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No one knew, how could they? No one knew what was going through Barry’s mind at that moment. In the moment when he decided to make that choice. Only Barry knew because he didn't want anyone else to know. And Barry always gets what he wants, one way or another.
Barry woke up that day dreading it already. It was time for his yearly appointment, to make sure the cancer stayed gone. It was going to be his last appointment, but he had told everyone his last appointment was 3 years ago, he told them the cancer was definitely gone.
“Barry!” Iris shouted from downstairs, without answering Barry slowly made his way down the stairs of the west house and approached iris from behind while listening to her mumble, “ ugh, why is he like this, he's always late, can he do anything right”.
Pretending he didn't hear what he did he responded, “whatcha need” in a kind demeanor.
“What I need is for you actually listen when I tell you something,” Iris said in an aggravated tone.
“What happened, what did I forget this time?” Barry asked suddenly more worried about Iris than his appointment.
“You seriously don’t remember, Ugh- Bye Barry I have somewhere to be”. Iris said quickly leaving out the front door.
Barry hopped on the bus and made his way to the precinct, he had already let captain Singh know he couldn’t make it into work that day, but Barry needed to drop off some files. Walking into the precinct Barry was greeted by none other than Joe West. Expecting a hug Barry joyfully said hi to his foster father, only to receive a punch in the face in return. “What the hell Barry!” Joe shouted in an angry tone.
As confused as he was Barry tried to respond, but before he could Joe stomped off in the other direction. “What the hell did I do this time?” barry questioned himself while holding his hand against his now bleeding nose. Barry swiftly dropped off the file and made his way to STAR Labs to pick up his coat that he left there the other day when spending time with Caitlin and Cisco.
Walking into the lab still slightly cherry, Barry said hi to Caitlin and Cisco only to get entirely cold-shouldered. “Okay is anyone going to tell me what I did?” Barry asked with aggravated undertones in his voice. Still receiving no answer, Barry left STAR labs with just enough time to make it to his appointment.
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The doctor walked back into the room with a sorry look on his face. “I'm sorry to inform you sir, but your Leukemia is back.” Barry's face went flat. “It's much worse than last time, it's at the point where we can't treat it”. The room was left in silence.
Barry spoke to the doctor about donating his body to research asking to extract everything they needed as soon as possible. He saw no point in waiting considering everyone he knew hated him, and he was going to die anyways.
They scheduled the appointment for the next week.
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Barry woke up immediately leaving the west house, right after placing 2 letters on the counter. He made his way to an empty STAR labs, leaving 2 notes in the Cortex.
Only when arriving outside of the office did Barry realize he didn't want to be alone for this, He hesitant pulled out his phone and dialed Iris’s number. She answered coldly, “What do you want Barry”.
“Iris I'm sor-” Barry was cut off
“I don’t want to hear your I'm sorry Barry”
“Iris please, just tell me what I did wrong, please”
“You should know by now Barry”
And so, Barry Allen died alone. Teary-eyed and regretful as he breathed his last breath.
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Iris heard Barry’s light cries as she hung up the phone, she contemplated calling him back and almost did before she stopped herself. “He needs to know what he did was wrong, how could he have forgotten that court day. The trail of the man who successfully killed both Cisco’s brother, and Joe’s partner Detective Shire.” Iris thought to herself. Iris walked over to the precinct to talk to her father, regretting being rude to Barry the entire way. It could have been an honest mistake. Suddenly Iris had a thought, “Barry’s been forgetting quite a lot recently, kind of like in his worst moments of c-- no. No, it's gone.” wiping the very existence of that thought from her mind.
Iris picked up her father and drove home both of them home, the entire way they spoke about what was up with Barry, Iris yelled at her father when she found out he had hit Barry. Walking inside the house Iris could sense something was up. Then she saw two perfectly placed letters sitting on the counter. Upon closer inspection, she saw Barry’s Handwriting all over them. “Oh no,” Iris said looking worryingly at her father as she opened the letter. She fell to the ground crying.