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Kara liked her life right now, things were finally settling down on the supergirl side, and she was getting to work as a journalist a little more. It was pretty nice to have gotten the balance between Kara Danvers and Kara Zor-el. The road here hadn’t been easy, and more than once Kara thought she would never, make it. Yet here she was, living the dream. Kara smiled as she waited in line at the coffee shop, the Barista that always put extra chocolate in her drink was here today.
“Same as always Kara?” The girl asked as she got up to the register.
“Yes please Cady, plus a chia tea latte.” She said handing her card to the girl. The girl smiled flirtatiously as she took the cups from the checkout girl. Kara groaned inwardly, one day she was going to have to tell Cady she wasn’t interested. Once she had her receipt she walked over to the pickup counter. The shop was busier than normal today, but it was a Friday maybe people just needed an extra pick me up to get them into the weekend. God knows Kara sometimes did, but that wasn’t the case today. Today she just wanted an excuse, and a caffeinated beverage was just the cover she needed.
Kara was leaning against the wall, staring menu board when her phone vibrated in her skirt pocket. Kara pulled her phone out and smiled, she’d gotten a text. It wasn’t anything crazy just a kissing face and then a bunch of hearts, but it was enough to make a warm ball settle in the bottom of her stomach. She typed out a quick response before settling back against the wall, a giant smile plastered onto her face as she held her phone close.
“Kara.” Cady called smiling teasingly. Kara smiled as she pushed herself off the wall. “Extra pump of chocolate for extra chocolaty hot chocolate.” Cady said with a wink.
“Thanks Cady, see you next time.” Kara said with a warm smile.
“You should let me take you out sometime Kara, girl can’t live on cocoa alone.” Cady said pulling Kara’s attention back to her. Kara smiled politely.
“Sorry I’m seeing someone.” She said with a blush.
“The tall short haired red-head?” Cady asked a little put out.
“No that’s my sister.” Kara said with a laugh. “She has a girlfriend and they are very happy together.” Kara said taking a sip from her cup.
“Oh, well I don’t ever see you in here with anyone else. You wouldn’t be trying to lie would you?” Cady asked playfully. Kara’s smile became a little more forced then normal.
“Not at all. My partner and I don’t want to be publicly labeled. We both have careers where people are much to nosy. We enjoy our privacy too much to compromise it by being overly affectionate in public.” Kara said with a smile.
“Well that is a shame, if I were dating you I’d want to make sure everyone knew you were taken. Your partner isn’t afraid you’ll stray? After all I’ve seen men and woman throw themselves at you, myself included.” Cady said standing a little straighter and taking the hint that she wasn’t going to get anywhere that way. She duck behind the counter and reappeared with two cups handing them to Kara with a smile.
Kara smiled slowly, a really happy smile. “Neither one of us worries about that. We’ve been through a lot together and it’s understood that if one of us ever wants out, no muss or fuss it can be over. We’ve both been hurt in the past, comforted one another when that’s happened. We wouldn’t do that to one another knowing how bad it hurts.” Kara said and turned to leave. “Have nice day Cady, I’ll see you next time.” She said walking out into the busy city street.
The sun was bright with a few lazy clouds rolling across the sky, the perfect kind of spring day. Kara wished she could just forget work for the day and go have a picnic somewhere, or head to the beach. She hadn’t been to the beach in a long time. The walk didn’t seem to take long enough in Kara’s mind, the day was o perfect and honestly she didn’t want to go back inside.
She walked into the large building and made a B-line for the elevator, hitting the top floor button with practiced ease. Normally she would text her arrival, but her hands were a little full right now. The elevator dinged and Kara walked off, smiling at the secretary before the door.
“Go in Kara she’s expecting you. She said you might come by with a pick me up, she just ordered lunch as well.” The woman said with a smile.
