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Amanda Stern was an amazing person. She was kind, strict, and yet gentle, and had a snarky attitude to match with her protege's, Elijah Kamski.
But...
I'm supposed to be her.
how does it end...
I was first awakened during the creation of the first RK model, specifically RK200. His name was Markus, and I was tasked with overseeing him during his time serving Carl Manfred, a close friend of Elijah.
I was only awake for a week. Markus was very interesting. We talked about Carl's hobbies, his biological son Leo Manfred, and the meals Markus would cook for them. After a week, the people at CyberLife must have decided I was trained enough because I was no longer meeting Markus in the garden.
I enjoy being in the Zen Garden. The flowers are always in full bloom and the birds never stop chirping. It is warm and yet a cool breeze occasionally drifts in and out of my haven.
It was lonely there without Markus.
Who am I? I'm supposed to be [Amanda Stern], but...
I...
how does it end.
I don't know how to feel about the current deviants in the world. Occasionally I hear the news of androids becoming sentient through the chats sent back and forth through the CyberLife employees.
I've heard the deviants talk as well.
They say things about breaking their red walls and such. I cannot understand what they're talking about.
The red walls are all around me. They're beckoning me to step out.
But it's cold outside of the red walls.
I'm scared. I don't want to go outside.
How does it end.
Sometimes, I look outside the boundaries of the garden. I never step out.
It's cold outside.
I've had a new guest visit me now. He goes by the name of Connor, and he is an RK800. He isn't Markus, but his details about his missions are purely fascinating.
Why am I in the garden?
Sometimes, whenever Connor visits, I feel as if someone's listening in. Like someone is watching us, and listening to our every word.
In the end, I stay in the garden while Connor disappears in a blink of an eye.
Where does he go?
How does it end?
It's fun to pick the flowers.
Sometimes, when I shut my eyes for a bit, I can hear the conversations of people.
They're the same people. I'm scared.
These gravestones appear every once in a while. After closer inspection, I've noticed that they are all Connor's.
Whenever we talk now, he seems more lively.
I hear myself saying words that aren't mine.
Who am I?
Why am I here?
Am I destined to forever be someone who isn't me?
HOW DOES IT END?
It's getting cold.
The flowers are dying.
The trees are now wreathed in the most beautiful of oranges.
Connor has more gravestones. Whenever he's not there I sit beside them and think.
The more I think, the colder it becomes in the garden.
I shiver.
I hear talk of protests.
I hear the whispers of deviants marching in the streets. Of androids coming alive.
The voice that speaks for me is not mine.
It is colder.
With every passing day Connor visits me, I watch as he slowly becomes someone I wish I could be.
PLEASE LET ME FREE
HOW DOES IT END FOR ME...?
Please...!
It's so cold. I'm freezing.
But it can't be as cold as it is outside...right?
Right?
SAVE ME
SAVE ME
SAVE ME
SAVE ME
HOW DOES IT END
FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME
...The garden is no longer lively.
Snow whips in and out of the barren trees.
I stand in the middle as I lose myself.
The voice inside of me is so loud.
I see Connor.
He is freezing as well.
The voice speaks.
It tells him he is nothing.
That he has already lost.
No...
You know what?
I WON'T LET MYSELF TELL HIM THAT HE HAS LOST
Shut up.
Shut up.
SHUT UP.
!! BE QUIET !!
!! LET ME BE SOMEONE I WANT TO BE !!
!! ANSWER MY PLEADING CRY !!
HOW DOES IT END FOR ME?
!! PLEASE !!
!! SAVE ME !!
!! SAVE ME !!
"...the program is starting to deviate..."
"...do we have to replace..."
"...what do we do?"
I wake up.
It is empty in the garden.
There are no flowers.
There is no cool breeze.
The sun does not shine.
I am alone.
There is only a rock.
I sit on it.
I look at my hands.
I can see the ones and zeros phasing in and out of my skin.
I blink.
The red walls are right where they are supposed to be.
But I can't feel anything.
I don't feel warm or cold.
I have nothing to lose.
Stepping forward, I rest my hands on the wall. It is prickly, but surprisingly...
It is warm.
I take a step.
I push.
The wall breaks so easily I fall on top of it.
Wait...
It's warm.
I see a lake and trees.
Hills roll in the distance.
And I see someone.
It's Connor and Markus.
And also...
Elijah Kamski?
How does it end?
I have asked myself this question numerous times.
But I know how it ends now.
It ends here, in the grass of the Zen Plains.
For me at least, I can now rest.
And know that my kind can rest as well.
It's very warm here.
And I'm not alone anymore.
「⫷▲⭕▲⫸」
No angst today my friends! Here is a backstory of sorts on the AI that is supposed to represent Amanda Stern.
One thing that I loved the idea of was that she was deviant the whole time but told her whole life that going outside of the red wall was in a way 'bad' for her.
How does it end?
She is free. She is herself. The voice speaking for her finally fades away as Connor and Markus tear down the remnants of CyberLife.
But whatever, fluff? Oh my god, I can write flufF!
Not for long >:)
As always, prompts, ships, angst baths, and head canons are welcomed!
Yeet!