end of this, as the ruler that this nation deserves, it's not worth your life. If it seems that…" He swallowed. "Don't let your name be only a memory after tomorrow. We can figure something out," he said quietly.
"Do you think Ozai would really kill me?"
"I would not put anything past him, especially with regards to you," Lu Ten said. "I've surely been a disappointment to the Fire Nation long before this, and it may be treason to say, but I would rather have the right people together at the end, even if it's through the wrong process. But I have to ask. What pauses you?"
Katara winced. She should have known that Zuko wouldn't be able to keep quiet around his favorite family member, or at least that he had picked up on it. Perhaps Zuko had said nothing. Lu Ten was just perceptive.
"Many things. Fear...concern...the loss of my identity…" She blinked and saw the flash of her and Zuko's past life behind her eyes and it almost made her ill. "I don't know if I could be a good partner, let alone a leader of a nation when I'm not sure I know who I am anymore."
"You are wise," Lu Ten said and if there was any disappointment, he did not voice it, "And I wish we had infinite time. Alas, that would be no fun for the Lords that eat up the spectacle of the Choice," Lu Ten said bitterly.
The song ended. Before Katara could say more, and before Lu Ten might offer another dance so they could talk more – something Katara thought might help her straighten her own thoughts – there was a figure intercepting the pair.
He was a tall man, and though Katara could not see his face, she recognized that he was around Katara's age, if only a few years older. He was wearing armor and breastplates with an ornate pair of hooked swords carefully wrapped and strapped to his back. The mask was a fox's mask, and there was something equally playful and sinister to it.
Katara would be lying if she said she wasn't a bit intrigued.
"Can I step in?" There was a twang to the voice, something deep and woodsy.
"If the Princess prefers it," Lu Ten said deftly.
"It's fine," Katara said, not wanting to make a scene. Smoothly, her hand was transferred from Lu Ten's to the mystery dancer's.
There were a couple of seconds where the only thing Katara could focus on was the song and the movement of her feet. It was fine to step on Lu Ten's toes, but this man? Well, apart from just being entirely uninterested in dancing with anyone else, her poorly cultivated dance skills were the other reason she kept from accepting many offers.
"You're the Cougar Daughter, huh?"
His voice surprised her. Katara stumbled with her footing but he caught her, grasping her waist tightly. Katara almost relaxed, until she realized she'd fallen against him and stiffened back.
"I'm surprised. Are you from the Water Tribe?" she asked.
"Naw. I just like to...be aware of everything," he replied, almost arrogantly. Too confident, blindly self-assured. Still, it was impressive.
"I'll admit, I do not know who you are."
"Jet."
"Is that a...book character?" Katara asked with uncertainty.
"Oh, you were referring to my costume?" There was a tease in the way he spoke, as though she'd really been asking for his identity. She did feel strange knowing his name after just a few seconds of meeting him, but also powerful. "It's a heroic warrior from a tale, yes. A nameless fighter. Someone who fought for justice...even when it wasn't the popular thing to do."
"Something you admire?" Katara said, now interested in figuring him out.
"I give those who think they have no voice a branch to stand on and make themselves heard, suppose you could say," Jet replied, and she heard the conviction when he spoke. She smiled beneath her mask. It was a cause, a sense of righteousness that resonated deep within her.
"What does this voice do?" Katara asked, piqued.
"Many things." Jet spun her around. "Make noise and cause a disturbance, get the truth out, help those in need, save those who are oppressed...it's hard to describe, I suppose. Whatever truth someone has, we let them speak it."
"Truth is hard to voice, harder to define," Katara said.
"Not when your heart knows something," Jet replied, and she wasn't sure if he was flirting or if it was just a fact he believed. As they spun around, he leaned in close. Katara felt her face flush at the closeness of him, and as he came inches away, she smelled a hint of hay upon his clothes. Not a bad smell, but something pastoral and almost homey mixed with the musk of forest soil. It was only a moment later when she realized he was shielding her. Ozai moved through the people dancing like a tiger-shark, watching.
It was clear that Jet disliked and distrusted Ozai as much as Katara did. Either he knew of Ozai's animosity toward her or he was wary on principle. It did not completely make him trustworthy, but what was that saying? 'The enemy of my enemy is my friend?'
When he pulled back, Katara was confused, until she realized the band was gearing up for the next song. The entire dance had flown by and she'd hardly been aware. As she began to pull away, Jet held her hand. Not tightly, but just enough to pause her.
"Names are currency, beautiful."
"You can't even see my face," Katara scoffed, "I could be ugly."
"But somehow we both know I'm right," he said. Katara paused and fished a token from her bag. She threw it up and it glinted in the light.
"I'm a bit more of a challenge than just that," she replied with a cool, non-inviting lilt before turning off to find one of her friends.
Notes:
Look for the next chapter after the usual three weeks, around Aug 27th! And, it has some fantastic Zutara scenes and is extremely long! Just something to look forward to ;)
This chapter sets up for A LOT of future plot points to come, so even though it seems like there 'wasn't much', oh boy, there's a lot of good threads here, man.
Chapter 28
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
8:30 PM
Suki was lingering near an Earth Kingdom food cart. At first, Katara would have just described her as taking a break, but as she drew closer, she realized it was something more. She was jumpy; not like she'd been threatened, but as though she was avoiding someone...or trying to make herself do so.
"Whatcha doing?"
Suki nearly jumped out of her skin.
"Kat! Don't do that!"
"I can't believe I snuck up on a Kyoshi warrior," Katara teased and it took a second, but she soon heard a quiet chuckle from Suki.
"Yeah, don't tell my mentors. They'd kick me out of the troop for sure," she replied good-naturedly, but something was still off about her.
"Are you okay?"
"Dandy. Pfft. Perfect, even," Suki said, waving a hand, so convincingly that Katara almost believed her. She did, until-
"Liar."
Both Suki and Katara did jump at the unexpected voice of Toph. They spun and saw the diminutive girl standing behind them, grinning wide, with her aide following inches behind her.
"You...how did you...where did you even come from?" Katara gasped out, trying to slow her heart-rate.
"Amazing what people who aren't blind still don't see," Toph shrugged, pleased with herself, "And Suki over here is-"
"Toph," Suki growled a warning.
"Feeling the little oogy butterflies about Anaselma's older brother."
"Anaselma has an older brother?" Katara echoed at the same time that Suki slapped her hand over Toph's mouth.
"That's treason to even joke about! And I do not," she hissed, "It's just indigestion. That's what you're 'feeling' from me."
"Oh, blah." Toph pried Suki's hand off. "You're not in love with him, about to run away in a scandal from the Choice. You just think he's hot and nice and has dreamy eyes," Toph said.
"How would you know he has dreamy eyes?" Suki asked, crossing her arms and muttering.
"You just confirmed it, sistah," Toph said. "See, over there," she said, pointing across a room.
"Uh...where?" Katara asked, scratching her head. Toph was pointing at a very elderly lady. She doubted that was who Toph was referring to. She shielded her forehead against the lights from the room and found Anaselma. Toph's aide did the kind thing and readjusted Toph's arm to be pointing in the right direction, finding her mark. Anaselma was indeed lingering around a man about her height.
Toph was not deterred by her lack of directional correctness, "I can feel how lots of girls are just melting over him."
"Oh, huh, yeah." Katara had forgotten that Anasemla had mentioned him once, along with the fact that she really admired him. It had been her brother and father who taught her earthbending. Apparently, he was as skilled as she was, if not more so. "Habu?"
"Haru," Suki corrected, "And it's absolutely nothing. I danced with him. He's nice. End of story," she said meaningfully to Toph.
"Oh, secret's safe with me."
"There's no secret."
"Great deflection!" Toph said, giving her a thumbs-up, "No one will ever know."
Suki looked about ready to strangle Toph, though Katara wasn't sure if it was because Toph was lying or because she was actually telling the truth. Then, seemingly pleased with this minor amount of chaos she was allowed to create, Toph turned to Katara.
"Should we also talk about your sexy dance partner?" Toph said. She seemed like she wanted to stir up trouble here, having little other places to do so tonight.
"He's not sexy. And I definitely don't have any fuzzies toward him," Katara said firmly.
"It would be more fun if you did."
"I haven't figured him out," Katara said honestly. "He's...interesting to me. A puzzle," she admitted after a moment. "What have you been up to the rest of the dance?" She didn't want to talk about Jet with them, not when she had the feeling that he was someone she needed to think about herself. She wasn't sure what he would be to her, but he did feel significant in some way.
"Avoiding dancing. Nicely turning down gross dudes and wishing I could kick them in the-" Toph began, but her aide gave a cough. "In the...face." Toph finished dejectedly, most assuredly not what she was going to say.
"Having fun?" Suki asked Toph.
"Not nearly as much as I could be having." Toph looked imploringly to her aide, taking her mask off and giving her biggest, most liquid eyed-stare she could muster. "Just one more alcoholic drink? It can be mostly juice."
"Ha. No." Apparently, her aide had been forewarned not to trust Toph, or she was made of stronger stuff.
"Party pooper," Toph growled, sinking into a chair. "Can't castrate guys, can't get drunk, can't leave...it blows."
Suki exchanged looks with Katara. Though Toph's idea of a good time was...not quite what Katara would think was within the reasonable realm to do, she still felt bad for Toph.
"You know what we can do?" Suki said, "Stuff our faces with food. And man, you gotta try this skewered chicken-pig."
They managed to 'cheer' up Toph, or at least get her back to her biting and sarcastic self by eating nearly gluttonous amounts of food. Suki said she'd probably be leaving the ball as soon as they were able, wanting to rest up for the next day. Toph agreed, though only because she was bored to death.
"I'm going to go talk to some of my Kyoshi friends," Suki decided. "Not sure when I'll see them next."
"I'mma go and annoy Kuzon or Sokka," Toph decided. "Which is totally fair game because Kuzon won't fight back and Sokka will," she defended her choice to her aide, who just groaned.
It left Katara unsure what to do, caught up in thoughts of Hama and Lu Ten, and Zuko (still not dancing with her) and- Jet!
She saw him across the room.
Deciding that she didn't have all the info on him, she decided to go try for another dance to see what she could glean. She lost track of him for a couple of moments until she saw a glint of metal, his swords, peeking from a curtained area.
What she didn't expect was to slip into what she first assumed was an illicit meeting between Smellerbee and Jet. She almost turned around, not wanting to see what was happening and strangely feeling a bit annoyed, until she realized Jet was hissing at Smellerbee, up in her face.
"-Do you think that shit grows on trees, Bee? Spirits, it wasn't supposed to be this hard! He was supposed to be rolling in his grave by now!"
"I didn't realize until it was too late! If you get me more, I swear it, I'll finish the job," Smellerbee insisted, though she was clearly ashamed of herself. Katara held her breath, not wanting to be discovered eavesdropping. It was obvious to her that they were talking about an assassination.
"It took me ages to find that. It doesn't travel well and it's expensive."
"But it's worth it, right! To get him gone for good. If we-"
"No." Jet's voice was firm. "We'll find another way. I hope you like playing wife here since your mission is done."
Smellerbee visibly winced, swallowing back tears. "I'm not in this for Zuko, you know that." Katara didn't need Toph here to see that this was a lie. Though it greatly shocked her, she would bet that Smellerbee, in some fashion, had started to fall in love with Zuko like so many others.
"I think you like him more than you want to admit. Prissy palace boy," Jet hissed in a disgusted tone. "You think you'll be allowed to come back to the trees after this?"
All at once, Katara felt like a thousand bits of information crashed over her into one understanding. She exhaled and a small squeak followed it.
Bharvari WAS telling me who it was…
"Katara?" Smellerbee said, and Jet threw back the curtain.
"Ah, what a name," Jet said, a curl to his smile. Katara bit the inside of her cheeks, annoyed that Smellerbee had said it out loud. Something about Jet knowing her name made her feel uneasy. She sent Smellerbee a dark look, on all accounts.
"Is anyone here with no ulterior motives?" she bit out. She was also including herself in this group, but at least she'd been honest with Zuko about it from the start! Between Fidelia planning on a pregnancy, Toph here to ignore her parents, Suki here to bring prosperity to Kyoshi, and now Smellerbee planning a murder...Katara wondered if there was any girl who was here just to be stupidly in love.
"Didn't take you for someone who listened to private conversations," Jet said, his mask over his head. Now that she saw him, there was something attractive about him, though at the moment she could hardly focus on that. She threw her own mask on a cushioned couch, yanking the curtains closed. Before he could make a quip about beauty, she was talking.
"You're the leader of the Freedom Fighters," she said, pointing at Jet.
"I never said I wasn't," Jet said. Katara had heard many differing opinions about the renegade group that caused issues and explosions all over Fire Nation-occupied Earth Kingdom towns. Some lauded them as heroes, others hated their guts.
"You're talking about the poison. You were going to kill…" She took an educated guess. "The Fire Lord. That's why you came to the Choice."
"It was supposed to be a week-long assignment," Jet hissed, "Get it in his teacup at dinner. Done."
"But Ursa sometimes drank from his cup, and I couldn't risk that," Smellerbee snarled back, but Jet seemed indifferent to this possible casualty. "And then it went missing…"
"You're the reason that Bahiravi's in jail. That she's…" Katara stared at Jet and Smellerbee, equally furious and horrified. "She's suffered a worse fate than even death, because of you!"
"Oh, it's not like she was a saint, beautiful," Jet threw up his hands, "From what I heard, she was tryin' to kill you."
"That's not the point!"
"She shouldn't have stolen it if she didn't know how to use it correctly," Smellerbee said, clearly without any shred of guilt over what had happened.
Some part of Katara knew that Bahiravi may have tried to kill her or Toph or any of the other girls in a different way had she not seen the opportunity to use the poison, but Smellerbee's nonchalance and Jet's 'kill whoever accidentally gets caught in the crosshairs' attitude was making her feel sick.
"You gunna turn us in?" Jet asked, coming up to stand in front of Katara, too close for her comfort zone. "Watch us dangle from the gallows? Be the reason we're dead tomorrow morning?"
"I-"
"Your righteousness will be as just as ours. And you'll have two deaths on your hands," Jet said with a tone that infuriated her, mostly because she knew she was right. She hadn't asked for what happened to Bahiravi, not in her name. She knew if she turned them both in, Ozai would not be merciful. He'd make a public, gory example of the pair.
"You can't just go around trying to kill Fire Lords," Katara said, deflating.
"Oh, and you'd like to see him live a long happy life." Smellerbee raised an eyebrow. "I doubt that."
Katara bit her tongue. While she wouldn't cry if Ozai suddenly keeled over from a surprise death, she would feel uncomfortable if she knew how it had happened and if it wasn't natural. She wasn't sure she should be making those sorts of choices, big ones like that, about who deserved to live and who deserved to die.
"Doesn't matter, Smellerbee ruined our best shot," Jet said after a second, glaring hard. "It'll be months before I come up with a better solution. If only I could wring his neck right now…" Jet clenched his hands, "And I'd make him suffer. For every person he's killed or ordered to be killed. It would take all night, but he should feel it all. I'd never get the chance here tonight, though."
Though she really did not trust Jet now, she believed him when he said that he wasn't going to be able to try anything for a while. And, hopefully, by that time, things would be...resolved. She had to hope, one way or another.
"I said I was sorry!" Smellerbee whimpered.
"And how many others will die because of your fuck up?" Jet demanded. "Airbenders. Innocent women and children. Men who defy soldiers," he listed, and Katara felt her throat caught as he turned, staring her in the eye. "Damn, might even be Water Tribe people too."
"If you succeed, you'll die anyway. They'll figure it out, or it would be obvious," Katara pointed out. Jet smiled at her, as though the idea pleased him.
"I will gladly send my soul below to meet my maker as long as I see Ozai there too," he said. "My single death could save hundreds, no, thousands, if need be."
"Sounds like you have a martyr complex," Katara snapped. "You're both stupid."
"Oh, and we're just supposed to sit here and do nothing, like you?" Smellerbee said, turning to Katara with a grin that was not kind, but almost mocking. Yes, how many times had Katara been close enough to stab Ozai with a dinner knife, or convince Zuko to let her into the Royal Family bedrooms and suffocate him while he sleeps? She, perhaps more so than others, had a better chance to do this. Still, though...
Katara opened her mouth to object, and maybe say something completely bone-headed that would give her knowledge of the Airbenders or Aang away, but she stopped herself.
She usually had a thousand words for people who were doing something idiotic, but at this moment, she was completely unsure what to say. Ozai was bad and his death might help, but she would not be caught in this plot. Nor would she stop them? Well, her goodness liked to say she would, but the part of her that knew how Ozai had nearly squeezed the life out of her people caused her to say nothing at all.
"For the record, though I don't agree with your actions, the world needs those willing to fight against what is wrong." Katara picked her mask and readjusted it. "So I hope you can figure something out without giving up yourself too. Both of you."
Then, she left her tent, intent to wash her hands of the entire situation. In a sense, she almost pretended she'd never heard anything.
9:00 PM
Aang pulled at his collar as he stepped away from the lady he was dancing with, under the guise of needing a drink.
All night he'd been kept very busy, on his feet and sashaying with ladies who giggled and tried to flirt. It didn't take many of the more-intelligent daughters of lords and dignitaries long to figure out who Kuzon was compared to the other dragons. And, once that was known, it was like open season on him. Kuzon was, of course, the most eligible Royal Bachelor. Plus, since he was not close to the throne, he would be more allowed to marry someone of a lower rank. Because of this, girls had found him in droves and asked him to dance. They all hoped that maybe they could enchant him within the span of a couple of minutes and he'd whisk them off to the palace.
Aang was far too polite to turn anyone down, even if each dance seemed longer and worse than the last. He'd take anything to be allowed to lurk in the shadows as he was asked to do at the other dances, but with so much going on, he was hardly drawing any attention.
The voices in his head were quiet...mostly. Kasata had blabbered on for the first good hour or two of the party about staying vigilant, but everyone seemed to recognize that this was perhaps exactly what Ozai claimed it was; a night of fun. Even the most religious of militants out of the Avatars eventually stopped trying to bother Aang and, dare he say, started to have 'fun'.
It was hard to describe what it was like having all these voices in his head because they were more than disembodied voices. Aang could almost see them in his skull, little mini spirits, all sitting around. Sometimes one was more present than others, in the front of the ostrich-horse, if you will. Their location changed frequently, and even if Aang couldn't actually 'see' where they were sitting, he always had a weird out-of-body experience in still having the knowledge of it.
As of now, they were all sitting at a long table, eating fire flakes and drinking sake. They were having a jolly old time with themselves by rating each girl Aang danced with, as though he was the one who was the leader of the competition. It was like they all existed currently as miniatures of themselves and his brain was nothing more than a glorified meeting room. They could sort of interact with each other; like a drunk Kuruk could poke Gopan to bother him.
As Aang thanked the most recent lady for the dance and made an exaggerated coughing sound to signify that he badly needed water, he could hear the disappointment in her voice that he wasn't asking her to accompany him.
"Will you dance with me later?" she asked.
"Oh, perhaps," Aang said, though he wouldn't if he could help it.
5/10, Yangchen declared, She didn't know her right foot from her left, but she was more interesting than the girl who wanted to talk about grass.
16/83 for me, Kuruk said.
We're using a ten-point system, we decided this-,Gopan nearly hyperventilated, and Aang knew that Kuruk was doing it just to bother him, You cannot order the data if it doesn't match and-
0/10, Kasata grumped, She wouldn't last a day in a war!
We're not choosing girls for battle, we're choosing them as Aang's amour if Ty Lee were to leave him, Udaya said gently, chastising. Aang winced, hoping that his former selves didn't see something he couldn't.
Nonsense! Kasata, as drunk as a mind-spirit could be, hopped on the table, knocking over the fire flakes. Love IS a war!
While his voices duked out what exactly they were supposed to be grading anyway, Aang took the moment to actually grab a glass of water. It was strange. In a sense, their bickering was like white-noise...comforting, something he was used to enough that he could tune it out. Part of him feared what it would be like to go without them, if they disappeared as suddenly as they'd come into his mind. It would feel so...empty.
He took his drink and began to prowl.
As he passed through the people with the hopes of spying who he most wanted to dance with, he saw Katara exit a curtained off-area with a scowl on her face.
Those curtained areas were for the more...romantic exploits of the guests, so already Aang didn't really want to know what Katara had been doing in there. Plus, if frustration or anger could be felt, Katara would be broiling the entire party.
Aang took a step to go and ask her what the issue was, but he saw a bright pink costume out of the corner of his eye. As curious as he was, he also felt like Katara had a lot of anger about a lot of things. Sometimes reasonable, other times not. She might be pissed at her brother or Toph or Zuko (yet again) and honestly, he had a goal in his mind that he could not be swayed from.
Even costumed from head-to-toe, Ty Lee exuded the same effortless and friendly energy, making her quite a popular choice for dance partner as well. For as much as Aang had been courted, she'd been so twice as much. It seemed whenever he turned around, she was entertaining another guy on her arm.
Aang knew from the way she'd always turn to find him that she was doing this to be nice because that was just Ty Lee. He had no reason to think she was doing this to flirt, but he also was not going to let someone else intercept him before he could ask her for a dance. It was nearly the end of the night, as it were, and he did promise her.
"Care for a dance, ma'am?" Aang asked, tapping on her shoulder.
Ty Lee spun, and though her face was covered, Aang could hear her joy oozing from her tone. "Kuzon! There you are! You've kept me waiting."
Aang took her hand and slid them into the dance group, effortlessly. He'd been drilled with every Fire Nation dance to the point he could do most in his sleep in his early days of training here. It was second nature as soon as he recognized which type of song they were playing. Better for him; he could talk instead of making sure his foot was going left instead of hopping right.
"Well, you're not an easy person to get alone. Fall madly in love with anyone since the dance?" he questioned, teasing.
"Night's still young," Ty Lee giggled back. "I sort of like this one particular guy though."
"Oh?"
"Hmm, he's not the tallest, but he's still growing. He has black hair...gray eyes...sorta cute."
"Just sort of? Wow, insult a man's height and then kick him while he's down," Aang laughed.
Ty Lee's laugh broke off a bit too soon.
"Ty?" Aang asked anxiously.
"I talked to Azula. Not that I was...that we...I just told her that I wouldn't be staying past the fights," Ty Lee said, her chin raised. Aang caught a glimpse of her eyes beneath her mask, shining with pride and conviction.
"Any injuries?" Aang asked, entirely serious.
"She was...I think she's okay with it, actually," Ty Lee said. "No, seriously!" S\she added when Aang gave a long sigh. "She was really confused at first. She told me she still thought there was a chance with Zuko, she'd help me. I told her that my path was taking me somewhere else."
"I mean, maybe she liked the idea of you being her sister-in-law."
"She did seem concerned that I wasn't doing it just because of how he feels about Katara, or anyone else. I mean, she was very thorough. It's a big choice, of course she tried to make sure I was serious and really thought about it."
"You see the good in everyone, even if I'm more dubious," Aang said.
"Her aura didn't show any ill-will. Just sadness, I suppose. I mean, I'll be going home for a bit once I do leave, even if I'll come back for you soon. She's been a bit distant with me when I saw her tonight. I think she's hurt."
"She has feelings?" Aang scoffed.
"That's mean and you know it," Ty Lee hissed and Aang gave a wince. "We grew up together. Azula has just been taught to be reserved, and all. She's strong though. She'll work through it," Ty Lee said brightly, "I feel better about it. Knowing that I have her blessing."
"She told you that she was fine with you leaving?"
"Not in so many words. Well, she sort of did. She told me that if I was dead-set on leaving, she wouldn't stand in my way. She'd even help me. She'll probably help me pack and get the carriage order expedited. We've had our ups and downs but she's still 'Zula at the end of the day."
"Oh. That's nice I guess," Aang said. "Can I write to you until you come back?"
"I'd be angry if you didn't."
9:30 PM
Katara was sulking around in the backroom, mind torn between trying not to look for Zuko at every chance (it was going to be a cold day in the Fire Nation before Katara would ever admit Nadhari's words bothered her, but damn, maybe they did hit something) and considering if Jet was someone she should be more concerned about.
"Ah! Katara, spirits, there you are." Yue came through the crowd up next to Katara.
"I'm not really hiding," Katara said, though she sort of was.
"Well, we're looking for you!" Yue said and grasped her wrist. Before Katara could inquire who 'they' were, Yue was already talking again as she pulled Katara around with far more force than Katara would have thought she possessed. "It's the last dance of the night, you see. There's one more 'big event' right after, but then we're free to leave if we want, to rest up for the battle. The Royal Family is going to, anyway."
"And?"
"And Zuko wants to dance with you, silly."
Katara realized with a sense of embarrassment that the Royal Family was indeed all paired with partners and just waiting on the dance floor. For her.
Wow, she was never going to live this down. This was the sort of embarrassment that would creep up on her for years to come right as she was trying to get to sleep.
"You've just been impossible to find," Nadhari hissed as she was pulled through. "Don't think it means anything that you're dancing for this round. You just were off doing spirits know what for the last three dances when he was looking for you. How shameful."
"Wouldn't dream of it," Katara said tightly, though a part of her was reminding herself not to get too excited about this. It did look like a statement to her, though if what Nadhari said was true…
Ursa and Ozai were paired together. Iroh was paired with Aunt Wu, who was not wearing a mask and looked almost blushingly at him. Lu Ten was with a woman who Katara didn't recognize, but she sensed discomfort in his strict figure. Azula was with Chan, and they were extremely close together, much more so than just a pair of people dancing. It made a statement, surely.
Besides Zuko, Aang was unpartnered too. Katara saw him turn toward Ty Lee, but then switched at the last second. Though it was obvious both wanted to dance again with each other, she knew it probably would make a different statement, and not one that Aang wanted right now, with Ty Lee still part of this competition. Instead, he asked a daughter of a dignitary with a sense of resignation.
Katara took Zuko's gloved hand, trying to ignore how she felt as though everyone's eyes were on her.
Which was actually probably true in this case.
It was a slower Fire Nation waltz, one that left space for intimate slow-dancing. Zuko pulled Katara close, so much so that she caught a hint of his spiced cologne.
"I was beginning to wonder if I'd ever get a dance," Katara said after a second, unable to stay silent with him. Then, she added, because she enjoyed shooting herself in her own foot, "Nadhari said you danced twice with her."
She expected Zuko to tell her it wasn't her place to question, but instead, he gave a half-groan, half-laugh.
"You're going to think I'm an idiot," he said, his chest shaking with laughter. "Uhm, well, she was wearing a different dress at the beginning of the dance. And she's wearing a different one now."
On a spin, Katara noticed that yes, it was different. She wondered how she'd missed that.
"And I get it, Mother of Faces, so clever. I'm not even being sarcastic. It's really a cool idea. However-" He coughed uncertainty. "I was just trying to make sure I didn't snub any contestant and danced with everyone and she just grabbed me and I thought that it was Saoirse because their dress colors are pretty much the same - well, her second dress I mean - and I didn't realize it 'till half-way through."
Katara tried to hide her laughter, but a bubble of it escaped through. This was much more innocent than she'd imagined, and something about Zuko's awkwardness and sincerity about it made her fall for him even more.
"You're sort of an idiot, yeah," she agreed, knowing he'd take it well.
"Ouch, yeah, don't tell anyone," he said, and she was hyper-aware of his fingers and how they moved slowly up and down her back. She wasn't even sure he was cognizant of it. "But well, I did it. I danced with all the other girls, and then a few daughters of others my father demanded."
"Oh, so you just didn't have time for me?" Katara said.
"Well, I was trying to wait for yours. Savor it," he said, and all joking tones vanished with something more serious. "I was saving the best for last."
Katara felt her face turn red. "Geeze, wow, uhm, you don't have to...say that. I have a pretty strong sense of ego already."
"What if it's true?" Zuko said. "I haven't...my feelings never...I tried, Katara, I tried so hard." Katara got the sense that she should just be quiet now and let him talk. "To fall for other girls. There are so many wonderful ladies in the Choice, girls I'd be lucky to have a chance with. I looked only at you from the beginning and that wasn't fair. So, if I seemed distant then…" He gave a hiss of frustration, perhaps to himself. "It didn't work, obviously. So, I've still come to the same place I was before, but I don't know if it's better or worse knowing that I still don't want any other girl as much as I just want you."
Katara felt her mouth go dry. Maybe she wasn't going to leave after all. Before she could speak, a memory bobbed to her surface, a moment when the Blue Spirit told the Painted Lady something nearly similar.
"I've only ever wanted you…"
She was torn between crying and laughing at it all and wondered if this was a hint that she should tell him…or if it was a warning.
"So." Zuko kept talking when Katara did not. "How do I fix this? Us? How do I deserve you and your affections again?"
"Deserve me?" Katara choked, "Spirits, Zuko, I feel like you're so incredible and I'm just…"
"Don't you dare say 'just Katara.' To me, you're perfect."
Some part of Katara was thrilled. Some part of her disliked the idea. She feared that one day he'd really see the flaws and his illusion would be shattered. Then what? If he built Katara up to be something she wasn't?
And there was his query at hand.
Sure, this wasn't the setting that Katara wanted to have a discussion about Bahiravi, but she could not see skirting it now.
"What happened to Bahiravi is inhumane and honestly horrifying. I am honored, truly, that you care for me so much that you're somehow okay with it, but you have to see...that's just...she doesn't...no one deserved that."
Zuko was silent for a long while.
"I will admit perhaps I overreacted. She tried to kill you. If you knew how badly I wanted to do awful things to her, you might be horrified by me. Some part of me, that dark part that is my father, was glad to see her like that. And you challenged something I grew up with; I've never considered the other side of it. You must think my stupid, but I was so upset that you couldn't see what I thought I was seeing clearly."
Katara almost pulled back, until he gave a long sigh. "But the parts of me that are my mother and my Uncle realize that you are right. As you often are. I was blinded by my own feelings. I was not thinking of her as a person, which was wrong. This is the goal of having a Fire Lady...to balance out thick-headed dummies."
Katara gave a quiet laugh for a second, rolling her eyes before pulling herself back. "And?"
"I will look into it, fully. I will make it clear going forward that no prisoner is ever to be treated like that, and that anyone who does will be stripped of their position immediately. I will try to find someone to heal her. She will get a fair trial, though…" He got quiet. "She might still be put to death."
"You and your capital punishments," Katara said distastefully. Killing people who did things wrong in the South was not sustainable; they would have killed off their whole population within a few years. They were much more concerned about how to rehabilitate and make sure that their people did not make the same mistakes again, "I don't agree, but I can't change it now. I doubt even your influence could change this. If she must...can it be painless? There must be teas or flowers so that she just drifts off."
"Yes." Zuko agreed, "That is the most humane we can be and I will gladly agree."
He pulled Katara even closer. Though there were literally thousands around them, along with the other family members, Katara felt like they were once again the only couple in the world.
Zuko's nose brushed close to one of her ears, obscured by her ribbon and her hair. "Katara, I want you. In every sense, but mostly, as my partner. But I respect you and your choices and I have to think, somewhere, that your reasons - even those you do not share - are valid and worthwhile. So the option will always, always be on the table, but I will not ask you again. You will have to come to me. Is that...fair?"
He pulled back, and for a flicker of a second, she almost imagined that he hoped she'd ask him right then and there. But she did not, and if he was disappointed, he hid it well.
"That is. Thank you, Zuko. Do know that I think of it, all the time. It's not something I would take lightly, nor ever ignore." For a brief second, and Katara was not sure if it was a past life memory or a vision of the future, but she could almost see the moment of their wedding. The brilliant reds, the shining blues, the flowers, the music...it was just a wisp of a moment, too quick for her to capture, but real.
She let herself fall deeper into Zuko's arms until the song faded away.
10:00
After the dance, after they parted, Zuko could still feel Katara's fingertips burning into the places on his palm where they'd touched. She always lingered, like a ghost of a thought, long after they parted.
Katara, his warrior goddess, as hard to grasp as water slipping through your fingers, or a fine icy mist that hovers but never settles.
He knew the time was nearly over for him, anyway, as well as most of the contestants. He had to fight them tomorrow, though the thought made his stomach churn with regret and anxiety. He didn't want to fight any of them, not like this. Not in this way, in this heartbreaking manner. Still, he had to be in top shape, lest his father accuses him of trying to keep girls in who he had a feeling would not win the fights.
He was grateful his last dance was with Katara. People could say whatever they wanted, but yeah, it meant something. It meant something to him, to Kuzon, to his Uncle and he hoped that Katara understood that. His father could be furious with him tomorrow...tonight, he was going to enjoy these little moments.
His father stood on the grand dais in the middle of the 'town square' close to midnight. He just waved his hand and the band quieted and everyone looked toward him, waiting for him to speak.
"Regretfully, the Royal Family must take their leave soon in preparation for tomorrow, though everyone is more than encouraged to remain and enjoy the food and festivities," Ozai said, causing a few drunk patrons to whoop in excitement. "However, we do have one last show for you...perhaps we should call forward the mysterious ladies that make up our competition?"
There was a grand pause. Zuko caught a few of the girls in the crowd; Yue was fidgeting, Toph was hissing something to Suki, and Mai - even under her mask - looked bored. He could not find Katara and almost kept searching until he pulled himself away.
"Oh, come now, the game is up," Ozai said. "Ladies, forward. You won't want to miss this."
As though pulled by strings, the remaining contestants came to the open circle of the gathering. While the identities were still a secret, they looked like they felt as though they were fully revealed and exposed and Zuko understood. His father had quite a way of manipulating those around him. He now saw Katara, protectively standing in front of girls like On Ji and Kilee, as though trying to shield them from Ozai's devious grin. He wondered if she even realized she was doing that.
His father motioned to a balcony and let the girls forward first, assuring the best seats in the house.
At that moment, Zuko was struck by a mixture of thoughts.
Firstly; he mourned. He mourned for the girls who could have been a fantastic Fire Lady in a different life, perhaps married to him or perhaps married to another, but would not win the fights tomorrow and would be sent home. He mourned for the girls he still wanted to learn more about, even just in a friendly way, that he'd be waving goodbye to. How many would return to unhappy households, or be married off immediately to someone who would treat them awfully, in the way Toph no doubt would be if she were to go home?
Secondly, he noticed a sense of kinship between the girls that he could not have guessed. Someone had gotten a whole bottle of champagne and, quietly, most of the girls joined hands in a long chain of solidarity. They stood shoulder to shoulder, passing that bottle around, giggling in each other's ears, and sharing whispers. Even Nadhari had her fingers linked in Maiha's, which shocked him to no end. He felt as though he was intruding at this moment. This moment was not about Ozai or the grand illusion he'd put on, it was about all of them, one last moment before everything changed tomorrow.
Letting girls go into a competition was no new event, but this? The fights? The circumstances were different and everyone knew it.
He tried to memorize this moment of the girls on the patio. There was such a sense of something he couldn't place that he longed to be able to be part of it, but he knew his inclusion would only be unwelcome. Avizeh tripped in her dress and Yue was there to catch her. On Ji was wearing a different mask than the one she'd arrived in, though he couldn't tell if it was a man or woman's mask. Toph was laughing at something Saoirse said; not a smirk or a chuckle, but a real laugh with a smile that he knew was seldom seen. Mai and Ty Lee were talking for possibly the first time in quite a long time, and he knew that Mai was a little tipsy, and therefore was probably smiling widely under her mask. Anaselma had her heels swung over her shoulder and as she went to sit on the stairs, she took half the line down with her.
It was something nearly unearthly to watch, as though he was catching glimpses of something he didn't deserve to see but was granted this gift all the same.
As the fireworks began, a brilliant exhibit of bright colors lighting the darkened sky for miles around, Zuko realized he hadn't even seen the array of fire in the sky. He was more interested to see that glimmer of happiness as the girls pushed their masks up and the muted gleam of the fireworks reflected upon their cheekbones and in their eyes.
The show might have lasted for moments, or maybe days. It felt apart from the normal existence of the world, somewhere between.
Aang bumped shoulders with him, passing him a glass of dark red wine. Zuko drank half of it in one gulp, hoping it would ease his nerves and put him to sleep easier tonight.
Soon, though probably longer than he thought since he was nearly finished with his glass of wine, the show was over. Zuko expected his father to say some more pretty but rather meaningless words, so he was only half-listening.
"Does the future Fire Lord have any concluding words?" Ozai asked, extending a hand. Zuko realized, belatedly, his father was talking about him. Caught off guard, he stumbled onto the dais as his mind whirled.
Yet, the moment he stood up there, and the moment he caught sight of Katara's wild and untamed hair - teased this way to look like a mane - he knew somewhere deep down what he wanted to say.
"To all you beautiful ladies, this all was for you," he said confidently, "And, to my future wife."
The entire crowd cheered and most of the contestants giggled and blushed, thinking that perhaps he was talking to them. And let them have their fantasy. He tried to catch Katara's face, or at least her mask, but she was shielded by a few other people.
But she had to know...didn't she? He was never surer of anything. It was not just a boyish, foolish, and stubborn hope. It was like knowledge placed in his mind. He knew that somehow, somewhere, he was going to marry that girl.
Even as the thought crossed through his mind, even as the words left his lips, he felt all floaty and light, like something overtook his body for a second. And he swore he saw their wedding, a vision of the future. Katara, blushing, standing on a dock near water. Himself, chin high. His mother, standing behind him. It was as clear as day.
Zuko closed his eyes, letting the sounds of the party wash away, hoping to stay in this vision just a second longer.
Notes:
I know a lot of people wanted to see Jealous Zuko in this chapter, and while that was my original plan, I thought that it would ruin the progress that Zutara was making in this scene. I imagine that Katara would be pretty annoyed that he was jealous, and not find it cute, and that would make more fighting. Plus, he's been busy the whole dance. I honestly don't think he would have noticed, or maybe he was off actually eating something during the time Lu Ten and Katara were dancing lol. I think that there's good potential in JealousZuko over Jet in the third book, but it just doesn't fit right now
The thing that Kat realized about what Bha was telling her was that she was singing a children's song about freedom, trees, and birds! If you go back and see, it fits fairly well into the ide of Smellebee and Freedom Fighters ;)
I've decided to hold a contest! Fights are next chapter. If anyone can guess correctly the outcomes of EVERYTHING you get a drabble. So, you have to tell me not only WHICH royal the girls will be fighting but WHO will be the winner; two things per girl!
As a reminder, each Royal will be fighting three girls. They are: Iroh, Lu Ten, Zuko, Aang, Ozai, and Azula
Here are the remaining girls:
Saoirse
Suki
Anaselma
Smellerbee
Katara
Mai
Avizeh
Caecilia
Kilee
Jin
Alcina
Maiha
Toph
Ty Lee
Yue
Nadhari
On Ji
RatanaHappy guessing! New chapter will be out around Sept 20th!
Chapter Text
Katara expected to feel anxious, or maybe a sense of resignation. What she didn't expect to feel was nothing at all, yet as Aiga and Katara walked to the room where she would dress for the fights, Katara searched her soul and found strangely few feelings on the entire matter.
That itself worried her, but she hardly had time to consider it.
The room, though it had only opened a minute ago, was already plagued with deep feelings. The heavy feelings seemed to vibrate off the girls, most of whom looked pale and scared.
"You are free to choose any clothing option to wear. Breakfast is through that door and the practice area is through there. You have an hour before the games start," Aiga recited to Katara, who stared unblinkingly around the space. "Err, you okay?" she asked.
"Uhm…" Katara tilted her head, "Hmm."
That wasn't much of an answer, she completely realized. Aiga pursed her lips, as though understanding more than Katara said, and shook her head.
"I'm going to get you a plate," she said.
Katara wandered over to the racks of clothes offered. Most were very lightweight and tight-fitting, exactly what someone would want to wear in a spar. Katara found some fresh wrappings and used a small curtained-off area to change. She elected for something close to what she'd wear to bed but tied tighter; Minimalistic, kept all her soft places tied town securely, and would not get in her way. She opted for a pair of linen shorts instead of a skirt. With a spare piece of leather, she caught her hair into an untidy pony and tied it up and out of her face.
Outside, in the seating area, it seemed all the girls had woken and arrived. Maiha was puking into a bucket.
Katara sat beside her, rubbing the girl's shoulder comfortingly while her handmaid tried to encourage Maiha to drink a glass of water.
"I'm...so...scared…" Maiha blubbered, "I don't want to be Fire Lady anymore!"
"Drop out, save yourself the heartburn," Avizeh said simply across the way. She was stuffing her face with much more food than Katara would suggest eating right before vigorous activity, and there was something in her hands. Katara thought it was a weapon for a moment before she realized it was an embroidery needle.
"What's that for?"
Avizeh looked down at the white cloth in her fingers.
"Well," she said, completely calm, "I'm not going to go out there and 'try my hardest' and still lose. I know my own limits. Might as well expedite it," she said, showing the corner of a surrender flag.
"Oh," Katara said, eyebrows knitting. She almost offered Avizeh some parting words, such as "I'll be sad to see you go" but didn't know if it would be true. She could appreciate the woman's simplicity about her departure, however.
"Here you are," Aiga said, handing Katara a plate of food that would give her energy throughout the day, not dissimilar to what warriors would eat before going off to battle. Katara wasn't hungry but forced herself to eat it anyway.
"I'll stay in my own clothes, thanks." Toph's voice caused Katara to turn. Toph was waving off the options with a dismissive hand.
"I don't know if it's fair to make a blind girl fight," Nadhari said, wrapping her fingers as she exited the changing area, loud enough for Toph to hear.
"I'm fine, thanks," Toph sneered.
"Oh, now you're concerned about disabled people?" Suki muttered.
"I'm just not sure how a blind person can lead anyone, except for off a cliff," Nadhari continued, "They should do the kind thing and cut her from the competition now before she's embarrassed out there."
"Ah, there it is." Suki rolled her eyes. "Ignore her," she said to Toph.
"It will be embarrassing," Toph spat, pushing past Suki, "But not for me, for whoever I fight! The fight will be over in a minute, tops."
"Wanna make it a bet?" Nadhari asked with a calculating grin.
"No!" Katara stood, intervening. "She has nothing to prove. Go bother someone else, great Tui."
"I coulda made some easy money off her," Toph said, pouting. "What gives?"
"Zuko probably wouldn't appreciate you robbing Nadhari's family blind," Aiga said, to which Toph gave a grumpy scowl. "Even if she deserves it," Aiga said in a low tone.
"Toph, eat an apple," Katara said before Toph repeated that loud enough to taunt Nadhari and got Aiga fired.
There was some commotion by the door. Katara turned to see the guards trying to shove someone into the hallway, barring them from the door.
"I'm just tryin' to see my baby sis!" Sokka argued, "You're really that heartless?"
Toph moved toward the door immediately, along with Katara and Suki.
"Women's room. Can't come in," Tahoe said sternly, narrowing his eyes at Sokka.
"I'll come out," Katara said with a calming smile to Tahoe. She stepped outside with Sokka and then led him down a different hall, out of the earshot of the curious eavesdroppers. "If you're here to get me to drop out right now, spirits, Sokka-"
"No! I mean, I think you should, but I know I'm not gonna change your mind. I have something for you."
Katara's frown vanished, replaced with surprise.
"Huh?"
"I sent a hawk to dad and explained it all, and I asked for this." Sokka opened the very nice bag he'd gotten from the Earth Kingdom and pulled out some tins. Katara opened it to see the ceremonial fighting paint. "If you're going to go out there, you might as well have the strength of a wolf."
"I don't…" Katara stared down, touched, "I don't know how to apply it right," she admitted. While she'd always been ready to spar anyone in her village that would take her on, Sokka had always been the one obsessed with the formal military practices of their people, including their war paint customs.
Sokka grinned. "But I do."
By the time he finished, Aiga was motioning that it was nearly time for the fights to begin. Katara turned to leave as Sokka was re-screwing the caps on the paint, but was caught by a strong grip. She turned and asked a half-question just as Sokka pulled her against him, hugging her near enough to cut off her air.
"Sokka!" she whined but didn't mean it.
"Don't be an idiot," Sokka said, "Now, I know your track record isn't great with that-"
"Hey!"
"But for the love of all things ice," Sokka continued, his teasing tone dropped, "Don't leave me without someone to tease, right?" His words covered up his true fear as he reached out, tugging on a stray strand of hair.
Katara searched for a reply but her throat was dry and time was closing upon them. Instead, she nodded firmly and Sokka stepped back, allowing her to rejoin the group.
"Sweet makeup," Suki said with a wink. In the time Katara had been gone, she'd donned her traditional Kyoshi attire.
Zhi led the group through the halls. They took the back halls and found themselves in one of the cool-off rooms of the arena. In a box was each of the girl's weapons, if it were something that could be held. Katara's knife and sword were gleaming, ready for her.
"I just want you all to know before this happens," Zhi said, but her throat caught. She used a fabric square to dab her eyes. "You are all worthy of being Fire Lady, damn what this fight says. It's unprecedented and unfair. I think that you all should be able to make your own case to Prince Zuko, but it's not up to me to decide such things. I don't want anyone who loses to feel as though they are not good enough."
Katara was truly touched by her words. While it seemed Zhi was always half a second from suffering a stress-induced stroke, part of it came from how deeply she did care for the girls and how much she did want them to succeed. She was a tough-love sort of mentor.
"Now," Zhi regained her composure, "For the fights, you are all allowed to watch if you so choose, or you may wait back here and practice or…" She paused. "Or do what you wish. A Fire Sage is randomly choosing the order for the Royal Family right now and- ah, here he is!" One of the Fire Sages, with his pointy cap, entered the room. "We will also be randomly choosing your order so that neither side knows who they are fighting until they go out there. The two girls going after the contestant currently fighting must be waiting on deck in here, as no one can guess how long a fight may or may not take. If you are not in line or you have already fought, you are free to go sit right up front or remain in here until the end of the fights. If you lose," The word seemed rough coming from her throat, "You will be dismissed after a celebratory dinner tonight. Do we have any questions?"
The room was deathly still. Zhi nodded to herself and raised a bag of clinking metal. She held it up and the Fire Sage reached into it.
"Wait! Do you already know the order on the other side?" Caecillia asked accusingly.
"No, Lady Caecillia," the sage replied, "They are choosing as we speak. This is truly a fair, random match-up."
"He's tellin' the truth," Toph confirmed, and for all that did believe her, most it seemed, it settled the nerves of the room. The sage picked out the first girl, grasping the metal coins that Katara had helped design.
"Lady Saoirse will go first."
Down the line, next to Kilee, Saoirse fainted upon hearing this. Zhi leaped over, waving a tiny fan over her face as Yue nervously moved her to a sitting position. Katara swallowed hard. Sure, everyone knew they'd be fighting at one point today, but first? Well, as confident as she was in her own skills, Katara was glad she was not first. She also hoped she wasn't last. A nice middle of the road position would suit her just fine.
She was picked fifth, which was earlier than she would have preferred, but at least she was going to get it out of the way. Suki was second, but she hardly seemed fazed. She just glanced back at Saoirse as though wondering if the girl would even be awake for her fight. Toph was near the end, right before Ty Lee.
The absolute last would be Ratana and Katara couldn't tell if she was happy about this or not.
As the line of girls went through a side door to sit down, Toph waited for Katara.
"I think I'm gonna just chill back here," Katara shrugged, "I'd have to come back here after Suki's fight anyway." The next-in-line had to wait at the edge of the arena hall, and the girl in-the-hole had to be in the backroom. It seemed like a better use of her time to practice back here with the weapon she had the least skill with... her dagger.
"Worried?" she asked Suki, who leaned against the pillar leading to the arena, watching a shaking Saoirse drag her weapons out and drop her knife on the way.
"Nah," Suki said. "It seems a bit silly, all of this. I just want to get it done. I'm not a show for anyone, not unless I want it to be." She was checking her fans as she spoke, flipping them and trailing her finger along the edges.
Katara had to agree.
She went to the back space where there were some feather-stuffed dummies waiting. She picked up her knife from her box, weighing it in her hand. She heard Ozai speaking into a microphone and welcoming everyone. Lots of purple prose, something about honor, something about courage, lots of bullshit. The clapping that followed was deafening. The arena must be completely packed to the brim, Katara realized. This did send her stomach into a weird curl.
The announcer's voice was booming enough so that as Katara flicked her knife, she could hear the announcement that Saoirse would be going up against Kuzon. She tried to get her throws right, but she wasn't sure if she was just bad with her aim or if her heart wasn't in the practice. By the time that they announced Kuzon as the winner - maybe about ten minutes later (and, it was incredible Saoirse held on that long), Katara abandoned her practice.
Anasemla was after Suki and Katara trotted over to the entrance, hoping maybe she could catch a glimpse of Suki's fight. She was sure it would be entertaining. Anaselma was blocking most of the way, frustratingly.
Saoirse stumbled back into the area, head held high and limping. Her lip was split and her hair was in disarray. It wasn't until she was in the safety of the white room that she broke down crying.
Just like that, there was one less girl who was in the competition.
"'Luck," Katara said softly to Suki as Zhi motioned for her to come out, after a two-minute break in which a pair of earthbenders cleaned and reset the arena stage.
There were two ways a girl would be deemed unworthy. She would be rendered unable to fight by being knocked unconscious, or she could choose to take herself out, which is what Katara assumed Saoirse did. Saoirse's handmaid rushed around the glum girl, trying to patch her face.
There were two ways a girl could be deemed worthy. A Royal Family member could decide at any point that the contestant showed it through their fight, or (so as not to drag out the whole day) if a contestant and a Royal Family member were locked in a stalemate where neither were budging past half-an-hour, the lady would be declared the 'winner' and allowed to remain. With such seasoned warriors in the Royal Family, Katara doubted it would ever come to that.
Suki was set to face Azula, and there were murmurs in the crowd. Every Royal Family member was intimidating in their own way, but people seemed to feel the static about this match-up. It was probably the most interesting thing they had seen in a long time. Though Katara's view was cut off and she couldn't see more than a tiny square of the action, she could see that neither girl took long to leap into the fray.
There was lots of dust kicked up. Katara was regretting not sitting up front for this show. Everyone in back edged closer and closer, hoping to see what was going on.
The crowd reacted in waves that seemed tied to a flicker of something through the dust. There were grand 'oohs' and 'ahhs' and gasps as Katara caught the whip of a fan slicing through the air, a burst of a flame so warm Katara could feel hints of the heat far in the back, or an arm or leg or half of a body skidding before they got back up again; Suki and Azula seemed to be falling equally as often to the other, but neither were budging out of the competition.
Even with almost no way to truly see what was going on, Katara was captivated. So were the others in the back; Anaselma edged forward in interest, Smellerbee frowned, and Saoirse tried not to look as curious as she was, but it was hard to resist.
At one point, there was a loud thud followed by a moan Katara knew to be Suki, and she inhaled sharply, "Oh, come on, Su…"
Katara didn't think she could stand the palace if Suki went, even if she was in direct competition with her. Luckily, she saw Suki's foot standing up and standing strong and said a prayer of thanks.
Her original theory about the time and length of the fight was shot out of the water pretty quickly. Katara was so engrossed that she startled when she heard the announcer's voice cut through the noise.
"We have reached the half-an-hour mark. By the decree of the Fire Sages, Lady Suki is deemed worthy!"
The crowd yelled and clapped. As the dust settled around them, Katara watched as Azula raised her chin, refusing a hand or any sort of congratulations. Suki was beaming and could hardly be bothered as she returned into the cool-off area, smile as bright as the North Star.
"Oh my gosh, that was so fun!" Suki said as she grabbed a glass of water. Her makeup was nearly wiped clean away, and in the places it wasn't, the white was now a dirty brown. "It reminded me of sparring with you. Course, I would have loved to beat her truly, but she's tougher than I expected."
"Lady Suki, you can wash off now if you want," Suki's handmaid offered. Suki hugged Katara.
"I'll try to be fast to see your fight."
"If you aren't, any advice?" Katara asked a bit overwhelmed. Katara was just now realizing, as Suki had made this seem like a cake-walk or a fun afternoon activity, the differences between the pair of them. Suki had been training as an official warrior her whole life. Katara had her own will-power and a few lessons from a master, but could she really beat a seasoned bender? Especially since it was outside of a full moon. Would her choice be made by the trial of circumstance?
"Keep away from walls. Don't let whoever you fight back you into a wall."
By the time Suki left her, Anaselma's fight had already begun, against General Iroh. Katara had only seen Anaselma fight a few times. She knew her to be steady in her practice, and some said she had true talent.
This fight was much less dusty. Though Katara could still only see a small fraction of the fights, it was clear from the start that Anaselma was indeed a good earthbender. Not like Toph, but still quite seasoned. She was steadfast and slow-moving, methodical. Unmoveable, like earth. Katara at first thought she might actually win. Earth against fire was a toss-up; it was anyone's game. They were not a weakness when played against each other, but the opposite of that was not a strength, just a solid imbalance.
Then, Anaselma began to be pushed back against a wall, just like Suki had warned. At first, Katara couldn't understand how steadily this had been happening, until she caught sight of Iroh. If anyone was going to be good at responding with patience and deliberate moves, it was certainly him. That wasn't what was giving him the upper hand; no, what cued Katara into what he was doing, as she caught Aang's confused expression across the arena, was the realization that he was using a movement she'd never seen a firebender do.
And that's when it hit her; the way he was swirling the flames and heating the area was not a firebending move, it was an airbending move. Katara had only seen Aang bend air a few times, but she recognized the way he used his fingers instead of fists and his body instead of his toes.
She and Aang likely had a similar, stupefied expression that translated to the same idea: how in the name of the spirit world did Iroh know any airbending moves?
It was a good tactic. Just as fire's adversary was water, earthbending - which was tied to the ground - was pitted against air. And, when it came down to one element duking out the other, it was now about who could use it better.
This was Iroh, hands down.
Anaselma was a good earthbender, but she'd only ever had to fight against firebenders and other earthbenders. Though Iroh was pressing fire from his hands, Anaselma was completely unprepared to face his forms, and she was struggling.
It wasn't until she was at the back of the wall, directly across from the entrance to the competitor's locker room, that she waved a hand.
"I yield! I yield!"
Iroh would have never hurt her, no, but she clearly realized she was in too deep over her head to fight him. Iroh helped her up, and though he had a shade of sorrow on his face, he did not seem terribly sad about the fact that she would be leaving.
At least Saoirse managed to hold her composure until she was back in the safety of the room, whereas Anaselma was leaking tears before she got half-way across the arena.
"You did really well," Smellerbee tried to compliment her.
"Not well enough," Anasemla said, going sadly toward the showers.
Smellerbee realized that it was now her turn. The small girl was nervous, chewing on her lip. She turned, looking for some sort of encouragement, but the girls left were Katara and now Mai, who was going after. Katara didn't know her well enough and wasn't too pleased with her all things considered, and Katara doubted Mai would ever give out any sort of soft assurances.
"I hope it's Ozai," Smellerbee said, just before she walked out, just loud enough for Katara to hear.
"Don't be stupid," Katara spat under her breath.
"I need to fix it."
It would be suicide to murder Ozai at the fights, and that was if she could even get close enough to do the job. But perhaps Smellebee realized this. Perhaps she wanted it. You did really idiotic things when you wanted to show your worth to someone.
"Lady Besu versus Prince Lu Ten!"
Katara sighed in relief. There would be no Fire Lord killings today.
"What did that mean?" Mai asked, startling Katara.
"Huh?"
"That exchange." Mai didn't miss a thing, and certainly not this. "Should there be a reason for concern?" Her voice was completely monotone, but for some reason, Katara had the idea that she actually did care.
"I don't think so," Katara said, speaking truthfully. No, the Freedom Fighters weren't harmless. The foiled smuggling of the poison had proven that. However, she got the idea that Jet was the brains of the operation. Smellerbee might try something, but Katara doubted she'd get to the finish line before she flubbed and got caught.
Katara, closer to the front, had a slightly better vantage this time. Smellerbee was like a little hog-monkey, running up the sides of the arena, using them to her benefit instead of a trap she didn't want to be caught in. Katara wondered if she'd heard Suki's advice and changed her plans, or if this was her tactic all along?
She was impossible to catch, so unrefined. The way she lashed out was something Katara recognized; raw and unfettered, the likes of someone who had never been properly trained or had been raised by nature. Lu Ten, who was his father's patience and his military's rigidness, didn't know how to respond to her. He was trying, but whenever he shot fire at her, she was already three steps (or leaps) ahead, and it was near impossible to gauge where she'd be next. For the most part, she stayed far away from Lu Ten, at least a yard between them.
It became clear to Katara, and likely to Lu Ten, that she was trying to spin and disorient him. He managed to catch her with a burn as he spun and she momentarily dropped and hit the ground, though she managed to roll.
With the momentum of her fall, she stretched her arm out, trying to slice Lu Ten's ankles with her knife. At first, it seemed like she'd missed, as Lu Ten easily avoided it. The true deception was clear a second later when she caught him by the legs. Already off-balance from avoiding the swishing blade, he tumbled to the ground. Smellerbee acted like she was going for his chest plate, causing him to try to push the knife from his most precious organs, but at the last second, the knife sank into the dirt, showing she was never going for that place.
But, once again, it had been carefully spun. With his hands otherwise preoccupied, he was unable to catch himself or fall gracefully. His chin hit the arena floor with a crack that echoed. Smellerbee darted back, knife out, waiting. Katara held her breath, heart hammering.
With a low groan, Lu Ten cracked an eye open. He rubbed his jaw, wincing.
"Great gods; she's good," he said, waving a hand off, "She passes."
Smellerbee hesitated, as though expecting him to come rushing at her at the last second. How awful to always expect the other person to be playing some elaborate game. However, Smellbee had been playing a bit dirty, so no doubt that was what she'd been taught. Katara doubted the Freedom Fighters had ever waged a fair war in their life.
It wasn't until the earthbenders came out to clear the area that Smellerbee realized she truly had won the match. She ran back into the locker room, flexing her fingers as she dropped her knife.
"Spirits, I think you broke his jaw," Avizeh sputtered to Smellerbee, "Oh, you'd better hope you didn't. Can you imagine how furious the Royals would be?"
"They knew what they were getting into," Mai said calmly. "It was impressive." She gave a swift nod to Smellerbee. "I doubt Lu Ten expected to be bested by a skinny little thing like you." It was almost a compliment.
As Katara turned, she realized with a stab of panic that she was up next. Her whole body felt like it was made of ice, completely fragile.
She forced herself to walk out into the arena. As she came to the crowd, she was overcome by how many people were shoved in there. It was almost nauseating. She faintly heard some cheers louder than others. She turned to see Sokka on his feet in the stands, whooping and wolf-whistling. Arrluck was standing too and clapping. Hama and Pakku were seated not far away. Pakku gave her what perhaps was a smile, though it was hard to tell from so far away. Hama just narrowed her eyes in interest.
Katara felt for her two physical weapons. The second thing she registered was...there were no water barrels set up in the arena. And there were no movements that anyone was going to place them there.
She wanted to scream. They'd been told specifically by the Fire Sages that, just as their weapons were restricted in number, they were not allowed to bring aids to their bending skills. Toph had sputtered and cussed that she couldn't bring a ball of metal to ping-pong off someone's forehead but figured she could find metal elsewhere in the arena.
Katara had assumed this was a precaution so she couldn't bring like, liquid poison or something in. She didn't think that Ozai would so obviously be trying to cut her off at her ankles, but since she had not been allowed to bring her water skin in, she was without waterbending at all as it seemed currently. And she wanted to really punch someone in regards to this clear disadvantage; firebenders brought fire from their hands, earthbenders had the stage...waterbenders were clearly the odd one out.
"Goddamn you, Ozai," Katara hissed to herself. He had to make this difficult, huh?
Even before her opponent entered the arena, Katara could tell from the shadow of the silhouette that she had a dance with the devil again.
In the background, she caught the expressions of the rest of the Royal Family. Iroh and Aang looked deeply concerned, Lu Ten was glaring as he placed a pack of ice to his face, Ozai was expressionless, and Zuko met her gaze.
Be safe, he mouthed.
It was a fair warning and a plea because she knew for sure that Azula was not going to go easy on her.
"Princess Katara verses Princess Azula!"
She had to think fast. She swung her head around and caught Toph trying to goad Suki, who had just returned - hair still wet from her shower - into lowering her over the safety railing of their front-row arena seats so Toph could press her hands against the walls, and in essence, 'see' the upcoming fight. At the corner of her vision was Hama.
For the briefest of seconds, Katara almost felt pressured to fuck their rules and terrify everyone by bloodbending. She wanted to be shown she was no fool without a water bucket and puppet Azula around like she deserved; she almost thought her anger alone would be enough power to do so. Hama was watching Katara; it was what the older lady clearly wanted her protege to do and as much as Katara was teetering on the edge of it...
She looked at Iroh and Lu Ten. At Zuko. She'd be thrown out. She'd be told she was a monster. She'd lose everything if she could even muster the power to bend without the moon. She had to figure something else out.
She would take Hama's advice, however; be like the water. Adapt.
She had no water tubs and did not have her water skin. It would take far too long to work up a usable sweat, and against Azula, Katara did not feel confident about going in with just a knife and a sword.
So, she did possibly the most undignified and disgusting thing she could have done, but hey, it worked.
She collected saliva in her mouth and spit into her hand. Half the crowd responded with cheers, the other half looked horrified. Hama was not quite smiling; she was probably thinking there was so much blood around that it was silly to use this, but Katara would not. Pakku was...pleased looking?
She did not have any more time to consider her options. Azula came running at her, full force and spun a half-arc of fire right down where Katara had been standing a second before.
Katara had to keep her wits about her.
The crowd around them faded from her consciousness. There was enough to keep focused on here. The world around the pair seemed to move away; the noise, the number of spectators, their responses...it all was far away and vague like someone had muted them.
Katara used her spit to form little ice disks and sent them careening toward Azula. She knew that running around would dry up her throat quickly, but for now, she had to use what she had.
Azula blocked each disk like she was batting away a fly, evaporating them before they even got close enough to hurt. It was enough to keep Azula on defense for a bit, however, and kept her from advancing toward Katara, while Katara parried away and danced a sort of warrior's jig with Azula. Every time Azula stepped forward, Katara stepped back and left, or back and right. She was careful to stay at least a foot away from the walls.
It was exhausting.
Katara could not decide how much time had passed, but it felt like eons. Unlike if she were fighting Lu Ten or Iroh, in which case she would know this was more of a show, she was not unconvinced that Azula wouldn't be trying for-kill shots. Some of the barrels of fire that Katara leaped out of the way from seemed to uphold this theory, and she felt a growing sense of panic.
If she were smarter, she'd yield.
Katara laughed bitterly to herself; no, she wasn't that smart and she was far too stubborn.
By the time Azula had clearly grown tired of their back and forth, Katara had worked up enough of a sweat to pull from her body. As the fire gleamed against Azula's face, Katara saw a sheen of sweat on her, too. She knew that firebenders did not burn themselves, but they were not unaffected by the heat near their face, warming their bodies.
Azula was sweating up a storm. And Katara, who was dangerously low on water-sources, was not going to be picky where liquid came from.
Katara pulled forward, picking up the individual beads of sweat from Azula's skin, bringing a ball of water out from in front of the Fire Princess's eyes. Azula was so shocked and almost offended for a second that Katara got the upper-hand for the scariest second. She slid the water down into a slippery slope, turning the space below into pure ice and Azula skidded, almost losing her balance. Recalling how Smellerbee had used this moment to her advantage, Katara threw a couple more ice-daggers Azula's way.
A burst of fire exploded from Azula's hands, melting the water beneath her and evaporating the daggers.
"Now, Princesses," she said in a cruel tone, "You've made me angry."
"You weren't before?" Katara asked, confused, and unsure.
"I consistently underestimate you," Azula confirmed, which was startling to hear, and Katara did not believe it for a second. Azula was just trying to get her to under-use her powers, Katara was sure, buttering her up with empty words.
Katara spied the water underneath Azula's feet, and instead of trying to summon the water from the ground, she instead took more sweat from her own body and tried to mix the earth and water more together. No, she could not control the earth, but she could control how the water moved through the earth.
The ground beneath Azula's feet collapsed. She buckled, yelping at the unexpected loss of footing. She threw out a fire dagger at Katara, which just brushed across her bare shoulder. It would have broiled her skin had it made contact, and as it was, she was sure she would have the equivalent of sunburn there.
Katara pulled the water up, sealing Azula's foot in the earth and encasing the rest of her leg in an ice-block, rendering her basically one-legged.
As Azula yanked her leg, steam billowing from her nose as she furiously exhaled, Katara ran at her with her sword.
Azula defended all the while incapacitated, showing her true skills. She was magnificent, Katara realized. She'd never really seen Azula fight before, but she was just as good up-close as she was far away. And, to be frank, Katara was worse the closer she got. Waterbending was best fought a mile across the way. It wasn't exactly a contact sport.
It was fleeting, but Katara was sure she was going to win. She thought the timer would run up or Azula would admit defeat, unable to get her leg completely free and having cracked it a strange angle in their hand-to-hand combat.
Katara was just about to press the sharp side of the knife to Azula's neck and demand that she announced Katara as the winner when Azula did something unexpected. Azula grasped Katara's neck, she put heat on it, and she tightened her grip.
Katara could have still won. She could have ignored this fear and pressed on. It was a shaky hold at best, Azula not quite able to get the angle right, and all it would have taken was one firm movement for Azula's grip to undoubtedly detach, but Katara was not herself. She was in the body of her life a thousand years ago. That old soldier who killed the Painted Lady had grasped her neck in such a similar way and shook her like a ragdoll, and for a moment, all Katara could see was death. She could smell it, the way it curled up around her as she recalled how her life had drained away.
She fell backward, breaking their grip, her knife falling. Azula grasped the knife and used it to free herself, hacking away at the ice and the earth to break her leg to the surface. She glanced at it and snorted before throwing it far across the arena. She did a motion that Katara didn't recognize, started to extend two fingers on each hand out, but then paused.
"Do you yield to me, savage?" she asked, examining Katara with a sense of curiousness. Even the slur word seemed not to hold as much meaning behind it as it should have like she was just repeating the words mechanically. Katara tried to pull herself from her own past, breathing in hard despite how her throat felt sore, but she was hit with a wave upon wave of memory.
"Are you going to give me what I want, whore?" the Fire Nation guard asked, slapping the Painted Lady's human face. Katara felt the burn of it, the feel of the fire as it sliced across her skin, leaving a red angry mark.
"Never. Not to you, akuma," Katara responded with just as much venom as that guard had asked her, lives and lives ago.
Katara processed her own words a second later. She wasn't sure what 'akuma' meant, but it had been pulled from some murky part of her being. Even if Katara didn't know it, Azula did, from the nearly imperceptible gleam of surprise that flashed across her golden eyes. Then, Azula seemed to come to a decision, something that settled on her face.
Katara inhaled, closing her eyes, and waited for the inevitable. Perhaps it would be all warm and hot, and it would be agonizing. Perhaps it would feel like nothing.
She fully expected Azula to say something in her clipped tone and do something awful, but instead, Azula dropped her hands. She blinked three times and time stood still.
"She can pass," Azula said, almost lazily, as though making a choice about what color to paint her bedroom.
Katara nearly did not believe it. Out of all the very unexpected turns that this fight could have taken, Azula giving up seemed impossible. She spun and saw Zuko staring at Azula with his jaw dropped, scrutinizing her with such a look of distrust that she knew she was right to think this had to be a ploy.
Instead, Azula waltzed by Katara, leaving her in the dirt, and leaving the victory to seem hollow.
Chapter 30
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Aiga rushed out, grasping Katara up by her arms and nearly pulling her off the arena stage.
"You did it!"
"Did I?" Katara asked, unsure, "She just…"
"The Princess is an enigma and it's no use trying to reason with it. But, I doubt she would have let just anyone go on, you know that very well."
"I'm not sure she just 'let me go'," Katara said. "She always has a plan and Azula always lies."
"You need to shower," Aiga said, furrowing her brows, neither confirming nor denying what Katara had just stated.
"But-"
"Katara, you smell like a bad campfire and you're dirty. Shower," Aiga said firmly, shoving her into the bathroom.
Katara grumpily undressed. She caught sight of her face in the mirror. The paint on her face was smudged and wetted from her own perspiration. Blinking, she saw her past face in the mirror. Like a woman possessed, she dragged her fingers over the paint, pulling the color off with little lines like her spirit's ensemble.
The modern Painted Lady.
The Dark Water Spirit's voice echoed...
Running out the same circles...same paths...same...
As Katara heard the call of the announcer, she could not discern who Mai was fighting, but she did realize that she was a bit hungry and very curious to see the rest of the fights. It wasn't really until she was scrubbing at her skin that she laughed.
She was still in the competition. She wasn't going home, not today.
Maybe she and Zuko would have the time to fix things?
By the time she took a seat next to Suki and Toph, Mai's fight was already over. Katara was not surprised; once she let go of her anxiety and worry and let herself enjoy the warm water, she had lathered herself in the soap a bit longer than she probably needed to. Aiga sat behind Katara, as the other handmaids did with their respective ladies, and she tapped Katara's shoulder.
"Ooh, fantastic," Katara said as Aiga passed her a glass of juice and a bowl of rice.
"Mai won, shocker." Toph rolled her eyes.
"Against…?"
"Ozai," Suki said, which was a total surprise to Katara. She had been sure anyone who would go up against him would be sure to lose. Suki nodded, "I know, right? I mean, Ozai doesn't seem happy about anything, but he seemed to enjoy the fight against Mai. It was a little dirty - ew, not in that way-" she added with Toph snorted. "Like, they both seemed to be fine with bending usual sparring rules. I mean, I guess Mai grew up around Ozai. She knows his faults pretty well. Went the half-hour, like mine," Suki said.
"I'm sort of sad I missed that." Katara blinked.
"It was a sight. But yours! You spit in your hands!" Toph seemed ecstatic. "My little rebel heart has never been so happy! I think a dignitary over there nearly fainted when ya did that. You showed them!"
"What happened at the end?" Suki asked. Katara touched her neck gingerly. There probably wouldn't be a lasting scar, just a few days of irritation if anything. Not like her hands, which were still leathery from the first ball.
"I don't want to talk about it," Katara said, struggling to breathe a bit.
"Fair," Suki said and Toph pouted a bit.
The next contestant after Mai was Avizeh, who was set against Lu Ten. As she walked out, Suki's ex stood up and waved his arms like they weren't connected to his body and had been caught in a sudden wind. While there was polite clapping, this dude was just...overly excited.
"Oh, great," Suki groaned. "Someone catch-" She started to yell toward his section as he foamed profusely at the mouth and then promptly fainted. "-him."
"What just happened?" Toph asked, frowning.
"He foamed at the mouth like...a lot and dropped like a rock," Katara said, ignoring the surly glance Suki sent her way.
"Kinky. Did he do that in bed?" Toph asked.
Avizeh blew a kiss toward his section, winking. She would probably enjoy this sort of attention, Katara considered.
The announcer had hardly called the beginning of the fight before Avizeh was dramatically waving her white flag.
Fastest fight so far.
"Uhm...Lu Ten wins?" Even the announcer seemed unsure.
As Avizeh walked away, head held high and zero sense of regret to her actions, Katara hummed in thought. Katara had previously thought of Avizeh as cowardly to not even try, but there was some strength in knowing your limits and going out in a way people would remember.
"Three out, four in?" Katara counted off. "Wow, girls are really dropping fast." Considering it had felt like eons since someone had been cut from the competition, even three going home - and likely more before the day was up - would be an abrupt shake-up of the palace.
Caecillia came out next; she was holding her body taut. Everything about her seemed pulled-back and stern-looking. Her hair was slicked into a bun, her clothes were reminiscent of a Fire Nation military uniform, and her chin was held high. Before her contender walked out, she bowed to Ursa, sitting in the place of Fire Nation Royalty. Then, she turned, bowing to someone else in the crowd. Katara followed her gaze and found what she assumed to be Cillia's family. There was her mother, her father, a brother or a cousin, and a woman that could be an aunt or a grandma. They were all sitting stoically, frowning. There were no warm calls or encouragement. They were wearing worn finery. It reminded Katara of Ratana's parents; though there was an important distinction. Ratana's mother and father wore the remains of nicer things because they cared more about their people. Cillia's parents were desperately hanging onto a thread of connection to the Royal Family, even if those styles had gone out when Aang was born. They looked like a knock-off version of the Royal Family, or a family that a circus manager might hire to pass off as Zuko and his kin.
"Can't be all Fire Nation, or else how'd their hair get so auburn?" Maiha whispered to Kilee.
"Probably best," Yue broke in, "Inbreeding and all."
Cillia was facing Aang, who walked out and tugged nervously on both his bandana and fingerless gloves. Katara bit her lip. Beside her, Toph lessened her jibes too, stiffening at Aang's name announced overhead. While he'd been parading around with the Royal Family for years, that hardly meant that this was a good idea. In fact, this could be catastrophic.
Sure he'd fought one fight with Saoirse, but there hadn't been much of a chance Saoirse could win, or reveal something accidentally. There was no telling with someone much more seasoned, like Cillia.
Their fight was surely interesting. Katara had never seen the Fire Nation Militia in proper formation, but she had to assume it was close to what Cillia was exhibiting. She was reserved and methodical, brutally so, almost like Lu Ten had been fighting. Aang was no master in Fire Nation form. He was trying hard not to make his technique seem like airbending moves as Iroh had done, and he was the least trained in the military-style, despite his short stint in classes.
Katara had thought that Aang may have the upper-hand, being that his element was one of change. The winds changed as the tide did; a fire was more aggressive, harder to move once it began, but there was strength in Cillia's way. It was like they were both running a race. Cillia was so steadfast that it seemed silly that she would not win out, not compared to Aang who was just trying to keep his head above water.
Or, rather, he was trying not to fight her too hard. He was entirely on defense, only batting away Cilla's attacks and doing less to fight against her. If someone walked in unaware of the entire purpose of the fights, they may think Aang was the one who had something to prove and Cillia was the 'master'.
Katara wondered if this would drag into another half-an-hour fight. Cillia was starting to show signs of faltering and exhaustion. A stray sprig of ginger hair came from her tightly coiled bun.
From the stands, Katara saw her father scowl. Cillia did not miss this either and seemed even more determined to end it.
They had to be nearing the end of this fight. Aang ducked from a fire-flare, brushing past Cillia as he aimed just at her feet. Cillia grappled forward, grabbing Aang's headband as she fell, tugging it. Not enough to take it with her, but enough so that both fell into the ground.
"She's good, she's worthy!" Aang said from the ground so quickly. Katara wondered if, in the applause for Cillia, anyone noticed how hard Aang was breathing, harder than someone who had been dancing away from the fight compared to someone giving it their all. He was low to the ground and did not move an inch until his headband was tied tightly back onto his head.
As he lifted his gaze, catching Katara across the arena, they both felt how close that could have been to a truly terrible reveal.
"Good match," Cillia said, offering a hand to Aang to help him stand.
"Uhm, yeah." Aang was distracted. "You really got me there."
Cillia looked about to say something else, perhaps express her confusion over the end of it, but she was being encouraged out of the arena. Plus, Aang turned and hurried back to where Zuko stood rigid in the shadow of their side of the arena.
Katara felt her interest lag a bit. In all honesty, she watched the next couple fights with only a hint of her attention, otherwise, she was listening in to Toph, who was grumping.
"Ozai finally decides to do an event that I would like, ya know, and I can't even watch it? I'm pretty sure that's discrimination right there," she said to Suki and Smellerbee. "Because you all suck at describing things. None of you should ever consider publishing any written work. It would be awful."
Ozai was up against Kilee next. It was truly cruel, and Kilee seemed to realize that this wasn't going to end well. It was quick, mercifully.
The fight was maybe four minutes (longer than Katara anticipated, honestly) but a lot of it was Kilee running around like a mouse in the arena, trying to avoid Ozai, who was not letting up an inch despite the fact that this girl was clearly no warrior. It was finally when his flames burned her ankle that she broke down crying, tapping herself out of the competition.