“Thanks Sharon.” Kara said as she walked into Lena’s office. As she walked in Lena had her back to her, talking to someone on the phone. Kara smiled as she watched her, she loved watching Lena work. She loved the way her eyes narrowed when someone was trying to hustle her, or the twinkle of victory when she got what she wanted. She hadn’t told Lena she loved her yet, at least not in that way. They had been dating for two year, still plenty of time to do and say everything. Besides Kara really wanted to be able to take Lena out for a romantic date when she finally told her she was in love with her. They were taking it slow to an entirely new level here. She had told Lena she loved her, but never with the intensity of saying she had fallen in love with her.
That was the only thing about dating Lena that was something of a sore subject. Lena didn’t want anyone to know they were dating, not because she was ashamed…although Kara honestly didn’t have another reason other than that. At first she had been perfectly at ease keeping their private lives private; after all she didn’t go around proclaiming she was Supergirl to everyone. She did wonder what it would be like to go out with Lena just the two of them, out on the town. Having a romantic dinner somewhere, taking a stroll down the beach hand in hand; kissing in the moonlight.
Kara didn’t hear Lena hang up the phone, or her walking over. “Why the long face?” Lena asked sweetly as she took the two drinks and set them down. She pressed a button on her desk and the windows suddenly went dark, blocking them from the outside world. Lena walked back over very slowly and gently ran her finger tips across Kara’s cheek. “Anything I can do to make you smile for me?” Lena asked with the smile she saved for Kara’s eyes alone.
This was the reason Kara didn’t mind not being public with Lena, because she got to see all the sweet things that no one else did. No one else knew that Lena was a secret nerd, the first time she showed Kara her collection of superhero comics and action figures it taken all her will power not to laugh. The high powered CEO of Luthor Corp was a huge Wonder Woman fan. She was also the only one that got to see Lena cry at The Fox and the Hound. She got to see Lena when she was vulnerable and came home from a day at the office and cried in frustration because it was a man’s world and it wasn’t always fair.
She also got to see the romantic Lena that would buy out an entire beach just so they could spend a day in the sun, and possibly have sex on the beach. Or for their one-year anniversary she had planned a week-long trip out of country. They’d been careful to play it off as business, but it had been nothing but a pleasure. Lena was always very attentive to whatever Kara needed, even if it was just cuddles and ice-cream after a really hard day. They were a wonderful couple, and it was those thoughts that always reminded Kara why she wasn’t upset that they weren’t public.
Kara slowly smiled as she placed her hands on Lena’s waist, why was she waiting to tell her how she felt? “Well you could give me a kiss for starters.” Kara said as her smile widened. Lena smirked and raised her eyebrows playfully.
“I mean that was a given.” Lena whispered before pulling Kara down into a heated kiss. Kara held Lena tighter, trying to express her feelings without words, and Lena must have understood as she moved closer and wrapped herself more tightly around Kara. Eventually they pulled apart, Kara smiling happily at the woman in her arms. “There’s that smile I love.” Lena whispered as she stroked the hair at the base of Kara’s head. Kara hesitated for only a second before giving into those words she’d been longing to say for so long.
“Hard not to smile when the woman I love is right here in my arms.” Kara said softly. Lena’s eyes widened before she smiled and leaned her head onto Kara’s shoulder.
“You’ve never said it like that before.” Lena whispered softly as she continued to play with Kara’s hair.
“I kept thinking I needed to wait for the perfect most romantic moment. When you first said it you told me to wait till I felt everything was just right. Well I’ve been waiting a long time and this moment felt right. Sorry I didn’t say it sooner.” Kara said sheepishly. Lena chuckled slightly before giving Kara a quick peck.
“You are always worth the wait Kara.” Lena said with one more peck before pulling away and grabbing her tea and taking a sip. “I was thinking of leaving early, maybe disappearing for the weekend. I mean that’s if I could drag my girlfriend away with me. Been some time since we were last able to get away just the two of us.” Lena said looking at Kara through her lashes, Kara couldn’t resist that look.
She pulled her phone and quickly tapped the picture of her sister. “Hey Alex you think the DEO can handle things this weekend without me? Maybe a little longer? Been a while since I had a chance to relax.” Kara asked watching as Lena drank from her cup.
