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Chloe and Lucifer had been officially together for a year now.
It took an agonizing four month wait while Lucifer was in hell to finally snap them both to reality and realize they had feelings for each other and may as well act on them. So as soon as the devil was back in LA with all the demons sorted out, he and Chloe were happily together as boyfriend and girlfriend.
Lucifer had been quite worried at first about being a bad boyfriend, after the whole Eve fiasco, but Chloe assured him he was doing just fine. He still put in extra effort, setting up dates and giving meaningful gifts, as well as just helping Chloe out at work with some of the less exciting parts of being a detective, which meant the most to her of all his gestures.
Chloe constantly assured Lucifer that she was okay with his devil form, and even kissed him a few times while he was showing it to prove it. Their trust quickly rebuilt itself over the year and overall things were just great between them both.
Of course the pair had had quite a bit of sex by this point in their relationship, but Lucifer had never had any need to worry about impregnating a woman before as it had never happened with his many other female sexual partners; so he’d just assumed it was impossible.
Which was why he was beyond surprised when on their one year anniversary Lucifer was presented with a gift box, and inside lay a positive pregnancy test.
“Surprise! I’m pregnant!” Chloe beamed while Lucifer just stared with his mouth open in complete shock.
Now they had briefly mentioned about having children before, but Lucifer had kept from her that he didn’t think he could have children so as not to disappoint her. He wasn’t opposed to it, but oh dad above he did not feel ready in the slightest to be a father.
A million emotions flooded through Lucifer as he lifted his gaze to meet Chloe’s teary, happy one and he couldn’t help but beam back despite his fear, “That’s…that’s amazing!” he hugged her tight, his mind whirring with a million thoughts but despite that worry he was really excited.
Chloe hugged back just as tightly, “You can’t tell anyone though, not yet okay?”
Lucifer nodded, “Alright, I won’t.”
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“Linda, Chloe’s pregnant!”
Lucifer announced as he burst into Linda’s office the next day.
Linda looked up from the paperwork she was filling out and stared with wide eyes, “What?! Oh my god that’s amazing! I’m so happy for you both!” She cheered as she got to her feet, rushing over and hugging Lucifer.
Lucifer stiffened but managed to hug back, “Thank you it…it is exciting…”
The doctor let go of him and saw his anxious expression, “I sense a but is coming.”
“But I…” Lucifer sighed and collapsed onto the couch, “Frankly I’m freaking out Linda…I don’t know how to be a father.”
Linda nodded sympathetically, closing the door for privacy and sitting opposite him, “Being nervous about becoming a father is completely normal. I remember Amenadiel was feeling very similarly before little Charlie was born.”
Lucifer shook his head, “But it’s…it’s different Linda. Amenadiel had a supportive father…I didn’t-“
Now his panic made more sense to Linda, it was his famous daddy issues rearing their head again, “I understand, Lucifer. Your father wasn’t there for you when you were young, so you’re afraid of being a bad father to your child too.”
The devil nodded, twiddling his fingers, “It’s stupid because I know I would never be as bad as him but I just…I’m afraid of somehow messing things up.” He sighed again, rubbing his temples, “Messing things up is sort of my specialty.”
Linda stood up and sat down beside Lucifer instead, switching from therapist to friend as she gently rubbed his shoulder, “We’ve been over this before, Lucifer. Everyone makes mistakes, it doesn’t mean that you mess everything up.” She knew that going to hell had made their progress regress a little, but she'd hoped it would have gotten a bit better by now.
“I guess so.” Lucifer managed a small smile, putting his hand on top of Linda’s, feeling a bit better, “I suppose we have you and Amenadiel to help us with the whole parenting a half-angel half-human, thing.”
Linda nodded with a smile, “That’s true. We were the guinea pigs so you can feel a bit better knowing that we survived it, so you certainly can. We will support you as much as we can, but you also have Chloe.” She gave him a meaningful look, “I really think you should talk to her about these worries you’re having. Bottling them up only makes them worse, we’ve been over that before. I’m proud of you for coming to me with them, but Chloe needs to hear them too so you’re on the same page.”
Lucifer gave a nod, sighing a bit, “I know I should…I’m just worried she’ll take it the wrong way and think I’m not happy about the baby…because I really am, I’m just nervous too.”
“Which is completely normal.” Linda squeezed his hand with a reassuring smile, “I’m sure she’ll understand now she knows the extent of your problems with your father, and I don’t doubt she will help you through those worries and you’ll help with hers. I’m sure she’s just as worried as you, even though she isn’t a first time mom it’s still scary.”
As usual, Linda’s words really helped and Lucifer no longer felt so worried, “Thanks Linda.” He gave her a smile back and stood up, “How is Charlie by the way?”
Linda sighed, “Oh he’s great and I love him but apparently angels both teethe and grow their wings at the same time so it’s quite a stressful time in our house right now.”
Lucifer nodded, “Well I’m sure if anyone can handle it, it’s you and my brother.”
“Thanks Lucifer.” She nudged him, “Now stop stalling and go talk to Chloe.”
Lucifer chuckled, “Alright, alright. Thanks again, Linda.” and with that he left.
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“Chloe can I talk to you?” Lucifer asked later in the evening after they had finished at work, and were at Chloe’s house watching a movie; Trixie was with Dan tonight.
Chloe looked over at him, pausing the movie, “Yeah sure. Is everything okay?” she asked, slightly concerned.
Lucifer instinctively went to nod but realized that would be a lie and slowly shook his head, “Not really…But first I just want to make it clear that I am thrilled about this baby-“ he smiled and gently placed a hand on Chloe’s stomach; it was still flat but he could imagine the growing baby inside, “-I really am.”
Chloe looked to his hand and smiled, placing hers on top of his tenderly, “I’m glad.” She gently stroked his hand, “Then what’s the matter?” her smiled faded, replaced with that concerned look again.
“I…” Lucifer sighed, looking away as he gathered the courage to tell her, “I’m just…really anxious about it.” He began, “I’ve never been a father and never expected to be and…well you know my dad isn’t exactly father of the year, so I don’t really have anyone to aspire to be like. I don’t even know what being a father takes, and I’ll probably mess up-“ he rambled in that way he did when he was nervous.
“Lucifer.” Chloe interrupted Lucifer’s panicked rambling, taking his hand in hers and squeezing it gently, “Take a breath.”
He obeyed, pausing and taking a deep breath, “Sorry…I got a little carried away.”
“That’s okay.” Chloe’s other hand reached up and gently pushed Lucifer’s hair back from his forehead in a soothing way that she knew he liked, “I understand, this is scary for both of us but especially for you as a first time father. And of course your experiences with your dad weren’t great, but instead of that making you worried about messing up use it to encourage you to be the best father you can be. Show him that you can be the better father.” She knew that catering to Lucifer’s prideful and competitive side would help reassure him.
And it did, Lucifer’s tense shoulders relaxed and his breaths became more even as his dark eyes met her light ones. A smile appeared on his face as he squeezed her hand back, “You always know what to say, Chlo.”
Chloe smiled warmly back, “You’ll be a fantastic father, I just know it.”
Then she leant forward and pressed her lips to his in a loving kiss, melting away all of his remaining worries in an instant.
Lucifer eagerly kissed back, his heart swelling with adoration for Chloe and their unborn child.
Maybe he could do this.