Some in the crowd seemed to like the practically sociopathic way Ozai had toyed with her, some looked disgusted with his games. Either way, Ozai didn't acknowledge anyone and walked back with his head held high as though he'd just won a great war.
The next fight was Zuko against Jin. Katara was interested solely because this was Zuko's first fight of the day, but she cared less if Jin was leaving or staying.
She wondered what Zuko was going to do. At least, from the last time they'd discussed his opinions of the girls, Katara knew that he cared a great deal for Jin. Katara thought she was nice but couldn't see it, but still, Zuko had a soft spot for her, more than a brotherly feeling.
It was one thing for Aang to sort of edge along and not really try to kick a girl out, but would Zuko have to be as sadistic as his father for Ozai to not claim that Zuko was trying to sway the outcome to how he liked? Could he go soft on Jin at all without being told he wasn't fighting fair? Perhaps it was wrong to ask Zuko to even participate; this event was already so out of his hands that perhaps the kind thing would be to remove any sense of control of it.
And Katara could see his inner conflict. It was clear as he faced her, his eyes softening and his fingers twitching. Jin gave him a sad smile, one that said wordlessly that she knew how this would go.
It felt worse. Maybe there was something to her that Katara had missed, something gracious and soft-spoken. And, if Zuko had such high opinions of her, perhaps she was more like Katara than she'd realized. Or maybe Jin was everything Katara wasn't and that's why Zuko liked her so?
He was kind about it, at the very least. Even though he could not go 'easy' on her - and Katara did know that he was trying hard not to flub his fight with her - he was gentle. He allowed her a fighting chance, but there hadn't been much hope to begin with.
As Jin accepted the fact that she couldn't beat Zuko and rescinded her place in the competition, there was a heavy sadness that clung to Zuko's shoulders. Even as Katara was someone who felt strong things for him, she couldn't help but feel his sorrow too. She certainly felt like she had no greater right to be here compared to Jin, but Katara was staying and Jin was not.
And sometimes, most obvious right now, life was not fair.
Alcina was up next, and Katara wondered if her choice to wear orange and yellow and pastel beige was specific. Even so, she was up against Iroh and Katara was truly curious to see how the famed Dragon of the West fought, now that she could properly see the fight.
Iroh came close to Alcina, bowing. She saw his lips move, but couldn't tell what he said. Alcina seemed confused but the announcer rang his bell and neither Alcina nor Katara had time to wonder about those passed words.
It was grueling, but not in a horrific way. It was the sort of fight where Katara could tell that Iroh had an incredible handle on his own powers, and to a greater extent, on Alcina's too. It would seem silly that someone could control the powers of another, but yet Iroh was doing so in the way that he pushed her...pushed her harder than perhaps she'd been pushed to fight in her life (and Katara could tell by the sweat dripping from her face and the way she panted) but he also was not giving her anything she could not handle.
It was a line between too much and just enough that Katara still needed to learn. She had often forced herself into workouts or practice sessions too hard for her own body and felt the effects later, either by fainting or spending the next three days feeling like her body was on fire in a really bad way, not the good sort of burn.
Whenever Katara was sure that it was going to be over and Alcina seemed ready to tap out, Iroh let up. He gave her a second to breathe or allowed her to gain a minor edge, one that Katara knew had to be fake. There was no way someone like Iroh was letting Alcina get the drop on him.
Whereas it had seemed he had been making an effort to fight a true fight against Anaselma, this fight was different. If anything, Katara would say that it was similar to Aang's - he wasn't trying to win. Sure, he was doing a better job of masking it, but if he actually wanted...this fight could have been over a long time ago.
Alcina never let up. She was determined, Katara knew this, but even Katara was unsure if she could take the constant battling of wills.
Iroh let the timer run to thirty. Katara was absolutely sure of this, and when Alcina was allowed to pass, she of course seemed pleased, but still shaken.
Of course, after she returned to the stands, all the girls were toppling over her to ask what Iroh had said to her.
"Iroh didn't say anything to me," Anaselma pouted.
"It was really nothing," Alcina said, "He just wished me luck."
Most of the girls accepted this. Katara, Suki, and interestingly, Nadhari all seemed dubious of her claims, but no one could bother her about it now. Toph bit out a frustrated sigh; they were sitting on wood, and therefore she could not tell Katara if Alcina was lying or not.
There had to be more to it, though, right?
Katara hoped that they had a good enough friendship that perhaps Alcina would share with her later.
Maiha was up next against Ozai. Katara felt like the Fire Sages were going out of their way to pair Ozai with the two most pitiful fighters, though apparently, it was random. Maiha didn't even make it out to the arena. She had just made it past the shadow of the tunnel, saw her opponent, and that was it.
She barfed right there and fainted.
Maiha was declared to be out.
Ozai did look a tad put off. He'd probably hoped to have been up against better opponents like Mai had been. It was some cosmic justice that he was forced to go up against two girls who wouldn't let him really fight, not in any satisfying way. Sure, he could toy with them, but only so much.
"How many is that now? I'm losing count...that hall's gonna feel empty," Smellerbee said, and there was a hint of sadness there. Maybe even Smellerbee had become accustomed to the sisterly feel of all the girls together. Maybe she was clinging to this other sense of community, now that Jet had kicked her out of the freedom fighters. There were quite a few that would be leaving tomorrow…
This meant that Katara and Zuko would be closer to having to really fix their issues and decide how to move forward.
"Hey Kat!"
Katara turned and saw that Sokka had found a seat right next to the contestants' row. He was holding up what looked like some sort of jerky, and Katara went to sit next to him.
"Some fights, eh? Thought I should get a good view of Toph's fight. I was hoping she'd fight Ozai, ya know, really show that asshole," Sokka said with a punching motion.
"I think she was hoping, too. Maybe she'll get Azula. That would be fun too," Katara pointed out. If there was one person who could really and honestly mess up one of the Royal Family members, it would be Toph. She was, perhaps tied with Suki, the best fighter. Katara really thought this. She could acknowledge too that Mai was terrifying, but Suki was trained to do this and Toph? Toph was just a force of nature, honest to Tui.
Toph looked pleased to be on dirt, finally. She figured out who she was fighting before the announcer even said it out loud.
"Twinkletoes!" she cried out, whooping and she slapped her hands together and rubbed them deviously. "You ready to eat dirt?"
"Lady Bei Fong," Aang moaned. Katara stiffened, hoping that Toph's need to be seen as a good fighter did not overshadow the risk of Aang out there, as had nearly happened with Cillia.
"Someone start the clock now, I'm gonna finish this fight in record time. Well, for a fight that people actually wanted to be in," she added, turning back and looking at the stands, probably thinking of Avizeh or Maiha, who both had their fights clocking in at mere seconds.
"You think?" Aang snickered, and Katara was glad to see a sense of competition blossom between them, and almost joy. This hadn't been fun for him, but if he was going to enjoy any of these fights, it might as well be Toph's.
"She's gonna whoop him," Sokka said decisively.
"Kuzon's not a spring fighter, you know," Katara said. He was, of course, the Avatar, even if he could not fight like he was.
Their fight did not last seconds. It lasted a minute and thirty-two seconds, much to Toph's great frustration. If he was airbending, Aang likely could have won, but he was grounded. Therein lay the issue. She didn't just bend the ground underneath them to trap them, she pulled one of the metal doors of the arena off the hinges, dragging it obnoxiously out and using that to literally trap him in a cage that formed perfectly to his body, and didn't even let him out after he choked out a 'she's good', but rather gloated, standing on top of the door for a minute or two, bowing and making a spectacle of her win.
Ozai seemed rather put off about his now-mangled door. Toph looked like she was having the time of her life.
It did reflect her power, as the whispers began. It was clear that this tiny thing was a big ball of fight, they said, which Toph would be repeating gleefully for days.
As the earthbenders came out to clear the fight for the next person - Ty Lee - Sokka patted Katara's arm as he stood.
"Oh! I'm glad you made it through. I honestly thought you wouldn't."
"Wow, thanks," Katara said, "Glad to know you believe in me." She'd thought she was going to lose too, but hey, that still sort of hurt.
"I…" Sokka faltered. "You know I don't believe in stupid fortunes, right?"
"Yeah, you've made that clear," Katara snorted.
"I mean, I guess I let that lady get to me," Sokka said, waving a hand to where Aunt Wu was sitting. "It's hard not to, after my fortune - that I did not want, let me add."
"What did she say?"
"Clearly, she's wrong so it doesn't matter," Sokka said, seemingly freer than before, as though a weight had been lifted.
"Well, no harm in telling me, since it didn't come to pass," Katara said.
"I guess. It's not like I think I'mma jinx something." Sokka snorted. "She told me that a girl I cared for would be leaving the Royal Palace soon, and the way she said it just made my bones tremble. And I said, well, that's rather vague, I care about a lot of girls on different levels, from the way I care about my sister, to my friendships, to even enjoying discussing fighting with Cillia and Suki. Wu told me it was the girl that was my family, so I thought, oh shit, it's you. Then she told me it would be…" He swallowed hard then laughed like he was trying to convince himself to say it or remind himself he didn't believe. "She said it would be my fault."
"Sokka-"
"And I didn't think about it, not 'till last night when I told you to just marry Zuko if you loved him, which meant staying in this stupid fight. And then this morning I realized, and I thought that you were going to lose or die, and it would have been me who told you to stay." He looked guilty, almost sick.
Katara stood up, kissing his cheek. "I'm clearly fine, Sokka. Sometimes she just gets things wrong, I'm sure," she said, but the thought of how 'wrong' Wu had been with her fortune made Katara feel uneasy.
Sokka, though, looked so pleased. "I'm just super glad you're safe and in one piece. That's all."
Katara went to sit back with Yue and Suki, turning her attention to see Ty Lee come out. Her opponent came to face her.
"Lady Ty Lee versus Princess Azula!"
Despite the fact that she was facing off with Azula, Ty Lee laughed out loud, smiling so brightly it was contagious.
"Oh, Zula! Let's have a good time, shall we?" she asked like this was just a play fight between friends, nothing serious. She practically bounced on the balls of her feet, her eyes shining and her cheeks glowing and pink.
"She's way too happy," Toph said, scaring Katara.
"Aren't you going to...change? Shower?" Suki asked Toph, who was back much sooner than most.
"Heck no! This is the winner's sweat," Toph beamed, and Katara also did not want to point out that Toph was not a person to shower regularly. "Did I miss anything yet?"
Azula was not looking at Ty Lee like they were old friends. In fact, as Suki began to describe to Toph what was happening, Katara realized that Azula looked at her like a hungry wolf. Predatory. Dangerous.
"Careful Ty," Katara whined. She hoped Ty Lee could see that Azula was not her friend at this moment, but the fact that Ty Lee always insisted on seeing the best in people may be her downfall.
She could not guess why Ty Lee was in such a bright mood, or what she could be thinking about that left her so distracted and off her game, when usually she was a great fighter. It seemed like it was slowly dawning on Ty Lee as the fights began that Azula was being unusually violent, even by Azula standards.
The first moment was when Azula grabbed forward and snapped a necklace from Ty Lee's neck. It was a wooden string of pink flowers and when she did so, holding the end in her palms, Ty Lee gasped.
"Why...you know that means a lot to me!"
"Oh, I suppose I did," Azula said, opening her palms. She almost looked sorry, and for a second, Katara was sure she was going to hand it back to her. Just as Ty Lee was reaching for it, Azula burned the beads in front of her.
In the tunnel, Aang had to be held back by Zuko. Katara had picked up on something going on between those two, but she had no idea how deeply it ran. Though, if she had to guess, she imagined the necklace might have been a gift from Aang. In the arena, Ty Lee looked close to tears. She crossed her arms, lip quivering.
"You're being a jerk, Azula!"
"I'm just sparring like we're supposed to be doing. Do you remember what that means, hmm? Doing what you came to do?"
There was obviously some missing information here, something that Katara was not privy to. Ty Lee inhaled hard, shaking her head. She looked confused too, though in a different way than Katara and the others were.
If anything, this exchange drove Azula to more combative lengths. It was hard to watch, and the public's interest grew from thrilled to see such a match up to nearly uncomfortable. There was one point where Azula brought a slice of fire down that was so hot, so sharp that it burned through part of Ty Lee's braid and sliced a part of her clothes open, clean but deadly.
"Holy shit, she's trying to kill her isn't she?" Cillia gasped out loud, which was the realization that most had come to.
Even Ozai, for as challenging as he'd made it for Mai or for as much as he'd teased Kilee, had not done so with the intention to kill anyone. It seemed the rest had been told not to go to such extremes, but Azula didn't get the message.
No, Katara reminded herself, this was personal between the pair. Azula could have killed Katara but had not. She hadn't even ever attempted to, not in the way she was using every part of her arsenal to smite Ty Lee from this very earth.
It was not just a little battle between friends, or even between a Royal Family Member and a contestant... this was something darker, something that Katara felt should be stopped.
People were already moving to do something because it was clear that Ty Lee was beginning to panic. She couldn't even find a moment to call that she was choosing to tap out because Azula was pushing her closer and closer to a wall, and all of Ty Lee's energy was being used just to keep herself alive at that moment.
Across the way, Aang looked more furious than Katara had ever seen him. Zuko was yelling at a Fire Sage and his father, likely demanding that they stop this fight before something tragic happened.
And, perhaps if they had listened to Zuko, it would have been okay.
Everyone was just a second too late to do anything, though.
Ty Lee was hyperventilating, trying to keep the tears out of her face and from her throat, as it clogged and made it hard for her to breathe. She was shaking so hard, and she was looking at Azula as though seeing her former friend for the first time.
Azula descended upon her, going in for the final blow.
"Azula, stop it!" Ty Lee cried, throwing her arms out, perhaps in a final attempt to garner sympathy.
That was not what happened, though. What did happen - what mystified the entire crowd and caused the arena to turn as silent as could be - was that as Ty Lee threw her arms out, a gust of wind so powerful and overwhelming whipped through the sparring ground. It slapped Azula back, sending her not just skidding against the ground, but picking her up, and with a force of pure power, it threw her against the wall. It caused all of the upturned earth to hover in the air for a second. And it caused Ty Lee to shoot off the ground and linger, like she was floating, until she came back, landing gracefully on the ground.
She stared at her hands in shock, unable to utter a single word.
Katara gripped the bar of the front seats, ready to vault herself over and...and do something! Even if the general public was slow on the realization, Katara knew with a sense of horror exactly what she'd just witnessed.
Azula picked her head up, staring in front of her with a cold, deadly fury.
"What the fuck happened? Oh jeez, it was really bad wasn't it? Spirits, someone tell me what's going on?" Toph sputtered out, her story-tellers having stopped with everyone else to gape at Ty Lee. "C'mon, I'm dyin' here! Shit, no one died, right?"
"Did she just-" Suki began in a low, hissed, unsure whisper.
"Yeah. She did," Katara said, halfway over the bar.
If the moments prior seemed to stretch to eternity and into silence, the moments right after were far too fast, like someone had sped up life at their will.
"Lady Ty Lee is an Airbender! She is an enemy to the nation, seize her!" Ozai yelled, and the entire crowd went insane.
Katara was half-way across the arena, ready to protect her friend at all costs, and Zuko was running out too. Sokka and Arrluck were fighting to get down to the main area, though they were running into an alarmed crowd. Everyone in the arena was moving one way or another, but someone was faster. Quick on his feet and probably not thinking, just moving on sheer emotion, Aang managed to reach Ty Lee before anyone else did.
He looked around, panic clear on his face.
"Don't do anything-" Katara began to yell, but even if he hadn't already made up his mind, the crowd drowned out her cries.
He grabbed Ty Lee and looked back at Zuko, an apology, and opened the ground below them, disappearing the pair deep into the earth.
It took far less time for the crowd to come to terms with this, even though they'd been whip-lashed by realizations left and right. Everyone began to talk over each other, all yelling and screaming, and they were all saying the same thing.
"Kuzon is the Avatar!"
Notes:
AHHHH! It's all out there now, eh!?
Did anyone guess that's what would happen?
So, some notes!
1) To the person who said they'd be very disappointed if the Foaming Mouth Guy left before he fainted...there ya go
2) WAAAAAY back when Aang and the Ga'ang were trying to see if Yue could be a waterbender, I said I nearly made a HUGE mistake in that chapter. Did you notice how Ty Lee was absent? It's because I wrote her to be present nearly all the way through but realized that if she was there, Aang would have seen in her aura/spiritual side that she was an airbender too gasp! So i had to pretty much re-write that chapter
3) So many of you were so surprised that Katara's fight happened so soon...little did you know that was not the climax of the chapter or the 'big important bit' (though still important!) teeeheehee
4) I had no idea that AtlA would return and gain so much popularity when I started writing this series back in 2017, and back then like it was only sorta discussed quietly that maybe Ty Lee descended from airbenders/would have had it opened in Korra. Since then it's been picked up by a ton of theorists (like SuperCarlinBrothers-some of my favs!) and lots guessed where I was heading with it, so kudos to you sleuths!
5)This is ch 30 where the last book ended. Though it may SEEM like this could be the end of Book 2 I am letting you know it for sure is not. I think we're mayyybe about 2/3rds of the way through?
6) Next update will land somewhere around Oct 28th!
Chapter 31
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Everything was going to shit.
Well, Zuko was not surprised that it was going to shit (he'd reasonably predicted this). What surprised him was how horribly it was going to shit.
Yes, he'd had many nightmares that somehow Aang's identity would be found out in the palace. Sure, he'd had moments of panic when he thought someone might be an Airbender and his father would call for their head. And of course, he had general thoughts that something awful was just waiting to happen, like someone pulling on a thread, and it was unraveling, unraveling, unraveling…
But great Agni; he'd never expected all these three equally terrible things to happen at the same time.
The only thing that could make things worse was if Katara was kicked out of the competition for good and, from the way she'd nearly leaped into the fray, he'd been sure that was about to happen too. His father would look for any excuse to send her packing.
Backing up to the moments before the world seemed like it was literally flipped, it was Aang who had brought it to Zuko's attention that Azula was being more than her 'I-just-love-winning' self in her fight with Ty Lee.
"That's not... she's...Zuko, look!" Aang said, tugging him away from where he was asking one of the servants to bring him some food. At first, he just chalked Aang's worry up to the usual way a lover is concerned of their significant other, but when he really looked…
"That can't be right," Zuko said, pushing past Aang and leaning to get a better look at the fight. Lu Ten was behind him, his Uncle already there.
"This is inappropriate," Iroh said sternly, shaking his head, "Azula is out of line."
"She's merely participating in the tournament," Ozai argued firmly, unconcerned.
"Participating?" Zuko choked. "Father, she will annihilate Ty Lee if this keeps up! Do you want to have to deal with the crowd seeing a contestant killed in front of them?"
For a second, he saw a flicker of doubt on his father's face. But, then it was smoothed over as his father shook his head.
"She would not go that far."
"You don't know Azula, Uncle," Lu Ten said with more venom than Zuko had ever heard his cousin use.
"You!" Zuko found a Fire Stage standing near. "You must announce the round over!" he demanded.
"Sir...I...well…" The sage sputtered, red in the face and sweating at this conundrum, "It is not our place! There are four ways a match ends and that is none of them."
"Call a re-match! Have her fight someone else then, but by Agni, are you going to let this continue?" Zuko was about to pull out his hair. Azula was gaining on Ty Lee. "Lady Ty Lee is a favorite contestant. It would reflect poorly on The Choice for her to be slaughtered in an arena like an animal."
Just as Zuko was sure he'd won over the sage and there would be some stall, some fix to this, out of the corner of his eye, the worst thing happened.
Ty Lee airbended.
Aang was standing straight as a board, staring incredulously. The entire Royal Family was completely shocked, sans Iroh, who just looked concerned. Zuko thought that, apart from Aang and himself, his uncle might be the only person on this side of the arena to realize immediately what had just occurred.
Katara, across the arena, had come to the same realization. He saw the way her knuckles clenched the bar separating her from the fighting ground, and he just prayed that she wasn't about to do something stupid.
"Lady Ty Lee is an Airbender! She is an enemy to the nation, seize her!"
"What?" Aang sputtered, staring at Ozai.
"Father, be reasonable! This is a girl we've known since childhood and she-" Zuko started to say, but the guards were running out toward her. And, Zuko realized, there was a bigger issue.
Aang was also running out to meet Ty Lee. Zuko spun, trying to grasp Aang's tunic, but it was like reaching for fog on a moody day. It was impossible, and he slipped his range.
"No! Fuck- Kuzon!" Zuko said, running out into the arena because whatever Aang was about to do was not going to help.
Aang looked back at him, his eyes full of liquid sorrow. He scowled, swallowed, and met Zuko's gaze.
And Zuko understood that things were just about to get a thousand times worse.
Maybe if Aang had fire-fought his way out, it would be okay. Well, not okay, but more reasonable. He did the second worst thing he could have done, though, next to airbending. He opened the earth below the pair and sent him and Ty Lee disappearing below the earth.
The public was not quiet, nor slow this time.
And Zuko was, desperately and panicked, trying to figure out how to fix this. How to fix everything. How to fix something that had gone so wrong.
Time moved around him strangely. He saw his father spin toward Zuko with a rage uncontrolled, but long before his father reached him, Iroh was moving faster. Iroh hugged his son and clasped Lu Ten's hand. He then brushed by Zuko and so quietly, almost so quietly that Zuko missed it, Uncle Iroh whispered something to his nephew.
"You knew nothing. Worry not about me."
While Zuko was still trying to untangle these words, his father was in his face.
"You! You brought that boy back! You were protecting him! The Avatar!" Steam exhaled from Ozai's nose and the entire area beneath the stands was warm, uncomfortably so. Zuko felt the sweat drip down his back.
Before Zuko was able to stand up to his father, finally, Iroh intervened.
"He knew nothing, my brother. It was I who found the Avatar four years ago and chose to hide him within the Fire Nation. Prince Zuko believed the lie that he was a long-lost family member like everyone else. He had nothing to do with it," Iroh said evenly, narrowing his eyes and jutting out his chin, challenging Ozai.
"Is this true?" His father's hand was at his throat, burning.
Zuko found words difficult to find but he managed. "Yes, father. I would have never allowed…" He nearly couldn't say it, but from his Uncle's encouraging smile he knew what he had to say, "A...a...murderous traitor like that into our home."
Ozai regarded him, and for a tense few seconds, Zuko was sure that he was going to call out his lie. Zuko tried to look disgusted at the thought that Ty Lee and Aang were hiding under their noses the entire time.
"You'd better hope you had no knowledge," Ozai said, dropping Zuko. Zuko's legs buckled and Lu Ten was there to grab him and keep him upright.
"Guards, take my brother away. He was consorting with the number one enemy of the nation and will be tried as a traitor," Ozai said, waving a finger. The guards hesitated, but after a hiss from Ozai, they all stumbled forward to grasp onto Iroh's clothes.
"No!" Lu Ten stood, "You...can't."
"Would you like to take his place?" Ozai asked Lu Ten in a cool tone. Lu Ten looked ready to fight Ozai right then and there, but from behind, Iroh shook his head. Lu Ten's shoulders dropped.
"No, Uncle."
"That's Fire Lord Ozai to you," Ozai replied, and Lu Ten flinched, as though experiencing a physical slap or preparing for the onset of one.
Azula limped into the area, one of her legs at a strange angle from a break, assumedly when she hit the back of the fighting pit.
"How dare she," Azula was spitting, "How dare she parade around and-"
"Medic! My daughter is bleeding. Attend to her," Ozai cut Azula off, waving forward at the medical staff.
"Father! That little bitch! I should have-"
"You should have killed her when you had the chance," Ozai said, causing a shiver to run down Zuko's spine. "You hesitated. Gave her a moment. It is your fault she and the Avatar have escaped our grip."
He stalked out of the arena, following where the guards had taken Iroh. Azula nearly bit a medic in her rush to follow Ozai, leaving Lu Ten and Zuko alone.
"He...Dad would have gotten out of that if he wanted to," Lu Ten said airily, a bit uncertain, however. He was still reeling. Zuko nodded, but he wasn't sure. His Uncle was a master fighter, but could he have taken on all of the guards?
"What did you say to you? As he...?" Zuko asked, recalling their last moment.
"He told me he loved me, deeply, but he was going to do 'it' for everyone. And he told me 'it' was mine now…" Lu Ten seemed troubled. "But I'm not sure what 'it' is. He just added that they were watching and would be able to help…"
Lu Ten swallowed and opened his palm, "And he left me this."
Zuko took the item, examining it with confusion.
It was a single, slightly scuffed, gray lotus tile.
XXxxXX
The hours following were the longest Katara had ever spent in agony. Not even the time under the palace in the catacombs had been as bad. During then, she'd been fueled by anger and the will to fight, and later horror. She'd had some level of understanding of things happening, even if she had no control over it.
As soon as everything happened, the Fire Sages and guards had queued the girls and the guests swiftly out of the arena. The guests that the Royal Family was entertaining were sent to their rooms, the ones here to visit were asked to stay in the great ballroom, and the ladies were cordoned to the Ladies' Room.
Katara fully expected each of them to be pulled away and painstakingly interviewed with grueling cross-checks and unkind expressions. They all interacted with Aang on a friendly basis and they'd lived with Ty Lee, and somehow no one had known about her abilities.
Katara could not have seen that one coming had she been given all the chances to guess in the world.
The worst thing about waiting was the fact that nothing had happened at all. They were just sitting, silently, not daring to speak to each other. Even Nadhari looked worried. Mai was as sorrowful as Katara had ever seen; Ty Lee had been her best friend, once upon a time, as had Azula. It must be awful to see one best friend try to kill the other, who was now an enemy of the state and would be killed if she were seen above ground anywhere again.
They were allowed to dress in more comfortable items - picked up from their rooms by their handmaids - and they were given quite delicious food, as well as things to do to pass the time, such as embroidery hoops or poem books, but no one touched the food or the activities. The worry was palpable.
There were some whispers about the entire event; would the people that failed still be sent home? Would the people who did not fight do so later? Would the entire tournament be considered a wash?
Finally, five hours after the revelation that rocked the Royal Palace, Zhi came back in with a Fire Sage. All the girls perked up, though the general mood was no lighter.
"We have been discussing," the Fire Sage began, "And we have come to some conclusions about all of your places in this competition." He coughed, clearing his voice. Zhi looked forlorn beside him, which Katara did not take as a good sign. "Those of you who battled and won, congratulations. You still have a place here."
There had been little question of that, but it seemed like they would not have to fight again. On that note, Katara breathed a sigh of relief.
"For the girls that were culled before Ty L- er, the traitor was revealed," the Fire Sage stuttered, "I apologize, but you still will be going home."
Most of the girls who had been cut seemed disappointed but unsurprised.
"And, as for the girls who did not get to fight," He glanced around, looking at Yue, Ratana, Nadhari, and On Ji. "In light of the...tumultuous climate in the palace currently - such as an Airbender as a contestant!" The Fire Sage seemed horrified. In a twisted moment of humor, Katara figured he'd practically faint if he knew there had already been an Airbender contestant. "The Avatar's return and General Iroh's arrest-"
"What?" Toph spat up, "Iroh's been arrested?" All the rest of the girls chimed in with disbelief and horror.
"There must be a mistake," Mai added, standing, "You must have heard wrong, he would not-"
The Fire Sage realized they had not been informed of this moment and it looked like he wished like he could turn back time five seconds ago. He swallowed thickly.
"He admitted to aiding and purposely hiding The Avatar. A very grievous act, and as such, he has been jailed and is awaiting trial."
"They'll kill him," Suki whispered brokenly, "He's only ever been nice and fair."
The girls were all a chatter, and the Fire Sage tried to get their attention. Finally, he whistled loudly, shrilly.
"Ahem! Control yourself, ladies," he chastised, "Back to the matter at hand...for those who did not get a chance to spar, you are being allowed to remain in the competition. There might be a test to judge your worth at a later time, but there is no such event planned for the moment. Congratulations to you four as well."
This was met with cries of unfairness, and all the girls seemed to have an opinion. The sage cleared his throat.
"Ladies!" he said sharply, "I do realize this has been a night of shock, but please!" He huffed. "You all will be questioned-"
"Fantastic," Katara muttered under her breath, and Suki gave a huge sigh, having clearly expected this too.
"-to see if you were involved with these traitors in any way or ever suspected Lady Ty Lee had such awful lineage, or if you think anyone else may as well. If you have passed the tournament, you are allowed to return to your room. If you are one of the few that did not, you will have two hours to pack, and then we will find transportation for you. That is all."
Before the girls could argue anything else, the sage turned sharply on his heel and left the room. Zhi was instantly met with a hoard of questions. Katara hung back, mind racing. She turned to Yue, who seemed to have a look of quiet glee upon her face.
"You see, Katara, it all worked out. No waterbending, and I am still in the competition," Yue said with a sense of slyness that Katara had never seen from her. If she didn't know better, she'd say that Yue rigged it to happen. Yue, the sweetest and possibly most morally good person here!
And, despite how awful everything was, because she did not want to cry, Katara couldn't help but laugh.
XXxx
"So you had no idea?"
It had been hours since Aang and Ty Lee disappeared underground. They were in complete darkness, sans a single flicker of firelight from Aang's hand. It was frigid, with wind howling around the empty corners and creeping over their skin.
He was glad Toph had saved some tunnels as a secret; places that Ozai now did not know still were around and would not be looking for them. Aang was fairly sure they were safe here for a few hours, but they couldn't live underneath the palace.
The first few hours, however, they'd spent in frantic panic, unable to utter a single word or discuss what had just happened. Now, as they were settling and the avatars in Aang's brain were less of a tizzy than they'd been before, he asked the question that had been on his mind since he found out Ty Lee was an Airbender.
"Of course not," Ty Lee said, eyes wide. Something quieted inside Aang; he would have been more than offended if she'd known and never told him.
"But did you...suspect?"
"Honesty? Would anyone?" Ty Lee frowned. "Yes, my eye color isn't common, but it was never an issue. Yes, I'm flexible, but I prided myself on this talent. There were hints, perhaps, but I never imagined...I don't even know when it opened itself to me. It had to be after age ten...that's the age they stopped trying to see if I would firebend," she reasoned, though she still looked troubled.
"It may have not been long at all," Aang winced, "And it might have been my fault. Zuko tells me that lots of new airbenders were created when I went into the Avatar State last."
"Well, I'm glad," Ty Lee said after a second. "I think being an Airbender is something I'll wear with pride."
"Ty, they're killing us," Aang whispered, knitting his eyebrows. "While I love the sentiment, I do-"
"Aang," Ty Lee laughed, her voice soothing even his most anxious running dialogue, "I was nearly unbeatable with my chi-blocking. With the Avatar as my teacher, imagine how I'll be with airbending added in! I'd like to see them try to kill us," she said, squeezing his hand. "My aura has never been brighter. Bright white; like a perfect cloud on the best, sunniest day."
"I wish I had your optimism," Aang sighed, leaning into her. He had no idea what their next steps were. He was beginning to realize how poorly he'd thought this through.
Thought this through? How about not at all! Kasata chuffed.
Poorly isn't the word I'd use. More like you suffered a complete lack of thought, Kyoshi agreed.
This...is...not...you… Gopan, if he were standing in front of Aang, would be red in the face, panting and nearly passed out.
"I get it, I get it," Aang muttered sourly. He completely understood what all the Avatars had been telling him, that he should not have done what he did, and that they were all still of the opinion that he was an idiot. Well, except for Suluk, who thought what he'd done was beautiful and nuanced.
It shows true passion and love, she'd gasped.
Aang was at a loss. He knew they could not stay here, but every inch of the palace was out looking for his head right now. They were safe here; it wasn't just himself he had to consider, but Ty Lee too. He might be confident in batting it out, and he knew Ty Lee was a good fighter, but she'd never been fighting against someone who wanted to kill her before.
That was a dirty way to fight.
There was the sound of footsteps running through the corridors near them. Aang and Ty Lee were immediately on high alert, both of them in a battling stance. The footsteps were coming from everywhere, so it was impossible to pin their origin down.
All of a sudden, the footsteps stopped. There was silence. Then, the sound of a piece of metal tinkling against the ground behind them.
Aang jumped but saw nothing but his own shadow mimicking him. He cautiously made his way over to the metal item laying on the ground, something no bigger than a flower.
"What is it?"
"A note. And, well, a game piece," Aang said in confusion.
"What's the note say?" Ty Lee asked, bounding over to him. He'd never noticed before how she could clear space with just a few steps; now with the air pushing her forward, she was able to make it to him looking like she was literally walking on air.
"You have friends at the palace. We are working on a plan to get you out. Sincerely…" He tilted his head. "…Friends of Rodden."
"Wait, isn't that...doesn't that mean...airbender sympathizers?"
"Yeah," Aang agreed, "Huh. Apparently, not everyone agrees with Ozai. Wish we knew who, though. That would make me feel a lot better."
"Does the game piece help?" Ty Lee asked. Aang held it up and shrugged.
"It's just a Pai Sho tile." If there was some deeper meaning behind this dingy white - no, it was more of a light gray - playing piece, he did not understand it.
"I guess we have to have hope then," Ty Lee said.
Aang tucked the note and the lotus tile into his pocket. "Hope? Seems like that's all anyone can offer these days."
XX
From the crack in her door, Katara watched as the girls in their finest dresses were dismissed from the company of the Choice. She could hardly focus on their sobbing, her mind consumed with worry for Ty Lee and Aang. She was frantically worried.
She prayed they were far, far away from the palace by now. She wondered if she'd ever hear from them again in her lifetime. Despite all the hurdles they'd faced together, they were on their own path now. Perhaps it would be best if they vanished into thin air, only whispered rumors of their appearance every couple of months or so.
Even will her mid so full, she thought it would be bad form not to at least nod to them as they left, acknowledge their failure instead of looking aloof or, worse, seeming haughty.
Six girls were leaving: Saoirse, Anaselma, Avizeh, Kilee, Jin, and Maiha. It probably was more like seven, since Katara doubted they'd be allowing Ty Lee (if she showed back up) to remain here. Just like that, they were cut down like blades of grass, thrown into the wind.
Spirits, how Katara wished Nadhari was leaving, though chances are she would have won her fight if they had gotten to it. The thought aggravated Katara to no end. She was really hoping that Nadhari would face Ozai and have her ass handed to her on a platter.
Alas, that was only a dream.
Her mind could not focus on the girls and their hundreds of suitcases for long though, because too soon she was drifting back to that moment in the arena where everything, all their carefully laid plans, were metaphorically cast off a high balcony, shattering on the ground.
Katara wished so much that she could have done something more, though her mind continually came up blank on any different action she could have taken. Perhaps, at the very least, she could have kept Aang from revealing his secret. Maybe it would be her and Ty Lee escaping. That seemed like a more fitting end to her time here than the passion just fizzling out and Zuko asking her to leave. It was also not too far off of a prediction than the one she gave Zuko when she rejected his proposal.
The procession of the girls leaving ended and everyone lingered at their door for a moment, as though wondering if the fates had been different... if that could have been them. Then, Nadhari made a nasty comment and everyone shut retreated back into their rooms or migrated toward the Women's Room. Katara had no interest in socializing right now.
She sat in her room, doing pushups. Whenever she had too many thoughts, a good sweat buildup was always something to clear her mind.
When that did not work, she changed to sewing beads to a dress.
When that did not work, she wrote home; she was far behind on her letters.
It was dawn by the time Aiga came knocking.
"What sort of wear is it for today? Do we have anything planned?" Katara asked without looking up.
"Princess," Aiga said. Her voice caused Katara to turn. Aiga never called her that anymore. Aiga's face was taut, but Katara could see she was hardly holding back her tears, which were lining the edges of her eyes. She was not as put together as she usually was; her hair was a little out of place, she didn't have all her makeup on, and she was shaking like a leaf.
"What's going on?" Katara asked, "Is it your family? Oh, tell me they're okay-"
"I cannot tell you."
"Can I command you?" Katara asked, her throat catching. This was bigger than just Aiga, whatever it was. She hated using her power, but she was worried now.
"Our orders come from much higher. You'll have to wait," Aiga said. "But please, put this on."
She was holding a white dress. The color of the frock filled Katara with dread. She felt tears threaten her expression too, and she didn't know why she was crying, but she knew the type of event that required such a color.
White was the color of mourning in the Southern Water Tribe.
"Who died?" Katara asked, thinking the worst. She looked back at her letters, realizing she hadn't gotten one from her family in quite a few days. Her mind went to the worst places; her mother, her father, her grandmother…
"No one has died," Aiga said, patting Katara's hand as though she herself did not also need comforting. "Be grateful and remember that by the end of the day. No one has died. Not Kuzon, not Ty Lee, not-" She broke off before she said more.
Though Katara tried to prod as Aiga helped her dress, her handmaid held the secrets tightly wound inside, refusing to utter a single more word.
As they reached the door to the halls, Katara swallowed.
"Should I be afraid?" She did not want to admit that she was, so she went with a question instead.
"No, but you should remember that you are a Princess and that we can't save everybody."
Her words were chilling.
Outside, everyone looked equally confused, most somber. The Earth Nation girls were also wearing white, whereas the Fire Nation girls were wearing black. Everyone was in mourning together, though it seemed only Aiga was upset. The rest of the handmaids just looked spooked.
At least, Katara thought, she wasn't personally in trouble. It had to be something else.
Suki grasped Katara's hand but her expression said she knew no more than Katara already did.
Zhi was standing at the front, and she had been crying from the looks of it. She waved her marking tool, counting off. "...seven...eight...yes, nine," she said and turned to a guard. "We're all here."
Katara frowned, scrunching up her face. Even with Ty Lee discounted, there should be ten. With a startled gasp she realized who was missing, and she found it impossible that she could not have noticed the very absent gap of a personality and lack of sailor language echoing around the room.
"But Lady Bei Fong isn't here!" Katara called out, but Zhi kept walking as though she didn't hear. Katara tried to backtrack to Toph's room, but Aiga grasped her arm tight, enough that it might bruise.
"Keep walking," she hissed. "Do not go back. Please."
If Toph decided to leave, that was fine, but it didn't make any sense, Katara thought. And if she was thrown out of the competition, why now? She'd been fairly good the past couple of days, so there were many more incidents that would have been reasonable for Zuko to send her home over. And, if she were going home, why wouldn't Toph say goodbye to her? This hurt the most; Katara had thought them best friends.
Perhaps Toph was hurt, Katara considered fleetingly with anguish. But...really...who could have gotten a leg-up on, possibly, the best earthbender in existence?
As they passed through the halls, Katara charted the tone of the room to be hushed and somber, nearly frightened. Everyone was on edge, even more so than the fights had caused. There were many more people out and about than Katara expected, but they were all being herded the same direction and were all wearing dark or extremely bright colors.
What the heck had happened?
"Have Kuzon or Ty Lee been found?" Katara asked Aiga fearfully, absolutely sure this is what was going on. They were going to see their sentence.
"Shh!" Aiga hissed, still leading Katara forward like she was a simple cow that needed to be led.
But where did cows go but to the slaughter?
They were herded to the grand ballroom they'd been in but two days ago. It had been stripped of the grandeur and was left looking cold and uninviting. A few folding chairs had been set up for them, haphazardly placed. The Choice girls were offered seats near the front and everyone else was kept outside. It was just the girls in the competition with their handmaids left in the ballroom. It seemed entirely too big of a space, and the emptiness of it haunted Katara in an inexplicable way. It already felt like the room held the ghosts of the girls who went home and the ghost of whatever awful was about to be revealed.
After what seemed like an eternity of just waiting, allowing the whispers to wash over everyone as Katara vainly tried to understand what was going on, there was movement near the curtains in the back. Ozai came out, expression set to kill, and Zuko followed. He looked pale, almost ill. Angry too; though it was hard to say if he was angry at his father or in general. He simultaneously looked forlorn and torn, as though whatever was about to be said sickened him.
"I have called you all here to inform you first, as you have the right to know," Zuko started, his voice shaking. Shaking with rage, shaking with revulsion, shaking with desperation. It was all of these things at once, and even that first sentence quieted everyone in the room, "that one of the members of the Choice was caught last night in an intimate moment with someone that was not...uhm, not me." For as good as he'd started, his worry and anxiety leaked at the end as he faltered, swallowing thickly.
The gasps that echoed around Katara were like a slap to the face. Katara bolted upright, shoulders back, in disbelief.
"This is a most grievous sin, worse than the traitors that have walked our halls before," Ozai broke in because apparently Zuko was not conveying the severity enough or he just wanted to hammer it in. "This lady has insulted Zuko and made a farce of the competition and in doing so, insulted the entire Nation. More than that, a supposed friend and ally was caught with her, making us question the integrity of an entire Nation."
Now he was looking at either Katara or Yue, and neither boded well. Ozai would look for a reason to go to war against Katara's tribe, and the North was in a tenuous enough agreement with Fire Nation as it was. Yue shook her head.
"We don't... no one would…" Yue started, but the questions of the other girls cut her off, drowning her pitiful whimpered confusion in a sea of unanswerable questions.
"Behold! Those that tarnish the name, those that laugh in the face of our traditions, are so deserving of whatever punishment befalls them. Let this be an example!" Ozai crowed, and two guards carried in a pair of struggling bodies.
"Let me go you fucking psychopath! That's my arm and I need it, so you can't just flop me around and ow-"
Before the person reached the front of the room, the voice gave her away.
"Toph?" Smellerbee choked out, and though Toph had clearly been missing from their ranks, it seemed that everyone was just as startled.
Katara moved to stand, but Aiga yanked her down. Katara understood Zuko's tone; he had no feelings for Toph, so her 'slight' against him was entirely made-up. But of course, he could not tell his father that, so he had to act around with this entire...this farce!
Toph was fighting against everything, but she was tiny, and her hands and feet were covered and bound in thick leather, making it impossible for her to bend. She looked like a cat being dragged to a bath with the way she was spitting and hissing. Still, just for an instant, as she turned her head, Katara caught a flash of terror.
She was afraid of what was to come.
The person that followed after Toph dropped Katara to the ground.
"Sokka?" she whispered. She started to faint, but Aiga kept her grip tight.
"Strength, my friend," she hissed quietly, and from her tone, she'd known. She had known that it was not just Katara's dear friend, but her only brother.
All the girls were still talking over each other, their confusion and horror growing louder and louder to out-talk the other, until they were practically yelling over each other, all begging for an explanation.
"Who found them?" Katara asked. She thought that no one heard and that Ozai would not dare answer, but a voice broke through.
"I did."
Everyone hushed in a second, as though their voices had been taken from them all at once.
"What?" Katara asked, turning to the accuser.
Mai stood firmly, chin raised, and eyes cold as ice.
"I said I did," Mai repeated, unwavering. "I was walking around last night, after the events of the tournament, and I heard something from the library when I knew it was meant to be empty. It was a curious sound, so I came through the cracked door and found these two in...quite the position."
"That's...no one was supposed to leave the suites!" Suki said, though her argument was cut down by the fact Toph was up after hours as well.
"I had already been questioned in regards to Lady Ty Lee and the guards found it safe for me to walk the palace floors," Mai said calmly, "Would you not investigate too, after all that, if you heard sounds you could not explain?"
"It's a good thing she did. Agni only knows how long they were planning on cruelly leading Zuko on otherwise," Ozai said. "Lady Mai is being lauded as a Fire Nation savior for revealing this terrible plot."
"What's going to happen now?" Katara asked, turning her back to Mai and sitting on her hands to keep from strangling her.
"Treason is punishable by death," Alcina said quietly, but her voice carried. Katara looked back at Zuko, pleadingly. He pursed his lips, looking at Toph and Sokka in anger. One might see it as anger at what they'd done to him, but Katara recognized it as anger that they'd put him in this situation. That they were lazy and got caught. That this had happened now, in this climate.
He had that right, Katara agreed.
"I will handle this. It is treason against me so I will...carry it out as it must be," Zuko agreed.
He sounded so defeated and in that second, Katara understood that he felt like he had no other options but to execute them as the law said.
"No!" Katara yelled, lunging. Aiga was quicker, expecting it, and Suki helped hold Katara back.
She kicked. "No! No! You won't! You can't! How dare you! It's my brother!" She screamed, but Tahoe appeared from nowhere with Shoji to help drag her away. She clawed against all of them, yelled until her voice was hoarse, and once they locked her in her room with her patio door inaccessible, Katara pounded on the doors until she had bruises on her wrists.
After all that was done, Katara curled into a ball on the floor and wished with every inch of her being that she'd never heard anything about the Choice or Prince Zuko and never led her brother here.
He would be killed and it would be entirely Katara's fault. She would live with that forever, knowing that if she had stayed home like her family had asked her so many months ago, he'd still be alive.
Aiga brought food, but Katara rejected it all. She dumped it down the sink, even as her stomach growled and begged, she would not eat. She did not even lay on the bed but instead took vigil curled on the floor, wanting to burn every inch of the Fire Nation finery that surrounded her to the ground.
The sun and moon circled up and down, casting shadows across her face, vibrating too brightly in the stillness of Katara's room and the fury in her bones. She felt shattered, as though only one emotion, something red and pulsing, remained inside of her. No sorrow, no confusion, no fear, just a desire to kill someone. A very particular someone.
And she was horrified at the realization that if she came across Ozai choking to death right now, or caught up in a successful plan by the Freedom Fighters, Katara would be giddy and pleased. She tried to push this urge down, the one that was a wolf, snapping and telling her to kill the Fire Lord since she had so little to lose and found that if she stayed here on the carpet, unmoving, she was the least likely to enact this.
After three meals and one day without food, Aiga broke the silence she'd been allowing Katara to have.
"Katara, you should eat," Aiga said a while later, offering some apple slices and a bowl of rice.
"You knew. You knew what was going to happen and you didn't warn me," Katara hissed, shielding away from her.
"Katara, I-" Aiga looked deeply troubled. "I wanted to tell you. I could not though. If you came in, ready to kill the Fire Lord, it would be figured out quickly what happened. Then me, you, your brother, and Toph would be at the mercy of Ozai," she pointed out.
"You could have done something," Katara cried, surprised she still had tears to give. "I had to be blindsided, and everyone watched my heart being torn out right there, at that moment."
"They're not going to kill your brother."
"What?" Katara said foggily. She wondered if perhaps she was going crazy due to a lack of food. Or maybe she was dreaming right now.
"Prince Zuko convinced his father that Sokka was not aware of Fire Nation traditions. He came after the Choice started, so he did not hear the definition of treason. He argued that Sokka is not to blame in this situation, so death is unnecessary. Ozai did not like it, but many were in agreement with Zuko."
Relief flooded Katara's body so entirely, so much so that it was far later than she would like to admit that what Aiga had not said reached her brain.
"Toph?"
Aiga's face was darkened.
"Toph knew the rules," Aiga said, looking down, "And Zuko knew he'd only be able to find a way to pardon one."
It was unspoken, but Katara still heard it. Zuko had chosen to save her brother. For her. Yes, Sokka did have the better case, but he'd still chosen one over the other. She didn't doubt that Zuko was intelligent enough that if he had chosen to go the other way, he could have come up with some reason to spare Toph instead of Sokka.
And she was the worst friend in the world because Katara was relieved that he'd picked Sokka.
"So Toph will be killed?" Katara pieced together the rest, crying for her friend and for her own selfish joy.
"Yes. Her future is set as it seems," Aiga said. "Ozai was unhappy to spare Sokka, though he did make Zuko promise that there had to be some consequence, and of which kind I'm unsure, but he was not going to let another person be shown mercy. Some are already calling Prince Zuko weak for allowing Sokka to walk away with his life."
"That's not mercy, that's just humanity," Katara shook her head hard.
"I know, and you know, but this is a violent place," Aiga said, "And those who defy the Fire Lord are poking a monster awake." She coughed. "Ozai will make an example. Iroh and Toph will be executed on the same day, tonight."
"Great spirits, that's so fucked," Katara seethed. "I hate this. I hate this place, I hate Ozai, I hate myse-"
"Don't!" Aiga said ferociously, "Do not say that."
"I do though! It's my fault! If I had accepted Zuko's hand-"
"Ozai still may have found a way to keep control, and things might be worse! They could still claim that Toph was Zuko's property since she was part of the Choice! You could be dead yourself and Sokka could be mourning you. It is impossible to theorize what could have been. We can only focus on what is happening."
"What is happening?" Katara asked, feeling a keen sense of defeat. She wasn't sure where to go now. She didn't know how to fix any of this and if she even could.
"Katara, oh," Aiga hugged her, "That is not for you to worry about."
She turned and grabbed the empty bowls of food that Katara had refused and dumped. She nudged the new bowl. "Eat," she commanded Katara. As she started to leave, Katara moved for the food but paused.
"But it's for you to worry about?" Katara asked. Aiga stopped but did not turn. She did not answer at all, but in some way, her hesitation had been loud enough. Katara recognized someone about to do something risky well enough; it was the same look Katara often took on.
Katara ran after her, but she'd vanished into the hallway. Katara was not sure she could bear to lose someone else she cared about too, but her handmaid was seemingly gone as she'd never been in Katara's room at all, sans a note left under the bowl of rice.
You have been the greatest joy to serve. You have not only become someone I love, as not only a best friend but more like a sister. Take care, Princess. This will all one day make sense.
Notes:
-Ahhh, some of you SAW THAT COMING EH? For those of you that are completely shocked by the Tokka reveal, I'd suggest re-reading the chapters. It started getting rather obvious leading up to it.
-Back when I FIRST started re-reading the books to play off of in a fic, I knew there needed to be a 'Marlee'. But I thought going in the way of Yue or Ty Lee would be FAR too obvious. So I went...hm, who is possibly the most unexpected character to use in Marlee's place, and Toph was the clear answer to this
-Obv. if you've read The Selection, things went...well, not better, but not as dark as this. We're left at a grim spot, but just remember, have faith in ye old author!
-Some of the girls I cut because I didn't have a plot-related need in the Palace for anymore, but some of the girls I decided to keep because I still want to talk about them. So girls like Yue that likely would have lost are still in due to...well, issues and interruptions.
If anyone is interested, here's how the rest of the fights would have gone:
* Ty Lee would have purposely lost to Azula had it been normal to leave without fuss
*Yue would have fought Lu Ten and lost
*Nadhari would have fought Zuko and won
*On Ji would have fought Iroh and lost
*Ratana would have fought Zuko and lost
Chapter 32: XXXI
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Zuko had not slept at all, not since the night before the tournament. He was starting to see things; shadows skirting on the edges of the halls, fuzzies when he glanced up, ghosts lurking. He was starting to hear things too, or maybe it was just the reverberations of his own endless thoughts coming back for him.
As it was, he doubted anyone would blame him for taking a nap. He'd been handed a bad set of events in the last few days, more than any single person should reasonably have to deal with.
And perhaps he should go to bed. His father was now scrutinizing his every move. He'd fucked up in Ozai's eyes. Or, others around Zuko had royally made a mess. Ty Lee: Airbender. Kuzon/Aang: avatar. Sokka: traitor. Toph: traitor. Iroh: traitor. And despite none of these things being anything Zuko could control, there were whispers about how so many people he was close to were found to be such 'villainous' people. Therefore, he was sure his father was looking for the chance to seize Zuko and throw him in jail too.
Zuko was not sure Ozai bought the claim that Zuko had no idea about any of the things that had been going on in the palace. Well, okay, he'd known about Aang, but that was honestly where his knowledge ended! He'd guessed about Sokka and Toph, but that had also not been his issue, or so he'd thought.
Maybe if he did sleep, his father would be more inclined to believe him. That was some real political manipulation he was now considering. If he slept, it would show that he was a-okay and not anxious at all. He could say he wasn't going to lose a wink over it all because he was confident that Ozai would be able to find no issue with his son.
And perhaps that would have been a good ploy...had he any ability to sleep at all right now.
There had been a moment, a few nights ago, where he'd been inches from falling asleep. His head had hit the pillow, he'd been able to cast out the worry for Aang and Ty Lee, knowing he'd be no good to them half-asleep, able to think that his Uncle would not be angry for him trying to get even just a few moments of shut-eye...and then there had been a knock on his door.
He grumbled, mumbling something like 'It can wait', but the knocking was insistent. Frantic.
He'd shot up, grasping blindly for his robe, praying it wasn't Aang or Katara. The sound of the knocking was louder and more erratic, but out of all the things behind his door, Mai standing there with a pale face was most unexpected.
"Prince Zuko, I'm-" She broke off, trying to regain her usual stony facade, but something had her looking so upset. "I'm sorry to bother you this late."
"Oh, it's uh…" He was about to say 'no trouble', but despite the fact that he did care about Mai enough to be concerned, he would honestly rather be sleeping. "What's wrong?"
"I…" She was shaking and grasped for his hands. "I don't know how to tell you this...I'm sure you'll be upset, but it's not fair to you…" She was more unraveled than usual, though the fight between Azula and Ty Lee and such revelations on both sides must have rattled her enough to make her show emotion. Even though she delivered her words with a touch of monotony, it was far more feeling than he was used to.
"Mai, what is it?"
"It's Lady Bei Fong, my Prince," she said evenly, "I know you and she are…" She licked her lips. "You care for her."
"Of course I do," Zuko replied. Yes, it was in a sisterly way, in the sort of way he'd never really felt toward Azula, but of course, Mai was not privy to such information. "What's wrong?" Why wouldn't Katara be coming for him if something was truly wrong with Toph, he wondered in a panic.
Mai nodded evenly, as though digesting the confirmation with a hint of hurt, but this only made her frown deepen. "Prince-"
"You can call me Zuko. We've known each other long enough."
"Toph is unfaithful."
"What?" he asked, startling back. Mai inhaled hard, taking his shocked tone for the betrayal of his feelings, but in all honesty, Zuko was surprised Toph had romantic affections for anyone.
"It's Prince Sokka, your highness!" Mai continued, staring at Zuko, rubbing his hand. "I just found them in the library and they were…" She gulped. "They were entirely focused on each other. There's no mistaking it. And I just didn't know what to do or who to tell," she continued. "I'm so sorry, Zuko," she said, truly sincere.
Oh, spirits, Zuko realized with growing horror. She must think that he was torn up, that Toph had all but broken his heart. She was looking at him with such an expression and had the circumstances been different, it would have been endearing. She was so worried about his feelings, of how this would shatter him. She wasn't tattling on Toph hoping to get her thrown out, she was doing it because she thought it was unfair for Zuko not to know this, to be led on.
At that moment, Zuko naively believed he could fix this before it became a bigger deal than it was. Get Toph out quickly, maybe. Make up some story. He could-
"What's going on?" Ozai asked, exiting his chamber, still wearing his clothes from the tournament. Ursa followed after, staring between Mai and Zuko with mild surprise.
"I'm so sorry, my Lord," Mai bowed deeply, "For intruding into the Royal Family's personal quarters at this hour, but I...I needed to speak to Prince Zuko."
"Yes, and we have," Zuko said, trying to sound chipper, hoping to distract from Mai's face and mournful tone. He knew that, on some level, she'd admired Toph and her fighting ability. It had slipped out on one of their dates, though she'd never admit it again. Maybe she was affected by this realization – and the thought of another contestant leaving – more than he'd assumed. "I will, uhm, go and look into this Mai, right now."
He tried to spin on his heels, ready to go and find Toph and yell, in between throwing her suitcase at her, while sending her quietly from the premises. Mai followed, with no intention of telling his father until Ozai's voice paused them.
"Lady Mai, what did you come to tell my son?"
Zuko and Mai both turned. Mai's face was back to impassive. She'd managed to pull herself together, but it was too late. Perhaps Ozai had seen her expression previously. Perhaps he'd heard the waver in Zuko's voice. Perhaps he didn't trust Zuko at all.
"Well…" Mai looked to Zuko, wondering if she should. He wondered if he asked her to lie, would she? She was far more on his side than his father's. There was no time for furtive conversations, no time to plan. And even still, he was not sure he could ask that of her, or that his father wouldn't find out the truth anyway. He gave a grim nod.
"I was worried about, uh, a contestant." Mai still tried to veer away from the truth. "And Prince Zuko said he'd take care of it."
"Oh, of what nature?"
"They were...locked in an embrace. Not Prince Zuko and this, erm, lady, but another man," Mai said tentatively.
"Who?" Ozai's voice was deadly sharp. Zuko felt like screaming. He had lost it. If only he'd ushered Mai out quicker. If only he'd asked Mai to speak in his room, or outside the Royal bedrooms. If only he'd taken a thousand choices that wouldn't lead them here, to this second where he knew Toph's fate was going to be something unspeakable.
"Lady Bei Fong and Prince Sokka, Fire Lord Ozai," Mai said quietly, eyes down, shivering at Ozai's murderous stare. She sent a look to Zuko, a flicker of her eyes sideways.
Zuko closed his eyes, wishing he could send himself back a day previous, and be anywhere but here.
And, days later with still no sleep, he was still thinking that.
It was in moments like this that he felt how raggedly the lack of slumber was edging on him. He wanted to curl up in his room and cry or scream. He was losing his brother, Aang, and one of his dearest friends Ty Lee. Iroh and Toph were to be killed. Sokka may never speak to him again, nor would Katara or Suki or Besu or any other girl who would be able to so easily see that this was wrong.
Everything was slipping through his fingers.
He knew he was not allowed near his Uncle at all, but he could not bear the thought of never getting to hug him one last time, or even try to. His execution, along with Toph's, was set to occur in an hour.
Zuko wanted to puke.
He'd managed to bribe a guard to let him know when Iroh was being taken to the arena, which was now slated to be a site of death. He lingered in the halls until he heard the four guards coming through and the sounds of his Uncle's chains. Sure, Iroh could easily take them down, but where would he go? They were taking him through narrow halls with little access and he'd maybe get a couple of seconds before more guards would be called and it would all be over.
"-try that new place down in the middle ring?" one guard asked another.
"Yeah, but it was too spicy for me," a second said, "My date liked it though. Was 'kay, I guess."
"Oh, c'mon, that place is fantastic. Their noodle dish is perfect!"
Zuko wanted to punch them; they were bringing General Iroh to his death and they were talking about food? Though, perhaps it was just another day in the palace for them…
He slid into the small hallway. Two guards walked in front of Iroh and two walked behind, boxing him in. He looked up at Zuko's footsteps, and there was a sense of relief like he'd expected Zuko to be there. Then, he tilted his head, as though confused once he took a second to see who it really was.
Zuko was entirely distracted by the person behind Iroh, however. It was Aiga; carrying Iroh's Fire Nation garb that his father wanted him beheaded in. It was meant to make a statement.
"What...what's she doing here?" Zuko asked, wondering why they'd pulled her away from Katara for this.
"Huh? Well, I'm not gonna carry his stuff. It's heavy," one of the guards snorted, though that wasn't the question Zuko had exactly meant.
"No, I mean, why...her?"
"Wasn't doing much in the kitchens. Figured this was a better use of her time," the third guard said flippantly. Zuko tilted his head. He knew that many guards looked down on maids, trying to feel superior in some way, even though they were treated just as unjustly in many matters, but were they so haughty that they didn't know the difference between a handmaid and a kitchen maid?
"But she's not-"
Aiga caught his eyes. She gave a sharp shake of her head. Stop asking questions, she mouthed to him, leaving him more mystified.
His Uncle made no motion at all. He seemed purposely like he was not meeting Zuko's gaze, but rather something beyond Zuko.
"With all due respect, I'm not sure you're supposed to be here, Prince Zuko," one of the guards said apologetically, moving closer to Iroh, as though they expected Zuko to try to fight him out.
"I just...can't I even have a second with him?" Zuko sounded like a child, he knew. He was sure that this look was unbecoming for a Prince, but he was out of options.
The guard looked at Zuko with sympathy. "Your father's orders. You know that. He trumps your wishes."
Zuko exhaled, trying to keep himself together. He was not about to admit defeat, but at the same time, Iroh wasn't even looking at him. He felt alone, more so than ever.
He turned, telling himself to take a moment to compose himself, but unfortunately ran smack-dab into a kitchen maid, an actual kitchen maid. She'd been so quiet on her feet that he hadn't even heard her coming around the corner.
The clang as the pots hit the floor was a cacophony. Zuko yelped as hot soup poured over him and the floor, splattering all over his clothes, the walls, and the guards. The soup was scalding hot, and the guards exclaimed out too, jumping around as they patted the liquid as though they were patting out a fire. One of the guards slipped, almost comically, and hit a side-table, knocking a vase from it.
The fourth guard jumped to catch it before it hit the floor, knowing that this vase was worth more than all their salaries together. One of the handles cracked off, which had the fourth guard cussing at the second guard.
As they picked themselves up, groaning, and as Zuko carefully eased himself to stand, using the wall as a guide, there was a beat of silence.
Iroh and Aiga were...gone.
"Where'd the prisoner go?" one of the guards demanded.
"I don't...I don't know!" the third blubbered, still rubbing soup from his face, holding the chains in horror.
"Well, he didn't just vanish into thin air!" the first guard snarled, spinning around. Despite his declaration, it seemed that's exactly what they'd done. One moment they were standing there...the next, they were simply...missing.
"Did you plan this?" a guard demand of Zuko.
"You think I'm what, a magician? That I snapped my fingers and sent him away? Are you crazy?" Zuko was past his point of being reasonable. Despite how glad he was, or assumed he should be, he was sure he was really hallucinating right now. If the four guards were not equally as stupefied, Zuko would say he had tipped over the line of sanity.
"You!" The second guard pointed to the kitchen maid, who was trying to gather the dented metal pots back onto her serving tray. She was blubbering in the background, horrified at her blunder (which honestly had been mostly Zuko's fault).
The second guard stalked up to her and slapped her hard across the face, so hard that the sound echoed and she hit the floor. "You just aided a prisoner! You'll hang for this!"
"Hey!" Zuko yelled, wrenching the guard's arm back so that it cracked a bit. Good! "You are not allowed to talk to her like that!" he snarled, "And you are certainly not allowed to touch her."
"She just made us lose the biggest traitor, second to the Avatar!" the guard spat, "And you're saying we should be merciful? She should be glad her brain isn't scattered on the ground right now!"
"Oh? And you think my father will really believe it was a kitchen maid who allowed him to escape, a tiny little thing compared to, oh, I don't know, the four guards who were supposed to be taking him to the arena?" Zuko pointed out, "This seems more like a 'you' problem. She was just in the wrong place at the wrong time! I think you're deflecting."
The second guard sneered at her, moving backward and rubbing his shoulder blade, but his face was pale. The faces of each guard seemed to be some unhealthy shade right now; whether it be red in the face, white as a ghost, purple as though he hadn't taken a breath since realizing Iroh was missing, or close to a green hue.
"We...we...he just disappeared! You can tell your father that, right? Verify it." Guard three seemed like he was about shit himself, looking at the empty spot where Iroh was supposed to be.
"I don't know what I saw!" That was the honest truth. "And even if I did, I doubt my father would believe me."
Zuko turned to the maid who was still on the ground. She was touching her cheek, which was bright red and bleeding a little from hitting the floor with such force.
"Hey, are you okay?" he asked gingerly. He didn't know as well as he knew all the handmaids, but he recognized her.
The maid looked up, at the guard he thought for a second, but then he realized it was even past their view. It seemed she was staring, just for a moment, at the wall, gaze unfocused. Zuko winced; maybe that guard had knocked a screw loose in her brain.
"Yes," she said with a soft smile, "I'm perfectly fine."
XXxx
Katara felt as though she was reeling; how had she completely missed it? Seeing the two of them in the guards' hold, she could tell that this was no spring romance between her brother and her friend, this was something deep. She'd been too shocked to realize it, but as she sat in her bedroom, refusing to come out, mourning what she felt was an inevitable loss of her handmaid and of Toph, she recalled how tenderly Sokka had looked at the earthbender.
Her brother in love, that in itself was a strange idea. But what was stranger? The way Toph had turned her head, looking back at him. Just a brief moment, something quietly passed between the two.
And in that moment, she knew that as unbelievable as it seemed, Toph was in love too.
You had to be truly besotted to do something so reckless.
She was going to pay with her life and for what? For a few quick kisses in the halls? For sweet nothings under the cover of night? For longing looks across a ballroom?
Perhaps Katara did not understand the depth of their love. On some level, she was shocked she had been so blind.
As she looked back, it was all so clear on both sides. How Toph had been so excited that Sokka was coming – spirits, were they already in the process of falling for each other far back then? Or how Sokka was always grumpy whenever Toph was gone.
She cried, even after she was sure she had no more tears because she wished it was different. She wanted them to have their life, their love. She wanted Mai to fall off a cliff, Zuko to pardon them both, and everything to be fine. She wanted to be at their wedding and tease her brother and by spirits, tease Toph too.
She wanted to let them grow old or grow apart, but great Tui, she wished they had that chance.
And she did not want Sokka to have to grow with the guilt about how it turned out. She knew it would fester and creep upon him. She knew he'd always blame himself.
She knew that this sort of agony would eat away at him on the inside.
Zuko had saved Sokka's life, sure, but at what cost? With what sort of aftermath?
All of Katara's worries seemed so insignificant now. To imagine her own romance with Zuko at all seemed wrong and out of focus. She couldn't even think of that right now, all she could do was wish she could comfort her brother and try to fix things.
Not everything could be fixed, but she would try and try and try until the universe proved her wrong.
But she didn't know how to mend this break, or bring people back from the dead, or save Aang and Ty Lee. She felt sick to her stomach, and even though she'd only had some plain rice, it threatened to rise back up.
She didn't know how many friends she'd still have when the next morning came.
There was a knock at her door. She sprung up, hoping to see Aiga.
"Yes?" She answered it breathlessly.
"Katara."
"Zuko-" Katara felt her eyes water as she looked at him, her throat closing up, "I…"
What did she say to him? Thank you for saving my brother but condemning Toph? I'm sorry about Iroh? Aang is in deep shit now, isn't he? There were so many threads, so many little issues that all were tangled in one knot, impossible to pick up just one.
Zuko had a reason to be here; this was not merely a procedural visit.
"Is Aiga with you?"
"No, uhm," Katara frowned, letting him move into her room. Rather, he plowed right by her. "She's…" She was trying to figure out how to tell Zuko that she was scared of what Aiga may do next.
"Do you know where she is?" Zuko seemed pale.
"Zuko, what's going on?" Katara asked, reaching out for him. She felt his forehead. "You're burning up! You look half-way to death."
"I think I'm hallucinating…" He mumbled with a raw laugh, "Katara, I'm going crazy."
"When was the last time you slept?" Katara asked. For as awful as a time as she was going through – and yes she may have him beat just slightly – his life was also thrown into chaos. Katara could shut herself in her room and catch a few hours of rest. Zuko, however, she imagined could not.
Before Zuko could answer or elaborate why he thought he was going mad, there was a cough at Katara's door. She turned to see Lu Ten there. Was the entire Royal Family going to come into her bedchamber this evening? she wondered with a snort.
Lu Ten looked at Zuko, no surprise to see him present, then his eyes floated to Katara. There was a shared moment, something hard to describe, but it felt like a split acknowledgment. Katara, staring at Lu Ten and trying to summon the words to say that she was in agony that his father was going to die, and Lu Ten giving her a feeling that he understood her ever-switching relief and pain at the outcomes of Sokka and Toph. It was quick; hardly a second, but that interaction between the pair made Katara feel closer to Lu Ten, like another older brother, instead of merely Zuko's cousin in this competition. She doubted she'd get a quarter of the depth of those feelings from Azula if they passed each other in the halls now.
"Oh, good, you're both together," Lu Ten said with a nod. Zuko exhaled and all his words came spilling out in one breath.
"Lu, Iroh's-"
"I know," Lu Ten said, cutting him off. "Quite the mysterious happening, isn't it?"
"Wait, I thought...I thought he was supposed to be executed today. I thought maybe that's why you were here, to gather us for the...uhm, when it's happening." Katara cut in, shaking her head out. It seemed impossible to keep up with all that was happening. She turned to Zuko and it seemed he meant to tell her, but things were already moving again, and at a quick pace.
"Considering he's missing, his execution has been momentarily pushed back. Rather hard to punish someone for treason when you don't have them around. Toph's is still set for a few hours from now."
"What?" Katara choked out.
"He vanished in front of my eyes, Katara," Zuko said from behind and she spun, noticing how wide-eyed he seemed. "Just...poof." He made a little motion with his hands and laughed a bit.
Okay, yep, Zuko was definitely insane.
She looked back to Lu Ten imploringly, hopefully, willing Zuko's cousin to step in. She had a feeling if Zuko laid down anywhere at this point, he'd fall asleep.
"Are you two busy?" he asked instead.
"I was going to try to see Toph before-"
"Let me rephrase," Lu Ten said with a wry smile, "You two need to come with me."
"Okay?" It wasn't exactly as though Katara could say no. She sent a questioning look at Zuko, but she wasn't sure he saw it. His eyes looked a bit hazy, a bit like he was sleeping with his eyes open while standing.
Lu Ten led them through a maze in the Palace. And Katara meant that literally; yes, the layout of the Royal Palace took a day to get used to, but she'd gotten used to it. Now, though, Lu Ten weaved them unreasonably through the halls and stairways and rooms. Katara was beginning to think he was going crazy too. Wherever their location was, there was a much easier way to get there, and she wasn't sure if Lu Ten was doing this to be cruel or otherwise, but he wasn't giving much away. Every time Katara tried to ask he'd just say 'oh, we'll get there soon'.
He stopped abruptly and Katara nearly ran into his back.
"What are-"
"Shh!" he hissed. "Oh, Lady Katara, lovely painting right here, wouldn't you agree?" he asked in an absolutely normal tone. Before her stood a wooden side-table with a fabric runner below a very large painting that wasn't anything special. But Lu Ten was motioning to it.
"It's ahh, a painting of an apple tree?" Katara was unsure what was so fantastic about it. Before Lu Ten could reply, the walls right underneath the table moved aside, startling Katara. She might have made a sound had Lu Ten not slapped a hand over her mouth. He lifted the runner and motioned for her to go into the hole.
"Quickly!" he instructed in a short, nearly inaudible whisper. Katara looked at the hole, then back at him, then back to Zuko. "Do you trust me?" he hissed.
Of course, she did, she realized and crawled into the wall, Zuko right behind. Lu Ten brought up the rear.
The area she was in was high enough for her to stand. There was a movement to her left, a girl coming from the shadows, and Katara silenced herself this time. She wordlessly handed Katara a lit torch. Zuko frowned, lighting his own fingers. With the light softly bathing the area, she watched as Lu Ten and the girl moved the wall piece back where it was.
It was a laundry maid; Katara recognized the uniform she was wearing.
"This way," she said, waving a hand for the trio to follow. She was motioning to a set of stairs that seemed to disappear into complete shadows. From how stretched it seemed, Katara figured it would take them miles below the palace above, but it was hard to say as she could not distinguish the end from the tiny landing they were squished in currently.
"Yes, let's follow her through the unfamiliar back passages into the darkness," Katara muttered, but she was unsure Lu Ten or Zuko heard her.
They seemed to traverse a great length of the Palace underground. There were a couple of places they seemed to switch routes, going through wooden and creaky doors or down steps. Katara had no idea what was above them anymore, and if she were with anyone else, she'd be worried she was going to get murdered down here.
Soon the walls opened up and Katara recognized some of the tunnels from the ones they'd hid in during the attacks on the palace. They didn't stay there long though and were brought to a large room that smelled like stagnant water and had a chill.
The maid took Katara's torch and used it to light a handful hanging on the walls. Lu Ten and Zuko helped her light the others.
As the rooms were cast into the light, there was a figure talking quietly to another maid at the far end of it.
"Uncle Iroh!" Zuko gasped, running across to hug him.
"Zuko, you should not have been in that hallway," Iroh said with a hint of disapproval. "You shouldn't have been anywhere near me."
"I wanted to...say goodbye," Zuko whispered, a bit confused at his frown. Iroh dropped his scowl and sighed, touching Zuko's face softly.
"Did you really believe I would walk willingly to my death, son?"
"Dad, are you alright?" Lu Ten asked.
"A bit sore in the wrists. It's been a long time since I've moved like that. I think I need to work out," Iroh laughed, slapping his stomach.
"What is going on?" Katara whispered, and it was meant to be a side-comment to herself, but the room bounced her voice around.
"It's going to be alright, Princess," Iroh said with a wide smile, "We're all going to be alright."
To their side, a passageway opened from the earthen wall, and Aang and Ty Lee stumbled into the circle, another maid with them. Aang and Ty Lee were covered in dirt and were looking bewildered, but safe.
"You idiot!" Zuko crossed the space, hitting Aang's arm hard before pulling him into a hug. "I could kill you!"
"I'm glad you're safe," Katara agreed, hugging Aang as soon as Zuko stepped back, and then Ty Lee.
"Avatar Aang." The laundry maid that had led Katara down stood before him. She bowed down to the dirt, a sign of ultimate reverence, which made Aang frown at the gesture.
"Please, don't. I'm still just me." He said uneasily, looking at Ty Lee for support. She rubbed his shoulder, smiling lightly.
"You're the Avatar. I think you'll have to get used to that," She murmured with a hint of a giggle. Aang sighed but still looked a tad frustrated. The maid stood, reaching for her side. She opened a sack that Katara hadn't seen her carrying to reveal Momo. Aang's eyes lit up immediately.
"Buddy! Oh, I thought you were a goner for sure!" Aang cried, hugging the marsupial and burying his face into the soft fur.
"He did not like being put into a bag," the maid said with a frown, "But I gave him some nuts and he quieted down."
There was some more talking from the passageway that Katara had been lead through. She spun around, ready to fight, but relaxed when she realized that they were just normal people; a few mothers and fathers, some elderly, and children. Airbenders? she wondered curiously.
Shoji was helping one woman walk, and she wondered if it was his mother. He nodded to Zuko and Katara, helping the woman sit on a stone before he checked on the others.
"We're just waiting for a few more," Iroh said evenly.
As Katara gazed around, she realized with a startling jolt that there were just as many maids as there were others. They seemed to slip into the shadows, unnoticed until she counted and forced herself to see them.
She looked at Zuko, but he seemed just as confused as she did, along with Aang and Ty Lee.
Someone exploded through the wall.
"I dunno why you don't let me at those fuckers! I could have taken 'em! Kill Toph? Please, they'd need an army!" Toph snapped as she stomped into the room, followed by Aiga and her own handmaid, Mayu, following behind.
"There are children here, Toph," Zuko groaned, motioning to a handful of kids under the age of ten.
"Toph," Katara turned toward her, suddenly nervous. She wasn't just looking at her friend, she was looking at her friend and her brother's girlfriend. They could be sisters, if the secret had been kept, or if Toph and Sokka had met in another life. She had always hoped she would be close with Sokka's future significant other, but it was startling that she already was. In any other circumstance, she'd be over the moon. Now, she was just unsure how her emotions were shaking out.
Still, even with everything that had happened, Katara smiled and wiped the tears from her eyes. Toph was going to live.
"Get over here," She mumbled, tugging on Toph's arm, pulling her tightly into a hug. She knew Toph would deny it if she brought it up, but Toph hugged her back just as desperately, "I thought you...you were..." She hiccuped, tone watery, "Both of you."
Toph pulled back, laughing a bit. Katara wanted to ask a million questions but only one seemed appropriate right now, or perhaps it was the one that won over her knowledge that there were other, bigger machinations at play.
"You and Sokka?"
"Sugar Queen," Toph said in half-greeting, half laughter, and despite how she tried to sound casual, her voice broke a little bit. "I, uhm, we were gunna tell ya. We just didn't know how."
Katara considered this, nodding. It would have been dangerous to do at nearly any point, and it was hardly something that Toph could have told her over morning tea. Equally, she knew Sokka would be hard-pressed to find the right time. After all of it, though she was still a bit hurt, she understood the difficulty of coming clean. She wanted to believe that Toph and Sokka hadn't meant to keep her in the dark with any malicious intent, and so thusly, she choose to be satisfied with Toph's words. Now, truly, there was only one question that mattered.
"Does he make you happy?" Katara asked, playing with the hem of her dress.
