Chapter Text
It all started to fall apart the day izuku got shot
He went on patrols regularly at his work study
Usually accompanied by a hero or two
But even that couldnt stop the fate that fell upon izuku
The route they were on that day was ambushed and they were thrown into chaos quickly
Yeah he was shot
He was fine
But that fact that he scared everyone including Yagi is what was his undoing
After the pain of being shot faded away and he lay in the hospital a little dazed he knew he would be fine it was just another injury that came with being a hero
But Toshinori was panicked this time around and when he visited izuku he ranted about how he was worried sick and izuku was slightly confused
Why was he so unraveled by this?, izukus been through worse
And by voicing this he set him off on another rant
"This is getting worse Young Midoriya you cant just keep getting hurt"
Izuku kept silent and listened to him rant about he should take better care of himself
When he stopped and raked his fingers through his hair, izuku tried to apologize
"Im so-"
Toshinori cut him off abruptly
"I know your sorry but sorry isnt going to revive you if you die Izuku!!"
"You have to think before you jump into things"
"I kno-"
"No you don't!"
He sighed heavily before continuing "Young Midoriya, you need to think"
"What is going to happen to One for All if you die Izuku?!"
Shutting up Izuku looked down as he stared at him with burning blue eyes while he began to pace across the hospital room
He walked out of the room immediately after, leaving izuku alone with his thoughts
He knew that All might was getting a little stressed with how much izuku got hurt on a weekly basis
Izuku swear he didnt mean to but nobody seemed to really care only blaming his "self sacrificing" streak and telling him to be more careful before basically throwing him into the same exact situation a few days later
Aizawa seemed to be paying more attention to others of the class and only ever seemed to acknowledge Izuku when he was telling him off
Which did absolute wonders for his self esteem
Izuku shook his head when those thoughts surfaced, stop he needed to stay positive and now he made his eyes burn with the threat of tears
When Toshinori came back he was quiet and studied izuku for the longest time
Izuku closed his eyes and let out a tired sigh, trying to let the burn in his eyes die down
He heard All might shuffle a bit in the chair next to the bed
"Izuku..."
Kepping his eyes closed izuku hummed back
"I think you need a break..."
Eyes still closed he frowned and was about to argue when All might continued
"A break from One for All"
Words dying in his throat he opened his eyes and stared at All might whi was looking at his hands clasped in front of him
"Wha-"
All might frowned and tensed his jaw
"You keep getting hurt Izuku"
"One of these days you could sustain irreversible damage"
His eyes narrowed in thought and he looked up at Izuku, his eyes burning a hole in izuku
"But-"
Once again he was cut off
"No, You will take a break"
Izuku stared at him before quickly asking "For how long?"
The other closed his eyes and let out a long quiet breath
"Indefinitely"
"Wait what?"
His gaze leveled to izukus as he leaned forward and opened his eyes again
"Youre done Izuku"
Izuku felt the burn in his eyes again and his chest tightened with a twinge of pain
"B-but.."
He couldnt say anything because his mind wqs trying to catch up and make sense of what all might was saying
"But you said-"
"What i said was before I knew of your self sacrificing streak"
And oh it burned
Izuku felt like someone was stabbing his chest with a hot knife
"If i let you continue you are going to die"
"So i am dismissing you Izuku for your own safety"
"But what about a succesor?"
"I will be fine"
Distraught izuku nearly yelled
"You said you wouldnt do this!"
All might seemed to get agitated
"Im doing this for your own good Izuku"
"You promised!" The burn in his eyes came back with a vengeance
"Young Midoriya-"
"You said I was perfect as your successor, what happened to that!?"
He stayed silent
"Am I not good enough-"
All might stood up and looked coldly at izuku
"Enough Midoriya"
He held out his hand and motioned towards Izuku
"Now give it to me"
Izuku stared at him
This couldnt be happening
This was all a nightmare
Right?
right?...
"Now Midoriya"
With shaky hands Izuku grasped one of his strands of hair and gently pulled it away before holding it over All mights hand
The world felt like it was caving in
Suffocating him
Izuku let go
The strand landed softly in all mights hand and he took a deep breath before downing it
Izuku stared at his scarred hands on the bed feeling strangely detached
A few minutes passed
The warm hand of all might was on his shoulder now
"My boy..."
Izuku stayed quiet and unmoving
"Im Sorry"
Izuku was brought back to that day so long ago
"Mama can i be a hero?"
"Oh Izuku"
"Im sorry"
Im sorry
Im sorry
The phrase echoed in his mind
Everyone only apologizes
But they never encourage
With a small jolt izuku realized
He was back to that little boy again
Wishing for something with no way to get it
Quirkless
Useless
...
Fucking Worthless
All might left a few minutes later after apologizing to Izuku
Izuku was stuck
He felt so cold
He felt angry
But most of all
He felt sad
A blanket of feelings smothered him
Making it hard to breathe
He sat there for what felt like forever
Before laying down and falling into a dreamless sleep