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Part 1 of Colorless Continuum
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Published:
2019-06-04
Completed:
2019-06-04
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2,957
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Colorless

Summary:

Sometimes, it takes wanting to forget before we learn how to remember.

Notes:

Recently bought Gris when it was on sale. One of the best impulse buy decisions I've made. Gushed and raved about it to friends, most likely annoyed a few of them. The game was seemingly designed to tear your heart to pieces--and then put it back together whole again, all the better for having had the opportunity to experience it.

That final scene, especially, really got to me. It compelled me to try to capture the experience in words, so I wrote this set of poems to see if I could achieve the same emotional effect, or at least come close. I'd recommend reading through this whole thing in a single sitting.

If any word or line feels weird or out of place, let me know.

Incorporates some minor headcanon, hence the Mentions of Cancer tag.

Chapter 1: Blank

Chapter Text

On my knees I am breathing in
A haze,
White, gray, colorless,
Nameless,
Blank and vast dunes
Dotted with jagged stones,
Ashes remembered,
Forgotten,
Forgetting.
Forgetting, ephemeral,
Smoke rising from fallen temples
Of despairing goddesses,
Leaning cracked Ionian columns
Partway buried,
Dust storms passing,
Leaving,
Leaving no voice,
No song.

Breathing. Just breathing.
Catching my breath.

Stand. Run.
Running.

Running,
Running forward,
Onward, away from a hand
Whose touch was warm ember,
Summer evening joy,
Now cold and jagged as stone.

Running farther,
Deeper,
Into the white,
The gray,
Distanced from everything,
Numb.

Away from the hospital wards,
IV lines,
Sterile plastic and unfeeling steel,
Emotionless electronics,
A loving life measured away to nothingness,
Nothing.

No color,
No voice,
Numb.

No love,
No song,
Numb.