"Yeah. That meathead is something else, but he's my meathead, ya know?" Toph said, which she figured was about as close to a big declaration of love as she was going to get from the tiny girl.
"-couldn't get Sokka out, sir," Aiga was saying to Iroh in a hushed tone. Toph snapped her head around, as did Katara. "They moved Toph, like you thought they would, so we were able to intercept her. They're not moving Sokka, and I…" She inhaled hard. "But we can try again if-"
"I can go break him out! Easy," Toph stood to move, but Mayu held her back.
"Be still, Lady Bei Fong," Iroh said calmly. "Thank you Aiga, we will consider it in a moment."
"Still? My boyfriend's locked up by you crazy yahoos, and you want me to do nothing?" Toph demanded, snarling.
"Exactly. Nothing," Iroh said, "For now. We're trying to keep your head from the chopping block, Lady Bei Fong, and right now you're the fourth most-wanted person in the nation. Next to me, of course, as well as your friends." He nodded gently in the direction of Aang and Ty Lee.
"But I-"
"Young love is quite beautiful, but we must be careful not to run foolishly into a trap. Your concern is something I'm sure the Prince will be pleased with, but risking your life he would not. I know it seems difficult, but think of the true possibility that you would fail and send both of you into a worse fate." Iroh patted her hand sympathetically.
"I just..." Toph deflated, face taught, "I don't wanna leave him there. I was in those prisons. They suck, man."
"We seem to all be here, or at least enough." Iroh motioned to Aiga before turning back to Toph and Katara too, "We will figure out how to save Prince Sokka too," he said, and when he spoke, it did sound like a promise.
"Uncle, what is going on?" Zuko asked.
"Do you know what this means?" Aang piped up, holding up a Pai Sho playing tile. This seemed to mean something to Zuko, for he swung his head wildly to Lu Ten.
"Welcome to the Gray Lotus," Iroh said with a wide smile, "The best secret society you will never take notice of."
"Isn't that how a secret society is supposed to work?" Toph snorted. A few people laughed. Though not her intention, it started to ease the mood.
"There are other groups that in time will become more obvious. The Gray Lotus is of my own invention. I belong to another group, the White Lotus, who are made up of mostly rich, upper-class citizens. People who have money to move and change the way of things through influence. However, even in my youth, I noticed there was a group of people in the palace who were practically invisible to everyone around them: maids."
At a wave of his hand, the girls peeled from the walls and moved between the gathered. They were now outnumbered, girls in their uniforms standing quietly with soft smiles.
"It is so named not to say that we are gray morally, but because the color gray changes to whatever it needs to be. You put a gray next to one color and it appears lighter, gray next to a different color...darker. Gray exists everywhere and yet and is often forgotten, easily looked over in favor of more colorful shades. And there is a power within that."
"A secret society made up of maids?" Zuko said, staring at each of their faces, "Incredible."
"A maid can gain entrance to anywhere she needs to with no question. A maid stands in the corner of every room, and most ignore them. A maid is often one of thousands, and few know their names or distinguish one from the other. A maid knows every secret entrance built into the palace, built for the very purpose of a maid waiting on hand and foot at the request of a Royal," Lu Ten said with a snap of his fingers," Like that. And, Toph, of course, didn't tell Ozai all the secret passages that existed. Smart girl. Like this room...completely off the map. And, even if you stumbled upon a passageway, you would likely never find this area unless you knew how to get here."
"So you've been part of it...the whole time?" Katara asked, turning to Aiga. "Are all maids…?"
"Most of us, yes," Aiga bowed her head.
"My brother put me in charge of hiring maids not long after he became the Fire Lord. It was meant to taunt me, to give me a short-stick job," Iroh said with a wide smile, "But little did he know that he was giving me exactly what I needed to mold this idea. So I looked for girls who were clever, witty, and were trying to make their lives better. Girls like your Aiga, who was easy to overlook but had a fire beneath their feet. While I do admit there are likely many worthy girls who have applied, I do hire with a special...goal in mind," Iroh said with a twinkle in his eyes. "It is of course, voluntary."
"Most of us know that General Iroh is a good man. And, up until now, we've only had to interfere in matters of little consequence. Not on this scale, though no one is against helping," a kitchen maid piped up.
"Yes. Previously, it had mostly involved gathering intel. Cleaning maids looking at documents people leave out in their rooms, serving maids overhearing information, trash maids taking important items. Since the start of the Choice, things have only gotten more difficult. To the best of our ability...we've been protecting you. The girls and those who are innocents."
"Sometimes, it's making a girl slightly late for dinner on a day Ozai is being awful, hoping he'll have left before she arrives," Ratana's maid spoke up. Katara did remember one day that Ratana's maid had spilled tea on her dress minutes before going to dinner, making her half an hour late. Of course, Ratana had been so frustrated and had complained about her maid to the other ladies in the dining room. At the time, Katara herself had been in agreement that having a clumsy maid was vexing.
"Or, making suggestions and making you think that you thought of them, such as keeping a girl in the Ladies Room," Yue's maid added. Though it was only two examples, Katara felt like she was now spinning through every interaction with Aiga, wondering how much of it was Aiga pulling the springs.
"But now, we might have pulled off one of the most ambitious plans yet." Iroh was preening like a proud father. "The Royal Family, my brother, would never give maids so much credit," he said with a mischievous grin.
He turned to Toph, Ty Lee, and Aang. "All of us cannot show our faces here again, or we may not get so lucky a second time. I understand that there is a place where Airbenders are gathered, is there not?"
"Yes, Uncle," Zuko said, "You plan to go there?"
"And regroup, yes. Live to fight another day. As such, we're not entirely going alone." He waved his hand. "And you are welcome to come, too. You and Katara, and Sokka, if it goes that far."
Zuko startled. He turned to Lu Ten.
"I'm staying," Lu Ten said. "Someone must continue the Gray Lotus in my father's absence. I was only let into the secret this morning, but it is of utmost importance that we continue our work," he said. "We'll do what we can to protect those remaining and still gather information."
"If we leave, we're leaving in a few hours. I am sorry you were not given more notice, but time is of the essence," Iroh said quietly to Zuko and Katara. Zuko stared at his Uncle, then at the group of people, and frowned. He looked at Aang, at Toph, and finally at Katara.
Katara had no idea what to think.
Zuko grasped Katara's hand and pulled her out of the big room, back into the passageway, out of the view of everyone.
"Katara." Zuko kissed her palm. "You should go with them."
"Are you… not coming?" She gleaned, staring up at him.
"I can't." He spoke in a low, hushed tone. "If I leave, my father will give Azula the crown. The girls will be sent home, but I can't promise they will be safe. What I do know will happen, though, is that many people will be harmed and die. The search for Airbenders will be without any roadblocks, and my father will call for my head too. I'm equally as unsafe here, but at least here, I am still the heir apparent. I have more pull. I can't abandon everyone, I just can't." His eyes were shining with tears. "But I cannot bear to see you hurt. And I have done so much to hurt you."
"You haven't done anything more than what you had to do," Katara insisted. "If you're staying, I'm staying."
"No, please-"
"Zuko...we're partners. Blue Spirit and the Painted Lady, right?" she reminded him with a soft smile. "And I will not leave you alone here."
"Even if I beg?"
"I'm far too stubborn for my own good, remember?" Katara whispered back. Zuko gave a dry laugh, pulling her into a hug, resting his chin on her head.
"If you end up hurt because of this…"
"Then you can blame me, not you. I probably ran head-first into danger anyway," Katara said, squeezing his hand.
They stayed hugging for just a moment before Zuko strode back into the room.
"I'm staying here, and so is Katara."
Iroh nodded. He looked disappointed, but resigned, as though he'd expected this answer, but had desperately hoped his own expectations wrong.
"Princess," Shoji had come to stand next to Katara and she had not even realized it, "I... I know I am indebted to you, but I cannot leave the Avatar alone. I have protected him for all these months and I beg you to allow me to leave with him."
"Shoji, I'm sure Aang will feel better knowing he has such a loyal friend and warrior with him." She hugged him. "I would be angry if you did not go."
"If you three are staying, you should go back up, before you are missed," Iroh instructed Lu Ten, Katara, and Zuko. "Worry not about us, though. I worry more about you."
"What about Sokka?" Toph piped up, trying to sound brave.
"Springing someone from a jail cell is much more difficult than moving them in the palace." Lu Ten rubbed his chin. "Maids aren't allowed in the cell blocks. I don't trust any guard, except for Guardsman Shoji, because he owes Katara a life debt. And I especially don't trust Prison Guards. I will have to think on this one, but I assure you Toph, we will save him before something befalls him. He might just be a few days late. Certainty, before his punishment comes to be, whatever they decide it is."
Toph looked ready to scream or argue, but even she recognized the danger she may put both of them in if she tried to release him now. Plus, she seemed to be keeping her focus on where Iroh was. Katara expected that though Iroh was so gentle, he would not hesitate to incapacitate or knock Toph out for the good of the group if she were going to try something stupid. Katara thought that Toph, as bone-headed as she was, also was coming to this conclusion.
"You also won't be staying until he is released. You'll be going with the group tonight," Lu Ten said, watching Toph's face.
"You just thought of it all, huh," Toph muttered angrily, arms crossed. She dropped her pose, walking up to Katara. "Betcha thought you'd never see the day I'd wanna stay in the palace for a guy, huh?"
"Well, no," Katara admitted, "But I believe you told me to expect the unexpected with you. So maybe I should have known."
"Tell him I love 'em when you see him," Toph said in a moment of sincerity, "And that I expect his goofy smile only a few days behind me."
"How do you know he has a goofy smile?" Zuko scratched his head.
"Even without sight I can tell he looks like a doofus half the time, but that's what I sorta like about him." Toph snorted, "When I first realized I had a crush, I thought I must have been going insane. Maybe I still am. You gonna do that though, Sugar Queen?"
"I will." Katara gasped Toph in a strong and possibly final hug. "Be safe."
"Oh, c'mon. You should worry about everyone I meet along the way that tries to stop me," Toph cackled.
"Katara, I will take you all back up," Aiga said with a tight face.
Katara nodded, looking across the group one last time. She had no idea if she'd ever see any of them again.
And, she knew Aiga's face well enough.
She was silent until the last leg of their trip back to the halls.
"You're going too, aren't you? That was your family down there…" Katara inhaled hard, in despair at the thought of losing Aiga.
"I am," Aiga said simply. "Someone began to suspect I was doing more than just being your handmaid. We're not sure who, but attacking my family was a warning that I needed to stop what we were doing. I am not so persuaded but at the same time...I cannot ask my family to be placed in danger again."
"And if you stayed here...you'd be in danger as well," Katara finished.
"Assumedly, yes," Aiga said with a watery smile.
"Then you must go," Katara agreed. "And well, I'll struggle through putting on my clothes all by myself. And I will gladly go down to lunch with mismatched ribbons in my hair knowing you are alive and well," Katara said.
They hugged and whispered goodbyes, and soon enough, Aiga was gone, leaving Zuko, Lu Ten, and Katara behind the wall.
"What happens now?" Zuko asked in a soft voice.
"You go to bed." Katara snorted.
"No, I can't I-"
"Yes," Both Lu Ten and Katara said in unison.
"Cousin, get some rest. Agni knows we'll need it. Because…" He opened the wall for them and they were at a different hallway, one that not many people used, "I honestly have no idea what happens now."
Notes:
Sorry it took so long, but at least it's a lengthy one!
Did anyone see the twist with the Gray Lotus? Some of you had close guesses for why Aiga's family was attacked! Also, I know loads of you were angry at Mai after last chapter, but maybe this will shed some more light on it! She has no lost love for Toph, but I don't write Mai to be malicious, ya know?
Things have been busy for me and three weeks from now sorta starts to edge into Christmas territory. I'm at the age where my siblings and I are flung out all over so it's really a special time for me to get to see them, if I get to see them at all. With that in mind, I don't want to get hopes up about a chapter with a definitive date. Usually, it takes about three weeks for me to write, edit, and have my beta edit a chapter so it's doubtful it would be sooner. Just manage expectations for the release date chapter 32 I suppose!
For girls that are curious, here are the contestants that still remain in the palace and competition (in no particular order):
1. Katara
2. Yue
3. Mai
4. Smellerbee
5. Suki
6. Ratana
7. Alcina
8. Nadhari
9. On Ji
Chapter 33
Notes:
Happy New Year!
Chapter Text
"There's a meeting in the Ladies' Room. Are you okay, Katara?" Yue pushed Katara's door open softly. "You've been asleep all day."
Katara sat up in her bed, rubbing her eyes. She was certainly tired, given that Lu Ten had dragged them all through the palace the previous night, and given the exhausting internal turmoil that came with it, but she supposed one would see many other reasons why Katara had overslept.
"Doing as well as I can." That was the truth. "Erm, Aiga had to...return to her family. I'm not sure when she'll be back. Are we still wearing mourning colors?" Katara asked.
This was what Zuko, Lu Ten, and Katara had decided late last night. Shoji's grandmother had taken a turn for the worse, so he and his mother were given emergency leave, and Aiga had quit, needing to care for her family too. This is what they'd tell others, at least. Sure, it was awfully convenient if people put pieces together, but the average person wouldn't and that was what mattered.
"Yes," Yue's voice was heavy with sadness, "I pray you are given a new handmaid soon."
Katara wanted to reply that she doubted she'd ever want anyone but Aiga, but she just nodded, slipping out of bed to find an acceptable white dress.
The last nine contestants gathered in the Ladies' Room. There were a few whispers, but it was mostly quiet, and not merely for the scarcity of numbers. After everything that had occurred, it seemed everyone was waiting for yet another terrible announcement.
Zuko entered the room with Zhi. He looked less tired, less likely to fall asleep right there, which told Katara he'd had a few hours of slumber. Not enough to make him look totally healthy, but enough so that she worried less.
"I just wanted to congratulate all of you for making it this far. It's quite the feat. One of you is one step closer to becoming my wife," he said, and a few girls perked up at his warm words. Then, he sighed.
"On a more somber note, I regret to inform you that Iroh - now separated from his military status or Royal Title - as well as Lady Bei Fong, has been executed."
Katara swallowed hard. Even though she knew both to be alive and well and far, far away, she knew she had to look properly horrified and sad. It wasn't hard; even imagining the terrible reality that nearly befell the pair was enough to make her tear up.
Around the room, the girls reacted with horror and deep sadness. Smellerbee stumbled a bit and Ratana helped her to a chair, after which both girls broke out in tears. Though Ratana tried to keep hers lady-like, Smellerbee cried loudly and painfully.
Yue touched her heart, lips quivering, eyes filling with liquid. On Ji looked down, shaking her head slowly. Alcina dropped herself to the floor, pressing her hands to her lips, her body shuddering as she tried to hold back her own tears. Suki grasped Katara's hand, turning away, and inhaled hard. Katara looked at Mai, expecting glee or some sort of happiness since she'd been the one to cause Toph's 'death,' but she was shocked to see Mai quickly wiping away tears at the edges of her eyes. Even Nadhari looked stunned, eyebrows knit and face pale.
"I thought it was to be a public event?" Suki managed to ask, voice quivering. Katara was glad; she was sure this was some sort of cover but feared risking revealing her shared knowledge if she spoke.
"I convinced my father that Iroh and Toph were once celebrated. Despite their actions, it would look poorly to make a spectacle. They deserved the honor of no audience. Plus, we should not take their deaths as a marked event, something that encourages those who wish to seek fame. It was better, all things considered, to have it done quietly." Zuko lied easily, and Katara wondered if he and Lu Ten had cooked this up, or if this was Ozai trying to not admit that he'd let Toph and Iroh slip away. Either way, it was best. It would be foolish for either to show their faces anywhere, so they were safe for now.
"But...I heard that Iroh vanished from a hallway!" On Ji said, eyes wide.
"A lie." Zuko shook his head. "We're not sure who began it...whether it be someone trying to undermine our power here or a stupid rumor meant as a joke. I can confirm with my own eyes that my uncle was put to death last night." The pain in his voice was real enough.
"...What of the Avatar and Ty Lee?" Mai spoke up quietly, and though her expression was flat, it showed a great deal of worry on her part to even ask.
"Still unsure on their location, but we are working diligently to find the hide-out of these traitors and see to it that they are shown justice as well," Zuko said. Mai nodded, but her shoulders dropped in utter relief.
"We understand these are difficult and turbulent times, so we will be giving you all a few days to work through your feelings, no requirements from us. If you have any more questions, please reach out to me. I wish to help all of you through this," Zuko said earnestly. "The trip to the wetlands of the Earth Kingdom is pushed back a few days," he added, looking at Alcina who was the lone person left slated to take this trip. Katara wondered idly if he'd be adding more girls on?
"Thank you, Prince Zuko," Ratana bowed to him, "For telling us."
Zuko bowed back, to all the girls, and left.
"Toph's dead…" Alcina whispered in horror as soon as he was gone. "And Ty Lee is an Airbender. It almost seems like it's all a dream, huh?"
And honestly, truly, Katara wished it were.
XxXxXx
Two days later and Katara was feeling more alone than she ever had before. Though she and Zuko seemed to be on an upwards path, their friendship and romance hardly made up for all the ghosts she felt were completely choking her at every turn.
She was still waking up, hoping for Aiga to be there.
She was turning to where Toph would sit during dinner to joke with her.
She was searching for Ty Lee in the Ladies' Room to share a feeling of reassurance.
She was expecting Aang to be in the line of the Royal Family, and Iroh too, one with a wide-happy smile and one with sage advice.
She was about to search the halls for Shoji to ask him to do small favors for her.
She walked by her brother's old room a thousand times, always naively hoping he'd be behind the door and ready to give her a hug.
She was the keeper of all their spirits, which danced in every corner of the room and she was furious no one else saw it. She had lost almost everyone she cared about; had she and Zuko still be in a fight, she would have packed up and gone home.
As it was, that was still a consideration, especially in light of Sokka's secrets revealed.
Her parents had sent many frantic messages, but Katara had been unable to answer any with something that would make them feel better. She wasn't even sure he'd be okay, despite Iroh's promise, and even if he was, she couldn't tell them that.
Many, even if he was given his life as a 'gift', demanded his removal as the attendant from the Southern Water Tribe, which Katara understood. She had no idea who would come in his stead, or if he'd be allowed to remain here at all, but this was one of the least concerning issues. If he was released from the palace as it was, that might be for the better, and he could search out Toph without any interference or expectations of jobs here.
What was worse was that Ozai had declared no more food would be sent to Katara's tribe, at least until a 'more suitable diplomat with the proper respect' would come to the Fire Nation to basically grovel at his feet. It didn't matter that Katara was in the top ten contestants and still ranking highly. It didn't matter that it would be at least a week before anyone could make it out to the Fire Nation, and she doubted her parents would send someone immediately, recklessly. It didn't matter that he was pulling on the threads of the livelihood of everyone there, threatening their means of existence.
Ozai did not care. He had almost all but given the Southern Water Tribe a death sentence.
Katara had not even been allowed to attend the meeting where he'd declared this. Ozai was 'disgusted' by the look of any Southerner after one such 'broke his son's heart', which was a bold lie in every way. He had been looking forever for reasons to hate Katara and her people and, frustratingly, Sokka had given him the perfect one.
Lu Ten and Zuko had objected, as well as a few Fire Sages. This was expected. Unexpectedly, both Hahn and Arrluk had voiced their disapproval of the plan too, citing that this wasn't fair and coming to Katara's aid, but apparently, Ozai had already made up his mind. The 'meeting' was more procedural than anything - Ozai had little interest in being swayed. Katara had not been invited to this meeting.
"Thanks for trying," Katara told Arrluk, sighing.
"Will your tribe be okay?" Arrluk asked. "I can write to Chief Arnook and tell him to help! We can send food, now that our tribes are talking again. I'm sure he'd-"
"Don't give yourself a reason to be hated by the Fire Lord too," Katara winced, but was warmed by his sense of kinship. "We'll survive. We always have."
Though, she could not be entirely sure of this herself.
"Fucking sucks." Hahn shook his head. "I swear Ozai gets off on power, you know?"
"You're just figuring that out now?" Katara couldn't help but laugh a bit. "Any news on Sokka?"
"No," Arrluk frowned, "He's alive, I guess, but that's about all. We tried asking."
She had expected as much but still felt a stab to her heart at these words. She sighed, shaking her head before looking out at the garden before her. She'd felt so stifled in her room and she had to escape somewhere. These gardens were hardly used, especially with so few girls left in the competition, but the cool breezes still did not help her the sense of dread that thudded in her chest.
As the trio of Water Tribe members sat, someone passed by on the breezeway. It was the daughter of a politician, giggling with her friend. When she saw the three, she spat a nasty word, directed at all of them. Katara was not completely knowledgeable of her Earth Kingdom language, but she understood the idea of it; cheaters, dishonorable, scum.
"You two should go. Any more associating with me and you'll just bring a headache for yourselves."
"Won't make a difference." Arrluk winced. "We're both Water Tribe. Doesn't matter which part of the globe we're from. We've always been looked down on. This has just...exacerbated it," he explained. "And I'd rather be called that name rather than act as though I've forsaken you and Sokka."
"But we probably should go." Hahn nudged Arrluk. "Not because of that bullshit, but we have that meeting. With Pakku."
"Right," Arrluk nodded, "Will you be okay?" It seemed everyone was asking her this these days.
"I can handle myself," Katara said lightly. Arrluk looked ready to say something more but shook his head.
"Find us if you need us," he mumbled, and Hahn gave a short salute before the pair left.
She hardly had enjoyed a minute of silence when she saw Zuko's tall figure coming quickly through the gardens toward her.
"Katara, we have a problem."
Katara motioned for him to sit. "Zuko, you say that as though having a problem is an uncommon thing. When don't we have a problem?"
She was pleased to see Zuko smile and chuckle, a momentary respite from whatever was bothering him. "True," he agreed, but then his face darkened once more. "But when I say we have a problem, I really mean it."
"It's not...Aang, is it?" Horrible thoughts that Aang and the rest had been captured on their way to safety flashed across her mind. She felt faint; after all that, they couldn't just find him!
"No! No word, which is good news," Zuko assured, "It's your brother."
"What? Is he dying? Is he alive? Is he eating? Zuko, what's wrong!" Katara demanded.
"I tried to talk to him about the plans to get him out, you know, in code. He understood me well enough but he said he'd refuse to go."
"What do you mean?"
"Exactly that!" Zuko hissed, running his fingers through his hair. "He asked me what they're all saying about him. Demanded, actually. I mean, you know that stubbornness runs in your family. So I told him; it was a matter of honor. He is insisting on fixing it. He refuses to run."
"That idiot!" Katara stood up, snarling. "We're trying to save his ass, and of course he has to be all noble!"
"I think we could take him kicking and screaming, but that wouldn't be quiet or aid our hopes, would it?" Zuko's face was grim. "He says once the public opinion of the Water Tribe is 'fixed,' he'll look at options then. Until then...he says the only thing he'll leave his cell for is to face his judgment." Zuko swallowed hard. "And Katara, there weren't many other options."
"Options?" She echoed faintly, terrified for what he was going to say next.
"It was going to be me or my dad and I couldn't let him face Ozai. He'd...Ozai would...it would…" Zuko seemed ready to say something else, but couldn't. He inhaled hard. "It had to be me. It has to. It will."
"Zuko, breathe," Katara rubbed his back comfortingly, "And please, please...tell me what is going to happen to him now?"
"There's only one way to restore honor in a case like this…" Zuko licked his lips, eyes shining with regret. "And that's an Agni Kai."
XXxx
Aang was covered in sweat and dirt, his limbs ached, his head pounded, and he was exhausted.
It had been three days of high anxiety as Iroh and Aiga led the group to safety. Aang still had no idea where the safe location was, per Zuko's agreement with him a long time ago. He woke each day hoping they would reach it and was always frustrated when it seemed they would be spending another night sleeping in someone's barn, hardly more than hay to cushion their heads.
It had been a long, grueling journey. Iroh knew people, but they were a big group and two of their faces were plastered on every inch of every city they visited, hanging on signs and promising lots of money for their return.
Even the best of people, when desperate for money, did things they wouldn't be proud of later...such as turning in the Avatar and his companions.
Still, the people Iroh had faith in were air-tight, and they had made it safely so far. Their accommodations weren't comfortable, far from it. They were squished in boxes, contorting their limbs like acrobats to pass inspection town to town. They were shoved into wagons with mule-pigs and fire-chickens, pressing themselves into the muddy floorboards and underneath the creatures, hoping not to be noticed. They stood in lines in larger caravans, hardly an inch between anyone, and told to stay absolutely and utterly still. They were ferried in the night, by the light of only a lantern, through bogs and rivers and streams and fields with tall grasses, to tiny boats and run-down vehicles.
And the worst part of it? Everyone kept offering Aang the 'best' of each accommodation.
"No, let the elderly and children have it," he kept insisting, uneasy. He was used to being handed the best of the best by his association to the Royal Family, but he hated those in need being passed over for his benefit. It made him feel ill and like a fraud. What sort of hero accepted the singular pillow when there were so many who needed it more?
They laughed, like it was amusing, and pushed. And Aang pushed back. Sometimes, he convinced them. Other times, he did not and found he slept worse when given more room to spread out, feeling guilt eat away inside of him as he listened to the snores of those around him.
More than that, everyone was grumpy. If anyone thought Toph was a terror before this, she seemed monstrous now. All the kids knew more swear words than Aang knew existed, and she was possibly one of the worst travel partners in the history of history. Of course, she was separated from her boyfriend, and that had to be hard, or so Aang sympathized. Still, he wished she'd let up on the curse words a bit.
The only two people that stayed in good moods were Iroh –Aang assumed it was because he knew where they were headed – and Ty Lee. She was a gleam of sunlight in the dim days before him. She was effervescent and warm and kind, always offering food to others first, or playing with the small children and making them laugh, or lending her shoulder and ears for anyone who needed them.
For as much as people were looking at Aang and Iroh for instructions, he noticed they were looking at her too. She took this role in stride, as though she was always meant for more than just being one of Azula's ladies-in-waiting, spending her days lounging in a palace.
Her hair, which fell just short of her shoulders after Azula chopped off her braid during the fight, seemed to float on air whenever she spun. Aang liked her long hair and he liked her short hair; he found out it didn't matter, he liked her either way.
The voices in his mind were quiet. He wondered if his brain functioned slower without enough food or sleep, and therefore the Avatars were affected too. It was probably a blessing; if he had to be shoved into a barrel for twelve hours and he had to spend the entire time hearing Gopan ramble about birds or Kuruk moan about his lost love, he'd have gone insane.
Currently, they were in a small caravan of boats going through a boggy area. The air around him was moist and heavy and there was a cacophony of sounds from everywhere. Iroh was in the front boat, standing at the front like a captain in charge of a military fleet, instead of the measly and tired crew of boats that actually followed.
Aang used his water-bending to move them down the currents. Any other airbenders - Ty Lee, the handful that Iroh had helped escape, and some they'd picked up - propelled the boats forward while the rest steered. Toph was having a miserable time, as her bending helped her in zero ways and she couldn't see a damn thing. Which, he'd heard about a million times.
He looked back, pausing for a moment to see Ty Lee helping a young Airbender, no more than twelve, get the wrist movement right. It was hard to believe she'd only come into her own powers less than a week ago; she seemed like a natural. Something like glee and excitement bubbled inside Aang; he'd been thrilled at the prospect of teaching new benders the craft, but the knowledge that he could have Ty Lee under his tutelage and pass on what was now their shared history made him look forward to the future and whatever lay ahead.
Ty Lee caught him looking and sent a flirty wink his way, causing him to blush full on. He was glad Toph could not read his body language right now, or else she'd be making a snide comment for sure. As it was, she was hung over the side of the boat, her face as green as her clothes.
"We are here," Iroh announced, motioning for the boats to the beach on an embankment to the left.
Aang helped everyone off, frowning. They seemed to be in the middle of literally nowhere.
A whisper came from his left. He spun around, searching for who had spoken but found no one other than the same people he'd been traveling with. Then it was to his right. Then above him.
"Aang, what is it?" Ty Lee asked, grabbing his shirt lightly.
"You don't...hear that?" he asked in true confusion, tilting his head to the warbling and hissing whispers all around him.
"The bugs?" Toph snapped irritably, swatting at a dragonfly the size of her palm. "Yuck! This sucks. I can hardly see with all this water," she said, picking up her feet as they sank into the mossy and wet dirt.
"No…. the voices."
"Ha. Avatar's gone mad," Toph snorted, stalking to join Iroh near the front, "Fantastic."
"I don't hear voices." Ty Lee gripped his arm. "But this place feels...alive."
"I can tell what's alive here: loads of bugs," Shoji agreed.
"I'm picking up an aura. From the swamp," Ty Lee said evenly. "Neither good nor bad. Just, living."
"Riiiight." Shoji said slowly, "Uhm, I'm gonna make sure my mom's okay."
"This way." Iroh was motioning. "Step carefully now."
In front of them was a wide tangle of vines. Aang stepped forward to part them but stumbled back in shock as they parted for him. At first, he was sure it must be some supernatural interference, but his breath caught when he realized a group of men and women - dressed in nothing more but vines and oversized leaves - were moving the vines. At first, he was confused, wondering if this was something invented within the 100-year-war, a new form of bending, until he saw one of the benders move one of the boats to the shore by pushing the waves. Aang's glee was immediate.
"Waterbenders!" he gaped, overcome with relief. Of course! There was liquid in plants, so therefore, waterbenders could move it! Katara had taught him some waterbending basics, and he'd hoped she would teach him more on their escape route, but that had been shot to hell when she'd decided to stay at the palace. Now, the idea of being able to learn waterbending didn't seem so far off anyway. "I didn't know there were more outside of the Poles," he commented.
"Welcome Avatar." The one who seemed like the leader bowed to him. "Swamp's been waitin' for yeh."
Now that the vines were pushed back, they opened to a huge tree that towered miles above Aang's head, casting the whole area in a soft shade. Dotted around the tree were what seemed like a hundred little huts with people milling about everywhere, putting clothes on a line, cooking food, playing ball. There seemed to be just as many swamp-benders as there were others, intermingling all together.
Aang watched, tearing up as he saw a group of young kids kick a ball around while never touching the ground. He had never thought he'd see the day when airbenders walked this earth again, as numerous as the stars in the sky.
"This is Huu," Iroh said, shaking the man's hand, "And he has been quite the asset to keeping this hide-out hidden."
"Who?" Ty Lee asked, blinking.
"Yep, Huu!" The man replied, which seemed to offer no explanations.
"Not to be rude…" Shoji had a sword out in one hand and a fire lit in the other. "But why a swamp?" he asked, trying to fry a bug that flew near his face.
"Better put those away, boy." Huu frowned. "Don't want to upset the swamp."
"Upset it?" Shoji stayed stationary.
"It's alive," Ty Lee scolded, "As I said! That's why you choose here, didn't you?" She turned to Iroh with a tilted head.
"Indeed," Iroh nodded. "The swamp here is a living creature." He patted the tree trunk as though petting an animal. "And it can sense if those come with bad intentions. Shoji, you'd better listen. that goes for all...respect the swamp here and it will protect all of us."
Aang came to stand at the foot of the swamp, frowning. Huu stood behind him, quietly.
"I feel like I'm meant to be here. I thought I was meant to be at the palace, but it's been waiting, hasn't it?" he asked. The voices in his head were startling quiet.
"I wouldn't be surprised."
From the camp, a girl and her father came over to the group. He recognized both immediately: Dhakiya and General Shen. Shen looked exactly as he recalled, back from the moment the general had made it clear that the Avatar had allies at the first ball during the Prince's Choice, even when at the time he thought there was no trouble brewing. Dhakiya, however, looked different. Her skin was tanner, her hair was longer and plaited in a thick braid which hung down her back, and she was fitter. Her grin was also a mile wide.
"Dhakiya!" Ty Lee gasped, rushing up. "Oh, it's so good to see you!" Toph's blind eyes widened in surprise, and she gave a half-wave where she heard Ty's voice coming from. Aang doubted Toph and Dhakiya had been close.
"Ty Lee, imagine my surprise that you're one of us," Dhakiya said. She saw Aang behind her. "Nice to meet you, Avatar Aang," she said, bowing her head.
"We've met," Aang said, a bit uneasily, "Remember? At the palace."
"In some ways, sure. But you were Kuzon, and I too was an entirely different person then," she explained. She did seem more sure of herself, calmer, and a force that had everyone looking at her. That sort of charisma was entirely new. "We'll talk soon. First…" She cleared her voice. "Welcome everyone! Huu and some of my friends will explain to you how we survive here. There are separate areas if you wish to live among people of your own nation - Water Tribe, Earth Kingdom, Fire Nation - as well as a general camp if you recognize on some level we are all one as Air Nomads again. It is up to you. Huu and I run this camp, so if you need anything, you may seek us out. We are so glad you have made it here safely."
The group began to split, leaving Iroh, Aang, Ty Lee, and Toph. Shoji hovered but Aang shook his head.
"Go help your mom," he instructed.
"We don't have the glitz and glamour of the palace," Dhakiya said apologetically, "But my house is where I imagine you'll be staying. You'll all have some bit of privacy, at least."
"It's incredible you even have more than one house," Aang admitted.
"After I felt the Spirit World open again, I knew a lot of people would be airbenders soon. Plus, my father has kept me updated on issues back home, so we got to work. With more hands, we've made more homes, though it's certainly close quarters," she said, leading them to a house near the back, clearly, the first one constructed. It was cooler in temperature inside, but nothing much to look at. Still, it was safe, and on that count, Aang was so relieved.
"General Iroh, your room is that way," Dhakiya pointed, "And, erm, there are only two rooms left. So, I mean, I figure Aang can take this one and Toph and Ty Lee-"
"Ty Lee can be with me," Aang mumbled, speaking before he realized what his mouth had said. He felt his cheeks burn as everyone looked at him. "That is, if she, uh, wishes."
"Oh!" Dhakiya said with a choked surprise. "That's, well, congrats, I guess."
"Yeah, plus there's one more coming later," Toph said, shrugging. "And he'll be with me."
Dhakiya looked more surprised at this, as though she hadn't imagined Toph to want anyone in her room. Aang snorted to himself.
"Sure, okay," she said, making a quick recovery. "Uhm, General, my father wishes to speak to you. And then with you, Aang. There's a bathroom over there to, well, wash off. I mean, it's sort of a bin with water, but it's clean and...right, you get it," she said. "I'll leave you to it."
Toph spun on her heels, closing her door as she mumbled about 'getting some fine-ass dirt in here' so she could actually see.
"So, we're sharing a room now?" Ty Lee asked, a hint of mirth.
"If that's okay. If it's not...you know...too...well…" Aang fumbled.
"I'm just teasing! I'm going to go try to wring some dirt from my hair. Meet you in there?" she asked.
"Of course," Aang said. As Ty Lee turned, he impulsively grabbed her hand. Before he could psych himself out of it, he pulled her close. There was a single moment where they stood chest to chest, Ty Lee rising just below his chin. They both inhaled and Aang seized the pause, leaning down to kiss her.
He was a romantic at heart, but out of all the times he imagined their first kiss, it never went like this. He didn't think it would be in a hot swamp where the world around him was unfamiliar. He didn't think it would be in the middle of a shared house on the uneven floorboards. He didn't think it would be when they were both sweating and dirty and tired.
And maybe none of that mattered. Because it was as close to nirvana as he imagined he may ever get.
"Wanted to do that for a while," he mumbled, "Go wash up."
Ty Lee let go of him, giggling. She turned back three times, holding her hand over her mouth, utterly tickled pink by that moment. He felt the warmth of her affections waver out to him, and he felt calmer, more at ease.
"I'm glad you've been able to find happiness in these turbulent times," General Shen said, scaring Aang. He jumped in the air, just narrowly missing the ceiling with the height of his jump. Shen was standing in the door, moments from joining Iroh in their meeting.
"Uhm, sir," Aang mumbled.
"I believe I should be calling you sir." General Shen bowed low, and those same feelings rumbled in his stomach.
"Spirits, please don't," Aang asked of him, "I'm not...worthy...you shouldn't…"
"You are the Avatar. Of course, you are worthy," General Shen said with absolute certainty. "You are a good person."
"I'm not," Aang blurted. Iroh felt like an Uncle to him, but General Shen felt almost like someone he could trust, someone who he wanted to confide in. "I've...killed someone. He asked me to, but I still couldn't help it. And I didn't look for a friend who went missing. And I've been sitting at the palace and let hundreds of airbenders or innocents die while I did...nothing," he breathed, feeling a panic fill his veins. "So don't you see? I'm not the hero you all think I am."
"Avatar." General Shen placed his hands on Aang's shoulder. "You are far better than you believe. I see what everyone else sees, what you seem to be blind to," he added with a serious tone, "And Aang...you must know, we will follow you, wherever it may lead. If we must die for you, we will walk willingly. Do not let that weigh you down when I know that we would all do so with pride."
He patted Aang's shoulders, in what was maybe supposed to be a comforting gesture, leaving Aang speechless. Bile rose in his throat and he stumbled out of the shanty house, spitting off the side of the porch, stomach rolling and moaning.
He didn't doubt Shen's words, not for a second. And that was what terrified him: that he'd lead all of those who looked up to him right into their graves.
Chapter 34
Notes:
For purposes of this story, though an Agni Kai is a fire-bending duel, it's also described as a fight of honor. So, I'm taking it to be that to mean that while it's usually only used in Firebending tradition, technically anyone calling up a matter of honor can invoke an Agni Kai. Sokka doesn't have to firebend to be included in this!
Chapter Text
As Katara walked in a haze toward the tournament arena, she kept repeating a mantra of the three things Zuko had told her she had to abide by. This repetition was the only thing keeping her up, even though her legs bowed with each step like thin sticks in the hands of a child trying to snap them, even though her vision fuzzed around the edges, and even though she felt like her heart was wilting with each step closer.
Number one; do not make a scene.
Number two; do not look away.
Number three; and the most important she must remember...he was trying to save Sokka's life.
When he'd said that one, with such carefulness – as though Katara would shatter inside – she had frowned.
"What do you mean?"
"An Agni Kai is no small event, Katara. I would not expect my father will be pleased with...without some sort of big 'thing', though I can't predict what."
"It won't be to the death right?" Katara had read up on Agni Kais after Zuko had informed her of his plan in the garden two days ago. From all the histories she read, they were very often bloody and violent and rarely left with both participants breathing, if it was as intense as this one seemed to be.
"Killing your brother would rather counteract my promise that I'm trying to save his life," Zuko had said.
"Well, then of course." Katara had blinked at Zuko, so clueless. "You know I trust you."
"You say that now...maybe it's rude of me to ask you to remember that. You might not after today." Zuko swallowed hard, Adam's apple bobbing. "I don't want to hurt your brother, but…" He gnawed on his lip.
"Zuko-"
"I wish I could say it would be difficult. But Katara, spirits...I'm angry. I'm so freaking angry. At Sokka, at Aang, at Toph, at my father, my sister…" He screwed his eyes shut. "I feel so out of control and that's what scares me. I am born of two different family lines and I feel like both of their influences are biting at me at all times. There is the side of Roku, who is kind and just. Then, there is the side of Sozin who whispers and goads me to do awful things, and for a second, I can see how my father falls to it so easily."
"I understand that," Katara said, thinking of the lengths she had gone to and would have been willing to go to in order to save her people. "It reminds me of an old tale that was told in my tribe. Two wolves, one good and one bad, are pulling all of us in different directions. Only one can win. And you know which one it will be?" she asked. Zuko looked up, shaking his head ever so slightly. "The one you feed."
She placed her hands on his cheeks, feeling the warmth from his skin against her palms.
"Zuko, you are a good person. If you continue to choose the side of good, that other wolf...or dragon...it won't have any space to grow and will cease to exist."
"That's the thing, Katara." He detached her hands gently, and held them for a moment, as though trying to memorize the lines across her palms. "I am unsure that I can let the good dragon win tomorrow. I have to let out the other one. If I do too little, they may still call for Sokka's death, and I can't say they're all wrong. It's a miracle I managed to spin even this. So it has to be brutal. It has to be something...something where you may hate me forever."
"But-"
"And part of me – more – fears that if I let that dragon out...Sozin's...I won't be able to get him back in," Zuko said quietly, a hushed admittance that silenced any reply from Katara. He leaned down and kissed her chastely, but for a long time. "I'm selfish, I know, but this might be the last time we kiss. After this."
"Zuko," Katara grasped at him for more, "Stop being so dramatic. I know you and I know you're...you're doing what we have to."
Zuko didn't look sure. But Katara had been... up until she entered the arena and saw Zuko readying himself at one end, her brother nowhere to be seen.
What would please these venomous vultures in the crowd that called for her brother's head?
Katara was ushered to a row right near the front. She saw Ozai watching her from across the room, looking pleased. He was clearly hoping she'd break, and this suddenly made Zuko's first two instructions make sense.
Yue and Suki filed in next to her, each of them grasping one of her hands. She closed her eyes, just briefly, wishing Toph was here. They could experience this horror together. She wished Aiga was by her side, standing above her, whispering encouragement.
She let her prayers float up for just a second then opened her eyes, forcing herself to look as uninterested as she could manage.
She noticed Mai was seated far away from her. For the best; Katara had done a damn good job of avoiding the sullen girl and it seemed the Fire Sages were trying to keep them apart as well. It was as though they thought Katara was going to stab her. Which, all things considered, was one of the tamer fantasies Katara had had in terms of giving Mai what she deserved.
Lu Ten and Ursa were looking at her with sadness. Lu Ten stood tall, positioned where Iroh usually was, but he seemed tiny in comparison. At least, she figured, at the end of the day she knew she had both of their support. She wasn't sure about Azula, so in reality, there was only one person definitely shoving against her and her place here.
However, Ozai's influence and dislike of her was a stronger force than any of those who liked her combined, so…
There were murmuring and attention to the side of the arena. Katara bit the inside of her cheeks so hard that she drew blood as she watched her brother dragged out in chains. His lip was bleeding and he was so dirty. How could someone get so muddied that fast? It was as though the guards had been dragging him through the earth, shoving it into every pore. Most of all...he looked frightened and gaunt, though he tried to hide it. Katara knew him too well though, and his upturned chin was only a veneer.
His eyes searched the crowd and found Katara's. She felt Suki tighten her grip on her.
Sokka pulled forward, up to where Katara was.
"Nukilik, pussik," Sokka commanded, striving to reach his sister. Be strong, he said. Be strong, cougar. She pursed her lips and tried to summon that strength he referred to.
She felt the entire world's eyes on her. But this moment was not theirs. It was her moment and her brother's. She responded in kind.
"Nagligivaget," she whispered back, reaching out to brush noses with him, but found herself too far away to touch. Like a wisp of smoke, he hovered just out of reach, before he was yanked away from her.
As soon as Sokka was shoved into the dirt, Katara knew she was right to have skipped breakfast today.
"Today we gather for Prince Sokka of the Southern Water Tribe to face judgment. Lady Toph Bei Fong has already found hers, so in turn, we will give Prince Sokka his too," Zuko said, his voice echoing through the stadium, "He has been tried for treason in the Royal Palace and sullied his honor and the honor of all who associate with him. So, to remedy this, Prince Sokka...I challenge you to an Agni Kai."
Sokka nodded once. "I accept."
The guards took the chains off of him. Sokka shook out his shoulders and wrists, and after a long moment, Katara realized they intended to give him no weapons. As resourceful as her brother was, this was cruel.
However, that was rather the point, was it not? And, as it was, this was traditionally done between firebenders, though it at the core was a matter of honor. She supposed if by some spirit-send he was able to miraculously firebend...but otherwise?
"We will not go until the death." A Fire Sage stood. "In his ultimate mercy, Heir Apparent Prince Zuko has elected to spare Prince Sokka."
Boos echoed around the stadium. Katara locked her jaw. There were a few, beneath the shouts, that clapped. Thank Spirits not everyone was a sadist here. She was pleased to see that none of the girls were the ones that booed, not even Nadhari. In fact, On Ji was tearing up, Cillia comforting her with soft shoulder touches.
"Instead, we will go until Prince Zuko feels as though the punishment has been met."
Zuko turned, finding Katara's eyes. He frowned. It was a warning.
He's trying to save your brother, Katara reminded herself, something dark grasping her stomach and threatening to collapse her, whatever he does, it is better than death.
Before Katara could take even another breath, the fight began.
Sokka fought back. He fought with the fury of a cougar, a wolf, and an owl behind him. He was resourceful and cunning and surprisingly light on his feet for someone who had been locked away in a cell for days. If their father was there, he'd be so proud of the warrior Sokka had become.
He had to make it look real, Katara realized, or losing to Zuko would mean nothing. They wanted a show...he would give them one.
And he was trying his hardest, Katara also saw. He was pushing with everything he had. There wasn't a single moment he was trying to go easy on Zuko.
And he was still going to lose, even if that wasn't his intention.
Zuko, similarly, started off going a bit easy on him, but as the jeers in the crowd grew louder and the frown on his father's face depended, he began to fight with vigor and dedication that would have Sokka seeking a yield in no time.
At one point, a trail of fire licked the ground and burned up to Sokka's exposed feet. He stumbled a bit, and it was the sound he made...just a pathetic whimper, something so small that escaped from his throat. He'd grunted and groaned and snarled in this fight, but that sound was the worst Katara had heard.
Or, she'd be horrified to learn, the worst so far.
Zuko fought as she'd never seen. There was something so violent in the way he landed his blows that Katara was starting to understand his concerns and worries. It reminded her of the way that Azula had fought Ty Lee. She was impressed by his will-power up until that point; for all the rage she held inside her, Zuko's darker impulses were far worse and far more devastating than she imagined hers could be.
From where Ozai sat, he was no longer looking on with disappointment. If anything, he was staring at Zuko as though he'd never truly seen his son before. Azula whispered something to Ozai but he ignored her entirely, tilting his head and staring at Zuko with a peculiar look that Katara could not place.
Azula turned, scowling, watching her brother. She said something else, and since she was turned to face the crowd, Katara understood.
Katara read her lips: 'I could have fought this better.'
Ozai just glared at her and she seemed to shrink under his heated scowl.
Sokka was bleeding and riddled with cuts and bruises. She imagined someone had to call it soon, right? That Zuko would stand back and let this be enough?
But it wasn't, and deep down, both Sokka and Katara knew this too.
Sokka lay panting on the ground, spitting up blood as he rolled over.
"I... yield…" he whispered, his voice catching. Zuko started to move back, but Ozai's deep, baritone laugh seemed to shake the whole stadium.
"Stupid boy, you do not get to yield," he sneered. He turned to his son. "Finish this."
Zuko paused, closing his eyes. When he opened them, there was something in them that Katara did not recognize. It was cold, unfriendly, and she hoped he was never prodded too far to the point where she'd have to see that again.
He extended his hand, and the sound of Sokka's scream would haunt Katara for the rest of her life. It was unlike anything she'd heard before. And, as the crowd cheered and Suki and Yue tried to keep her upright, she retreated into her mind. Beside her, she heard the faint thud as On Ji fainted and a few handmaids rushed to her side.
He's trying to save Sokka…
He's trying to save him…
He's trying to save my brother…
Katara did not know how long Sokka yowled and screamed. The end of the fight was hazy in her mind like she was walking in a dream. She felt something rise up in her throat but swallowed it back down, forcing her face to remain neutral. They wanted her to cry. To make a scene.
She would not.
As Zuko turned, she felt a shiver of fear run up her spine. Not at him, not exactly. She was not afraid of Zuko, at least, not the Zuko she knew well or the Zuko who had been so sure she'd leave him after this. No, she was afraid of the knowledge she now held...the knowledge that if pushed, Zuko could be responsible for a truly dark side of himself that could do things Ozai would probably love.
Suki helped her out of the arena.
As soon as she was out of the view of the crowd, Katara collapsed against the wall. She felt faint. She bit her fist hard and screamed into it, pressing herself into the coolness of the tiled wall.
Suki stood above her, rubbing her arms and wiping back tears.
"What in the name of...what's wrong with them?" Suki said above her. Katara had never seen her so spooked. "That was barbaric."
"Agni Kais are antiquated, and frankly everyone loses. This is no exception." Mai's words surprised her. The rest of the girls had filed out after Katara. "Is she okay?"
"Lotta' gall you have to ask that," Alcina snarled, standing in front of Katara protectively.
"I'm not...I'm not here to fight," Mai said quietly.
"Walk away, Mai," Suki said with a harsh tone, "You don't get to be sorry now."
Katara was still hundreds of miles away, hiccupping and sobbing, and later she would be grateful for the wall of her friends that shielded her from curious eyes, wanting to see the traitor's sister.
Once Katara had expelled her fury and sadness and pain, she stood. Suki called after her, but Katara walked forcefully to the other end of the arena, where the Royal Family and their prisoner were gathered. She passed Mai and did not even spare her a second glance, though Mai tried to step forward, perhaps to offer some words of apology.
"Why is he still in chains?" She only caught a glimpse of her brother, the guards obscuring most of him. She could not see the true extent of the damage.
She also was not sure where Zuko was.
"He will be released in a week. Penance, for his crimes," Ozai said evenly.
"This wasn't enough?" she spat out.
"Hardly," Ozai said with a sigh. "But I suppose it will have to do."
"Let me see him, then!" Katara demanded, trying not to yell too loud or seem uncouth. "Please."
"To heal him?"
"Well, of course, he's-" Katara scoffed, unsure why Ozai could think to even ask that.
"No, little girl," Ozai spat in her direction, placing his hands together in front of him. "Your brother will wear his scars as a reminder of his sins. Just hope we don't have to do the same for you. Get back to your chambers, before I decide to include you in his disloyalty."
The old Katara would have fought. The one that knew how thin the ice she walked on could become bit back all the choice names she had for the Fire Lord and looked around once more for Zuko.
"Where is Prince Zuko?" she found the courage to ask.
"Likely washing off," Lu Ten said softly, staring at Katara with tender sadness. "I would not expect to see him the rest of the night," he added, for there was a small gathering of curious people listening in.
"Can you give him a message?" Katara said, knowing Lu Ten would repeat it faithfully.
"Of course, Princess," he said, though Ozai looked irked by her request.
"Tell him...thank you for taking mercy on my brother," she said in a soft tone, hoping that he understood. At the end of the day, she was not mad at him. She was mad at Sokka and Toph for being reckless, but more so, mad at Ozai for thinking this was the solution. If anyone thought Zuko did this gleefully, they were insane. He was just as trapped as she was here. She also hoped that it would annoy Ozai that she was being so restrained about this whole affair. If she fought back and called him names, he'd have reason to kick her out.
Well, she sure as hell wasn't going to play that game with him.
"Of course, Princess." Lu Ten's voice was grating, as though pained that she had to utter those words. "Let this be a reminder." Underneath his voice, there was bountiful relief. Perhaps, in a sense, that it had not ended with a death. Ozai seemed momentarily pleased by Lu Ten's words. Then, he turned to Katara and raised his chin.
"Out of my sight."
This time, when Ozai commanded her, Katara obeyed.
She told the girls she wished to walk back alone and they all agreed, even though Suki took some convincing.
Katara took a winding way back, needing to walk off her urge to cry again.
In a hallway closed off to the public that would bring her near the gardens, still under repair from the first Equalist attack, she nearly tripped over a figure in a cloak.
"Zuko?" she sputtered, getting to her knees as she looked at Zuko's face in the dim light of the barely lit corridor.
His eyes were distant, still cold. Not in cruelty, in a sort of disassociation that was still worrisome.
"Are you okay?" She pressed her hands to his cheeks.
"My father...after the match...he came up to me. He told me he was proud of me," Zuko whispered.
"Oh." Katara's skin crawled at that idea.
Zuko glanced up, cheeks wet. "He's never said that to me before."
At once, Katara understood the layers in his voice. The confusion. The frustration. The anger. And on some small level, the desperate need, even now, to be accepted by his father.
"I'm so sorry," she said honestly. She'd grown up with two parents that doted compliments upon her and Sokka and never once had she doubted their love for her. She knew that Iroh had tried to make up where his brother was cold and did not seem to like his first-born, but that would have been easier if Ozai was dead and therefore impossible to ever please or displease.
"Can I do anything?" Katara asked.
"You're not...leaving?"
"No," Katara said, sitting shoulder to shoulder with him, "I'm not."
Zuko nodded lightly but didn't smile. His mind seemed entirely elsewhere. "Can you just...sit here with me?"
"Of course," Katara said, intertwining their fingers together. "I can certainly do that."
XXxx
Katara waved to Alcina, Suki, and Yue as they packed up to travel with Zuko to the Earth Kingdom town of Shi Sha.
She was pretty damn sure Ozai was trying to break her mentally and had specifically taken away the girls he knew to be Katara's support system, if only for a few days. One might say Katara was being overdramatic.
She doubted it.
There had been a long conversation in the Ladies' Room about the remaining trips. There were still six remaining, though the majority of girls who had been scheduled to attend had been cut. For this trip, for example, which had already been pushed back, Alcina was the only original member left.
Zhi and Zuko had decided that it was most fair for more girls to be allowed to join, but to cap trips at two or three. Since the numbers were dwindling and the pressure to pick a wife was slowly rising, it would give him a chance to know them even better.
He'd wanted Katara to go on this trip, but Ozai had strode into the room and tried to take her off all the trips she was still currently slated for, which was four.
"She is quite a hated woman, I believe. It's for her safety. We can't predict how the average person will react to a Water Tribesman, now can we?" he'd said, his voice even, but Katara was sure he was smirking at her.
"Uhm, you can just tell them not to attack her?" Suki muttered sourly.
"Royal decree should do the trick," Cilla agreed. Thankfully, Ozai seemed not to hear either girl.
"I don't know if that's fair though, Father," Zuko argued, and after much back and forth, Katara was just barely allowed to remain on her trips, but not allowed to join the two others.
Katara knew that Shi Sha was close to where Aang was hiding out. Zuko had told her once she'd decided to stay here, in case she ever had to make a quick escape. He said if she ever needed asylum, she'd be safe there.
"It's convenient but totally coincidental with our plans," Zuko had said when Katara questioned if they had really been planning on going to Shi Sha or if he'd switched around a few trips to make sure the group was okay.
Sometimes – and only sometimes – the world worked in their favor.
She was sad to see the group of three go. The girls left at the palace were no one that Katara felt particularly like socializing with, which was perfectly fine. She'd spend the next couple days hiding out in her room. Whatever. No big deal.
She waved them off with everyone else and was about to turn away when she heard a quiet 'ahem'. All the girls turned to see Ursa standing.
"Princess Katara?"
"Yes?" Suddenly, Katara was worried she was going to be reprimanded for something. She couldn't give less of a rat's ass about what Ozai thought, but she hated the idea of disappointing Ursa in some way.
"Would you please join me?"
From her tone, it seemed Katara wasn't the only one that thought she was about to get yelled at. Nadhari snorted, grinning as Zhi escorted the girls away.
Once out of earshot, Ursa turned to Katara.
"I have not yet had the chance to say how sorry I am," Ursa said unexpectedly, "About your brother and Lady Bei Fong."
Katara gave a rough laugh. "That they were caught, or…"
"That they had to be separated and that he was forced to fight my son," she said, frowning as though ill at the idea Katara thought her so cold. "That all of that happened. I cannot imagine how it has been for you."
"Right. Sorry." She winced, sure she'd just offended Ursa on like twenty different levels.
"It can be difficult to know who is your friend here, I understand that," Ursa said, sighing sadly. "I remember the feeling. I do not wish to be your enemy, Princess. Iroh speaks too fondly of you, Lu Ten sees you as a younger sister, Azula is even somewhat mystified, and my son...well." She smiled. "So it seems I'd be foolish not to believe it when they say you are a kind-hearted girl, if not strong-willed."
"I didn't…" Katara broke off. "Don't you mean… Iroh spoke?" she asked after a moment of consideration. There was a crafty look in Ursa's eye.
"I'm not fishing for information, my dear," she said, confirming what was Katara's first fear. "I have no reason to tell my husband any of what we speak of. In fact, please do not give me any confirmation. I just…" She turned her head to stare at the place where Iroh's photo once hung, now taken down. "I believe my good brother to be far too crafty and far too intelligent to have simply backed down and accepted his death. Toph too," she said after a second. "You two are friends?"
Katara sniffled. "Best friends, I guess. Yeah."
"Good friends are hard to find, even if they are frustrating at times. Keep her close," Ursa advised. She paused. "I know that we have not talked much, but I know that you likely feel very alone here right now. Ozai is not being...as careful as he often is. I may not be your first choice, but if you feel the need to speak with someone, my chamber door is open to you," she said. She sounded mothering, and Katara believed all of it. Katara wondered if she was offering her ear for the rest of the girls.
"Thank you, Your Majesty," Katara mumbled.
"Please, at this point, you are in nearly the final running to become my daughter-in-law," she said, though, from the glow in her eyes, she seemed to know that Katara was at a higher probability than, say, Alcina. "We must do away with such formalities. It's Ursa, or Lady Ursa if you must."
"Sure, okay," Katara agreed, but only because she wasn't sure how to respectfully decline.
"You must be getting back, lest the other girls become jealous," Ursa motioned back toward the halls they'd just walked, "I doubt even I will be able to sway Ozai to allow you to see your brother soon, but believe me, I am trying." She seemed to pause, eyebrows creased, almost saying something more. "I think that what he did was…"
"What?" Katara tilted her head, curious to see how far she'd speak against her husband. She looked around, shaking her head.
"Stay well, Princess."
XXxx
Aang ran his fingers through his freshly shorn hair, staring at the pile to be swept outside. It had been years with this hair, and though he had hated the idea and everything it stood for when Zuko first told him he'd have to grow it out, he would admit he'd grown used to it. Perhaps not fond, but it was familiar.
He ran his fingers through the soapy water in the bucket, itching his scalp and he lathered. Then, using the sharp knife that Dhakiya had found for him, he leaned over a bucket of clean water to see his reflection and began to shave. Slowly, inch by inch, his arrows took shape again.
When he was done, he stared at himself in surprise for a few long seconds. The last time he'd been bald he'd been a child; his cheeks had some of that baby fat, his eyes had been bright, his smile toothy. Now, his chin was more defined and he was starting to feel the stubble of a beard poking through. His expression was more adult and he felt uncomfortable with this new visage, even though he'd been aching to return to his roots.
It felt so strange without hair there anymore.
"Oh, wow!"
Aang turned to see Ty Lee at the door with their laundry. His palace clothes were among them, and he watched her lay them down. He'd not only reclaimed the baldness of his tradition, but Iroh had left a packet of items on his bed. He wasn't sure where they were before, but he had them back. His glider, leaning against the wall. A few items he'd shoved into a bag before going out into the night 117 years ago. And, finally, his old Air Nomad clothes.
They still smelled like the Air Temples, a whiff of orange and wind from long ago.
True, most didn't fit. He'd had to retro-fit it the best he could to his current height, making a sarong and pair of pants. It was far too hot to wear the whole ensemble anyway.
"Can I? Or is that...rude?" Ty Lee asked, motioning to his head, specifically, his arrows. She was ever-curious about the Air Nomads and Aang was always pleased to tell her about their people.
"You've touched my arrows before."
"Never your head," Ty Lee said, but took that as a sign. She brushed her fingers over the blue tattoos, sighing. "They're beautiful! How do you get them?"
From the look in her eye, her query wasn't just curiosity.
"It takes a lot of work," Aang laughed, "You have to become an Airbending Master."
"Okay, how do I do that?"
Aang had no doubt one day she'd earn her arrows, but her determination made him giggle. "You have to master all thirty-six Tiers of Airbending. Though...I was, uhm, allowed to get them early. Because I invented the Air Scooter. Technically, I'm missing one," Aang said, a thought that had not crossed his mind in years.
"Which one was it?" Ty Lee asked. Aang was about to answer when he heard a low hum from outside. His heart thudded and he grabbed Momo from his perch near the bed.
"Appa!" he cried, throwing his entire body at the large bison. Appa mooed and moaned happy sounds, licking Aang from head to toe. Aang buried his face in Appa, and only pulled back when he heard the sound of ceramic breaking.
He wiped tears from his eyes, turning to see all the newest members of the camp staring warily at Appa. Shoji had dropped a bowl of food, staring slack-jawed.
"What in the good name of Agni is that?" he asked, jumping back when Appa moved.
"My air bison!" Aang replied gleefully. "He's friendly. Right, buddy? Yes! Yes, you are," he said, starting to scratch all over. Appa flopped and turned to his stomach for a better belly rub.
There were small giggles and some of the children that had been here long before Aang jumped on Appa's stomach, stretching and rubbing.
"See?" Aang motioned, "He's a big fluff-ball."
"The kids know if they scratch, he gives them rides later," Dhakiya said, coming up and pressing her forehead to Appa's snout. "It's safe below the tree-line, and well, it gives the kids something to look forward to."
Appa responded to Dhakiya as he did with Aang. At first, Aang felt a flash of anger and jealousy, until he pulled his emotions in. He was glad someone loved Appa when Aang could not be with him.
"He's most useful," Dhakiya continued, throwing a whole watermelon in his lolled mouth, "Ferrying newcomers. It would take days to get to the other side of the swamp, even with the swamp on our side. Appa gets there pretty immediately."
"Yeah, I know that," Aang said a bit sharper than he intended. It was his bison for goodness' sake...He knew very well how far and fast he went!
Dhakiya looked at him, almost pityingly, and stepped back. She seemed to recognize that Aang's feelings toward Appa right now were mixed.
"He's adorable! Look at those big eyes," Ty Lee squealed, "Oh, wow, Aang."
"Appa, meet Momo. And Ty Lee," Aang said, speaking to Appa. He knew Appa understood. "Remember these guys?" he said. Appa gently shook the children off and turned back around. Momo flew up, sitting right between Appa's ears. It was comical the size differences, but Momo seemed entirely comfortable, innately recognizing they were from the same place. It seemed Momo was choosing to stay there.
Appa looked at Ty Lee and licked her too, though not as thoroughly as Aang's slimy covering.
"That means he likes you," Aang said, sighing, for the first time in a very long time, in utter joy and ease.
Chapter 35
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Aang spent the next few days practically glued to Appa's side. He had a lot of missed time with his big buddy. He regaled him with stories of being at the palace and gave him lots of treats, even though he probably didn't need any more. Well, whatever! Aang was going to spoil him, at least a bit.
On the fourth day, he came out of his cabin and was surprised not to see Appa, but Zuko.
"Aang! Woah...hair." Zuko's eyes bugged. "I mean, looks good."
"I'm glad you're still alive," Aang said, hugging Zuko.
"I think that's my line," Zuko chuckled, looking around at the Swamp, taking it all in.
"Hardly. We're pretty protected here. I wouldn't put it past your dad to...slit your throat in the night," Aang said honestly. Zuko shrugged, not disagreeing.
"Is it how you imagined it?" Ty Lee asked, swinging herself over the railing to stand next to Zuko. Though he'd been the one to set up this communication and knew the location, he hadn't ever been here, not until now.
"Better," Zuko said, "Seeing everyone here...not fearing for their lives...it's good." From his dark expression, Aang almost didn't want to ask. But he had to. Zuko winced, inhaling.
"It's Zhao. Ever since finding out you were the Avatar- the ultimate Airbender- he's...gone off the deep end. And my dad only encourages him. Anyone he thinks is an Airbender…" Zuko drew a line across his throat. "It's been a week since you escaped, and already, his body count that we know of is thirty. Possibly more. Hard to say how many were airbenders, how many were 'Airbender sympathizers,' and how many just looked the wrong way at him."
"Holy smokes," Aang groaned, "Well, I mean, we gotta go out and find them! Bring all the airbenders here, obviously. And stop Zhao. We have to-"
"Woah, slow down!" Zuko held up a hand, "Find my uncle and Toph? I need to talk to you all."
"Not Shen or Dhakiya?" Ty Lee questioned.
"In the town over. I'm on a 'trip' right now with Alcina, Yue, and Suki. Yue and Suki are volunteering. Alcina is having lunch, in town, with her father and Dhakiya. Thought it would be kind. Plus, I don't trust her enough to bring her here." He laughed. "I mean, I barely trust anyone."
"As you should. Be mindful of who you speak your secrets to," Iroh said, coming up the path with Huu. "Nephew, it's good to see you."
"Now we just need Toph," Zuko said.
"I'll get her," Aang offered. He darted back inside. Toph was lying on her bed, making small shapes with a ball of dirt above her.
"Hi."
"Shit, Twinkletoes!" Toph snapped. "Can't sneak up on me like that."
"Sorry," Aang winced, "So you're...completely blind here?" He hadn't thought to ask before, until now. Toph hopped off her bed, running her feet across the floorboards.
"Usually, even in structures, I can feel the earth beneath me and see easily. This earth is all wet," she complained.
"So…?"
Toph motioned for Aang to come forward. She found his face after a few missed attempts and then took her hand and pressed it to his eyes, fingers spread.
"Can you see very well right now?"
"Erm, not really," he said, squinting through the openings.
"Exactly. It's like that. I can get a bit, but it's really difficult and sort of tiring," she replied. Aang understood; ever since arriving here, his connection to the other Avatars was like a bad signal. It wavered in and out. Sometimes, he could hear a few clear words from them, but it was usually choppy. Other times, he could only hear the faint fuzz and murmur in the back of his brain, like a fly that never left. He'd rather it was all or nothing because this half-connection was way worse. Oh, fear not though, his past Avatars figured out how to annoy him through his dreams, so he wasn't without their sage wisdom, he thought with a roll of his eyes. Was it too much to have a normal, non-lectured dream, though?
"Need help outside?" Aang offered, feeling bad for her.
"No! I have legs still," Toph snapped, and proceeded to walk into her dresser. "That wasn't there before," she said stiffly.
"Sure," Aang agreed, though he was pretty sure it had been there since they arrived.
"What's the big deal anyway?" Toph asked, "I'm pretty much ignored here." It was for the best, lest she teach more swear words to children. With her unreliable sight right now, there wasn't much she could do.
"Zuko's here."
"Zuko! That means…" Toph's whole face lit up. She ran outside, only tripping once, eager like a child on their birthday.
"Sokka! Come on out! Where are ya? I can't see very well, so you gotta come to me," Toph said, grinning, lifting her feet to show the wet squishing sound that was shadowing part of her vision.
"We need to talk about that," Zuko said stiffly.
"I hate that tone," Ty Lee sighed.
"Let us retire inside," Iroh said, "I have some tea on."
Once they were in the main living room of the hut, Toph turned to the wall. "Okay, Zuko-"
"Over here." Zuko interrupted.
"I knew that," Toph said, but her face was flushed scarlet, "Where's my boyfriend?"
"That's...fuck." Zuko winced. "He's not coming."
"Not coming...today?" Toph said somewhat hopefully.
"No. Not anytime soon. Possibly...never." Zuko swallowed. Aang felt something cold grip his bones, a foreboding sense that only grew as Zuko recounted the Agni Kai. Ty Lee gripped Aang's arm tightly, whimpering at the sound of it. Iroh shook his head sorrowfully, handing out teas. Toph's face stayed the same, almost confused, as though she didn't quite believe him.
"...And he's hurt badly now. My father won't let Katara heal him. As it is, he seems...intent on staying. But I'm not sure he'd have the strength to make the trip anyway." Zuko pressed his palms to his tea cup, trying to figure out what to say next. "Spirits, Toph, I'm sorry-"
"You did what?" Toph demanded. Zuko's whole demeanor shifted from apologetic to furious, his back straightening like a whip and his eyes inflamed.
"What I had to!" Zuko snapped back at her, "Spirits, if my father-"
"You nearly killed him! And I'm supposed to thank you?" Toph's fists clenched. "Aang, where is the Fire Idiot? He deserves exactly what he did to Sokka!"
"I'm not helping you punch Zuko," Aang choked.
"Traitor," Toph snarled.
"Toph, Zuko is right," Iroh said, "Ozai would have killed Sokka. This was merciful."
"Merciful! Huh, I'm beginning to wonder if you flame yahoos have ever read a dictionary in your life because me and you have two very different definitions," Toph said. Then, the truth seemed to wash over her. Aang saw tears gather in her eyes. He expected her to cry. Instead, she spun, angry, moving toward her bedroom door.
"Toph!"
"Stop!" Toph shoved Aang hard. "Because none of you get it!" she said, throwing a finger out, yelling to keep herself from crying. "You and Ty Lee get to be all lovey-dovey in your room over there, together," she said, "And Zuko and Katara get to be awkward and shit at the palace, but they're together too if things go bad. But for me? And Sokka? It's not fair."
"Not fair?" Zuko gave a low laugh. "Toph, spirits, wake up and smell the swamp water. All you and he had to do was not get caught! But no!" He threw up his hands. "You could have come to me. We could have gotten you off the competition list. There were two million things we could have done, but you chose to be selfish and do whatever Toph wanted to do, and look where it got you!"
"Zuko…" Iroh warned.
"She needs to hear this!" Zuko stood, his voice thundering. "You can just dance through life and expect that the wake of your decisions will always work themselves out! From the baby scandal to your behavior at the balls, to this!" Zuko threw out a hand motion. "Why are you so consistently surprised that bad choices have bad reactions?"
"A bad reaction is maybe getting privileges revoked! Forcing an Agni Kai against Sokka is mental and cruel!"
"A heavy punishment for a heavy crime," Zuko said icily. "You knew I had no feelings for you past sibling love. I could have fixed this early on. I could have. But Toph always does what Toph wants," he said angrily, crossing his arms.
Toph stood still for a few seconds before she stormed into her room, slamming the door. Zuko stomped out of the house, steam rising from his shoulders as he threw curse words out.
"Let them," Iroh said to Aang, who was poised and trying to decide who to go after first, "It is in Zuko's nature. He needs to calm down. And Toph?" Iroh stroked his beard. "Well, she needs to internalize some truth in Zuko's words." He looked down. "More tea?"
After half an hour, Zuko grumbled his way back in. Toph eased out of her room, still looking distrustful.
"Fine," Toph said in a high voice, "Maybe I made some bad choices. Okay, I'll own up to that. But since you're not gunna bring Sokka to me, I'll go get him myself."
Zuko just sighed, sinking low into a chair. "You can't," he said, grinding his teeth. "None of you should leave this area."
"Try to tell me what I can and can't do." Toph snorted.
"You, Toph, and you, Uncle," Zuko said, sounding tired and drained, "Are dead. According to, well, everyone. That's also why I didn't want to bring Alcina or the other girls here. They all think you two were executed. If you showed your face if anyone started to doubt my father's lies...I fear he'd retaliate and actually kill Sokka."
"Not if I get there first," Toph responded haughtily.
"Do you want to risk his life?" Zuko asked seriously. Toph did consider it and deflated.
"Dammit!"
"And you two," Zuko spun to Aang and Ty Lee, "Are Most Wanted One and Two. You will be killed on the spot."
"So we just stay here a bit longer." Ty Lee tried to sound bright and cheerful, but the mood was grim. "We can still make a difference from here...right?"
"That's what I came to ask," Zuko said, "If you had any ideas. I mean, any new plans." He waved a hand. "What can I do since you're grounded?"
"Keep sending airbenders our way," Aang said. "Try to stop Zhao whenever you can. Injunctions, burning his supplies, turning his uniforms bright green...whatever you can do," Aang said without pause, "I'll, uhm, practice the things I didn't really get a chance to do at the palace."
"Master that thirty-sixth tier?" Ty Lee teased. Zuko threw Aang a confused look, but Aang waved it away, grinning at Ty Lee.
"That's not much of a plan," Zuko said uneasily. "Something is coming Aang. I can feel it." He paused. "If I keep sending you the information I have on the Equalists, in your spare time, maybe leaf through it? I hardly have time to look at it. If we figured out who they were and what they wanted, we'd have one less issue on our hands."
"Sure," Aang said, "Guess I don't have much else to do." Part of him was glad he wasn't going to be expected to go out there, waving the flag of battle when he had no battle plans to enact. Part of him was frustrated to not be able to help, unable to dig into what his people were feeling and experiencing. He felt almost like a fraud, safe here.
"We can't lose you, Aang," Zuko said, as though reading his mind. "You're our most valuable player."
"I'll find a way to cope," Aang sighed, hating feeling so useless.
"Can we get to talking about more exciting stuff?" Toph asked. "If Sokka's not gunna show up, at least you can entertain me."
"Whatever do you mean?" Zuko narrowed his eyes. Aang groaned.
"New gossip," Toph said, easing back into her chair, "What sort of trivial BS is going on at our dear Royal Palace?"
Zuko looked ready to argue, but perhaps he was tired of fighting with Toph. Plus, Aang noticed Ty Lee looked a bit piqued. Even Iroh leaned forward a bit. Zuko relented. He seemed to realize they all needed something a bit less...dark to end this day.
"Okay, well...Yue and I had lunch the other day, and you wouldn't believe the weird story she told me…"
XXxx
Katara felt like all her time was spent waiting. Waiting specifically, to be allowed to see her brother. She wanted nothing else, felt no desire to do anything else. She would sit in her room until she was summoned, knowing that was a poor use of her time, but finding little energy to care...until she couldn't.
So, Katara tried to push herself to do other things. She read some of the books from the library that had accumulated in her room. She worked out. She tried embroidery again and recalled why she'd stopped in the first place. She tried to practice bloodbending, but as soon as she began, she had flashbacks to her brother's blood in the arena and simply...could not.
One of the days, while Zuko was still gone with Alcina, Yue, and Suki, Katara wandered into the Ladies' Room. On Ji had told her that there would be tea cakes there for tea time and Cillia had tried to encourage Katara out by asking her to spar with her later. Katara had said she'd see how she felt.
The discussion was, frustratingly, still about her brother and Toph. Any and all gossip was about their relationship and the drama surrounding it. Katara almost wished the Equalists would make a surprise visit so that the other girls would be talking about something else!
She intended to grab her tea cakes and cup of tea, find an excuse to quit on Cillia (who, luckily, wasn't in here at the moment), and leave quickly, but she couldn't help but overhear.
"I can't believe Prince Zuko put Sokka through that! And executed Toph! Maybe I...maybe I don't know him like I thought I did," On Ji was saying, looking at her hands, lip quivering. Katara snorted quietly. It was obvious that Zuko didn't enjoy a second of it.
"Then leave," Nadhari snipped, "And we'll continue on."
"I didn't say I wanted to go." On Ji frowned. "I just think there should have been another way."
"What they did was wrong," Mai reminded, and Katara nearly dropped her teacup in anger. However, when she looked at Mai, she saw beneath her calm facade a frustration, an uncertainty. Mai was glued to the rules as her life depended on them. It was all she was taught, and some part of her was starting to question it like On Ji, but her rigid upbringing was barring her way.
Katara wondered, briefly, what sort of turmoil churned inside of Mai currently?
"He could have killed Sokka too, but he did not." Mai finished, tucking her arms into her sleeves.
"That wasn't merciful. For all we know, Toph's in an unmarked grave," Smellerbee spat. Clearly, this was a heated discussion. Katara was glad there was a dissent. If all the ladies just accepted it, she would have been alone.
"I doubt that." Mai shook her head.
"We wouldn't know, though, would we?" Smellerbee shoved a cake in her mouth. "I just don't know about Sokka's punishment, though…"
"I think he'd prefer it to death," Nadhari said with a raised eyebrow, "If we were to ask."
That was it. Katara couldn't just leave now, not with such fighting words from her least favorite person.
"Don't presume you know my brother," Katara growled.
"Oh, so he wants to die, then? You'd let him walk into an execution?"
"Don't twist my words!" Katara stalked up to her, months of pent-up frustration spilling from her. "We have suffered a thousand times more than you have! You've lived your entire life as a nobleman's daughter, afforded things that I only dreamed about not so long ago! And, if someone you loved ever did something so reckless, you wouldn't stay awake at night worrying about how your people are going to survive now that there's no more food coming! At worst, you'd miss one of your hundred meals a day."