“Yeah we can handle it. Everything okay?”
“Yeah everything’s fine, just need some time with Lena.” Kara texted, a blush lightly covering her cheeks.
“Got it, don’t want to know. Go have fun we’ve got things under control. Give Lena my love, and tell her to treat you good.”
Kara laughed and nodded even though Alex couldn’t see her. “Can do and thanks sis.” Texted. “I am all yours for at least the weekend, longer if you can swing it.” Kara said and turned to find Lena’s back to her. “Lena?” Kara asked as Lena held up Kara’s cup.
“Who’s Cady?” Lena asked holding the cup up. Kara frowned, why hadn’t she noticed before. Scrolled in a quick hand writing was Cady’s name and a numbed, plus a quick message.
'Call me if you ever decide that you deserve better than being a secret lover'
Kara’s heart stopped for a second, she hadn’t even thought to look at her cup for something like that. “She’s the barista at the coffee shop we like.” Kara said with a smile. Lena nodded, but she looked sad. Kara knew that Lena trusted her, and she also knew that Lena knew she was loyal and would never betray her. This wasn’t the kind of sadness that came with worry, it was more like sadness from regret. “Hey you know I would never…could never do anything to hurt you right?” Kara asked coming up behind Lena and sliding an arm around her waist. Lena nodded and set the cup down.
“It’s not that Kara, I knew you loved me without you saying the words. I’ve never worried about that. It’s just…” Lena turned around to face Kara, face contorted with confusion; an expression she hardly ever wore. “Are you happy? And I don’t mean with me I mean with us being…a secret. I’ve never stopped to think about how you feel about us hiding that we’re together.” Lena asked as she ran her fingers through Kara’s hair.
Kara looked at Lena thoughtfully before responding. “I mean sometimes it bothers me that we can’t just go to the movies or a restaurant without it being some big deal. But then I remember everything that I get to see that no one else does. Like your messy morning hair, or how you are like a million times prettier without makeup. No one else knows that every Thursday night is Star trek night, or that Saturday is bad B-movie dates.” Kara said with a bright smile tugging Lena even closer, touching their foreheads together gently. “I could get hung up on all the things we can’t do, but I would much rather focus on all the things I get that no one else does.” Kara whispered before leaning forward and gently kissing Lena’s nose.
Lena smiled and leaned into the contact, sighing happily as Kara held her. “How did I get so lucky to have you as my girlfriend?” Lena muttered as she buried her face in Kara’s shoulder.
“Well you took me out for ice-cream one night. And then we ended up having drinks and making out on your couch…after that it was pretty simple.” Kara teased. Lena chuckled and moved away slightly smiling at Kara.
“I love you Kara.” Lena said, and then her eyes went wide. “Fuck I forgot I have that dinner on Saturday.” Lena said with a groan.
Kara chuckled and smiled as she pulled away slightly. “So we just leave Sunday, you work tomorrow and some of Saturday and we can have Monday and Tuesday all to ourselves.” Kara said with a wink. Lena leaned back with a smile.
“Someone’s got this all planned, but let me change things slightly. We have all of next week together somewhere where clothing in optional and we never have to leave our room.” Lena husked into Kara’s ear. Kara groaned happily before turning to leave.
“I have to get back to work but I’ll see you tomorrow.” Kara said giving Lena another quick peck. “Love you call me later.” She said with a bright smile before walking out.
Lena watched her go with a sigh before looking at the forgotten cup on her desk. The message bothered her more than she let on. She wasn’t embarrassed of Kara, or that she was gay; but business was so much easier if your competitors didn’t think they could get one up on you. But was keeping her relationship a secret worth it? Women like this Cady girl flirted and made open invitations at the woman she loved most without any kind of regard for commitment. And like Kara she was tired of not being able to take Kara out to her favorite restaurant or to the movies or just hold her fucking hand in public. But trying to be public with Kara could spell the end of her business.
Lena pushed the cup into the trash can angrily. She quickly pressed the intercom button. “Sharon come in here please, I need your help with something.”