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“Kara, can we talk?” Sitting on their loft’s couch, Lena cautiously asked. She knew that whatever she has to say was really going to hurt Kara and she was dreading the reaction the blonde was going to make. Would Kara snap? Was she going to be really mad? Nevertheless, Lena prepared herself for the worse.
“Yeah, sure, Lee. What’s up?” Kara asked chirpily as she sat beside the brunette on the couch with a wide smile, unaware of what Lena was about to drop on her.
“Kara… I can’t do this anymore.”
The blonde’s smile slowly dropped as she chuckled nervously. “Wha- what are you talking about, Lee?”
This was it. It was now or never. Lena took a deep breath before voicing out what she really had to say. “I want to file a divorce.”
Horror immediately dawned upon Kara’s face as soon as Lena uttered those words and it didn’t take a few more seconds before a tear ran down her cheek. “What? Why all of a sudden, Lee? Is it... is it me? Did I do something wrong? Tell me and I’ll try to make up for it.”
Lena swallowed a lump that was forming on her throat as she slowly shook her head. “No, you didn’t do something wrong.”
“Is there someone else?” Kara asked softly which caused an ache to Lena’s chest. She hates herself for hurting the sweet and innocent blonde but she has to do this for her and for Kara’s sake.
“Kara, no. there’s no one else. It’s- it’s me. I just… I just don’t feel the same anymore.”
“What do you mean by you don’t feel the same, Lee?” Kara’s tears were now falling freely and Lena wanted to wipe them but she can’t. She doesn’t have the right to do it anymore as soon as the first tear fell from the blonde’s eyes.
“I don’t think I’m still happy with our relationship, Kara...” Lena confessed. “I- I don’t think love you in the same way anymore.”
The blonde looked at her incredulously. “W-what?”
“I’m sorry, Kara. I think we’ve moved too fast. Out of impulse… It’s obvious that I still have other high priorities and so do you. We barely see each other anymore. I come home late at night, you’re already asleep. When I wake up in the morning, you’re already gone. What we had before, it… isn’t there anymore.” ‘What a shitty reason for a shitty person.’ She thought but it seems that Kara didn’t really pay any mind to whatever her reason was.
Being a positive thinker that she is, Kara uttered with hope lacing in her voice. “We can work this out. I-I mean, is there another way that we might be able to salvage this relationship? There must be another way.”
Lena shook her head. “Unless one of us gives our job up, I don’t think there is. I can’t just leave L-Corp and I know how much you love your job.”
Kara nods solemnly and let out a shaky sigh. “I figured that much, seeing that your mind has already been set… If that’s what you really want, I won’t force you to stay. I’ll respect your decisions and if setting you free would make you happy, I would gladly let you go for the sake of your happiness even if it costs mine.” Kara then reached out to Lena’s face, swiping a tear. She wasn’t aware that her own tears were already cascading down her cheeks. “But, before you do, can you do me one favor?”
Lena, as an answer, nods silently.
“Can we just wait for a month? Just one month. And within that month, we’ll act as if nothing has changed. We’ll still act as a couple and no one has to know about this. Play pretend if that’s what you want to call it and then after that, we’ll go through the divorce. That’s all.”
“Why?” Lena asked in confusion. “You’re only making this hard for yourself, Kara.”
“Lena, just… please?” Kara pleaded. “One month… to prepare myself. I know it sounds selfish but, that’s all I’m asking.”
Selfish? It wasn’t selfish. It was far from selfish and the brunette understood Kara as to where this was coming from. Figuring that this was the least that Lena could do for her, she agreed to the blonde’s final request. “One month.”
“Thank you.” Kara softly uttered and gave her a warm smile which broke her heart to bits and pieces. Lena was feeling incredibly sorry for the blonde. Kara doesn’t deserve this. She doesn’t deserve Kara. All Kara did was to make her happy and had sacrificed a lot for her even if their situation was like this. Why did she suddenly fell out of love? Was it really because of their respective jobs? Or was it because of the lack of attention? All these questions were swirling in her mind but, all Lena knows was that things weren’t just the same as before.
She wanted to cry so hard but she knows she’s not in the position to shed tears. She was the one hurting the blonde, after all, and she wanted Kara to hate her- to be angry at her. Lena was actually expecting an outburst from her wife- or soon to be ex-wife. It would be pretty much easier for her if Kara was mad at her, but the blonde was showing her nothing of the sort. All Kara was showing her were still kindness, sincerity… and love.