"Don't act like you know my life." Nadhari stood, face to face with Katara. "You're not the only one who's gone through trauma, who's suffered!"
"Oh, like what?" Katara asked, "Your nail broke? You lost your favorite dress in the hundreds that you own? The chef wasn't serving the meal you wanted for dinner?" she cruelly mocked. "My suffering...my brother's suffering is not the same as yours."
Katara felt the electricity of the emotion in the air and wondered if this was going to lead to a fight. She'd be ever so pleased to knock Nadhari on her ass.
On Ji stood up, nervously looking around, distressed. "Hey, guys! Before Yue left, she told me this really funny and sorta weird story-"
"Katara is right! You have no idea what people like me, or her, have gone through!" Smellerbee jumped up.
"The story-" On Ji tried again.
"You can't minimize another's plight, though," Ratana said, and all of a sudden, any order in the room crumbled and almost everyone was talking over each other, lines starting to be drawn in the proverbial sand. Katara only knew for sure that Smellebee was staunchly with her, everyone else on varying degrees.
"Everyone!" On Ji stood on a table, surprising all with the booming of her quiet voice. "Really? Are we going to act like wild animals in here?" she asked, "We all clearly have a lot of emotions and this is doing nobody any good!"
Begrudgingly, even Katara agreed with her. All the girls slinked to opposite places in the room, scattered with their food, looking a bit ashamed.
Katara reloaded her plate, knowing that she didn't want to be here.
As she left, she heard a side-comment from Ratana, almost so quiet she missed it.
"Maybe Sokka didn't deserve it, but Toph got what she deserved. Poor Zuko... never took her for a whore."
Katara lost it. Her food and drink clattered to the floor and Ratana only had time to make a squeak of surprise as Katara lunged at her like a cougar. Ratana made a grunt as Katara collided full into her, knocking them both into a side-table. Ratana was staring up at Katara in utter shock, and Katara was just as surprised at her own actions. She'd begun to like Ratana, especially after the Painted Lady incident, and this deeply hurt her.
That hurt bubbled. and as Ratana grasped to shove her off, Katara slapped her hard across the face. The sound echoed around the room, seeming to linger. Her hand burned, but the reddening mark on Ratana's flesh was satisfying.
Ratana hit Katara back, making an impact with her cheekbone.
From there, Katara was in a daze as the two girls clawed and snarled, rolling on the ground, pulling at each other's hair. At one point, Katara split Ratana's lip. Ratana grabbed a book from the table above and hit Katara's head hard. As Katara's head spun, she registered the rest of the girls pulling them apart. Katara yanked against whoever had her, dizzy as she was.
"Stop that!" Mai said, "What have you done?"
"Take that back!" Katara demanded. "Keep your mouth shut and never talk about Toph that way again!" Katara's eyes burned with tears.
"You're insane!" Ratana hissed back, Nadhari holding her from lunging at Katara. "I'm just defending Prince Zuko! He was heartbroken, but Toph didn't care. She is a who-"
"Ratana," On Ji shrieked, "Stop saying that word!"
"Prince Zuko is a big boy. He doesn't need you to defend him," Katara said, finally wrenching free from Mai's fingers. "I'm not going to start something. I'm fine," she said, holding up her hands. She needed to wipe the blood away. Gingerly, she touched the side of her head and winced. Tender.
Katara turned to leave, and she heard Ratana mutter, "What a psycho. If Prince Zuko had any reason to keep her after her brother's fuck up, he won't now."
As soon as Katara closed her door, she grabbed her arms and shook. Had she just signed her ticket home?
XX
There was a knock on her door later that night. Part of Katara fully assumed it would be the guards, telling her to pack her bags. She was surprised to see Pan at her door.
"Lady Katara! What ever happened to you?"
While she'd cleaned up her injuries fine, she was still wearing the dress with some blood on it. In hindsight, she probably should have changed.
However, this meant Ratana hadn't told anyone yet about their...altercation. How strange. What was her end game with this?
"Uhm. Not important."
"I'm here to escort you to your brother if you wish to see him."
Katara's heart lifted. "Of course! Yes, please," she said, grinning. She was surprised to see Pan scowling.
"Are you sure you wish to visit him?" Pan asked.
"He's my brother? How could you ask that?" Katara said, uncomprehending. She shooed them out, motioning for Pan to lead the way. He did so, but with great resistance.
For most of the walk, they were silent, but Pan was looking sweaty.
"Pan?"
Pan gave a great sigh, looking at Katara nearly wistfully.
"What is it?" She could tell when her representative was deeply troubled.
"We have the newest poll results of where you all stand in the competition," Pan said cagily.
"Oh. I dropped a few spots?" Katara guessed. She was sure that was what was bothering him.
"Not just a few. You're in the last place."
This felt like a whiplash.
"What?" Katara stumbled over a rug, nearly breaking what she was sure was a priceless heirloom. She caught herself, staring at him with wide eyes. "But I was...first." In truth, she didn't think she cared about the rankings. Not when she was first. But this steep of a drop? It clenched at her stomach and settled painfully. "It must be a mistake!"
"We thought so too. So we recounted. Three times," Pan said, "Lady Katara...people do not like the Southern Water Tribe right now."
Well, that should not have been a surprise. Naively, she hadn't realized that the palace's attitude toward the Southern Water Tribe would seep to the common people, changing her life here so badly. She was grateful that a low ranking was not a dismissal, but it wasn't going to help her case, not after she'd nearly maimed Ratana today.
"So that's why you don't think I should see Sokka?" Katara realized.
"The more people see you two having a connection...the worse your public image likely will be. People think he did something unforgivable."
"Uhm, we're siblings," Katara said, "We're connected for better or worse."
"Yes, but you don't need to make it obvious," Pan said. Katara bit her lip. She'd had one brawl today and wasn't in the mood for another.
"I will see him. I don't care," she said, grounding herself.
"The people used to love your stubbornness." Pan gave a longing sigh, as though he imagined Katara gone tomorrow. "And now they'll hate it."
He brought them to the jail cells. She remembered how awfully Bahiravi had been treated and hoped Zuko had kept his word about better treatment of 'traitors'. She was led through the halls. There was a stagnant, musty smell that made her want to sneeze.
At the very end of the hall, with five guards monitoring it as though he was going to murder the whole Royal Family, was her brother's cell.
"Princess Katara wishes to see her brother. Per Fire Lady Ursa's orders, she is allowed to be in there alone with him."
"So they can conspire to break the Prince's heart more?" one of the guards asked.
"For the love of Tui!" Katara threw her hands up.
"Stand aside," Pan commanded, shaking his head at Katara.
"You are allowed half an hour."
The door closed behind them and the guards moved away.
Sokka was sitting on a cot. It didn't look plushy, but he had a pillow and blanket. For one frantic moment, Katara was sure he was dead, for he didn't stir at all when she came in.
"Sokka?" she asked, reaching for a pulse. He was fully alive but still didn't acknowledge her. She pressed her hand to his forehead. Not sick…
"Sokka, talk to me!" Katara demanded.
"Leave me alone," Sokka whimpered.
"Are you hurt? Are you okay?" Katara was ready to pull her hair out. "Great Spirits, Sokka!"
She grabbed his shoulder to turn him around and stumbled back, clanging against a bucket for waste in the corner. Her fingers grasped the rough wall behind her and she inhaled, holding back a worse sound.
"Not pretty, huh?" Sokka asked, voice flat.
His entire arm was circled with scars, lacing up his biceps and shoulders like a dragon twined around him. The burns crept up his neck, one strand of fire-touched flesh curled up onto his cheek. It may have not been as outwardly shocking as Zuko's scar, but he'd never be able to hide it.
Katara crumpled against the side of the cell. If she'd been able to attend to him after the fight, she could have salvaged most of the skin. Now, she knew even with the magic water, she wouldn't get through a fourth of it.
"It's what I deserve," Sokka said, rolling onto his back, staring up at the cell.
"We could have saved you," Katara said, referring to trying to break him out.
"I deserve worse," Sokka said, closing his eyes.
"Don't say that! You went through the Agni Kai, you earned your honor back!" Katara crawled to his side, furious that he still thought he needed more punishment.
"I thought it would fix things," Sokka whispered quietly, "In my head. My own guilt. But it...hasn't...and now…" His eyes flickered to his arm. "I don't want to be here."
"Stop it!" Katara demanded. "Don't say things like that! Don't you...don't leave me," she pleaded, "I need my older brother. Mom and dad need you. Toph-"
"Don't say her name, please," Sokka asked quietly, staring at Katara in agony. "How can I go on? If you were the cause of Zuko's death, how could you ever live with yourself again? Believe you deserve a place in the world?" he asked softly.
Katara recoiled like Sokka had knocked the wind out of her. "What?"
"I got Toph killed. I only meant to love her. If I had anger left, I'd be furious at Aunt Wu. When she said I'd cause the person I loved most to leave the palace, I thought it would be someone leaving alive," Sokka said, face twisting. "I just have emptiness. And survivor's guilt, I suppose. I think we were meant to go out together. So I just feel...stuck," he admitted.
"Sokka...spirits," Katara's voice quivered. She stood, checking to make sure the guards were far away before she dropped her voice to a scarce whisper. "Do you think Toph's dead?" She had to clarify, "Tui and La! Is that why you refused our plan?"
Sokka shot up immediately, eyes distrustful. "What do you mean do I 'think'?" The intensity of Sokka's stare bored holes into Katara. "The guards told me that both General Iroh and Toph had been privately executed."
"Sokka, oh," Understanding flooded Katara and she felt a thousand different emotions. Of course, everyone thought Toph was dead, as they should for the cover! Why would Sokka know differently? She assumed Zuko had told him, but maybe Zuko had just thought Sokka would be in on the plan or that Aiga would have...arg!
"Toph's alive. She escaped with Iroh and Aang and Ty Lee. They went to the survival camp," Katara whispered, eyes flickering to make sure none of the guards were close by. Sokka stared at her, jaw dropped.
"Katara, you'd better not be lying, or else-"
"Why would I lie?" Katara groaned, kicking his bed. "So...so...all of this? Could have been avoided? You thought you had to balance the scales because of Toph and...oh, great spirits!" Katara wanted to scream.
"Well, of course, I wouldn't have agreed if I thought she had made it out!" Sokka tried to stand but shook on his feet. Katara guided him back down. "I gotta go and find her."
"And now you're here, miles away from recovery, certainly not well enough to make that trip!" Katara shook her head. "I can't believe it," she said, pinching the bridge of her nose, "Are they treating you well?" How his conditions were in his prison cell would hasten his recovery process.
"Uhm. Well enough." Sokka looked guilty. He still was withholding information.
"What. Else?"
"Well, I mean, I was in a shitty place, you saw that," Sokka motioned, referring to his state only moments ago, "So, well, the food has been actually okay, but I haven't...really been eating it."
Katara wanted to slam her head against a wall. Repeatedly.
"But I will now!" Sokka said.
"I'm surprised you haven't come down with a fever already." Katara pressed his forehead again. It was warm. Great. "I'll tell the guards to look out and to get me or get you medicine when this all catches up with you."
"I have a reason now." Sokka nodded his head. "I'm going to get better."
"You'd better," Katara said. "That's a threat. I won't lose you, too!"
"How are things outside?" Sokka motioned outside his cell bars. "How are you? How's the tribe?"
"Fine. Really. Mom and Dad are worried about you, of course."
She wasn't about to tell him that whole issue. She didn't think she could talk him out of another mental breakdown right now. Sokka's color started returning to his face as he asked about everything; he'd been deprived of any emotions, but now he was hungry. Hungry for information, hungry for life, hungry for surviving. She wasn't sure what that little mind of his was spinning, but she knew when her brother was making plans when she saw it.
There was a knock on the door. Katara leaned in, hugging her brother.
"Stupid meat-head," she grumbled.
"I know I am," Sokka agreed.
Outside, Katara looked at the five guards and Pan. "He's on the precipice of a fever and the scars have hardly been addressed. Unless you actually want him dead-"
"His penance is nearly over," the head guard informed Katara, "At the end of the week he'll be released to the hospital wing, where I assume he'll stay until he's well enough to go home to your tribe."
"And will you make sure he actually makes it there?" Katara questioned coolly, jutting her chin up, though she was a few inches shorter than the main guard.
"As you said, we don't want him dead-" the main guard began, but one of his inferiors interjected.
"He deserves to live forever with those scars as his reminder. Death would be too kind," she sneered. Katara stepped forward, and Pan must have sensed how close she was to causing another scene or fight, for he touched her elbow gently. That was enough to remind her that it would be foolish to try to take a guard on, here and now.
"They don't want him dead," Pan said gently, apologetically, "So that means above all, remember that he will live."
As he turned her away and down the hall, he gave a quiet sigh. "And we must be grateful in this alone."
XX
Zuko returned late that night. Katara only knew so because he was knocking on her patio door at a ridiculous hour. At first, she felt giddy, thinking he needed a run in the town as the Painted Lady (all her reservations aside) and the Blue Spirit, however, from the way he flopped on her couch face-first, she realized it wasn't going to be that sort of night.
"Erm, how's the group?" she asked.
Zuko raised his head, glaring at her. "Do you want me to kick you out?" he asked crankily.
"Zuko, have you slept at all?" Katara asked, recalling how unhinged he'd seemed the last time he hadn't gotten proper slumber. Zuko and sleep were a necessary duo.
"I would," he grouched, "If you didn't keep causing problems for me to have to cover up."
She winced. At any other time, she might have taken offense, but she did deserve his frustrations. She had crossed a line...both of them had.
"She called Toph a whore," Katara whispered brokenly. Zuko's stern face broke into a look of pain. He pulled a pillow under his chin.
"I know," he said quietly. "I've heard the accounts, in full, already." He paused. "I usually like Ratana...but Agni, I'd want to slap her too," he admitted. "But that comes to my question. Is this your way of asking to leave?"
"Of course not! Unless...you want me-"
"No, no," he hurried. "But Katara...you make it hard for me to give you such...privileges. Not when you attack another contestant."
"So...what now?" Katara stood, arms crossed, "Do I leave?"
"No," Zuko said after a moment, scaring her. "Ratana shouldn't have said that and certainly shouldn't have fought back. It was just you girls, no guards. Luckily we don't have Avizeh here, otherwise, the story would already be out in the world and people really would be calling for your dismissal," he said lightly.
"Wait, 'really'?" Katara caught, "Are they already?" Zuko ignored her question.
"And I've already talked to everyone else. Ratana agrees that if neither of you are sent home, it's fair. The rest of the girls – yes, even Mai and Nadhari – agreed that they wouldn't tell. I think they understand emotions are all over right now. I mean, I guess I had to bribe Nadhari, but she still agreed," Zuko continued talking as though he hadn't heard her.
Katara pinched the bridge of her nose.
"Zuko, I-"
There was a rapping at her door.
"Shh!" she whispered, and Zuko gave her an 'of course I'm going to be quiet' sort of look. They both stayed silent, hoping whoever it was would assume she was asleep.
"Katara! Katara, really!" It was Suki and she sounded frantic. Katara motioned frantically for Zuko to hide. He turned, about to jump off the balcony, but at the last moment crawled under the bed.
Katara stood at the door, turning, and then went and covered part of the space with a blanket.
"Just in case!" she hissed, "Now, stay silent."
"Yeah, gotcha," Zuko replied dryly.
Suki's pounding was louder.
Katara threw the door open to see Suki's face patchy.
"I'm sorry to wake you, but…" Suki gulped. "You need to come to the Ladies' Room," she said, wiping her nose. "Yue's trying to find Zuko. Oh, gosh."
"What? It's late and I-" Katara tried to hedge, but Suki grasped her arm.
"Now."
Notes:
Next chapter out on Friday, March 5th!
Chapter Text
Suki pulled Katara into the room. On the table was a gossip rag, something Katara usually gave little to no attention to. They were always horribly inaccurate and usually were just making things up.
However, there was usually a kernel of truth within the words, even though often it was very minuscule. A broken clock was still right twice a day though, right?
What more? All the girls around her were reading it, fingers clutching the paper.
She felt her chest tighten and herd the sound of each footstep as she approached was like a drumbeat in her ear. She was terrified that it would be announcing Toph was alive or that someone knew where Aang or Ty Lee was. She was paralyzed with fear at the thought of it doing a nasty exposé on her brother. She didn't want to pick it up to see Iroh's good name smeared callously.
She should have seen how Suki looked at her, with such pity. At that moment she realized that Suki was not crying for herself...she was crying for Katara. Katara shouldn't have been worried for others, she should have been afraid of what it said about her.
"Former Choice Favorite Tells All in Journal Entries…" Katara read out loud, and she felt faint. Very much so. The world fuzzed above her as she realized why so many girls were looking at her with a sense of distrust or anger.
She spun to Suki, who just gave a hard-pressed frown.
"I understand we hardly knew each other. I'm not mad. Just…" She sighed. Just sad, Katara understood and frustrated about the entire circumstance of it.
"That's your handwriting, isn't it?" On Ji asked, pointing to the hand-drawn picture, "You wrote those things."
"I…." Katara remembered the seal leather-bound journal her mother had gifted her, brought here to feel close to home in those first few weeks. She recalled how she thought it would be a fantastic idea to write in it about her experiences here. She remembered the Equalist attack and how her room had been trashed and she'd never found the journal, assuming it had been burned or ripped or destroyed.
But someone had grabbed it.
And now, they were publishing it for all to see.
She was so caught off guard that she didn't even fathom the idea of pointing out that anyone could copy her handwriting, and could say what they wanted it to say. This came belatedly, but unfortunately, her aspirated vowel told the truth more than anything else could.
Everyone knew that yes, the journal that was being recreated was indeed Katara's.
The timing of it was...frustrating. No, not just frustrating, pointed. It was a clear attack. She was at her most vulnerable with Sokka's situation fueling such poor opinions of her that taking Katara down now just needed one good move.
This could possibly be the fuse that led to her leaving.
"All the Fire Nation girls feel haughtier and superior?" On Ji read quietly, and Katara winced, not recalling her exact wording, but something close. "They act like they're all already victors."
"You see, I'd only know you for a short time. Hardly anything," Katara said softly, hoping that she could smooth the hurt, but this was never meant to be seen by anyone other than her own people.
"You said that I was a spitfire but I don't know how to be quiet," Ratana said, touching the place where there was still a red mark on her face, "Guess that opinion hasn't changed." Her eyes burned with anger.
"Apparently, I'm the commoner version of Yue." On Ji said, eyes narrowed.
"That's a compliment," Katara blubbered, but immediately knew that was the wrong thing to say. She was glad Yue wasn't there...she did wish Zuko was here to oh... she didn't know, burn all the copies immediately? She hoped he would run into' Yue soon so he could be summoned to the Ladies' Room. Great Tui, Zuko was really going to have her head now.
"She basically insinuates Ty Lee is a stupid flirt!" Nadhari looks like she's having a grand old time reading. "Wonder what Ty Lee would think if she read that now, wherever she is. If she knew one of her friends thought she was tacky and had no tact with her giggling."
"Don't put words in Katara's mouth," Mai said sharply, though perhaps she was just defending Ty Lee.
"You read your bit yet, Mai?" Nadhari waved the paper, smiling, "Because she has a lot to say about you. Doesn't know why you're here at all, no semblance of a personality, will make a horrible mother, only pretty if you like ugly things like a rainy day...and here's the piece de resistance. Ahem, and I quote, 'If Zuko needs a personable wife, I can't think of a worse choice.' Word for word. No words in mouths." Nadhari seemed just as excited to read this as she was to tell the others how Katara has taken them down. Katara winced externally. Had she really had to go that rough on Mai?
"I'm sure you're not painted in a pretty light either," Suki said sourly to Nadhari.
"I expected that. I'm not hurt, sweetie," Nadhari said, looking directly at Katara. "I know I'm unlikeable. At least I own my personality, or at least, I'm not surprised when I make an enemy or two."
Well, Nadhari already hated her, so she wasn't missing out on anything there.
Luckily for Suki, Katara had only written, mostly, nice things. Suki's part was small and short, as it wasn't exciting that Katara didn't have some secret beef with her. At worst, she said Suki scared her a bit with her passion sometimes, but then again, Suki didn't seem offended. Yue's and Alcina's parts were both pretty general too if she remembered correctly. Safe would be the word for it now. Even in the rest of her journal, where she'd written about the process up until the attack, there had been a few comments and none were as bad as those first introductions.
But now, months later...she was kicking herself.
"You said I was a disgusting freak for taking a claim that I am distantly related to the bloodline," Caecillia said quietly. Katara snapped her head around.
"I never said that. Never wrote it, I mean. I…" Katara was at a loss, seizing the paper.
"But you already owned up to this whole little exposé," Nadhari pointed out, "So excuse us if some don't believe you."
"But why would she lie about that if she admitted to the rest?" Alcina questioned, setting down her paper. Okay, she for-sure still had Suki, Yue, and Alcina on her side. She could make it through with three friends.
Zuko strode into the room, fists clenching.
"Princess Katara, did you consent to this information being published?" he asked, voice probably formal to hide how much he wanted to hit his head against a wall right now.
"Of course not!" Katara said, angry he'd think otherwise. She wasn't suicidal! "Why would you think that?" Her tone was unkind. Zuko swallowed, blinking, as though trying to re-align himself at her harshness.
"Right. So, this is a very upsetting action against the throne and your Prince. So, if you please, we'll be collecting those," Zuko said and Katara wanted to just disappear. Of course, Zuko was on her side too. Why would she imagine he wasn't? However, she knew one of her bad qualities was, if she was already on the defense, acting like a hissing spider-cat and lashing out at those that were just trying to help.
"Information's already out there," Mai said but handed it over. "Can you really stop it?"
"I can pause it," Zuko said. "We will be exploring this. If I find out it was any of you…" Zuko's good eye roamed the room, "You will be sorry. And I would do the same if you tried to run a smear campaign against any member of the Choice, so you know," He added as Nadhari rolled her eyes at Katara and began to say something. "This is very clearly not just mere publishing of the journal contents, as we know there would be mundane things she wrote about too, but anti-Katara. Make no mistake in thinking this was done very pointedly."
He collected the papers, crisping them in his hand as he stomped away, cussing slightly under his breath.
"I dunno, and maybe Katara will think I should keep my fat mouth shut," Ratana said, "But I think whoever published this is a hero."
Katara turned away and luckily Suki saw her face and guided her away before Katara slapped Ratana...again.
XXXX
Zuko counted as Ru gave an eighth long sigh. No, he wasn't just counting, he was categorizing. He was watching his friend read with rapt attention, eyes completely focused.
The first sigh had been almost in amusement, as though to ask, 'oh, what has Zuko brought to me today?' After that, when he began reading, it had turned into much more frustrated sighs. Two sighs of frustration, sending an 'are you serious' look at Katara. One sigh of aggravation. Three sighs where he seemed like he really was regretting everything right about now. And one sigh, right at the very end, where he placed his head on the armrest and sighed loudly.
Zuko glanced at the smear paper against Katara, for sure the last paper in the Royal Palace, on the threat of being labeled a traitor. The papers had been handed back quickly after that. And, more surprisingly, it had been his mother who had given the announcement. His father was away for a day, 'arranging' something Zuko was not privy to, but he hoped that Ozai would have agreed.
Or not. Zuko could be honest with himself.
Either way, he was warmed by his mother's compassion and her stoniness in this regard. They'd sent guards to try to track down the person who penned this, to no luck. They'd brought back as many of the papers as they could find but he feared Mai was right. The lies, the twisting of Katara's words, the damage was out there.
Cue Ru.
"You know, Zuko," Ru said, finally sitting up, taking a drink of dragon whisky (he apparently gave no shits about drinking on the job this time), "When you asked me to be the Choice's media liaison, I thought, oh cool! This would be my big break. I was honored. I thought I would be writing mostly fluff pieces, maybe get an award for 'bringing out the truth' of one of the girls, something like their dad told them to join with their dying breath. Drama. Gossip. Cattiness. And instead, you bring me this." He gesticulated all around, and Zuko knew this wasn't the first time he was calling Ru in on unorthodox articles. "You...you keep me on my toes, Prince Zuko. Never a dull moment."
"Ru-" Katara spoke up quietly.
"But damn do you make my job hard," Ru finished. "Whoever wanted to make Katara's life worse has done a really good job of it. It would be hard to swing it positive, even if I had it in my hands," he admitted.
"So you won't be able to?" Zuko asked, growling.
"No! It's going to be a challenge though," Ru rolled up his sleeves, "I hope you two have your schedules cleared. We need to dig deep. Reinvent Katara entirely. Change the narrative. We can't fix it now...we're far past that, but we can give them a different image than what this piece gave."
"I'll call for someone to bring us a meal," Zuko said after a moment, realizing the insurmountable task at hand. Ru raised an eyebrow.
"Yeah. Someone you trust. And the good stuff, Zuko. Need my brain to be properly fed." He tapped his head.
"Sounds like you just want a free fancy meal," Katara snorted.
"With what Zuko hopes I can do, it's the least he can offer," Ru said, but he didn't sound offended. Zuko gave a half-smile.
He called Atsushi. Now that Iroh was gone, his uncle's attendant had been given to him. He knew from the way Atsushi talked that he believed Iroh innocent, or in the right, and Zuko had a good sense that he wasn't just saying that. He'd agonized when he found out Iroh had been 'killed'. Zuko trusted him, one of the few people in the palace that currently did.
When Zuko and Atsushi returned, Ru and Katara were deep in discussion. They were going rapid-fire, back and forth, Katara answering questions as quickly as Ru asked them. They weren't easy ones either, but the real deep stuff, the things she'd need to reveal to raise her public image.
Usually, Zuko wouldn't give a shit about what the people thought, but the closer he was to taking the throne for real, the more he wanted his people to love their Fire Lady. They did not love Katara right now. If he married her – even if she agreed – there might be riots in the street.
Part of him wished Katara had told him about the journal. If he'd known it was coming, they could have done damage control way sooner. It seemed she'd forgotten about it entirely until it popped back up, so perhaps he couldn't blame her. Who imagined it would cause any trouble at all?
It was a long talk, mostly between Katara and Ru. Zuko couldn't add much but felt he should be there for moral support. Honestly, though, most of his time was spent in deep thought. His mind was like a web, so tangled with so many different ends to the thread that it was hard to keep track. To be frank, it was almost relaxing to have four hours to just sit and sift through his issues, trying to spread them out mentally, without being asked for something else.
Finally, when the food was done and Ru had no more paper, he started to pack up.
"Enough?" Zuko asked warily.
"I…" Ru hesitated, "I'll have to think about it. I mean, she gave me enough to write a biography, but it will take cunningness to twist it how we want…" He gnawed at his lip. "I hate to say it, but one of her biggest barriers isn't her...it's her brother," he said, glancing back at Katara, who locked her jaw.
"Thanks."
"I'm just being transparent. If you did something...something to better your image, I could write about that. I don't even know what though." He groaned. Zuko licked his lips, wincing. Katara caught it.
Ru flexed his fingers, not seeing the exchange. "If you think of an angle, send it my way. I'm going to go home, take a nap, and then tomorrow hope my dreams have given me an epiphany," he said dryly, knocking on the door for Atsushi to escort him out.
"What?" Katara demanded, "What was that face?"
"It might not work. The article," Zuko said quietly, "Without some...action. Ru's right."
"Because of Sokka," Katara hissed.
"He's…" Zuko didn't want to speak ill of her brother, and not of someone he still hoped he could be friends, even after what he'd done to him, "…not a well-liked person. I can't be seen being friendly with him, not yet, so…" This did bother him genuinely. He'd started to think of Sokka as part of his self-adopted family, and all he wanted was to go in there and let Sokka punch him in the face or the gut and then for the pair to clink their glasses of sake and be friends. But that, at least currently, was quite impossible.
"So, what?" Katara's voice was taut, "I should give up my family? Separate myself from those 'Water Tribe Savages'? Start acting like a 'true lady' and not the daughter of some 'unwashed beast'?" She stood, pacing. "Give a public address condemning them, basically disassociating myself with my blood?"
"No!" Zuko jumped, but when she gave him a hard look, he sighed, unwilling to speak.
"I know it." Katara flopped down. "It's all things I've thought of too. I can't get angry at you for being logical about it." She mumbled, "I'm selfish, Zuko. I don't want to."
"Then I won't ask you to."
"You should," Katara wiped the back of her eyes, and he noticed she was tearing up a bit. "Because my family will do something boneheaded – or I will – and we'll still be here. Maybe I'm not cut out for this. Maybe I'm not meant to be the Fire Lady," she said with a shrug.
"Bullshit." Zuko knelt down, touching her cheek. "Class and poise? Who needs those?" he said, catching a small smile from her. "Kindness. Love. The drive to do good. That's all the Fire Lady needs and you have it in droves."
"Zuko?" Katara said, kissing his hand, "Do you want to go out tomorrow night? As the Blue Spirit?" Her eyes were shimmering.
"Spirits, yes," Zuko groaned, "Please."
"It's a date." Katara kissed his cheek. "I'll see you then. I should go back to my room, before someone sees me touching a vase and writes a piece about how I defiled a thousand-year-old heirloom or something," she said, but there was a hint of humor to her voice.
"Are you okay?" He felt stupid for not asking before.
"I'm made of stronger stuff," Katara assured, "Or I'd be long gone."
XXX
As Katara walked back to her room, she nearly ran into a guard. She started to give an apology until she realized it was Tahoe. She relaxed until she saw that he was scowling at her.
"What?" she snapped, tired of people sending her dirty looks all throughout the palace, as though she'd murdered a favorite pet on the steps of the Throne Room. "Did I offend someone you care about in the article too?"
In fact, all day, people had been crawling out of nowhere to inform her what a horrible, selfish, cruel person she was. Because Ishwa had been their third cousin's favorite babysitter, or that Avizeh was the girl who had once smiled at them in a crowd of three-hundred, or because they had just simply liked Fidelia best. Because how dare Katara write private things about people in her private journal that these idiots had never meant to see in the first place?
"No, but I need you to tell me the truth," Tahoe said. He seemed bigger, almost imposing, as he stood over her. "Aiga's not gone on a vacation, is she? I went to her house and they're gone."
Embarrassment flooded Katara. Of course, it was about his girlfriend, who he was probably worried sick about, especially after seeing her house vacant. But...if Aiga hadn't told him her plans or where she was going...common sense told Katara to stay mum.
"I thought she was," Katara said, eyes wide and voice high with her lie, "I only found out today that she'd put in her leave notice."
"She didn't tell you?" Tahoe's face was colored with confusion. "She considered you a... sister…"
Katara's heart clenched. "I know."
"Do you think it was the airbenders?" Tahoe asked warily, genuinely looking frightened. "I've heard what Zhao says they're capable of...I'm just worried she got caught up in something...bigger than her."
"Why do you say that?"
"I don't know, she always just seemed...like she was watching over her shoulder. Always on the lookout." Tahoe inhaled sharply. "Katara, I'm freaking out. I'm going out of my mind with worry. If you know something...please, tell me," he begged. "She trusted you more than she did me. Anything could be important."
Katara felt for him. She opened her mouth, but then recalled how she had perhaps let some sensitive information on Aiga slip once, and knew she could not.
"I'm sorry," she said after a long moment, "She didn't tell me anything. Just that she and her family were going on vacation to Ember Island." She figured if anything, she should give false information. Aiga sure as hell wasn't there.
"Oh." Tahoe's shoulders dropped, and he sounded both disappointed and frustrated. "If you hear anything else, you'll let me know?" he asked. Katara smiled warmly, relieved he'd believed her. "Of course, Tahoe. Don't worry."
XXX
Breakfast the next morning was a weird affair, what with half of the girls looking at Katara like they wanted to stab her with their butter knives, a few girls protectively glaring at the rest of them, and Nadhari settling herself at the end of the table, grinning. She was smiling more lately than Katara had ever seen her. Figures that what made Nadhari truly happy was Katara being metaphorically stampeded with hatred.
Ursa tried to keep the conversation light. Azula had taken her breakfast in her room and Zuko was trying not to play favorites with anyone, especially not Katara currently, so he spent almost all of his meal staring at his plate. Lu Ten was absent. Shame; he would have at least kept the humor up and eased this tension.
Ozai showed up at the end, just before everyone was about to leave. Zuko glanced up, nostrils flaring for a moment, eyes narrowed.
"Dear, I thought you wouldn't be back yet," Ursa said. Ozai patted her shoulder, nodding to Zuko.
"Finished finalizing my details early," he said but revealed nothing else. "I have an announcement anyway."
Zuko looked at the ceiling, taking deep breaths.
"Dear spirits," Suki muttered to Katara, "I don't think I want another 'announcement'."
"As we draw closer to finding our future Fire Lady, and no doubt one of you will be my daughter-in-law soon enough, I thought it would be nice for us to have tea tomorrow. Ursa and I would appreciate the time to speak with you, get to know you. Learn your interests and give ourselves a sense of who we might see around here permanently."
Most of the girls took their attention away from Katara, giving smiles and nervous giggles to each other. Zuko was still looking suspicious but had apparently decided this was innocuous enough.
Katara felt her stomach flip-flop. She liked Ursa, but she could think of nothing worse than describing her interests to Ozai. He'd likely only be condescending anyway. Still, she had to try to make a better impression, or else...
"Please come an hour before dessert to the lounge on the first floor. We look forward to this evening, ladies!"
As all the girls were excused from their meal, the walk back to their quarters was filled with some girls fussing about what they would wear and others talking strategy about what to say to Ozai. At least there was something shiny and new and distracting.
Katara followed into the lounge since her room was being cleaned right now and she was forced to socialize.
"I wonder what the Fire Lord wants to know?" Cillia mused.
"Shoot! I've forgotten everything that Zhi taught us about poise and etiquette," On Ji moaned. "I'll probably trip in front of my face in front of him."
"I hope my maid has a good dress prepared. I don't want to wear what I wore for the ball," Nadhari broke in, a disgusted look on her face.
"Oh, none of the twelve?" Alcina responded sarcastically.
"It was only four," Nadhari snarked back at her. "I can't wear those though. I'm going to find her. She can be scatterbrained. What would she do without me?" Nadhari grumbled as she left.
"Maybe actually enjoy her job?" Cillia asked, garnering a few laughs.
"Do you think that he'd prefer white or blue?" Yue questioned. "I could wear either. I think that white has a good feeling, you know? But blue is soothing. Maybe I need to be soothed."
Katara zoned out of most of the conversation, knowing she'd probably grab something from the back of her closet. She almost wondered what makeup Aiga would set out for her until she remembered. She felt her throat close and blinked back tears.
"I'm...going to figure out what to wear," Katara mumbled a quick exit, so the others did not see her tears.
"Right." She heard Cillia click her tongue. "Still doesn't have a new maid."
XXX
Zhi escorted the girls to the lounge. Everyone was in a nervous, giddy mood. It was like they were drunk, despite none of the girls having any alcohol yet. Even Mai seemed off-focus.
Katara had decided she was going to give her best effort in front of Ozai. She'd been on the fence between being her usual impossibly stubborn Katara or if, for Zuko, she should try to be nice. Yeah, he hated his dad, but his dad had a lot of sway.
Because she cared about Zuko and cared about her own position far more than she'd realized, she needed to be serious.
Ozai and Ursa were waiting, with Zuko in the corner. As soon as everyone was sitting, they explained that the ladies would be free to partake in tea and dessert, and they'd come to each of them to talk. Otherwise, the ladies should enjoy the presentation and the tea, from one of the best tea-makers in the nation.
If Toph were there, Katara was sure she would have huffed and said, "No one makes better tea than Iroh."
Katara took a long time picking her food and her tea. By the time that she sat back down, Suki plopped down next to her.
"That was unexpected."
"They already talked to you?" Katara wondered how long she'd been staring at that chocolate cake. Embarrassingly long, she supposed. Her nerves were wild right now.
"It was sort of...fun? He seemed like a normal guy for once. I mean, we know he's not, but it was weird. I think there were parts that were genuine." Suki seemed extremely thoughtful.
"What did he want to know? Was it like a firing squad?"
"Hardly. He actually was really interested in my culture. Seriously, I'll add. Very conversational. I think he's being a bit honest. I mean, one of us will be related to him," Suki pulled a face at that, and half-gagged. "I made him laugh."
"Oh spirits," Katara spurted out some of her tea, "I didn't think he was capable."
"You and me both! He seems to be in a good mood. Whatever he was planning is apparently going to go off without a hitch, or so he told Ursa. Maybe you can push that in your favor?"
"Tui, I hope," Katara agreed, sitting up straighter. Maybe she could turn this around?
Zuko apologized and excused himself, saying he had to get to some paperwork, and just wanted to see the ladies. He caught Katara's eye and smiled slightly before he left. Suki coughed, shaking her head a bit.
"Starry-eyed…" she said.
"Sorry. Right. No. Ozai," Katara pointed at Suki, meaning for her to continue.
"I just think that maybe Ozai wears different hats. It's hard to be a leader, I know," Suki considered, "I mean, Ursa said she loved him at one point. He had to have been entertaining or funny or something. I think maybe I'd like to believe there's a personality under there."
Katara was not so sure she agreed. It was easier to hate him if he was a black-and-white monster.
Katara watched as he moved from girl to girl. Eventually, Alcina joined Katara and Suki, and the three of them watched with one eye as Ozai and Ursa talked to each girl. On Ji looked at the couple adoringly. It was refreshing, in a sense, that she was so easily enchanted. Besu looked put-out, and it didn't seem like their conversation went well. When Ozai moved to Nadhari, she gave a seductive smile.
"Yuck!" Alcina shuddered, "Where does one draw the line?"
"Hey, maybe if she isn't chosen and Ursa vanishes, she could become Zuko's new mom," Suki teased.
"Excuse me while I vomit," Katara gagged, and Alcina was torn between laughing and making disgusted faces.
Katara watched as Ozai talked to every girl. Except for Katara. Even those that were sitting with other girls, he talked to. Why save her for last?
There was a point where Ursa tugged on his cloak, her feet pointed as though she was poised to head toward Katara next, but he ignored her. He just stood. "Oh, ladies, the time has gotten away from us! We need to retire for the night. I enjoyed talking with all of you."
There were some goodbyes, but mostly, the attention was back to Katara. It was so obvious he'd talked to everyone but her.
And she knew he hadn't simply 'forgotten.' No, this was calculated. He was making a statement. It didn't matter how Zuko felt or how Katara felt. It didn't matter that Ursa seemed to like Katara. It didn't matter that at one point, everyone had loved her.
With such a simple action, he'd put his disdain on display. The Fire Lord thought she was so unfit and so unworthy he didn't even bother speaking with her.
Katara wanted to scream.
She was grateful that she and Zuko would be going out tonight. She needed to punch a burglar and let off some pent-up frustrations. She dug her Painted Lady clothes out of her closet, ignoring the tingling feeling in her mind as she held up the outfit.
She put on her makeup and waited.
And waited...and waited...and waited.
But Zuko never showed.
XXX
Zuko was walking through a field he did not recognize. Swamp may be the better word, but it wasn't like Aang's swamps. The grass above him was tall and seemed to shimmer, but there was also water up to his ankles, although he wasn't getting wet.
He waded for a long time, the shadow of the moon his companion on this eerie night. Everything around him seemed paused; there was no sound. Nothing. The trees seemed to change shape every time he shifted his gaze, morphing weirdly with their shadows casting long lines of black across the crystal clear water.
There were two figures up ahead.
"Hey! Hey, where am I?" Zuko called, and he ran, but there were no splashes in the water as he came toward them. In fact, he seemed to be making no distance at all, but rather the foreground was brought to him, as though someone was pulling the grass on a string.
He paused, blinking and rubbing his eyes.
The figures seemed not to notice him, despite being only a few feet away. It was the Blue Spirit and the Painted Lady...holding hands. The Blue Spirit whispered something and the Painted Lady laughed. They seemed happy, content.
"Hey! What's going on?" Zuko waved his arms to no avail. It was like he was a ghost here.
There was a din growing in the back of his mind. The longer he stood there, the louder it was. He couldn't figure out what the noise was. He knew it, though his brain was hiding that answer...and he felt like he should panic. As his brain scrambled to figure it out, the Blue Spirit turned toward Zuko, as though noticing him for the first time. Through the mask, their eyes met.
He might have been out of it, but he could have sworn they were golden eyes.
Then, the Blue Spirit spoke, but it was Zuko's own voice that echoed in his ears.
"You need to wake up now."
Zuko jolted awake.
"Zuko! Wake up, now!"
Zuko wiped his eyes and nearly had a heart attack, falling halfway off his chair. Before him was the Painted Lady, her clothes billowing behind her, her skin glowing. Part of him thought he was dead, that his time was up. It was a gothic, sublime vision that stopped his heart all at once.
It took a few seconds for his brain to wake up and realize it was Katara. Her costume was blowing due to the patio door open and her skin was aglow due to the reflection of the full moon. There was no frightening sound. It was just the crickets of the night.
Why was she wearing...oh frick.
"We were supposed to go out tonight," he groaned, dragging his hands down his face, "I must've fallen asleep. I was trying to get these papers together for Aang on the Equalists. It's all so scattered and weird and I knew a shipment was going out in two days and-"
"Hey, woah," Katara touched his shoulders, "Calm down, Zuko. It's fine."
"No, it's not! I made an agreement with you." Zuko started hiding his work from prying eyes like Azula or Ozai. "I'm so, so sorry."
"At least I know it was for a good reason. I thought you'd just ignored me. Like your fa…" Katara's fists clenched. "Like others have."
"Did something happen?" Zuko asked, still a bit groggy.
"I'm okay." He'd realize only later she hadn't really answered. "I'm just on an emotional high. Full moon and all." She pointed. "Hey, you should sleep. We can do this another time. I have my answer."
"No, wait for a second," Zuko argued, "It would do me good. I need to get out, really. Give me just a few moments. I'll get dressed."
"Are you sure? You and sleep haven't been…"
"Haven't been what?" Zuko called from his changing room, tugging on his black ensemble. Compared to Katara's, his outfit was quick to gather and put on.
"Haven't been friends. Don't think we don't see how tired you are," she said, concerned.
"Would you be able to sleep if you were the Prince in my position?" Zuko asked, coming out and tugging his mask on tightly. "I won't hear it. Let's go, Kat."
Katara seemed ready to disagree, but she was itching to run the roofs as much as he was.
"Let's do some good tonight," he said, "And make some lives better."
XXX
Their night was what Zuko would certainly call a success. They managed to bag two thieves, one that he knew had been evading the Fire Guard for quite a bit. They gave food to a family that blessed the ground they left it on. They talked a kid down from running away, and he did believe it was a spiritual intervention. Katara seemed a bit proud but equally put-off by that comment, and he made a note to question that later. They rescued a cat from a tree for a little old lady who said it was nice to see 'young couples out doing blessed things.' Weird, but thanks? They saved a woman who was choking on a grape, and this was when he learned that Katara knew how to save someone who wasn't breathing. They helped a lost child find her way home.
Zuko hadn't felt so satisfied with anything he'd done in months!
The old lady they'd helped had given them some sweet rice cakes, and they found a high roof to sit and eat their spoils.
"Sometimes I wish I could just vanish. Leave. Do this forever," he said. "I want to be the Fire Lord to help people, but sometimes it's hard to see the bigger picture. And I want to help everyone. I'm not sure if I can do that as the Fire Lord. I think it's a contradiction."
"That's what I like about my tribe," Katara agreed with a knowing nod, "Every action I do directly helps someone. We see those changes immediately."
"I just want to know that I'm doing the right things. Sometimes it doesn't feel like it." He grimaced and waved his hand. "Like the Choice. For some, it's a game. Something they can bet money on and read about in the news and make their own opinions about. I know I'm doing it to take time to pick the best future wife for my Nation, but I get so tired of the drama. Not the stuff you-all go through – I mean, the environment manufactures fights – but the bureaucracy of it," Zuko rambled, "Why should it be anyone's choice but mine who I marry?"
"It shouldn't, but we don't live that way. Either of us," Katara said, "It's the price we pay by wanting to do good on the large-scale, eh?"
Zuko charted her, frowning. He'd never considered where she'd be or who she'd be with if two advisors on a Fire Nation vessel hadn't led her here. In a terrible life, maybe they would have only met as enemies at an All-Nations meeting. He didn't like that life either.
He wasn't sure where he should be, or what he should do, or how to fix anything that was happening. It was enough to...to…
Zuko picked up a cherry blossom that had fallen on the roof from a large tree in this house's backyard, picking off the petals and letting the breeze dance them away. "Sometimes I wonder...if we just...rode away with the wind...what it would be like."
Katara was quiet. He wondered if she would be furious for suggesting, even in theory, that he should abandon his people. Instead, she gave a sad smile.
"It's tempting."
He leaned over and kissed her. He meant it to be just a show of companionship, something gentle, but she deepened it. Just as he was getting into it, she pulled back.
"Sorry, sorry! The moon...uhm, emotions...yeah." She winced, her face reddening to the color of her war paint.
"The moon makes you want to kiss me?"
"Among other things," she admitted nervously. "It makes me feel like I'm at the top of the world. Like I could do anything, take whatever I want."
"So, me?" Zuko asked with a self-satisfied grin. Katara hit his arm.
"Whatever, yes, you! I'm not interested in any other guys," she huffed.
"Kat." He pulled her close. "Katara. Kiss me again. Please?"
"If that's a Royal Decree?" she teased.
"I'll put it in writing," he said as their mouths connected.
It was nothing more than what it was. They were enjoying the warmth of the night, the way their arms rose with goosebumps. Neither had any intention to take it farther, but to be able to kiss the girl he liked without interruption was a luxury even the Prince did not have. They could have stayed forever on that roof, no expectations of what it meant or didn't mean. They were just two people, blowing off their steam, capturing a moment selfishly for themselves.
When both pulled back, they were satisfied.
"Nearly dawn," Zuko commented, "We have...maybe three more hours. Wanna keep going?"
"No! You need sleep," Katara commanded. "I think it's only fair."
"You take good care of me," Zuko groaned, unwilling to admit that without her nagging, he wouldn't have slept that night.
"Someone needs to."
As they hopped back through the roofs, there was a sound that grew closer with each house they passed. It was the sound from his dream, but now he could place it. In his dream, it had been muffled and distorted. It wasn't now.
It was the emergency call, the alarm bell.
"The palace is in trouble!" Zuko called, noticing how the guards in the city were swarming toward his house.
"What sort of trouble?" Katara yelled after him, her short legs struggling to keep up with the long, worried strides he was taking.
Zuko paused, heart racing and his breath short. "Fire, burglary, a rabid ostrich horse on the loose...but what would you guess?"
Katara's eyes darkened. "Equalists?"
Zuko inhaled hard. "We need to get back. Right now."
Chapter 37
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
"-and that is how you bake a perfect Air Tart!" Aang finished his tale to the crowd gathered around him, basking in happy memories of making those pies with Master Gyatso.
It was commonplace for him to tell these kinds of stories. Since he couldn't leave the swamp, and more airbenders were arriving by the day and asking him all sorts of questions he couldn't wait to answer, he figured having impromptu history and culture lessons was quite apropos. The turnout had been something that gave him continued strength...to see so many wanting to accept their newfound culture, eager to hear his words, made him hopeful for the rest of the Airbenders and the resurrection of their community one day.
"Avatar Aang?" A ten-year-old girl sitting on Ty Lee's lap shot her arm up, straight as a board, and waved her hand like she was washing a window. "I have a question!"
She was one of the most curious of the new airbenders. Her mother had died as a baby and her father had thrown her out when he found out she was an Airbender. He told her he wasn't turning her into Zhao's men, as though making her fend on the streets was something she should thank him for. So, needless to say, she had seemed timid and sad when she had first arrived. Ty Lee had made it her personal mission to make the little girl laugh again. Because of this she'd rather...imprinted on Ty Lee, seeing her as a replacement maternal figure.
"Yes, what is it?" Aang turned toward her.
"So…" She tapped her chin, eyebrows furrowed in thought. "Firebenders can bend lightning. I saw Princess Azula do it once. Earthbenders can bend metal-"
"Hey! Only one Earthbender can! Me!" Toph shouted from her place in the back. She claimed she showed up to these talks because 'she had nothing better to do,' but Aang knew she was curious all the same.
"...And waterbenders can…" The girl gulped, "Do the bad thing and move someone's body…" She shuddered. She was Fire Nation by birth, so no doubt she'd heard rumors and whispers of bloodbending, like a bogey-man in the night. "Can Airbenders do anything like that?"
"Well, we can do lots of cool stuff," Aang chuckled. "We can astral project, for one! It means you can take your...erm, consciousness and project it elsewhere. Like a ghost." From the looks of it, he had sort of lost anyone under the age of thirteen. "We'll talk about that another day. Airbenders can also…" He started, but saw the children sitting there and furrowed his brows. "Er, nevermind."
"So we can only ash-terra project?" The girl questioned.
"Astral. And no, that's not all. I mean, there's thirty-some really cool things you'll learn, but the big thing Airbenders can do is fly."
"You mean with the gliders?" Dhakiya asked, touching her own version of a glider. It was safe to fly in the low parts of the swamp and some of the older airbenders had gone about making their own after Aang's.
"Without them," Aang said with a grin. "Guru Laghima figured it out 3,000 years ago. It's hard to do, near impossible I'd say. He was the only one to have ever done it. Apparently, you have to give up all earthly tethers. Everything that ties you to the earth, you have to let go of. Once you've done that, you've unlocked ultimate freedom and can fly."
"All earthly tethers? Sounds lonely," an Airbender from the Earth Kingdom mused.
"It is, which is why I don't know if I could. Even as the Avatar," he said, catching a look at Ty Lee.
"Everything?" The ten-year-old seemed aghast. "Even my love for Mr. Spitz?" She had adopted a grumpy gator-cat not long after arriving that seemed to dote on the small girl. It growled if anyone but Aang or Ty Lee came too close. Right now, it perked up and narrowed his eyes at the mention of his name.
"Even him," Aang said solemnly. "So, if you don't do it, don't feel like less of an Airbender. All of these...sub-bending moves are extremely difficult, only possible for a select few. It's not for everyone and that's okay," he assured. "Uhm, I think it's about chore time. Same time tomorrow and I'll be able to answer another question."
Most of the kids sat up and jumped away to start their community chores, but Aang noticed a select few lingering behind. Ty Lee, Dhakiya, some of the very serious new airbenders. All adults.
"Aang, there's something you didn't want to say in front of the kids." Dhakiya went straight to the point. "We're curious."
Aang gave a heavy sigh. "Better I tell you. So you know." He gave a grimace. As it was, he trusted this group. They all seemed like nice people, committed to the knowledge he had. "So, as you know, Airbenders are pacifists. We weren't always though."
"How long ago?"
"Long. There were still monks, some that chose to live a lifestyle without violence, as there are in every nation. But many airbenders were part of military groups, fighters. They lived in excess and bacchanalia and never, ever lost a fight," Aang recounted. "No one from the side they went up against came out alive. But, neither did whoever they sent in. That's all it would take to wipe out entire armies...one single airbender." Aang raised a finger.
"Why?" Ty Lee questioned.
"Airbenders can bend air." Aang inhaled hard for presentation purposes.
"It's what we breathe," an elderly woman in the back realized.
"Yes. So Airbenders can, with great skill and training, take away all the air from a room. It leaves no one alive...not even themselves." Aang recalled the horror he had felt as Gyatso explained this to him. "It was always a suicide mission. But if you lived life with sex, drugs, and food and enjoyed everything else? It was a show of skill, and you were remembered as a hero if you could do it," Aang said with a hard edge. "It annihilated entire tribes. There was another time when Airbenders were hunted to be killed. It was a dangerous time. So, all the living masters had a conclave and declared that all airbenders would become non-violent and live apart from society in the temples. The other nations agreed to stop killing us if we stuck to those promises. Somewhere down the line, the common people forgot our history. You didn't even learn this until you were a master Airbender."
"So we're pacifists...because we're so dangerous?" Ty Lee echoed.
"In a sense. But, as angry as we may be against the Fire Nation right now, we must continue this tradition. We cannot go backward with our people. Only forward." Luckily, by the horrified faces around him, it seemed no one wanted to try this or thought it was cool.
"We'll keep it a secret," the elder promised, "I understand now."
"Thank you for your knowledge, Avatar." Dhakiya bowed to him, as well as everyone else. "That is...quite a lot to think about."
"Indeed." Aang knew it was no light-hearted matter he'd just told them. "If anyone needs to, uhm, talk...let me know." Ty Lee grabbed his hand, kissing his cheek, as they began to walk back to the cabin.
"That's fucked up."
Aang jumped around.
"Toph!" he growled, "That information was for airbenders only!" He was angry she'd thought she had a right to listen.
"I'm not gonna tell anyone. They might start thinking you could be a badass. There's only room for one of those here in this camp," Toph joked, patting his shoulder.
"You mean Dhakiya?" Ty Lee teased, giggling.
"Rude." Toph rolled her eyes.
There was a sound from the entrance of the camp. Aang bounded a few feet ahead of his companions to see Shen returning back home, face grim. The children were shooed away, and Aang soon saw why. Even though he was returning with about seven new Airbenders, looking scared, tired, and on-edge, he was also returning with three body bags, figures wrapped in linen.
"They are becoming more violent," Iroh said, stroking his beard as he stared in sorrow at the bags.
"One we tried to save. She died on the way out," Shen said quietly. "We will bury them on the High Hill with the rest. Zhao is encouraging people to be savages if they think someone is an Airbender. The news is only worsening. It won't be long until we see entire cities razed."
Aang turned away, grasping the edge of a tree, shaking. Shen came up behind him, seeing the movement.
"Avatar," he said, bowing. Aang turned, wiping the tears at the edge of his eyes.
"Sir," he replied in a watery tone.
"You may not be able to leave yet, but when you do...it is of the utmost importance you stop Ozai from tearing our world apart." He was straight to the point. "You already know airbending and firebending quite well. Iroh has set up with Huu and some of the other benders to teach you waterbending. True, they do not use the techniques you were used to, but the swampbenders are still worthy teachers. In the meantime, both you and Miss Bei Fong may as well find something to do with yourselves...and she should teach you earthbending."
"I get to punch Twinkle Toes around with rocks?" Toph's whole face lit up. "Sign me up!"
"If that will help him…" Shen pinched his nose.
"Uhm, yeah? Airbenders dance away at the slightest trouble. Part of being an Earthbender is standing your ground and taking a rock to the gut like a true bender." She paused. "Where are we supposed to do these lessons? It's too wet here." She made an ick sound, picking up her feet and wiggling her toes.
"There's the area right below High Hill," Dhakiya said, "where the droughts have created an island, basically. It's been fairly dry there forever."
"So that's settled," Shen said. "Aang, it is of utmost importance to master the elements. The world cannot go without you much longer."
Aang looked at Toph. Though he knew he was going to walk home with his skin more bruised than not, he was relieved to have something more actionable to do in his spare time.
"I will be ready."
XX
The Palace seemed to be set ablaze. Long before Katara reached the entrance, she could hear the caterwaul that came from it. She and Zuko shucked off any identifying costume pieces before they entered, Katara washing her face with water from a puddle on the street so neither would be seen as their counterparts.
"My mom!" Zuko yelled as they entered through the front doors, and saw vases tipped and rugs and tapestries torn down the center with knives, "I'm going to go find her!"
"My brother," Katara said. "He can't fight if they come for him," she responded.
"I don't like the idea of you walking around during this," Zuko admitted. "I know you're more than capable, but I'm still worried…"
"As much as I would love to kick a few balls of those Equalists," Katara admitted, angry she hadn't been part of the action the last time, "I need to protect Sokka, as he did for me."
"Be safe." Zuko kissed her forehead. "Don't do anything stupid!"
"Right back at you, ya' hot-head," Katara yelled after him, cupping her hands as he darted off into the smoke-filled halls.
Katara wanted to jump into the fray and really get some of her aggression out, but the thought of Sokka alone terrified her. The guards likely had been pulled to protect the Royal Family and those who could not fight. She took the maid's secret paths, taking herself out of the fights most entirely. She could hear the yelling and looting through the walls, and sometimes it seemed like they knew she was back there from the way the walls were pounded. She had her hand pressed hard to her lips to keep from squealing and actually giving away her position.
As expected, the jail cells weren't protected at all. There were only a handful of people there, most cowering in the corner of their cells, yelling for information. Katara pressed all the other voices from her mind, racing down the musty halls. Her brother was supposed to be released soon, but she knew there was a good chance he was still here.
"Kat! What the hell?" Sokka was pacing at his cell door. He seemed to be in much better condition than the last time they'd talked. "All my guards just left!"
"Equalist attack," Katara explained hastily. "C'mon, I'm getting you somewhere safe," she said, pulling water from her sack. She started to goad it into all the little crevices in the lock, making sure it touched every inch of the mechanisms.
"Breaking me out of jail seems...unwise."
"Oh, you're about ready to be sent to the hospital for recovery anyway." Katara rolled her eyes. "Shouldn't have left you if they didn't want someone doing this," she added with a wink. She grasped the lock and froze it from the inside, and the lock broke off in her hand. "Now let's go," she said, pulling Sokka to her, settling his arm over her shoulders to support him.
"Ack! Careful of that arm!" He winced hard as she touched it.
"Sorry!"
"I can walk, sis," he said, but he was limping.
"Try to keep up, or I'll manhandle you," she said. "We'll go back down. It worked once." She referred to the place he'd hidden Katara during the last attack. He snorted, but nodded. They weren't very far...she prayed they wouldn't run into trouble on their way.
At the last cell, she did a double-take.
She turned around.
"Uhm, hello? Crazy psychopaths attacking?" Sokka waved his arms.
"It's Bahiravi. We have to protect her," Katara said, pleased to see she seemed a bit less pale than the last time. She blinked up at Katara, with more recognition, though things still seemed a bit hazy.
"She tried to poison you!" Sokka choked.
"So she deserves to be killed here and now?" Katara was already breaking the lock. "We are better than our enemies! Help me!" she demanded. Sokka cussed under his breath but came to offer his hand to Bahiravi.
"Katara…" She tilted her head, her hair was ratty and her face full of dirt. "Did you understand?"
"Yes." Katara helped her up, "It was Besu, I know. And the Freedom Fighters." Above Bharvi's hunched figure, Sokka sent Katara a 'what the hell?' look and she sent a 'shut up, I'll tell you later' in return.
"Good...good…" She seemed completely unaware – or maybe just didn't care – about the chaos around her. Maybe she was pleased, at this point, to see the palace trashed.
The trio slowly made their way to the passage in the food storage area. Katara would dart ahead and figure out the safest way for them to go, while Sokka was helping Bahiravi walk since she was in worse shape. Neither would be able to protect themselves if they were attacked, and Sokka's ankle flared up something bad the more he walked, but Katara had no idea when things would settle.
They ended up out on a patio, scurrying into the passage between the outdoor dining space to the kitchens just a few more turns ahead of them. They were near to their destination when Katara heard a cry of pain and fear.
"Katara, leave it!" Sokka pleaded.
"No, that sounded like Alcina," Katara said firmly, backtracking. She pressed herself over the railing, craning and blinking through the rising smoke to see one of her few friends that was left pitifully crawling across the stone, trying to reach somewhere to hide. There was no one after her, but after a few seconds, a man came, stalking her from the darkness. He had a sword raised and she wasn't going to realize until it was far too late.
"Alcina! Behind you!" Katara screamed as loud as she could, but the sounds of the fight around her drowned her out. "Alcina!"
It was no use. She wouldn't be able to get down to the courtyard in time. She turned to her brother.
"Keep going!" she said, eyes wide and wild, "I'll be right there."
"Katara, there's nothing you can do. You've already saved two of us," Sokka growled, face stern.
"I will save as many more as I can! There's no magic number when I'm satisfied," she said, horrified by his indication.
"That's what is so frustrating about you," he said, but knew he was in no position to drag her, "You'd better be right behind us, or I can summon the strength I have left to kick your heroic ass!"
"I swear! Now go!" Katara turned back around. She tried yelling one more time to her friend, but it was useless.
She looked to the moon. Her stomach turned, but she knew Alcina would be dead in seconds if she didn't act quickly. She would not be able to disable the attacker from this far away; her water whips weren't that powerful.
She was all out of options...but one.
"Please work, please work, oh…" She begged some unknown deity. She focused on how Alcina's limbs were bending...the way she was moving them...how she was crawling…
Katara closed her eyes and snapped her wrists to the left, sending Alcina careening away from her assailant as his blade hit the stone where she had been only seconds ago. It would have gone straight through her.
Alcina yelped at the unexpected motion, looking confused as hell, but Katara wasn't done. She rolled Alcina underneath a broken table, obscuring her from sight. The assailant wiped his head around, confused about where his mark could have gone.
Katara collapsed against the railing, sweat pouring down her skin. If she had more energy, she might have tried to incapacitate the attacker too, but she didn't think she could even lift a finger on her own body. She felt like she could sleep for days now...but at least...at least Alcina was safe. She started to drag herself down the stairs, feeling more like a liquid than a human, intending to help Alcina in her hiding place as well. She only made it to the last stair before her legs gave out completely. She always knew that her bloodbending would take a lot out of her, even on a full moon, but she felt like she was inches away from falling into exhaustion.
Oh frick...there was still that damn Equalist to deal with. She had forgotten about him, momentarily.
Before the Equalist could spy Alcina's hiding place or Katara lying near the steps, the stone around him rose up and crushed him. She watched Nadhari skid into the courtyard, worry on her face until she heard a faint moaning sound from where Alcina had been forcibly hidden. She used her earthbending to shove away the table, helping Alcina up.
"Girl, you're lucky to be alive!" Katara heard her say, "I saw him coming after you and then you just...I don't even know what I saw."
Alcina stood, staring at her own body like she was terrified of it, sure it was going to move without her permission again. She was blubbering incoherently, tears streaking down her cheeks. She spun around...and then jolted back, tripping over a piece of stone.
"Witch!" she cried, pointing in Katara's direction. "She...she...it's like the stories!" Her voice was hysterical and she was shaking hard. Katara tried to stand, but could not. Alcina still scrambled away, looking at Katara with such a look of distrust and absolute terror that it broke Katara's heart.
"I did it to save you," Katara whispered weakly, her head lagging against the edge of the railing.
"So you admit to your unholy and forbidden bending," Nadhari said with venom. "There's a reason the Southern Water Tribe can't be trusted! Forget traitors, your kind think you can just...control our bodies without asking? Make us kill ourselves?"
"I was saving her," Katara repeated, though she felt lightheaded.
"She never asked to be saved!" Nadhari said, helping Alcina to her feet. Katara closed her eyes. They both knew Alcina would have been done for, but she hadn't expected this sort of thanks. True, she did know that people were jumpy about this...ability, but she hadn't been doing it out of malice. Alcina was just confused right now. She had to understand that Katara hadn't done it to be evil...right? Right?
"Stay right there!" Alcina said, her voice warbling. "Don't come near me ever again," she demanded.
Katara couldn't have moved an inch if she tried. The world fuzzed around her.
The last thing Katara recognized was Zuko rushing in, grasping her in his arms, lifting her.
"Katara? Kat, stay with me! Geeze, what did you do?"
"I tried...to...save...her…" Katara said, forcing the words out with great difficulty, moments before she collapsed into the inky blackness behind her eyes.
XXxx
She woke up in a hospital bed. The first thing she noticed was that while all the other occupied beds were being attended to by nurses, doctors, and healers...Katara's bed was being avoided like the plague. The only person who was there was Lu Ten, sleeping on a chair.
"Lu Ten?" Her throat was scratchy. He startled.
"Oh, Zuko will be so relieved you're awake, Princess." He grasped his heart. "He'd be here, you know, but-"
"I'm sure it's quite a mess. The fight's over, right?" She tilted her head.
Lu Ten nodded. "It was a 'smaller' attack, according to my Uncle. Still seems like it caused just as much distress." He handed her a cup of water and she drank all of it, and then the second cup he refilled. "Good. Good." His voice seemed a bit far away.
"What happened to me?"
"Best guess? You overexerted yourself. Used up all of your energy. But, well." He gave a furious look backward to the healers. "I guess we wouldn't know, would we? Since no one has come to check over you since you were brought in here!" His voice rose and despite the fact that a few healers looked properly chastised, no one moved to help Katara even still and some glared openly at Katara. It said a lot that the fear of a Royal was all but squashed by their utmost hatred of what they thought Katara was, what she showed the world she could do.
Katara sank low in her sheets. "Everyone knows? Nadhari went and blabbed?" she guessed with a hint of malice.
"Alcina," Lu Ten said apologetically, "She was half-out of it when brought in, but lucid enough that everyone believed her. I told you dabbling with that was dangerous, Katara." He didn't sound like he was yelling at her, more so frustrated with the situation.
"She would have died! I saved her life!" Katara said for the umpteenth time, feeling like sobbing.
"No good deed goes unpunished," Lu Ten agreed, "And I'm sure in time she will realize but, well, Fire Nationers are particularly jumpy about bloodbending. They say it's unnatural. I know you would never try to hurt her, Zuko knows that, and my Aunt knows that…" He grimaced. "However."
He didn't need to say much more.
Then, he brightened. "But, on a positive note, people are warmed that you saved Bahiravi, despite the fact that she tried to kill you. Between the news of Alcina and the news of your 'prison break', I'd say you're still exactly where you were in public opinion before this. It evened out," he said.
"So still pretty much hated?" Katara picked at a piece of lint on her pillow.
"But not more hated," Lu Ten reminded her, smiling wide. She had to laugh at his optimism.
"Spirits, If I'm just going to be treated as a criminal, I'd rather just recover in my bedroom. I think I just need to rest a couple of days and I'll be right as rain." Katara stretched her back. "Can I do that?"
"The staff surely won't care if you walk away. Between me, my cousin, and Aunt Ursa...you'll be cared for," he said, as though that was a concern. Though, now that he'd said it, Katara realized that everyone in the palace was looking at her with supreme distrust. Didn't they know she could only do it during a full moon?
"My brother?" she asked as she sat up, slinging her legs over the side of the bed.
"In his room recovering. Zuko thought it would be best if he were protected and out of sight too."
As Lu Ten helped Katara down the hall, they intersected with Zuko.
"Katara, you're awake!" He breathed a sigh of relief. "I thought you were a goner there. Don't scare me like that!"
"How'd you know what happened?"
"He has Katara-senses," Lu Ten said dryly.
"I should, with the trouble you get into. No," Zuko shook his head, "I came across Sokka. He told me you were doing something stupid. Stupid indeed...I know you saved her life." He dragged his fingers through his hair. "But can you just give yourself a break? I think you've set a record on 'most things done to make the public absolutely despite you'. Even more than Hama."
"I didn't really think about my 'public image,'" Katara snapped as Lu Ten handed her over to Zuko, placing her gingerly under Zuko's arm. "I knew she was going to die if I didn't do something, so I did."
"If I don't joke about it, I'll just want to kick something," Zuko said, raising an eyebrow at her. "I think you made the right choice. I'm proud of you... if it matters."
Katara's expression softened. "Of course it does."
They passed through the half-destroyed halls. Yes, it seemed like less damage than the first time, but that wasn't saying much.
At one point, Zuko tried to steer Katara away from a certain passage that would make their trip far quicker, but Katara was onto him. She slipped from his grip and took two leaps to stand in one of the main hallways.
There were people furiously scrubbing the walls.
Across the baroque wallpaper, there was a message written.
"Is that-"
"Blood," Zuko nodded, shaking. Whatever he understood about this message, and it seemed like nothing to Katara, it was making him furious.
"Chin up...or the crown will slip," Katara read, turning around, "What's that mean?"
Zuko didn't answer her. He stomped all the way to Katara's room. All the other ladies were gone, it seemed, likely in the hospital wing or helping to clean up.
"Zuko, what the hell was that about?" Katara demanded. Zuko was breathing hard, so hard she could see bursts of warm air from his lips. He grabbed a vase off Katara's dresser.
"Mean anything to you?"
"No. Just decoration. Here when I arrived," Katara blinked.
"Good," Zuko said. Then, abruptly, he smashed it against a wall. Katara jumped.
"I'll clean that up," he said apologetically. "The message was meant for me," he added, voice holding back anger and frustration.
"You sure?"
"Yes, one hundred percent," he said, as he began to comb through the broken glass and deposit it in her trash bin. "And I'm frustrated because it's a taunt." He met Katara's eyes. "It's my father. He's the leader of the Equalists. He's playing games with me and I cannot do anything to retaliate." His fists clenched the glass in his hands so hard it shattered. He groaned, picking the bits from his skin, wincing at the pain.
"Hold up, what?" Katara knelt by him, helping him pick out the shards.
"He used to say that to me, all the time. He wasn't being nice; he was making me scared. He was manipulating me with the absence of love. Katara, just trust me. I know it," Zuko said.
"Of course I believe you. We already theorized it might be him. I guess this is just confirmation." She paused. "What now?"
"Nothing. We can do absolutely nothing," Zuko snarled, "Chances are, even if we were to get married, he would have enough people supporting him to just...get rid of us. Easily. Poisoned at our wedding or stabbed in our honeymoon bed. We just wait."
"Wait for what?"
Zuko almost rubbed his eyes until he remembered his hand was covered with blood. "I don't know. I just know that we'll know it when we see it."
XX
"...And so far, no casualties."
Lu Ten put down his report, coughing awkwardly, as he was met by the cold eyes of Ozai. Zuko's father was like ice. As of yet, he had shown little emotion over this whole event, about the new attack that had dignitaries fleeing and saying their house was 'cursed'.
You could at least pretend to act like you give a shit.
"Zuko? Are you okay dear?" Ursa reached out to him across the way and he realized his fingers were clenching the seat of his chair and smoke was starting to waft from underneath his fingers. Unlike his father...Zuko was fuming.
Inside of him was a rage that he was struggling to keep calm. All he wanted to do was leap over the table and strangle his father, asking him why, why would he want to break down his own palace like this? Just to show he could? To make it easier to crush the minds of those that were already terrified? To keep up this ruse that Airbenders were dangerous?
It could be any reason.
All Zuko knew was that at every turn, while his father was almost detached and pointedly unsympathetic at Lu Ten's reporting and the general questions that circled the air, Zuko's blood pressure rose and rose.
"I'm just upset things turned out as they did," Zuko said, his voice catching in his throat as his hands lifted to find singed prints on the fabric of the chair.
"That it was confirmed that the Water Tribe Savage is a psychopath?" his father asked. "I don't see the reason she's still here, to be frank."
"No, that's not it." Zuko's voice quivered, and his father mistook it for fear. Instead, he was doing everything to restrain himself from demanding an Agni Kai right now. Though, even at the thought, he wanted to vomit.
"Oh, father," Azula laughed, "What's it to you? You know, they say no publicity is bad publicity. It's not like anyone is truly surprised."
"Are you...advocating for Princess Katara to stay?" Lu Ten was just as confused as Zuko.
Azula's shrug was delicate. "People need a player to hate. Without it, they might start going after people who Father actually would like to see on the throne. I'm sure the masses could find something terrible about Princess Yue, as pillow-soft as she seems."
Zuko narrowed his eyes. He'd never appreciated Azula's strange back-and-forth with Katara, and he surely did not imagine it was out of sisterly love she came to his side on this issue. All he knew was that his knee-jerk reaction would be to send Katara away tonight. No plans that Azula was cooking would bode well for anyone else involved.
"I think we have bigger issues," Ursa said tightly, in a clipped tone, "Rather than a contestant saving another contestant's life."
"Two." Lu Ten raised his fingers. "If we count Bahiravi."
"I suppose. One bothersome question…" his father raised his chin, as though any of this bothered him, "…Is how they found their way in again? And how can we make sure this doesn't happen again?"
Stop fucking letting them in, that's how! Oh, Zuko was seeing bright crimson. How dare his father stand there, rubbing his chin, acting like he had no idea how the Equalists slipped into the halls once again? How much more taunting of Zuko and his inability to protect his people could his father do?
"May I answer with another question?" Azula asked, leaning forward.
"Of course," Ozai said, waving a hand. His momentary displeasure with his daughter seemed to be gone, at least for this meeting.
"Merely...where were you, Zuko? When the invasion began?"
"What?" Zuko sputtered, blinking hard. "I was-"
"Not in your room. Lu Ten checked. You seemed to show up right as things were 'bad', huh?" She tilted her head. "Just...think about that."
"Azula!" Ursa's tone was sharp and horrified.
"Just give us an alibi, and well, we won't have to go down this route," Azula pressed. He was, of course, out with Katara as the Blue Spirit...a wanted criminal. He'd be chopping off one hand to save another if he fessed up to that.
"You're insane," Lu Ten said darkly. Azula cracked her head towards Lu Ten, a strand of hair falling in front of her face. She tried pushing it back once, but when it fell again, she didn't bother to fix it.
"Insane?" Azula's laugh echoed, something odd about it. "Of course, Zuzu can do no wrong. How could he? He's sooo perfect. Suuuuch the good boy. But when he mysteriously vanishes during an invasion by a group of terrorists and no one else finds this strange, I'm the one who's fishy for bringing it up?"
"You think I let them in the front door?" Zuko asked in a low tone.
"Is that an admission?" When she turned back, her face was composed. Not gleeful...she wasn't stupid enough to really think it was.
"Stop this." Ozai pinched his nose. "He was with me, Azula. We were discussing the most recent poll of the ladies."
Azula deflated, her whole demeanor dropping. "But what...why didn't...you…"
"It's none of your business how your brother, the Heir Apparent, spends his time. I should worry more about yourself in these trying times if I were you."
"Yes, of course, we were talking about the Choice," Zuko agreed. He was not sure why his father lied for him. Repaying his pleasure on how the Agni Kai went? Was he doing it just to further isolate Azula and detach her from him? Or...fuck, did he know what Zuko actually had been doing, and would he be blackmailed into sending Katara home?
"Well," Azula refused to back down, "You can hardly blame me for wondering."
"You shouldn't have," Ursa chastised. "I will not hear one more word of your accusations, or pandering, or insistence that Zuko should be dethroned!" He'd never seen his mother so furious, so equally heartbroken. As Azula stared at her, jaw clenching and eyes turning cold and hard in front of his eyes, his mother shook her head, sighing. "Why must you pit yourself against your brother?"
A mixture of emotions flashed across Azula's face, too fast for Zuko to decipher. Or, perhaps he'd merely never seen them; guilt, sadness, regret, aching, longing. They all swirled before vanishing and as Azula stood sharply to grab the tea kettle from the table, only Zuko heard her answer, creeping like vines slowly toward a bigger truth, but still continually refusing to take agency of her choices.
"I wasn't the one who did it first."
XX
"Hello, Princess."
Katara turned, her mood worsening as she saw who lingered in the doorway of the Library. However, misery loves company, she supposed.
"Princess Azula. I'm trying to take a moment to myself…" She trailed off, sighing as she set down her book. She'd have to find a new place to hide. She was the metaphorical punching bag of the palace right now, though she was sure quite a few would truly like to hit her.
"Of course, of course. I just...well, I've heard you're good with languages?"
Katara furrowed her brow. Of all the girls, she doubted she was the very best. However, upon reflection, she usually didn't have an issue picking them up. She'd learned Fire Nation Standard when she was about ten, and she did recall some of the other Southerners struggling. And, she'd also picked up Ancient Air Nomad, and then she and Sokka had created their childhood language, and to be frank, she wasn't not understanding the most basic Earth Kingdom dialect…
"I guess so," Katara replied, blinking, secretly gleeful about her newly realized skill.
"Well, then perhaps you could help. Zuko just has so much on his plate and we think one of the Equalists dropped this. Perhaps you know the language?" she asked. Katara narrowed her eyes, instantly suspicious.
"You hate your brother."
"Hate is a strong word. We just have a very intense sibling rivalry. And well, these attacks bring the most unlikely people together, wouldn't you say?" Azula sighed. "I mean, I guess I can add this to Zuko's list, but-"
"Fine! Fine," Katara stopped her. She wasn't even sure if it was true, but she'd rather not run the risk that it actually was a task of Zuko's and it would cause him to lose more sleep. "Let me see it."
Azula handed it over. At first, Katara thought she'd see some version of Nomadic if this was the work of airbenders (She doubted that!) or a language she was unfamiliar with completely. Instead, the words made sense. She read the translation as her brain unscrambled the lettering, seamlessly as breathing.
"Hark, Sire, verily thou not glean-" Katara started to read, glancing up and stopping completely. Azula, who often had a good poker face, was grinning ear to ear. But there was something sinister about this smile, something that could only be described as disingenuous.
…or, it was a genuine smile, but Azula did not know how to smile like the average person.
Katara glanced back down, truly focusing on the groupings of words, on the way the words sounded and realized how antiquated it was. Antiquated in a different way than Old Nomadic, which they were able to use with modern language. This one was entirely outdated. More than that, it had remnants of the Fire Nation Standard she knew today, but only the merest glimpse, not nearly enough for Katara to know what this meant without thinking.
The point being...she should not know this language, but instead, her brain did.
More so than that, there was the knowledge that she'd spoken this once, long, long ago.
When?
The words whispered in her brain, a thousand at once and singularly one: In another life.
Try as she might to un-know this, her brain had been rewired with millions of lives stacked upon another and she was unable to look at this ancient text without intrinsically translating it as naturally as her mother tongue.
"Sorry, I uhm, I can't read the rest," Katara fibbed, terrified and confused and frustrated by this. She expected Azula to argue since she'd so easily spoken the first line, but Azula just took it back.
"This has been very eye-opening, Princess. Your services will be remembered."
Notes:
You all wanted to see Katara blood-bend in public, eh?
As for Azula, what do we think she's up to, eh? And that Equalist message....hmm!
New chapter slated to be out around April 16th!
Chapter 38
Notes:
TW for suicide in this chapter, just to give everyone a head's up, in case anyone would be bothered by that! Take care of your mind, y'all.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Under the musty morning air inside the courtyard, Nadhari sneezed for the twentieth time, interrupting Mother Superior and earning her a stern glare.
"Stop sneezing, it's rude," Mai hissed to her, hardly moving her lips to speak and not turning her head at all.
While Katara usually loved any excuse to get Nadhari in trouble, she begrudgingly found herself agreeing with the snotty contestant. The fumes wafting from the gigantic vats of perfume were cloying at best and overwhelming for anyone at worst. Katara was holding her breath or she'd be sneezing and coughing like Nadhari was.
"If I may continue?" Mother Superior asked in a hard tone. Nadhari wiped the edges of her watering eyes, sniffling at the smells that were attacking her.
"Yes, sorry, of course. I didn't mean to be rude," Nadhari said, cowering under this surprisingly imposing figure.
From across the courtyard, Katara caught Zuko's eye and saw him laughing. He'd been covering sneezes for the entire presentation as well, but since he was sitting behind the matron, he hadn't been the subject of her ire.
"Mother Superior, perhaps a quick break? The smells can be quite pungent for those not used to them. Maybe we can enjoy the food you all so beautifully prepared and come back in half an hour?" Zuko said, standing. It would have been rude of him to let this continue.
"Of course, Prince Zuko. I sometimes do forget that regular noses are more sensitive." She bowed low to him, motioning to the other nuns to close the vats. Immediately, Katara could breathe better.
"Enjoy, please!" she said, forcing her tone to be a bit kinder than before, fearing displeasing Zuko.
Katara stood, rolling out her shoulders and heading straight for the food table.
They were out on another trip and Katara was surprised -- no, she was utterly flabbergasted -- she'd actually been allowed out of the palace. Of course, her travel companions were Mai and Nadhari, but it's not like she had other friends she would rather be with.
She'd once assumed that she still had Alcina, Ratana, and maybe Cillia and On Ji as friends since Toph's departure, but the recent events had soured their opinions of her. The only true friend that Katara had remaining was Suki.
Smellerbee didn't seem to hate or love Katara, but they weren't close, to begin with. Maybe they should be now that Katara was as close to totally alone as one could come.
She was glad to be away from the stares and gossip. Currently, they were in Abbey, which was far from the reach of that gossip rag that had just about ruined her reputation in the palace. Far from people judging her. No one here knew any details, and if they did, they didn't care. The nuns that ran the Abbey in Jingseng were more tied to helping others as well as adhering to the wills of the spirits.
She wasn't stupid; Katara knew why they were here. She'd also heard Ozai pull Zuko aside before they left.
"Those nuns are notorious for helping those in need." Ozai had said 'need' with the tone of someone describing a stink bug. "See if they are with us or against us."
"Father?" Zuko had asked, his expression held tautly. Katara knew that since the revelation that Ozai was behind the Equalists, Zuko had been steering clear. Katara was sure that Zuko knew what his father was asking, but wanted him to be explicit. There was no doubt in her mind that Zuko was compiling a list of the atrocities his father had encouraged or set up.
"Equalist and Airbender sympathizers. They may even be hiding those vermin in their walls. If they need to be dealt with...Zhao is not far away."
Katara had gulped, hurrying into the carriage. It wouldn't just be a stern talking-to that Zhao delivered...it would be a massacre.
And now they were here.
They'd been here for scarcely more than a few hours, so it was impossible to tell if the nuns were hiding Airbenders. All Katara knew was that they seemed like the kind-hearted sort that might...and this...this enough might be a death sentence.
Katara settled herself under the tent, sitting on a chair and munching away. It was not nearly as warm here as in the Fire Nation, but the reprise from the sun was still appreciated. It made her glad to see her body still react and sweat so much...she feared she may forget the comfort of the coldness of her home if she remained here too long.
Nadhari had roped Zuko into some conversation, but it didn't look like Zuko was desperate to get away. Or, perhaps Zuko was just a good actor.
Mai was sitting by herself, and though there were moments she looked at peace with her lonesome, there was a small moment where her shoulder dropped and she looked unsure. And, well, nearly everyone hated Katara, so maybe a friendship with Mai wasn't the worst idea.
As she stood up to go and try to figure out how to strike up a conversation, there was a bell that rang.
At first, Katara just thought it was the chapel bell, signaling prayer time or some other ritual, but from the panicked expressions of everyone around them, it was clear it was a warning bell.
"Are you serious? Again?" Mai muttered, standing up pulling out one of her thousand knives, ready to fight.
A nun stumbled into the abbey courtyard, holding her neck, bleeding everywhere. The crisp whiteness of her frock was irreparably stained.
"Eq...Eq...Equa…"
The woman blubbered, crimson rising over her lips as people rushed to help her, shushing her. The men and women came in after, weapons already drawn and stained copper.
Out of everyone in the courtyard, they all looked right at Katara.
Something went cold in Katara. She had the double realization that they were very much willing to openly kill, and might kill everyone here, and that they were looking...for some unfathomable reason...specifically for Katara.
"Fuck you!" Nadhari sneered, cutting about half of the invaders off with a wall of earth, but already her body shook from the exertion. Mai took one down with her knife, but for as quick as she was, they were quicker. And gruesome. It didn't seem to matter if someone was obviously a nun or an innocent civilian...if they were here, they were fair game.
Unless….
"Run!" Zuko yelled to Katara. At first, she was furious that Zuko thought she couldn't hold her own. But from the pained look in his eyes, the way he kept looking at that first nun laying on the ground, and how he knew too that they were here for her…
"Girl, get your ass out of here!" Nadhari snapped, her wrists twisting and her eyes ablaze.
If Katara drew them away, if she took them far from here, they wouldn't hurt anyone else who didn't deserve it.
Katara spun in a second, overturning a barrel of perfume and using the liquid to make a tidal wave for herself that deposited her over the side of the abbey.
Unending forests stared back at her. Still, from her other side, they were climbing the wall, swarming. Katara took off running as fast as she could carry herself.
The farther Katara went, the more muted the caterwauls from the abbey became. Was this because she was gaining ground or because the fight was following her? She nearly tripped as she realized that she'd allowed an entire bloodthirsty group to follow her, and only her. She was a fighter, but this group was never-ending, it seemed.
Yet, the forest held good protection. It was dark and murky and twisting. The father Katara went, the darker it seemed. It was thick and untouched. It was as though the forest was sentient, expanding and widening its arms for her to throw herself through and then melding back behind her to create an impenetrable wall of vines and leaves.
Katara was shocked by how quickly she was able to shove through the underbrush. She did not feel the thorns that snagged and dragged across her legs, nor tumble over the gnarled roots that reached out for her feet, nor did she trip over the unforgiving terrain. She knew she was getting scratched but some part of her brain just kept her running, and running, and running.
Katara only stopped once she realized she could not hear the screams from the abbey, nor could she hear the thundering footsteps of Equalists. The only sound was her own heavy breathing and she covered her mouth sharply, fearing this would send these villains straight her way.
As she stood, she registered the sweat that stuck her dress like glue to her skin, the rumbling of the blood pumping in her own ears, the burning in her lungs and down her exposed skin, and finally the fear that gripped her. Even hearty warriors said prayers before they went into battle.
The second thing she registered was a shock and different terror; she had no idea where she was or how far she'd run. She hadn't run straight...years of Sokka and her father coaching her had proved helpful. All she could think was Sokka yelling 'Serpentine! Ser-pen-tine!' in her head, and her feet had taken her left and right and back and forth and made it impossible for someone to guess where she was headed.
But she couldn't just walk it back now. She was stranded in this deep, hungry forest with only her wits.
And yet she was not 100% safe. There seemed to be only one option, one of two-fold. She spied a tree that looked strong enough to hold her and hoisted herself up into it, up and up, as much as she could. She would hide out here, keep herself above ground, but also work her way to the top layer. She just needed a lay of the land; the abbey was near the sea. If she could spot that, she could trace her way back.
She was about to haul herself to the next branch when she heard twigs snapping. She held her breath, curling herself into a ball, hoping she left no obvious clues below.
"We should have come at night," someone huffed. It was a girl, and though she wore a mask, her voice seemed to indicate she was hardly older than Katara.
"Caught them in their sleep. Yeah," a second voice, an equally young boy agreed. Katara leaned over as far as curiosity would let her. Her interest was piqued in so many ways. "Who knew a Tribesman could run so far?"
She had half expected a worse slur, something cruel that would make her blood burn, but it hadn't been.
"You okay?" the boy asked, flipping up his mask. He was just as young as Katara expected, and he had a kinder expression than she would have guessed. The girl, who had her hair in two braids, pressed her hand against the very tree Katara was hiding in. She was breathing really, really hard.
"Yes. I just…" She looked at the boy, giving a sad, wiry smile. "You know."
He leaned forward, kissing her forehead in a gentle gesture. Katara was completely shocked. Okay, obviously they weren't all monsters, but this? It seemed like night and day. The girl and boy hardly looked like fighters, more like children that accidentally joined the wrong field trip.
There was shouting to the east. Or maybe it was west.
"Dammit, that sounds like Lian. Sounds like he's in trouble."
"Go," The girl playfully pushed the boy's shoulder, "I'll be behind you in a sec. Just...taking a breath," she assured, leaning up and kissing him. There was affection here, something genuine and wholesome.
"Just in case," the boy said, handing her a worn-looking knife. Then, he bounded off, leaving the girl.
The girl sat for a few beats and stood. Katara hoped she'd be returning the way they came, and for a second, it looked like she would. But then, a cloud rolled in front of the sun and plunged the forest into momentary darkness. The girl looked up, and as the clouds dissipated and rays shot through the upper canopy once again, she was looking right at Katara.
They locked eyes; there was no way she did not see Katara. Katara immediately drew an ice knife from her sweat.
"Stay back!" Katara hissed in a low voice, "One move and-"
"Please...please...Princess Katara…" The girl's voice broke as she blubbered, eyes filling with tears. Was this a ploy? A tactic? "Don't hurt me!"
"Hurt you?" Katara was stumped. "You and your gang have spilled more blood than I have!"
"I...I'm not...I don't…" The girl looked impossibly pale and green at the same time. She sank into a deep curtsey, shocking Katara once again, her head bowed low. "You need to help me," she begged.
"What?"
"Where...where…" The girl's voice was a thin warble. "Where is Aiga?"
Katara felt like she had whiplash. "My maid? You want to know where Aiga is? How will this help you?"
Other than the obvious reason -- that Katara knew that she was hiding with Aang. But if the girl wanted to know where the Avatar is, why wouldn't that be her question? Why specify Aiga?
"They'll kill me otherwise." The girl bit her lip. "They have shit on us. On me and my boyfriend and his brother. I need to find out where Aiga is, that's what they told me. Please, please, they'll kill us otherwise. Tell me where she is." The girl placed her hands on the tree, staring up. "Save us."
"I can't….I can't help you." Katara's voice shattered as she admitted it. "Who's going to kill you? If you tell me, I can help in other ways. Prince Zuko, he-"
"No, no," the girl gasped, "It has to be this. I can't be saved, they'll find me. And they'll kill us anyway. Unless you help me. I'm only fifteen, I'm not-" She burst into tears. "Please, Princess! Please!"
"I don't know where she is," Katara said, staring down at her. The girl held her gaze, and it seemed that she recognized this for the honest truth, because she broke down into harder sobs. They were the tears of someone who knew their days were finally up, for she was never going to bring back to her shadowy bosses what they wanted.
"Who is blackmailing you?" Katara demanded, cautiously jumping down to another branch, without getting too close. "Who? The Equalists? Who's behind it?"
The girl looked up, her light brown eyes dim. "Of course it's the Equalists. And I don't know who's pulling the strings, but I have a pretty good guess." She spoke with the freedom of a broken soul. "But they want Aiga, Princess. And they'll go through hell to get her."
"Do you know anything? Anything that can help us?" Katara pressed her, because at the end of the day, other than Zuko's insistence it was his father, there was nothing else known about the group. "Is it the Fire Lord? Just nod - you don't have to betray him, just nod if it's him," Katara said in a rush.
"It's the devil," the girl said simply. "That's who's behind it all, the devil."
Katara frowned, about to volley another question, but the girl turned up to Katara, looking so small and young.
"You really don't know anything?" she said in a quiet voice, "And you'd really be willing to help me, someone who was told to bring you back by any violent means necessary?"
"Yes." Katara's voice was motherly. "I know that you made some choices, but someone's doing worse by forcing you to do this. I don't blame you, but I can't give you answers I do not have," she cooed, hoping that Zuko could figure out how to get her, her boyfriend, and her brother far far away from the grasp of these terrorists.
The girl smiled, tears rolling down her muddy cheeks. "That's a nice fantasy," she said.
Katara should have realized it in her voice, or seen it in her expression. She felt like she was moving in slow motion, a second behind everything, yelling and jumping down from the tree just a frame too late as the girl took the knife and plunged it into her own chest, right through the heart.
"No!" Katara screamed, forgetting that a thousand people were looking for her in these woods, forgetting everything except the hurt of watching a girl who felt like she was all out of options take herself from an unforgiving equation.
"Please, please," Katara pressed her fingers against the girl's chest, trying to stitch her body back together with her healing, but it was like she was slapping sticky gum over holes and moving onto the next, only for the one behind her to break loose again. It was a losing battle and the girl was dead before Katara ever pressed her hands to her.
Katara, refusing to leave this young child's body behind, curled up on the base of the tree, and prayed that someone would find her soon and that it would be Zuko.
Katara's body was as stationary as a rock that had been undisturbed for a thousand years, but her mind was running. Who was behind it all? Why did they want Aiga? And how awful must the stakes have been that this girl would rather kill herself than fall into the hands of a disappointed leader? How bad were her previous sins to feel like this was the only way out, at this age?
The day was darkening in front of Katara. It was hard to be sure since little light made its way down to the bottom of the forest, but she figured by the passing of her internal clock that it had been a long time that she'd been out here.
"Katara!"
The first time she heard her name, she was sure someone was playing tricks on her mind. The forest was mocking her.
"Kat!"
The second time, she was wary. Was it Equalists? But of course, the Equalists wouldn't be calling her 'Kat'.
"Katara, where the hell are you?"
That was Nadhari, and never had Katara been so grateful to hear her voice.
"Over here! I'm here!" Katara yelled. She saw Nadhari first, followed by Zuko, and then Mai and a few of the nuns.
"Oh, spirits," one of the nuns gasped, blessing herself at the sight of the girl laying on the
ground.
"She killed herself," Zuko surmised quickly, perhaps before anyone could accuse Katara of murder.
"The Equalists?"
"We disposed of enough to make them turn tail. Most fled...I think we hit a good chunk of them," Nadhari said proudly. "The rest might still be wandering these woods. It's a miracle we found you!"
"A boy, about her age. And a younger one...did you…" Katara knew what 'disposed of' meant.
"No, but as we said, quite a lot ran," Zuko said, but his eyes were curious. "What happened?"
"She…" Katara couldn't get the words out and felt tears overwhelm her. She crumbled, and Zuko caught her on the forest floor, holding her and rocking back and forth, patting her shoulder.
"We thought you were dead, perhaps hung or burned out here, when you didn't return," Mai said, kneeling beside the girl. Her face was as close to pain as Katara had ever seen.
"They didn't want me dead. They wanted information. Where Aiga was," Katara managed to stutter out. She could talk about that. She didn't know how she'd explain how she tried to save this girl, literally sew her heart back together, and couldn't.
"Let's get back to the abbey, and then we can talk," Zuko said, picking Katara up in his arms, carrying her completely. At any other time, she would have insisted on walking, but her entire being felt heavy and weak right now. "Erm, can you-"
"I'll grab her," Nadhari whispered, reaching for the body on the ground, "She's so...light."
The abbey was totally trashed. Katara vaguely remembered crying and apologizing to the Matron for it, but she only sweetly smiled.
"We are glad to see you are alive. We can rebuild our homes. We cannot bring you back from the dead."
After it was all said and done, Katara was given a warm cup of tea and wrapped in a thick blanket. Mai washed the blood off of Katara's hands and Nadhari brushed her hair out, with Zuko watching faithfully at the threshold, his expression hard to capture.
"She...she was being blackmailed," Katara finally found her voice, "By whoever's in charge. She felt like there was no way out. But I didn't have the answers she needed. So she…"
The nuns were burying her in their graveyard, a proper send-off.
"Sometimes evil can come in surprising forms," Zuko said gently, but Katara vigorously shook her head.
"She wasn't. She was trapped. She was just a normal girl. How...how many others are out there? Like her? How many other Equalists are being forced into it?" she demanded, horrified at the thought. She'd never stopped to consider that side, this possibility.
"She could have always gone to the police guards," Mai said, tilting her head. "There is an individual choice."
"Whatever she did, it must've been bad, though," Nadhari said, and it seemed a shiver ran up her spine, "To think that that was her only option…"
"And maybe the guards were in on it too…" Zuko's face was shadowed, no doubt wondering if his father would have just told the guards to ignore this nameless girl, had she tried to seek asylum.
Everyone was silent as the dead for a good long while, staring at the ground, eating through everything.
For the first time since that awful moment, Katara's mind was just blank. Numb. Nothing.
"This has just become a lot more difficult," Mai finally whispered.
Nadhari, abruptly, laughed. It was something sardonic, something that told Katara that she knew far more than she was letting on. "Oh, honey, it always has been."
XXX
They returned home early.
After a ceremony for the unnamed girl out back, with spring flowers placed on the newly upturned dirt and Katara kneeling where she lay cold in the ground and seemingly almost breaking, Zuko thought it best.
His father had few comments, but he seemed on edge, particularly about the young girl.
"Terrible tragedy," Lu Ten whispered in horror after Zuko told the Family what he knew. "I can't...that's awful."
"She probably made some really bad choices," Azula shrugged, near uncaring, "But, sad, I guess."
"That is...most difficult to hear," his father said, teeth grinding. Zuko held back a smile; whatever he'd been so desperately fishing for, whatever he'd needed so much to send the Equalists to where he knew Katara would be unprotected, he hadn't gotten.
Good.
Katara had slipped away almost immediately after they returned. Zuko had almost sent Alcina after her until he saw the way Alcina had flinched when Katara passed within ten feet of her and recalled what had happened.
He sent Suki, one of the two singular people left who Katara could still call a friend. And he tried to give her space, but after two days, it was clear that Katara was taking this very personally. Her kind heart did not want to admit there was nothing she could have done, that even if she had known where Aiga was, she would have been in no position to let that information go.
He slipped into her bedroom, unsure what his exact plan was, other than he wanted to make her smile and coax her out of her room again. Perhaps a night as the Painted Lady? Show Katara she still could help others? Or maybe they'd just tell stories and eat candy and laugh?
She was sleeping now and looked peaceful. Maybe he'd just let her sleep.
He went to her vanity and spotted a perfume from the abbey sitting here, a parting gift to all the ladies. He sniffed it and sneezed.
Katara startled awake, arms were thrown out like they were under attack. And, after all that had happened, who could blame her?
"Zuko?" she asked groggily, rubbing her eyes.
"Sorry...didn't mean to wake you." He rubbed the back of his neck.
"What are you doing, standing there like a creep in the night?" she asked, rolling out her shoulders. He snorted, glad to see that her sense of humor was completely gone.
An idea struck him.
"Kat?"
"Hmm?"
"Can I show you something? Do you want to come with me? It's super top-secret and...well, no one else is supposed to know. But I'd like your thoughts."
Katara tilted her head. She was intrigued. Good.
"Okay," she said after a moment. "Can I grab a robe?"
Zuko nodded, turning around like a gentleman, as Katara grabbed something silky and covering from her closet. Once she was more or less presentable, he grabbed her hand. He squeezed and she squeezed back.
He took her through the secret passageway that left them in his bedroom. When Katara realized where they were, she gave a squeal of laughter.
"Zuko, what are we doing here?" she asked, raising an eyebrow, looking at his bed. His cheeks burned. "Is the super-secret thing something on there?"
"I'm not. We're...it's...uhm…" He shook his head out, all his thoughts had vanished with her alluring blue eyes.
"I'm just teasing," she said, rubbing his arm, "Or-"
"No, it's not that," he choked out. "It's this way. Erm, follow me!" he said, trying to regain his mental state. Katara chuckled but walked behind him.
He slipped them through the Royal Family's personal chambers, down to a door at the end of the hall. He opened the door to reveal...a room that very much looked halfway completed, with paint cans, hammers, and woodchips everywhere. Katara coughed at the dust that rose up as he flung the door open.
"Ta-da!"
"It's...a room."
"It's not just any room, it's the future Fire Lord and Lady's bed chambers," he said.
"They're making you your own room?" Katara turned as he closed the door behind him.
"Well, yeah, I don't want to kick my parents out of their room, and I also don't want it. Sleeping in my dad's bed? Yuck!" He shuddered at the thought. "This will be the Royal Fire Lord Suite. The Fire Lady does have a bedroom right off there but...I sorta hope that my future wife won't find me so unbearable that we'd sleep apart," he admitted softly. Katara, who had started picking her way across the room, turned back.
"I doubt anyone would do that," she whispered. "They'd be crazy."
"And my old room will be our firstborn's nursery and future bedroom," he continued. "Ah! I
mean, not 'ours' and in yours and mine, although I guess it could be, but I was just saying it as a generalization, as a given, that it will be mine and whoever I marry-" He could feel himself rambling, trying to talk back his flop, although he'd absolutely been thinking about his and Katara's possible first child.
"Zuko, it's fine," she laughed, "I know what you meant." She paused, her face pulled in thought. "You said you wanted my...opinion?" she broached it carefully.
"I do," Zuko said. "I want to know what you think of the wall colors, or the bed they're making, or if the bath is big enough," he said honestly. "I want all your judgments, good and bad." This was very bold of him, he knew, but the risk of sounding like a lovesick fool was worth it.
"Are you asking any of the others?" Katara questioned cautiously, but he could see her eyes flickering.
He held her gaze, then gave her the softest smile he could muster. "No."
Katara licked her lips, giving him a grin with all her teeth. "Hmm, you sure you want my opinions? I've been told I have a lot of judgments."
"Oh, trust me, I know," Zuko snorted. "This isn't a surprise to me. But I was being honest. I do. Tell me you hate every inch of this place and I'll change it tomorrow." He snapped a finger. "Just like that."
"Well," Katara ran her finger over the walls, "To begin with...this paint color." She made a joking 'x' symbol with her hands. "I think it has to go."
"Uh-huh, what else?" Zuko asked.
"This armchair? Hideous."
"I'll burn it in the yard. Give it a nice eulogy."
"This vase here?" Katara pointed to a piece in a box, half-unearthed.
"Hmm, that thing? That weird ancestral piece?" He nodded.
"Ugly."
"Yes, talk dirty to me, Kat," He teased, and to see her whole face light up was the best thing in the world. And he agreed; that vase was truly ugly.
"Ooh," Katara stood in the middle of the room, and it looked like she belonged here, amongst the wreckage and the half-completed furniture. It was a place where she would change with it, where she was meant to be. "How long do we have?" She asked teasingly, a glimmer in her eyes.
Zuko gleamed. "As long as we want."
XXX
Zuko had some plans to re-adjust, so he told Katara to just slip back into his room, and then through the passageways. The rooms were no more than a yard apart; should be fine, right?
Alas, Katara should have realized her luck with such things ran dry quite a long time ago.
She heard the creaking of a door behind her and her mind whirled, trying to figure out what she should do, now that some other Royal had caught her in a hallway she 100% was not supposed to be.
If it was Azula, no doubt she'd expect something from Katara in return for her silence. Or, maybe she'd use it to torture Zuko. Yikes, not good.
If it was Ozai, she'd be packing her bags, as this might be the exact thing he needed. Damn, she could read the headlines right now…' Water Tribe Contestant Steals Honor Crown Prince's Purity', even if they'd done nothing of the sort. Oh, the names she'd be called.
If it was Lu Ten, he'd probably just give that long disappointed sigh, the one Katara hated so much. She didn't want him to be disappointed in her any more than Sokka.
If it was Ursa-
"Katara, what are you doing here at this hour?"
She turned to face Zuko's mother, her hair pulled up into curlers and her face clean from makeup.
"Er…"
"My child, in here before someone hears," she said, urging Katara into her bedchambers. Katara resisted until she recalled that Ursa stayed her nights away from Ozai. She gratefully allowed the queen to save her hide, scurrying inside.
"What in the spirits are you doing here this time of night? If anyone else saw…" She shook her head, pursing her lips.
Katara figured the best route to go was the honest one, "Zuko was showing me the future Fire Lord's suite. I suppose...he was trying to cheer me up. I've been a bit…" Katara trailed off, unable to think of the proper word.
Ursa's eyes softened. "Ah, yes. I read the reports from Jingseng. I can't imagine, and I'm blessed I've never gotten so close to such violence. It is a terrible thing," she agreed, understanding. Then, her lips quirked into a smile. "Did you know that Ozai tried to woo me in the same way? By showing me the bedroom that became ours?" she asked with a hint of a grin. Katara shook her head. "Like father, like son. Has Zuko tried any of his pick-up lines on you?" she asked, laughing.
"A few. He's, well, erm-" She didn't want to insult Zuko in front of his mother, but how does one say, 'hey, your son is the most awkward human I've ever met?'
"He gets that from Ozai too, though you wouldn't believe it I'm sure. Ozai has just been so terrifying that no one had the heart to tell him that his lines were quite atrocious. Iroh, however, he's the suave brother."
"What?" Katara's lips let forth a burst of laughter. "No way."
"Oh, it's true. He acts as he does and gives terrible love advice out of jest. He's always had a more playful side. But when it was his turn to woo his women...many girls fell in love with him, and not only because he's a kind man," Ursa said, as though recollecting, though she would have been very young for Iroh's Choice.
Ursa rang a bell and a few moments later, her handmaid appeared. "Would you grab us some finger cakes and hot chocolate?" She turned back to Katara. "We will be here a few hours until I know it is safe for you to go back to your room without getting caught. We may as well enjoy ourselves."
"Thank you for not, uhm, kicking me out." Katara felt properly embarrassed.
"My dear, I would never," Ursa said kindly.
They chatted about non-important things until their food arrived, and once Katara was sitting comfortably, Ursa turned. Her golden eyes were calculating, in such a way that Katara knew she was curious about something.
"So, my son is showing you the Royal Suite. That's quite a step," she fished, sipping her warm drink. Katara knew she was prying out of love for her son and genuine affection, not like Azula who would be digging for her own gain.
Katara pursed her lips though, all the same.
"I feel...if I may speak plainly...a block. Something is holding you back from my son. What is it?" It was not a command, but a true question. Katara thought of lying, but maybe it was this woman's continual kindness, maybe it was the time of night, or perhaps Katara was truly beaten down and felt little reason to keep such large secrets, but she gave a long sigh.
"Zuko and I are...supposedly, soul mates."
"Oh?" Ursa said, leaning forward, "How do you suppose?"
"I don't suppose. I know it factually." Katara gave a tired smile and then, without pausing, launched into everything. She talked about her meeting with the Dark Water Spirit, about all of her memories, about how she was feeling the weight of a thousand past years on her shoulders all pressing down. All of it, she spoke until she felt like she had no more to say. And Ursa just listened, eyes focused on Katara, never wavering.
"And Zuko does not know?" Ursa finally asked when Katara was silent.
"No, how do I tell him? We both know he's not the most superstitious."
"Ah, yes, quite wise," Ursa agreed, though it seemed she wanted to run off and tell him, despite her better instincts. "I think things work themselves out, and a truth like this will become known in time...but a better question is…" She tilted her head, truly confused. "Is this not the most joyous news?"
It should have been. To any other girl here, the knowledge that they were destined to be with their crush would have caused euphoria. But to Katara….
"I hate it."
The final, biting truth wiggled its way out. She felt ashamed for saying it, hated how it sat upon her tongue, but she could not deny it any longer.
"I hate everything about it," Katara repeated, hanging her head.
"Do explain?"
"I've always been told that I have so much choice. I mean, I didn't with so many things, so the things that I can decide have so much meaning. I can't decide who I get to marry, not necessarily because it had to be someone that could help the tribe, but I could decide who I would love, you know? But now, apparently, I don't even get that." She stood, feeling the anger rise within her. "I don't want someone else's life, I want my own. My grandmother had to leave everything to find her choice and I just hate how few choices we get in this world. I don't want to be with your son because it was pre-designed, I hate the idea that all my feelings, everything toward him is just...just…"
"Some other life breathing through you."
Katra gave a grim nod. "And if I'm not in control of that, I don't…" She couldn't finish her thought, but Ursa seemed to understand. "This does not feel like a blessing to me, Ursa. This feels like a cruel joke because I question every interaction I have. Is it genuinely me or is it some past voice, reaching out to him? I always took pride in my own identity, but this makes me question if I'm myself at all. And how can I be with Zuko if I'm not sure of that, or worse, if he doesn't know? And if he did…" Katara slumped her shoulders. "Would he feel the same?"
Ursa was silent for a long time.
"I think that you have only had a few sparse moments with this past life. I know you do not want to confront it, but Princess," Her voice was achingly gentle, "You must explore it, or else you will feel untethered forever. You have to make peace with this. Not merely for the sake of my son, but for your own health."
And deep down, Katara knew this too.
Notes:
New chapter will drop on May 7th!
This might also be hard to believe, but we are on the down-ward end of the last arc of this story! I think that there might be around 45 chapters, thought that could change (less or more) at any given time.
Chapter 39
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Katara eagerly leaned off the side of the Fire Nation sailing ship, breathing in the sharpness of the snow that rained upon the boat. She reached her hands out, creating little moving creatures in the air. A woman danced with a mysterious suitor, a hawk swooped through the clouds, a dragon created icy flames that he spat above the choppy, freezing water.
Behind her, Yue giggled and abandoned her post at the front of the ship, watching Katara with wonderment in her eyes. Even Mai, who had brought a mug of warm tea onto the decks, was watching with curious eyes.
"Sorta cool, right, Mai?" Zuko teased, noticing she was watching. Mai looked down, but Katara was almost sure she caught a smile.
"It's something to pass the time. Who knew glaciers were so...boring?" She sighed dramatically, but it seemed to be more out of habit than with any real annoyance.
Katara never thought she'd say it, but the group of girls going on this trip with Zuko felt freer and less trama-filled than most other groups. Yue did not hate Katara, and Katara doubted she could hate anyone. Mai was...well, 'warming' to Katara was certainly a stretch, but after their time in the abbey, Katara could have sworn there was a shift in the air, not just for her, but from Mai and shockingly Nadhari. Neither were offering to braid her hair in their rooms, but Nadhari had been on one of her morning take-downs yesterday and could have totally destroyed Katara, but chose not to.
So, that had to count for something, right?
"Oh! Look! Isn't it magnificent?" Yue gasped, rubbing tears from her eyes as the grand gates of the Northern Water Tribe came into view. Katara tried to hold back her shock and jealousy. She loved the quaintness of her tribe, of course, but to see what the North had done...it made her ache for her own home but also wonder what her people could accomplish with more waterbenders and less fear?
"That's all...snow?" Mai stood and joined the girls at the side of the ship, surprise coloring her tone.
"Every inch," Yue said. Katara had never seen her look so proud. She was practically shining. "Oh! Look! Father! Father!" Yue said, waving off the side of the ship, all her usual composure vanished at the joy of seeing her family again. There was a group of people waiting to greet them, in all their finery and beauty.
Going to the North had been a controversial choice. Of course, the Water Tribes were not a favorite in the Fire Nation currently. But it had been planned for moons and if anything, Ozai wanted to remind the world that he still controlled the North. Why Katara had been allowed to go, she would never guess, but she was not complaining.
But Katara had a goal there...and a promise to fulfill to Ursa.
She figured she had to connect in a spiritual place to try to reach her past self again, right? Well, she'd spent the hours since being saved by Zuko's mother in the Temple of the Dragon, praying and hoping that it would work, since the Painted Lady was originally a firebender. She had nothing to show for it, except for bruised knees from the long hours she spent kneeling.
Okay, maybe she had to go somewhere more spiritual. Somewhere closer to her heart. And, actually, the North was exactly where she figured she should be. Their Spirit Oasis pool was just the ticket...if she was ever going to be able to pull her first self back through her memories.
She didn't know what she was searching for, but she needed more. She needed reassurance, an explanation, anything...or else she feared her own mind would eat itself inside out with wondering. She figured this is why mortals weren't often told of such things. Her mind already felt a bit like goo, and that was only with the briefest dives into her past.
Katara was jolted from her thoughts as they were maneuvered into the city via canal systems. Katara found herself staring with some unknown feeling at the numerous waterbenders, all working together to push and pull and manipulate such a great body of water when she was the only one from her tribe. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw that Yue had a weirdly misty glaze on her face. Katara wondered if she was wishing she could waterbend and feel as though it was hers, not a spirit and something locked away from owning it.
Their large boat needed to stay in the harbor, so they loaded onto small flatboats to take them around the city, beautifully carved and gilded. Yue was talking a mile a minute, wanting to explain every crevice in her city, every stone created.
The North was certainly something to see, and Zuko and Mai were caught in bated breath, passing over the bridges and tall buildings and grandeur that it offered.
At the gates of the palace, Chief Arnook greeted Zuko with a bow before hugging Yue tightly. He looked up, and his eyes passed over to Katara.
Here I am, the troubled daughter, returning to my roots, Katara thought somewhat bitterly, What must they think of me?
He held no ire for her, just pity. It was a look she imagined her father might have if he heard or could see her. And this was the worst of all.
She could hardly focus during the feast. She should have been in heaven. Pakku and some of his students performed a waterbending dance that had Katara's heart sing, the food was so comforting (the Fire Nation kitchens just couldn't do it justice), and the overall ambiance felt so familiar.
"Are you okay?" Zuko asked partway through dinner, nudging her back into reality. "You seem...off."
"Just tired." She smiled, eating another sea prune. "And happy." Because, part of her, truly was. Somehow, she'd needed this.
"Are the rooms this chilled?" Mai asked as they were led to their chambers.
"There's a surprising amount of heat under furs," Yue giggled. "You'll be sweating by morning!"
Zuko, Mai, and Katara's rooms were not too far from the Royal Ice Chambers, but Katara had no idea what to expect walking into her room. Yue had grasped her hand just after dinner and said that she 'hoped Katara liked her suite', but Katara didn't know why she wouldn't. She opened the door to see a fabric hanging, almost like...almost like a tent.
She parted it back to view something that stopped her completely.
Her room was done up to look like a Southern Water Tribe hut. Katara had no idea how they managed to figure out what her home looked like, but from the weapons on the wall to the furs laid out, to the tent in the back...it was like she was walking into her father's hut.
And even though it was hundreds and hundreds of miles away from where she truly wished she was, it was close enough. Even the furs smelled like the musky woodiness of her home as she curled herself into the blankets.
"I'm not okay," she whispered out loud, hoping her soul was listening, "But I will be."
XXX
The morning brought Katara first to Pakku's training center. She'd awoken to find a note from the night previous where he asked for her attendance. Yue was enjoying time with her family, Zuko was being given a tour, Mai was doing spirits know what, but the point was that the first day here was for the girls to do whatever they pleased. And Katara, on some crazy level, was looking forward to seeing her grandfather.
As she passed through his doors, she saw a gaggle of students mixed; boys...and girls. Even as she entered, Pakku was debriefing with a young girl a few years younger than Katara, showing her how to properly position herself.
"Thanks, Master Pakku!" the girl chimed, turning and coming to a halt. "Prin...Princess Katara!" She fell into a curtsey.
"Err, no need for that. Your form looked good." Katara gave a soft smile.
"It was awful, don't go soft," Pakku scoffed. His personality hadn't improved, Katara thought with an eye roll.
"So, female students?" Katara said as the girl left, face blushed red.
"Water is the element of change," Pakku said simply, pushing the snow away from the center of the room and melting it back into vats effortlessly. "But they go through a rigorous process. All my students now, actually, boy or girl. There are other waterbending masters for the soft-hearted benders," he scoffed. "But no girl has matched your power, Katara," he added, spinning and throwing a wall of ice at her. She hadn't practiced intense waterbending in quite some time but was still able to throw it off with some effort.
She knew that this wasn't going to be tea and catching up, but she hadn't been expecting to be thrown into a spar so quickly. Still, she was ready.
Pakku's next wave pushed Katara outside completely, into the main courtyard. Pakku's students were all gathered, huddled into groups, as though they were expecting this. The girls especially were completely starstruck, cheering for Katara as she threw back everything that Pakku was giving her.
She was sure that Pakku was teaching them all the traditional, respectable moves. Position One, to Two, to Three and so on, but Katara was a cougar. She was the wilderness. She was nothing like what Pakku taught them and she would not be beaten down as such.
Pakku was not going easy on her, but she would have been offended if he had.
He won, in the end. Katara could still recognize that she had so much more to learn, and losing to Pakku was not the sting in her side it once was. In fact, she leaned into the ice cage he had thrown around her, grinning at it.
"I'll have to remember this one," she said, melting it under her fingers. Her hair had completely come free from her braids, matted and frizzy. As she strung the water from her hair, she realized her grandmother's necklace had broken off. She turned to see Pakku running his fingers over it softly, caught up in the moment.
"Have you two had time to...talk?" she asked as he handed it back.
"No," Pakku's face was pushed into a scowl, "The Fire Nation is watching all messages sent out and I cannot...there will be time," he said to himself, but she wasn't sure either believed it. Pakku motioned for them to now walk and talk along the canals and bridges of the town.
"I had to make sure the palace had not made you weak," Pakku sniffed, "That you'd been keeping up your training, Katara."
"Not as well as I'd like," Katara admitted. "It was nice to have you really put a fire in my veins. You're fun to try to beat," she teased, wondering how he'd react. She was glad to see him smile, just a tad.
"True warriors need someone to dislike," he said with a shrug, and perhaps demystified his entire teaching style. Or, maybe it was just what she wanted to imagine and he was still sort of an ass.
"I'm surprised so many of your students were cheering for me. Did you all not hear..?" She trailed off. Perhaps they were unaware of her bloodbending. It hadn't been that long ago, and things did take a while to reach here. However, from Pakku's face, they knew.
"Oh, we're aware. However…" He tilted his head. "Most see it as a recognition of freedom. It's…" He pursed his lips. "The Waterbending Masters have been separated for so long...healing or killing...that with this wave of new change, it feels like a mix. Yagoda and I have been wondering if it should be something we teach. What has happened….happened. We can try to reclaim our heritage and make it not some monster hiding in the shadows."
"You're going to teach bloodbending?" Katara blinked, shocked, and almost touched.
"If we can. It's incredibly difficult. I was hoping to practice with you." Pakku said, very candid in his weakness now. "You have the raw skill, I have the training. Perhaps in our time, we could work to streamline it more," he offered.
"Yes!" Katara inhaled hard. "Yes, of course. I would love to!" She never imagined this act, which had made her time at the palace so awful, could ever turn itself around. She was not ostracized here for her talent, but rather, revered. It was such a different reaction and she felt more at peace than she had for moons in the Fire Nation. "What about Chief Arnook? He's under the Fire Nation and I know they don't like it there…"
"Well..." Pakku's smile was mischievous. "Quite a few missives are often lost between here and the Fire Nation. If the ones that mentioned this skill simply...vanish at sea for quite some time, who could blame us? It's those fickle sea winds." But his eyes seemed to hold something more. And, some part of Katara wondered...was the North planning on going to true war against the Fire Nation soon?
"Master Yagoda wishes to see you. She is the head healer here. She will be thrilled with your help; she might want to start mapping out ideas to teach this new skill immediately. I have a private lesson now," Pakku said, abrupt as ever.
"How do I get to Yagoda?" Katara asked, but Pakku was already gone.
After wandering somewhat aimlessly around the town, enjoying getting lost, Katara found her way. Yagoda was in a lesson with a group of girls no more than five years old, mapping out the chakras on a body figure.
"Princess Katara, welcome." She motioned her in. "Why don't you sit for the remainder?" she welcomed her, "Tea is over there if you want some."
Katara bowed her head and sat in the back, marveling at the youngness of the girls. True, her abilities had begun to show at around three, so this was absolutely the age to start. She hadn't really had a grasp on waterbending until ten or twelve, however, so it was a blessing to be so young and so knowledgeable. She wasn't jealous of children but did wish that her tribe was different in more than a few ways.
After the class, Yagoda kept the body form in front of them and began to ask Katara questions about what bloodbending felt like. Since Katara had begun with the realization of veins moving through the body, and taking what she knew of healing, it was easier to talk about this aspect than the fighting, strange as it was.
She and Yagoda outlined a few starting points and probably would have spent the rest of the night doing so, if not for the visitor who arrived at the healing hut.
"Master Yagoda, I have a case that I can't quite figure out, perhaps you-"
Katara turned so fast that her hair loopies hit her face and her teacup crashed to the ground. "Eva!"
Eva turned, her eyes a milky color, similar to but also different than Toph's, and a wide smile spread across her lips.
"Katara! Oh my spirits, I forgot you all came back today!"
Katara got up and flung herself at her friend.
"Why are you crying?" Eva laughed, moving around to find Katara's shoulders before clinging tightly, looking toward Katara without looking at her.
"Because you're...you're alive...and here and…" Katara felt like she was going to just break down sobbing. "Because I'm so glad to see you." After losing nearly everyone, being able to sit with an old friend felt like the best gift she could have been given.
"Eva is nearly a master in healing herself," Yagoda said proudly, "And has taken over half of my work since returning. Her waterbending skills may not be much in war, but they are firm in medicine. I am lucky to have her."
"Look at you!" Katara gushed, "A real waterbender now!" She felt like a proud parent and had never been so thrilled to have someone else like her.
"Katara, you have no idea," Eva grinned.
"I doubt we're going to get much more done today. Go, catch up," Yagoda shooed, "We will talk more tomorrow, Katara."
"Come back to my place! I'll cook dinner," Eva said, grasping Katara's hand tightly. "I have so much to talk to you about."
"Not to be rude," Katara asked as Eva led her outside, "How can you...see here?" She noticed Eva's feet were covered, which wasn't unusual. But obviously, Eva was walking around just fine, compared to Toph, who would be literally blind here. "Ah! Did Yagoda-"
"Fix my sight? No...we even got an allowance to use the Spirit Water. Some things are not meant to pass," Eva shrugged. Her fingers reached for what looked like a walking stick and she weighed it a second in her palms. "But we figured it out. Firebenders don't hurt their own fingers when they have a flame. Likewise, if we create ice and hold it in our palms, as long as we're bending it, it doesn't chill."
She set the staff firmly in the snow and a trickle of water ran up it, up to her fingers, and encased her palm. "And now...now I can see," Eva said proudly. "As long as the staff is on the ice, I have sight. It's not perfect, by any means, but I'm not fumbling around."
"That's brilliant," Katara breached, so relieved.
"Come on," Eva motioned, "I want to hear everything that's happened since I left."
"Pff, do you have a few years?" Katara asked sarcastically. "And you must have heard some stuff."
"Big fights. Bloodbending. Attacks." Eva shrugged. "I'm not interested in that. I'm interested in you and Prince Zuko. Is he still dreamy?"
Katara choked out a laugh as they reached Eva's house. It was a three-room structure made from ice but still had some pelts and such hanging around. She was surprised it seemed just to be Eva here but didn't push.
"I guess?" Katara said.
"I can feel your heart race," Eva giggled.
"You're just as bad as Toph, Tui," Katara groaned. Eva winked and took off her winter gear. Her hair wasn't as long as it was in the first place, but it was gaining length and beaded into many tiny braids. Katara figured that dealing with hair wasn't a big priority for Eva like it once had been.
Her eyes were also different from Toph's, now that Katara got a good look at them. While Toph's were foggy, like moisture on a window, there was still an eye color there. With Eva, her eyes were completely white, or so fogged that Katara couldn't see the color of her retinas. She looked almost otherworldly like this; there was something intimidating to her that hadn't been there previously.
"Details, girl," Eva said as she went into the kitchen, "Now, please!"
So, as Eva cooked (assuring Katara she knew her own damn kitchen) Katara just talked about everything. The big intermingled with the small. Eva asked a lot of questions. Katara answered all of them. By the time that dinner was done, Katafa felt like she'd just relived the last few moons in excruciating detail.
As they settled at the dinner table, Katara noticed it was set for two usually. But there was only one bedroom, at least as far as Katara had seen.
Before Katara could ask, Eva gave a long sigh, setting her spoon down and staring past Katara.
"Katara, how's your tribe doing?"
Katara's blood went cold. "What? Why? What have you heard?" she demanded, breath increasing.
"No! I didn't mean to worry you, I haven't heard anything. I was asking, I dunno." Eva seemed nervous. She tucked a braid behind her ear, shrugging softly. "Just...asking."
"Oh." Katara blinked, settling back down. "I guess…" Shitty? Like usual? She wasn't sure how to respond.
The door opening saved her from having to answer.
"Eva! I managed to get some fruit at the market today! Maybe some slush for dessert?"
It was a woman's voice.
Oh, Eva has a roommate. How nice. Maybe because she's blind? Katara wondered though Eva seemed totally competent.
A stout woman near Katara's age wearing the most vibrant blue and purple Katara had ever seen on any Water Tribe woman entered the dining area. She had dark skin, darker than Katara's or Eva's, with long black hair that was tied loosely and shiny. Her eyes were a light gray, and part of Katara wondered if she was descended from airbenders. She was beautiful, but she also controlled the room. Where Eva was quiet and mousy, this girl was as colorful as her clothes.
Eva smiled at her and the woman leaned in, kissing Eva on the lips.
Katara blinked, Oh. More than roommates.
"Babe, we have company," Eva laughed as the woman tried to deepen the kiss. The woman turned and her face lit up.
"Oh! Katara! How amazing to finally meet you! Eva has only ever said good things, so I just want you to know I don't believe a slimy word those nasty magazines say about you!" she said, shaking Katara's hand ferociously.
"Hi, erm…"
"Katara, meet Navi...my girlfriend." Eva motioned between them.
There was a long pause, as though Eva was waiting for Katara to say something nasty. Katara didn't care but overall….
"I'm a bit confused," Katara admitted, "Do you like…?"
"Guys, girls, doesn't matter," Eva shrugged. "And no, I didn't know during my time at the Choice. I mean, not actually. I always had huge crushes on girls...oh, geeze, my crush on Yue was huge!" Eva winced. "But I didn't really consider it, you know, a preference."
"She would have absolutely married Zuko if he asked and never looked back," Navi barked out with a toothy grin. "I only like girls, but from the way Eva talks about him, damn, I think I might be in love with him too."
"So is everyone who meets him," Katara had to agree. "Well, I guess, this is fantastic," she said earnestly, joy for her friend filling her, as she had to see each of her close friends - Toph, Ty Lee, and now Eva - find love and affection. Whatever happened with her and Zuko, she sincerely hoped that Suki, Yue, and Alcina would find what they needed as well.
Eva beamed and Navi relaxed. "See," Eva nudged Navi, "Told you!"
"What?" Katara didn't understand.
"Ahm, dessert?" Eva stood. "I'll be right back out."
Navi watched her girlfriend leave, stupidly smiling, "Ah, she's so cute sometimes," Navi said.
"How'd you two meet?" Katara asked, genuinely interested.
"I'm also a Waterbender, though not on her level and not even close to yours!" Navi said in awe. "But good enough that when Eva returned and was starting to heal, I was put with her to make sure she recuperated. And she fell for my loud opinions and battles against the man, you feel?" Navi winked.
"You two have a lot in common!" Eva yelled from the kitchen, "Both always fighting some battle…"
"The world needs changing," Navi shrugged, "And who else is gunna, if not us?"
Katara liked this girl.
When Eva returned with three fruity-snowy mixes, she leaned against the wall, looking unsettled.
"Eva, just ask," Navi whispered.
"Ask me what?" Katara sighed. "Eva, you know I adore you. I'm not going to judge you, so…" Katara couldn't imagine what else there was more than this.
"First, don't tell anyone outside here that we're...you know." Eva furrowed her brow.
"Dating?"
"Hmm. As far as everyone else knows, Navi is still my live-in healthcare assistant," Eva started, playing with one of her braids.
Katara's heart sank for the pair. "They don't...they wouldn't…"
In the South, there just weren't enough people, so it didn't matter. Boy, girl, neither...you could get with anyone and no one would bat an eye. There were so many other issues than what was in between someone's legs.
"No," Navi said bitterly. "And to be honest, it wouldn't be safe if we told."
"Nav," Eva hissed, "Now...don't lie."
"I'm not!" Navi shrugged, but Katara saw a quiet fury beneath her eyes. "People have been mysteriously killed for less! The North is hardly accepting...Pakku only just now takes female students because of Katara, but Great Moon Spirits, they're still exactly as they were 100 years ago!"
Eva turned away, biting back tears, perhaps the truth of it hitting too close to home for her "Does the South...your people...would they...care?" It was a lifeline she was begging for Katara to throw her. Katara could see now how tired she seemed, how exhausting it must be to hide someone you loved. It wasn't sustainable.
"No," Katara reached for Eva's hand, "Not for a second." She thought of the man she assumed was her grandfather; he never told, but not out of fear of persecution, but because he had a larger responsibility he was tied to first. This entire thing reminded her greatly of Gran Gran.
Eva squeezed her hand hard, giving out a long, haggard sigh.
"You can't stay here," Katara said after a second, looking at Navi.
"I know," Navi said quietly. Eva nodded slowly.
"This has been my whole life. My parents were so happy when they found out I was a waterbender. It's hard to imagine giving it all up," she said, but turned to face Navi, "But it's easy when it's for love."
"Right," Katara echoed, thinking of her own situation, and how some part of her felt tied so many other locations still. To her home, to her brother, to the Airbenders, and finally to a million points behind her in past lives, and how she wasn't sure she could sever any of these for Zuko, even though part of her wanted to with a desperation that choked her for a moment. "I'll write a letter for you to take with you, one to my father. Explaining it all. They'll be grateful for a healer there," Katara promised. "They will take you in."
"Thank you, thank you so much, you are blessed," Navi whispered to Katara in their mother tongue, words of prayer on her lips.
"Of course. But I do have a favor…" Katara tilted her head.
"Anything," Eva assured, "What do you need?"
"The Spirit Pool."
XXX
"Okay...everyone's getting ready for the feast, so, you should be okay," Eva said, nervously poking her head around. "I'm glad we're leaving," she said in a quieter tone. It was the last day they were set to be in the Northern Water Tribe. Katara's days had been filled with nostalgia, a bit more free time she used to help make a lesson plan for bloodbending, but mostly just anticipation for this chance to figure some shit out.
"Can't banish someone who's already on their way out," Navi said, unconcerned. She was able to use the Spirit Pool for her job, though this was certainly abusing such power. Well, Katara would argue against that, but semantically she figured that Arnook wasn't going to be happy if he found out.
So he wouldn't be finding out.
"It's hot in here!" Katara fanned herself as they entered through the tiny door. As her eyes adjusted, she noticed how green it all was. She'd never seen snow and grass side-by-side and it was enough to make anyone feel otherworldly. She shed her furs, leaving her in just her bindings.
She felt a sense of gothic dread approaching the pool, something that grasped her stomach and pulled and tugged.
"It's normal to feel like that. Wards off people who accidentally come here," Navi said, noticing her expression. "To visit with the spirits is an experience not all are built to survive."
"Survive?" Katara squeaked, then thought stupid of it. Wasn't she, in some way, a spirit herself?
"She means that your mind can't always…" Eva winced hard. "Not that you'll die. I just...I think you'll be fine, Katara," she assured with a thumbs up.
"You guys will let me know if we're noticed?" Katara asked, sitting down carefully in front of the pool. The moon was reflected in full and beneath it, two koi fish swam in a never-ending circle.
"Of course," Eva said, "Well if I hear something. Noticing isn't a strong suit of mine these days." In another situation, Katara would have laughed, but she could only force an unsettled half-smile.
Katara nodded and tried to settle herself into a meditative trance. She sat for a few minutes but nothing came to her. She could feel the call of the spirits, like they wanted her to explore, but it was just out of her finger's reach.
She looked down at the fish again.
"Water," she murmured to herself. Before either Navi or Eva could react, Katara lowered herself into the pool. Like in her first dream meeting, though she knew she should be wet, this water did not feel wet to her skin at all. It was like she was settling into the air, though she could bend it. Was this how airbenders felt?
"Uhm, that's a choice," Navi said nervously, inappropriate laughter causing Eva to shush her.
"Connection's better," Katara muttered a quick aside but already she could feel her mind pulled to some other dimension. She felt the koi fish circling around her, and like a mantra, they brushed against her exposed skin, around...and around...and arou-
Katara blinked open to find herself still in the spirit pool. But when she stood and turned, Eva and Navi were gone. And the great wall of ice had completely vanished; the entire valley was just...open. Open and filled with colors that Katara had never seen before, animals she didn't think she'd ever known existed, and the essence of spirits ghosting around her, tickling her just so that she'd turn and find nothing there except the twinkle of some half-formed specter with no figure.
She began to walk toward the bright light that called to her, but before she reached it, she stopped, like there was a wall in front of her.
"Stateeee your purpouseeeee…." the wind whispered in her ear, against her being, and she shivered, not from the cold, but from the weight of this world pressing upon her mind. It didn't hurt, as she assumed it would for others, but it was certainly not a fun feeling. She felt that not everyone was supposed to be able to come here like she was. Getting past the proverbial gate was impressive enough for her.
"I'm here to find my past lives," Katara said out loud, as brave as she could manage.
The sense of something pulling her away disappeared and so she took a step forward.
Immediately, she was falling into nothingness, endlessly. It could have been days, years, or mere seconds but eventually, Katara fell onto the grass with a resounding thump and an ache all over.
She scrambled up to darkness and somewhere wholly unfamiliar.
"Hello?" she called, but her voice completely vanished with the air around her. It was like she was voiceless, though she could still call out, but it never carried farther than her own ears. To herself, she even sounded far away, as though her body was one place and her mind was another.
"Painted Lady, where are your remnants?" she called, spinning around, willing her body to walk toward it.
There was a fuzzing on the horizon. As she squinted, she saw a figure running toward her. The hair on her body rose, not with fear, but with anticipation. And her heart, it thudded, a speaking rhythm…
"My love," she, but also not she, spoke.
She blinked to see the Blue Spirit standing in front of her. He was reaching her hand out. Katara wanted to reach for it back, but her limbs were glued to her side.
"My angel, please, take my hand. Come away with me."
Katara felt the anguish, the sadness, the terror, and the resolute feelings deep inside of her. She felt a kinship, an understanding of wanting so badly to say yes to something without being able to, knowing that you could not.
She tried to step back and found herself outside of the scene. The visages of the Painted Lady and the Blue Spirit shimmered and they were two people, two past lives, standing in Earth Nation garb.
"You know I am unable," the Painted Lady whispered, dressed in all her finery. A true princess. The Blue Spirit was dressed in rags.
"We can be-," The Blue Spirit said more, she saw his lips move, but it was a bad connection and she could not hear the rest of it. Similarly, she only got snippets of her former self's reply.
"No, w...ann...t."
She furrowed her brow, wishing she had the full words.
Katara tried to lean more into this memory, intrigued, but found herself falling through the pictures like they were made of dust. They were flickering, like firebugs in the night, in and out of focus.
"I hate you!"
Katara spun to see another pair of half-formed figures fighting to her left, a different life. Her former self was yelling, but she couldn't make out the words. The Blue Spirit was yelling back. As she came closer, their argument began to flow into her ears, though not perfect, still fractured. She was just starting to make sense of their furious words when all around her, she felt the pressure of all her lives snapping up.
She spun and saw every iteration of herself interacting and moving and living and she suddenly felt like the spirit among them, the interloper in this strange world. Pain bolted through her mind like her brain was pressing against her skull, begging to be free, and her limbs pulled her down like she hadn't moved them in years. She felt the memories move through her, cold like ice, causing her chest to clench up. She was drowning; she felt the invisible water in her throat and she started to cough up water. It came out blackened, as dark as a starless night.
She couldn't breathe, this was too much.
"Just tell me what to do," she asked, pleaded, but the memories overtaking her took no notice. She reached for the first pair, hoping to vanish the others, and she could see the memory dangling...the tall trees surrounding her former life's balcony, the sounds of a band floating up from a courtyard, the shimmer on her dress, the mud-stains on the Blue Spirit, the smell of something tropical surrounding her...she was there, she had it in her fingers, she just had to pull herself into the memory. She shoved, ignoring how she kept coughing up water because she just needed a few more seconds-
"Katara! Oh my Tui, Katara!"
Katara gasped for breath, staring up at the sky. The walls of the valley surrounded her once again.
"Katara, I…" Zuko was there, pulling her into a hug, shaking so hard. "You had no pulse. You were dead."
Katara coughed and water, normal water, came from her lips. Her throat and lungs burned and her whole body felt funny like it was waking up from being slept on in a strange way.
"What the hell, guys?" Katara hissed furiously to Eva and Navi, "I was fine!"
"Fine?" Navi repeated, horrified. "F...f...fine? You heard Prince Zuko! You weren't breathing. You sunk under and were inhaling a lot of water."
"We didn't know what to do," Eva said, her cheeks wet with tears. "I felt your spirit grow dim. I didn't know what was happening."
"Well, I almost had-" She bit her tongue, looking at Zuko. "What I was looking for."
She didn't, but she was sure she would have had more information had she been able to dive into that memory. She bristled, embarrassed and upset, and still very confused.
"Plus, it's only been a few minutes so-"
"It's been five hours, Katara," Eva spoke softly, and her revelation shattered Katara's next phrase. Katara shook her head.
"Five hours...no. It hasn't been that long. I've been..it's…" She tried to reconcile this. She would have guessed half an hour at most. "I don't believe it."
"The Spirit World is an enigma. Our minds couldn't possibly understand," Navi said, her expression softening. "What did you manage to do?"
"I don't…" Katara couldn't put it into words. "I'm not sure."
Luckily, they took her expression to perhaps mean she literally couldn't say, not that she didn't want to.
Zuko lifted her up in his arms.
"I can walk."
"I doubt it. You just came back from the dead," Zuko said, holding her close, like he thought she was going to slip away again, "Please."
Katara settled into his grip. "Will they get in trouble that I was back here?"
"No, not if I can help it," he murmured. "Yue is covering, should anyone ask. She is still a friend to you too," he said quietly. Katara's lip quivered, and she nodded in relief. She would hate something awful to befall her friends, even if they were making secret plans to cast off a few days after Katara and the Fire Nation left.
Zuko carried her all the way up to her bed.
"How do you feel?" he asked, fingers running across her knuckles.
"Tired," Katara yawned, "Really tired."
"I suppose that's fair," he nodded. Katara's limbs were heavy and her eyelids sank. She fought to stay awake, not because she had a bad feeling if she were to sleep, but rather she felt like she owed Zuko an explanation for that.
And maybe she was tired of hiding it. Maybe she was half-delusional.
"Zu...ko…"
"Shhh, sleep, please," Zuko kissed her forehead, "I just want you alive. I'm just glad you're okay."
"I need...why I was there….let me tell you," Katara said. Sleep was trying to wrangle her in, but she fought, snapping out of it just to feel the claws sink back into her again.
"We'll have time," he said, a promise. "We will have time for it all."
"But...I…" She couldn't finish her thoughts. Sleep pulled her under the water and she was gone in the place of dreams for all the world for the rest of the night.
XXX
Katara awoke with a start. She was in her own room, and the light from the patio outside dappled her ornate rugs. She reached for some water, padding the side-table beside her, but someone handed her a glass. As her vision cleared, she realized Yue was sitting and watching her, face unreadable.
"I need Zuko, where is he?" Katara said quickly, voice raw. "I need to talk to him."
"You'll have to wait. He's off-continent."
"What?" Katara sputtered, dread filling her stomach. "But...why?"
"It was planned. The trip to the Earth Kingdom." Yue's brows furrowed. "He's not in any danger, Katara."
Katara counted the days in her head. "Did he go...early?" she breathed out cautiously. Yue shook her head. "I've been out for that long, huh?"
Yue looked at her curiously. "Do you not recall? You've been in and out of consciousness for days. Rambling and speaking half-baked thoughts...no one's been able to make sense of it, though it's hardly surprising." Katara blushed at the realization that she had no idea what she'd said nor any idea of the time passing, not since Zuko scooped her up at the Moon Pool. "Katara, how are you alive?"
Katara gave a rickety laugh. "Seems to be a trait of mine. Invincible, sometimes," she said.
Yue's face was firm.
"This isn't a joke. That should have killed you. The time you, a mortal, spent in there should have turned you inside out. But you didn't. You're not...you…" She struggled with her words. "No one else is questioning it, but I know it. The North has been warned of that danger, as we should, as a protector of the bridge between the worlds. You should be dead."
"But I'm not," Katara agreed. She considered it, for a moment, confiding in Yue. But she wanted to keep this a secret and telling Ursa was likely one person too many, outside she and Zuko. She could not. So, she shrugged.
"I guess...I don't know. Luck?"
From Yue's face, it was clear 'luck' was a half-assed answer she didn't believe for a second.
"You're very calm after I just told you you should have died, Katara," Yue whispered, her quiet way of saying she knew Katara was lying. "But I digress. I have another...discussion to have with you."
"Oh?" Katara was unsure what they could have to discuss. They were friends, sure, but this seemed serious. There were a few panic-stricken moments, but she soothed herself that despite it all, Zuko would talk to her personally if something was truly wrong.
Before she could ask about Sokka, Yue inhaled hard and straightened her back.
"Firstly, I thought you should know. Zuko was talking very openly about me being his first choice with my father. No promises were made, but there was quite the thought that this might end with me being chosen. I'm aware enough to know that there must be some reason you're resisting, or else this would all be over, nor am I naive enough to think that he's not wishing for you."
"I-" Katara's lips were dry. "I'm happy for you." She was, honestly. If it was not going to be her, it should be Yue or Suki. It startled her, and it came as a shock that Zuko was looking to the future without her (though she couldn't be sure of how much he was just posturing) but she didn't want to dismiss Yue's honesty entirely.
"I am pleased to hear that. I had a feeling you wouldn't think of me differently if he does propose, and I hope it's soon." Yue blushed. "But I think me and you should talk about Zuko."
Katara sat up against the pillows, growing a tad uneasy. "Erm, what about?"
"Well," She tugged on one of her braids, looking out the patio door, "I had prepared myself to lose as soon as it was clear how much he adored you. I was sure this would have been settled long before, but something...changed. I think we all were expecting that, even Nadhari. No one thought we'd still be here."
"I...well…" Katara was irrationally angry to be called out.
"And then the issues with Toph and Sokka occurred and now everything has a different feeling."
"Yeah," Katara's shoulders sagged, "I guess, yes, it does." And she knew this too. She could feel the change, the public opinion, shoving against her like a violent tide, pushing her under. Was it enough to forgo her hesitations to say yes? She wasn't one to jump foolishly into things, and despite part of her wanting to leap and accept his proposal the moment he returned, she would hate herself more if she accepted on the fear of what might happen, not the promise of what actually was.
"And Zuko, as it is currently, favors me," Yue finished quietly.
Katara knew she was in no position to be distancing friends, but couldn't help the acidic bite. "So are you just telling me you're sorry for moving to the top and dethroning me?"
"No!" Yue's eyes were wide and her response was abrupt. "I know it might be hard for you to see. And as I said, everyone knows he cares deeply for you. I just think that in terms of things...we perhaps may be...neck and neck." Katara stared at her as she inhaled and continued. "We were good friends starting out. I would like us to continue this. I don't want things to turn...ugly, I guess is what I'm saying."
"And you'd want to stop that...how?" Much as she hated the cattiness, it seemed impossible to avoid in discussions of future husbands.
"Honesty. My father always said nothing good came from lies. Transparency, Katara," she said warmly. "I will be one hundred percent honest about Zuko if you will do the same for me."
Katara waffled. She thought, for any other contestant, they may be doing this as a way to learn dirt on her. But with Yue? She sincerely doubted that crossed her mind.
"Would this stay between us?"
"I wouldn't, really!" Yue's eyes were large at the hint of the accusation. "I'm not looking to get to the top due to stabbing another in the back."
Katara paused. She could not be totally completely truthful, but then again, she was going at Yue's promise and bond of this anyway. Who was to say that Yue wasn't shielding some truth too?
"How close are you and Zuko?"
"I believe closer than you may guess. We spent much time in the North together and we've been close since Sokka's Agni Kai. It probably sounds stupid, but I made him a card. I just wanted to show him that I recognized it was hard on him too. He loved it...he said no one else had given him a present like that yet."
Katara felt weird about this admission; part of her wanted to snap up and say 'yeah, well, I was the one he sought out after it!' and part of her was ashamed. She hadn't thought to give him a gift. Then again, maybe that spoke to their separate ideals more. Things, tangible things, were hard to come by, so her gifts were that of her time spent. Of course, to a Prince or a true Princess like Yue, giving things would be the more acceptable practice.
It hadn't even crossed her mind to do that.
"And he had me come and sit in his room and we just talked and-"
"You've seen his room?" Katara couldn't help but blurt, and that special sort of feeling she had about that just fizzled away.
"Well, haven't you?"
Katara bit her tongue; not by any official means, it was always when she shouldn't be there. Yue seemed to take her silence to mean that she hadn't. Should Katara correct her? In the pursuit of true honesty, sure, but maybe it was better not to fess up.
"Oh," Yue looked down, and maybe she was pleased. "It's what you may expect from any other Fire Nation room," she said, downplaying what Katara knew to be an impressive room.
"And you two just…"
"Talked, freely," Yue said, ears reddening. "Nothing like...that. And after that, I found him seeking me out more and more. It seemed to happen fast, but who am I to say?" she said.
Katara didn't know how to feel. Was it true? Had she been so worried about Sokka that she hadn't seen this truth? And maybe that was telling; she had put all her worry and fear and time into Sokka and completely disregarded everything else, to the point of this slipping her notice. Perhaps she would always put her family first and that would make her a poor Fire Lady.
She looked up to see Yue looking at her with a sort of 'your turn now' sort of expression. Katara groaned.
"You sure you want to hear this?"
"Yes!" Yue said, nodding firmly. "I want to know where I stand. And I will answer any questions you have of me. I just want, for once, to take whatever control we have of this. The top two are historically at each other's throats. I don't prefer that narrative, nor will I be pushed this way. I have prepared myself, whatever you say," Yue said earnestly.
Katara drank another glass of water. She wished she could put this off until she knew if Yue was as high up in Zuko's romantic list as she thought, but alas, Zuko would be gone for days. And to rebuff Yue now may lead to issues later. And, after all, was said and done, she liked the reason why Yue wanted to do this.
"He asked me to marry him and I declined, at least, at that time. There's...more to it, things I'm not at liberty to say, things having nothing to do with me directly. If I ever wanted to end things, to say yes or to leave, I have that choice."
She could see the words sink in, and perhaps Yue realized she did not want to know this. "So if you walk up to him tomorrow, he'd end it all?"
"Yes," Katara whispered, looking down. "And I do want him. I just don't know if I want to be the Fire Lady."
"They are a package deal," Yue agreed.
Something stupid but unable to shake tickled Katara's thoughts, "Has he kissed you?"
"No, but not for lack of want. The North is very old-fashioned. Until an official betrothal, no kissing. Just hand-holding."
"Oh," Katara said, trying not to make a face. She wasn't surprised. The North seemed very stilted in terms of emotional encounters.
"But we hold hands and he kisses my cheek. I think it's sweet and I'm unbothered. When we do kiss, it will be that much more special," Yue said in a dreamy sigh. Then, she paused. "I know he's kissed you, but have you two…"
The unspoken question was obvious. "No, but...arg, Yue, are you sure you want to know?" Katara questioned.
"Katara, please, honesty."
"But we would have, if we both hadn't stopped each other at different times, or if things hadn't stopped us. We would have," she whispered. For the life of her, she could not figure out Yue's reaction to that. That girl was a master of shielding her emotions, Katara decided.
"Thank you."
Only Yue would thank her for something like that.
"Katara, can you do something for me?" Yue said after a moment of silence. "If you are going to accept, before you tell him, warn me?" She bit her lip, eyes liquid with tears for a second. "I know how I feel and I love him. And if he's going to choose you, I just want to have a second to prepare," she asked.
She loved him. She'd said it out loud, openly, and Katara for the life of her still couldn't force those words past her lips, unsure if it was the foggy nights that clouded her brain or actuality of truth. She hated to admit she still was not sure.
"I would. I owe you that," Katara said, "And I guess if it goes the other way... if it seems you edge me out…"
"I would of course do the same," Yue promised. "And one more promise, if I could? Let's not get in each other's way, sabotage. I never want to win like that."
"Never," Katara said, not offended she'd think like that, not when so many other girls were this way. "I wouldn't either."
"Okay, then." Yue stood. "Thank you, Katara. I do really hold our friendship dear and hope that won't change."
Katara smiled sadly, thinking of all the people who were out for her head now, and how easily those promises vanished. "Yeah, sure."
Notes:
Next chapter (hopefully) out May 28th!
In other VERY exciting news, I have completely finished writing the second book! Whoo-hoo! Now just for LOTS of edits. It's for sure coming in at 45 chapters.
Chapter Text
"Me?" Aiga dropped the scrolls in shock. "They asked for me? Not Aang?"
"No, it was for sure you that they wanted," Zuko said, slapping at a gigantic mosquito on his neck. He hated the Swamps. "For some reason, they were willing to kill to know where you were."
"Well?" Shoji asked, turning to Aiga, "Why?"
"I surely...I wouldn't know at all," Aiga blubbered, "I'm a nobody."
"I think Katara would disagree, however, I'm inclined to agree; I mean, not like that! You know I think you're fantastic, but in a strategic sense…" Aiga was staring at him, unsure if she should be offended or laugh. "Out of everyone we smuggled, you're pretty far down on the totem pole."
"She has been cataloging all the messages from General Jee, but would anyone outside of this know that?" Toph said, and Zuko could tell how desperately she was trying to not mess things up, to not say something bad. From what he'd heard from Iroh, she was enjoying pounding Aang with rocks for Earthbending, but overall was quite the experienced teacher. Aang was lucky to have her, Zuko decided overall, despite his own current frustrations with her.
"I doubt that," Zuko shook his head. "Maybe...they knew you? Maybe from the lower rings? It seemed they were at their end, no other choices. Maybe they were just looking for salvation?" Zuko said. He described, to the best of his ability, what the two Equalists Katara had seen looked like. Despite this, Aiga's face was pinched.
"That's horrific, but no...I don't know anyone that fits that description. I'm just as confused as you are, Prince Zuko, as to why they'd want me."
"Well, think about it," Zuko said with a hint of aggravation. Whenever he thought they were going to make a break in the case, something else slowed them down. "I don't think the Equalists do anything without reason. They're more put together than that. If we know anything, they're organized, and that's truly dangerous."
"I will, sir," Aiga said, looking pale as a ghost. Shoji patted her shoulder. Zuko knew Aiga was important here. He knew she'd helped take over the teams that went out to find Airbenders and save them, and while she had no bending herself, had a mind like a steel trap that was skilled at multitasking and remembering little details. She would be fantastic in the militia, if things ever righted themselves.
"Her aura is pure," Ty Lee said, the first she'd spoken since the cry of despair when Zuko described what happened at the abbey.
"She's not lying," Toph was quick to add, "Totally confused." Aiga looked warmed by the support.
"That's just great." Zuko pinched his nose. "Uncle, I need Aang today."
"Is that wise, to bring him from our home base?" Iroh knit his eyebrows.
"I don't really have a choice. I've been getting reports of spirit activity near Selin and I don't want to be fighting with the spirits at the same time we're fighting men. If anyone else could close the portals, fix the issues…" He winced. Part of him hoped it wasn't Katara's little romp into the spirit world that encouraged the spirits to lash out. He was still completely confused about what she was doing there in the first place, why she'd nearly killed herself over that. He'd never gotten an answer, though, not more than half-crazy rantings during her few moments of being awake.
No, as much as he wanted to stay firmly at her side, he, Besu, and Nadhari had to travel to a town close enough to the Swamps for Zuko to pay a quick visit and fix some frustrating reports he'd been privy to.
"Is it not a trap? To lure the Avatar out, perhaps?" Iroh argued.
"Even my father cannot control spirits' ire," Zuko gave a sharp laugh, "And thank Agni for that, huh? And no, it was my mother that told me. She's gotten reports from many villagers."
"I would be careful. You should bring others along, two fighters in case things get ugly," Iroh said. "I would offer, but I sprained my ankle searching for the most delicious flower for tea the other day, and unfortunately it's still a bit sore."
Zuko couldn't help but smile. That was very believable, "I hope the tea was good. Shoji?"
"Of course. He did swear to protect the Avatar. But I agree with Iroh; one more," Shen interrupted. "And I'd go, but I promised I would travel home today to make an appearance at some frivolous fundraiser," he said with disgust.
"Ty Lee?" he asked. She hesitated.
"I, well, I've been trying to be more pacifist." She bit her lip. "I made a promise to the Air Spirits that I would refrain from any harm to anything for a quarter moon, until my aura can be washed by the full moon and cleansed."
"Of course." Zuko sighed long, neither upset nor surprised.
"Uhm, excuse me, you're forgetting one of the best fighters?" Toph snorted. Zuko winced; obviously, Toph was not his first choice when dealing with angry spirits, the very reason of such her argument of why she should go. Spirits needed a bit more of a gentle, subdued hand...two things Toph was not.
"Look, Sparky, I know you're worried I'll fly off the handle. Go off script. But I get it; you know I feel awful and I'm trying to make it up to you, so just tell me what you want me to do and I'll just do it, alright?" Toph said, staring at the ground, cheeks red and eyes full of liquid.
Zuko looked at Iroh, who shrugged as if to say, 'what other choice do you have'. Then, he patted Toph's shoulder.
"Everyone deserves a second chance to prove themselves," he said gently, "And we are better than that. Sometimes people need a third, or fourth."
"I get it. I do stupid things sometimes." Toph slumped her shoulders.
"Okay," Zuko relented, "Only because there's going to be no one around to see you, I'd guess. But you'll listen to my exact words, alright? No surprises? No 'oops pregnancies' or any of that shit?" He rubbed his eyes.
"You have to admit, as far as being convincing," Ty Lee said with a giggle, "It did work."
"Yeah, a bit too well," Zuko sighed. One day, everyone would laugh about it but today was not that day.
"Okay!" Aang turned, kissing Ty Lee quickly. "Are we heading out now?" Shoji was strapping his gear on.
"Yeah," Zuko led them back to his pair of ostrich-horses. "Let's get this wrapped up by dinner. I have plans with Besu and Nadhari at a nice place that I don't want to miss out on." He helped Toph onto his horse since Shoji moved toward the second one with Aang.
"Erm, not sure spirits are on a definable timeline…" Aang began but Zuko turned back to him, eyes firm, looking at the scarcely risen morning sun.
"Dinnertime, Aang. Dinner."
XXX
They smelled it before they found it. It was the smell; a fire-burnt stench, something sinister that clung around their throats and made them all cough. It was not the smell of a happy campfire where you roasted marshmallows, it was the stench of something overcooked and burned alive.
Aang had almost forgotten about the voices in his head. In the Swamp, it was easy enough to push their half-reached calls as just white noise, a buzzing in the back of his mind. There were moments when he'd be doing something and one might breakthrough, like Gopan scaring the shit out of Aang to cry out about a rare bird or Kasata waking Aang up at 3 am in a cold sweat for 'continual vigilance!', but other than that, their presence was much reduced.
As soon as they'd exited the Swamp's boundaries, Aang had expected the voices to leap back up with a fury, but it was rather like they had fallen asleep, like when Ty Lee helped him and was coming back into his mind in a slow march.
Why are you out of the Swamps? Kuruk chastised, Aang, it's dangerous!
"I gotta. There's a spiritual problem," Aang muttered under his breath. For as much as he was supposedly the link to the other side, he hadn't done much with that. Having the Avatars in his mind was as close as he'd truly gotten to the spirit world.
You can taste it in the air; something truly awful has happened here, Yangchen said solemnly.
Nothing worse than what has been happening! We're at war! Roku hissed.
Aang winced; he wasn't used to all this clutter in his mind again and it was giving him a headache.
As the four passed over a ridge, Aang's body went cold. Across the land was a scar of black earth, as though a larger-than-life firebender had descended from the heavens and razed the ground.
"Wait, where are we?" Shoji asked. Zuko took a scroll from his bag.
"Near Selin Village," he read, squinting.
Shoji jumped off the ostrich-horse, "Great Agni. I know what happened here."
"Zhao, I'm guessing," Zuko replied icily. Aang knew it in his bones too, as did the Avatars.
"No, like he knows for sure," Toph corrected, "I heard Aiga describing it at dinner."
"We saved a handful of Airbenders that fled this area. The town was sheltering them but felt pressured to give them up. I don't know if I can decide if they're good or bad for that because Zhao would have killed them, but he still destroyed their forests in retaliation for daring to go against him and to make sure there was no place for anyone to hide," Shoji explained. "How did you know about this?"
"Not that." Zuko unfurled the scroll entirely. "My mother didn't say that. Maybe she didn't know. Or she did and…" He swallowed. "As it is, the issue is that there's been a spirit terrorizing the forests and this little village for the last few weeks. Nearly the entire town has been taken hostage. They've had to flee and are begging for help."
Zuko re-rolled the scroll. "I doubt they intended the Avatar to be their saviors, but I'm not sure what else they thought we could do?"
Aang stared at the blackness in front of him.
It's staggering, isn't it? Yangchen whispered quietly, That man can do so much damage. People are afraid of spirits, huh-
Well, spirits are taking people. Quite unusual- Gopan began.
Unusual? Kuruk snarled You forget that spirits have been playing with human lives for eons!
Aang, you must figure this out-, Roku said, Lest this becomes a bigger issue.
I don't know how to, though,)Aang moaned. His lessons in spiritual things had been lacking since hiding out in Fire Nation.
Meditation, Aang, is the key to merging your mind with the supernatural, Yangchen said helpfully.
"I guess I need to meditate," Aang said out loud. Everyone jumped.
"Let's find a place then. Uhm…" Shoji looked at the blackened ground, wincing.
"There's a town not far, I can feel it," Toph said, pointing west. She began to walk and immediately tripped, cursing as she got up, blackened soot all over her clothes.
"These little shits are everywhere, watch out," Toph said, picking up a smooth acorn and frowning at it angrily.
The walk to the town was quiet. The mood was eerie and the feeling weighed heavily on their shoulders.
Calling the ruins of what was left a town was generous, Aang decided. It was more or less a pile of rubble, broken boards, and the occasional piece of cloth snagged as the villagers fled. It was equally destroyed by Zhao, harsh slashes of black, mixed with the destruction that could only be described as the mighty hands of a spirit. There was a half-sunken porch at the center, raised enough to sit all four across exactly.
"What now?" Zuko asked Aang.
"I try to meditate," Aang mumbled, echoing the whispers of all the Avatars. "And I need silence."
"We are silent?" Toph snorted, "We haven't said a damn thing, Twinkletoes."
"Not you, them," Aang said, tapping his head. All the Avatars were trying to give him 'helpful clues' but, honestly, it was just muddying it. At once, they ceased.
Aang sat for a long time, and even though his mind was settled, he could not quite get in the right place. It was nearly noon when he opened his eyes, looking up at the sun now beating mercilessly against a town that had no protection.
"Is it fixed?" Shoji asked.
Aang glared at him.
He heard the humming and worry from the Avatars, picking up on cues from the universe better than he, before he saw it. As the sun reached its peak above the town, there was a terrible, fear-inducing bellowing that shook the whole town's remains. Everyone jumped up.
"What's coming, Toph?"
"Can't feel anything! It seems like nothing," Toph said, digging her toes into the dirt.
"Doubt that's true," Zuko said.
Appearing from nowhere, a great spirit the size of a modest house tore into the town, screaming things into a void and using it's oversized six arms to knock down the little remaining here.
"Aang, do something," Zuko hissed.
"What? What is it?" Toph was swinging her head around. "I can hear it, but not see it!"
"It's grotesque, ugg," Shoji made a face, "Soulless eyes, six muscular arms to pulverize everything, long claws-"
"Probably not helping, Shoji," Aang hissed, squaring his shoulders and bravely walking out to meet his fate.
"Uhm, hello there!" Aang said brightly, "Mr...er, Spirit! I'm Aang, I'm the Avatar and I'm the bridge between the-"
The spirit yelled in his face, spewing out spirit-matter. It didn't hurt Aang, but all the Avatars in his head shuddered and flailed like they'd been set on fire. Aang, blinking back, watched as the spirit went right past him, continuing to destroy, though there wasn't much left.
"Hey! Maybe we can figure something out!" Aang ran beside it. "Sir! Sir!"
"This is working well," Toph huffed from the porch.
"I'm trying!" Aang threw his arms out, "Any ideas?"
The Avatars were still recovering from being spirit-destroyed and Aang doubted they could speak, let alone give advice. He was truly alone right now.
"Hit it!" Toph encouraged.
Aang almost ignored her, until he realized he didn't even have a smidgeon of this spirit's attention. So much for being the great bridge. He made an air knife and threw it at the spirit. It puffed against its back, and Aang figured it hardly made any change. That is, until the spirit whipped around and flung him against the ground.
"Yo! Hey! He's the Avatar, you jerk!" Shoji snapped, stomping down from the platform despite Zuko trying to stop him. He flung a small knife at the spirit.
The knife bounced off like it was a marshmallow. The spirit, however, turned his black, dark eyes onto Shoji, scrutinizing him. Just as Aang got the feeling that it was a bad mistake, the spirit grasped Shoji by the waist and turned, fleeing into the forest.
"No, no, no!" Aang ran after, with Zuko grasping Toph's hand and pulling her onto an ostrich-horse with him. Aang unfurled his glider and they chased after the spirit, darting through dead trees that stuck up like spikes and watching the spirit storm right through them.
Aang just about had a reach on Shoji when his glider caught on the gnarled end of a tree. It ripped with an awful sound and Aang went down hard, unable to switch his mind from saving Shoji to saving himself.
The spirit and Shoji glimmered before dissolving into nothing.
"No!" Zuko said, stopping his horse. Toph jumped down, running over to Aang. His shoulder was killing him and he was sure his ribs were going to bruise terribly.
"You okay?" Toph asked, helping him up. Zuko came to his side too and Aang groaned, his vision blurry.
"I lost them," he moaned, reaching out with his other hand to steady himself. The world was sideways. He touched something that felt like stone and had the wherewithal to look up to see a totem, but only briefly before his insides felt light and airy.
"What the-"
The trio were all holding on to each other as they fizzled like they were made of thin air, popping back up in a place where Aang's headache was immediately gone.
He was sure whatever Toph had been in the middle of asking would have ended with a swear word, but instead, she screamed.
"Toph!"
"I can see, what the hell?" Toph's eyes were no longer milked-over; instead, they were bright and vibrant green. "I...no...stop, eyes, no."
Aang was surprised she wasn't jovial, but she was shaking like a leaf, the most scared he'd ever seen her. She swallowed in, inhaling and exhaling hard.
"Hey, hey...just close your eyes," Zuko said gently, "It's fine, it's fine…"
"Your scar…" Aang eked in a whisper, and Zuko touched his face, startling back when the feeling of skin around his left eye was not rugged and burned, but soft...like before the incident occurred.
Toph tripped over a branch, eyes closed.
"My bending doesn't work! I can't see like this," she stuttered, curling onto the ground in a ball, her eyes still screwed shut. Aang tried to airbend, but nothing happened.
"Bending doesn't work in the spirit world."
Aang nearly jumped out of his skin to hear Roku's voice not in his head, but outside of it. He spun and swore before he could stop himself because all of the voices in his head were standing in a large group behind him. The ones he communicated with the most frequently, or those that were more in the front seat, were more solid. Those who he heard from only once in a blue moon were faded, almost see-through.
"Great-Grandfather," Zuko said in a terse, shocked whisper, bowing so low he nearly touched his nose to the ground, a sign of utmost respect.
"Zuko, please, stand." Roku broke away to meet his great-grandson. "You are exactly how I imagined you to be. Please know I am so proud of you."
"Guys...I'm not feeling too good," Toph groaned. "Not sure if it's just that I'm not used to so much stimulation or…" She rubbed her head.
"Mortals cannot go into the spirit world without repercussions. Dangerous ones," Katsata helped Toph stand, "It would be unwise for her to stay here long."
"Okay, I'll just, uhm, zap her back to earth. Zuko too," Aang said.
"I am concerned. You only managed to come here by accident. It is your job to fix the crevice that has grown between the town and this spirit. If you cannot make it back…" Roku rubbed his chin. "You are not yet skilled in going between realms."
"But they can't stay here. Or else...I mean, something bad will happen, right?" Aang said.
"It's fine, Aang," Toph said, trying to sound braver than she likely was. "It's just a small headache. We can't leave Shoji here."
"Is it even worth it? I mean, Shoji, of course, but if the spirit has taken other villagers, wouldn't they…" Zuko trailed off, gulping.
"If they have the protection of a spirit, they'll be fine. Like a coma, almost, unconscious and unchanged for their time here. They likely won't remember anything at all," Kyoshi said.
"I'll just grant them protection, then!" Aang said, shrugging. "Or wait, that's not gonna work either," he guessed at Kyoshi's tightened expression.
"You're not a spirit, Aang. You have a human body," Kyoshi agreed heavily.
"But...aren't you all spirits?" Zuko said, still looking in shock at Roku.
"Not quite. We exist within the Avatar's mind. We are the remnants of our past selves, nothing more."
"Memories," Aang finished quietly, "Echoes, but not...real."
"No, if the spirits are kind," Kuruk said with an air of romanticism, "Our actual spirits are out here in his expanse somewhere, at true peace."
"Well," Aang squared his shoulders. "We don't have a lot of time, now do we? Let's go."
XXX
Zuko could tell that the time here was taking its toll on Toph. Aang was at the front and most of the Avatars were within a few feet of him, in one big flock that moved together. Zuko had gotten some time to talk to Roku, time he could never be thankful enough for, but he'd moved back to aid Aang. Toph, not only trying to come to terms with her sight all at once, also was stumbling near the back.
Zuko had no idea how bad she was feeling. He kept waiting for the agony to his blood, but he only had a minor headache. It was obvious Toph was in much worse shape.
"Say something," He hissed to her. "You're not doing well, Toph." Toph inhaled shakily, almost crying from the pain her body was being subjected to.
"Shut up and let me be fucking selfless, Sparky. That's what you wanted me to be, right?" she hissed at him. "I'm not letting Aang leave Shoji here."
"I wanted you to be more responsible, I didn't want you to die in the Spirit World because of it," Zuko replied, so worried for her. He'd been furious, of course, and held onto that anger towards her. It was moments like this that reminded him that he saw her as a friend or younger sister and wanted nothing to befall her.
"I'm not gonna let you out-brave me," Toph said, incorrectly assuming he was feeling similarly. "I'm made of stronger stuff." One might assume she was doing this out of vanity, of her own pride, but Zuko knew better. She may make the occasional explosion of events, but deep down, Toph was a good person. "How are you?" she asked genuinely.
"Uhm, it's...bad?" Zuko tried to lie. Toph stared at him, really, and actually stared at him.
"I can't tell if people are lying from their heartbeat anymore, but I know a bad liar when I see one. You don't feel anything?" she asked, aghast, "What's wrong with me?"
"I have a headache. It's not a fun feeling," Zuko rushed to say, but obviously, they were on two different levels. And then Aang, of course, was walking around this place with no ill-effects, smiling and happily chatting face-to-face with his former lives.
At one point, Aang called for a break as he consulted with Katsata and Yangchen about where the vengeful spirit might be and how to reach him. Toph flopped over, face pale and sweaty. She waved Zuko away when he tried to help.
Feeling out of place for a second, Zuko stood awkwardly, looking at the array of impressive past Avatars and feeling very small next to them. He saw Roku looking at him, studying him, and he was surprised that he could see so much of his mother in Roku's face. Thinking of his mother made him think of his father.
Why not take advantage of this invaluable source while it was around?
"Great-grandfather Roku, can I talk with you?" Zuko asked, bowing again.
"You are my progeny, no need for bows. You may call me Roku, Zuko," Roku told him.
"Right, sorry, yeah." Zuko's face blushed and he went to scratch his scar out of an uncomfortable habit until he was reminded it was gone. "You were best friends with Sozin. And I have a feeling there's much of him in my father."
"From what I see through Aang, that is true, yes," Roku nodded, motioning for them to sit under a tree that had bright red leaves and purple bark. "But you, my son, have gotten the better temperament, if I may say so," he said, sounding equally annoyed and proud. How did he feel, Zuko wondered, about his granddaughter being forced back after so much bad blood had occurred?
"I feel so trapped, Roku. I don't know what to do. On one hand, this is my father...he raised me. He hasn't always been good to me, but there are moments I think he loves me. Or perhaps I'm only imagining it. But I...if he…" Zuko wasn't sure where he was going at all but Roku nodded sagely.
"He is your blood. Disowning blood is no small feat."
"I know from Aang what really happened with you and Sozin. That he left you for dead. I suppose, and maybe this is too invasive and you don't have to answer and I-"
"Zuko, please, ask what grips you so?"
"Would you have done the same? Had it been reversed?" Zuko asked with a weight lifted, asking a question that few would be brave enough to whole-heartedly answer.
Roku considered this for a long time, his lips pursing and face contorting. Finally, he gave a long sigh. "No."
"Right, thank you," Zuko said, feeling like he'd gotten a deeper answer from that, solidifying something good inside of him.
"No, however-" Roku held up a finger, "I strove to be a good Avatar… just, kind, compassionate, forgiving, the Father to the World and especially to those that needed it. And it got me killed," he said with a grim smile. "If I had the knowledge that I have now if I knew what Sozin would do... if I knew he was capable of such great atrocities and it would be carried out for over 100 years…" He steadied his breath, looking Zuko right in the eye. "I would have killed him, yes, if I had the chance if things were reversed. Our hearts are warm and sometimes too kind. It is a difficulty young Aang faces even now," Roku said. "And he will not heed my wisdom, he is idealistic. I'm not sure if you will either, but alas, I must admit to this."
"You'd kill someone-"
"I would blacken my own soul to save thousands, yes," Roku agreed. "That is necessary sometimes."
"Okay! I think we're going West," Aang called to everyone milling, "Let's keep going!"
Zuko wondered how much time had passed. Katara had experienced time so strangely in her trip to the spirit world. It had felt like hours; had it been days back home? Shit, that wouldn't be good.
The farther they continued into the strange place, the worse Zuko felt. He wondered if this was how Katara felt while she was on the other side of the spirit pool. And he remembered how that had ended; honestly, he was surprised he was allowing himself to be here at all. His headache worsened and his limbs ached. He was just about to ask Aang for a break, even though he knew they had to keep pressing forward, but before he could Toph made a strange sound somewhere between a cry and a gurgle.
Zuko turned to see her stumble, coughing up blood. "Shit guys…" she muttered before collapsing.
"Toph!" Aang cried out, bounding back to her side.
"Aang, let me," Suluk said, pressing her fingers to Toph's sides.
"You can waterbend here?" Zuko had no idea how this world worked. The rules were made up and nothing mattered, apparently.
"Spirit-bend, but I'm a healer," Suluk said, frowning, "She is in bad shape, Aang."
Udaya gently cradled Toph's head, using her sleeve to wipe the blood from her lips. Gopan came running to her with a cone-shaped leaf filled with water that glistened and glittered, panting from the exertion.
"Is that safe?" Aang asked.
"At this point, it wouldn't hurt. Perhaps her body needs some spiritual essence," Roku said, but it was clear no one knew.
They tipped the liquid into Toph's mouth. She coughed, rising to a shuddering sitting position. Zuko realized most everyone else was looking at him, waiting for him to fall over as well. He should be, logically, half-dead.
Yangchen strode over to him, placing a hand to his forehead. She pulled back, shocked. "You have a spirit inside of you."
"What?" Zuko laughed out loud, "What the heck does that mean?"
"I am unsure, it's muddied and I am not perfect at this," Yangchen said, "But Aang, see him, he is not dying like Toph is."
"He's not," Aang agreed, nodding at her words.
"I have a bad headache though. I'm not feeling great." Zuko argued.
The group looked at him with a sense of, 'okay, but do you see Toph?', "And I'm not sure I even…" He trailed off, unable to say 'believe', but heck...he was meeting his great-grandfather. Superstitions were sort of hard to ignore now, he supposed.
"So he's like me?" Aang said.
"No, otherwise he would have no ill effects. Somehow, a spirit touched him and part of that spirit remains," Kyoshi guessed. "Though when or how it happened is nothing we could glean unless Zuko knows."
"I don't!" Zuko huffed. "I think I'd remember a run-in with a spirit," he grumped.
"Unless they didn't want you to." Gopan raised a finger.
Zuko broke away from the group. "I just need a moment," he said, overwhelmed and confused. Aang let him pass, as his attention was on keeping Toph alive anyway.
Zuko trekked over to a pond to splash some water on his face. Their claims were hard to ignore; he had to have spiritual residue somewhere, or else he'd be near dead too, right?
He leaned down to cup the water and jumped back; his own face did not stare back. At first, he thought it was a malicious spirit in the water, waiting to pull him under, leering at him with blank eyes and a creepy smile, but when he retreated, the figure did too.
He crept back to the bank and made an experimental face in the water. The face mirrored him. He raised a hand; a gloved black appendage raised to meet it.
Now that his heart rate was settled, he sat and examined the picture in the water. It was his mask, the Blue Spirit, though it looked worn. It also looked more animated, not just a mask someone took on and took off, but the face of a spirit.
What did this mean? Zuko wondered.
"You okay, buddy?" Aang clapped Zuko's shoulder.
"Do you see that in the water?" Zuko asked, pointing down.
"Uhm...what?"
Zuko looked back. The reflection still surprised him, for he was so used to seeing his scar, but it was just his face. No Blue Spirit. Just him.
"Nevermind. This world is playing tricks on me."
Aang examined Zuko. "You do look paler. I think it's starting to take its toll." He didn't mention the possibility of spiritual residue, and Zuko was grateful. He didn't think he could take that right now. "We're leaving."
"Okay, still east?" Zuko stood up, though his bones shook as he did. He walked back to the group but Aang followed slower.
"No, you don't...we're leaving the Spirit World. I've just decided."
"What?" Toph said, her voice creaking, "But Shoji and the others-"
"No, no," Aang gave a firm shake of his head. "Toph, you're minutes from dying-"
"Don't stop on my account. I'm fine."
"You're not! And it's starting to get to Zuko too. You're both two of my best friends and Toph, you're my Earthbending teacher. I need you as much as I want to save your lives for selfish reasons. And besides," he tried to give a watery smile, "Self-sacrifice doesn't become you. Please, be selfish," he begged.
"Well maybe I deserve it, you know? After what happened to Sokka because of me...of what I put you through, Zuko, of how I hurt Katara's feelings, maybe I should go out like this. It will be a cool story, at least." She tried to laugh but coughed up more blood.
"Sokka would be devastated and Katara loves you like a sister. And Toph, you may make stupid choices, but I don't want you dead. I don't think this is your penance. I don't think you have to die to make things right," Zuko argued, "You're useful alive if that's what gets you to drop this. You are one of the best fighters. You are a force and the fight against my father would be worse without you."
"Really know how to charm a lady, Sparky," Toph said, rubbing tears from her eyes.
"Toph, my choice has been made. I wanted to be a leader and I have to get used to making really tough choices," Aang said, raising his chin. "We are working under the assumption that they are safe, but hell, they could already be dead. If they aren't protected, Shoji is fully human and would have been here longer than you, Toph, so he'd be gone. You two are still alive and I intend to keep it that way. I'm gutted I have to leave him; I feel disloyal and like a fraud, after all that Shoji has done to protect me, but…" He pressed his palms to his eye sockets, shaking his head. "Being a leader sometimes means making those awful, terrible, shitty choices for others to live. Even if it's hard."
"No one blames you," Udaya whispered, patting his shoulder.
"I can't stay in the village, but I will figure out how to save them. I need to figure out how to navigate connections in the spirit world. I will come back. I won't leave them here, I couldn't," Aang said, and looked at his friends. "But not today, not with you two," he added gently.
"Okay, okay," Zuko said quietly, not about to take away Aang's power and choice, and besides, he couldn't be far behind Toph's condition.
"Wait!" Toph threw out her hand.
"Toph, we've been over this-" Aang pinched the bridge of his nose.
"No. It's just, uh, I've been staring at you two yahoos this whole time, and you're both very pretty," she said sarcastically, "But I'm not sure if there's anything...to see what Sokka looks like. Or Katara. I just want to know," she said.
"Oh…" Aang said slowly. Yangchen whispered something in Aang's ear. He tilted his head, listening, before nodding. "Worth a try. Let's see if I can bend spiritual energy in here too."
He stepped forward, motioning for Toph to meet him. Then, he placed his fingers to her forehead and closed his eyes. For a second, nothing happened at all, but then Zuko saw his arrows glow. And Toph let out a choked sob, a tear rolling down her cheek, and Zuko knew that it was working.
"Katara is stunning, I know why you like that now, Zuko," Toph said with a laugh. "And Sokka isn't at all what I thought, but Great Oma, he's beautiful. Every inch of him," she said with reverence, "Aang, I...thank you." For a rare moment, Toph was completely emotional, with zero effort to brush it off with humor.
"What about us?" Zuko teased as Aang reached for Toph's and Zuko's fingers. "Are we what you imagined? And are you ready to go back to being blind?"
Toph pulled a face. "Hell yeah. I don't know how you guys do it. So much everywhere. It's overwhelming, honestly, to be looking everywhere all the time, ugg." She shuddered. "I expected Aang to look more like a girl."
"Hey!"
"You have the voice and feather-light steps," Toph defended herself. "And you? You're fine-looking, I guess," she said to Zuko. "I guess I'm just underwhelmed by how everyone else always describes you to be soooo handsome. Or maybe I'm just biased now," she added, nudging his side.
"Right, Toph, thanks for keeping me modest," Zuko said dryly.
"Ready?" Aang asked. Toph, who wiped her lips and spat up blood, nodded vigorously. It felt like nothing happened, but all of a sudden, Zuko blinked and they were back in the burned forest.
"Oh, sweet, sweet utter blackness!" Toph said, throwing her arms up.
"Full mind again," Aang also murmured, rubbing his temples.
Zuko looked at the bear totem, unable to speak out loud about his experience over there. He wasn't sure what it meant at all.
He would be stuck over it for a very long time. Even at dinner, which he'd been so looking forward to- not for the company Besu, wait, why was she still here? Arg, not the time to send someone away… and Nadhari, spirits, sure he'd seen a better side of her lately, but still not pleased- but because it was a beloved restaurant. But he was elsewhere, and it was obvious to everyone.
How could he be mentally present? Aang was agonized over his choice to leave Shoji, who may be dead. Aiga had wailed when she'd heard, and Shen had clicked his tongue, saying how instrumental Shoji had been to aiding and saving Airbenders, which was for naught. Toph was unusually silent and pulled into herself after the whole affair...near-death did that. His talk with Roku swam up whenever he tried to pull himself away from the biggest thing...the face in the water that was not his, but so bittersweet and familiar, and the knowledge of something supernatural having touched his soul at one point.
He was glad for another day in the town they were visiting, hoping that he wouldn't have to go home and make any new choices yet, nor try to explain to anyone what was raging in his mind.
He laid down to sleep, hoping for no dreams. Post-spirit-world, he felt like his head was filled with water, but no ill effects. But was he ever tired... as Katara had been. He prayed he wouldn't wake up half-consciously babbling like her and had forewarned Aang to watch Toph for those symptoms.
His dreams brought him back to the spirit world. He cursed, trying to wake himself up and leave, but was glued in place. Over the horizon, a heavy mist grew, so thick he could hardly see through it. A figure was walking over to him.
He thought maybe it was the Blue Spirit, but he did not recognize who it was, though he instantly felt calm. It was the feeling that he'd experienced going to sit and snuggle with his mother during bad thunderstorms as a child. It was the relief of seeing his mother alive after that first attack. It settled him, though he had no reason to trust this spirit at all.
"Oh, Zuko," she whispered, reaching for him as though she'd been separated from him for years. He wanted to ease into her embrace, and perhaps his mind was getting mixed signals, but when he looked at her, he saw traces of Ursa in her facial structure. "Let me help you, my troubled son. You must know the truth before your mind unwinds itself with worry."
She reached forward and Zuko recognized what she was doing from what Aang had done for Toph earlier today. He paused, wondering if he was ready for whatever he was going to be shown. It would drive him mad if he refused this, so he leaned forward for her pale finger to press to his forehead.
And then, in the span of mere seconds spanning over eons, Zuko understood everything.
Chapter 41
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Katara walked around in a half-daze the rest of the time Zuko was gone. She was gaining her strength back, slowly, slower than she would like. Maybe her body was just rebelling from taking one too many beatings here and was refusing to do what it was supposed to.
Still, she felt like it may be something else. She couldn't shake the feeling that something terrible had happened, or was going to happen, while Zuko was gone. What, she couldn't say.
One thing she did know, however, was that she had to tell Zuko about their reincarnations. It wasn't fair to him anymore and trying to get answers on her own had nearly killed her. He deserved a straight answer, lest he tried something stupid like she had. She knew she shared this trait in Zuko...unrelenting drive when they wanted something.
This would force the moment to a crisis; she knew. It would change everything, whether or not he believed her.
For this reason, and after her conversation with Yue, Katara made a promise to herself. She has considered that Yue was idealistic and a romantic and reading into cues that weren't there. She had asked if maybe Zuko had made some vague gestures and Yue had taken it as gospel. She considered that perhaps Zuko was lying to Yue. But even if all of this conversation was false, it gave her a reminder she sorely needed...even with all of her own troubles, the competition and those that demanded a Fire Lady bride were still present and Zuko had to abide by this.
She would figure out what she wanted to do by the end of this moon. She would either say yes or ask to leave...but she could not continue on as she had been. It was not fair to anyone; to herself, to Zuko, to the contestants, heck to the Fire Nation...She must make a move.
She supposed that if she were still between a rock and a hard place by the end of the moon...well, that would be it. Some part of her ached for home and she told herself it wouldn't be all bad leaving. She would see her family, she would bring back so much knowledge, she would likely bring Sokka home with her...and maybe, once she finished licking her wounds and once she had news of the Royal Wedding, she'd go and try to find Aang and help him.
Or she'd be sure. Or, her heart would not allow her to leave, and she would talk herself out of the riddles she'd caged her heart in. She had thirty sleepless nights to consider it all, she told herself.
Yes, a moon.
One more moon and things would be chosen.
XXX
When Zuko returned, he took a date with every contestant left, spread out over the entire day, beginning with breakfast and ending with late desserts. Katara was not slated until the last slot, and whether this was intentional, a slight, or a coincidence she couldn't be sure. All she knew is that by the time she was slated to meet with him, her entire stomach was flip-flopping between considering all the different paths that this night could take. Zuko would believe her; he wouldn't. He'd be mad if she didn't tell, he'd be fine. He'd grant her a month to deliberate more; he'd demand an answer tonight. He'd be pleased to see her; he would be sending her home.
She knocked on the Tea Room door hesitantly.
"It's open, Kat, just walk in," Zuko said with a laugh, and at least one thing was answered. Someone was not that friendly moments before telling you to pack your bags.
"It was a good trip, then?" Katara guessed.
"Awful, truly awful," Zuko corrected. He was grabbing a dessert cart from a side door and had lit a fire under the teapot. "But do you really want to hear about that?"
"Of course!" Katara insisted, sitting on the floor pillow, reaching for what looked like mousse, "Zuko, you can talk to me about anything. Even the most boring details."
"This won't be boring," he huffed. "First...I've made a choice."
Katara felt her heart shirvel, "Oh?"
"There are a couple of girls that shouldn't be here, even if we are…" He paused, and Katara wanted to jump in and explain her timeline, but he continued on. "...in half a moon, I'll be sending Besu, On Ji, and Ratana home," he said. "Father wants cuts. I didn't want to do it tonight...there's a trip in a few days, I'll take them there, and then...yeah." He rubbed the back of his neck.
"Do they know?"
"Spirits, of course not. I mean, I want them to enjoy this last trip! I just...wanted to be open with you," he said, reaching for a lemon bar.
"Oh. Yes, those girls make sense." She inhaled. "Who is your first choice...I mean, besides me?" She hoped he wouldn't laugh and say 'you're not first', but he of course wasn't so cruel, even if it were not true.
"Yue has truly raised herself as a contender. Her father wanted to hear me say it, and I guess I did, but it doesn't have to mean anything. And well, did you know that they don't kiss before engagements? It makes it easy for me to do so very little because physical affection often indicates...I mean, I guess holding her hand means something. It does, but it's not a promise. Do you know what I mean?" Zuko groaned but Katara gave him a blank stare back. "She's up there. Or, well, I guess it's pretty close between her...and Suki...and Mai. I've never actually been that good at making big choices, you know?"
"If your father wants cuts, why not pare it down to the top five? With Nadhari since, as we know, she has to stay," Katara asked with a shudder, "Though weapons can be produced by someone other than her dad, right? And isn't it a bit childish to refuse to make them for the Royal Palace if you don't pick his daughter? Just saying."
Zuko sent a withering look.
"Because I don't want Nadhari thinking she's made it that far, yuck," Zuko made a face, "No, no, this is fine. There haven't been cuts in a while. This is fine," he repeated. "I also like Alcina and Cilla's company; I'd be sorry to have them gone before things are more...final."
Katara looked into her teacup and sipped it loudly.
Stop being a coward and tell him, Katara! Tell him that you've decided...you've decided that you'll decide in a moon. Oh, even that sounds foolish...
"Oh!" Zuko jumped up. "I, well, I got you a gift!" he said before Katara could broach the subject of what she really wanted to tell him. It had seemed so pressing when she was half-dead, but now? Now, her tongue tied itself up, and her lips stayed closed, even though she wanted to speak of it.
"Oh, uhm, thanks," Katara said, glad for a brief moment of pause before she for sure had to tell him she was The Painted Lady and he was the Blue Spirit...literally.
"Here." Zuko dropped a small box in her lap, and for some reason, his face was as red as the rest of his scar. "I...it is...you know that...er...yeah, no, just open it." He seemed ready to say something else but backtracked.
Katara opened it up. Inside was a bracelet; nothing too ostentatious, but it was still very expensive, and it looked old. It was made from a collection of rocks, beaded with a fine thread. The rocks were shiny and smoothed, as though by water. Not only was Katara honored by such a thoughtful, interesting gift, but the more she stared at it, the more it seemed familiar in a sense.
"It's from your birth-town," Zuko said, his voice higher pitched than usual, "And what I mean by that is-"
Katara understood. She remembered, as a child as the Painted Lady, fishing these magma-created onyx slabs from the water, smoothed by decades of the sea washing over them. She remembered peering into the window of the jeweler's office, as he rounded and beaded these bracelets. She remembered that she'd been saving for one before she was killed.
"When did you find out?" she asked, her voice choked. She felt faint, as though she was going to pass out. This was not how it was supposed to go.
"So you do know," was all Zuko said. Was he surprised? Disappointed? Happy? It was impossible to tell.
"How…"
"I sent Atsushi to procure this. The town itself is far too poor for such baubles, but I knew somewhere in the upper ring, there had to be some jewelry store with antique Jang Hui stones...and I was right." Zuko breathed in, all at once. "I guess I thought it would be an opener. You know I'm awful at talking, and, um, explaining, but I guess I can just skip this little speech I had in my mind, because well, you seem to...yeah." Zuko plopped back down beside her. Katara was really curious to know how he'd been about to explain it. It wasn't the time for that now.
"How?" Katara asked again, lip quivering. It hadn't been so long between the Spirit Pool and currently.
"We took an unintended trip to the Spirit World. Toph nearly died...I did not. There were some questions." Zuko's face was dark, his shoulders slouched. "We lost Shoji there. I'm not sure if we'll ever get him back, Katara."
"Oh!" Katara covered her mouth, trying not to cry. "Zuko, spirits...not Shoji."
"I know he was like a little brother to you, I'm so sorry," Zuko said, his eyes wet with tears he wiped away. "I didn't want to leave him, but Aang made that choice. But I knew...my mother, the Dark Water Spirit, she told me two nights ago." He inhaled hard. "Your turn. When?"
"At Jang Hui. That's when." Katara spoke carefully. Zuko studied her.
"Agni, that was moons ago."
"And how could I tell you?" Katara asked, standing. "How could I explain it, when I myself was so unsure of it! You didn't believe in any of that, be truthful. You would have called me crazy."
"Not if it was coming from you," Zuko insisted.
"Really?" Katara asked, staring him down. Zuko paused for a moment, wincing.
"Okay, I would have called you crazy. I won't lie. I'm still hurt. But…" He rubbed his chin. "That's what you were trying to tell me, at the North Pole. Is that why you nearly killed yourself?"
"That wasn't part of the plan," Katara said, as though that wasn't clear. "I just wanted answers. Illumination on the subject has been few and far between," she said. Zuko gave a rickety laugh, eating the last bit of his lemon bar.
"Tell me about it."
They sat in silence for a moment, each drinking their tea, daring quick glances at each other.
"So...uhm...I guess we're soulmates," Zuko said with brightness, but it was a tad forced.
"Reincarnation of soulmates," Katara muttered under her breath. Zuko tilted his head.
"Is there a difference?"
"I think so," Katara said. "I'm not sure if it makes it easier. Is it for you?" she questioned. Zuko leaned forward, kissing her softly. His lips tasted of bitter lemon but were coated in sugar. She leaned into it, too much, just as he pulled away. He caught her before she fell, his hands brushing her cheekbones.
"Katara, I've never wavered. I don't think this changes anything."
"It might for me. I just...it's a lot to be dumped on you." Katara pulled away, much to his disappointment, drawing her arms to protect her heart. "I don't like being told what I should or should do."
Zuko laughed, "Yeah, that's true."
"It's not funny. Seriously; I'm not sure I'm happy with the implications," she tried to explain.
"I'm serious. Honest," Zuko said, but his smile kept reappearing, "I doubt you were coming here to propose, so it doesn't matter, huh? It hasn't actually changed a whole ton. I'm confident. I'm not afraid, for once, of all of it." He shrugged. "I've always...liked the idea of reincarnation, on some level, even if I wasn't sure I could believe it. I don't know if my past has to affect my future."
"So you're not having the memory clashes, then?" Katara guessed. At Zuko's confused face, she knew he wasn't there yet, not hearing whispers or knowledge pooling out without her consent.
"I'm going to make a choice soon. One moon."
She watched Zuko's chest rise, glee and excitement bubbling, and she didn't have the heart to warn him that it might be a no. She couldn't.
He kissed her. He pulled her to him and kissed her hard, as though he was trying to suck her soul out through her lips. Katara, whose heart always burned for him and whose heart still skipped a beat at his awkward smiles, didn't think she could deny him this. She tried, though, but Zuko shushed her in between quick kisses to her lips.
"I know it's not a yes, not yet, but please, Katara..." He trailed a hand down her side and she shuddered at the touch, his warm fingers resting on the skin that had been exposed as her blouse hiked up, detached from her skirt.
"Please what?" She asked, daring to be girlish or even seductive for a second, but curious just the same.
Zuko gave a burst of air which finished in a laugh, "I don't know..." He said, and she could tell he was shivering, just slightly. She reminded herself she had more experience with this sort than he did, "But we're alone...you're the last on my list- and by the way, that wasn't planned so perhaps I might believe in fate just a bit more- so we have all the time in the world." He said, nipping at her lip.
"No interruptions?" Katara raised an eyebrow. Zuko snorted but grinned. Sure, some of those hadn't been people (cats jumping on garbage, the moon...) but it sure seemed like something out there didn't want them getting down and dirty.
"None," He promised, "My father thinks I'm cutting girls tonight. So he won't bother. Girls crying? He'd rather be on the other side of the palace." Zuko teased, "So can we just...I want to..." He looked at Katara. She tried to memorize the flecks of brown in his golden eyes, the way the light from the lamp made them shine, and how perfect he looked right then.
"I want to just see," He finally articulated, though it wasn't much of an explanation, "What it's like. Some of it."
"Not...all?" She got the feeling she knew what he was referring to.
"No, I wouldn't want it on a couch in this room. But, er, I..." He gulped.
Katara leaned up to kiss him. She didn't want to make him feel more unsure. She lifted his palms and brought them to place her top was tied at the side. He unraveled the first knot, then paused.
"I wouldn't be putting your hands anywhere I wouldn't want them," Katara assured him. She eased Zuko back into a gentle kiss, her own fingers starting to unclasp the buttons of his outercoats. Zuko unwrapped her top in record time, shoving the piece of fabric off the couch. She'd pushed his first layer off his shoulders. At his hesitation, she caught his eyes.
"We don't have to go farther," She said, "If you don't-,"
"You think I don't?" Zuko asked, "I'm just trying to savor this. Uncharted territory," He said with a smile. Katara nudged his ribs.
"Nerd," She murmured lovingly.
His next kiss was not hesitant or unsure. She was so caught up in how heavy this one was that she almost didn't realize that his fingers were making quick work of her top bindings until only one layer remained. He did seem to stop there, but the strips were thin enough that when he put his hands over the top of her breasts or when he flicked his finger across, she felt everything.
She bucked her hips into his and they both moaned in unison.
Zuko tangled his arms in his own shirt, frantic to get it off and press his skin to hers. She felt the heat warming her as she grasped onto him and he pushed against her figure, eyes fluttering closed.
"Sorry it's not-," He began, but Katara shook her head.
"No, don't...that friction," She held onto him tighter, rearranged her skirts so that his body was as close to hers as they could get, even with layers of clothes on their bottom, "It feels good." She said, voice husky. It had been so long, but she hadn't expected how it would feel with someone she...well, someone like Zuko.
His kisses were tied to the way he was moving, jolting and frantic, but waves lapping over each other in pleasure. It was everything good and nothing bad. Katara held him tighter against him, her own legs locking into his, telling herself to just allow the feeling and not worry about anything else. As it was, the way they were colliding soon was so intense it was hard to think of little else. When Zuko shuddered into her lips, gasping out the names of the gods, Katara wanted to tease and remind him that it was her body beneath his, but she found release a moment later anyway.
Then, they basked in that afterglow. Zuko brushed her flyaway hair from her face, kissing her forehead, "It's going to feel amazing when I actually..." He grinned, "I mean, I hope with you." Before Katara could respond, he got up, leaning and stretching, "Agni, I need food."
"Me too," Katara said, "You're usually hungry after something like that. At least I always have been," She said.
"Oh, well good thing we have all these desserts at our disposal," Zuko said, taking a dole of whipped cream on his finger and dotting it playfully on her nose. As he leaned to grab a plate for Katara, she saw a hint of what might be that mysterious tattoo of his down on his waist, but couldn't see more than the top. She was about to ask about it, but Zuko asked what she wanted to eat.
Then, he paused. From his face, it seemed he was going to change the feeling of the topic.
"If you're leaning toward a yes, that might come as a surprise to some."
"Huh?" Katara tilted her head. All tattoo questions vanished.
"You're not well-liked currently, sure," Zuko waved a hand, "But Zhi made a comment to me that well, you didn't seem as serious about it anymore. Other girls would die for this chance, but you...she might not see what I know, but it's worth considering her words."
"I'm serious about it!" Katara said, offended, "I'm so serious that she...she...what does she know!"
Zuko moved a strand of hair behind her ear. "There's my girl," he said warmly. "Ignore it. It doesn't matter, huh? Now, seriously, you gotta try this caramel, Kat. And we'll worry about righting your hair in a bit."
XX
If someone were to know about Katara's end-of-the-moon plan and ask her which she was leaning, she would confidently say she was exactly in the middle. She wanted time to explore every aspect and not be pulled one way or another prematurely. Why rush it when she had a moon? She was committed to the timeline now that Zuko knew, but it would keep her honest.
There were, however, some housekeeping sorts of things to try to deal with, if she were going to say yes. So, Katara spent the next day attempting to accomplish those.
She firstly met with Ru, early in the morning, to see how her article was coming. They worked to refine it until it was nearly perfect. Ru promised to have it out with the half-moon's issue, and it would be on the front page. He was waiting for some nice things said about her from her tribe and people she'd come in contact with.
Second, she went around and tried to make nice with some of the politicians and attendants that didn't like her. She needed a few on her side if she were Fire Lady. At the end of the day, she wasn't confident she changed any of their minds, but she was determined. She had time to get a few to warm back up to her.
Third, she wrote to her father. She'd never come with the intention of marrying Zuko, not from the start, so this might be a surprise to her father entirely. She often confided in him when she was feeling confused, and confused was she ever. She laid it all out (well, not the reincarnation — she wasn't ready for that truth yet) and asked her father for clarity and guidance. It would take a week for the letter to get to the South Pole, a few days for him to properly mull and write back, and a week to arrive...it would come anywhere from a week and a half to two weeks from now, giving her the perfect amount of time to internalize her father's advice and make a decision.
Lastly, she went on a hunt for Zhi.
She found her with On Ji, going over what looked like textbook work together. Katara politely waited until she was done. Once she dismissed On Ji, she looked at Katara as though shocked.
"Princess, I'm glad you're alright! I heard about your fall into the canals."
The word going around was Katara had fallen and nearly drowned in the North. She knew many were wondering how a waterbender could have possibly nearly drowned, but hey, Katara hadn't started that rumor.
"Yes, uhm, it was quite the event," Katara said. "Lady Zhi, I was wondering, if you were free of course, if I might bother you for some private decorum lessons?" she asked, face red to be even asking. Her pride had nearly stopped her, but she had forged ahead.
"Decorum lessons? I'm not sure I...Princess?" Zhi squinted at her.
"A few times a week, I guess. I just...well...I feel like I should know the Fire Nation royalty ways. I'm behind compared to most."
Zhi gasped. "Is there to be a Royal Wedding soon, my dear? Has Prince Zuko hinted something to you?"
"No," Katara lied, "But I know he has affection for me. I just wanted to be proactive."
Zhi stared and for a moment, Katara thought she'd offended Zhi somehow. But then Zhi broke into a smile and hugged Katara, "Oh! How wonderful! I'm glad you understand the importance. I would be honored, Princess Katara. When would you like to begin?" she asked, face bright with pride.
"Err, now?"
Zhi went over to her shelf and began pulling books out. The information seemed momentous; the amount of text she was putting into a pile couldn't possibly be learned in a month, but Katara was willing to try. "Grand! I'll call for some tea. This will take the rest of the day, Princess." She waited, as though expecting Katara to find some excuse to slip away. Instead, Katara pushed down her grimace and smiled.
"Lovely, I'm excited to begin."
XXX
For the next three days, Katara's nose was in a book. If she wasn't with Zhi, she was reading on her own, ignoring everyone else. That was fine...not many wanted to talk with her anyway. She would take breaks to socialize with Suki, and once Yue, but otherwise, everyone left her alone.
Katara's mind was full. She was knee-deep in complicated Fire Nation history, figuring out what order to use 12 different sized forks at a formal dinner, learning the color language of flowers, practicing calligraphy, and trying to recite Fire Nation poems by heart. She had five books going at once and found herself murmuring the proper hierarchy of titles and greetings as she fell asleep.
Katara's interest in decorum spurned something in Zhi. After the arena fights, she'd been maudlin and absent from the Ladies Room unless someone sought her out actively. She had almost pushed aside her duty other than what was strictly required, but maybe an unlikely candidate like Katara asking for help had reminded her why she was there.
The remaining contestants were pulled together for a group meeting, something that hadn't happened in what felt like years.
Zhi started by handing everyone a piece of parchment and an inkpot. She asked the waiting girls what was something they were passionate about. Katara paused and scribbled answers like her family, bending, justice, fairness, and leadership.
"The reason I ask is that the Fire Lady is typically in charge of a committee of some kind, something that benefits the Fire Nation. Fire Lady Ursa reinvigorated the Visual Arts in our country, specifically focusing on plays. Of course, she's done far more, but many applaud her love for creativity and how she's brought it back to an elite and honored pastime."
"Are we supposed to come up with something like that?" On Ji's eyes were wide. "That's a lot!"
"A theory, my dear, not all the specifics. Fire Lord Ozai has already approved this brainstorm session, and you will present your ideas to him at the end of the quarter-moon. Just your ideas, how it would run, and so on. Nothing is being produced, but it may give the Fire Lord, the Prince, and the rest of the Sages an idea of what you may bring to our nation."
Alcina gulped, and On Ji looked ready to faint. A few of the girls, such as Suki and Yue, looked like they already had ideas swimming. Nadhari rolled her eyes, sinking into her chair as she scratched little drawings onto her scroll.
For Katara, she felt like there were too many ideas. Some of these girls were blind to the issues beneath their own slipper-clad feet. They had never grown up like Katara had and it was hard to know what you didn't already know. Her brain was a tidal wave of ideas, all splashing and fighting to be superior. She was confident she could win this if there was something to be won. She had seen the errors of the Fire Nation and was committed to fixing it, but what would she choose?
XXX
In the upcoming days, the Fire Nation libraries saw more use than they likely had in years. The girls were all committed to putting on a well-thought-out idea, even Nadhari, despite her grumping at the announcement. She seemed earnest and studious whenever Katara saw her, like everyone else. Girls like Suki had written notes by the pound, carting entire bags of scrolls with them everywhere. Everyone was rising to meet the expectations of the others, and at the very least, Katara hoped everyone's presentation would be stellar. Zhi twittered around like a happy morning-dove, occasionally giving a helpful hint, but mostly just observing the way the girls pushed themselves into this task. Perhaps, Katara thought, this itself was a test.
Zuko knew a bit about the project and told the girls though he would love to hear everyone's ideas, he didn't have time to proof all of them, so he'd just have to wait until Friday. Katara wondered who had tried to show him theirs early?
After that first day, Katara had written all her ideas down, from the smallest to the biggest.
Some would not create waves. Some would make the Sages smile and the Fire Nation people say, 'oh, look how Fire Nation she has become.'
And while those were surely tempting, she could not in good faith choose one of those. No, if she were going to be their leader within a month, they needed to know what kind of Fire Lady she would be. She was the kind that would create fires, not put them out, but it would be for the greater good. She was a controlled burn, smoking out the bad so the good could grow. She had no intention to mislead anyone, to show herself as less extreme now and switch later. If she were to do this, she would be doing it right. Or, at least, what Katara considered to be right.
On the day of the presentations, Katara recited her speech to herself over and over. She didn't want to seem unsure or flub any part of it, nor did she want to seem like she didn't know what she was proposing.
Katara opened her wardrobe to dress (a new handmaid was promised within the next moon) and dug through her closet for the one item she'd never worn but knew existed: a bright red traditional Fire Nation dress. She wanted to appeal to their histories as much as possible, try to show everyone that she was doing this for them, for their people too.
Everyone here deserved better than how life was. Zuko, Ursa, Azula, Iroh, Lu Ten, spirits even Ozai, deserved so much better. Just because they had lived in this way didn't mean they always had to.
And Katara was determined to show them this.
When Katara entered the Royal Show Room, she noticed how packed the room was. The entire Royal Family was there, of course, plus the Fire Sages. Besides these people, which Katara expected, there was a whole swarm of reporters along with many dignitaries and politicians. Ru waved to Katara, giving her a 'thumbs up' and grinning widely.
The last seat open was next to Nadhari, but even that sourpuss couldn't bother Katara today. She was so excited to show her idea, to make people understand.
She noticed Nadhari staring her down.
"What?" Katara asked irritably.
"Nothing, I…" Nadhari tilted her head, shrugging. "Red actually suits you."
Katara narrowed her eyes, unsure if she was being truthful, a liar, or if this was some psychological head game.
Zhi came to quietly talk with everyone and explain; they had eight minutes to speak and three minutes for questions from the crowd. The most favored choice from the Sages would receive a suite when they traveled to their next destination, wherever that may be. It would go in the order they were sitting; On Ji first and Katara last. Katara smiled politely...she didn't want to be the best due to prizes, but because she felt like on some level, they needed change.
The presentations were all...something. Good or bad, Katara had thoughts on everything.
On Ji's was one of the worst. She said that the Equalists should be outlawed to keep the Fire Nation safe. Which, well, they already were?
Alcina and Yue both had ideas about connections between tribal areas and small cities; a pen-pal service by Alcina's idea and an exchange program from Yue. Suki pushed for more equal learning for girls and boys. Cilla prompted an early self-defense class for kids under the age of ten. Ratana's was a clean water initiative, something Katara wanted to clap for, but recalled how nasty Ratana had been towards Toph. Besu's was to start a cooking class for those that didn't have upper-ring provisions, or how to eat healthy with what you had. Mai's was surprisingly one of the most well-rehearsed, aside from Suki's. She backed up her proposal with scrolls of research and she was able to easily answer all of the questions that came at her, whereas On Ji had sort of floundered in that part. Mai's program was to better strengthen the orphan and adoption programs in the Fire Nation Capital, citing that so many upper-class citizens were desperate for a child and so many lower-class citizens could not afford or were not in the right mind to care for one. Katara thought her passion was true but misplaced. Shouldn't they help those in need instead of taking children away? Still, the amount backing up her presentation was enough to nearly have Katara on board.
When it was Nadhari's turn, she stood and called for better teaching on weapons. She cited that the Fire Nation was producing new, dangerous weapons with such fast-paced accuracy for the non-benders that the deaths that had been caused by the accidental discharge or otherwise were staggering. It was an interesting take, as Katara thought she recalled that Nadhari's father was a main producer of weapons, but perhaps she knew it from a first-hand account. It was a different side to her, one that did genuinely care about making things better. Even Zuko looked surprised.
When it was Katara's turn, she stood, trying not to play with her hands too much. She looked out over the crowd, and at Zuko's encouraging smile, she raised her chin to speak.
"Hello. Today I come to speak to you all not as a Water Tribe Woman, separated and different, but as someone who has found a home in the Fire Nation for the past year. I am coming to you as someone who was once an outsider but has found family, companionship, friendship, and strong values that I would be remiss to ignore. Believe me when I say this; I love the Fire Nation and I want a good life for everyone in it," Katara said in a confident voice, the truth making her words glow. "And for the most part, that's true. The Fire Nation Capital strives to take care of its citizens; look at all the outreach programs that are being proposed to the people within these walls," Katara said, looking back at her fellow women and smiling wide. "But you have taken us outside these walls. We have visited so many vibrant, beautiful places with so many interesting people. And the truth of the matter is that outside the Capitol - no, even outside the Fire Nation - people are suffering. People are dying from starvation, people are giving up their livelihood to the military passing through, people are barely holding on. I don't have books to prove it, but I have my own eyes. Don't believe me? Prince Zuko has seen it...these girls have seen it...there are places that need our help. And we should help."
Katara smiled and saw Zuko give her a worried look from the crowd. Most were interested to hear what she had to say; a divisive plot was better than a boring one, that was for sure.
"I propose a tax raise to Fire Nation citizens on a sliding scale based on income to help organize better support and provisions for the colonies that are suffering. I also propose an unpaid, volunteer-appointed position to assure that the majority of these coins spent actually make it into the hands of the suffering people, instead of those who seek financial gain or power."
There were a few gasps from the room. A few horrified mutterings. Zuko was trying not to smile. Ru had slapped his forehead; oops, she probably should have warned him her idea might be unpopular.
"This is a joke-" one of the dignitaries hissed, but was shushed by Zuko.
"She still has a few more minutes," he said firmly.
"The Fire Nation has certainly helped with so much good, that is true. The trade borders are open and flowing. People are easily able to cross from one land to another. But your people, the people you promised to protect once you took them under your wing, are in need of your help. Something I can quote from books is that a majority of spending by the upper-class households is used on non-necessities; fancy houses, libraries, interesting pets...I have the records with me," Katara said, trying not to let the furious expressions take her down. "And I also have records showing that nearly all the coin of those that would be considered lower-class is spent only on necessities. It would create a better-unified nation for everyone to close that gap the best we can."
Katara went through her spending and accounting reports carefully, outlining how she would best divide up the money between healing costs, food, education, and other needs. She talked about how if there were volunteers, it would deter those that would try to be placed there out of greed or manipulate the situation. She discussed how there needed to be checks and balances to always assure it was in the best interest of the people.
When she finished, she felt good about her presentation, though she knew that didn't mean it was well-received.
"That is my proposal, so, er...questions?"
That sent the group into a tizzy. The guards had to come to calm people down as it seemed everyone was shouting over each other. It was a lot of 'my money? Is she crazy?' Zuko was trying to put out fires, but as soon as he'd soothed one, another person came up to him yelling. When Katara looked back, it seemed everyone was staring at her like she was insane, even Suki was shaking her head, as though to say Katara should have known better.
All of Katara's answers to very angry questions seemed to fall on weak ears. These were the people she aimed to take money away from...why would they want to reason with her? Even with the best of answers, she received scoffs and dirty looks from the crowd, until Zuko weakly directed her to sit back down.
Afterward, the journalists were allowed to interview the candidates and ask more direct questions for their articles. Only Ru came and talked to Katara, and told her he'd focus on the cold hard facts she'd presented as those couldn't be argued, but other than him...everyone kept a wide berth.
Katara was fine with that. Ozai came gliding over, cold fury on his face.
"Did you enjoy that? Do you mean to alienate everyone, Princess?" he asked.
"Did I enjoy proposing an idea that could actually help people? Of course," Katara said back to him in a clipped tone. "These people are too tied to their emotions." Or, she thought, their money.
"These people could have your head if they so wanted. Bankrupting the rich is hardly a solution," Ozai scoffed.
"Not bankrupt," Katara replied, "A small tax in comparison to what they frivolously spend."
"Few, if any, will ever see it that way, so perhaps it is fortunate this will never come to pass," he said with a twisted smile. "I would consider packing your things, Princess. I cannot imagine you staying long after this."
"Is that a direct order, sir?" Katara asked, folding her hands.
"An observation," Ozai said without missing a beat, "That perhaps even my son could not save your spot once everyone hears how you plan to mangle our nation."
Katara tried not to let Ozai's words, his threat, bother her. Zuko only had a chance to briefly congratulate her, but she couldn't tell how he was responding to it, other than they didn't hate her idea.
She was sitting, enjoying the finger cakes and none too upset that she wasn't swarmed by journalists when a shadow passed over her face. She looked up to see Mai.
"Hi?" she asked uncertainly.
"It's a good plan," Mai said simply. Katara blinked, very confused. Mai sat next to her for a moment, nodding. "It's a good, honorable plan, Princess."
"But you think I should have held my tongue," Katara guessed.
"No, not at all," Mai said, shocking her. "We colonized and ravaged and destroyed to gain the Earth Kingdom and the Northern Water Tribe. It's arrogant and immature of us to leave them to rot after we've used what we wish of their resources. I wish I had the courage to say something so bold too."
"Courage? Mai you're terrifying," Katara choked out a laugh, "I don't think anyone would be upset with you if you said it."
"Perhaps, but I wasn't the one who did. You said it. You do truly have ideas to make life better for everyone, not merely a select few," Mai praised. "Don't let Fire Lord Ozai sway you differently. And...if Zuko does choose you…" She paused for a few seconds. "Fight to get this one through. And come to me. I will help you to change the minds of a few key politicians. I know how to speak their language, get them to agree."
"Oh, yeah, thanks," Katara said, a bit taken aback.
"I think we could be great allies for the future of the Fire Nation," Mai said, brushing her robes and standing, "However this plays out."
Katara was about to add something else, but a guard broke into the room, waving Ozai over frantically. Everyone realized that this was big news and tried to swarm to press their ears to the doors to hear what was being said. The guards pushed swaths of people back, but Katara saw Besu, like the little bandit she was, slip the notice of everyone and slide past the door that Ozai closed.
Zhi gathered the girls, announcing that the interviews were over, and pulling them into the next room. Katara grabbed Zuko's arm in the fray, pulling him too, knowing he would have a chance to hear it from Besu faster than his father, who would no doubt twist whatever this news was the way he wanted it to be seen.
Besu returned not long later. She was white as a sheet and shaking.
"What is it?" Nadhari asked, "What's going on?"
Besu sniffled, trying not to cry, but her lip shook with sorrow, with a sense of resignation to a situation. "Zhao has found where the Avatar is hiding. He's attacked!"
Notes:
If you like the romantic and steamy scene in this chapter, thank my beta for encouraging me to put something like that in!
Chapter 42
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
They came from the sky.
Aang awoke to ash falling like snow, coating the ground in a cloying, musty topcoat and poisoning the air with an acrid tange that made you cough in the back of your throat.
They came from the sky like blades in the rain, sharply spinning down to strike.
They came from the sky like a thunderstorm blistering in suddenly, thrashing trees and wind whipping everywhere.
They came from the sky and from the very beginning, there was no mercy.
Aang stumbled out onto the main deck of his house, fingers clenched at the railing, watching people scream as the fire of Zhao's fury rained down upon all that took shelter, creating craters in the earth and killing anything within a five-foot radius.
"How did they find us?" Ty Lee said, blasting a powerful airstream at a few rocks that rained against the roof, shoving them into the streams instead.
"It must have been my fault," Aang said, "After Shoji, I was so depressed...they must have followed us back!"
"Not a chance, it's been days, Aang," Toph said, joining him on the porch. "I kept track of your back; no trails. Nothing, not a single baddie following us. I didn't fuck that up, I couldn't have," she said firmly, "It could have been a traitor...or a slip-up...or hell, I don't know." Toph began running off the porch. Ty Lee pulled her back.
"What are you doing?" she asked frantically.
"Fighting, Ty! What does it look like!" Toph snarled, "I'm not gonna sit around!"
"You're blind!"
"I've always been blind!" Toph thundered, eyes alight with fire, "That's not a big surprise! I gotta help, I gotta!"
"She means you can't see anything in the Swamp, Toph. You're as good as literally, truly, blind," Aang agreed. "I just saved you from the Spirit World, so no, I'm not going to watch you die again."
"I'll go to High Hill. I'll...I need to help!"
Aang and Ty Lee exchanged looks. "Take some children there. Protect them on the hill," Aang instructed. "And don't try to be the hero."
Toph saluted. "I'll leave all that to you, Twinkletoes."
They watched Toph run off into the fight and Aang looked at Ty Lee. He kissed her, just once, because he didn't know if he could let her go if he gave her another. Ty Lee pressed her forehead to his. "Aang, let's go."
Those that could fight were already knee-deep into trying to fend off everyone. Iroh was casting fire back at the blimps, and already he'd felled one, which was falling swiftly towards the trees. Shen and Dhakiya fought side-by-side, forming a protective barrier for those that couldn't fight to flee. Aiga was helping guide everyone away. The swampbenders were creating huge monsters from the vines and leaves as they tried to bat or grab fighters from the sky.
A few men shimmied down on ropes and Ty Lee quickly jumped and rolled over to incapacitate them as they hit the ground, making their bodies jelly as they flopped helplessly on the wet soil. Had it been a humorous moment, Aang might have compared them to dogfish freshly caught from the ocean.
Aang jumped into the line with the swampbenders, helping them create giant arms and monsters from the earth. The entire forest seemed ready to help them; sending large animals to attack the men, having vines and foliage swallow those that stepped in the wrong places, and sending alligator cats with their huge jaws to snap and bite off limbs or a sabermoose using his gargantuan horns to send men in packs flying through the hair.
But even that was not enough.
"We're losing," Aang yelled to Iroh, watching as the people that he felt a need to protect screamed and yelled as they bled out, or as they sobbed over unmoving bodies, or as they cowered. These were refugees...they were not fighters, not most of them, and they were kind. They were against a team that was ruthless and seemingly endless. "Where is Zhao?" Aang asked, spinning around.
"Doubtful he'd come down here right now, he'd wait until the grounds are all but won," Shen sneered. Aang shielded his eyes, staring up. There were two blimps still in the air; the third had already been taken down by Iroh, but he hadn't been able to get the other two. Zhao would be in the biggest one, Aang was sure.
Aang ran and grabbed his glider.
"Aang, what are you doing?" Ty Lee asked.
"I'm going to give myself up. He wants me, Ty! It's me he wants!" Aang yelled back over the bedlam.
"No, you can't," Ty Lee cried, furious, "You can't do that, Aang."
"They're going to kill all of us if we don't! I can't unlock my spiritual side here, I hardly know how to do it without interference! The only way to stop this is to give Zhao what he wants."
"He'll kill you," Ty Lee said, grabbing his hand, stopping him from taking off.
"He might," Aang agreed with a grave nod.
"Who is to say he won't kill us all anyway?" Shen questioned. "Aang, don't be foolish."
"I have to believe I can make a deal with him. We're out of options, sir," Aang said, feeling as hopeless as he had that moment when he'd had to kill Roddon, the Airbender who was found in the Earth Kingdom, to keep everyone else safe. He'd started to feel like he could regrow his nation here, but if there were no one left…
"There is always another option. We just need to keep fighting," Dhakiya said, "Let's go and meet them! We've been on the defensive for far too long, Aang," she said, grabbing her glider fashioned from the dark wood of the Swamp.
"I'm with you, Avatar!" One of the older Airbenders named Diki agreed. She had lost both her children in a city raid to find airbenders, and held the truth- that it was she and her husband who were true Airbenders- in her heart. Though she was as old as Iroh, her loyalty and might were strong. Her husband Dechen gave a 'hear-hear'. Ty Lee nodded warmly.
There were only five, but it had to be enough.
"Okay," Aang relented, "Let's go. Quickly now- before they realize what's happening. We take out the blimp, alright? And we will try to capture Zhao."
"We will get him," Dhakiya said with fury. "I won't let us not."
"Bargaining chip," Iroh said with an agreement. "We'll continue to fight down here, Aang. Go, now!"
Aang jumped and ran off the porch, his acolytes taking to the air behind him. He rose higher and higher, showing them how to grab an airstream to bolster under their fabric wings. He headed for the smaller blimp first; as they approached, they ducked and danced in the air to avoid arrows, canons, and firebombs sent hurtling their way. As they landed on the top of the blimp, Ty Lee quickly incapacitated the guard and he bounced onto the cover...and then right off the side. Only Aang leaped to try to save him, but he slipped through his fingers.
"Guys!" Aang said, eyes wide with a sense of horror.
"He was going to be dead in a few moments anyway," Dechen said uneasily, wincing. As he stood to rip a hole in the fabric, an arrow caught him right between the bones, straight into his heart. He gasped, falling back off the blimp and into the endless sky.
Everyone stood in shell-shock horror. Diki only gave a whimper to watch the remainder of her family pass on, but Aang could see her rearranging her heart entirely to their goal. She would not back down now.
"C'mon!" Ty Lee was the first to speak, her whole body shaking hard. "We gotta rip this!" she said, sending little blasts of air at the fabric. It was heavy-duty fabric and this was not an easy task. They were sitting turtle-ducks up here, however, and they had to work fast. With little air darts, they poked hundreds of little holes into the gigantic balloon. As soon as Aang began to feel it deflate beneath his feet, he waved them off.
"Gotta go!" he said, and just to be safe, he used his firebending to create a huge fire on the basket, engulfing the bottom of the balloon in flames.
"They're fleeing over to Zhao's," Dhakiya said, pointing at the people who were scurrying over a line to the biggest blimp. Diki pushed her to the side, shooting a tiny art dart to break the line, no mercy on her face.
"We're going to have to blow it up from the inside," Diki spoke in a waving voice, her first words since watching her husband die.
"Then we will," Ty Lee said brightly, "Of course we will."
They jumped off and flew over to the second blimp. Immediately, Fire Nation soldiers were upon them as they landed on the walking deck. They struggled and fought and Diki managed to break free.
"Destroy it!" Dhakiya managed to yell as the tiny, mousy woman managed to wriggle away, taking off down a hallway and shooting two guards off the side of the blimp.
Aang was trying not to outright kill anyone, but they were certainly not giving him the same respect.
Dhakiya, Ty Lee, and Aang all fought their way into the main brig, falling into the glass-covered room where the pilot was.
"Ah, Avatar Aang, how kind of you to finally make an appearance," Zhao said in his icy voice, the tone chilling even the warmth from the fires in this room.
"So what? All this was some bait to get me out?" Aang snarled, throwing a hand down to the swamps on fire below him.
"Hardly. We do mean to eradicate all of you, but you took much longer to face me than I thought you would. I'm disappointed."
As Aang stared into his eyes, he knew at that moment, that even if he gave himself up, Zhao would not stop. Aang had made a fool of this man, and not only that Zhao believed more than anyone that airbenders were a vermin. If Aang gave himself up...he'd be handing Zhao the fight.
Well, Aang was here, and so there was only one option left.
To the death.
"You won't win," Ty Lee hissed, blood on her cheeks and arms, but her eyes still bright. "Good wins. Always."
"How naive, but then again...you always were a bit too optimistic," Zhao sneered at her.
"No more talking!" Dhakiya said, sending a swinging disc of air at one of the fire benders. It sliced his hand clean off and he stared at his bleeding stump for a silent moment of shock before he started screaming.
That's what it took for this leg of the fight to commence.
And boy, were they outnumbered. But if Aang was going to die anyway, he'd die fighting. He wasn't going to so easily. He knew being the Avatar gave him an advantage, but they were also fighting Zhao, who was nearly matched to Aang. Not only that, but about a hundred Fire Nation soldiers rushed in to help.
Ty Lee took down many, freezing their movements and leaving them dropping to the floor like flies. Dhakiya was neverending in her fury, pushing men with powerful blasts off the side of the blimp or severing hands. Aang was just trying to keep everyone alive; always watching his own back as well as the two girls that fought beside him. The Avatars in his head were helping him move like a well-oiled machine, and he fought the best he had since he could recall, but his attention was always split between three.
He should have known that this was not sustainable.
Someone barreled into him. Aang hit the ground hard, his head knocking against the wooden floors.
As he was scrambling up, he felt the Avatars shake in his head like they were marbles in a jar. As he pushed himself up and watched blood dribble from his lips, splattering on the floor of the dirigible next to his tensed palm, someone sent a dagger through his hand.
Aang cried out, grabbing the dagger and throwing it across the room. He turned to see Zhao above him, one of his soldiers getting up and brushing off his robes.
"Kuzon." Zhao looked deranged as he stared down, grabbing Aang's tunic and hauling him to his feet, shoving him against a wall. "How long? How long did you sit there and undermine me and everything we were working towards?" he demanded, spit flying from his lips.
"I-"
"You could have been great! You could have succeeded me as the most fearsome military captain ever. You could have been an Avatar that had everyone cower before you if you had just stayed with me!"
"I save people, not destroy them," Aang said, horrified at Zhao's fantasy. Zhao gave a cruel smile, leaning in close, chuckling.
"I know you killed Rodden," he said, making the hair on Aang's skin rise and he felt sick. "You kill your own kind and you have the audacity to think we're any different? You have spent far too long masquerading as a Fire Nation Royal, Aang. You are tainted...rotten...and we both know it," Zhao laughed. Aang swallowed, but his lips were tied up, unable to speak.
There was a long pause, then, Zhao smiled. And this unsettled Aang beyond anything else.
"No, we're not so different," Zhao said with a quiet laugh, "And you may not believe me, but perhaps you will. You were, after all, my most trusted right hand. We've saved people, and you know that. And I am just doing what I believe to be right to save my people. How are you any better than me, when your Airbender fighters are killing my people too?"
Aang stared at him, and felt bile rise in his throat.
"No-," Aang whispered, horrified at Zhao's thought, but hell...could he be...right? Zhao wholeheartedly believed that Airbenders were bad people. That was Ozai's puppetry, casting them as scary shadows in the night. Zhao did belive they would ruin his Nation, kill those that lived under his protection. So in a twisted way, Zhao did believe he was saving his friends and family by killing Aang and the likes of him.
And Aang had always wholeheartedly believed there was that fine line between good and evil, and even more so, he'd believed he was on one side of it, firmly.
And not that he was wrong about this, no, Zhao was a murderer and sadist. But could it be true there were other things he was on the wrong side of?
Zhao leaned in, interrupting his personal questioning, as though he was about to tell Aang a secret, "I am going to kill you. I'm going to kill you with my bare hands, squeeze your heart in my fingers, and be lauded as the God Killer by everyone back home. And I'll smile thinking of it."
Is this how the full weight of death feels? Aang asked, seeking solace from all the lives before him, to ask if this was the moment of his demise.
He had seen a thousand deaths; from Roku on that volcanic ledge, to Kyoshi feeling her life slip away after hundreds of years, to Yangchen with a dagger to her heart, Kuruk drained of lifeforce, all the way to Wan, killed in battle.
And it all echoed and warbled that yes, perhaps, this was his time.
Aang, look!
Gopan was not pointing to something in reality. He was pointing to something churning on the edge of Aang's mental field, something in a wrath, struggling and strangling and ebbing a rhythmic ghostly blue. Aang reached out for it and was pulled through.
Something clicked in Aang's mind. Something like a floodgate opened and with a sense of startling clarity, he understood how to be the bridge between worlds. He felt like his bones were made of thin air and his entire world opened, drawing in the spiritual residue that lingered between moments. Just as his entire mental state shifted, he saw the glow on his arrows and saw the flash of fear on Zhao's face.
In the Avatar State, Aang was invincible. He was a thousand feet tall, and he felt like he could pinch this world in his hands and roll it around, doing what he wanted. He felt the strength of all the Avatars in his fingers as he reached out to Zhao, inches away from ending it all right here and right now.
By then Ty Lee screamed.
Aang snapped away, looking to see one of the soldiers break one of her arms like a twig. Even though Ty Lee managed to kick the soldier off the blimp, she was crying hard, cradling her arm.
It was enough to rattle Aang away from his focus. The Avatar State was gone, and he desperately tried to gain it back, reaching frantically at the wisps that were vanishing, the knowledge of how to go back to it disappearing like water on a hot summer day.
"Experiencing difficulties? How sad...how underwhelming," Zhao said with a disgusted tone, grabbing Aang's head and throwing it against a wall. The second hit pretty much knocked him silly, and he was still trying to figure out what happened when Zhao flipped him on his stomach, planting a hard, heeled boot over his hands and ripping the back of his tunic open.
"I'm going to cut out your organs from the back now, mangle you up inside and fly you like a flag on my ship as we come home," Zhao said, pressing the knife to his spine as he started to drag it down.
The ship jolted. A few men slid across the floor and Zhao stumbled away for just a second.
Aang was woozy, the Avatars in his mind screaming for him to get up.
It's Diki! She must have managed to destroy the engine room! Aang, get up, get up! Roku yelled, and though Aang recognized the words, he only managed to weakly raise his head. From the windows, he watched Diki swooped away on her air glider as the whole blimp shuddered and rocked as it began losing altitude. A sort of fail-safe kicked in, heavy metal doors starting to slam and close the exits off.
"Ty Lee! The Avatar has to survive!" Dhakiya yelled to Ty, and if Aang had been more cognizant, his brain less scrambled, he would have seen something like an understanding pass between them. Ty Lee got up and scrambled to Aang, grabbing his arm. Dhakiya helped flip Aang over, pressing her hands to his cheeks. She was crying.
"Avatar Aang, thank you for all you've taught me. You've given me a place of belonging in this world I thought I didn't have, and I'll never be able to repay you for this, but consider this a token of my gratitude."
"What…?" Aang asked, lights dancing on his fluttering eyelids. Ty Lee grabbed under his arms, pulling him across the floor as everyone tried to regain their stance. She lugged him to the porch, gave a silent whistle, and before Aang could process, she jumped off the side of the blimp with him, the metal door tearing off a piece of her skirt as she scarcely escaped.
Anag was free-falling. He felt the air rush around them, and wondered if he was dreaming. He watched as Zhao tried to grab him as they fell, but caught himself before he fell at the last moment too.
Then, something happened. Aang watched as the entire blimp seemed to...collapse in on itself. The blimp's balloon pulled in and shriveled like a raisin, becoming a wrinkled ball of nothing. From the windows, Aang saw men drop all at once like someone had commanded them to sleep at the same time. The air gone from the vessel, as though it was easy as flicking on a candle's light.
And there was no movement, until, like a star exploding in front of his eyes, the blimp burst into color, fire, and black clouds of rolling smoke.
Aang hit something hard and sturdy. His bones felt like just a collection of rattling toys, nothing connected to each other, given a hard shake by a curious child.
"Good Appa, good boy!" Ty Lee said, but her voice was very far away, flickering in and out of reality. He felt himself being pushed over and her horrified gasp, but Aang had already slipped into a cold, soundless expanse of black.
XXX
Amongst the yelling and questions, Zuko abruptly turned. "I have to go and speak to my father."
"Zuko," Katara pushed forward, grasping for him, but he was gone before she got the chance.
"Oh my Agni," On Ji warbled, "They're all gonna die, aren't they?" She slid down against the wall, shaking her head.
The door slammed and Zhi entered.
"Ladies, you all did wonderfully," she said, a rehearsed bit. However, with everything happening, no one cared about how their presentations had been anymore.
"What's going on? What do you know?" Mai demanded.
"I just know that there is some military news. Nothing to concern ourselves with, ladies, though Prince Zuko does ask that you remain in the Ladies' Room. I'll guide you there. Chop, chop!" Katara and Suki exchanged looks. It was obvious that Zhi didn't even know what was happening and knew less than them.
As soon as Zhi deposited them in the Ladies' Room, the doors were shut behind them.
"I don't get it. Why would they want to kill the Avatar?" Nadhari paced. "If they capture him alive, they know where he is. If they kill him, he's just re-born again," she argued.
"Maybe they aren't worried. Maybe they think this Avatar is too much trouble and it would be easier to subdue and watch a baby," Suki said, scowling.
"What's the next in the line?" Ratana asked. "How does the cycle go?"
"Water." Yue found her voice, trying not to cry, as she threw a frantic look to Katara across the way. "Next is the Water Tribe."
At first, Katara was about to brush it off, pointing out to herself that no one in her tribe had given birth in years due to the lack of sustenance, but that wasn't true anymore, was it? They had been getting more food ever since she joined the Choice, and she'd been gone a year so yes, there could be new Water Tribe members coming into the world right now.
Yue frantically tried the door. She pounded on it. "They'll raze my home looking for whoever it is! My father would never just hand the next Avatar over."
"He would if Ozai told him too," Alcina said to Yue before she turned, looking at Katara in a sorrowful way. "But your tribe...that's the one he never got."
"They'll attack us-" Katara's throat went dry. "He's going to attack the South, isn't he?" She began pounding too. She needed to warn her father! She needed to go home!
"If Kuzon is dead, the new Avatar has already been born, right?" Besu looked around, no one sure how to help or what to do.
Katara had just frozen over the lock and heard it shatter when the door pushed open. Katara took a few stumbling steps back to see Zuko walk in, his steps confident.
"My tribe! They're going after my home next because they need the Avatar and-"
"They aren't," Zuko said, his face pulled, but still unreadable. "Katara, take a breath. You too, Yue."
"But if they're killing Kuzon-" Yue said, the closest she'd ever gotten to really arguing with someone.
"They won't be attacking anywhere," Zuko yelled above the pair of girls. "Zhao and his men are dead."
"Kuzon...won?" Mai breathed a sigh of relief. "How? Zhao had half the Fire Nation army with him."
"No one knows. None of Zhao's men lived to tell the tale. Not a single one," Zuko said darkly.
"Great Spirits." Ratana made a sign of the spirits on her forehead and arms. "I guess Airbenders really aren't pacifists."
"What were they supposed to do?" Mai spun, her voice rising slightly, "Invite them in for tea and lay their necks down to be chopped off?"
"And the Avatar?" Suki said, reigning the conversation back.
"Gone. Not dead - at least we think - but gone. Along with any other Airbenders. Hiding, I suppose. The reports from the battle scene are...not for the faint of heart." Zuko winced. "So no, my father isn't going after the Water Tribes, as the Avatar is still alive. The Sages confirmed it."
Katara slumped, though her heart still raced.
"For your safety, though...you should all go to your rooms and remain there," Zuko finished.
"Our...safety?" On Ji echoed, looking like she was seconds away from a break-down.
"Fire Lord Ozai must be furious. Zhao was very close with him, and that's a large part of the military just...defeated," Cillia reasoned, and from Zuko's frown, she had guessed right.
"Oh, Alcina, please...stay," Zuko said as the girls started back toward their rooms, "I have some news."
This stopped everyone. Zuko turned, annoyed. "Private news."
"Chances are they'll know soon anyway," Alcina said, looking at Besu with a half-grin. "Just tell us."
Zuko seemed to internally argue with himself for a few moments before giving a grim nod. "It's bad news."
Alcina gulped, playing with the hem on the sleeves of her dress. "I figured."
"I'm very sorry for your loss, but one of the confirmed casualties was your sister," Zuko said in one breath, and Katara could tell how awkward and uneasy he felt to be giving such news.
"What?" Alcina said, as though she didn't hear him.
"What was Dhakiya doing anywhere near there?" Ratana whispered, confused. Katara recalled that as far as they knew, Dhakiya had gone home for a personal reason.
"There were some civilian casualties," Zuko lied, "and Dhakiya was one."
Alcina fell, and everyone jumped to keep her from hitting her head, as it seemed all limb control had been lost. She let out an ear-shattering scream, and Cillia began to rub her head, hushing her.
"Let's bring her into her room," Zuko said, and with the help of Cillia and Suki, placed Alcina on her bed. "Cee, I'm so sorry," Katara heard him say as he closed the door quietly. Katara stood to talk with him, but Zuko shook his head.
"Everyone to their rooms," he commanded, but On Ji raised a hand.
"Prince Zuko, I'd...I'd like to leave the competition," she blubbered. Zuko, knowing he was going to send her home soon anyway, just gave a tired nod.
"Pack your things. We'll find an escort for you tomorrow."
All the girls went into their rooms, but almost no one closed their doors. Not daring to defy Zuko, they all sat in their thresholds, speaking in quiet whispers across the halls.
When Alcina staggered out of her room, the whispers hushed.
"I can call for someone if you want," Yue offered.
"My sister was an Airbender," Alcina announced, chin raised and ignoring Yue's words. "Yes, she was an Airbender, and she was not safe here, and that's why she left."
Everyone, sans Katara, greeted Alcina's announcement with a mixture of shock, horror, and sorrow.
"And I know in my heart she was not just a civilian tragedy. Dhak, she is - no, she was - such a caring person. But she was determined; once she set her mind to something, she worked harder than anyone. And she never felt like she fit as a Fire Nationer...I have no doubt she took on this identity and did everything she could to become a true Airbender. And if they were attacking innocents...my sister would have fought. I know it in my heart," Alcina insisted, clutching her chest. "I'm leaving the competition."
"Alcina, no-" Ratana said, "Hey, think this through-"
"I have!" Alcina snapped, then quieted. "Oh, I have."
"She should go home and mourn," Nadhari agreed. "They must prepare her sister's funeral."
"I am in mourning, but I will not go home," Alcina said with a sense of passion and a direction she hadn't before. "I must continue whatever my sister began."
"You mean...aid the Airbenders?" Yue asked, her eyes wide with panic. "They'll kill you if you're a sympathizer."
"I won't sit in the palace doing nothing while my sister gave her life for this cause," Alcina said firmly. "You can't talk me out of this. It's been decided."
No one spoke, but no one tried to stop her. This surprised Katara...surely, she imagined that maybe Mai, who clung to her beliefs of Fire Nation words as gospel, would have called her a traitor for announcing something that was so decidedly unpopular and possibly suicidal. But none of the girls did. Everyone was looking at her, as though contemplating perhaps the fragility of everything, the weight that was pressing down now, and the realization that this had grown them all closer together than they'd thought.
"How will you find them?" Katara asked, "If they're all gone."
Alcina turned, smiling. "I've always been good at following clues. I'll start at the site of the battle, wherever it was. Write to my father." She paused, shaking her head. "And Katara, I'm really sorry. I've been a bit of a jerk. I would hate to leave on bad terms, because well, you've been a good friend," she apologized, hiccuping with tears. "Will you forgive me?"
Katara's heart ached; one friend regained only to see them leave. "Of course I will."
"What can we do, Alcina?" Suki stood. "I doubt any of us really believe what Fire Lord Ozai claims about the Avatar or airbenders." It seemed everyone was in agreement, or at least ready to see the other side.
"I don't know," Alcina admitted, "But maybe I'll write to you all once I do figure it out. The airbenders that survived need allies more than ever now."
"If any did survive…" Cillia whispered, and no one moved to disagree.
XXX
Katara woke up to a clamber. Mai's handmaid threw open her door and set a khaki canvas bag on her bed.
"Get dressed, Princess. The Fire Lord requires your attendance."
"What?" Katara asked, rubbing her eyes, but the handmaid was already gone.
Katara grasped the bag and watched the girls in the hall asking questions no one could answer. Handmaids tried to placate, but also get everyone dressed in a quick fashion. Only Alcina and On Ji were not being shoved into the garb, as they stood with their things packed, ready for the carriages to take them home.
Katara opened the bag to find a pair of pants, a shirt, a jacket, and armor. As she stared at the olive green and black contents, she heard Cillia gasp.
"This is military gear," she said, holding the shirt out in front of her, "Why are we being given this?"
"Ladies, now!" Ratana's handmaid commanded, "We are to have you in front of the Fire Lord in five minutes, do not make us late!"
If Aiga were here, Katara huffed, she'd let them know what was going on.
"Hair pulled back," Nadhari's handmaid said as she began braiding Nadhari's hair, which was often worn loose and free, "Tightly."
"What in the name of the Great Spirits…" Yue muttered, shakily zippering her garb. She looked extremely out of place without her usual finery of soft colors. No one had time to even put makeup on, and they all stared with tired, blotchy faces at the bags they'd been handed. They didn't look like Princesses or noblewomen now, just nameless fighters.
The handmaids let nothing slip as they pulled them into the Throne Room.
"Ladies, don't you all look lovely. It is time to make good on your wins in the tournament," Ozai announced.
It took a second, but Katara recalled...they had been weeding out those who could not fight in the hope that if war came to the steps, those who remained could.
"You're sending us to war?" Cillia choked, "Against the Equalists?"
"We must attack them now, instead of waiting for them to murder us," Ozai snarled. "And we know they are in a pass-through plain town in the Earth Kingdom. With Zhao and most of my army slain in their attempt to exterminate those terrible airbenders, the job falls to you. This is your sworn duty; you must protect your Nation."
"I...what?" Ratana dropped her helmet.
"Or, you may choose to leave like these spineless cowards. And forfeit your place in the competition." He stared Ratana right down. "Pick up your helmet, soldier, and choose your fate."
"I'm staying," Ratana said in a mousy voice.
"Where is Prince Zuko?" Suki demanded, "Surely, he wouldn't-"
"Zuko has already been sent there ahead of you with Azula. He will understand our need for fighters, and as it turns out, you are the best of the best," Ozai said mockingly. "The military caravan is waiting. Do not disappoint me, girls."
The cart to take them was slapped with the Fire Nation Military insignia and was dingy and dusty inside. Lu Ten stood in his military garb too, his expression was furious. Not at them, of course, but at Ozai.
"I will be traveling with you to the front. I will keep you safe, I promise," he said, though it seemed he was having trouble forcing the words out. "You won't die, and Zuko and Azula will be watching you too."
With a sense of dread, Katara sat in the transport cart as she calculated exactly what was happening. Ozai had commanded the Equalists to gather here. He was taking this competition into his own hands; whoever he wanted to get rid of would be killed, and heck, they died in battle, what could he do? It was like the tournament but with less accountability. If someone was too scared and dropped out, that was exactly what he wished. If he wanted to take Katara out, along with anyone else he did not want as the Fire Lady, this was the opportunity.
The transport van brought them to a blimp, which would cut their travel time in half. A three-day journey was now a day and a half. As they were given bunks and rations, Nadhari stifled a barfing sound.
"This is how the soldiers live? Barbaric! We should be reforming the military," she said, wiping her finger across the dust on her seat.
"Most soldiers are under the age of twenty-one in the Fire Nation Military. The average age is nineteen," Cillia said with a cold tone. "I'm sure most of those that died in the Airbender skirmish was nothing more than children."
Lu Ten said nothing at the front, his face drawn into a deep, troubled frown.
"Prince Lu Ten, sir." Mai rose. "What are we to expect out there?" Katara was sure Mai had been in fights before, but it was unlikely she'd ever been conscripted as a soldier. Of the remaining contestants, the only one that had a guess of what to expect was Cilla, who had curled onto her bunk and turned away.
"Imagine hell," Lu Ten's voice was tight, as thin as a razor, "and you'll have only the faintest idea of what we're walking into. And for that, I am truly sorry," he said, shaking his head.
"Why though?" Suki demanded. "I know why we're going, but why are the Equalists attacking this town? What possibly could they want?"
To this, no one had an answer.
The trip was spent in a heavy, fog-like silence. Katara found an old deck of Pai Sho, with half the tiles missing, but spent her time playing this. Even though her heart was racing and her teeth couldn't stop chattering, they were nearly there. Her options were to fight or desert and Katara was a fighter. Katara was also terrified of Zuko's safety. The closer they got, the more likely he was already there, fighting for his palace and his life.
The blimp hit turbulence early in the morning, or so Katara assumed. The way it moved was so violent she was thrown from her bunk. As she and everyone else staggered awake, the captain came rushing in.
"We're taking fire! It's the Equalists! You have to jump!"
Notes:
I’m trying to be on a two week schedule, as is my beta, until the end of the book, so tentative next update is the 23rd of July! If not then, look for it on the 30th :)
We’re also getting into some deep shit. Plot wise and emotional wise. This next chapter is going to reveal two secrets/truths that, well, I think people have been waiting for since Book One. Any guesses what it is?
Also, on a funny note…sometimes you write a book so long that canon overtakes things XD It’s happened to me with Harry Potter and now it’s happened with Atla lol. The Avatar in Aang’s head that WE call Kasata has actually been given a name… Szeto! I’ll keep calling him Kasata here, but I do always think it’s funny when things like that happen! I’m sure that much of my own world-building of the Avatar universe will probably we ‘unwritten’ by the Netflix and new Nick shows, but alas, that’s how the cookie crumbles, so enjoy it now!
And finally, as we’re nearing the end and keep ramping up to bigger and bigger things (jeez, I just had the thought that I have no idea how I’m gunna one-up the end of this book for the finale of the trilogy…ahh that’s another bridge to cross later!) any predictions to how you think the story will end? I’ve only seen three people across ALL the places I post this start to guess a BIG part of the ending!
Chapter 43
Notes:
Heavey TW for this chapter, for abuse. Specifically, parental abuse. If this is something you can't read, skip the second part of the flashback.
Chapter Text
"Jump?" Besu demanded, "Are? You? Insane?"
"You'll die otherwise!" the ship captain said, looking at Lu Ten. "Go, now!"
"Grab those packs," Lu Ten said, slipping seamlessly into the role of a leader, "And release the parachutes. As soon as you hit the ground...run."
"To the fight, right?" Cillia asked, buckling her parachute pack to her chest, already helping others.
"Do you wish to die?" Lu Ten asked in a strangled voice. "We should not be here. Don't worry about anything; I'll take the blame for telling you to hide. Just...run," he said, "And find the blimp when it goes down and wait there." He grabbed the closest girl to him - Suki - and pulled her to the exit door of the blimp. "Now!"
Suki halfway jumped and halfway allowed herself to be pushed by Lu Ten, and like a flower petal catching the wind, she was gone.
"Oh, spirits…" Ratana held her mouth to keep from barfing.
Lu Ten shoved everyone out in quick succession, yelling instructions to deploy the parachutes as they went. Katara did not let him shove her, but held up a hand and jumped.
The air whooshed around her and she tugged her parachute, her fingers clammy and shaking. She managed to grasp the handle and pulled hard, a popping sound echoing in her ears as the large canvas ballooned over her, jolting her quick decline into an uneven and teeter-tottering float to the ground.
As she looked up, she saw Lu Ten jump along with the rest of the crew. The blimp was losing air fast and it creaked and groaned in the sky, falling to the south. As Katara looked down, she saw the tiny town ablaze in flames that licked the darkness of the sky.
She heard arrows. She panicked, knowing there was little she could do, but her parachute was not the target. Above her, she heard Lu Ten yelp as an arrow ripped a large hole through his safety landing gear. He began to fall, hard, and Katara knew he would die if he hit the ground at that speed. As he came past, Katara reached her arms out and caught Lu Ten by his leg. The sudden weight of a whole human nearly ripped her arms from the sockets and it wasn't easy to find purchase, but she dug her fingers into his pants and let him pull her down from the sky.
They both hit the ground with a hard 'thump', faster than they probably would have liked, but it saved Lu Ten's life.
Katara's arms screamed as she let go of his leg, her limbs slumping by her side as they whimpered in agony, a white-hot fire burning up her veins.
"Katara, we have to hide," Lu Ten grabbed a knife from his vest and began cutting his parachute and Katara's away. "We need to take cover. Can you walk?"
"It's not my legs that really hurt," Katara agreed. "Aren't we going to fight? Aren't you?"
Above her, a cannon sounded that rang in her ears. She heard screaming and crying and dirt flew into her mouth.
"There's too many. Hide!" Lu Ten commanded, blasting an Equalist away that approached. "There!" He pointed to a half-sunken and nearly hidden basement door covered in rubble and debris. "Help me clear this off, quickly, before they find us," he said.
Two Equalists approached. Lu Ten grabbed the back of Katara's shirt, dragging her down into the mud. She pressed her face into the dirt, so she didn't make noise.
"This loot is killer!" one of the men said, arms full, "I think I'll be able to pay off what I owe once I pawn this."
"No shit, dude! Jackpot!" the other one said, high-fiving his friend.
Katara didn't have the time to realize that she hadn't seen any weapons on them, nor that they really seemed like they were fighting a war. It seemed like they were just causing chaos, but heck, she wasn't going to tempt those odds, because the world was still a caterwaul of other people's misery.
"Katara!" Lu Ten hissed, eyes fearful, "Kat!" He was motioning to the rubble, asking for her help to clear it. Katara bit her lip to keep from crying as she picked up rocks, her arms nearly refusing to work, until they could wriggle inside. Lu Ten pulled a piece of a door over their hiding place, masking their location unless someone really looked and saw a few footprints in the sand.
"Farther back, go," Lu Ten commanded, and Katara crawled in the dirt until she hit the back of the shelter. It was absolutely pitch black. Lu Ten made a small fire on a tiny torch and sank it into the dirt between them, the flicker of the light dancing on their faces. And as she stared at Lu Ten, a feeling she'd never experienced during a battle rose up inside of her. It was not that he was showing emotion, it was that he was showing none.
And Katara knew what this meant.
Fear. Katara felt fear. She felt the feeling of death looming like never before, just outside their hiding spot. She usually ran into fights, in a blaze of foolheartedly foolishness, but sitting here made an emotion creep upon her, cold as the colorless faces of the dead.
"We're all going to die, just like that," Katara whimpered, feeling so small and childish. She curled into a ball the best she could, her arms looped tightly around her legs.
"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry…" Lu Ten murmured, his expression so tightly guarded and never cracking, "Ozai's won." How was Lu Ten being so calm, Katara wondered? How was he not breaking right now? How did you take this fear that she had to be sure he was feeling too and just throw it away, leaving nothing behind?
"So, you think he's the leader of the Equalists too, huh?" Katara said dryly, unsure how to react right now.
"It's obvious, isn't it? He's gloating," Lu Ten spat.
"Why? Why this? Do you think he's going to...kill Zuko?" Katara asked, the fear growing in her mind. She tried to shift and winced hard. Lu Ten looked at her arms, red and raw.
"Can I help?" he offered.
"Are you a waterbender?" Katara asked sarcastically, raising an eyebrow. She wasn't going to be able to lift her arms right now to heal herself.
"No, but I'm medic-trained." He unbuttoned his vest and started tearing strips off his undershirt to set her arms, using some debris as firm sticks to hold her arms straight. "May I?"
Katara nodded numbly, watching him work. He clenched his jaw, methodically wrapping her arms to prevent further damage. There was silence in the hidden basement, juxtaposed with the horrors of screaming just outside. When Lu Ten did speak, it nearly jolted her in terror.
"My uncle will do anything to win," Lu Ten finally said, "To answer your question. If that's what he deems necessary, that's what he'll do."
"Okay, sure, Ozai doesn't like to lose," Katara agreed, unsure how this was new information.
"No, Katara," Lu Ten looked almost half-deranged, cycling between laughs and sobs. "I don't think you get it. He'd do anything, undermine anyone, ruin anyone's life…" He looked her straight in the eye. "How did Zuko get his scar? And do you know why Zuko does not wear his hair long, as is traditional? "
"I...uhm.." Katara blinked at the sudden change of focus. "We were told he won in the match that chose him over you for the heir apparent. It was a sign of his true power." Katara shook her head. "I don't buy it, but I mean, that's what I know. As for his hair, he said he lost it in a spar with Azula, and she burned it away…" From Lu Ten's face, she knew that this had been a lie on Zuko's part, though she could not guess why he'd forgo tradition like this when often, tradition meant so much to him. And, logically, it had been enough time to grow it back, and yet...Zuko kept it just below his ears.
"Then you don't understand," Lu Ten said with almost a pitying smile, "How far Ozai would go, the lengths he'd go…"
"How am I supposed to know if-"
"You don't know," Lu Ten settled back, his voice not unkind but rather apologetic, "Yet. Let me explain."
And, by the light of their tiny fire, Lu Ten opened his mouth to speak.
XXX
Aang awoke to a milky, thin light passing through slates in a carriage. Though somewhere, he had a feeling that 'awoke' was generous. Moreso, his eyes opened as the world above him swam, like he was leagues under the ocean, watching everything play out far, far above him, muffled and distorted. His body was fighting, everything was off, and Aang was exhausted.
The only comfort was Ty Lee, squeezing his hand in relief.
"There you are, son. Welcome back to the land of the living."
Aang squinted. "Iroh? That you?" His voice came out rough, like he'd swallowed a whole bag of rocks and cut his voice all the way down. He was on his stomach and couldn't flip. He wasn't even sure he'd just spoken actual words, or if it was a jumble of sounds.
"Water, now." Shen tipped a cup to his lips. "Oh, thank the spirits…"
"What happened to me? I hurt...everywhere…" Aang whimpered. "And I'm...I'm…" he murmured.
"I know, I know," Ty Lee whispered. "You gotta stay awake, though. Aang, stay with me, please."
Aang tried to look at her to tell her that he wanted to, of course, but his limbs would not obey him.
"You nearly died, Avatar," Shen said. "Please. Don't sit up." Though he tried to brush it off, Aang could sense a deep, anguished sorrow deep within him, something that made his blood run cold.
"What... exactly... happened?" he demanded, his last word eeking out like the last creak of a wheel before it stopped moving, and there was a gentle squeeze to his hand. It took so much effort to speak, and it hurt everywhere. He wanted to stop that hurt, please.
"Zhao attacked. He nearly won. He tried to cut you open from the top of your spine to the bottom, which is why you must remain like this. The wounds were deep," Iroh said with a deep scowl. "And we were not sure you'd pull through." And though Aang wasn't sure, or perhaps did not want to be, he could have guessed the unspoken addition was 'and you still might not'.
"I told them you were stronger than all that shit, though," Toph broke in, sniffling. "Glad to see you awake, Twinkletoes."
"She was right," Ty Lee murmured, rubbing the back of his hand.
"Zhao-" Aang wheezed, each syllable like a knife down his throat.
"Is dead." Shen said in a staccato tone, "One less evil banished from the world."
"But-?" Aang picked up on the subtext.
"Dhakiya. She's gone," Ty Lee whispered, and it seemed she had no more tears to cry. There was a heaviness in the air, something no one wanted to admit out loud, no one wanted to say. "She saved your life."
The guilt immediately clawed up Aang's throat. He felt ill and shook. Another person dead for him, and for what? Did he even deserve it?
"Where are... we going?" Aang asked, "Traveling?" He wanted to ask 'why are we traveling', but that was as much as he could muster. Luckily, it seemed it was understood.
"The Swamp is compromised. We cannot remain." Shen shook his head. "We are going to the one place not under Ozai's thumb. We'll be switching to boats soon."
"S'wat...tribe." Aang breathed, slurring his words, and somewhere through the haze, a horrible thought hit him. "Put...in danger?" he demanded.
From the serious looks on Iroh and Shen's faces, it was clear they knew that this would put a target on the back of Katara's home tribe, but they were out of options. Aang struggled to get to his knees. "No, no...no..." He began to thrash, just whispering arguments, but Ty Lee and Toph kept him down.
"Aang, please, don't exert yourself like this." Ty Lee's voice was worried, and he tried to say he was fine, but the wave of darkness was already wading through his mind, sloshing against his vision.
The carriage halted. Iroh threw open the back hatch to see what the hold-up was and Aang, out of his limited view, saw Aiga hitting the side of the carriage.
"What is it?" Iroh asked, "What is so serious that we stopped?"
"Sir, I…" Aiga fumbled over her words to get her message out. "I understand now why the Equalists wanted to find me, why they asked for me and not Aang. I understand now. I saw it and I shouldn't have, but I didn't realize it until-"
"Child, calm down." Iroh placed a steady hand on her shoulder. "Now, take a breath for me," he instructed. Aiga gulped in a big breath of air.
"Exhale."
She let it go in one noisy, haggard sigh.
"Aiga, speak now. What is it?"
"I know who the leader of the Equalists is. I was supposed to be killed so I couldn't tell who it was. We need to go back to the Royal Palace...now. I also know what the endgame is."
Everyone began talking at once, and he heard Aiga explain in snippets. His mind felt like the hamster-mouse wheel was desperately spinning, but the hamster-mouse had long since died, unable to snap the connection that he knew that he knew too.
Then, understanding exploded in his mind, like the Avatars had shoved down the door and were all yelling the answer to him.
Aang inhaled sharply, suddenly realizing it all at once too - (and fuck, how could he have been so blind? So oblivious?) - but it was too much. And somewhere, he knew Yangchen was warning him that he must keep his energy, be careful, but his own horrified and guilty feelings overrode everything as he pushed his arms away, bringing his body off the ground. For a second, he thought he'd done it, that he'd fought the sickness and weariness of his bones, but then his mind was swirling and he was falling.
"Aang! No! Stay awake!"
He saw everyone reach for him as his body gave out, his limbs turned to sand, and his mind rolled away with the numbness of unconsciousness.
XXX
7 Years Ago...
"How did he find out, dad?" Lu Ten paced the floor. "I've been careful, I've been so careful. I haven't made a spectacle of myself, and I've watched. You know that I am so careful. So how?" He looked at his father. Iroh sat in Lu Ten's bedroom with a heavy, saddened expression.
"You were not careful enough, son," he said.
Lu Ten stopped, staring at him. "Are you disappointed in me, Dad?" he asked. Iroh stood, smiling warmly, engulfing Lu Ten in a comforting hug.
"Never. I know who you are and you've never done anything to make me mournful," he said, pulling back and placing his hands on Lu Ten's cheeks, "But things are going to change, Ten."
"Am I to be executed?" Lu Ten asked with a hint of bitterness.
"I would be shocked if your grandfather reacted with such a severe punishment...but I fear what he does have in store. Come," Iroh placed Lu Ten's Fire Lord pin in his hair, "You are still the Heir Apparent and you will remember that."
They walked in silence to the royal throne room. Azulon sat, wrinkled and wheezing, as they entered. Ozai was sitting there as well, a smirk curled on his face. His young children - Zuko only thirteen and Azula eleven - were beside him. From the way he grinned with glee at Lu Ten, he knew. He tried to lunge at his uncle, but Iroh held him firm.
"Is it true?" Azulon demanded, the fire around him bursting with his fury. "Answer me, child! Are the accusations of you true?"
Lu Ten raised his face up to his grandfather, knowing that the truth was already out there. His entire life, he'd tried to keep it close to his chest, but someone had leaked his secret. This was not a chance for him to lie...he was being given a small, nearly minuscule grace not to stand with pride.
"It is, Grandfather. I love men, not women," he whispered, trying not to collapse. The shudders that rang out around the throne room made him want to cry, to run back into his room and never return. He was painted as unnatural from this moment on, he knew it.
"And to think...we were going to invite all those lovely ladies here in less than a moon for your choice. You would have made a mockery of their heritage lines and spat on the very name of tradition."
"No, grandfather. I would have done my duty. Married a suitress," Lu Ten argued, though the thought of lying with a woman made him ill.
"It is of no consequence. The truth is out there." Azulon waved a lazy finger.
"Father," Ozai stood, "Now that we know about this...foul truth, I think we can all agree that Lu Ten is unfit to become the next Fire Lord. Not only has he laughed in the face of our beliefs and selfishly debased himself to craven desires, but he is also unable to bear children. How do we expect him to produce an heir when he makes such a face at imagining a woman?" Ozai said with a fake-genuine shrug. Lu Ten understood what was happening and nearly stood to punch Ozai. Ozai was trying to steal his birthright from under him!
"And perhaps this entire family line is tainted," Ozai continued. "A branch of the family tree that should be culled to save the rest of it. As we all know, my brother is already a laughing stock for failing his siege in Ba Sing Se."
"The city fell to us, Brother," Iroh said in a terse tone, "We captured the Earth Kingdom."
"But it wasn't you," Ozai mocked. "You cannot claim that, Iroh."
"You...you…" Lu Ten stuttered. "I can do it, Grandfather. I'll marry anyone you say. I'll have a thousand kids, just please, don't listen to him," Lu Ten begged.
"I am your faithful son, Father. I would not disappoint you. I have sat quietly, watching mistake after mistake while giving you two grandchildren. I-" Ozai was cut off.
Azulon raised a hand and silenced everyone in the room.
"The line of succession will go to my grandsons," Azulon said, thinking out loud. "Lu Ten is of age to take the throne anyway, and Zuko, by the time I pass, will nearly be there, if not already of age. It will not be you, Ozai, that takes over," Aulzon said. Lu Ten felt a flicker of relief and smiled at the way Ozai's shoulder rose with steam, his fury at being denied the crown.
"Zuko." Azulon turned to Lu Ten's cousin. "Do you agree with your father? Do you see your cousin as a freak of nature unfit to take the throne? Do you challenge him to a battle for the crown?"
Lu Ten looked at Zuko, so young and oh so terrified. He stared at Lu Ten, his beloved family member, and his eyes said no. But then Ozai placed a firm hand on his shoulder and Zuko's eyes filled with tears.
"I do, grandfather," he croaked out. "I agree," he said, trying to shrink away from Ozai.
"Then it is settled. Lu Ten and Zuko will have an Agni Kai for the right to rule. Whoever wins will take my place. If it is you, Lu Ten, you will marry a woman immediately and produce an heir within the year," Azulon said sharply. "And if it is Zuko, Ozai will hold the crown after I pass, as guardian of the throne, until Zuko is of age and marries. The Sages will assure that Ozai cannot twist my power," Azulon said, more clever than anyone gave him credit for. Ozai was furious but held his tongue and posture.
"An Agni Kai...he's a child!" Iroh stood, throwing his hands out at Zuko. "I'm not saying this because I wish my son to win, I'm saying that this is cruel!"
"Zuko is thirteen, and he is capable of his own choice. He agreed," Azulon said with a half-carless shrug. "We will hold the fight two dawns from now. None of this will leave this room...not the rumors of Lu Ten, not the news...if there is even a peep-" Azulon looked everyone in the room in their eyes, "Your head will be on a spike to serve as a reminder."
OOO
"You will win easily, my prince," Atsushi said, helping Lu Ten bind his hands two days later. "Zuko is struggling with his forms and you mastered them at twelve in your classes."
"It will be an easy fight, I know," Lu Ten groaned, horrified at how unevenly matched they were. "Don't remind me."
The procession to the arena was silent. The spectators were few; the Royal Family, a handful of Fire Sages, and a few upper-circle men that his grandfather trusted. The city was none the wiser of the monumental fight that would take place, however.
Iroh was waiting for his son.
"You won't make it painful for him, will you?" Iroh asked, knowing in his heart that there was little chance Zuko would win.
"Of course not," Lu Ten said, horrified at the thought, "I will win as gently as I can."
He would not let this be taken from him. Lu Ten knew he would be a good leader; he had so many ideas to help people. Even though he romantically loved men, he loved the entire nation as though he was their father. He felt a deep passion and affection for the Fire Nation that he could only assume was the feeling a man had when he held his children for the first time. He would not let this falter his plans to bring the Fire Nation into a beautiful, peaceful, and different era, one that was not led by terror and blood, but by someone who would give up everything - even true love - for the people he led.
Lu Ten stretched in the arena, watching as his younger cousin entered, following his father. He stumbled over his own feet and there was already a sheen of sweat on his face. He seemed so young right now, a literal child. Lu Ten's heart clenched.
Azula followed, grinning widely. When she saw Lu Ten, she stuck her tongue out at him and was quickly chastised by Aunt Ursa.
Lu Ten watched as Zuko came to his side, his entire body shaking as he stripped down to his pants. His fingers tried to bind his hands, but he couldn't manage it. Ozai stood to help, but Zuko flinched away so violently that Lu Ten couldn't help but wonder. Ozai roughly pulled Zuko back to him, digging his fingers into his shoulder. Though Lu Ten couldn't see what Ozai was saying, he did see how Zuko's eyes widened and how he desperately tried not to cry, holding back tears as his cheeks reddened and his eyes filled with liquid.
Lu Ten looked away, a stone in his throat, looking to his own father. He himself felt like a child, and wished he could be consoled so simply as snuggling with his dad during a thunderstorm. But as always, Iroh came through in the way that mattered. Iroh pulled Lu Ten into a hug, shielding him, and giving Lu Ten just a moment to cry.
"Dad-"
"Whatever happens," Iroh said, "Remember how much I love you and believe you are a pure, good person."
When his dad pulled away, Lu Ten felt the absence, but it could be nothing compared to the empty feeling Zuko must feel with Ozai. Without Iroh here, assuring his son of his love, Lu Ten wasn't sure what he'd do.
Lu Ten took his side of the arena. Zuko stood, walking with his chest puffed. Faux haughtiness, excusable, to hide how afraid he was.
Azulon entered. "To the near-death. Maiming."
Lu Ten's blood went absolutely cold. He stared in horror at his grandfather as Iroh pushed to the throne.
"You cannot be serious, father! You would sacrifice one of your own grandchildren? Disfigure one entirely, a mark of their fight forever? You aren't thinking right!"
"I am thinking perfectly fine. Whoever does not win is useless to me. Why should they be allowed to sit in my palace, eat my food, dress in my finery and use my name if they are to lose? Why should they exist as before, as though they aren't a complete failure to my image? I won't have them die, but they should wear their shame in public forever," he said. "You know the rules."
Lu Ten looked at Zuko, who was frozen stiff where he stood. When Zuko looked up at Lu Ten, he looked crushed. He must know himself that he wouldn't win. He was shaking, so afraid of how Lu Ten would harm him. How the cousin he'd always looked up to, the cousin that said he'd protect Zuko from the day he was born, would hurt him so mercilessly, even if Lu Ten tried to do it softly. He was no doubt trying to tell his brain that Lu Ten was the enemy, even if there were thousands of times when Lu Ten had picked him up off the hallways and played with him and loved him like a younger brother.
And he did; Lu Ten's affections for Zuko were unmatched, only perhaps by his love for his nation. He knew from the day Zuko came into the world that he would do anything for this child.
"Begin!"
Lu Ten played defense, allowing Zuko to try to attack him. Zuko's form was sloppy and his firebending was at half-power, likely due to how terrified he was. He was angry, all over the place, unable to land a hit on Lu Ten.
Lu Ten managed to catch Zuko by the foot as he executed a flying kick and threw him to the ground. Zuko hit the arena floor with a loud sound, a crack as his bones collided with the dusty, hard surface.
Lu Ten would not let this go on, not give Zuko false hope. He couldn't. He had to end this quickly.
As Lu Ten tried to think how to win this fight and hurt Zuko the least he saw Ozai gave a hiss of disappointment. Zuko scrambled up, sheer terror and panic clutching every fiber of his being. How he switched his look between Lu Ten and his father, trying to decide which way to go, as though both were terrible options. And then, even though Lu Ten was coming to break his spirit and win, Zuko began to crawl not toward Lu Ten, but away from Ozai.
With a startling realization, Lu Ten tensed. He realized that if he won, if Lu Ten took this victory, Ozai would kill Zuko. There was no denying it, not with the way that Ozai tracked Zuko or how his lip curled or his fingers clenched, he would kill his son for this disappointment and Azulon would turn his head the other way, feigning ignorance.
If Lu Ten took the throne, Zuko would not survive long enough for the coronation.
And there, at this moment, Lu Ten realized something. He loved Zuko more than he loved his nation, something he thought impossible. He'd turned down his own personal happiness so many times for the Fire Nation that he had thought this duty, this passion, would trump every love he had.
But that wasn't true. He loved his cousin infinitely more, and as he looked back at Iroh, he realized that his father had already seen this. Iroh had known how this would play out before Lu Ten ever took the stage. When he told Lu Ten what he'd said before the match, it wasn't in regards to his sexual orientation, rather, in regards to the fact that Lu Ten was going to let Zuko win, even if it meant putting Ozai on the throne. He was weighing the future of a nation against a single person, and Iroh forgave him before he ever made that choice.
It wasn't believable, but fuck it. He let Zuko take him down, and as he hit the training ground and feigned a hurt arm, Zuko looked down at him in shock and confusion. He was surely wondering how he'd so easily bested his older cousin, and how Lu Ten could have such a severe injury that would leave him unable to fight back. As Lu Ten moaned on the ground, he looked up at Zuko and tried to say, "Hey, it's okay...I'm letting you win". Zuko sniffled, understanding.
"Boy, finish him," Azulon hissed, and Zuko looked up, hands outstretched to rain fire on Lu Ten. His fingers shook and he stared down. Lu Ten gave a nearly imperceptible nod, and Zuko backed up. Which was not what Lu Ten was trying to encourage. He winced, but Ozai reacted publicly first.
"What?" Ozai roared, "What are you doing, you worthless little-"
"I won't fight him. I won't. I will not harm Lu Ten," Zuko announced in a strong, echoing tone. "You will have to decide between us because I will not fight like this."
"Zuko, no, please-" Lu Ten hissed from the floor. Zuko looked down at him, inhaling and shaking.
"I don't want to be the Fire Lord, Lu Ten, and I don't want to hurt you," he whispered in a pitiful voice. "Hurt me. I never wanted to be the Fire Lord, I've never wished to be in your place."
"No!"
"You must finish the Agni Kai," Azlon demanded, slamming his fists repeatedly on his throne.
"I will not!" Zuko yelled, spinning, protecting Lu Ten.
"How dare you!" Ozai threw down his robes, stalking onto the arena stage despite the people yelling at him to leave. "You are a disgrace to my name! You have dishonored this family one too many times! You should have never been born!" Ozai thundered, shoving Zuko to the side, "I will finish this for my family line. We are strong and take what is ours!"
Lu Ten tried to stand up, knowing that Ozai might kill him too, but the dirt made it difficult.
"No!" Zuko threw all his weight at his father, dislodging Ozai's stance and sending him off-balance, giving Lu Ten enough time to throw himself off the arena stage. "Stop it!"
"How dare you?" Ozai said. Zuko seemed to realize the ramifications of his actions, as though at that moment his body had not been connected to his brain. He squealed, trying to turn but Ozai grasped Zuko's ponytail and dragged him across the arena.
"Zuko-" Ursa yelled, but Ozai threw a finger at her.
"Shut up, or else! This is between Zuko, my failure of a son, and me!" Ozai threw Zuko to the ground. Iroh and Lu Ten tried to jump into the ring but Ozai lit the ground around them in flames, making it impossible to pass. This fire, fueled by something evil and dark, burned Lu Ten as he tried to pass through.
"I concede my title!" Lu Ten yelled, trying to break through the sounds of Ozai's screaming and Zuko's frantic begging. "I renounce my claim on the throne!"
"You-" Azulon began to say, but coughed. "The Agni Kai must be finished."
"Sir, if he gives up his claim, he has witnesses. It is done," a sage said, looking at Lu Ten. "Do you swear on your life to drop your place in line?"
"I do," Lu Ten said. "I am no longer the heir apparent. Zuko is," he pleaded, hoping it would work.
"Ozai, it's done!" Ursa yelled, pacing at the fire, unable to get in. "Stop this!" Azula followed her mother, though her expression was hard to read. Fear? Unsureness? Worry? Excitement? Nothing showed on her young face.
"It is not!" Ozai argued. "My...son…" He spat the word like it was unbelievable to him. "Is arrogant, foolish, worthless, scrawny, and I have been far too lenient with him for too long! He deserves to know what happens when he intervenes in matters he does not understand or refuses to honor tradition or his elders!"
Before anyone could do anything, Ozai dragged Zuko to lay on his back in front of him and flashed his palm. The light from the fire was near-blinding and Lu Ten did not see what was happening, only heard the horrible, horrible scream of Zuko's punishment and inhaled the stench of burning flesh.
XXX
Katara bit back bile, staring at Lu Ten as he finished. She could not even form words to express how violated she felt even just hearing this story, how she wanted to cry a million years for Zuko. She reached up to touch her own long hair, trying to imagine Ozai dragging her across the ground by grasping at it, and then burning her in the most gruesome way.
She dropped her fingers away from her braids, feeling ill.
"After that, everyone in the room was sworn to secrecy," Lu Ten finished, looking ten years aged. "The truth about my sexual preferences were never to be whispered, nor how Zuko truly got his scar. They said that I gave it to him in the fight, but he still came out on top. Every time I look at it, I just remember how I failed to protect him."
"Lu Ten, you...you couldn't have stopped Ozai."
"No, in this you are right," Lu Ten agreed with a furious scowl. "He is a monster of a man. No father should treat his son like this. But now you understand how depraved Ozai is, how he feels like the right to rule is his and he must win, even at the sacrifice of Zuko."
Katara's head felt fuzzy, and she felt like she was on the verge of fainting. "Zuko never told me."
Lu Ten's eyes were sympathetic. "How could he, Princess? How could he speak of such unholy, indescribable evil? He was just a child, I would not be shocked if he has more or less repressed it from his mind. And even if he hasn't, it shows no ill light on you, it is not because he does not care for you...perhaps it is because he cares so much. To burden you with this truth may be too far for him."
"I wouldn't judge. I don't care, he can burden me with all of it." Katara wiped her tears. "I want to know everything about him, I do. I...he...I can't believe it." In truth, she understood why he didn't want to say anything, but couldn't help but wish he'd trusted her to say. She might recognize the logic, but her emotions still flip-flopped between being fine he didn't tell her and feeling saddened.
"I would tell you not to dwell on this knowledge now, but what else does one think about at the end of the world, other than the acts of yomi?" Lu Ten whispered. He truly believed both of them would not see daylight again, as she did, and this was the first glimpse of that. It was clear he was replaying every regret he'd ever faced. Katara felt detached from time, unable to feel the same things, as she felt hers were magnified by a thousand, and this terror had just washed away to numbness. Or maybe it was the pain from her arms?
Through it all...she had to wonder...was Lu Ten wishing he'd allowed himself true love with whoever that might be, now that it all seemed like it didn't matter anyway? Was it truly better to give up on love in favor of duty, to live all this time with one piece of your soul missing?
They spent spirits-know how long down there; it was impossible to tell the passing of time due to the lack of any or all light filtering in. The only source was Lu Ten's torch. He fished a food pack out, though it tasted more like sawdust than anything edible, but forced Katara to take half.
It could have been days or maybe just a few moments, but suddenly the half-torn door was thrown off their hiding place, and light flooded in. Lu Ten protectively pushed Katara behind him, until Azula poked her head in.
"They're in here! They seem to be alive, Zuzu," she said. Her face was stained with dirt and her hair was spilling down her back, her hair ties missing.
"Katara? Lu?" Zuko called from above, "Oh, the gods are good!"
Azula helped them out. It was daytime, and the town was deserted. Katara saw just how run-down it seemed and it looked like a horrible joke that anyone could live here, but she saw vestiges of life, of people putting clothes on lines and baking bread, as though the fight here had never occurred. Or, was this a scrimmage place, and it happened so often, it was just another Tuesday?
Katara coughed at the clean air.
"The Equalists?"
"Gone. We got 'em to flee," Azula said proudly.
"Seems like it," Zuko said, "But it was weird. I guess I'm not in the mood to question."
"Could it be a trap?" Lu Ten asked wisely, tilting his head.
"I don't care. None of you should have been out here, to begin with. We're going home," Zuko said with a firm tone. Katara did a headcount...everyone that they'd come with was still alive, what luck!
As they fell into a line to reach the harbor to grab a boat back, Katara couldn't help but stare at Zuko's scar. And his short hair. And the look of distrust he wore, the one he sometimes used as a shield to protect himself. She wanted to reach out and touch his face but feared she'd break down into sobs. She lingered, so they were the last two to file onto the dock to find a boat.
Zuko saw her staring and groaned.
"He told you, huh?" he said, jerking his head back to Lu Ten. "Kat-"
"I'm so sorry."
"It happened," Zuko said tersely, "And you didn't do it. You have nothing to apologize for."
"I can. For your horrid father. I am just sorry." She didn't know what else to say.
"Don't think on it too much. It was a while ago," Zuko said, and Katara couldn't tell if he'd actually worked through it or if he refused to even broach it. Either way, she knew she couldn't push, as desperately as she wished to.
"What did the Equalists want here?" Suki demanded once they'd found a boat to take them back to the Fire Nation Capitol harbor. Zuko easily gave over gold coins and they were promised a warm breakfast, lunch, and dinner. It took a few hours for the boat master to find the provisions, but they all were given clothes and a bunk, which felt like heaven to Katara. Of course, it was all in one room, but beggars couldn't be choosers.
"What they always want," Azula said irritably, turning over and pulling the covers over her head, "Now shut up, some of us need to sleep."
Katara looked at Suki and gave a helpless shrug since no one's answer on this had ever been much of an answer at all. Zuko was already passed out, snoring, and Katara found no good reason to remain awake either. She wasn't sure what would be waiting for them at the palace and had to be ready for anything.
Chapter 44
Notes:
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Chapter Text
What was waiting for them? Nothing, absolutely nothing.
Well, of course, there were always things waiting for them, but not what Katara - or clearly anyone else - had been expecting. Zhi had greeted them at the door with a wide smile, announcing that they would have a formal dinner tonight, so they should wear their finest semi-casual option, and that afterward, there would be a band playing for their enjoyment. It was as though they were returning from an exotic trip out east and not from a day in the war. Was Zhi overcompensating, as she looked at their haggard faces and the dirt-smeared all up and down their skin, or was the palace truly not going to acknowledge what had just occurred?
Well, even if the palace wasn't going to say anything, Katara surely wasn't going to just let the matter drift away like lotus flowers in a river.
"So, what happened to the rest of you?" Katara asked as they waited for their bags at the entrance of the palace. "You know Prince Lu Ten and I found shelter, but what about the rest of you?"
"Forests," Cilla croaked out, still coughing up dust, "I climbed a tree. Never saw any Equalists, but I heard them. Swapping loot, trading...I'm lucky no one looked up."
"I'm surprised we're all alive," Suki said, looking at Katara. She had tried to press her concerns on the ship but was met with tired minds and backlash from Azula. "The probability of that seems weird, doesn't it?"
"You wanted one of us to die?" Ratana demanded, "I was running for my life most of the night with Besu! Wasn't a walk in the park, you know!"
"Besu?" Katara prompted. Besu was looking pensive.
"That's true, we were, and well...I mean...I guess the adrenaline was all there - I had no weapons and they were packing much bigger ones - but they weren't really trying to kill us, didn't it seem, Tana?" Besu offered hesitantly. Ratana sputtered.
"Of course they were!"
"But you tripped and they could have...and they didn't. It seemed it was more of a chase game, but there wasn't any bloodlust that I could tell. And I know these things," she said, raising a chin. "I think they would have been awful had they caught us, don't get me wrong, but they didn't seem like they did at the last Palace attack. I know they were trying to kill people then."
Katara shuddered, recalling the man that tried to stab Alcina, and agreeing.
"And they just left," Nadhari agreed, nodding to Suki to indicate she thought it was strange too. "One second I was blasting them away, and the next...there was some signal, I'm sure of it, but they all just vanished into the trees."
"You're right that they didn't seem intent on killing us," Yue piped up. "One cornered me and he just...looked at me, like he was waiting for something, I'm not sure. But before anything could happen, Azula saved me. She for sure killed him," Yue added with a timid gulp.
"Speaking of which, where were Zuko and Azula during the fight?" Mai questioned, "I didn't see either until the end."
From how it seemed, most saw Azula battling it out at one point or another, but not many saw Zuko. He looked tired and dirt-stained and haunted when they'd found him in the morning, so there was little doubt he was fighting, of course.
"Hey...I have a question," Suki said, finding her bags and handing them off to her handmaid. "Why didn't Prince Lu Ten go with his cousins, to begin with? Why was he with us?"
Katara sharply turned to her. "What do you mean?" she demanded hotly.
"I just...why was he with us instead?" she said, blinking. "He's got more military training than anyone. He should have been the first to be sent out."
"Maybe he was held-up," Mai said curtly, "Or he offered to wait."
"It didn't seem like the sort of situation where there was much choice, though," Suki mused. Whether it was a deep distrust or just meandering thoughts, Katara didn't like it. Lu Ten was like an older brother to her.
"If you think Lu Ten had something to do with that-" Katara began, angrily, furiously.
"I'm just saying! He told us to flee, to disobey a direct order from Ozai," Suki said, crossing her arms.
"To keep us alive?" Cilla pointed out, "Oh, how dare he."
"You guys! I know we all like him. He's perfect, right? Sometimes a bit too perfect-" Ratana agreed, but Zhi came down on all of them, Zuko and Azula following her in with the remaining items from the carriages.
"This is not the place for such discussions, my ladies. I think none of us want to recount that horrible, horrible night. Let's talk about happy things, shall we?" she said in a strained voice, and though it was offered as lightly as it could, it was not a suggestion.
But there were no happy things anyone wanted to talk about, so the girls opted for a heavy silence.
They walked in a single-file line silently back to their rooms, through the palace, as though on a parade for everyone who saw them. They were exhausted, mentally and emotionally, and wondering what the point had even been? Katara sincerely doubted their rag-tag presence had scared off the Equalists nearly two days ago.
Lu Ten joined them near the entrance to the south wings, mopping off his face with a towel and clearly having just gotten done with some boring meeting, and Katara couldn't help but see Suki appraise him with skepticism. While Katara wasn't sure what everyone else's thoughts were clouded with, Katara was torn between fury at Suki for daring to suggest what she had about Lu Ten but also swirling with confusion about the entire situation as it was. Yes, something was weird, she agreed with Suki to that point.
"And the victors return home…"
Katara spun to see Ozai leaning in the doorway of one of the palace rooms, his head tilted and a smile on his lips. If he was disappointed to see everyone alive, Katara couldn't tell. Lu Ten narrowed his eyes and took a step in front of the pack.
"Fire Lord," he gritted out, "They're all quite tired. If you can allow us on, please?"
"Of course, I mean not to interfere," Ozai said, blinking innocently. "But Zuko, with me." His voice was clipped.
Katara stopped entirely. She watched how Zuko paused, just for a second, in an unavoidable subconscious reactionary moment. For that brief moment, he had panic in his eyes. It was gone so quick that few would notice, but Katara did. And something else that did not escape her gaze was how a healer was two steps behind Ozai, and how, actually, there seemed to be a healer in the vicinity of Ozai quite often.
"Father, I'm tired," Zuko said, turning away, "and I'm covered in mud. Can I at least take a bath?"
"You will listen to your father, Zuko," Ozai said with a frown. "And respect me when I'm talking to you."
"Respect?" The fury bubbled inside of Katara. "Respect?" she squawked. All the girls down the hall stopped, turning to watch. Zuko realized immediately where her anger flowed from and grabbed her elbow, trying to pull her away.
"It's not worth this, Katara," he sighed, "Go and clean up."
"No, let her speak. Do you have something to say to me, Princess?" Ozai demanded. If Katara were smarter, she would have apologized and turned as Zuko asked, but Katara was exhausted. She had been sent to war and been trapped. Her arms were aching. Her heart was breaking for Zuko. Lu Ten's gift to Zuko had been irreplaceable, but someone else deserved to throw themselves into the ring for him.
"You talk of respect, but you don't know the meaning of the word of respect. Or of honor. Or love. You are incapable of any emotion but greed, and the world will catch up with you. You are a sorry mistake for a man and should be terrified of the day you meet your makers," Katara seethed, stalking up to Ozai, shaking with so much anger that she felt like she might explode on the spot, "Your words are empty and your nation fears you, but they will never love you, and any sensible next Fire Lady would strip you of all your imagined power."
The slap echoed around the wide hallway. Katara stumbled, touching the sting on her cheek and staring at Ozai not with shock, but merely with a sense of pride. She grinned at him.
"Sir!" Zhi gasped, immediately flocking to Katara and rubbing her back comfortingly.
"She leaves now!" Ozai roared. "I've had enough of her! Throw her things off the steps of the palace and kick her out!" he demanded, waving his fingers at the guards, who moved to grab Katara. She wrenched from their grip, throwing her hands up.
"Fine, fine. I'll walk myself," she hissed. She hadn't thought it through, and though her choice had been made for her, she'd do it a thousand times again. Over and over.
"You cannot send her home, you don't have the authority," Lu Ten reminded, looking halfway between wanting to lecture Katara and hug her.
"I am the Fire Lord, I am the supreme leader of all the Nations in this world, and I-"
"Not all," Nadhari spoke up with a wry grin, "You never got the Southern Water Tribe."
Ozai moved, almost ready to demand Nadhari gone too until he seemed to remember that he couldn't. Or didn't want her gone, not when her father so generously donated all his weapons, and what was a military without free fighting tools? Instead, he spun on Katara again.
"Why are you still standing here? You are an enemy to the Fire Nation, and will be fired upon on sight if you step back in here ever again! Guards!" Ozai waved a frantic, unhinged hand.
"No," Zuko said, which stopped everyone at once, glancing at him with uncertainty, the guards with their hands extended to grab Katara, but as though frozen in time. "She is staying. As Lu Ten pointed out, Fire Lord," Zuko growled with so much malice it shook Katara down to her core, "You have no power to send girls away, not truly. You hardly have any actual power as it is! Everything you do is smoke and mirrors and fancy parlor tricks, and it infuriates you that you cannot have actual power! You might strongly suggest, but at the end of the day, I make the final decisions. And this is mine. Katara is staying, and she is not an enemy." He turned to Katara, "You're fine. Guards, back up."
"Are you sure you want to do this, son?" Ozai asked, absolutely flabbergasted at his words. Zuko blinked.
"Without a single doubt," Zuko said. "Now, I am going to change. We will talk after." And with that, Katara watched Zuko take control of his throne and change the shift of power, noticeable to everyone in the room.
Zuko walked with them, and he fell into line with Katara's steps. Though all the remaining girls kept looking at him, Zhi rushed them forward.
"Let's give them a moment of privacy, yes?" she encouraged, herding everyone else along. Azula, who had silently watched the exchange, slinked away with a curious look in Katara's direction, muttering something about an event she needed to pull together for her father. Lu Ten helped Zhi brush the girls toward their wing, leaving Katara and Zuko to walk slowly through the halls.
"Thank you," they both began at once. They both tried to talk again and laughed as they stumbled over each other.
"You...you first," Zuko motioned.
"Thank you for keeping me here, after that. It was stupid." Katara winced, rubbing her cheek.
"It was awesome!" Zuko said. "I think that moment should be immortalized in a statue," he added warmly, "And even if you decide to leave, I want it to be your choice. Certainly not his."
"Right, yeah." Katara understood his meaning. "Erm, you?"
"It should be obvious. Thank you for sticking up for me to my father. For saying something."
"I've been told I have no fear, guess that's true," Katara shrugged. "You deserve that, you know. Someone on your team. Especially after…" She trailed off, looking at his scar. Zuko pursed his lips, shoulders slouched.
"It's not something I want to discuss," he said, not in a way to harm Katara's feelings, more likely that Katara knew he wasn't ready.
"That's fine, but can you be honest about something else?" Katara said, gathering the courage to ask, and before Zuko could stop her. "Does your father hurt you? As in, continue to?" she questioned, and at his stony face, "That healer shadows him. Unless your father is in such poor health...and I just never noticed."
"Not since the start of the Choice," Zuko said quickly, as though he thought this made it better. "When I was younger, a lot. And the healer would fix me before anyone noticed. No scars." He gave a dark smile. "Except this. This was a reminder." Zuko touched his eye scar.
"Zuko, why haven't you ever told anyone? Your mother? Lu Ten?" she demanded, "...Me?"
"Because I thought, stupidly, that was behind us. Maybe he was regretful, or something, I'm not sure. Now I know he's without remorse, but...you want to be able to love your dad, huh?" he said, shaking his head. "If I told my mother...I didn't want to risk her life. Nor Lu Ten's. My father 'cares' for me more than them. I wouldn't let them be disposable, fall to a terrible 'accident' because of my own shit."
"It's not just 'your own shit'. This is horrible, Zuko! The Sages, you must-"
"Katara, I'm tired," Zuko murmured, and she couldn't tell if he was tired in the literal sense or just done with everything. "And I would like to wash up now."
Katara leaned up, kissing him in the halls, for she knew when to push and when to let things go. This was a time to let it go. As much as she wanted to march up to Ozai and freeze the blood in his veins, that would be stupid and would only end in tragedy.
And Zuko, who was the victim here, deserved for his choice to be heard in the matter, despite her own opinions.
"Can we keep it a secret?" Zuko asked softly. "It's not for anyone else to know, really."
"Yes, fine," Katara didn't want to let go of his fingers, "Are you okay?" she asked honestly.
"Never fully, but I learn to cope. Maybe one day I'll really be able to take him on, not just in words but actions, but not today," he said simply. "I'll see you at dinner, alright, Kat?" Right now, using her nickname warmed her heart. She nodded, watching him drag his feet down his hall towards the Royal Chambers.
Katara took a long way back. She went and checked on Sokka, who was sleeping peacefully when she opened his door. His limbs were splayed out like a starfish over all the sides of his bed and he was snoring quite loudly. His wounds were healing well and she was sure by the end of the month - whatever she decided - he'd be healed to take it on. Then, she went and wandered around the gardens a bit.
When she finally made her way back to the Ladies' Room, a little past lunch, she grabbed a few finger items from the table. No one was around; likely either sleeping, bathing or preparing for tonight's meal. Katara decided to eat small items, knowing it was to be a grand affair.
Then, she settled into cleaning the gunk from her body and doing her best to heal her own arms, at least so they didn't hurt so much.
Before long, it was only a few hours until dinner. As Katara was bending the water from her hair, there was a knock at the door. She grabbed a robe and tied it, half-hoping it would be Zuko, but was unsurprised it wasn't. It was a guard, and he held out a silver platter for her with a single letter upon it.
"From your family, Princess," he explained. Katara blinked. She had forgotten that she'd sent a letter to her dad. The letter's arrival was a comfort and a happy surprise.
"Thank you, sir," Katara nodded to him, taking the parchment in her fingers and going to sit on her balcony to read it while she dried off. She considered how she might miss the weather here, the trees, the architecture...she'd come to appreciate so much in the Fire Nation, so many things she hated when she first arrived here. If she were to leave, she knew she'd miss it as much as she missed the coldness of her home now.
She opened it with her letter opener and settled in.
Dear Katara,
I was warned when you were born that one day, I'd have to let you go. It seemed impossible. I loved you from the moment you were born and placed your tiny hand on my cheek. You already looked so much like your mother and I was just overcome with such joy and equally terrified that I would be responsible for protecting you, like your brother. It's difficult to watch your child suffer; the scraped knees, the time you cut yourself on your first hunting knife, or when you and your brother fought or you came home with a split lip because you stood up to the village bully...these were times I wished I could just shelter you and keep you safe, keep you with me.
When you defied my orders and went to the Fire Nation, I was furious. I was furious because I didn't know if I had done enough to teach you and if you died because of it, I would always blame myself. But, I had been comforted by the fact that one day you'd return. When you've given enough of yourself to the Fire Nation, given your time, your passion, your fealty to our tribe, you'd come back home. You would take up the mantle with your brother just as you'd always planned, and my two children would lead the Southern Water Tribe into a beautiful, halcyon set of days.
And I've waited. I told myself you would return soon, despite how much the hearts of your mother and I ache, I knew you were smart. You knew what you were doing. You always gave more than 100% for your people and did it so intelligently that I had to believe that as long as this has gone on, you had some sort of end goal, some magical number in which you'd decided that was good, and you'd victoriously return home.
I have to accept, Katara, you won't come back. And I think that perhaps you do not see this within yourself yet, but listen to me when I tell you...your place is not here.
It is my fault. I accept this now, and my guilt and shame over this have kept me up since I received your letter. If not for the way you were raised, with such heavy expectations pressed upon you, you might have already said yes. You might have found such joy sooner.
We just never guessed there would ever be a life outside of the Southern Water Tribe for you or Sokka. And both of you were so inquisitive, gentle, caring, helpful, and so passionate about your people that it seemed foolish to imagine anyone else who would lead. When your mother and Bato stepped into the position of some historic shoes to fill, they struggled. It is quite the task to take on the well-being of everyone. I had learned from GranGran, naturally, but even if I chose your mother as my wife from a young age and could not imagine a better partner than Bato, they were sheltered from the weight of leadership.
We never wanted you or Sokka to struggle with this once we were gone. We wanted both of you to seamlessly take over, and for it to be as easy as breathing. In this is our folly; we have tied the expectation and the responsibility of this tribe to your ankles like an anchor, and it has pulled you down and made you question everything. You might object and say 'Father, I love my tribe, of course, I'd do anything for them!' and that is true. I have no doubt you would give up your own personal happiness for us, to save us, and for that, I am equally grateful and honored as I'm sure everyone else is too.
But ask yourself Katara, deeply, is it because that's what we've told you to do, or is it because that's what you wish? Really, really consider it, I beg of you.
If you find that you have a passing romance with Zuko or your interests abroad have been sated, by all means, come back to us and I will never press the question again. However, if you at all find yourself torn, perhaps it is time to admit to yourself that it is my voice in the back of your mind keeping you tethered like an arctic bird to your shores, and it is your own heart that tugs you elsewhere?
Even writing to me speaks to me of the answer, and so I am letting you go. Katara, I am releasing you from your legacy. You gave up so much to save us and this is the only way that we can ever really thank you. You gave up your safety, your parents, your brother, and your own feelings to feed our people. But we are fed now; we are planting seeds to grow later, we are re-growing. Your need to remain at the Palace is no more unless you wish it. And if you wish, please stay.
You deserve your own life, free from what you've been led to think is your future. Sokka too; I have realized this as well. While your mother and I have raised children with so much heart that would never hesitate to stop and help others, we have never taught you how to take care of and love yourself. So do that; love yourself and your chosen path, and in doing so, I think you will realize where your heart lies. Love yourself as a separate entity from the Southern Water Tribe. Love yourself as Katara, whose possibilities lay endless before her with no due date back home, and all she has to do is start walking. Love yourself as Katara, the former heir apparent of the Southern Water Tribe, now armed with free choice to marry anyone she wishes and do whatever she wants with the rest of her life.
Our tribe will be fine. We are thriving. There are other people who can lead in the tribe, who can do it well. You are leaving us in fine hands, hands that will grow and blossom.
So, you are now open to love whoever you wish, but I believe we both know who holds your affections. It's not just the way you write about the Prince, it's how you two looked at each other. It's the way Sokka complains about how you two act in your letters home to me. It's the few pieces of media we are receiving from the Choice that makes it so abundantly clear that you are in love with Prince Zuko.
So I am letting go of you twice today, my darling daughter. I am releasing you of your obligation to your tribe and telling you that you've done such a wonderful job, and telling you you are banned from doing any further. Do not feel guilty, feel joy, as you take steps towards your new life. Secondly, I am letting go of my tiny child that I taught all that I know. This is my blessing to marry Zuko.
I hope to make it in time for a wedding.
With so much love,
Your Father.
Katara held the letter in her fingers, tears rolling down her cheeks. She stared across the Fire Nation and felt not a sense of longing and loneliness, but now a sense of belonging. She sniffled, smiling down and touching the letter gingerly.
"You're always right, dad," she whispered in a tender whisper, carefully folding the letter to keep safe for later.
As she got dressed for dinner, she wasn't quite sure what her brain was concocting, but she was briskly walking down the hallway before she really thought it through. There were still about two hours until mealtime.
If she asked herself, her father was correct. If she was freed to any sort of guilt about leaving her people, the only thing tying her to telling Zuko no was her reservation about her past lives, but even that hesitation felt like it was perhaps fading, or losing grip. All she knew was that she wanted to see Zuko right now. She wanted to tell him that she was serious and that she wanted to make things right in terms of her popularity, because for the first time since his proposal, Katara was sincerely thinking that she was going to say yes at the end of this moon. No, not just a thought, but a certainty, once the Fire Nation was ready for her too.
The idea thrilled her, and unlike before, she smiled stupidly to imagine their honeymoon and their life after. Her father had given the best gift...he'd released her and set her free. She would work through her issues with her identity in the half-moon remaining, she told herself, and by the end of the moon, there would be an end to the Choice.
More than any of this, Katara felt an intense need, a burning, a sort of compulsion to tell Zuko something very important. Three words, eight letters, and a small flicker of hope that had been left unsaid until now.
Katara stopped to pat her face dry in front of a mirror, and couldn't help but notice how warmly her cheeks were flushed and how her smile seemed to take up her entire face. She giggled into her hands, and she had a feeling that if anyone saw her right now, they would assume that the Prince had just proposed or something similar.
Katara turned and grabbed the volumes of her dress, but she had not taken more than another step forward when the wall beside her was blown out, she was thrown back into a pile of rubble, and fire poured like the incoming tide into the Palace walls.
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The alarm came as Zuko was dressing for dinner. Before dinner, he had about eighty million people (or so it felt) that he had to meet with, he promised Suki that they'd spend some time in the gardens together - she apparently needed to confide in him about something very serious - and he was also asked by the chefs to preview the meal. It was always great food, but nonetheless, he was glad people were starting to defer to him.
As the sirens rang out, Zuko poked his head out of his room, waving Atsushi and the Royal Dressers away as he tried to suss out what was going on now.
"What's the matter?" Ursa asked, throwing open her chamber doors, directing her attention to a guard.
"Not sure yet, ma'am," the guard said.
"False alarm, perhaps?" Lu Ten offered, his shirt halfway unbuttoned, changing outfits too.
"There are like twelve steps to sound the alarm. That would have to be one heck of a mistake," Zuko shook his head.
Azula came out, still dressed in sparring gear, her hair was slightly messy from what Zuko could only assume had been a vigorous and terrifying spar for whoever she was up against. It was still let down from a hair tie, which was very unusual for her, and she made no motion to throw it up as she started to see the situation going on. Ozai was the last one out, seemingly unconcerned.
The guards at the doors opened and relayed some information with another guard in the hall.
"It's the Equalists, Fire Lord," the guard stated, looking at Ozai.
"Can we just have a break?" Zuko groaned, seriously, already feeling exhausted for what was to follow.
"Perhaps it's a small matter. We did just see them at the outpost," Lu Ten said, tapping his finger against his chin.
"It's not, sirs," the guard gulped. "From the reports...from the guard that sounded the alarm, there are thousands, it seems." His eyes were wild with terror though he kept standing. "I think it's a coup."
Ursa gasped. "That serious? Are we sure?" And she wasn't wrong for asking. The few other times, well, it had been unclear what the goal of the Equalists was, but it mostly seemed rooted in stirring up mayhem, not taking such an aggressive political agenda as they apparently were now.
"It's a take no prisoners hold, my lady," the guard who had sounded the alarm announced gravely, shouldering his way into the hallway. "We need to get you all to safety."
"Nonsense! We can all fight," Azula cackled. "I think I'd enjoy cracking a few Equalists heads," she said, popping her joints. "I didn't do nearly enough at the outpost. You should get your share of blood too. And why did we keep any of those ladies if they cannot protect their palace?" she asked, looking at Zuko. "Guards, tell the girls to get ready to fight."
"You cannot just...pronounce that!" Zuko growled. "Yes, we might fight, but we just sent them to a battle! They've hardly recovered!" He was terrified that they had no more fight left in them, at least not today!
"Soldiers get no time to recover," Ozai agreed, "Azula is right."
And at that moment, Zuko wondered if Ozai had planned this. Had he sent the Equalists to the outpost to weaken the palace here so that no one - surely not the contestants - would have the energy to fight? Or had he sent some mischief makers to loot and sack so that no one would notice what was going on, that a group was gathering in preparation for much worse? But if so, why a coup? Why were the Equalists pressuring so hard? In so many ways, Ozai still held so much power (more than Zuko liked to admit), so why would this be his grand plan?
"It will have to be up to them. Are you going to keep tabs on them, mark on a scroll if they're participating like they're schoolgirls in class?" Lu Ten said with a tone of derision, shaking his head.
Ursa made a sharp inhale, and when Zuko looked at her, her face was white and she was shaking. His poor mother, he thought, was not built for these sorts of fights. She was staring at her children with such pain, such agony, as though she was imagining their deaths already.
"Mom?" Zuko prompted, coming to stand in front of her. Her eyes stayed focused forward, past Zuko, until he placed a hand on her shoulder. When she spoke, her voice shook.
"I don't think this is the time to be arguing. I'm going down to the safe box, and I would not fault anyone for joining me," Ursa said, begging her children to come. But Zuko couldn't; even if Azula wasn't staring with bloodlust in her eyes, he knew he could fight, and thus he should.
"Mother, I have a date with destiny," Azula said, brushing her off. "Guardsman Yaw, please escort my mother to the safe room," Azula commanded a guard standing nearby, before she threw open the doors with her hands, marching into the reddish light of the palace on fire.
Ursa swallowed hard, reaching for Zuko.
"Zuko, please, you must listen-"
But Zuko could not focus on his mother, not right now. He gave his mother an apologetic smile, trying to push the frantic look in Ursa's eyes from his memory. He turned to try to keep tabs on his father, but somehow, Ozai had already slipped away. When he spun around, his mother had too.
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Her eyelids fluttered open, but like someone had put sap between the folds, she could not keep them open.
Boom!
She inhaled, but dust caught up in her throat. Something was pressing down on her chest and she couldn't exhale it out properly.
eeeeeEEEEOOOHHHHeeeeeeee-
The sound around her ears was distorted and there was a warbling, waving ringing that was pounding in the back of her mind.
Boom! Boom! Boom!
Like she was underwater, she registered the sound of firepower; whether it was explosions or weapons, she couldn't guess. It all sounded so far away, so fake, and she was beginning to wonder if she was dreaming.
"-Oh great Spirits! Suki...Katara's here-"
Someone was yelling, but their voices were all mixed up, and Katara really struggled to make out what was being said.
She opened her eyes just an inch to see light streaming in, mixed in a heavy cloud of dust that was kicked up. Two people moved a piece of concrete off of her chest and all of a sudden, she was breathing again.
"Katara, hey? Are you there?" Suki pressed a hand to her cheek. "Katara!" She slapped it. Katara felt her mind snap-on, like a fire igniting suddenly, and she turned to retch up what felt like a moon's worth of dust and earth that had invaded her lungs.
"My head…" she said, groaning.
"You hit hard if I had to guess. It's bleeding." Suki pressed two fingers to Katara's temple and when she pulled her fingers away, they were sticky and red.
More than that, it felt like her brain itself had been scrambled. As she sat up, her ribs cracked and stopped her, holding her to the ground.
"Water?" she blubbered, both for her throat and her wounds.
Nadhari, who had found her, laughed. "Girl, it's burning up in here! If we had water, it would be to put out the fires."
As her fields of vision widened, she realized how hot the entire room was and how there was a fine sheen of sweat on Suki and Nadhari's cheeks and foreheads. As she came around, her brain playing catch-up, she saw the room for what it was fully: a room painted in fire. The tapestries were burning, the side tables were piles of ash, and the smoke clouded the tops of the ceilings, seeking ways out.
"We should move, before we become a pile of barbeque and bones," Suki said, trying to lift Katara, but her injuries made her cry out.
"Wait, wait, wait," Katara demanded, looking around for any source of liquid. Her blood slid down her cheeks and onto her pretty dinner dress, ruined and signed now.
Blood.
She didn't know if this would work at all, but she coated her fingers and then pressed it back to her forehead, encouraging it to stitch her mind, reduce the swelling. Slowly, achingly, she felt her clarity return like a view far away coming into focus. By the time she was done, she was able to heal her ribs quicker and yelped as she felt one of her ribs rejoin the bones together.
She wiped the remnants of the blood, not much left, on the wall (it was pretty much ruined anyway) and stood on her own, tearing her dress off, down to her slip so she could move easier.
Suki was smiling widely at her and gave a little clap. Nadhari was even shocked before she shook out her head.
"Bloodbending might be the devil's tool, but damn if that wasn't impressive," Nadhari admitted. "But let's not sit here and applaud Katara as some sort of goddess, let's fight."
"Equalists?" Katara had to guess.
"Yes, but they're more violent than before. And there are so many of them. Hundreds, thousands...I couldn't count. The palace is already halfway torn, and if they're not looting, they're killing. Or worse."
"So that's their goal? Down with the Royals?" Katara tried to understand.
"If I had to guess, maybe," Nadhari shrugged. "But it's not like I stopped one and I was like 'excuse me, sir, I realize you're disemboweling that politician, but do you mind explaining your evil master plot?'" she snorted.
"Right, just saying." Katara rolled her eyes. Even if her opinion of Nadhari had strengthened, only slightly, Nadhari was still a generally insufferable personality. "How are the halls? I need to get to-"
"Sokka?" Suki guessed, "He was already gone. I was close to his room when the attacks happened and knew he was recovering. The door was blown off, but there wasn't any blood," she said.
"That idiot better be hiding, not fighting," Katara growled. Had she been with him, she would have pulled his ass down to the catacombs like he'd done with her what felt like eons ago. However, knowing him (because she knew herself) he likely would think his wounds were healed enough and had jumped to help.
"This way!" Nadhari used her Earthbending to push aside some earth that had covered the hall, but it seemed to take a lot out of her to rearrange the fallen walls like this, "Back that way is only death."
"Is anyone we know dead?" Katara asked as she kept a jogging pace with the two others.
"Lots of guards. Oh, you know that guard that brought On Ji that strawberry tart when she bombed the presentations? He's gone." Suki sighed. "But I'm not sure. So many bodies are just burned beyond recognition."
Katara bit the inside of her cheek hard, nodding.
"What's our goal here, ladies?" Nadhari asked as they jumped over the rubble.
"Erm, not die?" Suki shrugged, "I doubt we're going to single-handedly turn the tide."
"It would be awesome if we could," Katara added. At that moment, she and Suki and Nadhari shared a quiet laugh, a feeling shared between those that did love the thrill of the fight, and she felt a blooming of friendship that, for a second, fizzled away her fear.
The feeling was interrupted by an Equalist barreling down the halls at them. They side-stepped him and Nadhari tripped his run.
"Let's just save some people, and be happy with that," Suki pointed out, throwing her fans into the back of an Equalist. As she tore it out, she raised one fan to deliver a final blow, but Katara jumped forward.
"Wait!" she said, pushing the enemy on their side. She took off their mask to reveal a fighter no more than thirteen. "They seemed too short...it's just a kid, who knows what Ozai has on them," she said, looking at the blood that fountained up through the boy's lips. "We can't kill him."
"Ozai?" Nadhari startled, "What do you mean what Ozai has?"
"He's the leader of the Equalists, obviously. I mean, he's kept it close to his chest, but it's pretty clear now," Katara said, looking up at Nadhari's dubious expression. "Oh, come on, it's not that hard to believe."
"Why would he wreck his own palace?" Suki waved a hand around. "I know that you like Lu Ten, but I think he's hiding something! It's always the ones you never expect."
"It's not Lu Ten," Katara growled, before turning to Nadhari. "Be...because he's power-crazy!" she said, staring back up. Suki sucked in her cheeks, clearly in disagreement.
"Nuh-huh, he's not." Nadhari examined Katara. "I-"
"You might want to stay on his good side, but Zuko knows. He basically told Zuko himself," Katara insisted. "It doesn't matter. He's enlisting kids, like the one at Abbey," Her throat closed as she spoke. "And even though they're killing us, we should be the better people."
"We might be dead people if we let them all live," Nadhari snorted. "But fine, fine. Let's just lock him in there." She pointed to a butler's cabinet. The three hoisted the boy into the mops and pails and shoved a big piece of the fallen ceiling in front.
"Are we going to do that for all of 'em? Just because some are adults doesn't mean they all chose this fight. Lots of people have skeletons in their closet," Nadhari asked, crossing her arms. Katara, who had been feeling good about not killing that boy, faltered.
"Uhm…"
"I'm not entirely sure right now is time for a moral conundrum. I say let's find Yue; out of all the contestants, she's the least able to defend herself," Suki said. "And I know she planned on going to the library to read before dinner. If I'm not turned around, the library is...this way!" She pointed down the hall.
"You got it," Nadhari said, continuing to help cleave away fallen earth and rubble. The farther in they went, the worse it got. It felt like a nightmare escape, one that had unseeable monsters and horrors Katara could never describe when she was awake. It seemed at every turn there was a shadow behind her, another person to fight. They incapacitated most; either way, when the fighting was over, if they were still alive, they'd be tended to.
The library was on fire too, books burning rapidly and falling to the ground to create a carpet of lost knowledge and crusting, flaming soot.
"Yue!" Suki cupped her hand and called, "Yue, are you alive?"
Katara used the three girls' sweat to create an ice sheet over some of the flames, which sizzled and sent smoke rising like trees around them. The floor crinkled as they walked over pages.
"Yue! Yue-"
"Wait, listen!" Katara shushed Suki. There was a whimpering from behind a shelf that had fallen to create a hide-out. Nadhari moved the earth under the library to tip the shelf the other way, revealing Yue blubbering and grasping her chest, an Equalist dead in front of her.
"Yue, are you okay?" Katara ran over to her, over the warm ground, hugging her shoulders.
"I...I didn't…" Yue sniffled, snot running down her face. Even now, she still looked stunning, which Katara thought was sort of unfair, but it was impressive on Yue's side.
"He's for sure dead. Drowned." Suki knelt down to the Equalist. She looked up at Yue with a question in her eyes.
"I waterbended. I didn't mean to, but he grabbed me and he had a knife and I was so scared." Yue wiped her eyes.
"Where did the water come from?" Katara questioned.
"I had a cup...I was drinking tea," Yue's eyes were wide. "I don't know what I did, Katara. I just wanted him dead at that moment, or rather, I wanted myself alive. And then he was choking on my tea and dropped. It was awful."
"Your first kill?" Nadhari asked sympathetically, "You don't often forget it, Princess." She pursed her lips. "Hey, you're fine now. I think you should stick with us."
"But...but you're fighting!" Yue frantically began to back up. "I won't, I won't, I can't...I can't.." she began to chant.
"Better than the alternatives. We'll keep you safe. It's dangerous by yourself and I'm not sure there are many hiding spots left," Katara pressed her hand to Yue's face. "Hey, hey...we'll make sure you don't have to waterbend again, alright?"
"Where are the others?" Yue looked up, "The girls? Zuko?"
"Haven't seen Prince Zuko yet," Suki sighed, "Fighting? And the rest, well, Mai ran off as soon as the sirens went. Besu too...and Ratana, erm," Suki trailed off. "Ozai was right about one thing. He's pared us down to those that would basically run right into a fight. So we're all battling," she said. "It's been hours. Who knows where everyone is now?"
"Hours?" Katara choked out. Great Tui and La, how long had she been knocked out for?
"It seems like minutes," Nadhari agreed, "But we're far past dinner. Glad I ate before, or I'd be starved."
Katara's stomach growled at that, but she tried not to think of it. She also tried not to worry about Zuko, or think of him too much, or what she wanted to tell him...or else she'd spiral and never get out of this panic.
"Let's try to get Yue to safety. I think I recall Zuko talking about a panic room, from the first big Equalist attack. Fire Lady Ursa will likely be there with the elderly and children. Not sure if we can get her in too, but it's worth a try." Katara pushed everything down and focused on getting Yue out of this alive.
"Right, where's that?"
"Behind the turtle-duck ponds, I think," Nadhari gulped, "Back the way we came."
"We can do it," Suki said without a beat. "We got this, girls."
They did not.
Not only was the way back through the palace more wrecked than before, at every turn they were fighting off at least eight Equalists all trying to get kill shots in. Even with their extensive knowledge of the palace, it seemed every new path they took brought them face to face with some unpleasantness. As good as fighters as they were, they were already exhausted, and all suffering wounds. Plus, for every Equalist they took down, another would jump into its place, leaving them fighting an uphill battle.
It took a bit, but finally, Katara realized after they had to retreat what felt like the hundredth time for a new way. "They're corralling us, pushing us to the center of the Palace," she said, realizing they had not made headway at all past a certain point. "They're encroaching on all sides. We're trapped."
Notes:
DUN DUN DUUUUUNNNNN!
Can you believe we only have two chapters left after this to finish it all out? I think the next chapter is about 16 pages (one of the longest yet!) and the chapter after that is 11, to give you a sense of how many words we have to leave this at a sense of resolution...well, as much resolution as a middle book of a trilogy can have XD
The next chapter will be released three weeks from now on September 10th. Even if my beta edits in two weeks, I know that I personally will likely not have the time. I'm starting a new job on Monday (second year as a teacher, first year with my own classroom), and it's an entirely different age group than what I studied in, so I'll probably be just playing catch-up for a bit XD
So who do you all think is the leader of the Equalists? Ozai? Ozai and someone else? Lu Ten? A different person entirely? Last chance to get your guesses in, because next chapter, all is revealed.
So, until then, enjoy!
Chapter 45
Notes:
Hello! Yes, I know that I’m early, but last night I went to see Shang-Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings and wow…I was just watching it going ‘damn, I hope that Avatar life-action is as cool as this’ because I was getting SUCH Avatar-vibes from it the entire time, down the main family basically mirroring the Royal Family, at just about the ages of my characters in this universe. And because I had an awful first week of work and nothing is as close to pure serotonin as getting comments on stories, well, here we are.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
"Treating us like chicken cows?" Nadhari spat on the ground. "Why don't I like the sound of that?"
"Because we know what happens to chicken cows," Suki said darkly, speaking out a rhetorical truth no one wanted to hear. Yue whimpered, clutching Katara's arm so hard that she was sure there would be half-moon imprints where her nails had taken hold.
The closer they were to the center of the palace, the more bodies they stumbled over, falling over as they attacked a never-ending march of people. Guards, help, politicians, daughters, and sons...the carnage of the bodies mixed with the heat made a noxious scent that had Katara gagging at each corner. Yue had refused to look at the ground at all, bravely holding her face forward and eyes high, tears trekking down her cheeks.
For those that were still mostly people, Suki would close their eyes with her fingertips and whisper some ritualistic prayer of the afterlife.
In Katara's culture, this felt like she was trespassing through Adlivun, the underground place of the deceased. It was a holding cell, where one was frozen in time until they could be purified, and she always imagined it to be like a frozen storage room, where bodies piled high, unseeing and unmoving. Though her grandmother had always described it as a necessary step in moving forward to eternal bliss, the concept had greatly distressed Katara as a child, and she was no more soothed to make this connection.
She felt like she too should not be alive here, as though their souls were moments away from being discovered and soon, they too, would just be motionless bodies against the wall, waiting for the afterlife.
"Ozai's cleaning house," Suki hissed, trying not to cry as she closed the eyes of Shi, their fashion consultant, who was stabbed over a fainting couch, her blood dripping onto the floor.
"I'm still not sure-" Nadhari started, but a great bang ceased her arguments. The wall to the side of them was blown up with the pyrotechnics the Equalists had been utilizing all day, and Lu Ten fell through the side of the wall. Suki instantly grabbed Yue closer to her, narrowing her eyes.
"Ladies, oh, thank Agni you're still alive," he said, and Katara was sure it was all death on his end too. "Are you all okay?"
"Lu Ten, what about you?" Yue squeaked, "Your hand!" It was mangled, perhaps three fingers remaining on the stump.
"I'll survive it." Lu Ten frowned. "But it hurts," he did admit. Katara stepped forward to try to heal him, but there was no time. From the wall came another flood of Equalists, and Lu Ten shoved them forward, out of the sitting room, farther into the center of the complex.
They crashed over the grand doors, Katara cursing as her leg hit the hardwood of the door and she went down forcefully onto the ground. The doors behind them closed and locked with an audible click and Katara rolled on her back, groaning up to the ceiling.
"Katara, get up!" Suki grabbed her arms. "Look…"
Katara shuffled to her feet to realize that they were in the receiving room of the Royal Throne Room, where people waited to be brought in. Now though, you might mistake it for a Grievance Day with how many people milled about, though it was all people who were panting and nursing wounds. All those that could fight. Katara guessed if you couldn't, you were already dead.
She realized with a jolt that she hadn't even realized where they were, what with the Palace so foggy, dusty, and utterly destroyed.
"Katara! Suki! Nadhari! Yue!" Zuko shoved through the hundreds of people. "You're all alive!" he said, hugging all of them. He was looking worse for wear, his whole face sooty and his shirt hanging by a few threads. Lu Ten clasped Zuko's shoulder, sighing in relief. Zuko's face paled at his cousin's hand, but there wasn't a moment free to talk to each other.
"Is everyone else alive?" Yue questioned immediately, "Why...why are we here? I don't understand, Prince Zuko!"
"It's not good. They pushed us into here...all of us."
"I know," Katara winced. "They wanted us all here, for some reason."
"The rest?" Nadhari asked for Yue again.
"As far as I can tell, alive. I haven't seen Besu yet, but the rest of the contestants are here. I can't say much of anyone else, though," he added, looking down.
"Well, let's see!" Suki growled, and she began to stalk toward one set of heavy gilded doors, but before she could, a thousand men dropped from the ceiling, blocking the entire circle in an impenetrable barricade of their bodies and a rock wall that formed. If anyone else was shoved through the door into the room, they'd part, but would merge back together again to keep everyone in.
Suki still tried to press through but was swiftly kicked onto her back. Zuko caught her before she fell.
"I know that fighting style," she said, eyes wide, "It's Dai Lee!"
In the time Suki had tried to figure out how to get through and been beaten, Ratana had wandered over, holding her ear. At the very least, her eardrum had been popped and at the very worst, she was down one ear entirely. It was hard to tell with the blood that currently coated her head.
"Ty Lee has her own fighting school? Since when?" she asked loudly, unable to gauge her own voice.
"No, no, the Dai Lee," Nadhari corrected. "They're a highly-skilled military group from Ba Sing Se. I...I thought they were loyal to the Earth King?"
"Who's loyal to Ozai," Zuko said darkly. "This is low. No wonder we lost so quickly. I wonder what he promised them," he said. Sure, it stretched on for hours, but in terms of big life-changing battles, this hardly felt like more than a second before they were pushed to here. All the energy they'd spent was worthless, and if Katara knew this was their endgame, she'd just have waited for...well, for whatever was coming after this.
"If we all survived, we're all fighters." Nadhari looked around the group. "So we could try to take them."
"You're from Ba Sing Se. You know that's impossible," Suki coughed, rubbing her stomach where they'd battered at her. "And there are hundreds of Equalists behind those doors!"
"So we just give up?" Nadhari shook her head. "We accept defeat and let ourselves die?"
"No, there has to be another way!" Katara agreed.
Zuko was looking around. Katara caught his gaze.
"The throne room...my father's probably in there…" he mumbled. "He's the one controlling it. We need to get in there. It also has an escape hatch out of the Palace, and people can run."
"I'll find the others," Yue said, glad to be of any help. Before anyone could stop her, she had weaved into the crowd. She brought the rest of the contestants back, along with Sokka, who Katara was grateful to see alive.
"Sokka! You idiot!"
"Hey, what now? How am I the idiot here?" Sokka asked, but hugged her back just as tightly. He seemed to have no more injuries than he started with, thank the lucky stars. Arrluck and Hahn were right on his tail.
"He saved my life. Whoever would think a boomerang could do so much damage!" Arrluck's smile was wide.
"It always comes back," Sokka said with a wink, making Katara groan at his horrible, horrible humor. It wasn't even a joke, it was just a statement, but from Sokka's tone, it was clear he thought he was making some clever pun.
"What's the plan?" Lu Ten asked, noticing everyone gathering. He ushered them to the middle of the room, so it would be harder for their captors to see them gathering.
"We need to get into the Throne Room. There might be Equalists on the other side, but the only way in is through here unless they crawled up the exit chute, so I doubt it. Or not as many, I guess," Zuko said under his breath, quietly so that the Dai Lee didn't hear.
"We all storm the Dai Lee there," Mai agreed, "And anyone who slips through or can make it, go."
"Everyone good on the plan?" Suki whispered, reaching for Katara's fingers. Katara grabbed Ratana on her other side and all the girls joined fingers, along with the boys they'd found too.
"It's that or die. I'd rather go down fighting than be slaughtered like ducks in a barrel," Nadhari agreed with a sense of resolution.
"Okay, on three…"
Katara inhaled on Besu's counting.
"One."
She looked at Sokka, and he looked back, reaching out to squeeze her shoulder. She pressed her cheek to the back of his hand, exhaling hard.
"Two."
She turned to Suki and Yue, wanting to express how much she loved their friendship, and how they'd made a scary place seem welcoming.
"Three."
And finally, she looked at Zuko. There was neither the time nor ability to speak what she wanted to say, but from the way he took the time to look at her last as well, she knew in her heart that they were solid and maybe, just maybe, he already knew.
"Go!"
Besu's pitched cry sent everyone forward. As soon as the girls and the Water Tribe started attacking one specific area, it seemed everyone left got the message. Soon, it wasn't just their small group, but everyone. The Dai Lee was pulling people back from behind, from the sides, from the ceiling, but they were starting to make a dent. They were taking down the Dai Lee and pulling them into the fray where there were a hundred beaten but furious fighters from the palace.
Sokka punched one of the agents in the face. Katara managed to use some of the man's spit and blood as he spat out a tooth to break the lock on the door. It creaked open, just a bit, the light from the fire torches spilling onto the fighting bodies.
It was enough.
Katara catapulted over a Dai Lee agent, scrambling over his back to reach the opening. Zuko blazed a path for himself and the pair fell ungracefully onto the floor. Katara grabbed his arm and pulled him in. Before someone managed to fill the gap they'd created, Mai slid under the feet of the Dai Lee, the third and final person able to gain access to the Throne Room.
The doors behind them slammed with an echoing, haunting sound.
As expected, Ozai was there. He was pacing. He turned, staring down the group, and for a second, no one moved.
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Zuko stared his father down.
"Father, please, end this." He spoke first to the empty room. His voice echoed and tattered off, as though metaphorical of how small he had once felt, how helpless his cries had been his entire life. Not anymore. Though his voice phrased it as a question, it was spoken as a demand.
Ozai paused, frowning.
"I'm not sure I know what you mean."
Zuko wanted to pull his hair out and scream. "Don't do that! Just stop it! Stop this!" Zuko threw his hands back towards the closed doors where he could still hear the hint of brawls on the other side.
"Zuko, if I knew how to stop this, don't you think I would?" Ozai questioned, stalking up to Zuko. "I'm a victim here too, put here for Agni knows what."
Zuko laughed darkly. Always trying to wriggle out of the blame. Likely story. Convenient, even.
"Are you joking? How do you stand here in your safety while the people you promised to protect are burning!" Zuko pushed on his father's chest, hard. He felt his hands quake with an anger that had been building, seething and festering beneath the surface for years.
"I-" Ozai began, but Zuko cut him off.
"The Palace is destroyed and nearly everyone is dead. Haven't you done enough?" He thundered. His question hung in the air. It was only now Zuko realized, strangely, there were no Equalists or Dai Lee agents in here. Just Ozai.
Ozai regained his balance, inhaling hard. A breath of hot air exited his nose.
"Zuko, you are speaking gibberish and I have no clue what you refer to. The palace is under attack and none of us are safe, but the damn exit chute is blocked," he growled, "We must figure out a way to save the palace or else-"
"Ha, yeah, acting as though you care for the audience here. They already know, Dad."
Ozai shook his head. "Know what?" For just a second, Zuko thought he saw it. True fear. But no...his father was just a good actor, and even so, it was impossible to confirm, as a moment later, Ozai was just looking at him with annoyance.
Zuko spat, rolling his eyes. He wiped his face and it came back black and chalky. His whole body ached; not just from the strain of fighting, but from the exhaustion of always chasing his father's approval, always hoping things would turn out good...and then being so disappointed when Ozai let him down, time after time.
He didn't want to love his father. He didn't, but yet, it felt like Ozai was reaching into his chest and grasping, squeezing, and popping his heart every time he wasn't the father you heard about in fairytales. Maybe children were pre-designed to love parents, and maybe this was the cruelest fate had ever been to him.
Because Zuko hated him. He hated his father and he loved him, and this made him hate himself too.
But this wasn't just about Zuko anymore. It was about the world burning behind him.
"This ends here." Zuko straightened his back, looking back at Mai and Katara who were in battle-ready position, "I do this for me. I am tired of running. It's time I face you, my disappointment of a father."
"Zuko-" Katara hissed, shaking her head. He knew she was thinking that Ozai would throw some awful trick his way. Likely so, but this was his family. His father.
In a sense, his responsibility.
And honestly? Wasn't this his fault, in a way? Shouldn't he have...done something long ago?
"I don't like this," Mai said, never dropping her pose, staring right at Zuko. "Do you know what you're doing?"
Zuko shrugged, but honestly, all he was doing was trying to keep things together at this point.
"Fire Lord Ozai. I challenge you to an Agni Kai!" he said, and Katara inhaled sharply. He was so young last time, so unprepared for what an Agni Kai actually meant. He had assumed it would be glory and honor, and that people would write songs about him. He would never forget the taste in the back of his throat as his mother placed a bandage over his eye in his room that night and he sobbed, the new Heir Apparent, all alone in this world.
He was older now, better. He wouldn't let his father get the upper hand on him this time.
Ozai crossed his arms. "No, Zuko-"
"You aren't going to run from this!" Zuko threw a line of fire toward his father. "Fight, fight, you coward!" he demanded.
"Is this truly the time?" Ozai asked, circling Zuko in the throne room. His robes had caught a bit of fire and he threw them off, staring down Zuko.
"This is the only time!" Zuko insisted, "Or else this will never end. We'll live our whole lives waiting for another attack, another tragedy. No, no." Zuko's fists shook and he could feel the fire rising in him. "Now."
"Insolent children will learn their place, then. I suppose you need another quick reminder," Ozai snarled, his own need to control erasing the logic of the timing. "You never did learn, did you?"
Something equally mixed in regret and triumph pooled in Zuko's stomach. He pushed it down, throwing out his hands.
"Maybe you're just a shitty teacher."
His dad threw a fireball at him, something burning so hot that when it landed behind them on a wooden receiving table, the table burned up immediately. Katara let out a squeak, but Mai motioned for her to join her, as out of the way as they possibly could be.
Zuko hadn't forgotten that his father was a good Firebender, one of the best actually, but there was something up his sleeve that his father didn't have: love. The love Zuko had for the contestants, his mother, his Uncle and cousin, the people outside. Ozai fought for his own power, but Zuko fought for everyone, so that this nightmare may end.
But most importantly? Zuko fought for himself. He fought for the terrified thirteen-year-old that refused to harm his cousin, who had the courage then to take down his father, who had been desperately seeking approval ever since to never get it.
He fought so his father could never hurt anyone again. So he couldn't hurt Zuko, or his mother, or Katara, or the Fire Nation. And as Ozai looked over at Katara, a wicked idea gleaning in his eyes, Zuko found a fury and darkness he didn't know he had inside of him.
Hurt him, fine. Hurt Katara or Mai or anyone else he cared about? No, no...unacceptable.
"Your fight is with me!" Zuko's fists pummeled out lick of fire after fire. It was not tiring, it was invigorating. And for the first time, Zuko saw his steps falter as he pushed his father back, one burst of sparks at his feet at a time until he was backed up to the golden doors with the rest of the survivors on the other side.
"Zuko, you have proven your point!" Ozai growled, too close range to do much. Or perhaps he saw the look in Zuko's eyes. For once, maybe he was seeing his son as a worthy opponent. "Stop this, so we can figure out how to fight the real enemy; the Equalists! We can do it together, I know it. You are going to be a glorious Fire Lord, just as I led and shaped you to be."
He'd always wanted to hear it. But now, something snapped inside of him. It was the anger, the agony, the hurt from years back he'd tucked away. It was the horror that this man could lay a finger on him and harm him so terribly and then act with the audacity as though he'd done his son a favor. It was the years Zuko spent chasing any hint that his father loved him, only to see him praise Azula time and time again and leave Zuko feeling like shit. It was his father's treatment toward Katara and the Water Tribe. It was Aang's voice in his mind, telling him that leaders make hard choices, and remembering the emptiness when they woke up in reality and realized Shoji wasn't there with them, or Roku confirming that if he could do it all again...Ozai would never have existed.
It was the screaming on the other side of the door; the sound of people losing a battle, dying inches away from him.
His father would never stop. As long as Ozai was here to command the Equalists, to grasp power in his fingers and squeeze until he had every last drop, this was not going to end.
But Zuko had to end it today before there was no one left to save, no one left to govern.
He grabbed Ozai's shirt, pressing him against the door, and of all things...his father laughed.
"Oh, come now," he said, "We both know you don't have that sort of violence in you, we learned that seven years ago."
"Burn in hell," Zuko spat, heating his fingers so quickly that Ozai had only a moment to realize his folly and try to claw away, but it was too hot.
The heat burned through his skin, to his heart, and for the briefest second, Zuko could feel it fluttering, his fingers just on it. His only thought was that he hoped it hurt like nothing he'd ever felt. Zuko didn't stop until Ozai was slumped against the door, unmoving.
There was silence. Silence in his mind, though there was still a cacophony on the other side.
"On my Agni!" Mai said, her voice laced with shock, the most emotion she'd ever mustered.
"He's dead?" Katara took a tentative step forward. Zuko stumbled a few feet away, wanting to cry with relief. It was over now. It was going to be better. He would rebuild, marry Katara (hopefully), and put all of this behind him. He could stop fighting. He'd done it. He'd finally stood up for himself, and he'd saved his nation.
"He is," Mai checked, wincing at the warmth in his body that was still pulsing, hot as lava. "Zuko, spirits-" She was looking at him with...was that pity? Didn't she see that he had to? That he had no other choice left?
"It needed to end," Zuko said numbly, shoving the doors open. There was extra power behind him, so much so that the doors broke off their hinges and crashed, startling everyone.
"Equalists! Your leader is dead!" Zuko threw a finger back to his father's lifeless body. "Run now before you suffer his same fate too!"
There was not a soul moving. Lu Ten was looking at Zuko with unimaginable sorrow and worry, but Zuko ignored him. Pride swelled in his chest; he'd fixed this. He had saved the Fire Nation!
But none of the Equalists moved. No one ran, no one backtracked.
There was a slow clapping behind him. It was menacing, with every slap of flesh meeting flesh, a pit of despair grew in Zuko's stomach, though he wasn't sure why yet.
He turned and saw Azula sitting upon his father's throne, legs crossed, wearing a golden dress of woven finery. Her hair was combed until it gleamed, falling like a waterfall down her back, her bangs in front of her forehead, perfectly straight across, as even as the blade of a knife. Her dress had a train that cascaded down the steps onto the floor, and it shone like liquid fire.
And he realized...he hadn't seen her fighting for a long time. She hadn't been in the receiving room, she hadn't been trapped, and she hadn't helped break the door down. Had he thought she was among the dead? No, not realistically, but...
"Bravo, oh, bravo, Zuzu," Azula said, lounging like she owned her seat. "Three cheers for Mr. Intelligent," she mocked. Then, she tapped her chin. "Wait, did I say 'intelligent'? I meant 'the fool'."
"Azula?" Mai whispered, eyebrows knit and mouth hanging open.
"Nevermind her!" Zuko growled, turning around to the Equalists that were standing at attention. "Are we going to have to fight you off too? Leave, Ozai is dead! Your leader-"
"...Is right here. You still, even now, thought that dear old dad had the brains to pull that off? You give him far too much credit." Azula flipped her hair, cascading down her back, untamed.
"You're the leader of the Equalists?" Katara choked, eyes frantic and as big as the moon.
"Ah, I knew you were clever, Katara." Azula smiled warmly at her. "And you, Zuko, just admitted to the entire Nation you committed patricide. If I recall correctly...that makes you a traitor of the utmost danger. It's also punishable by death."
Cold despair shocked Zuko's system. He shook his head, inhaling too quickly, too fast. He couldn't breathe.
"Why?" Mai demanded, "Why!"
"It's obvious I'm the true heir, I don't know why my father never realized it either. I'm the better fighter. I'm the one with guts in the family, I'm the one who makes choices, and I'm the one who was unnoticed in the shadows, as though I was a stupid little girl who didn't know better! If my father was here, he'd notice me now!" Azula's pitch rose with each point, until she was yelling, her eyes wide. She took in Katara's expression and sat back down, restoring her voice to a cold and even tone. "When it was clear he was still rooting for Zuko - and spirits know why... it was clear that a bit more of a direct approach was needed."
"So you burn your entire Palace down to be the Fire Lady? You're insane!" Katara spat at her.
"Careful with our language. Words hurt, Princess," Azula tutted. "And no, I'm not the Fire Lady. You know, sometimes things need to be burnt down to be rebuilt again, better and stronger." She gave a wicked grin, placing a crown on her head. "I'm the Phoenix Queen."
"The...what?" Zuko tried to gasp out, but his heart was still beating too hard. He felt the blood in his ears, like a death knell. He couldn't get enough air in. Spirits, was it always so hot in here?
"Guards, grab my brother. He's a traitor and needs to be dealt with." Quickly and without pause, the Dai Lee moved forward, along with some of the Palace guards. How far down did this go? How many people were on his sister's side, planning his downfall? Was it the people that brought him his meals? The men that helped him get his military kit buckled? The maids that cleaned his room?
Zuko fought against them, bucking like a wild stallion. He elbowed one in the nose and kicked another at the shins, escaping their grasp and stumbling to the middle of the room. Instantly, Katara was at his side, fighting too. Katara tipped over the sconces that burned oil and created a huge octopus around the two of them, working at once to lash out with eight different limbs, pushing the enemies away. As soon as she'd doused those that tried to grab the pair, Zuko set them ablaze, pressing closer and closer to Katara, fighting back to back.
"Mai! Get Azula!" he yelled. Mai snapped her head up, deer-in-headlights, looking at Azula. There was a terrible second where Zuko was not sure if she could go against her former best friend, but Mai ran at Azula with all her knives out.
He had faith in Mai, but apparently not enough. Within minutes, Azula was kicking her down the stairs, face twisted in utter fury at Mai.
"Grab her," Azula said to a guard, who hoisted Mai up and kept her steady.
"We're backed into a corner, Zuko," Katara hissed, but he could tell she was seconds away from crying.
"Seems like a common location for us."
Despite it all, his heart surged when he heard her laughter. That was enough for him.
His back was to Azula as he fought the invaders that seemed never-ending from the reception room, but he saw a flash out of the corner of his eye. He shouldn't have turned his back on Azula. He should have kept her firmly in his sights.
He only had seconds to spin Katara around before the lightning hit him instead.
He took the worst of it, falling to the ground and screaming. It racketed through Katara too, bolts that caused her to drop to her knees, and then her stomach in a jerking motion, and for the oil octopus to splash down around her.
That was it, the end of it. Zuko's fingers reached for Katara's as he felt the guards bind both of them. She sent him a worried look but didn't want to look away from him.
"It will…" He almost said it would be okay, but he couldn't even lie to himself about that. Too soon, he was yanked away from Katara's hands and he fought, squirming as hard as he could.
"To the dungeons, until we can do this publicly," Azula said with a lazy wave of her finger, as though she was picking out the color of her evening dress and not sentencing her brother to his doom.
Zuko screamed for Katara, knowing what was coming for her too until his voice gave out.
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Katara felt weak as Zuko was taken from her. She could hardly move, the lightning still jerking through her limbs and causing spasms as she lay face-down in the oil.
"Now comes the time for you all to pledge your loyalty!" Azula yelled, motioning for the Equalists and Dai Lee to shove everyone who survived forward. "Take the knee and swear fealty to me or join the fate of our former, disgraced Prince Zuko," she said menacingly, walking among the lines of people. She began at Mai.
"I will forgive your lapse of judgment, but you see now? Zuko does not care for you. He took lightning for Katara, willing to die for her," Azula said, "So pick up your sorrow and come with me. We can find you a better husband."
Mai looked at Katara, and for a second, as her eyes flashed, Katara expected the worst. Then, she gave a rickety laugh, something that sent Azula's lips fluttering into a frown.
"What? Stop laughing! Stop it!" Azula demanded, slapping Mai. "Answer me!"
"I love Zuko more than I fear you, even if he loves Katara more. That will never change," Mai said bravely, shaking her head. "You never understood that, did you? And you never will."
"The dungeons then," Azula said, trying to act as though she was unruffled, but failing.
Next, she walked to the crowd. Katara managed to drag herself into a seated position, but couldn't do more lest she wanted a kick from her captors.
"Pledge your allegiance! Kneel before me!"
Katara turned her body, watching as most of the guards, the Equalists, and the Dai Lee kneeled. She spotted Tahoe upfront and her heart broke as he bowed in reply.
"My reverent queen," he welcomed in a tone that told Katara he had never been anything but rooting for her. Azula gave a smile, nodding to Tahoe.
"Workers?" she asked next. Katara understood as most kneeled; they were facing death, and it was easy to throw away your morals. She saw many of the handmaids sobbing as they did so, their legs shakily bringing them down.
A few politicians knelt, but about half were carted away as they stared Azula down.
"You will burn this world into the ground. You have no idea what you're doing," one of the politicians said. Katara saw the anger shake through Azula and she grabbed him, pushing lightning right into his heart. He dropped instantly.
"I know exactly what I'm doing," Azula muttered to his lifeless body. It was a warning. A public display. She just...left him there. A few politicians dropped to swear loyalty to her, the threat of death more real than just merely carting them to somewhere unseen.
For those that tried to switch allegiance after seeing a fellow politician killed, Azula rounded them up, separate from the regular holdouts and rebellion.
"If there's one thing I hate the most, it's wishy-washy yellow-bellied cowards," she said with a snarl, and then quieter, so the guard closest to her was the only one to hear. "Gather those that tried to swear fealty after spitting in my reign and execute them once you leave."
Katara tried to motion to a few to run, but they hadn't heard. They thought they were safe from death now.
They were marched outside of the throne room. The guards didn't wait until they were even outside of the palace; everyone could hear the screams, and Azula just listened, a pleased expression on her face. Yue's face was drained of all color, and of those left standing, she looked two seconds from fainting. Sokka was comforting her, and his whispers caught Azula's attention.
The few that were left were the contestants and her family.
"Do I even need to ask you?" Azula asked, up close to Sokka. He took a step away from Yue, looked outside as though that horrifying display had changed the answer Katara knew he was about to say, before he grinned.
"Nah, die, bitch," Sokka responded, throwing his hands. "With regards from the Southern Water Tri-" His words were cut off as a Dai Lee grasped him, covering his mouth and dragging him away.
Arrluck put out his wrists too, silent as he narrowed his eyes at Azula.
She turned to Hahn. "Hahn, baby, don't you want to kneel to your Queen? I'm sure I can properly reward you," she flirted, swiping a nail under his chin and doing what Katara assumed was an attempted giggle.
"You're crazy! You're batshit crazy! You're the type of crazy they write stories about, no way, I wouldn't touch you with a twenty-foot pole! Yuck!" Hahn sputtered, shivering.
"Oh, you break my heart," Azula sighed.
He paused, shocked. "Really?"
"No," Azula shoved him back into the arms of an Equalist, "Away with him too."
Then, she turned to the remaining contestants.
"Honestly, do I have to ask you all individually?" She sighed, as though sending people to their deaths was such an exhausting task for her.
The girls looked at each other, and Cillia nodded. A sort of understanding that Katara wasn't positive about, but had a good guess.
"No, you don't. None of us will ever bow to you," Ratana said, holding out her hands for the rest of the girls to join. "Throw us away, kill us, do what you have to, but you'll never get our loyalty. You will never know what true honor means, Princess."
"That's the Phoenix Queen to you, you little rat," Azula said, though Katara could see how her face changed to more and more furious as none of the constants fell to her. Ratana, to Yue, to Suki, to Besu, to Cillia, to…
Nadhari took a step forward. She knelt down in one single, fluid movement, touching her nose to the floor.
"Accept my fealty to yours forever, my magnificent Queen," she said. Azula looked like she'd just found the last dessert when she thought there was none left.
"Nadhari, you are the only smart one of this group, please stand," she crooned, helping Nadhari to her feet. "You will be rewarded fabulously for this. I will make you rich, and you will get your pick of men. Besides Zuko, of course, sorry."
"Thank you, thank you," Nadhari stumbled over her gratitude, "I pledge myself to you!"
"How dare you!" Cillia yelled at Nadhari as the group was shoved back. "You spit in Zuko's name doing this! You're a disgrace! How dare you, how dare you!" Her sobs and the shock of her betrayal lingered in the air.
At this point, only Katara and Lu Ten remained. Lu Ten was looking at Azula with pity.
"Get him out of my sight. I can't stand that look from him. I'm the Queen now, what right does he have to look at me like that?" Azula muttered to herself, sounding half-mad as Lu Ten allowed himself to be led away too. Lu Ten sent Katara one last look, and she hoped it would be reassuring.
It wasn't. Lu Ten was looking at her as though he was sure this was the last time he'd lay eyes on her.
"If you choose the right side," Azula said, realizing she still had a crowd, those that had bowed were still on the ground, terrified to stand without permission, "You will be given honor and rewards. I know the Palace needs a bit of renovation currently, but the Dai Lee will help you find suitable rooms. Go, and sleep well knowing you have picked the right side of a new era, one no one will forget!" There was a pause. "Go, now." It was a steely cold command.
No one lingered. The hall cleared out within seconds.
Katara felt her fingers move on the floor. They weren't obeying her commands fully and it seemed like her heart was beating irregularly.
"Where is my mother?" Azula demanded of a guard that entered.
"Phoenix Queen...she's gone."
"Gone? What do you mean by gone?" She wasn't yelling, but her tone was so much more terrifying when she was deadly calm. "Where is the guardsman that was supposed to...escort her?"
"The safe room was deserted. I don't think she ever made it there. Guardsman Yaw is dead. He was found near the Royal Bedchambers with a ruby hairpin in his neck."
Azula kicked the wall and the torches burst in an angry blue flame. "Who would have thought mummy dear would be quite so problematic?" she growled to herself. "How very disappointing. What kind of mother doesn't want to see the glory of her own daughter?"
She turned to the guard, who didn't realize it wasn't rhetorical. "Answer!"
"Uhm, well, perhaps-"
Apparently, Azula was searching for one answer, and this was not it.
There was a gurgling noise, and Katara watched the guard smack on the ground next to her, the sound bouncing around the now empty chambers. Katara's heart thudded fast and she inhaled sharply, face to face with the dead guard.
"Ugh, he had one job," Azula said, wiping her hands and cleaning them on the dead guard's clothes. "And absolutely useless to me. I'll just say he died in the attacks...no one would question anyway," she said with a shrug.
"Guardsman…" She snapped at another guard.
"Karv, your elegance."
"Guardsman Karv, what kind of mother does that?" she asked a second time.
"A terrible, terrible mother. She doesn't deserve a daughter as brilliant as you."
"Quite right," Azula said, and Karv sighed in relief at getting her question correct. "You know, she always looked at me like I was a monster," she pouted.
"That's terrible, your queen," Karv choked out, "What an awful thing to express to your own child."
"Well, she was right. Still hurt though." Azula said, adjusting her crown carefully on her head. The blood from the guard Azula had killed washed against Katara's skin, and though she'd seen much blood today, this made her want to puke. Katara gulped and it did not go unnoticed by Azula. She turned, smiling like she had a secret. "You're likely wondering why you're still here, Katara, hmm?"
"Killing me personally, Azula?" Katara asked, left even more alone with Azula sans two Dai Lee agents. All this time, Katara's mind had been working. She was trying to figure out how to fix this, how to survive and get out of this. There had to be one last-ditch solution, something that would come to her at the last moment, and she'd bust out and save everyone, or...or…
Or, she had to admit that they were beaten and she had not a counter of days above her head, but mere hours.
They had lost and there was no escaping this.
"No, Katara, I'm offering you my hand. Sit at my right hand, be my advisor. You are the only worthy one of such a high position, we both know it," Azula insisted. "We all know you've never been like the rest of those girls."
Once so early on, Katara would have agreed. She would have laughed and known she wasn't interested in makeup or dress-up or swooning over boys. She was made of heartier stuff, she was from the tundra. Now, the words felt bitter in her mind.
"That's where you're wrong, and that's why they all denied you." Katara gave a watery smile, the smile of someone who knew she was not going down alone. "I am exactly like all those other girls and I'm happy to be so."
"Ah, Katara, the game is up. I know what you are. No need to play coy or pretend," Azula said, helping Katara up. Her legs wobbled. She blinked in confusion at Azula. Azula was even calling over a healer, with the intent to make sure Katara was more or less still okay.
"Pardon?"
"You're a goddess, a spirit, obviously. You've been sent here to prove it's my destiny to rule. Why else would a spirit in the flesh appear that matches me at every turn? It was annoying at first, of course, but once I realized during the tournament what you were...my mind opened. It became clear. I knew my plan was just. At first, I thought perhaps it was Kuzon- ugg, he had to be the Avatar, but I know it's you. We have a glorious purpose to uphold, don't you see?"
Katara stared at Azula trying to keep her jaw shut. Holy flying pigs, Azula was certifiably insane!
"You have it all wrong," Katara tried to explain, whining because of course the one person that had to figure it out (albeit entirely wrong, but still) was the person she hated most, now that Ozai was dead.
"So you don't deny it?" Azula looked like a kid on her birthday, but her smile was just a tad off like she was practicing in a mirror but wasn't doing it naturally. "Oh, Katara, with you up there with me...we could bring this world to its knees. They'd never overlook a woman again, never call us stupid or say 'at least you have a pretty face'", she spat mockingly. "Your tribe wouldn't be the but of every joke...imagine!"
"But you're killing Zuko," Katara breathed out, even saying those words out loud made her want to curl up and cry forever, and never get up again.
"Hmm." Azula rolled her eyes, snorting. "We're still hung up on him? Geez…"
"He's...I...Azula, he's a spirit too," Katara said, hoping perhaps she could save his life as well.
"I know you care about him for some unfathomable reason, but Katara, I thought you knew better than to make up stories with me," Azula said. Katara brought in a deep breath. Once Azula had convinced herself of something, there was no getting out of it. She would believe until the day she died that Katara was here to help her rule and never listen to a word of reason otherwise.
"You have to know I'd never agree," Katara ground out, still finding the strength to raise her chin. Azula paused, as though she genuinely had not expected such a hiccup in her plans.
"Fine," she snapped like a petulant child who had their toy taken away. "To the dungeons with you too! We'll see if a few days in there change your mind."
"It won't," Katara snarled, hoping Azula understood.
"As much as it would pain me, because I have seen the vision with you helping me and it is sublime, Princess," Azula breathed, exalted, "I will let nothing get in my way. Not even the fickle, traitorous mind of a god."
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It was dark.
It was cold.
She was hungry.
She was damp.
The dungeons were endless, stretched-out time with no way to tell how long she'd been in here. There were no windows.
While there was moisture, Katara was far too weak to waterbend at all, and as it was, she was chained and her hands were covered. Even more so, the guards stayed far away from her, imagining she might bend their bodies to release her.
And she would if she didn't fear she was mere days from death.
It lingered in the back of her mind like a scavenger crow, circling every time she closed her eyes. She could feel the pressure, the fear, the knowledge that that lightning bolt had messed her up good and well, and she'd never gotten a good chance to recover; no warm beds, no nutritious food, nothing but the harshness of the dungeons and the way the cold chill seeped down to her very bone.
"This is better," she said out loud, slightly delirious.
Yes, she told herself, dying here was better than dying by Azula's hand, which seemed inevitable at this point. Each moment, her heart thudded and she wondered if this was it, the moment she would be collected and killed in front of all Azula's new acolytes, and they would cheer.
When she felt her mind running at a semi-normal pace, Katara replayed everything in her mind. Everything from the moment she stole upon that boat to the Fire Nation. Would things have ever been different? What would have happened had she never arrived? Was there a path, somewhere down the line, where this could have been avoided? Would all of this have been stopped had she accepted Zuko's proposal sooner?
Somewhere, she knew it wouldn't have. She'd been under the impression that Ozai was the stone in the river, but it was Azula. She'd been plotting to overthrow Zuko from before Katara even arrived. She would have still done it. She would have still overthrown Zuko and Katara even if they had been the Fire Lord and Lady, and perhaps things would have been worse. It was better because good fighters, the contestants, were still around.
Oh, it was a rotten time to have to double-check every interaction to wonder if this fate could have been avoided?
"It's hard to say, but it's doubtful...but you already know that."
Katara snapped her eyes open to see the Painted Lady sitting in front of her, mirroring her position, though her hands weren't bound by anything other than air. It was so strange to look across the way and see Katara's own face, but in different hair and clothing, staring back at her.
"So now you appear," Katara snapped sluggishly. "I nearly killed myself in the North, but you choose a fantastic time to offer your advice."
"It is difficult to move between the realms, Katara." The Painted Lady frowned, speaking in her voice, but with an air of knowledge and age that Katara's tone did not yet have. "You must know why I'm able to be here now."
"Because I'm dying," Katara exhaled, shivering as she spoke. The Painted Lady nodded gravely.
"This body is not long for this world."
Katara resisted the urge to cry, to scream, and instead swallowed it all back. "How long?"
"Hard to say." The Painted Lady looked anguished. "I have never been so involved with a future life as I am yours and it is like I am dying all over again too."
Katara tilted her head. "Zuko?" she questioned.
"You know the answer."
Katara focused, and then gave a small grin. "Still alive," she said, and the Painted Lady nodded in confirmation.
There was a pause. Then, the Painted Lady spoke.
"Katara, I know what troubles your mind. I have watched, I have seen. You are worried about your life, your choices, are not yours. That they're mine, some path that you have been thrust down without any forewarning. That loving Zuko is some simulated expression echoing mine."
"Seems stupid to debate this now," Katara harrumphed.
"Why shouldn't we? Do you have much else to do?"
Katara narrowed her eyes. Her past self was a bit cheeky.
"Fine," Katara slouched her shoulders, "Yeah, it bothered me." More than she would admit, but of course, The Painted Lady knew.
"If I may?" The Painted Lady reached forward. Katara tilted her head down for her to touch. When the Painted Lady's fingers touched her skin, it felt both cold and warm at the same time.
The memories that were dug up, from some long-forgotten place, were a series of iterations of her and the Blue Spirit. Fighting, yelling, terrible things occurring. Slamming doors, grasping arms and yanking, pushing, and worse.
"What does that mean?" Katara frowned.
"To have a soulmate is not a guarantee you are always meant to find each other," the Painted Lady struggled to explain, "It is more...when all else fails, something to always return to. But there were lives in which the Blue Spirit was a cruel, unspeakable man that I would have hated myself for loving, and likewise, there were times I was mean and unsuitable for him." The moon reflected off her eyes despite Katara being unable to see the sky at all. "It was not every life we ended up together, nor should we have. I would have been furious if I had been with some of those past lives because the universe told me so when clearly we weren't the right one for each other at that time. If you search, you'll know you've loved many others besides the Blue Spirit, and you've always had the freedom for that. You, having your feelings for Zuko now, are not the interference of spirits guiding you, other than placing you two in the same spot. Everything you have done with him, all the memories you've created and the way you've felt, that is uniquely Katara and Zuko and no one else."
The Painty Lady reached out to touch Katara's face, and she didn't realize it until Katara was reaching out too, but they were still mirroring each other. "You may always be wearing my face, but you are free to determine your own destiny...with Zuko, or without."
Katara felt something release inside of her, perhaps anger, or perhaps relief. "I wish I knew that sooner," she said, feeling a rush of emotion so powerful it nearly stopped her, as she let every emotion she held toward Zuko crash over her and drown her in happiness. And then, bitter sadness.
"I wish you did too," the Painty Lady agreed, eyebrows knit, "Because this would have been such a wonderful, beautiful iteration of my life."
"So it's settled?" Katara asked, "You can see it panned out, my death and all?"
"It's fuzzy, but it's growing sharper each moment. I am so sorry."
Katara couldn't help a few tears escape down her cheeks now. "Will I remember? In my next life, our next life? Any of this?" she asked, finding it impossible to imagine that this would all just be gone, poofed out of existence, the passion she felt for Zuko or the friends she'd made or the love for her tribe. The Painted Lady gave a sad smile.
"I will remember you, but reincarnation is a tricky thing. And even so...you will never be you again, just as I will never be me."
The Painted Lady was fading, but Katara did not take this as a positive. She could feel the strength draining from her body, oozing away with each passing second.
"Goodbye, Katara, may your journey onward be peaceful."
The Painty Lady faded, taking the light of the spirits too, leaving Katara in her dark, icy cell.
Katara had fought every moment in her life leading up to now, so it seemed foolish she would accept death with a welcoming invitation. So she bit the inside of her cheeks until they bled to stay awake and poked her toes on the rough ground and fought, and fought, and fought until the fight had drained away, and she slipped into that distant black nothing.
Notes:
Ahhh! One last chapter left!
I want to know what you all think! I know a few of you saw it coming, a lot more of you guessed that Tahoe was a bit shady…hope it didn’t disappoint!
Next, and final, chapter will be out on September 17th. At that point I will give you guys more information on the last book of the series.
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Chapter 46
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Chapter Text
She woke up with a start. She could tell that something was different.
First, she was still alive. Unless she would still be chained in a cell in the afterlife, and well, she certainly hoped not.
Second, she felt healed. Her stomach was not demanding sustenance as it had been; she felt fed...satiated. Her skin was not as grimy as it was, though being held in a cell covered everything in a fine layer of dust and soot.
The only thing that was painful was her hands. As she tried to move her fingers, jolts of agony shot through her. She bit her lip hard with the realization that they'd made sure she wasn't going to be able to bend herself away, now that she was in better shape. The bones in her fingers were shattered.
She noticed someone sitting crouched outside of her cell. She startled back, unable to move far because of her restraints, heart pounding in her chest. It was a guard, and carefully he took his helmet off, tilting his head.
"I thought you were done for."
"Tahoe," Katara croaked, expecting her voice to be far more roughened than it was, "Why?"
"I owe Azula a great deal, and I have never assumed Zuko would be the better choice. It always seemed obvious to me that Azula was who we really needed as a nation. She will be a good Queen, Katara, you have to know that."
"Is it blackmail? Does she have something on you? Tahoe, this isn't the answer," she tried one more time.
Tahoe blinked, shaking his head. "You just don't get it. Zuko has poisoned your favor for her, but Katara, she's so smart. She has the answers, actual answers."
She'll burn the world to the ground, you idiot.
"So why save me, then?" Katara asked with bitterness, "Or did I magically heal?"
"No, no...I brought in a healer. We couldn't have you dying in here before Azula did it her way," he said, but there was no cruelty behind his words. It was a farce; it was what he said to justify to everyone else why he hadn't let Katara become past-tense.
"If you can't be honest," Katara huffed, and Tahoe bit his lip, standing.
"You've always been so kind, Katara. To me...to everyone. Call it a moment of weakness." He rolled his helmet between his palms. "Because I know I'm just delaying the inevitable. But I still…" He chuckled, shrugging. "And before you ask, no, you can't change me to your band of merry justice warriors, who may I add, are all here waiting for death as well. I might not want to see you dead, but my loyalty is to Azula."
Katara stared at him, distressed. "Did you ever really love Aiga? She was over the moon for you," she said, recalling how happy one of her best friends had been every time they met up.
"See, so good. Asking for others, not yourself. Worried about people who likely will survive, since no one can find her." Tahoe grasped the bars, sighing. Katara knew his answer from how he danced around and didn't even reply.
"Don't you have any questions for yourself?" he asked.
"What is there to ask?" Katara asked, glaring at him. "If you're not going to help me... if you're just here to gloat or get your conscience cleared…"
Tahoe frowned, as though hurt by her words. "Look, erm, out of kindness, Azula is going to stage the executions in a few hours from now. I know that you never got closure, and that's shitty. We're moving prisoners to prepare...the big ones will go first. And I think...I think I'm going to walk all the way to the end of the cell hall to get some tea."
Katara blinked at him because unless he was also going to 'oops' drop his key, he wasn't giving her an escape plan. She did not comprehend his hint.
"And I've heard these walls are quite...flimsy, Princess. And I might just take a few extra moments to really, really enjoy my tea. We just got a new shipment of Oolong in from the Earth Nation, and I've been told I simply must try it."
Katara blinked as he left, her mind still swirling with just an alarm bell of confusion...until she heard a groan from the cell next to her. And well, she'd know that voice anywhere.
"Zuko!? Zuko!" she cried, her voice pitching and breaking from the joy of knowing they were so close...just a wall separating them.
"Oh, great dragons," Zuko moaned, "My head…" He sounded woozy. They must have knocked him out to move him to a closer location for...later.
"Zuko, we don't have much time," Katara pressed, but she knew she could not fix the fog in his mind faster, not from here.
"Kat...ara?" Zuko said woozily, and then it was like it all fell into place. "Katara, you're alive, oh thank the spirits," he said, sounding close to tears. "How are you? Are you okay? Katara, just please, keep talking," he begged.
"I'm…" She almost said fine, but how could she be fine? "I'm still here."
"You are, oh, I thought for sure you were already dead."
"Maybe Azula plans to kill us as a pair, just to really dig our hearts out and prove her madness," Katara hissed, knowing that it would be a fate worse than death to have to watch Zuko die in front of her.
"Oh," was all Zuko said, as if it just hit him what was really going on. "At least we're here together now."
"Our guard has stepped away. Just for a second," Katara whispered. "Zuko, we're going to die."
The words hung between them, as solid as the brick walls that held them here. To say it out loud, to Zuko, made it all crash down on her. "No last-second fixes, no brilliant ideas, nothing. They broke my fingers, I can't waterbend," she whispered in a terrible, hushed cry.
"Katara, hey, hey…" Even hours from death, he was trying to comfort her, not focus on himself. Still, even he could not think of much else to say to her, something that would truly put her soul at rest.
"The thought of you dying...Zuko, I can't." Katara let out a sob, body slouching.
"You'll go first, I'll make sure of it," Zuko insisted, "Azula wants to hurt me more anyway."
"You shouldn't have to see that, though." Katara shook her head. There was a large pause across the space.
"I'll do it for your peace," he said.
"Tui," Katara groaned, "We were so foolish. All of us; all the contestants, thinking things like the dresses we were wearing or the meals or the trips were what was important that we missed all of this right under our noses." She gave a dry, dark laugh.
"Azula is scarily manipulative. Not even Mai figured it out," Zuko argued. "And not my father. Despite what Azula claimed, my dad is...was...bright. He wouldn't have made it so far if he wasn't. She got it from him."
Katara wondered how he was dealing with the fact he killed his dad, but there wasn't the time for that right now.
"Still, we dried up our time. Time that we could have been doing anything else, enjoying ourselves. Time we could have been spending together."
"Together?" Zuko said, a flicker of hope in his tone.
Would it be best to tell him now, as they were seconds from death, to give him a happy thought as he left this planet, or would it agonize him to know the truth and have it yanked away before he could ever enjoy it? She wasn't sure, so she settled for silence.
"Hey, at least...we'll spend the rest of our lives together," Zuko murmured to her. "We won't leave each other's side until the end. Few can get such a gift with the one they love."
"It's more an unfortunate side effect of semantics," Katara huffed, "But I appreciate you're trying to be sweet." And, if she had to die, there's no one she'd rather it be with.
"I should have…" Katara began, but everything she could finish, the hundreds of different paths she could have tread all clogged at her lips, and she was so overwhelmed she could not speak any of them. "I should have treasured you more when you were here. You, and Sokka, and my parents, and Suki and Toph and Aang and everyone. I guess I just always thought we'd have so much more time."
"Katara, I don't know exactly how much time we have left, but I don't want to spend it regretting things we didn't do. I don't want that, not at all. So let's not consider all of those ghosts, because we can't change time anyway."
Katara internalized his words, realizing that she would drown herself in pity and self-loathing and remorse before she ever reached the chopping block. If they only had so much time left…
"What should we do instead?"
"I want to kiss you," Zuko laughed. "Not a naughty kiss, but a sweet one. I just want to kiss you," he whispered."What we really can do, though? Talk about the good things. Some pretty great moments have happened, not just bad."
Katara closed up her sorrow and reached for the box in her mind of the rest of the time here; of dancing with her friends, laughing late at night, falling for Zuko and confiding in him, learning so much about herself and her family…
"Yeah, not all bad things, some very good things," she agreed, basking in the warmth of these memories.
"Are you glad you came here?" Zuko asked.
"Of course, a thousand times," Katara had no hesitation in her answer, "I would make that choice over and over again."
There was noise from down the corridor.
"I guess our number is up," Zuko said, trying to inject a joke, but gallows humor was doing nothing for Katara right now.
Katara hummed, trying to keep her tears in, expecting to hear the clanking of chains, the marching of a huge army to keep the pair from escaping, and perhaps even the maniacal laughter of Azula. Instead, she heard none of those things - a few scattered yells, metal hitting the ground, an explosion…
Katara tilted her head. "No, something's not right."
"What do you mean?"
"I-"
Before she could reply, a vibration like an earthquake shook the cells. Katara tried to brace herself the best she could as the walls around her tumbled down, leaving a triumphant Toph standing in the rubble, laughing and throwing her arms to the sky.
"I am Toph! Breaker of cells and chains! Fear me!" Toph cheered herself on.
"Toph! I have never been so glad to see you," Zuko said, and all of a sudden, he couldn't stop laughing. The noise of his glee caused Katara to giggle too, despite the circumstances, and she didn't know if she should cry or not.
"Your timing is impeccable, Toph," Katara agreed.
"Hey you two, need an escape?" Toph asked gleefully, easily separating the metal bars (though the cells around them were basically gone). "Oof! Yo, Giggles! I need help over here!"
Ty Lee jumped, leaping and bounding over the ruins and waving brightly at everyone.
"Oh, you two sure are in a pickle, aren't you!" she said, eyes wide. She went to Zuko first, while Toph helped break Katara's chains and holdings.
"The guards-" Katara argued, looking over at the filled-in hallway.
"Oh, we took care of them," Ty Lee laughed, flipping her shoulder-length hair, and giggling behind her hand. "Easy, actually. I was expecting a bit more of a fight. So embarrassing for them."
"Tahoe, did you see him?" Katara said frantically as Toph broke the metal at her legs, "He's-"
"Dirty and two-sided. Yeah, we know." Toph made a face, and as Katara started to beg the question, she waved her away. "How about later, Sugar Queen?"
"Careful, they broke her fingers," Zuko said to Toph as she started to free Katara's hands. He was staring at Katara with so much warmth, so much relief, that it made everything feel more okay.
"No!" Ty Lee gaped, "Those monsters!"
"Awe, gee," Toph said, choked up, "That's awful. Does it hurt? This okay?" she asked, handling Katara more gingerly than she'd perhaps ever touched anything.
"Get me out of here," Katara ground her teeth, "Even if I cry out."
Breaking the bonds pinched and made her eyes tear up, but it was nowhere near as bad as having them broken as it was. As soon as she was free, Katara stood on wobbly newborn fawn legs. Zuko ripped off part of his pants to create bandages for her hands, held protectively close to her chest.
"We gotta go," Toph said, frowning. "C'mon! It's a rescue mission, not an assassination, though Azula does deserve a good punch-"
"But...but the others," Katara argued, "Everyone that chose Zuko's side. We cannot leave them!"
"Already saved," Ty Lee soothed. "You two were the most heavily protected, so everyone else we got earlier. We're waiting on you two. Let's go," she insisted, pushing them forward.
Katara tripped, but Zuko caught her. She looked up and smiled at him, sighing in relief. Zuko looked back at her, and for a moment, it was just them and-
"Ugg! Can we pause the sexual tension until we get on the bison?" Toph said, walking between them.
Katara stopped. "Did you just say…bison?"
"Appa!" Ty Lee clapped.
"Bless you," Katara said uncertainly.
"No, silly, Appa is a name. It's Aang's flying bison!" Ty Lee giggled, booping Katara's nose.
"It's a bit scary, but he's a pushover," Zuko said fondly. "But let's actually go and meet him before something bad happens."
Toph brought them down to the first floor by making holes in the floors. Zuko made a sharp, annoyed inhaling sound, but clearly swallowed whatever he was about to say.
"What? What?" Toph demanded, "The palace is already destroyed...not pretty from the outside. And it's not yours anymore, it's Azula's. And I don't want anything left for her."
"So you know-" Katara began again.
"Yes, Katara, we're all caught up. No need for exposition," Ty Lee said, "We will explain."
The guards around them were all either completely unmoving or still twitching, thanks to Ty Lee's chi blocking. Katara saw workers; mostly cooks, maids, and handmaids, streaming out of the palace and helping others.
"Let's see how Azula manages anything without any employees except her guards," Aiga said proudly, overseeing the exodus from the Royal Palace.
"Aiga!" Katara cried, "Look at you! Was the escape all the Gray Lotus?"
"We can sure as hell punch things, but none of this would have happened without Aiga getting a hold of some of the workers inside," Toph said. "She sent a hawk with a super-secret message, telling the workers to stay put and keep to the status quo. Good plan too, otherwise there would be a lot of dead workers, I'd reckon. But they knew something else was coming. And now that we're offering for them to leave, basically, no one is sticking around." Toph said, high-fiving Aiga.
"How is everyone getting out?" Zuko asked, his voice sounding like he'd swallowed gravel. "There's so many who denied Azula."
"We have more friends than perhaps we thought. Friends of Rodden are everywhere and certainly willing to help. We of course have to figure out a new location, but.." Ty Lee's forehead crinkled. "It's better than here."
Appa was bigger than Katara expected. He was the size of a stable itself and was groaning and batting away guards. Sokka, Arrluck, and Hahn were already loaded on, and Katara saw the rest of the contents being loaded into a carriage.
"Okay, okay, let's go, we're here!" Toph said, being grasped into the saddle by Sokka.
"Wait, wait? My mother? Lu Ten?" Zuko waved his head around.
"Your mom is already gone; she's with us. And Lu Ten…" Aiga hauled herself up, lip quivering. "He wasn't in his cell. We came late...Azula had already started the executions...we have to assume-"
"Azula already killed him," Zuko said, his shoulders hunching low, wiping his eyes. Ty Lee gave him a sympathetic, lip-quivering frown, but Toph shoved her shoulder.
"Uhm, I think we gotta go, girl! I can't see for shit up here, but I can hear things!" She pointed, and any of the guards that seemed to escape Ty Lee's chi-blocking were running right for them.
"Appa! Yip-yip!" Ty Lee yelled and Appa rose into the sky, soaring high above the clouds until they could see the whole palace, burning and a shell of the once wonderful beacon it was. Zuko pressed his chin against the saddle, watching it vanish below them.
"Where are we going?" Katara asked. It was hard to talk up here; the wind whipped around them and took her voice far away.
"Southern Air Temple! We can't stay here long, but we have time to re-group!" Ty Lee yelled back. "Just sit back, and sleep. You're safe now."
There wasn't much else to do. She couldn't talk with Zuko, not properly. It was hard to even have side-by-side conversations. Hahn was curled at the front into a ball, Arrluck offered Aiga a chest to sleep on, and Sokka and Toph were already curled up in an untangleable ball of limbs.
She looked at Zuko who just patted next to him. Katara let him wrap his arm around her shoulders and she rested on his chest. She could hear his heart beating and reminded herself, no, they were not dead. He was alive and so was she.
This comfort, mixed with the rocking of Appa's flight, eased her to sleep.
XXX
"Wake up!"
Katara yawned to bright, hot sunlight.
"Katara, look at this place!" Sokka said, excited, "It's incredible."
Katara sat up on Appa's saddle to see high white buildings lined with light blue, intermingled with the earth having taken over, crept around the buildings. The nature, the sheer sunlight, the beauty of it...she felt choked up.
Ty Lee jumped off Appa and offered Katara her hand. As she more or less fell off the large mammal, she couldn't help but spin around to just take it in, the wind whipping around her loose hair.
"Are you sure we're safe here?" she asked. It was Zuko who answered.
"It's incredibly difficult to get here, and most of the blimps were destroyed in Zhao's attack, so Azula would have to scramble. Even making one at double pace would take a few moons. Plus, they're likely to look for us in the Fire Nation first, maybe Ember Island. Yes, I think we're safe here for a while."
Katara let out a breath of relief. As soon as they were unloaded, Ty Lee jumped back on.
"Where is she going?" Katara asked.
"There are many refugees to bring up here," Aiga replied. "Everyone we saved, for now, we have to keep here. There's plenty of room, but it will take quite a few trips."
"Oh," Katara said, relieved that no one would be left to fend for themselves. "Why isn't Aang manning Appa?"
Aiga winced. "Err, about that...well, Iroh wants to speak to all of you anyway. And Ursa." She motioned for what looked like the main hall. As soon as they entered, they were greeted by the smell of fresh food and tea. Katara's mouth watered.
"You all must be starving. Please, eat," Iroh said, motioning to the pillows.
"You don't have to tell me twice!" Sokka said, tugging Toph over to a seat, "Oh, I'd eat bugs right now I'm so hungry!"
Katara sat.
As she sat, Top came and whispered something to Iroh. He waved a woman over, one Katara recognized as a water-bending healer from the Royal Palace. She had a bowl and motioned for Katara’s cracked fingers. Katara let her work as they all settled, the feeling of bones setting was something familiar to her.
Around the table were a whole group of men and women, older in nature. They were all wearing the same frock.
"The White Lotus." Zuko guessed at the same time Katara realized. There were a few familiar faces; Piandro, Pakku, Iroh, Shen, Ursa, Aunt Wu, Bumi...and so many more. Aiga came and sat proudly next to Iroh, representing the Gray Lotus. She had an air of authority that Katara had never seen before.
"Zuko!" Ursa stood, pulling him into a deep hug. "I worried we would not make it in time."
"Mom, hey, I'm okay. Dad-" His lip quivered, unable to say it. "He...I…"
"Shh, please. Oh, my darling," Ursa looked at him, "You did what you thought was right." Whether or not she mourned for Ozai was hard to say.
"Lu Ten?" Iroh said, all too hopefully.
"By the time we got to his cell, he was gone. I'm sorry, Iroh," Toph said, hanging her head. Iroh's face fell immediately, and it felt like a precious china piece shattering. Katara could see the grief that choked him, carried him down.
"Uncle." Zuko offered himself and Iroh pulled Zuko into a hug too, and for a moment, the Royal Family grieved as one.
"Sit, eat," Piandro said, "And let us talk."
Katara grabbed her food as though she'd never eaten before. She loaded her plate up and tore in like someone who hadn't once spent an entire afternoon memorizing tedious table manners. She saw Zuko take a plate, but set it back down, unable to touch a single thing.
"First, how are you...here? Before us?" Zuko asked, eyes wide.
"I know my own daughter, Zuko," Ursa said in a sad, haggard tone. "And I knew from the way she was looking at you that she was responsible for the things going on. That she was going to do something terrible. And it only confirmed it when that Guardsman, Yaw I believe, tried to knock me out after we left for the safe room. I escaped."
She didn't say how, but Katara knew that Ursa had killed the guard to flee.
"After that, I knew I had to alert the White Lotus and ask for aid. As it turns out, they were already on their way. I wrote to the Water Tribes too, and any official across the Earth Kingdom that I thought might be sympathetic to Zuko, warning them of what was to come."
"That it was Azula all along?" Sokka asked. "Yeah, I get that she's your daughter and all but, she's taken a very long ride on the cuckoo train," Sokka said, swirling a motion next to his head.
Iroh gave a long sigh.
"Look, I know what you're going to say, Uncle, she's my sister and clearly something is mentally wrong and it was my father that caused this, not her fault...and I get that, but you should have seen her. She was high on maniacal power!" Zuko said, shuddering at the memory. Iroh raised an eyebrow, snorting.
"No, she's crazy and she needs to go down. In due time...we need to re-collect, heal people, and be sure of our next moves. We now know we are dealing with a highly intelligent but savage individual," Iroh said to the group.
Katara looked around. "Where is Aang? " she asked. His absence felt like a hole in the group.
"Well, he took some damage against Zhao," Shen said. "Princess, we know you have a vial from the Spirit Pool of healing water. We would not ask unless it was absolutely necessary."
"He won't survive without it?" Katara inhaled hard, glad she kept it around her neck.
"He's awake, but it's hard to say. All I know is he 100% will live with it, and it's much less certain without," Shen said gravely.
Katara gulped; she selfishly wanted to keep it, unsure if she'd need it again. But if it was the Avatar in question…
"Think it over," Pakku said gently. "He will not perish in a day. That is quite the gift, not to be used without good thought."
Katara knew what she would be expected to choose, but all the same was grateful for the illusion of choice.
"Wait, wait, back up?" Arrluk said. "How did you guys know to come to the palace if Fire Lady Ursa said you were already nearly there?"
"It's just Ursa now," Ursa corrected, perhaps a bit sad about the loss of her title, or perhaps relieved.
"I realized it. There was a reason the Equalists wanted me," Aiga said, raising her hand. "I knew that their leader was Azula, but I hadn't realized it. It started with Tahoe; back when he was hired, he talked to me about how quickly he was brought on. He said that Azula pulled him through, expedited, and at the time it seemed like an innocuous comment. He said Azula had big plans, but I thought…" She gave an uncertain laugh. "I don't know, she was planning a grand ball."
"That's how you knew Tahoe was a traitor. I'm sorry, Aiga," Katara said.
Aiga smiled demurely. "My heart is stronger, but thank you. I do not know if it was convenient or if he was assigned, tasked, to me...but either way…And as it was, I realized in reflection how much he adored Azula. Worshipped, even if he tried to hide it. As soon as I figured out that it was Azula behind the Equalists, I knew Tahoe would side with her."
"But it couldn't just have been Tahoe that helped you figure it out," Sokka guessed, rubbing his chin.
"Correct. It was actually a lot. I'm angry I didn't realize it sooner," she pouted.
"You realized it just in time, my dear," Iroh assured.
"C'mon, you gotta tell us now!" Sokka urged like he was listening to one of GranGran's famous bedtime stories.
"Right. Well, I once ran into Azula in one of the tunnels the Equalists came through. This was before the attack. I remember finding it odd she'd be there, and afterward just thought it was a terrible coincidence she'd been in that location. But looking back...it seemed Azula was always in places right before Equalists attacked. I didn't really think until I talked to some other handmaids, and we stitched together a sort of timeline and recurring pattern of Azula being somewhere, and then, magically Equalists arriving through there."
"Never thought to even look at you, huh?" Arrluck laughed, "The Gray Lotus…"
"Exactly. And when she attacked my family, it was a warning. She probably guessed I was...not on her side, and I'm sure she also figured that out from Tahoe. I had no lost love for the princess behind closed doors," Aiga said bitterly. "I don't think anyone was supposed to survive. But my family is much stronger than we seem. One of the guards had a letter he dropped, probably to hide the evidence, informing them of where to raid and to 'leave no survivors', and it was sealed with Azula's signet. Of course, I sort of just thought she was merely a terrible person. Stupid perhaps too, as they didn't manage to burn enough of the letter."
"Well, true," Zuko groaned. "Terrible, not stupid," he corrected. Katara noticed he still wasn't eating. She nudged him meaningfully, and he carefully took a slow chew of food, as though this was something he'd never eaten before.
"And the last bit was that I had a really big fight with Tahoe not long before we left. It was about something stupid, something so trivial, but he told me 'you'd better be nice to me, or I can make you regret it. When she takes over, you'll be sorry.' Immediately, he realized he'd made a mistake, and wouldn't tell me who 'she' was."
"Who did you think?" Katara asked.
"My mind went to Azula immediately, but at that point, I didn't have all the pieces, so I dismissed it. It seemed too...I don't know. I think I knew it wasn't ever Ozai. Even before that comment. Right before I left, I was serving him and I heard his conversations with the Fire Sages. He was…" She looked at Zuko. It seemed she knew what he'd done.
"Just say it," Zuko said with a long sigh. Katara understood the unspoken addition; say what I missed.
"I heard him discussing with the Fire Sages how to eradicate the Equalists. He did truly think it was Airbenders, but equally...he really was concerned for the Fire Nation. He was afraid he wasn't going to be able to stop them, and he didn't know what their endgame was. There was no reason for him to be lying. He called the meeting. I know I could think it was a long game, but I believed his tone. And I was just running it through in my mind, wondering if it wasn't Ozai, then who was it? And then everything about Azula - and Tahoe - made sense."
"She even guessed about Azula calling in to help the Dai Lee," Iroh said proudly, "Quite the brain she has."
"Really?" Katara was so proud of Aiga.
"Yes. I occasionally had to clean out Azula's room. She scared away so many handmaids that we all just took turns. I was cleaning out her chimney and found remnants of a very long conversation with someone. I couldn't read any of it, most of it burned, but there was a symbol that I recognized, but couldn't place. As we were leaving the swamps, and we passed a tree with an announcement and that same sigil, I realized what it was: the symbol of the Dai Lee. There was realistically only one reason for Azula to be in contact with them, and then, everything just came together."
"Wow," Sokka whistled.
"Indeed!" Iroh nodded. "Her insights gave us enough time to gather and make a plan. We figured you all would lose, as good fighters as you are. So we knew it would be a rescue. Without Aiga's realization, I shudder to think that we may have very well have been far too late."
"But we weren't. So now, we have time to rest," Ursa smiled in relief.
"So we wait here, that's our plan?" Zuko asked, frustrated at the lack of action.
"At first we were going to go to the only unclaimed land...the South," Iroh said with a nod to Katara, "But there are too many of us. We will have to re-think. There must be places that, although under Azula's technical rule, are out of the way...like here."
"Right now, you just need to recover. I know it seems hopeless, but do not worry too much about Azula. This is a question for a later day," Ursa encouraged everyone.
"Try impossible," Zuko muttered.
"I believe you all should sleep," Iroh said. "I personally know that sleep on a flying bison is hardly sound, and you are all recovering. I will wake you if there is anything big." He waved someone over. It was a girl wearing reds and oranges and yellows in a sarong; a new Airbender?
The Airbender led everyone through the halls until she paused at two doors. "I have been told to tell you that the three girls are in here, and the three boys in here. Arrluck and Hahn are in a different bunk." She gave a long sigh. "I've also been warned that it is unlikely it will remain separated out," she said, looking at Sokka and Toph, who were always no more than an inch from each other, and then at Zuko and Katara.
"There's only four of us?" Sokka said slowly.
"Aang and Ty," Zuko guessed, to which the airbender beamed. Of course, she would not find that pairing frustrating that they were ignoring their directives.
"Please, recover," she said with a deep bow.
Toph and Sokka had a very long kiss outside the door and Katara decided she would just rather not and dropped her few items on the bed. It was warm, comfortable, and not as moth-bally as she'd thought, so sleep came quickly.
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The moon called to Katara, a sweet, inviting cradle song that reminded her of home. And though they were hundreds of miles from the water this high up, she could feel the push and pull of the waves too, easing her out of bed and grasping a yellow sweater that had been hung for her next to her bunk.
Ty Lee had returned at some point and was doing what looked like an acrobatic move in her sleep. Toph was snoring, her limbs splayed out across every angle and dangling. She mumbled and kicked as she slept, and Katara wondered what she was seeing in her dreams? She made sure to open and close the door with little noise.
The temple was deserted at this time of night. Everyone was sleeping and the world was at rest, at least in this corner of the universe.
And still, the moon called out.
Or, perhaps it was not the moon. Perhaps it was the reincarnation of her soul, telling her to seize the moment because her first thought was wrong. She was not alone.
There, sitting on the ledge and staring out over the vast nothingness of clouds, was Zuko.
"Can I join you?"
Zuko did not seem surprised at her arrival. He smiled, nodding. "Please."
Katara sat, knowing this was the time to speak all those things she couldn't before. They were as alone as they could get in this quiet bubble of time. But she was afraid. As she gathered the courage, Zuko simply reached for her hand and twined their fingers.
That soothed her. It was enough. Enough for a moment to just feel the heat of his skin as they breathed in unison, letting the fresh air wash over them endlessly.
"I love you."
Katara could not look at him and say it. Not the first time; it was easier to say it to the world below her, to not have to look at him, if perhaps for some unknown reason he'd rebuff her. But he just smiled, though she could tell he was shocked but so happy.
It was his silence that encouraged her. It was the reminder that he would always be there for her, and she was safe. Safe with him, safe at the temple, safe from danger, at least for right now.
She turned to him, dragging one leg onto the ledge and underneath her, so she could wedge closer to his body.
"I do, honestly," she whispered. "Love you," she added, as though there was any uncertainty about what she was talking about. "I love you so much that when I thought you were going to die, I didn't know how I would survive without you, Zuko. I'm stubborn, and I'm stupid, and great Agni, I've loved you for ages but have only figured it out recently, but spirits I have."
Zuko leaned in, kissing her. "You already know I love you too."
Katara eased into his spicy scent, pressing her nose to his collarbone and gathering her bravery once again.
"I know the Choice doesn't matter anymore. We have bigger things to worry about, sure. And it might seem stupid of me to ask, but it still matters to me. And I'm sure of it, I truly am." Katara reached out, touching his scar gently, before kissing it. As she pulled back, Zuko kept her hand there, unsure where she was headed, but his heart was open to all of it.
"Prince Zuko, will you marry me?"
END OF BOOK TWO
Notes:
So we’ve made it! Can you believe it? The first book only took about a year to write and update, but this second one? Some of you have been with me for about three years!
Which, I’m sure, to all of you is a long time. For me, who had a fic that took eight years to complete, three is quite the accomplishment for me. But honestly…I couldn’t have done it without all of you being so excited for each chapter. It was all of you that helped me get on a schedule and mostly post on time. So, sincerely, thank you.
At this point, as I do with most stories, I reach out to lurkers and ask you to review. What’s a lurker? Someone who has maybe been here for a long time- perhaps since the start of the second book, or even the first, that eagerly awaits each update but hasn’t ever reviewed. And I get it! Life gets super, super tough and super busy. But I’m asking you to review now.
To put it into perspective, this story was so long that I got to the character limit on Google Docs. I didn’t even know that was a thing. I had to write on another doc for the last three chapters.
This story comes out to be 288295, give or take. That’s a little more than both the first and last Harry Potter book word count combined. That’s over 400 pages. It’s a lot. And if that’s not enough, next Wednesday is my birthday. So do it as a birthday present!
If you don’t know what to write, hey, that’s fine! Here’s some things you can tell me:
* Who your favorite OC was
* Favorite canon chapter, besides Zuko or Katara
* Something you did not see coming
* A twist that you think maybe you saw coming
* Favorite couple besides Zutara
* Something you think will happen in the next book
* And any other thoughts you have! I love hearing them!
* Or (and here's where you can really tell that I'm an English Teacher IRL) the title of the book is called 'The Warrior's Gambit'. A gambit is an opening in which a player makes a sacrifice, typically of a pawn, for the sake of some compensating advantage. We can think of Zuko, Katara, Azula, Mai, Toph, Sokka...basically, everyone in this story took a time being the 'warrior' making the gambit. Who do you think succeeded? What were their risky plays? Was it worth it?
*So what’s next?
The title of the last book of the trilogy will be ‘The Fire Throne’.
It will be released about six months from now, so looking at about March 2022 as a release date. I do know that this is a long time, but right now, I need to focus on my adult job and some fanfictions that have been left on the back burner. I need time to craft a really good finale and I don’t want to give you guys crappy, stressed out quick writing. I want it to be good, and I need time to let it sit and for me to revise, and revise, and revise before that happens.
But all is not lost!
Right now, if you’re reading this on Wattpad or A03, the next book with a super-cool close-up of the cover is posted so you can subscribe/follow/save or whatever you choose, so you don’t miss the first chapter. If you’re on Tumblr, that post will be popping up eventually. If your on fanfiction…sadly, you’ll just have to check back around then.
I would strongly suggest that you follow me on my Tumblr ‘youngbloodlex22’ because not only will I be posting updates there, but I’ll be posting some artwork for the series, news, and possibly behind the scenes looks at my writing process.
Now, if you were here between the first and second book, you recall I posted my preface right away. Because this is such a long wait in between, I will be posting it three months from now with a more firm ‘this is when I’ll be back’ date.
I hope to see all of you on the other side, and I hope you’ve enjoyed this as much as I have.
With love,
Lex

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